Dfanatic's Hell House

Gossip Girl's 100th Episode

2012-01-30T21:48:00.001-08:00

100 episodes and still going strong in my opinion. I loved this episode very much. I read some things from other fans and some are mad and hated the episode and I loved it. Sure Blair married Louis, but that made it all the better. You thought that the wedding was stopped and Blair went and married him anyway. If she hadn't, then I would have been disappointed. I love Chuck and Blair together, but if they got together now, then what would happen later. The show would get boring. I always want to be wanting them to be together. That's what keeps me watching the show. It's a drama. I think some people tend to forget that. It's also called Gossip Girl. If the characters did nothing to gossip about, then you couldn't call it Gossip Girl anymore. It would be boring. I never expect any characters that love each other to stay together on any show. Some do and others don't. The ones that do are usually older couples. I guess the producers of some of these shows don't realize that young people can find the person they love when they're younger and actually stay with just that person.
I loved Georgina and finding out she is Gossip Girl. Michelle Trachtenberg is awesome and I've always loved her on the show. It's always fun when she shows up. I especially loved her when she found Jesus. All of that just killed me and I laughed so hard. Kristen Bell does the voice of Gossip Girl and I'm so glad that she does. I love her voice.
It's funny when I read about how fans hate the show and the other shows I watch because of the writing. They say the writing sucks, but they love the show. How can you love a show when you think the writing sucks? Obviously some people really love a show for other reasons besides if the writing is good or not. I think they bitch about the writing and hope that the show will be written how they want it. I doubt it will ever happen, but they can keep bitching. If the writing of any show of mine starts to suck, then who cares. I watch some of my shows for different reasons. It's what I get out of them that matters. Whether it's a good cry, a good laugh or I get inspired by them. If I don't like a show anymore, then I stop watching it and move on.
Once Upon A Time is really growing on me and I love it. I can't wait to see the next episode every week. All my shows are new right now and I love them all. Sure sometimes some episodes are better than others, like Supernatural right now. Hopefully good episodes are coming up and if not then I have all my other shows to watch.

Do I Still Love Supernatural?

2012-01-24T21:10:00.001-08:00

Of course I still love Supernatural and I always will. I'll especially love the first three seasons because those were my favorites. It really hasn't been the same since season 4 started. I personally don't feel like Sam and Dean act like brothers and I don't think Dean treats Sam like a brother anymore. I watched "Simon Said" and I loved how Dean put his hand on Sam's arm and was being protective of him when they were talking to Ellen and Sam was telling her about his visions. I don't see Dean being that way now. He treats Sam like he's some freak or monster and is waiting until the day he'll have to kill him or something. I hate that. It's just the way Dean looks at Sam with disgust at times as well.
I love how after Sam killed Lilith and broke the final seal, Dean acted like Sam is the one that brought the Apocalypse on all by himself. Like Dean never was weak and broke in hell and broke the first seal and had any part in it. Castiel told Dean that he was the only one that could stop the apocalypse and he didn't lie about it. It was all on Dean and he failed not because he didn't stop Sam from drinking demon blood and killing Lilith, but because he had no faith in himself or in Sam. He gave up and didn't care about anything. Then in season 5, it was like he gave up again on himself, God and Sam and was going to give himself to Michael. He didn't give a crap about how Sam was feeling or what he was going through. Dean only gave a crap about himself and he thought he was the only one that could do everything. He wasn't arrogant or self righteous, but Sam was when he thought he was the only one that could stop Lilith and kill her. Sam wasn't wrong about that. He was the only one that could kill her.
Then you have the sixth season that takes place after Sam jumped into Hell to save the world and Dean going to play house with Lisa and Ben. Dean finds out Sam has no soul and it's still in Hell and what is he more worried about. That his brother's soul is suffering horribly or that his soulless body is going around hunting and maybe killing innocents in the process, but probably saving more people in the long run. Dean just was worried about soulless Sam killing people and that's all he cared about and wanted to stop. He never stopped to think how Sam would feel or what would happen to him once he got his soul back. Dean just wanted his brother back to give him some self worth again or to not be along or whatever. He never gave a thought about Sam possibly suffering any effects of what happened to him. He was probably counting on good old Castiel to be there if that wall fell and fix Sam so he was new again. Like Castiel could really do that. Then Castiel goes and tears that wall down and I bet Dean cares more about losing Castiel than he does about what's happening to Sam. You could tell at the beginning of the season that Dean was sad about good old Cas.

Now onto to season 7 and Dean is just worried about Sam going psycho and killing people. He's not worried about what Sam is going through because if he was, he'd know that Sam is not okay and hasn't been since that wall came down in his mind. You'd think Dean would be more worried or care about that. Like that would be his driving force and what made him get back into hunting again long before what happened with Bobby. Dean should be super angry at Castiel for what he did to Sam or allowed to happen to Sam.

I really enjoyed the first couple of episodes of season 7 and then it started going downhill after the sixth episode. I loved the wedding episode because at least we got to see Sam in the story and it was funny. The other episodes have been so so. A lot of the episodes to me have been just rehashed stories or goofy episodes to showcase Dean and how great he is. I want to believe that we'll finally get some Sam focus and storyline, but I just don't. I remember all the other seasons and wishing and hoping for the same thing only to get disappointed time after time after time. I'm getting tired of waiting for something that will never happen. I want to believe Jared and believe what he said about what's coming up for Sam, but then I think why would the writers allow him to tell what he did. Probably because that's not all that's going to happen. I'm sure the last episodes of the season will be all about poor Dean and his big secret and his problems and guilt or who cares. I sure don't. I'm tired of watching The Dean Show. If there is a season 8, then I hope the show either goes back to being about both Sam and Dean and focusing on both of them. Or, it can be all The Dean Show and I just won't watch it anymore. Jared can take all the time off he wants to spend with Gen and his new baby and I'll be very happy for them. I'm just not going to keep watching a show that only focuses on one of the leads and not the other. When I started watching Supernatural, I loved it because I knew my favorite character Sam would have plenty of story and the show would just be about him and Dean. The first three seasons were like this. You had stories and good stuff for both of them. Then in season 4 it was all about Dean and more Dean. And Castiel. Then season 5, it was about Dean, Castiel and Bobby. Season 6, Dean, Castiel and Bobby. Season 7, more Dean, Castiel and Bobby. So what the hell happened to Sam. It's like his character is just a piece of crap to those three and all the other guest stars that appear on the show. The show now is more about Dean and the guest stars, than Dean and Sam.

I was going to start posting more on that new board and I doubt I'm going to be going on there very much at all. It's just like the old board. Fights over bullshit. Sniveling over fictional characters that are not real. Goofy crap. I'd love to debate about some stuff on the show, but it's not possible to. Dean fans can say whatever they want to because you know what, they always get what they want and that's Dean front and center always on Supernatural. I hate to say this, but I'm going to anyway and I hope it changes when the show comes back on. Supernatural is no longer must see TV for me. I think I have to watch old episodes just to keep loving and watching the new episodes. I still watch every new episode when it airs, but lately I haven't really cared whether I miss it or not. I haven't missed any of the new episodes yet, but if it keeps going on the way it has, I probably will and I won't care. I'm still looking forward to going to the Burbank Con because I love all the stars and I love what they've brought to Supernatural. All the stars have great personalities and they make the Con so fun and I love to listen to them talk on stage.

Maybe I also need to stop listening to other fans and how they feel about the show. I think sometimes just knowing what they think and feel makes me not want to watch my favorite show anymore. I think during season 4, I almost stopped watching mainly because of what other fans were saying about the show and Sam. How horrible he was to poor Dean? How stupid he was not to listen to Dean and the angels? How stupid he was to sleep with Ruby and drink demon blood and kill demons and save Dean? How stupid he was to try and stop the apocalypse and the seals from breaking? How great and wonderful Dean was because he was going to save the world, even though he helped to start the apocalypse. Like Dean was the big hero and Sam the big villian of the show. Now it's like that again in season 7.
I think I need to stop reading spoilers, stop listening to other goofy fans opinions and stop reading about what could happen on the show. Spoilers are around to get you excited for the show and sometimes all they do is make me not want to watch at all.

Okay, I think I'm done for now.

I Hate Waiting

2012-01-21T16:25:00.000-08:00

I hate all this waiting. Two more weeks to The Woman In Black. I haven't been excited for a movie to come out in a long time. I just can't wait to see Daniel Radcliffe in a different movie. I love him as Harry Potter, but I know he has so much more potential and he's a great actor. I love horror movies as well and it's been a long time since I've seen a good one. The Woman In Black looks really good and I hope that I'm going to love it. I'm going to either take off work on the 3rd or go see it after work. I doubt I'll miss Supernatural because I should be home before it comes on. Why does all the good stuff have to be all on one day? Supernatural looks good, but if I happen to miss it for some reason, I can watch it online later. I just hope there is going to be some good twist to it and not more poor Dean crap. I'm really not looking forward to this episode as much as I'm looking forward to the one after it.

I've thought up so much I want to write about, but now I've forgotten it all. I think about stuff while I'm working and then when I get home or on the weekends, my mind goes blank and I can't think what I was going to write. Oh well, does it really matter. I wish I had an iPhone or something and then I could write it down at work.
Life has been going okay lately, except part of my tooth just broke off and I'll have to go to the dentist to get it fixed. I really don't have the money right now. I have to have money for the L.A. Con and now I'll probably need a cap and possibly a root canal. I just started back to work and I have to wait for my first paycheck which is not very much. Hopefully, I won't be released anytime soon. There's not a lot of work, but hopefully more comes in soon. I hope I get something back in taxes because otherwise I'll be broke for a long time.

I haven't had very much time to go on message boards, Twitter or anything else because I've been working during the week and I'm gone for almost twelve hours a day. I'd rather play on Facebook first with my little Sammy and Co and all the other stuff I play. And how many of my shows are new right now and I watch them. I'm still waiting for Ringer to come back on. I've been watching The Biggest Loser because there is nothing else on and I'm probably gaining weight watching it. I eat like a pig or something watching all those people exercising, crying and trying to lose a pound or two and then seeing who gets booted off. Celebrity Apprentice will be starting soon and I can't wait for it. It should be good. It's one of the only reality shows that I really love to watch.

I watched Once Upon A Time and it's pretty good. It's not must see TV yet for me, but it could happen. I really liked the Hansel and Gretel episode. I usually don't watch any of the big networks. I watch a few things, like Celebrity Apprentice and America's Got Talent but other than that, I hardly watch those networks. I don't like them because they've cancelled so many good shows that I loved in the past and I don't trust them anymore. At least CW keeps some shows around for a while, even when their ratings aren't great. Those other networks have cancelled shows for strange reasons that haven't even involved their ratings. I'm glad my favorite shows were never on them or they would have been cancelled long ago. I used to love all those networks when I was a kid and now I don't. Maybe I loved them because they were the only ones on TV back then, now there are a ton of other networks with a ton of shows and choices.

I'm sure I had more to post about, but I can't think of it right now.

Time After Time After Time

2012-01-14T13:55:00.000-08:00

I thought Time After Time After Time was a good episode, but it was just like Frontierland. It seems like the writers of Supernatural can't think up anything new and are just going with stuff that worked on previous episodes and putting new twists on them. I didn't even laugh during this episode and that's pretty sad. I thought everything that happened has already happened before. Like with Dean in the past. He was excited to wear the clothes. Same old same old, just like in Frontierland. Frontierland was cuter and more funny as far as I was concerned. It worked better and I loved it more because it was both Sam and Dean in the past. That older woman was just like the whore in Frontierland, but she actually got to kiss Dean. What I loved most about the episode was finally seeing Sam interact with someone other than Dean for a change? I love Jodie Mills and I hope we see her again.
I want to be more optimistic where Sam is concerned, but it's getting very hard. I want to believe that he'll finally get some screentime and a story, but I'm getting tired of waiting around for it. It seems like Sam's whole story is offscreen and unimportant to the writers. Maybe they think all the fans just want to see Dean all the time. I'm tired of Dean's same old storyline for the last 3 seasons. He's guilty, he's tired, he's watched how many people he loved die. Snivel, snivel and snivel. He's not the only one. I think Sam is right there with him and it seems like most of the time, Dean only cares about himself and how he feels and could care less about Sam.
I got really excited about reading some spoilers and the stuff Jared was saying that was coming up for Sam and then I thought about it and is it going to be like it was at the beginning of the season. I was all excited and couldn't wait to see Sam dealing with his hell memories and all that stuff and what did we get, pratically nothing. Two episodes that had how much and then it was back to poor Dean and his tired old storyline. I call Supernatural the Dean Show for a reason. It's seems like the whole show revolves mainly around Dean and about Dean. Sam is just there to help and support Dean and nothing else. I'd actually rather see Soulless Sam again because he at least got to have a personality. It seems like Sam is just there and we still don't know very much about him. I guess it's because he's so deep and all that, but I'm tired of waiting around. We know everything there is to know about Dean. His favorite song, his favorite this that and the other. Sam is just there and that's about it. Hell, he can't even be smart about anything anymore. Now Dean knows computer crap and everything else, so what does he need Sam around for. It's like Sam is some big dumb moose that just follows Dean around and does his bidding all the time.
I think the ratings have gone down because Sam and Jared fans are tired of waiting around for any storyline for Sam. At least Jared got to shine when he played soulless Sam and that was some of his best acting ever. He gets his soul back and we don't get to see his emotions. What was the point of him getting his soul back? So Dean would feel better and because Dean was worried he'd kill people. Obviously, Dean doesn't care if people live or die anymore. It seems like he was only hunting to save the people he loved and cared about and not everyone that he could.

I voted how many times for Supernatural to win the People's Choice Awards and then I watched the show and got crapped on because CBS didn't even bother to show or mention who won the best drama on the air. CBS just wanted to promote their crappy shows. I can't believe all the crap they had on instead of announcing how many of the awards. It was supposed to be an award show and not some show to promote their crap. I wanted to see awards presented and not all the other crap they had on. I read that Jared and Jensen were invited but didn't go because they would not have shown them receiving their award on TV. There would have been no point to them going. I'm glad Nina won for Vampire Diaries. I liked that Ellen won as well. Otherwise that awards show was an utter waste of time. I should have looked more on the Internet and I would have known they weren't going to be on and I could have gone to bed earlier.

Now on to work. I knew there was hardly anything coming in at my work. We already got a release notice and I could be released next week. I hope that doesn't happen because I need the money for the Convention. My unemployment is way less than it was last year. I guess I've just started to accept stuff. I accept being treated like crap at work. I accept that Sam will never be a valid character on Supernatural again. I accept all the crap thrown at me because that's the way the world works. You either accept the crap and live with it or you don't. I can snivel about everything, but what good will it do. None.

Twitter, Facebook and Back To Work

2012-01-08T15:46:00.001-08:00

I'm having fun on Twitter and Facebook, but I have to go back to work tomorrow. I've been trying to figure out the whole twitter thing. Is it important to retweet someone? Do they like for you to retweet them? Do they like you to mention them or not? Stuff like that. I mainly just go on and say whatever I feel like. I don't talk to a lot of people on there because I haven't figured a lot of stuff out. It's hard to cram what you want to say into as few words as possible. I sometimes hit my limit and it says I need to be more clever. I try to be. Oh well! I just love to follow people and mainly see what they're tweeting. I love to see what some of the stars are tweeting about. I sometimes laugh my ass off at some of those tweets. It kills me.
Facebook is my favorite place to be on the Internet. Sure, I don't connect with a lot of people on there, but I love to play the games and that's how I connect with them. I love helping others get stuff for the games they are playing and picking up stuff I need. My little Sammy is my favorite. I started playing Pet Society right away and it's still my favorite. I love how a certain woman on my account says she's playing a silly game with her daughter about Pet Society. I think she loves Pet Society and she plays on her daughter's account. Her daughter probably never plays.
I'm how old and I don't feel guilty for playing Pet Society or any other game. I can play whatever I want to. They're all games, so I doubt one is more for older people than another. Some people think certain games are for kids only. I don't. I don't consider Pet Society as a game, though. It's just fun to visit my Sammy and have fun with him. I don't care what level I'm on or anything like that.
I wonder what's going to be going on when I go back to work. I hope there is work there and it's not like last year. Last year there was hardly any work and I don't know why I was called back so early. The year before, I wasn't called back until Feb. They keep telling us that our work is going down all the time, but keep calling me back when there's hardly any work to do. It doesn't make any sense at all. Who knows what will happen? I just hope it's not crazy crap.

Supernatural Made Me Very Happy

2012-01-06T22:07:00.000-08:00

I loved Supernatural tonight and I thought it was very well written and I just loved everything about it. Sure, I wouldn't have minded seeing some more Sammy, but overall the episode was very entertaining. I actually started to love and feel for Dean again and I haven't for a long time. I'm sad about Bobby dying, but I hope he's really dead and if he does come back, it's either in a memory or something like that. No character ever really dies on Supernatural. Gramps came back from the dead, so Bobby could as well. The thing is, Gramps wasn't very nice and maybe if Bobby came back from the dead, he wouldn't be the same. I wouldn't want to see that. What's dead should stay dead?
I don't think Sam is okay or I'm hoping that he's not. He just hasn't acted like himself for quite a while now. I know that he'd be telling Dean things that he needs to hear, whether he'd want to hear them or not and he's not saying much to Dean and that's what makes me think he's really not doing so well.
I know some Sam fans are not going to like the episode because there wasn't enough Sam in it. I'm a Sam fan and I was satisfied with what I got of Sam. Sure, there was a whole lot more focus on Dean and his emotions and everything, but when isn't it like that. I've gotten used to it. I actually loved seeing Dean maybe hearing some things he needed to hear from other people. Like he's not the only one that has lost people he loves.
I loved those scenes between him and Krissy. It was nice to see a younger girl hunter. You know they are out there. I think Dean saw a lot of Sam in that Krissy girl. I still think Dean wishes that things could be different for Sam. I think Dean feels like he failed Sam and maybe that's what's wrong with him right now. He's guilty about it. And he probably feels like he failed Sam all along. Dean knew that Sam wanted a normal and safe life and he probably still feels guilty because he had pulled Sam back into that life and Dean didn't want to be alone hunting and wanted Sam with him.
I also totally enjoyed Sam being tied up and bleeding. I never get tired of that. I loved how he antagonized that creature,( I can't remember what it was called)to bite him instead of Krissy's father. That shows you that Sam is always putting others before himself. He'd die to save someone else. He knew that one more bite and Krissy's dad was dead. He only got bitten once, so he knew he wouldn't die.

It would be really interesting if the writers did something I've wished for. I've thought about this and I'd love it. What if everything that has happened so far from the end of Hello Cruel World on, has all been happening in Sam's head? Maybe he's in the hospital or the panic room and everything is taking place in his mind. What if he's trapped inside himself and can't get out? Now that would be a really good twist. I doubt it will happen, but if it did, I'd totally love it. Bobby wouldn't be dead for one thing. Just thinking about some of the things Lucifer told to Sam in the first two episodes makes me think certain things.

I'm happy though and I loved Adventures In Babysitting. I'm going back to work on Monday and I was mad and depressed about it and now I'm okay.

What Bullshit?

2012-01-02T21:51:00.000-08:00

I need somewhere to vent and I decided to do it on my blog and I don't care anymore.
I ride the UTA and I'm getting tired of less and less service from them. It started about how many years ago and it's getting worse and worse. I used to ride the bus to work everyday and it was great. The bus only took about 20 minutes to get me to my work and the same coming home. Now I have to ride for 50 minutes in the morning and after work for 1 hour and 1/2 home and use two buses instead of one. That's a waste of how much time. The UTA used to claim they were saving people time and money. They may save some people money, but now they just waste people's time. I used to have three buses that took me to one of our malls and now you ride one bus to a train station, wait for 30 to 50 minutes to ride another one to the mall or the area around the mall. I usually just ride the one bus and walk the rest of the way because it saves me time and I get there quicker than waiting for a bus that may not come.
Now UTA is having less and less service around the holidays. I wonder if the drivers don't want more time off and were complaining about it and they gave them the time. It does not make sense to me that they would not be running on a day when college classes started back up and a Jazz game was tonight. The person who was tweeting said that they decided to not have buses running because it was a low ridership day. Yeah, I hope they tell that to all the people who were waiting to take the train to the Jazz game. Or to the college kids who have no other way to go to school except the bus or trax. Maybe they can tell that to all the people who work jobs that needed to work today because they don't work for the state or federal government.
Twice now, I've had to worry about not getting to work because the bus that takes me to my building doesn't run on certain days. Like the 24th of July, our state holiday which I do not get off. I have to tell my boss and then she doesn't believe me and thinks I should drive my non-existent car to work instead. Like it's my fault that I can't make it to work. When they have days with limited service, it's really limited. I work at 6 in the morning and on those days the bus doesn't start going until after 7. I'd be how late to work because I'd have to take the bus and then walk how many miles the rest of the way. I don't know anyone at work that even works the same shift I do and I should not have to beg them for rides when I should be able to count on public transportation.
I don't know why this made me so angry. I guess because I ride the bus and who knows what they'll do next. Will I even be able to ride the bus to work or even work the job I currently have if they do cut even more service. I used to ride the bus to the library and now I just walk there because it's pointless to take the bus because I still have to walk how far to get there. I guess walking is good for me, but not in the crappy polluted air I have to breathe. I love how the news people tell about riding public transportation to cut the pollution. How can you ride, when they don't run?
I just remember in the past when I rode the bus and I could always count on it and now I can't anymore. It sucks. It's all about employee satisfaction and not customer service everywhere anymore. The people who ride the bus are customers and UTA could care less what their needs are and why they even ride the bus. Maybe they think people ride for the fun of it and not because they need to.
I'm done now and I hope I have this out of my system.

Out With The Old Year And In With The New Year Of 2012

2011-12-31T23:27:00.000-08:00

2011 is over and during the past year I had many ups and downs. One of the saddest moments of the year was when my little Mully died and I found her dead in her litter box. I still think of her and I spent many new years with her and I'm very grateful for that. I'm happy that I now have my beautiful Bela and I've almost had her for a year now.
I was depressed quite a few times, but not for long. There were a lot of good things that happened. I went to The Supernatural Convention, my niece's wedding, I got to see my two nephews and spend time with them and I reconnected with some people that I love and really missed a whole lot.
The start of 2011 was kind of rocky, but the end was great and I was very happy.

I'm hoping that in 2012 I'll be able to have more fun and experience some new things. Every year is another opportunity to make your life either better or worse. Mostly it's up to everyone for what kind of year they will have. Sure there are a lot of unexpected things that come up, but that's life. People die, get sick, move away and all kinds of other things, but that is what life is all about. No one will ever have a perfect and wonderful year without some kind of sadness or obstacle to overcome. You just have to hope and try to make every year a great year in any way that you can.

I hope and pray that everyone has a Happy New Year all across the world. I never make New Year resolutions and I'm not going to start now. I'm just going to try and make 2012 one of the best years yet.

Some Old Pic Of Me And New Message Board

2011-12-29T22:15:00.000-08:00

I was looking through some old pictures and I decided to take some pictures of my old pictures to put on my blog. I love the pic of me when I was a little girl and I had on my Battlestar Galatica shirt. I used to have two of them. The one I'm wearing in the pic and one with Dirk Benedict as Starbuck. I remember when Dirk Benedict was my honey and I loved him and dreamt about him. I still have one of my old trading cards of Starbuck. I remember it was my most treasured possession and I'd carry it in a blue box with all my other treasures.
The other two pics are of two of my cats. They both disappeared outside. I'm holding Mulder by the tree and the other cat stretching is Kiefer. Kiefer was an indoor cat and I had him for five years. I loved him so much and it hurt when he disappeared. I should never have let him outside. He'd purposely knock things over in the night and I'd never get any sleep for work, so one night I let him outside and he never came back. I never found out what happened to him. Mulder, Scully and Grayla were cats that I had outside. I was going to get them all fixed and their mother Pointer as well and they all ended up disappearing except for Grayla. My sister took her and had her for years before she disappeared from her place. I remember one morning, Mulder and Scully followed me to the bus stop. It's funny because Mulder stopped in the middle of the road and checked for cars before crossing the street. The lady that used to ride the bus with me wondered where they came from and I told her they were mine. I'm surprised they didn't try to get on the bus with me.
I remember all my cats and I loved them all. I'm a cat lover and proud of it. I had my Mully for the longest time and I think I miss her the most. It still hurts sometimes when I think of her and I miss how she used to hug me.

I found a new message board to post on and it looks like it's going to be really fun there. I'm really grateful to the posters that made it from the old boards. They've done a great job with it. I love how many of The CW shows. I'm going to try and watch The Secret Circle marathon to catch up on it. It's only about a week left until Vamp Diaries and Supernatural return. The hiatus for Supernatural wasn't too long and it's been shorter than years past. I saw that after two weeks a repeat will come on. I don't mind because I'd rather have the show come back on for a little bit and then be off for another week instead of waiting longer. There are five months left and only 13 episodes. So they have to space them out a little. I've been watching various episodes from all the seasons while waiting for new episodes to air. My sister went back to Reno again so I have no one to talk to about Supernatural, so I'll be happy to talk and post on the new board. Who knows when I'll go back to work? It could be in a week or next month.

This last week has been kind of crazy again, but hopefully things will settle down again.

Merry Christmas 2011

2011-12-24T20:26:00.001-08:00

Merry Christmas to all who come to visit here. May you have peace, joy and love in your lives today and all next year.

This is a very strange Christmas Eve for me because I've mainly spent it alone. That's okay because I remember all the wonderful Christmas Eve's that I've spent with my family. Memories are my greatest treasures in this world. No matter where I am or what I am doing, I always have them with me. Everyone that I have ever loved that is no longer on this Earth is still with me always. They are just one thought away. At Christmas I remember all my family, neighbors and friends of old. Some are dead, some I haven't seen in years, but I still remember them and all the memories of Christmas' that they spent at my house or when I went to visit them.
I still remember being little and watching my Mom put up and decorate our Christmas tree and my Dad putting up the fake fireplace. I loved that fake fireplace and I always wished we could have a real one. My Mom used to make pies, cookies and fudge. She'd play Christmas music on our old turntable and make us hot chocolate. I loved sitting and looking at our Christmas tree.

I still remember going to visit Santa and sitting on his knee and being nervous and trying to remember what I wanted for Christmas. I remember going to the Christmas lights with my Dad and sisters and brother. I remember going to visit all my aunts and uncles and a lot of them are no longer on this Earth. I remember going to church and the big nativity scene out front. I remember the times when Christmas Eve was the longest night of the year. It seemed like the time just dragged and dragged and I never got any sleep because I was too excited. I remember sneaking into our living room and trying to see what Santa left for us, but you couldn't tell because it was so dark in there. I have so many wonderful memories of past Christmas Eve and Days and I thank God for all those times.

I hope and pray for everyone here on this Earth,no matter whether they believe in God or not. They will always be in my prayers. I hope the best for every living thing on this planet and that one day there truly will be peace and love everywhere.

Christmas Zoo Lights 2011

2011-12-23T14:37:00.001-08:00

I went to The Zoo Lights last Monday with my two sisters and my niece's two little boys. We had a great time and it wasn't too cold that night. I didn't even wear my gloves like I've had to for the last couple of years. The kids went to visit Santa first and then we looked around the zoo. I just love the bats. I have to see them every time I go because I love them. They are beautiful creatures. I took a ton of pictures of them. It's nice that the Zoo here is finally making some good changes. They're making bigger and better enclosures for the animals. They're working on a new area for the polar bears and it looks like they started working on another new area for some of the other animals. It was very sad to go to the Zoo in the past and see those poor animals in those tiny cages and enclosures. Now, they have a little bit of space to roam in and move around in.

I've been very busy lately and haven't had the time to post these pics. And I've been trying to read more. I can't believe Christmas is almost here and another new year is going to start. It's only two more weeks to Supernatural coming back with new episodes and Vampire Diaries. My other shows will be starting up as well. I hope I'm not called back to work too soon because I hate when I'm called and then there is no work to do. It drives me crazy. I like to know that there is a ton of work and then I want to go to work because I'll be busy. It's only a little over two months to the L.A. Con. I've been going on the Convention site every day to see who is going to be there and hoping none of them cancel. The concert is going to be Louden Swain. I loved seeing them last year and I should have bought their CD. Hopefully I can buy one at this next Con.

I was stupid again and went gambling like an idiot. I didn't lose a lot of money, but I still should not be going. I went to the gambling hole on Tues. and last night. I went Tues. in the day with my Mom and I only lost about 40 bucks. That wasn't too bad. Then I went last night with my Mom and two of my sisters. I lost 80 bucks, but I did have a good time. It was fun riding down on the bus. Plus I got mini tacos and cookies at the buffet. Yummy. I had fun, but I wish that I could have won or come home even. It seems like I can never leave with even a dollar in my pocket. I'm rarely lucky and when I am, I usually throw back the money I've won trying to win more. Now that is crazy.

More Michael Talk And Why Didn't I Buy Six Million Dollar Man

2011-12-19T22:12:00.000-08:00

Before I get to Michael talk, here's a pic of my little Jensen from Pet City. He went to see Santa at the store. Santa asked if he was naughty or nice, but I couldn't hear what Jensen said. I think he's been nice, so I bet he'll get a nice Christmas present for being good.
Now on to more crap about Michael and why I still don't think Dean was ever Michael's true vessel. I still don't understand why anyone believes that Dean is Michael's true vessel. I don't care who has told that to Dean on the show. It's just seems interesting to me that Michael only talked to Dean one time and one time only and that was in the past. Or was Dean even talking to Michael or was that all some big setup by Castiel or whoever. If Lucifer could appear to Nick as his dead wife and ask him to be his vessel, then why couldn't Michael come to Dean and ask him directly to be his vessel. What was the whole deal with that crap that Zacariah was the only one that could talk to Dean and he was like the go between. If Dean was truly Michael's one and only vessel, then Michael should have been able to appear to Dean in some form and ask him directly to be his vessel. I don't think it had anything to do with faith either, that Michael couldn't go to Dean. Who really was Zac's boss? It seemed to me that the angels needed Dean to be in that beautiful room before Michael could take him over, but all the other angels could be wherever they wanted to be. Michael is supposed to be the most powerful angel of all and he couldn't even appear to his one and true vessel. That's crap. I still think Castiel and the rest of the angels were all lying to Dean about him being Michael's vessel. They lied about all kinds of crap so why not that. Lucifer appeared to Sam and it's funny that after Sam got back with Dean, Lucifer could not make contact with him again. Maybe Dean and that amulet really protected Sam. Maybe that's what Dean was supposed to be doing all along. Another thing about Michael. If he was truly following God's will, then why would God want there to be an apocalypse. Or are the Supernatural writers saying that Michael rebelled against God's wishes. That makes no sense whatsoever. I still wonder if Castiel is not Michael or if every time we've seen Castiel, he's either been Michael or Castiel. Maybe Michael can appear to Dean and Sam as Castiel or just to Dean. Maybe if Dean is Michael's vessel, then Michael has been talking to Dean, but as Castiel. It would explain why sometimes Castiel was so weak and other times he was more powerful than any other angel. Maybe Michael was testing Dean in some way. Who knows? I don't but I love to think about it.

I was at F.Y.E today and the store is closing and they're having a big sale and stuff is how much percent off. I really wanted to buy The Six Million Dollar Man. I remember how much I just loved to watch it. I loved The Bionic Woman as well, but not as much as the man. I held the DVD set in my hand for how long, but I put it back on the shelf. I wondered if I would still love it as much as I did then. I still love a lot of the shows I used to watch, but I hardly ever watch all the ton of DVD's I have now. I mainly watch all the seasons of Supernatural over and over and there's always a disc in my player. I hardly ever watch any other show. Every once in a while, I'll put in something different. I did watch old episodes of Christy and Legend Of The Seeker. I've also watched some Dawson's and Vampire Diaries. I put it back because I didn't want to spend money on it and then have it sit there and never watch it. And one day there probably won't even be discs anymore, it will all be digital downloads or whatever. Technology is moving so fast. My computer is ancient already and I've only had it for three years. It was probably out of date when I bought it, that's how fast everything goes.

Well, that's all for now.

Supernatural And Death Theory

2011-12-17T22:20:00.000-08:00

Okay here's my theory about Death. What if Death is behind everything that has happened on Supernatural? I know a lot of fans think Death is helping Sam and Dean. I don't think he's helped them at all. Death was chained up in hell right along with Lucifer and the other horsemen. Now Death is free to do whatever he wants to. Does he care if The Leviathan destroy the whole planet? When we first saw Death he told Dean that humans meant nothing at all to him and that one day he'd reap God even. Would he care whether every human being was reaped or not? I think Death has been using Dean to further his own goals. It was interesting when Death said in Meet The New Boss that he'd be reaping someone soon. He told the couple not to worry, so there was only Castiel, Bobby, Sam and Dean. Most people probably thought Death meant Castiel, now I wonder if he didn't mean Bobby. I don't think Castiel is dead because he never died with an angel sword and that's supposed to be the only way to kill an angel. I still hope that Bobby is really dead and not in some coma or something. Jim Beaver could still be on the show, but maybe as a memory or a spirit or something like that.
If I think about all the stuff that has happened on Supernatural too much, it drives me crazy because a lot of it does not make sense at all. I try to come up with theories and what not, but most of the time I just try to enjoy the show. The writers it seems just keep plugging along and I think they sometimes forget what they've written in the past. Maybe some of them should go back and watch older episodes or something.
It's funny that Michael is supposedly down in Hell and that's supposed to be a good thing and Death is running around loose when he should be chained up in Hell right along with Lucifer. I still wonder about Michael all the time and I don't think he's in Hell right now. I still wonder if Michael or some of his grace isn't in Sam. I still remember how Lilith tried to kill Sam and so did Samhain and they couldn't. Who or what was protecting Sam and I don't think it was Lucifer or demons? Also, I wonder in Houses Of The Holy if Sam really didn't see an angel and it wasn't just that priest. Usually there is not some bright light that accompanies spirits when they appear. Maybe that priest did know something and was getting instructions from Heaven. It sure is interesting to think about stuff like that.
I've been watching some episodes from season 3 and I do think it's my favorite season of all. There was a lot of good scenes between Sam and Dean and I loved them both so much in that season. I keep watching A Very Supernatural Christmas. That's still one of my favorite all time episodes ever. I could watch it a million times.
I love how some fans went on and on about how Sam has left Dean. How Sam left Dean when he had that broken leg and was so vulnerable. That was a laugh. Dean is a grown man and he cut off his own cast. I loved that. I love how in A Very Supernatural Christmas, young Dean left Sammy by himself in a motel room. Who knows how long Dean was gone and Sam knew nothing about how to defend himself? Then when little Sam was sleeping Dean left him again and went to steal presents. No one brings up that.
Now Sam and Dean are grown men. Sam does not need to be stuck to Dean 24/7. They probably need some time apart or they'd wind up killing each other. I love how Dean always says we when he talks about stuff. We've lost enough. We've been through enough. Who is he talking about? The way he acts is like Sam does not have a brain or a mind of his own or that Sam shares his brain or something. Dean doesn't even know or care what Sam thinks or feels. When does Dean even ask Sam how he feels or what he thinks about anything. Dean just assumes to know everything. That's why I don't like Dean right now. I wish Dean would see Sam as his brother again and not as his problem or someone who should just be there but not have any say in anything. Like Sam should just stand by him and do whatever Dean wants him to. And the way Dean treats Sam like he's stupid and doesn't know anything. Like Dean has to tell him what to do because Sam doesn't know or he's wrong and Dean is right so he tells what's what.
I've been having weird dreams about Supernatural. I dreamt the other night that Jared and Jensen were talking to me and I loved the coat Jensen was wearing but I was too afraid to talk to him. Last night I dreamt that I was at a Supernatural convention on a cruise ship. The funny thing about that is, I never got to see any of the stars from the show. I was doing all kinds of weird things getting ready for the Convention.
I've been trying to read more lately and it's been hard. It seems like the time is just flying by so fast. It seems like the day starts and then I blink my eyes and it's over. I've read some really good books lately and I'm about a third of the way in Modelland. It's a really good book and I may be older, but the main character Tookie reminds me of when I was younger. I am the forgetta girl. I feel like Tookie. I may be an older, fatter, shorter and ugly Tookie, but I'm Tookie.

Before I left the CW message boards I read a few posts and how some posters didn't want to go on Facebook. I love Facebook and I've been on it for years. Sure it's not a message board and it's not like those CW boards, but if you knew some other fans, it wouldn't be bad to get a discussion going on there. I bet some posters do that. I like to leave my comments on the Supernatural page and I love to read other comments. You get a wider audience and shorter answers to how other fans feel about things. I mainly love to play the games on Facebook. I decided to do that instead of posting about the show all the time and fighting with other fans about stuff. I was never trying to make other people feel the same way I did even though I was accused of it. I loved reading different views on certain things instead of all the same old same answers and everyone agreeing with everyone else because they were afraid to say how they really felt about things. Now that the CW boards are gone, I still have Twitter and Facebook. I looked at some message boards and went on the other one that I used to go on and I don't really like how they are set up. It drives me crazy looking at all those pictures and moving pictures and it's hard to read anything between all that crap.
Well this has been long, but I no longer have my quick House to go to. I loved the CW board for that. It was easier to log on and post how fast next to this blog, but oh well.

Supernatural Prediction For The New Year

2011-12-14T22:58:00.000-08:00

Okay seeing as there is no more message board at CW to write this crap on, I have to do it in this house. I'm sure I'll be posting more here now when I can.
I was watching the promo for Adventures In Babysitting and I read the synopsis and here's what I think is going to happen.
I think Sam is going to somehow be taken back into the past in episode 11 and then Dean is going to have to go back to get him in episode 12. I bet they are working on a case and Sam gets snatched by whatever they are hunting. I've read how many different spoilers and I wonder if this will happen or not. I'm not very good at predicting episodes, but I love to try. Something could happen like this. I wonder if Bobby is going to be dead or in a coma or something. I just hope that whatever the writers choose to do in regards to Bobby is original and not predictable. I can't wait to see Castiel again and I hope when he comes back that it will be a good return of his character.
I haven't seen any other spoilers yet for the next episodes after 13. There really haven't been a lot. I wonder what episode they are filming right now and do they film in order of episode or do they film different scenes from multiple episodes. I know that a lot of shows that I used to watch would film how many scenes from different episodes and out of order as well. I've read certain things and I wonder exactly how Supernatural does their episodes. I'll never know I guess. It really doesn't matter to me, but it is interesting.
I hope all those posters from the CW site have found new places to post and that they can be happy wherever they post and have a good time. I wish them luck and hope they never stop watching Supernatural. I'd love to post with a few of them and bounce some theories around, but I gave up on that as well a long time ago. Now I just write them down for fun. I do have a new theory about Death but I'm still thinking about it and I'll write it down when I've thought it through some more.

CW Closing Their Message Boards

2011-12-13T19:10:00.001-08:00

The CW is closing their message boards tomorrow. I wondered when they would. It seems like more people are posting now that the site is closing then when it was open. I love how some of those posters go on and on about how crappy the CW is, but they watch the shows on the CW. How many of them have wished that Supernatural could be on another network. I haven't because Supernatural would probably not have lasted for as long as it has. I bet if it had started on a big network, it would not have even made it to a whole first season, let alone seven seasons.
I remember how much I used to love to post on that board and I loved debating things and seeing what others thought about stuff. I haven't wanted to post on there in a long time because of certain posters. I got sick of their stupid crap and their Sam vs. Dean bullshit. I especially loved a certain poster who constantly went on and on about crap and attacked other people on the board and then turned around and sniveled when they attacked her or tried to talk to her. Sometimes that board was scary and depressing. It got so negative and how many of the posters literally took over the board and basically thought it was their board and no one else could join in on anything unless it was something they wanted to post about. I'm mainly talking about the Supernatural board on there. I remember when I first started going on those boards and I went to all of them. I had a good time until I had a bunch of mean people tell me all kinds of crap. Maybe that's why they are getting rid of them.
I think there are more people on Facebook, Twitter and other areas around the Internet and they are all talking about the show. You don't have to obsess and talk about anything and everything on the show. Some fans dissect the whole show or they just want some place to snivel about the show.
It's interesting that none of the posters ever really appreciated the fact that they had that board and CW was the ones that supplied it for them. I appreciate The CW and I always will because it has given me my favorite shows now for seven seasons. It gave me Smallville, Vampire Diaries, Gossip Girl, Ringer and One Tree Hill. I've mainly watched the CW and the WB for the last 13 or 14 years and it's my favorite network.
I hate to say that I'm not that sad about those boards being closed. As one poster once pointed out to me, I had no friends on there. I did have no friends on that board. It would have been nice to have made some, but I gave up on that long ago. There were some very nice posters and friendly ones and I appreciate all the ones that came into my threads on there.

Fun, Bela, Sam and Sammy

2011-12-11T01:19:00.000-08:00

I'm been having fun going shopping and eating out almost every day. I went with my sister to the gambling town for a little fun as well. I lost again of course. I'm a loser as far as gambling goes. I'm glad that I haven't gone gambling in a while because all I do is lose. I'd rather play slots on Facebook. At least I don't lose real money playing those.
I've looked on the CW message boards and there's nothing really good being discussed, so I just go in Hell House and post a few things. It would be nice to post about a few things and see what others think, but who wants the fights and other crap. I certainly don't need that. I'm sick of Dean already and his depressed attitude. Maybe that's why I don't like Dean right now. It's his crappy attitude. Like he's the only person in the whole world who has lost or suffered anything. I still remember going to The Holocaust Museum in Washington and just thinking about what those people suffered and went through. Nothing that has happened to Dean can compare to that. Dean keeps moaning and whining about how much he's lost and he doesn't even care that others have probably lost as well. The Jews, Romani and Jehovah Witnesses lost way more. I can just imagine those Jews who lost their homes, businesses and then were sent to concentration camps. There they lost their hair, their clothes and their names. How many of them had to watch while their family members either died in the gas chambers or were just shot right in front of them. Some of them died on the trains that took them to these camps. They had nothing left, but their faith in God. God didn't abandon them, he was there suffering right along with them. God gave men free will and what did some men choose to do with that. They decided to enslave or kill other men and women. I sometimes wonder how any Jewish people have survived all the persecution that they have went through during the history of this world. Only by the grace of God could they have survived. Sure Dean went to hell, but these people lived through hell on Earth. Dean didn't suffer all the years he was in hell because he ended up being someone who caused others to suffer as well. Dean had the choice to keep on suffering or to make others suffer and he chose to torture. He broke in Hell and that says a lot about what kind of person he really is. He acts like he has absolutely nothing. Like Sam his brother is nothing. Dean eats every day and has a place to sleep and he has the Impala. He has something, but is he even grateful for that. No, he just whines and moans still. Then he kills some monsters and demons and thinks he should be rewarded for it. Like his life should be easier or better because he's helped people. I don't see Sam whining and moaning about how much he's lost. He's probably just grateful that he still has Dean and that he's not in hell anymore. That's a lot to be grateful for. It could be a whole lot worse. I still wonder if Sam believes in God. I still think he does or he wants to.
I just know that when I watch Supernatural I get depressed. Dean makes me depressed and I just can't stand his whiny and crappy attitude. I love how fans try to make out like Dean loves Sam. I still think part of Dean hates or resents Sam. He probably hated the fact that he couldn't be a normal kid because he had to look after Sam. I bet he even took some of his anger about that out on Sam. No one can tell me he didn't. I wonder if part of Dean isn't guilty because there are times that he wishes that Sam had never been born. Maybe that's Dean's secret. If Sam had never been born, then their mom and dad would have been alive and Dean could have lived a normal life. I think Dean loves Sam, but when Dean made that deal for Sam it wasn't just out of love, but obligation as well. Dean always said that taking care of and protecting Sam was his job. A lot of people hate their jobs and I wonder if part of Dean didn't hate taking care of Sam.
You don't ever get to know how Sam feels about anything anymore. I bet he sometimes wishes he had never been born just so his mom, dad and Dean could have all been having a life. Plus his girlfriend Jessica probably would never have died, plus anyone that came into contact with him would not have been possessed by demons to watch him his whole life.
I'd post about stuff on message boards, but I'm tired of idiots trying to fight with me or attack me because of something I say or because I don't think Dean is the greatest thing on TV and I don't feel like it. I've thought up a few spoofs, but I've been too lazy to write them and I've been busy lately having fun. It seems like the time is just flying by.
I'm glad that I finally got my Supernatural calendars yesterday. I wondered if I'd get them by the new year. It was a nice surprise finding an autographed photo of Mark Sheppard in one of them. It must have got in there by mistake. Oh well! I'm going to keep it because finders keepers. I'll get another one when I go to the L.A. Con in March and I'll be able to watch Mark Sheppard sign it. I never got his autograph this year because it wasn't a part of my package. I should have bought it, but I didn't have that much money. I got to see Mark up close and personal at the dessert party, so it was all good. The L.A. Con looks like it's going to be great and I can't wait to go. There are going to be a lot of good stars at this one.
Well I think I'm done posting for now.

Peppermint Performing The Candy Cane Twist

2011-12-02T16:34:00.000-08:00

Here's Peppermint performing his favorite song Candy Cane Twist. He made me so happy and now I'm in a merry mood for Christmas.

My Beautiful Bela and Samson

2011-11-26T13:51:00.000-08:00

Here's some pics of my beautiful Bela. I bought her a cute cape and some toys to play with. I love her so much. She's such a good cat, sometimes too good. I wonder if whoever had her before I did mistreated her. Sometimes she cringes when I go to pet her, like I'm going to hit her or something. It's sad and I hope she realizes that I'll never hurt her. I wonder about who had her last and how they treated her. They couldn't have loved her very much if they just dumped her and left her. I think she's worried that I'll dump her or something. Or leave and never come back.
I made a new pet in that crazy game called Pet City. It's kind of fun. It's like Petville, but better, but not as good as Pet Society. I'll always love my Sammy in Pet Society the most.

I just loved the week I had. I can't believe that some stupid dog attacked me and grabbed my Harmon's shopping bag right out of my hands. It was empty, but it still made me mad and I thought the dog was going to bite me. I called animal control and told them about the dog and my neighbors other dog that they leave on some big long leash that extends to the sidewalk. Now my neighbors have their dogs tied up where they did before. I'm always scared walking by there in the morning because I'm afraid they'll get loose and attack me. I got some spray, so if they attack, they are going to get some in their dirty faces. I don't blame the dogs, I blame the owners and hopefully, I'll never have to use that spray. I just don't want to be bitten by a dog. It's something I'm afraid of. I've seen where people have been attacked and where someone even had their face bitten off. It's scary. Dogs can be used as lethal weapons, much like a gun. They can kill people and have killed people. I think that's why I love cats more. Cats don't attack people when they're walking down the street and they don't bark all day long. Cats kill birds and mice and keep their populations down. They also kill insects. Cats also don't crap all over people's lawns and huge crap besides. We have a leash law here, but sometimes people still let their dogs run wild and loose.

I did all my Black Friday shopping online. I bought a new MP3 player and The Vamp Diaries season 2 on DVD. I'll probably never go shopping in a store again on Black Friday. There are too many nuts out there anymore. It's crazy when people wait in tents out in front of the store for days for stupid sales.

I can't wait for One Tree Hill to come back on. That's what I'm most excited about concerning TV. It will be it's last season and I hope all the episodes will be good ones and that Dan will be on. I can't believe Chad Michael Murray has written a book. I'm going to buy it and read it. I love when stars are multi-talented like that. He's a great actor and I bet he's a great writer too. I'll see once his book comes out and he's supposed to be on Tree Hill so that will be great.

My sister is back from Reno and I'm happy about that because I can talk to her on the phone every day now and I've seen her twice now and can do things with her again. I'm probably going to be going to the L.A. Con by myself, but that's okay. It should be fun even if I'm alone.

For The Love Of Sam Winchester

2011-11-21T22:44:00.000-08:00

I love Sam Winchester, but I'm not loving what's happening on Supernatural right now. I just wish Sera Gamble would quit promising something and then never deliver it. I'm tired of waiting for anything regarding Sam's character and I'm tired of Sera Gamble or anyone else saying that it's coming and wait for it. I've been waiting for years now and all I've gotten is crapped on. More sniveling Dean, more Bobby storyline and that's it. I'm sick of Bobby and his love life, his past and him almost dying how many times now. I'm sick of Dean sniveling and whining and moaning about everything. Dean treats Sam more like some problem, than a brother that loves and cares about him. Does Dean get mad at Sam for saving him because he wants to die or what? I'm sick of Dean and his crappy attitude and the way he treats Sam like Sam is going to turn into some killer and Dean is going to have to kill him.
As a fan who loves Sam the most, I feel like I've been crapped on by the writers of the show.
I've faithfully watched Supernatural since the very first episode and I've never stopped, even when the show made me mad and depressed during the fourth season. I've been waiting since then for more Sam and I've just gotten more Castiel, more Bobby and more Dean. Sure, there's been a few episodes that concentrated a little on Sam's character, but most of them had how much other crap going on. I haven't seen an episode since Mystery Spot that has focused all on Sam's character. I've seen how many episodes since then focused totally on Dean, Bobby and Castiel and nothing for Sam. I'm tired of just seeing Sam supporting other characters, but no one supporting him or helping him. And I'm sick of Bobby and Dean treating Sam like he's some ticking time bomb that's going to explode and start killing people or something. Dean has treated Sam like crap for years now.
Sam is a fictional character, but I relate to him now more than ever. It seems that no one is ever there for him when he needs them, especially Dean. Dean is just worried that Sam will go crazy and Dean will have to deal with him. Dean doesn't care how Sam feels about anything. I don't think Dean even knows who Sam really is and he doesn't care. That's how I feel with my family. They want me to listen to their problems, but when I try to talk about stuff, they ignore me or don't really listen to what I say.
I love Sam and I'll never stop loving him. He's still my favorite TV character of all time and I have watched a lot of TV and loved a lot of characters. I guess I'll just take what I can get, but I'm not going to hope anymore for anything. I'm tired of being told that we'll get something concerning his character, but instead we just get crapped on again. I had a theory, but I know that will never happen. It was good, but I won't say what it is. I thought about it and when I think too much about it, I wish for it to happen, but I know it won't.
Here's something I was hoping for. I was hoping the writers would explain how Sam who's just supposed to be a human, was able to drink tons of demon blood without his stomach exploding or how he could walk around without a soul for a year. I wondered if Sam had a CT scan done after he was beat on the head and before Bobby rescued him and what were the results of it. Sam was having seizures and inter cranial pressure and then he was okay and Bobby just hauled him out of the hospital. Did Bobby even take Sam to another hospital or did they just all go to that cabin? I wondered if those files Bobby picked up had anything to do with Sam. It's stupid of me to even think this way because I know nothing will ever be explained about Sam. It's just interesting that we never see Sam go to the hospital or be in the hospital and he's had plenty of injuries. It's funny that Dean and Bobby didn't take him to the hospital when he was unconscious for how long. They're not doctors, so how could they know what would happen with Sam. It's crazy and it drives me crazy. It's stupid to even think things, but I'm stupid, so I think of all this crap.
Well, whatever happens, I'll keep watching Supernatural until Sam dies or Jared leaves the show. I don't have any hope left that Sam will ever have any kind of emotional storyline, but if it does happen, it would be nice. Doubt it, but I'm not going to wait around and hope for something that will never happen.

From Gossip Girl To Supernatural And More

2011-11-12T11:37:00.001-08:00

I was released from work on Thursday. I'm surprised I didn't get released sooner because we really didn't have all that much work left. Hopefully, I'll be off until the start of the new year. I like working, but I don't like getting up so early and going out and freezing in the cold waiting for my bus to come. Now maybe I'll get two months of sleeping in and reading in a warm bed. I've got a lot of new books to read and I'm very happy about that, especially the new Vampire Diaries. I love Stephan's Diaries. I wish Sam from Supernatural could have some diaries, then we would know how he's felt and thought about everything that has happened to him over the last couple of years. I've given up hope of ever knowing from watching the show, but it would be nice if someone wrote some books or something. I doubt it, but I could dream about it and think up stuff myself.

Gossip Girl was so great this week. I love it because I wait for something for a long time and I always get a good pay off. I love when Chuck and Blair are apart because you know it will never be for long. Then when they get back together for even just a short scene, it's the best thing ever and they just sizzle and dazzle you. I was just stoned into my TV set while they were on. I loved that scene when Chuck apologized to Blair and I loved the song that was playing. Everything was perfect. I also love all the other storylines going on now as well. Gossip Girl is back on track and better than ever.

I'm really enjoying Ringer right now. I look forward to each new episode because you never know what's going to happen next. You can't even guess what will go on. I love that. I love not knowing or being unable to predict what's going to happen on a show. I love the tension and drama and I'm really loving all the characters so far on there. They are so rich and entertaining. The good and bad ones. Sarah Michelle Gellar is just awesome playing two separate and completely different characters.

Vampire Diaries is still going strong and it's better than ever. It's third season is still going strong and I'm loving every minute of it. I loved watching Sebastian Roche on there as Michael. Wow! Is all I can say. Loved that scene between him and Klaus. I almost cried watching it. I never can predict what's going to happen next on this show either. I love that. There are always new surprises and I always can't believe what has happened next or who does what to whom. Gotta love that Katherine as well. I can't wait for next year to see what's going to happen next.

Supernatural is really starting to fade for me. My love and obsession has slowly been waning during the last two episodes. I'll always love Supernatural, but I swear it has become so predictable and same old same old. I really thought season 7 was going to be one of my favorites and it's steadily going down hill. After watching this last episode, I wonder if the writers weren't basically calling every Sam fan a loser for loving Sam. That's how I felt after watching this episode. That if you love Sam then that means you're a loser like Becky or something. This episode started off kind of slow, but I thought it was pretty good and it got funny when Garth came along and when Becky beat Sam on the head with the waffle iron. It was too predictable though and that's what is sad. I wish the writers could think up something new and surprise us every once in a while. Dean was just boring again, but I loved how Garth told him that Bobby said he'd be premenstrual working with someone else. Not that he isn't all the time. The only problem Dean has is that he has P.M.S. all the time. That's probably why he drinks so much. It was a weird episode, but it turned out okay and I liked it. At least we got to see Sam on the screen instead of off. It would be nice to actually have Sam talking and expressing how he feels instead of just saying that he's fine all the time. The best part of this whole episode is at the end when Sam smiled. I don't care why he smiled or what was going on. I just love seeing Jared's beautiful smile and I always feel wonderful inside when I see it.
I was excited about next weeks episode and then I thought of something and now I'm not too sure about it. It looks good with Sam, Dean and Bobby in the woods, but I wonder if Bobby isn't going to be seriously injured and then the next episode be all about him possibly dying in the hospital or some crap like that. I sure hope the hell not. I really don't care about Bobby's past anymore. I want more of Sam and what has happened to him. It seems some fans just think Sam's soul was in hell with Lucifer and not Michael. I'd love to know what good old Michael did to Sam down there. Castiel said that both Michael and Lucifer had nothing better to do than take out all their crap on Sam. So, I'd love to know what Michael did to Sam. Possibly, Sam may have to be the one to remember something from hell or one of Lucifer's memories or Michael's to help stop the Leviathan. I still think Sam could be a vessel for either Michael or Lucifer and you wonder if either of them could contact him from the cage or really be talking to him and not everything is in his head. Maybe Lucifer or Michael is really talking to Sam from the cage. Maybe he's still connected to them in some way. Now that would be an interesting story and Sam really would need Dean to help him and be there for him. I doubt anything good will happen with anything concerning Sam's time in hell. If it does, I'd be very surprised and I haven't been surprised by anything that has happened yet so far.

I'm not going to worry about what will happen on any of my shows. I'm going to try to enjoy them. I'm also going to enjoy reading and hopefully going to some of the movies coming out. There are some good ones I'd love to go and see. I haven't gone out to a movie in a long time and I miss that.

Vampire Diaries Better Than The Dean Show

2011-11-04T21:51:00.001-07:00

Well I have to say that Vampire Diaries was way better than The Dean Show this week.
I cared more about a character that was just introduced on Vampire Diaries than I care about poor Dean and his trust issues. I'm actually very sick of Dean already on Supernatural and I really could care less how he feels anymore. I've had his feelings and his emotions shoved in my face for over two years now and I feel nothing for his character at all. I thought maybe just maybe he'd have a good storyline and he'd grow up a little or turn dark or something, but he's the same old Dean. I loved him the first couple episodes and I felt for him, but now I don't give a crap. He's so full of self righteousness that it makes me sick and he accuses Sam of it. That's even more laughable.
Back to Vampire Diaries. Claire Holt was awesome as Rebekah and I wanted to cry for her at the end of the episode. I loved how they showed her story from the past and what happened with her family. The orginal vampires. The storylines on Vampire Diaries just keep getting better and better and more interesting. I can't believe when I see that the show is over and it feels too short. That's how I used to feel about Supernatural. It ended too soon. Now sometimes I wish the Dean Show would come to an end quicker because I'm so tired of the same old crapola over and over concerning Dean.
The only thing I've been happy about while watching Supernatural is that Sam is even in the episodes. It could be worse and he could be totally written out and it's all Dean like in season 4. Hell, I wish Castiel was still on the show because I'd rather see him than Dean. At least his storyline would be more than feel sorry for me everyone. The Mentalists was a good episode as far as the actual story, but as for Sam and Dean it sucked. That was about the worst interaction I've seen between Sam and Dean in a long time. Sam was mad for two seconds, Dean gave some stupid looks and acted like a little baby that needed someone to hold on to and Sam was right back with him and everything is sunshine and roses again. I even love how they started off the show with good old Dean and what he was doing. Not what Sam was doing, but that's how it always is.
I listen to that song at work called The Wind Beneath My Wings and it's like Dean should be singing that to Sam. Dean gets all the glory and Sam is always in the shadow of Dean. Sam has all the strength as well. Dean has none. I bet in a future episode coming up Dean will have a mental breakdown and not Sam. Yeah, like Sam has never gone through anything and has zero emotions about everything. You gotta love it or not. I'm starting to not love it and that worries me. I love how all those Dean snivelers whined and sniveled over Dean getting a storyline because they thought the show would finally focus on Sam. What a laugh and a half? Like that would ever happen. Supernatural has been The Dean Show since season 4 and has never stopped, except for the times when it was The Castiel Show or The Bobby Show. It would be nice if Sam's character got anything ever. Yeah, he got a smidgen at the beginning, but that's probably all there will be because most fans think Sam is boring. Sorry, but I'm bored with Dean and his same crap over and over. Boo hoo and snivel snivel.
I'm not going to stop watching the show because I still love seeing the little bit of Sam we get and some of the other characters, but who knows. If it keeps going on as The Dean Show, then it will not be must see TV anymore. I won't care if I miss an episode.
I'm excited for One Tree Hill to come back on. I wish it would have been a full season but I settle for whatever I can get.
Top Model was good this week and I loved those crazy music videos those models did. That was probably the best episode of that show that I've ever seen.

Supernatural: Slash Fiction, Chuck Bass and Vampire Diaries

2011-10-29T19:16:00.000-07:00

Another great episode of Supernatural. Slash Fiction was very fun to watch or at least the parts I saw when a train wasn't going by. I hope I didn't miss anything good and if I did, I can watch online soon. I loved seeing the Levi Sam and Dean and just listening to them talk. I actually liked the scenes with Bobby for a change. It's been a while since he's had some good scenes with someone besides just Sam and Dean. And it was nice that he got to be with a woman and not Ellen. I still think of that and it makes me want to puke. I like Jodie Mills and I hope we see more of her in upcoming episodes. I'm glad I got to see the scene where Levi Dean told Sam that Dean killed Amy. Just the look on poor Sam's face.
I still think Dean thinks of Sam as some monster or whatever that one day he's going to have to kill. Just like he killed Amy. The weird thing about it, is why does Dean think that way? I just don't get it. Sam has never tried to kill people intentionally or otherwise, so why would Dean think that he's just going to one day crack and start killing people. Even when Sam drank demon blood and when he was soulless he was never really a danger to others. Sam tried to save and help people.
I love how Dean acted with soulless Sam. Like Dean had to stop him. Stop him from killing monsters that were killing people. That's just like when Sam drank demon blood. The only ones that were at risk from Sam, were demons, so why was Dean so afraid of Sam.
I'm enjoying Supernatural so much that I just don't like to think about it too much. Sometimes I totally and completely try to over analyze stuff. Now to talk about Dean and Chuck Bass. I think they have quite a bit in common with each other. They both drink a ton of booze to dull their pain. They both were never allowed to be kids and now that they're adults they act childish because they were never allowed to be kids. I loved what that therapist told Chuck and if she had talked to Dean, she would have told him almost the same thing, plus a little bit more. Chuck even had Daddy issues just like Dean.
Now on to Vampire Diaries. I love this show right now. It still gets better and better. I love all the characters and how they interact with each other and just all the stuff that is happening in one episode. The writers can have multiple stories going and they do a great job with all of them. I can't wait for more after each episode. Sometimes the show goes so fast, that I can't believe when it's over.
This last episode made me cry at the end. I swear Vampire Diaries has everything going on and I love it. It still reminds me of Dawson's Creek, but it's way better and so are the characters.
My little Sammy is a cereal killer and little Dean is a big pile of golden crap or poop. They are so cute that I had to include them in my post.

This week has been really crazy for me. My Internet was gone for Thursday because our service turned it off and the phone. The first time in 50 years that my Mom has had her phone, it got shut off. My Mom paid the bill and it went to the service, but someone stole the money. My Mom called and they told her they were going to investigate it and that she could just pay her next bill when she always does. Then they go and turn our services off. My Mom had to call again and explain everything to two more people about what happened and they turned our phone and Internet back on. That was so crazy.
Then yesterday I got something in my eye and it bothered me all day at work. I went to the doctor and it was some small little thing in my eye and it was scratching it. The doctor took it out. I couldn't believe it. I'm really blind from a distance. I can't read how much. I like big print on the computer because I can read it better.
My family is driving me crazy. I wish two of them would start taking responsibility for their own lives and the choices they make and have made and quit blaming other people all the time. I love people who sit and blame every crappy thing that happens to them on someone else. They never accept responsibility for the choices they make in life. It drives me crazy and that's all I'll say.

Little Sammy Scissorhands

2011-10-22T22:45:00.000-07:00

I've just been playing with my little Sammy and my other little demons. I love Pet Society and I love all the cute stuff they come up with for my demons. The game has been messing up lately and it's been driving me crazy. I'm still able to play, though. I wish Facebook would stop messing with crap already, but I doubt they can. I'm just getting tired of all the constant changes. I've been playing the slots on there and they are so slow right now. I don't know if it's just my computer or Facebook itself. Maybe both.
I've been looking at all the fun those fans are having in Chicago right now at the SPN Con. I hope they all are having a fun experience, especially if it's their first time. It's so much fun to be around the stars of the show that you love. I can't wait for March when the L.A. Con is. My sister might be able to go to the Con, not with me, but maybe she'll be able to meet me there. I'll have more fun with her than if I'm alone.
I watched episode 5 of Supernatural. Shut Up, Dr Phil. It was a good episode, but not very original. I liked seeing Charisma Carpenter and James Marsters, but the witch thing is pretty old already. Even if they were a couple fighting and killing because they were mad at each other. I thought the funniest thing was Sam acting like Dean has never drank on a case before. That was a laugh. Dean has always had a flask and he's drank on a case more than once. Hell, he even stole booze to drink while they were on a case in season four. I missed the first ten minutes of the show because of a stupid train. I saw that clip that Jared put on Twitter and I laughed my ass off. That was better than the whole episode.
I'm really enjoying Supernatural right now and I don't even want to go on message boards. I'm tired of all the sniveling. Sniveling over Castiel. Sniveling over Dean. Sniveling over Sam. Sniveling over everything and anything. Those stupid spoilers that don't spoil anything or even reveal anything. Fans get really nutty and crazy over them and jump to all kinds of conclusions about what's going to happen. I look at stuff on Facebook and it's better than going on a message board or Twitter even. I saw something that made me so happy in regards to Sam's character.

I might get released from work soon, but who knows? It seems like the work is getting done fast. I can't believe that the time is going by so fast right now. I've worked more this year than I did last year and I could have worked longer if I would have wanted to. I guess I should have, but it was nice to have time off, even though that went by fast as well.

I was going to post about my crazy family, but I don't even want to think about what's going on right now. I just hope things work out okay. Who knows what the future holds in store?

Supernatural: Defending Your Life, Genevieve Pregnant And Other Stuff

2011-10-15T11:23:00.000-07:00

Lots to post about. First is the fourth episode of Supernatural. I loved it. Four great episodes in a row now. Season 7 is still going great and I can't wait for next weeks episode already.
About Dean. I do think Dean does and should feel guilty about keeping Sam with him because he doesn't want to be alone. I think that's the main reason the apocalypse started in the first place. Dean brought Sam back to life after Jake stabbed him and made that deal and went to hell and broke the first seal. How was any of that on Sam? Sam did not ask to be brought back from the dead. I love how some fans went on and on like Dean saved Sam's soul from going to Hell. Why would his soul have gone to hell? That was just crazy and a way for some fans to think Dean had made the deal to save Sam and not that he made the deal for himself. He saved Sam because he didn't want to be alone to hunt on his own. He probably brought him back because he loved him as well and didn't want to live without him, but how many people would do the same thing to have the people they love in their lives. Dean shouldn't feel guilty about some people having died, but others maybe he should.
As for the apocalypse. I love how some fans put all the blame on Sam because he wanted revenge. He wouldn't have wanted revenge on Lilith, if Dean had not made the deal in the first place. Sam would have been dead and Dean would not have made the deal and the first seal would never have been broken. So, no one can tell me that that is not all on Dean. If Dean had not made his deal, then Sam would not have needed to get revenge on Lilith for killing Dean and sending him to hell. Sam would have never drank demon blood or used his powers either. I wonder how long it took Castiel to get Dean out of hell in the first place. I wonder if right after Dean started torturing and the seal broke, that's when Ruby had Sam start drinking demon blood.
Now onto Deans reasoning for getting Sam his soul back. Did Dean do that because Sam's soul was suffering in Hell or because Dean wanted that sweet and caring Sam back to be with him again? Maybe he did it partly for Sam and for himself. I do think Dean would eventually have gone back to hunting. I doubt he would have stayed with Lisa and Ben forever. Ben knew he was a hunter and I bet something would have come up and Dean would have had to leave them or end up training Ben to be a hunter.
I love how Dean drinks on a case, but he tells Sam that he shouldn't or what's he doing drinking while they're on a case. That kills me, but that's just Dean. Maybe Dean thinks he should be a certain way and act a certain way because others expect it of him or something.
I can't wait until Sam finds out that Dean killed Amy. I think that's going to be good. I can't wait to see some good stuff and maybe they will finally start being brothers again like in the first season. They shouldn't have to tell each other everything either, but just things that could affect the other brother.
I loved seeing Jo again. I don't really think she knew Dean all that well and I think she mainly did have a crush on him and it was a lot of hero worship on her part.

Now onto Genevieve being pregnant. I read Jared's tweet on Twitter and I was so happy for them. I wish them all the best and their new little baby. I'll pray for and think about them and hope nothing goes wrong. They deserve to be happy and have good things happen to them because they do some much good things themselves. I love how they've asked people to donate to St. Jude's instead of sending gifts. Jared and Genevieve can provide anything their baby needs, so why would anyone think to send them something. Yeah, I'm sure Jared and Gen would be grateful, but where would all that stuff go. If I was them, I'd want to buy stuff for my own baby. They've got a lot of family and friends as well. I'm sure they're going to get lots of stuff for that child. That's one child in this world that I won't have to cry and pray for all the time. I do sit and think about all the children out there that are being abused, neglected and mistreated and it breaks my heart. And by their own parents.
Usually I really don't pay that much attention to any stars and their personal lives. I rarely look at what they're doing because it's their lives. They should have some privacy for certain things. It's nice when they do share some personal stuff with the fans and that's okay, but I really hate gossip rags and magazines that twist things. Sometimes I just hope and pray for them like I do for everyone. They are people too just like everyone, sometimes I forget that and just see them as entertaining me and that's it.
I know a lot of stars that have kids and I didn't even know about it until years later after a show was over. I appreciate all the movie and TV stars out there and what they do for me and how much they give me and I wish them all the best in their personal lives. I don't have to know about them, but it's nice to know how they are doing. Sometimes you wish you could reach out and help them like they've helped you and sometimes helping them means leaving them alone to live their lives in some kind of peace.
I don't know if anything I've wanted to say is coming out right, but I'm going to leave it like that. It's charity time at work and we do all kinds of activities to help all kinds of charities. We have contests, bake sales and book sales. For my charity that I'm going to help through payroll deduction, I've chosen Cats On Death Row. They rescue cats that have not been adopted and are up for being killed. What's a cats only crime? Being born into this crappy world. Why should they be punished for anything? Cats are great to have in this world because they help keep the rodent and insect population down. I love cats and I chose this charity in honor of my little Mully and my new Bela. I'm going to give some money to St. Jude's as well. It's always been one of my charites. I always try to give just a little because if everyone did that it would amount to a lot. I can't believe some people can't even donate a dollar or two a month to a charity. That's not a lot to ask or to give. That could be one night out to the movies a year or something like that.

I've been depressed lately and I don't know why. Maybe I miss my sister because I could always talk to her about stuff and now I haven't talked to her for weeks. Even if she never really paid attention to all the crap I said, it was still nice to have her around. Well, that's about all for now.

Loving It

2011-10-08T23:16:00.000-07:00

I love Supernatural and I'm loving season 7 so much. Why? Because I'm so excited to find out what Sam and Dean are going to do next and what's going to happen. I love that fans are going crazy and discussing the show. I've gone kind of crazy today myself, but I think I was good. I think every fan has the right to voice what they think as long as they don't think other fans are wrong to feel and think the way they want to. I think what I do about the show and I don't expect anyone else to think and feel the same way that I do. I love reading all the different opinions about both Sam and Dean. Love that CW message board and that's why I keep going back there. I'm crazy to do it, but did I ever say I wasn't crazy.
I love how some fans will defend every action and decision Dean makes whether it's right or wrong. Like Dean is always right and his character is so much better than Sam's. I still remember the first times I started posting on there. It was like you had to love Dean first and foremost and then Sam was an afterthought or something. Like if you didn't love Dean and Jensen Ackles more than Sam and Jared then you didn't belong there or something. You could say a few nice things about Sam and Jared as long as you mentioned how great and wonderful Jensen and Dean were. Jensen deserves awards because of his stellar acting on the show, but Jared sucked and didn't deserve anything. And his acting was horrible in the first season and he got better as the show went along, like he had never acted in anything before Supernatural. Or what he was in sucked. I didn't care for Gilmore Girls, but Jared was great in it as Dean. Like Jensen is a way better actor than Jared. Some may feel that way, but I sure don't. I think Jared is the better actor and that's just me.
I love how one fan thought I was bashing Jensen because I said he's only been in one movie on the big screen here in America. He has only been in one and that was My Bloody Valentine. Or that I'm bashing Jensen because I don't think he's the better actor than Jared.
I've been called all kinds of things on that board and I know why some fans on there love Dean so much. It's because they are just like him in some ways. I love how a certain fan on there goes on and on about fan bashing, but she's so busy bashing all the fans on there to see that she's the biggest fan basher of all. It's so damn funny that it kills me at times.
I'd love to find some intelligent fans out there that could discuss the show in a rational way, but I'll probably never find them on that board. It's always Sam vs. Dean no matter what some of them say. I can tell the ones that love Dean and will always think everything Sam does is wrong and I can tell the ones that love Sam and think everything Dean does is wrong. I can also tell the ones that just love the show and want to post about it.

I love getting excited and obsessing about the show again. Especially the storyline. I liked season six, but I love season seven already and we're only three episodes in. I still don't think some fans know what season six was all about and why the writers chose to do what they did with Sam and Dean, but I do and that's all that matters.

I need to not go crazy and I might have to try to stay off the boards for a while. I always want to debate stuff, but no one wants to debate, they just want to fight each other or say Dean is always right about everything no matter what. I just personally love thinking about the characters and their motivations and just everything. I love thinking about what's going to happen next and what could happen. I hope to see lots of good dramatic stuff between Sam and Dean and I think it will happen this season.

Supernatural: The Girl Next Door

2011-10-07T21:26:00.000-07:00

I was so wrong about this episode at first. Then I thought about it today at work and I wondered if they weren't going to do some kind of time jump. That's the only way that Sam would have been okay to work a case on his own. I still wonder if Crowley isn't going to be back at some point to help out. He does have powers and The Leviathans are something Sam and Dean have never faced before. Maybe demons know something about them.
Jensen Ackles did a great job of directing this episode. I still wondered if it wasn't all going to be in someone's head or something. Like Sam was just seeing it and he was in a coma or something like that. I'm glad that it really happened and it opened up Dean's storyline for the season. I can just imagine all the crazy crap out there about Dean now and all the Sam and Dean hating and fighting that's going to go on over this. I don't understand it at all. I get Dean and I get Sam's characters. I don't sit and pretend that they are something or someone they are not. Dean has never been like Sam and Sam has never been like Dean, except when he was soulless. I still say that Dean could not stand soulless Sam because he could not stand looking at himself. Dean can't face himself and who he is. Maybe he finally will this season. I still think it's Dean who needs the saving and not Sam. I'm actually loving what's happening this season and I can't wait for more. I love that everything has changed and those Leviathans are dangerous and it's like Sam and Dean are now the hunted and not just the hunters.
Loved Colin Ford as the young Sam. He does such a great job in each and every episode he is in. He makes me believe that he really is Sam and I love that. The younger version of Sam that is. I loved watching the older Sam and then seeing the younger Sam.
I love how Sam asked Dean to trust him again. Didn't Sam say that before and what happened? Dean didn't trust him and the apocalypse happend. Not because of just Sam, but because of Dean as well. If Dean would have shown an ounce of trust and went with Sam, then the apocalypse could have been diverted. Even what happened with Castiel. Maybe if Dean would have paid more attention to what was happening with Castiel, then maybe none of what is currently happening would be happening. Dean wants others to trust him, but he doesn't trust them. Trust is a two way street. If there is not trust on both sides, then there's no trust at all. I don't think Dean even can trust himself.
I think Dean is the one who needs saving and he either has to save himself by facing the truth about himself or maybe Sam will help him face the truth about himself at some point and help save him. I think Dean wanted Castiel to help save him, Lisa and Ben to help save him, but in the end only Dean can save himself. That's just what I think right now.
I'm excited to find out what the writers have planned and what's going to happen. I haven't been this excited since season three. Three episodes and 20 more to go. Season 7 just is getting better and better.

Supernatural: Hello Cruel World And My Other Shows

2011-10-01T10:12:00.001-07:00

WOW! I loved the second episode of season 7 and it's now one of my all time favorite episodes of the show. I've never been this happy or excited about the show since season 3.
I loved all the scenes with Jared and Mark Pellegrino. Loved them. I love that we finally get to see what's happening in Sammy's head for a little bit at least. I loved that Sam and Dean were both injured at the end. Talk about drama. And what about poor Bobby. I think he's going to end up as a Leviathan or possibly the boss because how else will the Leviathans know everything about Sam and Dean. Bobby knows a lot about them and what they do.
Loved seeing Castiel walk into that water. I laughed so hard and when they found the coat. I don't think Castiel is dead and I think his grace went somewhere. I now wonder if he didn't end up in Purgatory after they re-opened the door. Castiel could just be about anywhere right now. Also, what's going to happen in Heaven now. Who's going to try and take charge up there because Castiel is now gone as well as all the others. I don't think Heaven and the angels are all gone from the show either.
I loved the scene with Sam and Dean in the warehouse when Dean talked and helped Sammy. I've been waiting for a long time to see that. Hopefully, Dean will finally treat Sam better and as a brother and not just as a problem.
It was interesting to watch how Bobby treated both Sam and Dean. Bobby saw what was happening to Sam and it was like he just wanted to get away from him. Then Bobby was more worried about Dean than Sam and that little affectionate moment between them. Also, Bobby took off to help Sheriff Mills and left Sam by himself when he knew what was happening. It's like Bobby didn't even care if Sam would be okay or not. I hope Bobby is evil now because that would be awesome.
There's so much I loved about the episode and the best part was seeing Sam finally injured and unconscious. I loved seeing Sam and Dean together in that ambulance at the end. That was my favorite part of the whole show.
As for next week. I wonder how Sam and Dean are going to get out of this one. I wonder if Castiel, Crowley, Death or someone else isn't going to save them and heal them. Something has to. Because I seriously doubt that Dean will have a broken leg for more than the next episode and Sam could die from what's happening to him. I bet something is going to help and heal them both. I'm hoping it's Crowley. He has the power to heal and he'd love having them in his debt. I wonder if Castiel isn't totally gone and maybe he'll come and heal them or something to redeem himself. I doubt the writers are going to reveal everything. Who's to say that Misha won't be in the third episode? Look how Mark Sheppard popped up at the end of Mommy Dearest.

Now onto Vampire Diaries. I loved it again. I loved that we finally got to see Stephan for a change and some of his history. The show is called Vampire Diaries and Stephan kept a diary of everything. Paul Wesley makes Stephan the perfect vampire. He can be sweet and loving one minute and totally evil the next. Just those looks on his face. I loved seeing that history between Klaus and Stephan. This show just keeps staying great and I've never stopped loving anything about it. It seems like it gets better and better every season.

Ringer was good this week. It wasn't as good as the first two episodes, but I loved it as well. It has me watching every week and wanting to know what's going to happen next. Sarah Michelle Gellar is awesome as two characters.

Gossip Girl started finally and I loved it. I didn't think it would be as good because last season towards the end wasn't that great. I thought maybe Blair wasn't going to be pregnant and she is. Now who's the daddy? I think it's Chuck but who knows now.

Here's something else that I've got to say in this post. It's about Supernatural and it's Fandom. I personally don't think that all the Fandom want the same things and I don't think the Fandom that shouts the loudest on the Internet should speak for the whole Fandom of the show. There are fans that don't even go on the Internet at all. I'm sure they've loved characters that have been killed off, but how would you know. I loved Ruby and Bela in season three and Katie Cassidy and Laura Cohan were main stars on the show and now they are gone. Just because Misha became a main star did not mean he was going to stick around forever. I doubt they kept him for as long as they did because part of the Fandom loved him. There were a lot of Fans that didn't like his character as well. I think most people need to realize Supernatural is about Sam and Dean and always will be. It's not about the other stars. Yes, they are in the show and you can love them, but they are expendable and can be dropped just as fast. It seemed to me that when Misha Collins became a main star, that was the end of him because you saw him in less episodes and in the episodes less.
Another thing that I read about that makes me mad. I love how some claim to be such big fans of the show, but they won't support it in ways that would keep it around for a long time. It's not just about ratings, it's about marketing. Okay, I'm done on this subject because some of the Fandom drive me crazy and it's not worth it to worry about them and what they think. I just hope that the Supernatural writers and Sera write the show how they want to and not just to please all these fractions of fans out there. If you love what's happening then great, if you don't, then quit watching the show.

Supernatural Season 7: Meet The New Boss

2011-09-23T21:52:00.003-07:00

The thing I loved most about the first episode of season 7 was Julian Richings as Death. I loved that whole scene when he first appeared and when Misha Collins came. Death and the New God. I loved the whole thing. I swear sometimes Misha, Julian and Mark Sheppard steal scenes and I totally forget that Sam and Dean are even there. It's kind of scary.
I wonder about this episode and is all of it real or is some of it all taking place in Sam's head again. Why did Sam have that bandage on his hand for the whole episode? I'm sure it took a couple of weeks for Dean to fix the Impala and for all of that to take place and Sam still had a bandage on his hand. Then when Lucifer said what he did to Sam and you didn't see Sam again. How that blood was just out there and no Sam?
Now on to good old Dean. If it was real, then I think Dean is an asshole. The way he treated Sam. It was almost like he wasn't even worried about Sam at all and that Sam was just a problem and that was it. I hated how Dean told Sam to not lie to him. How many times does Dean lie to Sam, but you don't see Sam getting angry about it? I wonder if Dean's attitude isn't guilt. He's guilty over his part in everything and he knows Sam is suffering because of him. Sam never asked for his soul to be restored or for his body to be brought back from Hell without his soul. Sam never got a choice in the matter at all. It was all Castiel's and Dean's choices and Sam never even got a say. Anything that Sam has done, is all on Dean's and Castiel's head as far as I'm concerned.
I thought this episode was so damn funny. I loved it for that. I love laughing and it make me laugh and feel good. That stuff with Castiel just killed me and then when Mark Sheppard came on. I love all of them. It was nice to see Mark Pellegrino again and I hope we get to see more of him and more of Julian Richings.
I'm not going to even look on any message boards because I can just imagine the crap that's being said. I'm tired of it. All the sniveling over Dean not having a storyline or not having his time in Hell addressed. Dean suffered in Hell, but all he has left from that is guilt over torturing. I wish some stupid fans would get that already. And some of the other stuff they bring up about Dean. I sometimes wonder if they can even process stuff in their crazy heads. Oh well, I'm not going to worry about that crap.
I can't wait for the next episode.
I'm also enjoying The Vampire Diaries right now. The last episode went by so fast because it was so good and I couldn't believe it was over when it ended. I wanted more. I thought I'd like The Secret Circle, but I really haven't gotten into it. I do love Ringer though. I always liked Sarah Michelle Gellar. I loved her as Buffy for the first three seasons of Buffy and then I couldn't stand what they did to her character. She was a strong slayer and then she because some weakling and turned into a slut as well. I hated that. I still loved Sarah, but I hated Buffy.
I also finished Bobby's Guide To Hunting. I thought it got better in the middle of the book and some parts were good. It was a pretty good read altogether. Not great, just good.

Crazy Dean Fans And Other Stuff

2011-09-17T22:41:00.001-07:00

I'm so tired of all the crazy and looney Dean fans out there. I love how some of them think that Dean has no storyline. It's the biggest joke ever and I can't stop laughing. And Dean's time in hell. I could hit a couple of them over the head with a brick, but they still would not get what I'm saying or believe that Dean's time in hell was fully addressed on the show. It's ridiculous and I wonder if some of them even have brains in their heads to think with. Or they just want to think of Dean in a certain way and not how he really is. How many times do you have to tell someone something? I won't even try anymore. I wish the stupid idiots would just accept that Dean tortured souls in hell and loved inflicting pain on others and now all he has left is the guilt from what he did and that part of himself that was able to do that. What more do some of these crazed fans want? Dean to sit in a corner crying and Sam hugging him or more appropriately Castiel hugging him or Bobby. I doubt Sam would be good enough to hug him or offer any comfort seeing how Sam is so horrible to Dean all the time. I love the idiot who wants to see Dean as a baby with Sam taking care of him. That's about the stupidest thing I've ever heard. Like that would be some great storyline for Dean. To be a baby and have Sam changing his diaper. Wow! I can just imagine how exciting that episode or episodes would be. I guess this fan in particular wants Dean to be the younger brother and Sam to be the older brother. She's living in a fantasy and she also probably wishes that Dean was Sam.
I haven't even been looking on message boards lately and I'm very happy that I haven't. I went on the CW message board just to read a few posts and get a few laughs and that's about it. I read a few other things that led to this post. I'm tired of all the crazy Dean fans who just want Dean to be front and center all the time and Sam to just stand behind him and do nothing but whatever Dean tells him to do. And for Dean to be the smart one and the brother who's the hero above all others. Like Dean hasn't already been a hero or something. All that crap about Dean not having a storyline or dropped storylines. I wonder if these nutty fans even watch the show or they just live in their little fantasy world of what they think the show should be and that's The Dean Show. Like Dean is the one who should have everything and Sam should have nothing. Like Sam's time in Hell even compares to Dean's. I love the idiot fans who think that. When was Dean ever possessed by Lucifer, had his soul separated from his body and his soul in hell for over a year and a half. Dean was in hell for only four months our time and Sam was there for about 18. Dean was being tortured and then tortured souls himself. Sam was locked in a cage in hell with Michael and Lucifer and who knows what they did to him. Whether is was all psychological or what kind of pain he went through, who knows? To even compare their time is crazy.

Now onto Vampire Diaries and Paul Wesley. Wow! He was awesome. I swear he hardly gets any kind of appreciation or acknowledgement just like Jared Padalecki. The funny thing is that Paul and Jared to me are the better actors on both Vamp Diaries and Supernatural. Jensen Ackles and Ian Somerhalder may have more quantity on the shows, but Paul and Jared have more quality. Their acting moves me and I feel everything they do. You hardly see them in some episodes, but when you finally do, they totally make it worth your while to wait. I almost cried watching that scene at the end of Vamp Diaries when Stephan called Elena and they were talking. Paul made it so believable and I loved it. I can't wait to see what's going to happen with Sam on Supernatural and I hope it's been worth the wait of about three years now. That's another thing about Dean fans, they can't even let Sam fans have anything at all. Sam gets about one emotional episode in how many and they cry and moan and complain about Dean getting nothing. It's crazy. I'm hoping we finally get to see some emotional scenes with Sam for a change. It would be very nice. I'm not going to get my hopes up too high because I know everything will go right back to poor Dean. Dean who has to carry the weight of the world on his shoulders and who trusts no one, not even his own brother. I love how Sam had to pull himself together after everything he's been through to prove to Dean that he has his back, but Dean never has to prove anything like that to Sam. There are times that Dean never had Sam's back, but then it doesn't matter because he's the great Dean Winchester and can do whatever he wants to.
I get so angry at some of those stupid fans and other times I could care less what they say or do because they are idiots. I'm tired of talking to stupid people already. I'd rather do something else with my time. I'm reading more and I'm loving my new Supernatural book Night Terror by John Passerella. He's an awesome writer and I've loved how many of his other books. I'm glad that he doesn't bog down his Supernatural book with all kinds of stuff from the show. Most of the people reading the book are fans of the show and already know what's happened with Sam and Dean, so why repeat it again or get it wrong trying to repeat it.
The book Bobby's Guide To Hunting is kind of crazy. I love how David Reed the author says that Sam was hopped up on demon blood when he faced Samhain. Sam did not drink demon blood for how long and who knows how much he had drank before he stopped doing it the first time. Lilith couldn't kill him and neither could Samhain with that demon killing light or whatever. Sam killed Samhain and did it mostly on his own. Then David says that an angel did what and it was Castiel. Why didn't he say that? It's crazy the whole book so far. It must take place in the Supernatural Twilight Zone because David doesn't say when it takes place. I guess it just took place in his imagination or something.
I'm probably not going to go on message boards while the show is on and if I do, it will be to post a few things and then leave or to read some stupidity and get a good laugh out of it. I'm tired of all the stupid Dean fans out there, especially on a certain board. I swear if they get any more stupid, I'll feel even more sorry for poor Jensen Ackles. I wonder what he thinks of all the crap they say about his character. I mean what he really thinks and not what he says at a convention. I bet he wishes that amulet never makes an appearance again. I wish I was psychic and could know what Sera Gamble, Jensen, Jared and everyone on the set of Supernatural thinks of some of the crazy fans out there and what they want to see on the show and what they want for Dean's character.

My Trip To Reno

2011-09-11T16:26:00.001-07:00

Just got back from my trip to Reno yesterday. I had a really fun time, but it was crazy too. I'm just so happy that I was able to go to my niece's wedding. It was very beautiful and she had it in a park. We had to wait for the preacher and he didn't come, so someone else did the vows for them and then later when the preacher finally showed up, he made it official in another little ceremony. They had a very nice reception and their wedding cake was really yummy. It had real strawberries in the middle of the frosting. I love strawberries.
I'm surprised that everyone got along and it was such a nice day. My sister and I got there with just a little time to spare. We had a free room at a motel, so that was nice. Later that night, my sister and I went gambling with our niece. We stayed out a little late. My poor niece even walked home from the casino because she was tired and didn't want to gamble anymore. My sister just kept gambling and didn't care. Lucky my niece didn't live far and she works at the casino we played at for hours. I had a good time and I was actually winning for a while and then of course, I threw it all back. I always do.
The next day we got up late and we went to Virginia City with the niece who got married. We went with her and her two little boys. That was a fun day, but the town closed early and we had gotten there late. So we missed a lot of stuff. It was still fun and nice to see all the stuff we did see. I went in some shop that had all kinds of old stuff from the past. I loved it because it reminded me of when I was a kid. I even found some candy in a candy shop that I haven't seen for years. There was a mansion there and it looked like it was about as big as my one sisters house. She thinks her house is small and that was a mansion back in those days. Most people probably lived in one room houses and tents.
The next day we were there both my niece's had to work and do other things, so my sister and I went to eat and gamble at The Atlantis. They have a really nice buffet and we played Deal Or No Deal on a big machine. It had a huge seat, so we could both sit at it and play. My sister played a Dirty Dancing machine. I've never seen those before. Then later we went out gambling with our other sister and the two nieces. There were a few fights, but I think we had a good time.
Then the next day we left town. My other sister came home with us. She had been staying there for about a month and she was ready to come home. I'm sure she enjoyed spending time with her kids and grandkids. I loved seeing all my nieces children. They are so cute. I think I got the flu or a cold or something. Now, I'm all stuffed up and I feel like crap. Anyway, we headed down the road and when we stopped in Winnemucca, my sister's van would not start. Thank God, it was only bad gas from the pump because she put in some gas treatment and it started again. We got to the gambling town that I play in all the time, just in time because my Mom had taken the bus there and it was almost leaving. She went and ate a buffet with us because we were starving and had hardly eaten all day. We gambled there for a little while and then all of us went home.
I had a really good time, but it was crazy as well. My sister and I fought more on this trip. I really don't understand how anyone can think Sam and Dean would never fight after spending all that time with each other. If I spent as much time with any of my sisters or brother the way Sam and Dean do, I'd end up killing one of them.
We'd probably come to blows and go our separate ways, quicker rather than later.
I saw a lot of crazy things and signs and stuff like that. I just wanted to sit and people watch in Reno. It's fun to see all the crazy people out there.

Late Night Posting

2011-09-02T00:18:00.000-07:00

I just finished writing a story. I'm a pretty crappy writer, but I try anyway. I wish that I could write better and tell what's really in my heart. All I can do is try to express what I'm feeling by practicing. I wrote a short story about Dean getting the amulet back. I don't want Sam to give Dean that amulet back because Dean threw it away. If one of my sisters threw something I gave them away, I'd never think they wanted it back. That's why I don't want Sam to be the one to give the amulet back to Dean. Why would Sam even think that Dean would want it back? Maybe Sam did leave it in the trashcan where Dean threw it. I think it would be cool if Dean got the amulet back in some mysterious way and it made him believe in God and that God really does care about him and Sam. That would be more moving and interesting than Sam just giving Dean back the amulet. I can't even picture it in my mind. I did picture what I wrote about, that it's God that makes sure that Dean gets the amulet back. I guess that's kind of stupid. I don't know.
I do believe in God. I know a lot of people lose faith in God because they don't get what they want. Or they don't believe in God because of all the suffering and pain they see every day.
I believe in God and I believe that he is in the middle of our suffering and that he suffers right along with us. That when we hurt, then so does he. He doesn't want us to fight, hate and kill each other. He wanted us to love and help each other and it's our choice what we do. We can love or hate. How would be ever grow and learn, if God didn't give us free will to make our own choices? I love how some people make stupid choices with their lives and then blame God for everything. God gave them a brain and free will and they only have themselves to blame for how their life turns out.
I believe that if you trust and believe in God, then he is there for you and you can feel his love surrounding you. There have been times in my life when I've been so depressed and all alone and everything is dark and I feel like I've fallen into this deep dark pit that I can't get out of. And while I've been in that dark pit, I have felt something giving me comfort. Some people would think I'm stupid and that's okay. Maybe they don't believe in God, but I do. I have felt things all my life and I know that God is there for me and he watches over me and all the people of the world. There have been times that I pray to God to help all the people and animals that are suffering and being abused and hurt. I pray that he comforts them in their time of need and is there for them. I'm sure he is. When I feel sad or depressed, I think about what others could be suffering and I don't feel all alone and most of the time I think my situation could be worse.
I think suffering and pain are a part of life and if we never experienced them, then how could be appreciate being happy and at peace. I think there are some people who actually make their lives here on Earth worse and some that there lives are bad, but they still love to live and wouldn't trade their lives with anyone.
I have a friend on Facebook and I love to read her posts. She's been through quite a lot this year and does she complain. No, she makes me laugh by what she's posting. Even when she was in pain in the hospital a while ago. I was worried about her when Irene hit back East and she lost her power and what not. I prayed for her and everyone over there. Her posts are not full of please pity me because of what I'm going through, but instead she tries to get some good out of the bad and actually make others feel good. I love that about her and I wish I could meet her and really know her.
I've just been thinking about this stuff and decided to write it down.

Sam Winchester Is Not Special, He's Just Awesome

2011-08-30T16:59:00.001-07:00

Sam Winchester is just awesome. I had to say that first. I love how some fans just want to believe that Sam is just some ordinary human being. How many ordinary human beings drink demon blood and can drink as much as they want without having their stomachs explode or die from drowning in demon blood. I swear, the stupidity kills me. Sam did have powers and I still think he has them, but now he just won't use them or maybe he did need the blood for a charge or something. It was just power anyway. Some fans believe it was evil, but I don't. It was just power and it depended all on what Sam would use it for. Whether he used it for good or evil. That's just like a gun. Some people say a gun is evil. A gun does not kill people, someone has to pull the trigger and that's the same thing with that power Sam had. It's what he used that power for and he used it to send demons back to hell or kill them. I still don't get how that was evil. Sam was trying to use that power for good or what he thought was good.

Now on to the colt. I tried to post in that thread about the colt on the CW site. I swear that no one wants to see that Sam, the colt and the knife killed demons all in the same way. So, what was it that gave them the power to kill demons. I wonder if it wasn't Death that gave Sam his powers and it's Death that helps the gun and the knife work. There's writing on Ruby's knife. I wonder if it's a spell or what on it. Does that help it kill demons? Also, where does that energy go when someone kills a demon or supernatural entity? Their spirit or power has to go somewhere and I've often wondered if something hasn't been collecting all that power. A demon is a human or fallen angel and they go to hell when they die, so what happens after they die for good from Sam, the gun or the knife. Where do their powers go to? Demons have powers and they get them from collecting souls. Obviously, so do the angels.
I posted about Sam not being able to be killed by the colt and obviously no one got that. Anna was going to kill Sam, so why didn't she find the gun or the knife and kill Sam that way. If the gun and knife kill and kill for good, then why wouldn't she use it on Sam. I think Sam is a supernatural entity because how could he use powers if he's not one. Where did all that power come from and he had power long before he sucked on Ruby's or any other demons blood. No one has ever tried to shoot Sam with the gun and sure Sam has died, but that has nothing to do with the gun. I still wonder if Dean or someone else had tried to shoot Sam with that gun, would they have succeeded in killing him.

Now that brings me to Dark Side Of The Moon. Sam and Dean were supposedly shot and died and went to heaven. After watching Castiel and Rafael in Heaven,the more I think it's a crock of crapola. I doubt Sam and Dean went to Heaven at all. Because every time you see Castiel and Rafael in Heaven they are in some humans Heaven. I doubt Sam and Dean were in each others Heaven or in Heaven at all. I think that was all made up crap to make Dean lose faith in Sam and it sure succeeded. Even that Joshua guy and the garden were crap. Why didn't we see Castiel or Rafael in that garden if they were fighting to be the next big leader up there?

Here's an old but one of my favorite pics of Sam from the first season. And a pic of my string dolls. Sammy, Ruby and Dean. I hope I'm able to get more of them. I love them.

Supernatural Hellatus

2011-08-26T18:36:00.000-07:00

I just love this pic of Jared and Jensen. I mainly love Jared's hair because it just looks so beautiful and you want to run your hands through it or something. Anyway on to the Hellatus.

It's really been a Hell on Facebook lately. How many friends have I dumped and they've dumped me and all over nothing. It's kind of funny in a scary way. My sister's ex-husband had a heart attack and I went to express my sympathy and say that he and the whole family were in my prayers and his daughter from a new marriage called me a creep because she thought I didn't know her father. I told her that I knew her father before she was born and that I still thought of him as part of my family and she obviously misinterpreted it. I just give up on trying to say anything in a public forum. I swear, someone will take everything you say out of context or try to get in a fight with you or something. It's scary and sad. I'm glad that my brother in law is getting better. I don't consider him an ex anything and I still care about him. He'll always be a part of my family because he's part responsible for me having my two wonderful nieces. Yes, sometimes they do things that drive me crazy, but they have their own lives now and I wish them all the best in everything they do. I wish my other niece the best also. I still love her, but it's very hard to express that to her and I love all my niece's little boys. They are a joy and I love them all. I don't see five of them because they are far away, but when I do, I enjoy every minute I can.

I'm still working and I'm kind of grateful that I am. I'm glad that I even have a job in this shitty economy. It would be nice to get released so I can go and see my niece get married. She had to postpone her wedding and I'm hoping to go to it still. I don't know if I'll get to make it. I'll be very sad about that. I'd love to see all the kids and my two nieces. If I go, I just need to avoid certain people down there.

I think I'm done posting at that CW message board already. The mods deleted I'm leaving from my thread. I guess that's offensive now or something. Whatever. I'm sure they'll think up some way to ban me and I'll be grateful if they do. I hardly post on there any way. It's like High School or something on there and goofballs coming up with clubs and crap like that. I've been out of school for a long time and I don't want to go back to that. Plus there's the bullies on there and the Queen that thinks she owns the whole board. Lately all the Queen has done is snivel and whine about Dean again. I love what a hypocrite she is. One minute she loves something and then turns around the next and snivels and whines about it. It's funny, but crazy at the same time. I wonder how many screen names she has. Then I love how she doesn't read anything you say and just attacks you and then pretends that you attacked her. I read someone else being attacked by her and it was just so funny because it reminded me of the times she attacked me and accused me of shit I didn't say or do on there.

I'm happy and content and nothing is going to change that and I can't wait for season 7 to start. I bet it's going to be a great season with both Sam and Dean getting good storylines together. I hope they come up with some new stuff and throw in some old stuff too. I think some fans should just stop watching the show, if all they can do is snivel about it. I remember I went on the CW message board and I was discontented with season 4 and I was attacked by how many posters and now those same posters are sniveling and whining how rotten the show is. I didn't even snivel that much during season 4 about the show and I've listened to these ones cry and snivel for two years now about how Dean doesn't get anything. Dean gets so much that it's pathetic already. I love his character, but I'm tired of all the sniveling and whining and it's us Sam lovers that had something to snivel about for the last couple of years. Dean fans had nothing to cry about, but they found plenty and they'll always snivel about everything.

Hellatus is almost over and new books are coming out and the season 6 DVD set. I can't wait for them and the show to start. There's also two new shirts and the calendars for pre-order.

More Of My Beautiful Bela

2011-08-21T15:28:00.000-07:00

Here's two more videos of my Bela outside. When I first brought her home she one day ran outside and my sister had to catch her. Then, for a while she didn't want outside at all and she'd run back in the house. Now she's wanted outside again. She's so cute out there rolling in the carport and eating grass. I only let her outside when I'm out there because I don't want anyone to hurt her. There's creepy kids in my neighborhood and I wouldn't want them to harm her in any way and I won't give them that chance. My little Mully never did like going outside and I used to take her out there and stay outside reading while she sat in the four o'clocks. Now she's buried under them. I wish I could have gotten some video of my little Mully before she died and I'm sad that I didn't take the time to learn this stupid digital stuff earlier. I'm still learning how to do things. Once you learn something, it's pretty easy and you wonder why you haven't been doing it or using stuff that you could have and made things easier. Bela is a very beautiful cat and I just love her pretty paw or funky paw as I like to call it. It's different from all the rest and it makes her look so cute. I'm glad that I took her home with me and I didn't leave her in that cage. I'm sad that she even had to spend any time in a cage. I can't understand what person would have just abandoned her like they did. I wish I could take care of more cats, but all I can do is love Bela and hope other people pick up the other cats and dogs that need a home and love.

Piers Morgan, Ducks, Castiel and The Snivelers

2011-08-20T10:51:00.000-07:00

First off, I love Piers Morgan. He's one of the main reasons that I love America's Got Talent. I love the show for the variety of acts that they can find and sometimes the level of talent is outstanding. It certainly is this season on the show. It's not just singers, but all kinds of different and exciting acts that I'd love to see in Las Vegas. I'd love to see these acts perform anywhere or how many together at the same time. Piers is my favorite judge on there because he doesn't sit and sugarcoat everything and say someone has talent when they don't. He's been wrong a few times and I can admit that because he's buzzed a couple of my favorite acts.
I love when he buzzes those stupid and crappy acts and then tells why he did it. I love it. There's just something about him that attracts me to him and not in a sexual way. I feel that way about a lot of people. They can pull you in with something hidden or something only you can see and feel about them and you want more. I always feel that way about Jared Padalecki. Some stars are not even that good looking, but they have something about them and I just love them for it.
Now on to the ducks. That crazy duck pond and duck nation or whatever they're calling it. I loved that pic of Jared and Jensen with their feet in that kiddie pool. They looked like two rednecks or something and all that was missing was beer and some guns in their hands. I couldn't stop laughing. A kiddie pool is their duck pond. I wish I could send a duck, but I'm sure they're going to get tons of them from all over. I've looked at how many of the pics of ducks that have been sent in and I can't believe all the different kinds. I hope all the fans are having fun with it. If I had the time, maybe I could think of something to do with a duck and then send it in, but I don't.
Kiss Your Cass Goodbye. I actually like to shorten Castiel to Cas, but whatever. It's Cass in all the novels, so whatever. I really don't care how anyone shortens the name. I hope Castiel isn't totally and completely gone for good. I do like his character, but there have been a lot of fans that want him gone and the show to go back to being about Sam and Dean. I'd love for the show to be about Sam and Dean again, but Castiel could still be around. I love his character. I didn't really care about him in season 4 and the storyline drove me crazy, but I really enjoyed him in seasons five and six.
Now to snivelers. Where do I even start? I guess I'll start with the Dean snivelers that constantly snivel about poor Dean. Dean doesn't have a storyline except for taking care of and worrying about Sam. What a bunch of shit? Anyone who thinks that has seriously never watched the show or they just want to snivel because they're not seeing what they want to on it. Dean has had more storyline and airtime then Sam ever will. It would be nice to see Sam actually have some storyline and not be another character for one season after the last 3 seasons. Maybe Dean could become a different character for a while and Jensen would get more story and maybe that would make other fans happy. I highly doubt it. They'd snivel no matter what. I'm so tired of the sniveling. Dean could be on for the whole show and the writers could totally focus on his character like always and I'm sure some fan would still snivel because Dean is not the Dean they want to see.
I love the snivelers at work who have to snivel about everything they have to do. They're so lazy, it makes me sick and then they snivel and snivel about the work. They snivel because they can't get time off from work, but maybe if they actually worked when they were at work, they'd get time off because the work would get done.
The snivelers on Facebook and Twitter and all over the Internet. Is anyone ever happy or do people just need to snivel about anything and everything? Can't anyone be content and happy with things for just a little while. I snivel about stuff, but I don't do it every day and all the time. I'm happy and content right now. I don't care what will happen on my shows or Supernatural because I'm just happy they are going to be new soon and not repeats. I'm sure Sam's character will get a little attention in the first part of season 7 and then the focus will go back to Dean like it always does and Sam will be back in the background again. I'm hoping that both Sam and Dean will stay the main focus of Supernatural, but if that doesn't happen, then whatever. I'm hoping for some more Stephan in Vamp Diaries, but we'll see what happens. I want more Chuck and Blair on Gossip Girl and some great storylines and I'm sure I'll get them.
I think right now it's best that I avoid certain snivelers because I'm tired of all the sniveling and it's getting boring as well. I'd rather be happy and excited for things to come.

Dean Winchester Is Special

2011-08-14T12:55:00.000-07:00

I love how some fans have to try and make Dean special by thinking he's an angel, or that angels were watching over him because he was the chosen special child to save the world, or that he has special powers of some kind and try to think up a bunch of crap. Even now, after we've found out why Dean was rescued from Hell, how many fans want to believe it's because God loves him the most and he's the chosen one to save everyone or the world. Dean can look directly into an angel's grace. I've never seen Dean do that and I guess other fans can think he looked into Zac's grace and think whatever the hell they want to. Even the writers say that he didn't, but they think he did. That means that Sam could see an angel's grace as well, seeing how he was Lucifer's vessel and Lucifer was an angel.
That's just like the crap with Sam drinking demon blood. Like the blood was evil or something and turning Sam into some arrogant and evil monster and it did nothing to him as far as I'm concerned. Demon blood is just blood and if it did help Sam charge something or give him power, then that's all it was. Where did demons get their power from to begin with? Lucifer, the angel. Honestly, the stupidity about all of this just drives me crazy. Like Dean supposedly being Michael's vessel made him way more righteous than Sam being Lucifer's vessel. Dean is no more righteous than Sam and never has been.
To go off on something else because I was thinking about it and it drove me crazy reading some of the stupidity about it. Yellow Fever. How many fans thought Sam was so horrible to Dean in this episode? I don't get that at all. I just finished watching it again. I guess it's because Sam didn't cry and hold Dean and tell him he loved him or something and hoped he didn't die. Instead, Sam used his head and figured out a way to save Dean from dying. I guess that was so horrible and rotten for Sam to do and I'm sure he still had demon blood flowing in his veins at the time or something.
To me, Dean is special and has always been since the show first started. Maybe he's never been psychic or had any powers, but he kicks ass and the one thing I love him the most for is that he always protects and takes care of Sam. The one time he didn't do that was when he came back from hell and listened to an angel over his own intuition and his brother. Look what happened. If Dean had stayed by Sam's side like he should have and not thought that Sam thought of him as weak, then maybe things would have turned out differently. The angels and demons manipulated and used him and made him think Sam was turning into some monster or becoming dangerous and Dean believed them.
If God had any plans for Dean, then I think his plans meant for Dean to watch over and protect Sam. Dean himself has always thought that was his job and I don't think it was just John telling him to constantly take care of Sam. Dean felt like he had to take care of and protect his little brother. That could have come from God. When was the only time that Dean didn't take care of and protect Sam. That's when Sam was with Ruby. Dean basically turned away from Sam because he thought Sam believed him to be weak and he left. What happened when Dean found out what the angels were up to and then went to go and help Sam? Sam and Dean were saved together before Lucifer rose. If God did that, then both Sam and Dean are special, but in totally different ways. God cares about and loves them both. I still wonder about the amulet and whether it was the amulet that stopped Lilith from hurting Sam or from Samhain hurting him. Dean was there both times with the amulet on him. I like to wonder about that amulet, but that's it. I don't care if they bring it back or not, but if they do, then I'd expect to see Dean get it back in some other way than Sam giving it to him. Dean threw it away, so why would Sam think that Dean would ever want it back, even though they have a good relationship now. I'd love for the amulet to come back in some totally and completley unexpected way and maybe affirm that God does want Dean to protect Sam and that's what his job was to do and that's why Sam gave it to Dean or it was meant to go to Dean.
I hate when fans believe that Dean is not special just because he doesn't have powers or some other crap like that. I'd love for Dean to experience having some powers and find out how hard it is and what and how Sam felt having the powers he did. I know that if Dean had powers of any kind, he'd probably use them to help people at whatever cost and isn't that what Sam did. No one can tell me, Dean would not use powers, even evil ones to help Sam or to save other people.
I hate when fans whine and moan about Dean not saving the world. I still remember all that stupid crap with Save Dean Save The World on it. Like Dean was the only one that could save the world and that he was way more special than Sam because of it and that Dean had to save the world and Sam because Sam was turning evil or something. All the fans that cried and moaned that Dean didn't help save the world when he let his little brother die and go to hell. That was the hardest thing Dean has ever had to do in his life and they think it was nothing. Dean was a hero by not doing anything and letting Sam do it. I never ever wanted Dean to be Michael's vessel or ever see him be Michael's vessel. If that would have happened, then I would have lost all my love and respect for Dean. Dean is special and he's a hero that I love to watch right along with the other hero of Supernatural, his brother Sam.
I guess I just needed to post this here because I'm certainly not going to post it on some message board with snivelers and whiners. I'm sure in some way this post is bashing Dean or it would be to certain Dean fans and I don't care what they think anymore.

Frontierland And More

2011-08-12T19:59:00.000-07:00

I just love to watch Frontierland. It was one of the best episodes ever of Supernatural and one of my favorite of season 6. I've watched it a few times on the Internet and I just watched it again tonight on TV. I can't wait for the season 6 DVD set to come out so I can watch it even more times and all my other favorites.
I just loved Dean wearing his blanket. It still kills me to watch his face when how many characters comment on it. He looked like he was going to cry or something.

Here's what I'm hoping for in season 7. Dean to finally deal with his issues and what he did in Hell. I still think Dean is afraid to face what he did by torturing those souls down there. I'd love for a demon to come along and you find out it was a soul that Dean tortured in Hell. Then I'd loved to see that demon go after Sam for revenge or something. That would be great to watch and Dean would finally have to deal with what he did or finally face it. It seems that Dean just wants to forget about everything and try to bury it, but that never works. Drowning your problems in a booze bottle does not help either. Eventually you have to face yourself one day and what you've done and who you are. I don't think Dean has ever done this. He's never had to face his dark side before. It would be neat to see Dean split in two and his good side and bad side have a face off or something. I liked that scene in Dream A Little Dream Of Me when Dean faced demon Dean. It would be awesome to see that, but with Dean facing himself and who he was in Hell. I love how I always bring up Dean torturing souls in hell and loving it and that qualifies as me bashing Dean. Dean said that himself right in Family Remains. He told that all the pain he suffered in hell was washed away when he started to torture and that he liked it. He liked causing others pain. That was Dean's soul that did that in Hell.

I love how fans want to compare Sam and Dean's experiences in Hell. They both had such different experiences and we really know nothing yet about what happened to Sam down there yet. We know Dean was tortured by Alistair and then started torturing himself and liked it. I think Dean is so guilty about that and he's so afraid of who he was in Hell and what he's capable of. It would be interesting if part of Sam's hell included Lucifer showing Sam what Dean did in Hell and how he tortured souls. I'd love that. I know that would be so hard for Sam and that would be like hell for him. I doubt it will happen, but I can hope for it.

I love going on the CW site and reading dumb threads like that one about Dean seeing Zachariah's grace. Like that made him special or something. Like Sam would not be able to see an angel's grace but Dean can. Like Lucifer wasn't an angel and so was Azazel. It's so damn funny to see the stupidity at times. And like angels watched over Dean when he was a baby or something because he was more righteous or special than Sam. I love how some fans have to make up crap to try to believe that Dean is more righteous or that God loves him more than Sam or something. Like God chose him over everyone and he's God's special child or something. I guess that makes Sam Lucifer's special child. Even though it was Sam who believed in God and prayed to him for years and Dean never even believed there was a God or angels or nothing.
The thing is on Supernatural the angels have been way worse than the demons for killing humans. It seems like the angels hate humans way more than the demons do.
I think Dean still doesn't believe in God, but I still think Sam does and maybe that's why he's been able to survive everything he's gone through. He prayed to God and who said he stopped. Maybe he did and maybe he didn't.

My little Sammy went to Frontierland way before Sam and Dean did on the show. Instead of having an angel send him back for 24 hours, he used his transporter and stayed for as long as he wanted to. I think he was way smarter than Sam and Dean and maybe Sam and Dean should have found a transporter and they could have used it to go anywhere and in time they wanted to.

Pet Society Is 3 Years Old

2011-08-08T18:51:00.000-07:00

Pet Society is 3 years old and it's a party. I love playing and there is just so much fun stuff. I'm glad that I have something to do while waiting for my shows to come back on.

My Little Sammy And Little Jared

2011-08-06T21:29:00.001-07:00

Here are some pics of my little Sammy and Jared playing in their new bouncy houses. I just love Pet Society. Whenever I'm depressed, I just go and play with my little demons and all is right with the world again. They look so cute playing in their houses and with all their stuff. It's Pet Society's 3rd Birthday and I've been playing for over two years now myself. I should have gotten my computer sooner and I could have played from the start. Pet Society has fixed some of their problems, but there are still a few things that drive me crazy when I go on.
I have a really good idea for a Supernatural story, but I don't know if I'll be able to write it down. It's all in my head, but when I go to type it, it never comes out right. It sounds stupid and pathetic. I've been thinking about writing some more spoofs as well. Hopefully I'll find some time to start writing again. It's a miracle I have time to do anything. It seems like the days are just flying by. I'm still working and I doubt I'll be released anytime soon, but you never know. I never know what my employers have planned. It feels like I'm just working right now because the perm workers are so lazy that they can't get the work out and it's up to us to get it done.
I feel so disconnected from everyone right now for some reason. I usually feel this way all the time. Like I don't really belong anywhere or I'm not really wanted anywhere. I'm not going to lie to others so that I can belong somewhere. I guess I just don't fit in anywhere right now and maybe I've never fit in anywhere. Sometimes I feel disconnected from my own family. I love how some people want you to lie to them so that they can feel good about themselves or the things they've done. I refuse to do that. I don't lie to myself and I don't like when others lie to themselves about things. It drives me crazy. I will not tell people what they want to hear or say that I like something when I really don't. I like what I like and that's all. I won't apologize or feel bad about loving the things that I do. I like to be my own person and I will not become a sheep following others around trying to stay in some group with them and pretend to be like them. I see other people doing that all the time. They say things to make friends, but they don't really mean what they're saying. I don't know why I'm even writing this or thinking about it.
TV is pretty boring right now. All that's on is America's Got Talent and repeats of all my other shows. I look forward to Tues. and Wed. when AGT is on. I root for how many of the acts and I wish all of them could be stars. I guess they are in a way, even if it's only for a short time. They made it on TV, so they are stars in that regard.
I can't wait for Supernatural to start again, so that I can look forward to Friday night. I still wish that Supernatural could be on with Vampire Diaries. I loved watching them together, but I guess they have to help other shows get ratings. Pretty soon all my shows will be new again and my life will revolve around the TV set. I used to watch a whole lot more TV back when I was younger because there were so many shows I just loved to watch. I still get excited for shows to come on, but not as much anymore. I mainly get the most excited for Supernatural because I'm so obsessed with it. I've gotten less obsessed lately, but once the new season starts, I'll get crazy again for it.

Spoilers For Supernatural Season 7 And Other Stuff

2011-07-31T10:30:00.000-07:00

WOW! I haven't posted for a while. I've either been too lazy or too busy to. I'm still at work and I don't have a lot of time to do stuff on the Internet when I get home. I follow my twitter and look at a few tweets and that's about all on there. I hardly go on message boards. I've only been going on CW's lately and that's it. And then I don't look at too much.

Here's the reason that I don't really care about message boards right now. Tons of fans are going nuts with all the so-called spoilers that were given out at Comic Con. Nothing was revealed at Comic Con except for what they wanted fans to know. I think Sera Gamble teases the fans and pretends to give out important stuff and of course fans believe it all. Even Jared Padalecki, I loved his interviews and I think he gave nothing away. Misha and Mark practically said nothing. I didn't see any of Jensen's but I read some of the stuff he said. When are fans going to learn that the writers and actors are purposely saying certain things so the fans will think about them and then be surprised when they really see what's going to happen. They mislead everyone, but most fans don't get it and go off and worry about certain things that they need not worry about.

I just love to watch the interviews because it's fun to see all the stars and I wish I could have been there with them. I could care less what they say about the show because they are not really saying anything, if that makes sense. It's kind of like this pic for this post and for the episodes. Fans see these pics and then think they know what's going to happen on the show. The pics are mostly just one or two scenes only and they reveal nothing at all. It's interesting reading what fans come up with for the pictures and spoilers and at other times I get bored with it.

There's still quite a ways until the new episodes start, so there will be a whole lot more guessing what's going to happen. I love to guess and think about what will happen. I have a theory already for one of the episodes and I hope it happens. All the other fans out there will be so surprised. I've read tons of stuff they think is going to happen and it could, but I wonder what will really happen and what the episode is really about. It concerns Sam and I hope we get some good stuff with his character and that he spends a while dealing with everything that's happened to him. I hope it's not over after the first couple of episodes and then hardly mentioned
again. That's what usually always happens with Sam because most fans just want Dean and Castiel. And if there is any Sam they think he's boring and the episodes suck or something. I'm personally tired of just seeing Dean all the time whining about this or that and it's been going on since the show started. Dean and his daddy issues is really driving me crazy. And all that stuff with Lisa was the biggest bore ever on the show because they did stuff wrong. I would have probably been okay with Lisa and Ben, but they ruined it by Dean just pushing Ben and then never dealing with anything. But I guess that's what Dean does, he never deals with anything and just grabs some booze and that's it. That gets boring after a while and then he tells Sam to drink or take pills to deal with his problems. I hope they have Dean deal with some of his issues and not just drink and act stupid like always. Or Dean take out his issues on Sam all the time. Sam doesn't deserve that.

I see new stuff has come out finally, like new shirts and stuff. Actually new shirts with Sam and Dean on them. There's going to be a lot of stuff coming out in Sept. like books and season six DVD set. I hope I have money to buy them all. I was stupid again and went gambling and wasted a ton of money. I'm a loser and I think I need to realize that already. I'll never have easy money and I'll always have to work hard for everything I get. You'd think I'd be smart enough to spend my hard earned money on something better than gambling. Usually I do, but every once in a while, I go totally crazy and waste a ton of money gambling. I'd love to go to my neice's wedding coming up here in August. I hope I can go and that I'm not still at work. I'd never get the time off to go there. Then it's in Reno, a gambling town. Gambling all the way down there. That could be a big problem or not. Sometimes I can control myself and other times not. I'll have to see what happens.

Another long post because I'm too lazy during the week to post about anything and I'd rather spend time with my Little Sammy and Co.

I LOVE BELA

2011-07-24T13:00:00.000-07:00

Here's a video I took of Bela playing with her snake. I couldn't put it on here before because my Internet was crap. She's so cute and I love watching her play. She also carries balls around in her mouth and then plays with them. Lately in the night some cat has been coming around and sitting on my window outside and I hear Bela growling and hissing at it. She sounds like a siren or something and wakes me out of a sound sleep. One time she attacked the window. It's kind of funny, but I hope she doesn't go flying out the window one day. The screen is not very strong and the windows are new.
She's a good cat and she mostly spends her days grooming herself, playing with her toys, sleeping and of course being loved by me.

Pet Society And Farmville

2011-07-22T23:07:00.000-07:00

I love playing Pet Society and Farmville on Facebook. Pet Society is working on their problems and they gave everyone a free cash item, so that was nice of them. It drove me crazy when I saw all those paw prints instead of my Sammy's stuff. The game has started to load faster and of course I bought pet society cash for all the cute Harry Potter stuff. Now it's going to be Charlie And The Chocolate Factory. My Sammy is a cute Oompa Loompa. I have two farms in Farmville, but now I mainly stay on my English Countryside one. I love to breed those crazy sheep and see what colors I get next. These games are nice and relaxing and I love to come home from work and play them for a while and on the weekends. My little Sammy makes me smile and laugh all the time because he's so cute. I especially loved when I got Sammy a slide and he slides down on it and it's the cutest thing ever. I can't believe how fun it is to play with my Sammy. Petville sucks next to Pet Society. I have a pet on there and it's just ugly and everything is one dimensional, but on Pet Society, the pets actually can do things. I love it.

I'm A Fan Of Many Things

2011-07-17T12:19:00.000-07:00

I call myself a fanatic because I'm a fan of many things and not just of one thing in particular. I'm totally and completely still obsessed over Supernatural and it's been six years now. I think that's a record or something because usually I only stay obsessed over something for about a year or two. I still love Supernatural and Jared and Jensen. I love Vampire Diaries because it is such a well written and well acted show. There is so much to love about it. I'd love to go to one of their Conventions.
I love all my TV shows, but I simply adore and love music of all kinds. I love music from way back in the past and new music of today. I love classical, rock, pop, country and whatever classification the rest comes under. I just love the certain music I love because it always makes me feel good and that's the best thing. I love movies and series of movies. I loved all the Harry Potter, Lord Of the Rings, Star Wars and Pirates movies. There are a whole lot more than that, but I just named a few. I wouldn't ever dare to mention every TV show that I've ever loved. The list would be so long as well as a list of all the movies I've loved. When you get older, the list just gets longer and longer. I'm a fan of many actors and actresses and those lists are way way too long. Of course the one I'm a main fan of right now is Jared Padalecki. I'm a fan of many writers and I just love to read. I've read tons of books since I graduated from school and I'm still reading.
I've been trying to read more, but this darn Internet takes a lot of my time. I still read quite a few books and I love so many authors. I especially love book series. I love characters in books and my very favorite character of any book is FBI Special Agent Pendergast. He's a character in Douglas Preston's and Lincoln Child's book series. I loved him so much in Still Life With Crows and The Cabinet Of Curiosities. I also love Janet Evanovich and her character of Stephanie Plum. I love all my Harry Potter books and have read all of them over and over again.
I hate to be stereotyped into being a certain fan of anything. I'm a fan of how many things. I love Supernatural and I'm certainly a Supernatural fan, but that's not all I am.
I'm also a very huge fan of my new cat Bela. I love her very much and I hope to love her as much as I loved my Mully. I simply love and adore all cats big and small. They are not the only animals I love. I love bats, horses, dogs and wolves.
And on Facebook, I'm a fan of Pet Society and Farmville. I just love spending time playing with my pets and going on my farm. It's fun and I play a few other games every once in a while like Farkle. That game is addictive.
I'm a fan of so many things and I love them all. I used to think that life wasn't worth living, but all the things I love make my life worth living.

Sammy Snape

2011-07-16T10:21:00.001-07:00

My little Sammy is dressed as Snape because he was the best Harry Potter character ever. I loved him and I cried during the movie and when I read the book after he died. Alan Rickman was awesome and I just thoroughly love his acting. I'm so glad that he was cast as Snape. I think Lily and Snape was the best love story in the whole Harry series because it was unrequited love. That is the most heartbreaking love story to watch. When someone loves someone else but is never able to be with them and they'd do anything for that someone.
The whole last Harry Potter movie was great and I can't wait to get the other half on DVD and then I can watch them together. It's kind of sad that that was the last movie and there will be no more books, but I'll love Harry Potter forever. I'll never get tired of reading the books or watching the movies.

Why? Pet Society Why?

2011-07-10T16:25:00.000-07:00

I can't believe that stupid Pet Society. You really love a game and then they screw it up by trying to fix it, when there is nothing wrong with it. Some idiots must have sniveled that the game took too long to load, so they made it load faster. Now it loads fast and you get on the game, but what good is it? There's a ton of paw prints instead of all your pets things and how much crap won't even load while you're playing. It sucks and I hope Pet Society fixes this soon because if it doesn't then I won't be buying any more pet society cash items. I'm not going to spend real money on something that I can't even see or play with. It's stupidity. There are a ton of fans complaining about it and I hope they either change it back to how it was or fix it.
Then stupid Facebook has to play all the time on improving crap. I'm getting tired of that shit already. I'm getting sick of idiots trying to improve on something that doesn't need improvement. Honestly, it's getting tiresome already.
I love my little Sammy and Co and I want to be able to see them in their clothes and all their stuff in their houses when I go see them and not paw prints everywhere. I took some pics of all the craziness and here's just two of them. I can't stand looking at the other ones of my pets being naked and a ton of paw prints instead of their stuff. I paid for Sammy to ride his broom and not be flying around on his own while his pet skunk is on the broom.

The Brian Buckley Band

2011-07-08T22:15:00.001-07:00

When I first saw The Brian Buckley Band at the L.A. SPN Convention, I thought they were an okay group. I loved Brian's voice, but it was kind of being drowned out by the music. I bought a CD for myself and one for my sister and the band signed them. I'm so glad that I did. I listened to their first CD and I liked it a lot and it had such a different sound than what I've heard before. I love that the most about the band, that it's different. Hysterical Blindness their new CD is awesome. I love each and every song on it and I love listening to it at work. My favorite song is Coo Coo and I love the music and the words and it gets me typing how fast at work. I love that Brian wrote most of the songs. That's something I really love, when singers write their own songs because it gives them even more meaning.
I am now a Brian Buckley Fan and not just a Supernatural fan that likes them. I'm very grateful to Jared because if not for him, then I'd probably have never known about them. I usually find new music by hearing it on my favorite TV shows.
The Brian Buckley Band has given me a very special gift and that's the gift of great music. That's one of the best things in the world and I'm very grateful to them for sharing this music. I hope to one day see them live again. I wish I could see them in Vegas because I love going there.
My pics are not so great, but I thought I'd use them. I love all those peoples heads. I'm sure my head is in how many pictures out there. I'll be supporting Brian and the rest of the band and hopefully they'll have another album come out. That would be great.

Beautiful And Colorful Horses

2011-07-01T16:55:00.001-07:00

The horses are lining the streets of Ogden again. I love them. I especially love the one with the cougar on it and the money one.

John Denver

2011-06-29T10:39:00.000-07:00

I've been listening to my John Denver CD's lately because I always feel good when I listen to them. I love John Denver so much because he saved my life and I never even got the chance to thank him for it. I guess some people would think I'm crazy for even saying that. How can someone you've never met, save your life? John Denver's music has been like a drug to me and it's helped me so much. There are certain songs of his that make me feel like John was singing personally to me, even though I know he wasn't. My favorite John Denver song is Looking For Space. It's a song about finding out who you are, but enjoying life while you're doing it. Sometimes you are deep in despair and other times you can fly as high as an eagle. I love that song and the words really helped me when I needed it the most. Another song of John's that I really love is Fly Away because that's how I feel all the time. I'm lonely, but I choose it.
I can never properly put into words how I feel about John. I just know that I wished I could have met him and thanked him for all he did for me. His beautiful songs that helped me and help me still today. I'll have them forever and they are truly his autograph. Who needs his signature, when I can listen to his music and he'll be there and it's like he's still alive or a part of him is. The best part. I think John put the best part of himself into his music and songs and he shared that part of himself with the world. That's a very rare thing. His love for the Earth, family and living are all expressed in his beautiful and timeless songs.
I love John Denver for what he personally has done for me and I always will.

Award For Supernatural

2011-06-22T17:09:00.000-07:00

Okay my little Sammy made an award for Supernatural. He says it's the best show on TV today. Maybe it's not an Emmy or People's Choice or anything like that, but it's an award from the heart. Sammy calls it The Catnip Award For The Best TV Show On TV and it goes to Supernatural. Sammy says this award goes to everyone who helps to make Supernatural the best, even the people that are hardly recognized. Everyone and not just Jensen, Jared or the stars. It's for everyone who helps to put Supernatural on the air and for The CW Network because it's the best. Without CW, Supernatural probably would not still be on the air, so he wants to thank them for keeping Supernatural around for six years and counting.

Beautiful Roses

2011-06-18T12:21:00.001-07:00

It's nice to stop and smell the roses every once in a while and it's even nicer when they're in your own yard. The roses are finally blooming and they are beautiful. I love when water is on roses and when they are first starting to bloom. I always stop and smell roses when I'm out walking somewhere and I enjoy flowers blooming. It took how long this year for the roses to bloom because it's been so cold and we've finally started to warm up a little. Hopefully it will get hot soon because it will be summer in only how many days. Usually, I've got a window open and I've only opened my window three times so far this year. I'm hoping for some 80's and 90's soon, so I can be warm and feel like a lizard laying on a rock again.

Jared Padalecki Is A Movie Star Already

2011-06-15T21:53:00.000-07:00

I love that stupid poll that's going on right now. TV Stars We Want To See Become Movie Stars. Jared is on there and he's already a movie star. He's been in five movies that have been in movie theaters and as far as I'm concerned, that already makes him a movie star. I love how some fans think Jared has become a better actor since he's been on Supernatural and like he's never acted in anything before that or that his acting sucked before Supernatural.
Then that other stupid poll with Jensen. They should just make Jensen the winner because you only know the crazed Jensen fans are going to spend their time in front of their computers voting for him over and over. I'm sorry, but as far as I'm concerned, Jensen is not the King Of Drama. I wish they had a real contest going on and each person got to choose who they wanted and only got to vote once. Jensen would never win.
I love Jensen, but I think there are way more talented actors out there right now. The one thing about Jensen that I find lacking in his acting is his inability to show parts of himself and go all the way. I love that quality in Jared. You can see his very soul when he acts and he gives so much of himself in any role he plays and becomes that character. I'd love to see Jensen play other roles besides Dean Winchester or play a different role on Supernatural. Jensen has played demon Dean, vampire Dean, shape shifter Dean and future Dean. Never a totally different character, only Dean. Jared on the other hand has played various characters and his best was Lucifer. Jared never gets any kind of acknowledgement on the Internet or anywhere except for a few fans giving him an award for his acting. Jared to me is the most under appreciated actor out there right now. He gives great award winning performances on Supernatural, but they are never acknowledged because Jensen always gets the nod for the best performances. For a show that says it's about two brothers and that they are equal and the actors both make the show, Jensen is the one that is always getting acknowledgement for his role as Dean and that he's so great playing the character, but Jared never does. In magazines, polls and whatnot, Jensen's acting is so much better than Jared's. I personally don't see this at all. I think Jared far outshines Jensen, but Jared has less screen time and less focus on his character. Of course, Jensen will always be said to be the better actor because he gets all the storyline and the dialogue while Jared is mostly in the background of most episodes. Sam is the mystery and Dean is the drama and heart of the show and has been since season 4.

I'd love for Jared to be a bigger movie star after Supernatural is over. It would be nice to see him on the big screen again and in a drama not a romance comedy. That's the last thing I'd want to see him in. I'd love for him to be in a serious dramatic role because he does that so well. I loved him in Christmas Cottage and I'd love to see him do more roles like that. Heck, I wouldn't mind if he was on Supernatural less and did another movie role because what does it matter. I'd rather see him being the star of a movie, than like a guest star on a show he's starred in for the last six years and hardly getting to shine because he's always in the shadow of Jensen Ackles to most people. As far as I'm concerned, Jared when he finally gets to act on Supernatural shines like the brightest light and shows what a great actor he really is.

I love Jared not just because he's a great actor but because he makes me feel good and when I watch him act, I'm moved by him. I can see his soul and he just gives me something that no one else can. He makes the world a better place to live in and he shines so bright that you want to stay warm in his light. I still remember getting my photo op with him at the L.A. Con. Words can't even express how I feel about just being that close to him and for one moment standing in that light that is Jared Padalecki.

Daniel Radcliffe Is Not Just Harry Potter

2011-06-13T17:05:00.000-07:00

I loved seeing Daniel on the Tony's last night. It was nice to see him dancing and singing. I'd love to see him in a musical or a play. Daniel is not just Harry Potter, but a whole lot more.
I'd love to see more of my favorite actors and actresses in musicals or plays. It's always amazing when I find out that an actor or actress can sing and dance as well as they act. The sad part is, I'm not rich and most of those musicals and plays are only being shown in New York or London or somewhere that I'll never get to. I've been to see Phantom Of The Opera and Les Miserables and that's it. I loved going to both of them and I wish that I could see The Woman In White and Miss Saigon. They have to come to the theatre where I live in order for me to see them. Also, I have no one to go and see them with. I'd have to go alone and I doubt I'm going to wear a dress on a bus going to the city to see one. I don't think I even own a dress that fits me anymore. Or it's so old, it's totally out of style. I bought my last dress about 15-20 years ago.

Now to go back to Daniel. I love him as Harry Potter and he sure does deserve an award for playing the character through 8 movies. That is quite an accomplishment and Daniel has done an excellent job. I doubt he'll ever win or be nominated for an academy award for Harry Potter. The Harry Potter movies are blockbusters and they're usually never considered for awards. Sometimes music and special effects, but that's about it. The acting in them has been the best reason I go and see them.

I'm taking a break from the CW board because it's gotten very boring on there. Snivelers sniveling about Castiel. Most of the Castiel haters probably really love him because they sure do talk about him a lot. So they must think of him a lot. Then Jared's a twit on twitter now and of course how many fans are following his twitterings. I'm one of those fans because I've been following him, but I don't expect him to tweet all day long about everything. I'm sure the non-spoilers will start to come out soon and fans will get nutty over those. Maybe things will pick up in a month or two on there, but for now I'm going to occupy myself with other things. I may post every once in a while and that's it. I've found some other fun and exciting places on the Internet to go to.

Castiel And Who's Good Or Bad

2011-06-10T23:17:00.000-07:00

I love how Castiel is now considered a bad guy or evil all of a sudden. Why is that? Because he did something the great and wonderful Dean Winchester did not like. I guess Castiel was supposed to have Dean tell him what to do about the war in Heaven and not do anything himself. It doesn't matter if Dean really gives a shit what happens in Heaven or not. Dean who only cares about who he considers family at any given time is the only one that anyone should listen to because he's the only character on Supernatural that knows right from wrong. No other character does. Sam is just stupid and evil all the time. He has no moral compass, even when he has his soul inside his body. Sam was the bad guy in season four because he wanted to kill a demon. A demon who had his brother killed and sent to hell to be tortured. But Sam was not supposed to try and get revenge, he was probably supposed to send Lilith a fruit basket or something. Maybe he should have told her he loved her and hugged her for sending Dean to hell. Sam and Dean were trained by John to kill the Supernatural and demons fall into that category. I just don't get that when Sam wanted to kill Lilith, everyone thought he was evil for doing it. Evil for wanting to kill a demon. Sam never knew she was the last seal at the time, if he had known, then he would never have tried to kill her.
It seems to me, that Dean tells who is a good guy or a bad guy at any given time. The Trickster/Gabriel is now a good guy because he helped them once, but let's forget how he killed people and all the crap he put Sam and Dean through, especially Sam.
Death is a good guy now because he restored Sam's soul, but who really knows why he did that. I doubt he's really going to tell Dean everything and let him in on anything when he considers all humans as nothing. Death who brought how many people's loved ones back to life including Bobby's wife and then Bobby had to kill her. I guess Death is the good horseman and all the others were the bad horsemen. Give me a break.
Balthazar became a good guy because he helped Sam and Dean for two seconds, but he was busy buying peoples souls and doing who knows what. He helped Castiel to obtain weapons from Heaven, but he's the good guy in the end and everyone should feel sorry for him because Castiel killed him.
Crowley. I love him and he can really make Dean look like the biggest idiot in the world. Probably because he can read Dean's mind. Oh, but I forget. Demons can't read minds and neither can angels, even though it's been mentioned how many times on the show that they can. Crowley was the good guy and Dean trusted him in season 5, but then later didn't and he became the bad guy again. Dean can work with a demon, but heaven forbid if Sam and Castiel works with one.
I just love how characters turn from bad to good or from good to bad according to what Dean thinks about them. If Dean likes them, then they're the good guys, if Dean doesn't like them, then they're the bad guys. It's like Dean thinks he's God or something and he rules the planet, hell and heaven.

Now Castiel is all of a sudden some horrible and evil being that's going to try and kill Sam, Dean and Bobby and for what reason? I still don't get it. Where do some fans get those stupid names for Castiel like Godstiel. That is so stupid. It's about as stupid as some calling that amulet of Dean's the Samulet. God, I hate that crap.
I'm a fan of the show and I love it, but I will not use stupid crap other fans think up. I really hated that RoboSam crap. Sam with his soul has been more like a robot doing whatever Dean tells him to do, than Sam was without his soul. At least soulless Sam got to use his brain and thought up strategies and plans to kill monsters, plus he got to have sex and a life other than following Dean around.
It seems that all Sam can do on the show now is follow Dean and do everything he tells him to do. I hope the old Sam returns and starts telling Dean off again and standing up to him. Dean is not right all the time and I want Sam to knock him off his high horse every once in a while. I hope Castiel knocks Dean of his high horse when season 7 starts and makes Dean realize that he's not the be all of the universe.

Hogle Zoo

2011-06-08T23:45:00.001-07:00

I had a great time going to Hogle Zoo with my two nephews, two of my sisters and my nephews girlfriend. I will treasure this day always. I went on Tuesday and it was a really nice and sunny day just like when I went to the Lagoon. I'm glad that there has been two nice days in the last week. Now there's more rain and cooler weather. I wonder if this year isn't going to be like a few years back when it was cooler and the summer ended very fast.
A lot of people take their lives, their days, minutes, hours and people they love for granted. I try not to take anything for granted anymore because you just don't know when something will be taken away from you or how long you really have with the people you love. Some people think I'm crazy because I remember so many things. I remember them because they meant something to me and they are my greatest treasures. My memories will always be the best and most valuable treasures I have and I take them with me everywhere that I go. I'm never alone because everyone I've ever loved is with me always and forever.

Having Fun

2011-06-06T12:59:00.000-07:00

I've been having fun for the last couple of days. Yesterday I went to the Lagoon with my oldest sister and her two sons and one of their girlfriends and my brother. I had a really fun time and I rode a lot of rides. My favorite roller coaster was not working and that kind of sucked, so I had to go on Wicked a couple of times instead. I love that ride. It's short but scary and fun. The new ride Bombora was really boring and short. It was slow and over way too fast. I think it's more for little kids than anyone else. I went on the kiddie ride like The Rocket because I did not want to go on it. It scares me and I feel like throwing up after I've gotten off. I had a headache already, so I didn't want to make it worse. The kiddie version was fun and kind of like the one my little Sammy is riding on. It's nice to see and spend time with my nephews because I never got the chance when they were growing up. Now they're teenagers and the youngest will graduate next year. I'd like to go and see his graduation, but I'll have to wait and see if I can. My niece is going to get married in August and she wants me to come to her wedding and I hope that I can.

I've been sick lately. First I had a staph infection and either the flu or a cold and now my stupid allergies are acting up too. I've been running around and doing things. I've gone shopping, eating out and then I went to the amusement park.
I'm trying to read more right now and I got a whole bunch of books from the library to read. I'm also still reading the current Supernatural book. I read it slowly, so that it will last longer. I haven't been going on message boards and posting because there's not much to post about. It's mainly been fans whining and moaning about Castiel and how wrong he was to do what he did. Maybe he should be more like Dean and just sit around doing nothing and hope everything gets taken care of by whoever. Castiel was just doing what he thought needed to be done and Dean has no right to even judge him about it. Dean knows nothing about Heaven, nor does he care about what Castiel has been going through. It was just like with Sam. Dean needs to jump off his high horse every once in a while and realize that he doesn't know everything and he's not God, so he doesn't know what God wants.

Jared is on Twitter and I've been reading his tweets and laughing. I'm glad he's tweeting, but I hope he doesn't tweet himself out or something. He doesn't need to be witty on there, but just himself and that's what he's been doing and that's why I love him so much. I wish that I could have went to that Nashville Con. That would have been a blast. I've bought my gold ticket and a J & J photo op for the L.A. Con. I'll probably be going alone because I really can't afford buying my sister a ticket. I could barely afford mine. I hope that I'm even working and making money before the next Convention.

I'm trying to think up a good story for a fanfic right now and I'm playing with my little Sammy and Co. I'm trying to stay off message boards for a while and if I do go on, I just read a few things and leave. I don't really feel like posting right now and I'd rather spend my time doing other things.

Supernatural: Exile On Main Street

2011-05-27T20:55:00.001-07:00

Why was the title of Supernaturals first episode of season 6 called Exile On Main Street? I didn't even see main street. Does it even matter? Who knows why it was called that, only the writers?
I actually loved watching this episode again. I haven't watched it for months now. I could even gut seeing Lisa and Ben in it. You wish they would have been killed right away and then Dean could have just started hunting with soulless Sam again and everything would have been great. It never turns out how you want it. I loved watching the Campbell's and I really think they were way underused by the writers. I wish we could have seen more of them throughout season 6 instead of all of them being killed and two of them by Sam and Dean themselves. I would rather have watched the Campbell's than Ben and Lisa in more episodes. It's funny, but I didn't mind Lisa and Ben at first until they kept appearing and never went away. By the time Let It Bleed came on, I just wanted them gone already and preferably dead.
One thing that stood out in this episode was Jensen. He was hot looking. I usually look at just Jared, but Jensen was really looking hot. Jared was just great at playing soulless Sam. You knew there was something off about Sam, but you didn't really know what in this episode.
I actually think the writing was pretty darn good if you love a good mystery. I like mysteries, but not that much on Supernatural. I was entertained during all of season 6, so the writers did their jobs as far as I'm concerned.
I loved that neighbor guy and it's too bad he was killed right away. He was better to watch than Lisa and Ben. I still wish Corin Nemec would have been around longer and that all the Campbell's would have been around. It's nice that Sam and Dean never really went to Samuel for help, but when he was dead, they sure used his library. You gotta love that.
I loved seeing Sam driving his very own car. I bet Sam always wanted his own car to drive and who knows if he drove his own car while he was in college or maybe Jess had a car that he drove. I know Sam loves the Impala, but that was Dean and their dad's car and not Sam's. Soulless Sam probably loved driving a faster car and listening to his own music and having the car how he wanted it to be and not how Dean wanted it.
I notice a lot of fans whining about Sam's point of view and what Sam likes and they hardly know Sam at all. Maybe some of them should have watched the episodes where Sam was soulless a little bit more closely. Soulless Sam was Sam and he had all of Sam's thoughts and memories, just not his soul that is his empathy, compassion and love. I was watching and I learned a whole lot about Sam from watching soulless Sam, but most fans just want Sam to be a certain way and that's it. They want Sam to just be sitting next to Dean in the Impala and keeping his mouth shut. And having Dean's back and doing whatever Dean wants instead of Sam going after what he wants. Then Sam should not have sex. I bet Sam has always wanted sex, especially when you saw him watching porn on TV and having erotic dreams about Bela. He just doesn't go out and get it or do what he wants to like Dean did. Soulless Sam went out and had sex with whoever he wanted to. That was a really good indication that soulless Sam had Sam's memories and thoughts. If soulless Sam was like a sociopath, he would not have paid that hooker. He would have just raped and then probably killed her afterward. I love how fans come up with crap like that. Like soulless Sam was just running around killing innocents for kicks and that was it. Soulless Sam was out hunting monsters, demons and whatever because that's what he always did. He just didn't care if some innocent people died while he was killing the monsters. Dean said Sam was acting just like him, so you wonder how many innocents have died because of some of the choices Dean has made hunting in the past.

Oh well! I really enjoyed the repeat of Exile On Main Street. I just wish I had a DVR to record all the episodes so I could watch them whenever I want to. Right now I just have to wait for repeats. It kind of reminds me of the olden days when there were no DVR's or any way to record a show and watch it later. I sometimes miss those days because it was more exciting to wait for the show to come on.

Season Finale Of Supernatural And All My Other Shows

2011-05-22T23:10:00.001-07:00

Supernatural's season finale was awesome. I loved each and every minute of it. That is the real finale "The Man Who Knew Too Much". I consider "Let It Bleed" as just episode 21 because it was not the finale, even though they were both shown together. "Let It Bleed" was pretty good and hopefully that's the last we'll see of Dean's other family. That's what I'm going to call them, but who the hell really knows who Dean considers family anymore. The finale was awesome because of Jared's awesome acting. I loved how he had to put himself back together again after Castiel tore down the wall that was protecting him from his memories of Hell and from when he was soulless. I also enjoyed Misha Collins and Mark Sheppard because they were just so wonderful to watch and I could not stop laughing at the line. "Flee or die" It still kills me. I'm hoping that in season 7, we'll get to know more about what happened to Sam in Hell and other things, but I won't hold my breath or hope too much. I always know what will happen. It will be all about poor Dean and how he lost his other family and his best buddy Castiel. I just hope Dean stops using Sam as his emotional and physical punching bag because I'm really getting tired of it. I love how some fans think Dean is such a wonderful and loving brother to Sam. If he was so wonderful and loving, then he would be able to accept all of Sam. He wouldn't tell Sam to shut up all the time or be worried about Sam not having his back. Sam is a grown man and he can make decisions for himself. That's another thing about Dean. He needs to start making decisions for himself and not other people all the time, like he knows what's right for them and they don't. Dean is not right all the time and his self worth is about zero and I for one am tired of it already. Dean's character really needs something right now because I'm getting bored with that same old same old crap. Dean never changes and he hasn't since season 1.

Now on to my other shows. Smallville's series finale was just great and I'm so happy that the show lasted for 10 whole years. I never thought it would go on that long and I loved every season of it. It could have gone on longer as far as I'm concerned because I never got tired of it and the writers always came up with new and interesting stories.
One Tree Hill's finale was heartwarming and I loved it. If it had been the last episode ever, then that would have been okay because they left it in such a good place. It's going to be on for only 13 episodes, but I'll take what I can get. I hope they're as good as the last seasons of the show. It's funny, but I thought I'd never love this show the way I do. When it first started, I never watched it and now I think it's funny because I've been watching it for the last 6 years and loving every minute of it.
Vampire Diarie's finale blew me away with what happened to Stephan and how he saved Damon by doing what he did. Now what's going to happen to him and the other characters. I loved the whole season of this show and it just got better from the first season. I'm hoping the third season is even better.
Gossip Girl's finale surprised me because it was really good. I really haven't cared all that much for the second half of the season. The first half was great when Katie Cassidy was on and I loved it. Then it kind of went downhill for a while, but it ended up being good. I can't wait to see what's going to happen with Chuck and Blair next.
Next Top Model and Celebrity Apprentice's season finales were okay, but I really didn't care who won Top Model and I wish John Rich had not won Apprentice. I think Marlee did a better job and I've never heard of her charity. I've given money to St. Jude's and always will. I'm sure tons of people give to them because they are so well known and it is for a good cause. All those children with cancer and other diseases. It breaks your heart.
Now I'll be watching America's Got Talent when it starts. I hope it's as good as it was last year and the year before. I'm still following Taylor Mathews and hopefully he'll have an album out soon.

Supernatural Fandom

2011-05-08T12:20:00.001-07:00

I love Supernaturals fandom and I actually went and posted for a while at the CW boards. I didn't think it would be possible because I've been called how many things on there and attacked by other posters for what I think. I like all the fans on there and not just the ones that agree with me. I like a lot of them that have great ideas, see the characters in different ways and have interesting theories. I don't agree with all of them, but it's nice to know what other fans are thinking and feeling. I just sometimes have to hold back because I sometimes get caught up in their emotions somehow and it makes me crazy.
I think fans are very passionate about what they love. Whether it be, Sam, Dean, Castiel, Bobby or combinations or the whole show. I think all fans want different things from the characters and from the show. The writers can not please all the fans, they try to, but it will never happen.
I've been a sarcastic bitch on there sometimes, but I can't help that. I like to be and I don't expect anyone to understand that. I just get angry and it comes out as sarcasm. I love to make fun of the characters as well. I sometimes laugh and laugh at work thinking about things that the characters have done or could do. It kills me and I love it. There have been posters on there that I've thought of as bitches and they have been at times. I know I'm a bitch at times, but I don't go around and try to tell others how they should think and feel about the characters or the show. They can feel however they want to, but no one should be attacked for feeling and thinking what they want to. I see the show how I want to and the characters.
I do love Sam the most because I love Jared. That's just me. I understand the fans who love Dean more and want more of him. I understand the fans that love the female characters and want to see more of them. I don't like Lisa and Ben and I want them gone, but I do know other fans did like them. There just needs to be more respect for others on there. No one is going to see the show in the same way. Some do and others don't.
I still love Supernatural through all the changes. I think now, the writers have been trying to please fans more than come up with a really good story and one they want. You can't please every fan out there. Not all fans want the same thing.
I think the writers should come up with something and not worry so much about fan reaction to everything. Fans are either going to like the show or not. That's what made the first couple of seasons the best because the writers probably didn't worry so much over pleasing every fan out there.
Not all Supernatural fans are online or on the Internet. Not all fans are obsessed with the show and every detail. There is a big division of fans out there and they will never all be pleased. I hope the writers don't write because of certain fans on the Internet alone and what they want only. Or what fans say at Conventions, like they are the only ones who love the show. I know there are more fans out there that love Jensen and his character Dean. They only want to see Dean and have the show be all about him. A lot of those fans do think Dean is the heart of the show. I think both Sam and Dean are the heart of the show.
I got a little heart and hand to decorate at work for our theme for the year. I put Sam on the heart and Dean on the hand. I wish I could have gotten two hearts, so that I could have put them both on a heart. I would have put Castiel on the hand. They are not big and I had to find small pictures of Sam and Dean to put on them. It's nice to look at them all day at work and think about the show.

I actually love all of Supernatural. I love Sam first of course and then Dean. That's just me. I love all the other characters of the show. Good and evil. Male and Female. Monster, angel, demon or human. They have all made the show wonderful to watch and I still enjoy watching it. I'd like certain things to happen on the show. Mainly more Sam and one episode that is all about his character and no one else. I don't think it's asking too much, but maybe it is. I'd love other stuff to happen to, but most of it will only happen in my thoughts or if I write some fan fic one day. I'm just hoping that season 7 will be more about Sam and Dean again. Not just either or, but about both brothers and the focus will stay on both of them. I don't mind that. I loved season 5 because it felt like that. Like both of them were on the show and had the same amount of story. I still think Jensen and Dean have been focused on, way more than Jared and Sam have. Any fan that tells me otherwise, has never watched the show. I've watched all the episodes countless times over and over for years. I've seen more of Dean's pov, more of him on the screen, more of other characters interacting with him and episodes that Sam is not even hardly in and it's all Dean. No one can tell me the show has been equal between them since the third season. It has not. I joke around and call it The Dean Show, but sometimes that's how it feels to Sam fans and I don't think Dean fans will ever understand that. They get plenty of Dean on the screen and just all the time.
I just had to get this out of my system and thought I'd come and post it here.

What A Week

2011-05-07T06:17:00.000-07:00

What a week. I'm very happy that all my shows are new right now. They were all pretty good this week, even Gossip Girl. I'm hoping that Dan shows up again on One Tree Hill for the finale because I want some closure between him and Nathan. I've been waiting for that for a long time now. I have to say that Vampire Diaries topped the list for being my favorite of the week. Supernatural come in at a close second.
I was hoping for a dramatic episode of Supernatural and finally got it, but then it's all about Castiel. I knew the episode would be about him, but I really wish that we'd get a few episodes about Sam that are like this. I'm sick of not seeing Sam's perspective on things and how he feels about everything.
Part of me is happy that there is going to be a season 7 of Supernatural and a part of me that wishes the show would have ended this season. I just hope season 7 will focus a little bit more on Sam's character and less on Castiel and Bobby and even Dean that's been the main focus of the show since it started. Sam and Sam fans deserve something for being loyal to this show for so many years.

Now to Vampire Diaries. I got blown away by what happened with Klaus and Elijah. Two characters were killed and I loved that. And just the way they were killed was so dramatic and heartbreaking. I love how Vamp Diaries had a big baddie in Klaus and he was mysterious and you wondered about him and then they delivered him and you got a big payoff. I wish Supernatural would do something like this instead of trying to make their main characters be mysterious and end up being the big baddie or evil for the season. Vampire Diaries has just used all it's characters and I feel for all of them, even the evil ones or the ones others probably don't like. It's interesting that they can have so many characters, but be able to show their thoughts and feelings and the writers of Supernatural can't show Sam's thoughts and feelings and have more time to do it in. That's how I think the writers are crapping on Sam's character and making other fans actually hate him.

I wanted Supernatural to be paired with Vampire Diaries next season, but now I don't. Who knows how long I'll watch Supernatural next season? If the show keeps making fun of itself and the characters, I might watch just to get a laugh. But if they go a serious route, then they'd better have something good with Sam's character and not just crap. I've enjoyed season 6 because at least it made me laugh. I loved watching soulless Sam with Dean and Jared played the part so well. I loved the Campbell's and wished to see more of them. There have been a lot of good episodes, but the only thing I've wished for was more Sam insight and just more Sam period. Sam gets his soul back and the show focuses more on how Bobby feels about Rufus dying, how Dean feels about Lisa, Ben, Castiel and Bobby, how Castiel feels about everything. What the hell? What about how Sam feels? You seen a little bit at first and then nothing since. Sam who had Lucifer possessing him and you didn't even get to know how he felt about all of that. There was just nothing,except how sorry Sam is for everything his empty body did without a soul for a year. Like Sam should be guilty about everything he did or his body did without his soul. I'm hoping for something in the finale, but I've almost given up hope to see anything.

Now for Stevie Nicks. I just bought her new album In Your Dreams and I love it. I've always loved Stevie and she's my favorite female singer of all time. I love Sarah Brightman as well and many others. I bought Avril's new album and I love her singing and all her albums. I'm glad that I have new music to listen to because I do think of music like a drug. It makes me feel good and I always turn to it when I'm depressed or feeling sad about things.
I was so happy on Friday when I went to work. I wore my Supernatural T-shirt with Sam, Dean, Castiel and Bobby and the day flew by and I couldn't wait to see the episode. It was a great episode and I enjoyed it, but I am getting so tired of Sam not getting episodes like that. It's really starting to wear thin. I went on the message boards because Pet Society was down for maintenance. I think that was a mistake. I thought message boards were for discussing the show and how you felt about it. You shouldn't have to worry about offending everyone on there because you have an opinion or you want to express how you feel about a character. Bashing. What a stupid word? I still don't understand why fans have to whine about someone bashing their favorite character. I've seen all my favorite characters talked about in one way or another and I don't consider it bashing. Fans like who they like and don't like who they don't like. It would be nice to actually find a board that can discuss fictional characters without getting so emotional over them and thinking they are real. Jared and Jensen are real. Misha and all the other actors and actresses are real, but the characters are not. I take offense to anyone saying bad things about them, but characters. Who cares?
I guess I'll just talk to cyberspace about how I feel about things because it's impossible to talk to people.

Bela

2011-05-01T09:43:00.000-07:00

My beautiful Bela is wonderful. I just love her so much. I'm glad that I have her with me and she makes me happy. I've been depressed more this year for a lot of different reasons, but right now, I'm happy again.
All my shows are new and they've all been really good with the exception of Gossip Girl. It has gotten kind of boring to watch recently. It's still okay to watch.

I really loved Supernatural's episode Mommy Dearest. It was funny and dramatic and Crowley is back and I love him. Castiel and Crowley. I just love it. It's too good to be true. Castiel has been acting way too mysterious and shady this season to have not been up to something. At the beginning of the season, the writers said that someone close to Sam and Dean would betray them. There were only two people close to Sam and Dean, Castiel and Bobby. I'm still wondering about Bobby, though. Anything could happen at this point. I have a ton of theories about everything, but who knows what is what. I can interpret the show any way that I want to and it's finally making sense to me.

I really loved Smallville. I don't look at the titles very often for the episodes of the other shows. I just enjoy watching them and don't care what their titles are. I just love the content. It was great seeing Zod again. Wow! Is he hot looking. Three hot guys all at once on there is too much. I loved watching Clark and Oliver fighting. That was one of the best scenes that I've ever seen on Smallville in the last ten years. Justin Hartley did a great job directing that episode and he did a great job acting as well. I'm really going to miss Smallville. It could go on for more years and I'd still love it.

Vampire Diaries has the best plot running out of all the shows. I hate to say it, but they also have a ton of hot guys on there. And it's not just about their looks, they are great actors too. I love watching them all. All the characters have a storyline and fit into the main plot. I love watching the mix of male and female characters on there. It's nice. Stephan and Damon act like two brothers in the way that they are more rivals than they are loving brothers. I love that too. I like how they will defend each other one minute and then turn around and fight with each other the next.

I've been trying to read more again. I only get to read a lot on the weekends. I really don't have time on the weekdays because I'm going to work and doing a ton of other things. I love reading and most of the time when I read, it's just like watching a movie in my head. I love it and I can't wait for more Supernatural books to come out. I've read the other ones a ton of times and I'm still reading them over and over. I'm not too excited about the next one that's coming out, but the two after that, look very promising.

Supernatural, Vampire Diaries and My Bela

2011-04-23T20:31:00.000-07:00

Frontierland was just one of those fun episodes of Supernatural. It got me thinking about Castiel and I actually love that. I just hope to hell, we find out what the deal is with him in the next couple of episodes. I really think Supernatural has too much mystery right now. There are just too many questions and there have been no answers so far. I loved seeing Sam on a horse and both Sam and Dean wearing those clothes. Dean with that whore or saloon woman or whatever you want to call her, was the best part of the show. I loved the looks on Sam's face, it was priceless. When Dean went to have his drink and it tasted awful and Sam was just drinking his sarsaparilla. I loved all of that. It reminded me of good times between Sam and Dean. I like how they're working together right now and that Dean is actually not believing everything Castiel tells him. I can't wait to see how everything turns out with what's been going on and I hope I'm not disappointed and we finally get some answers and especially about Sam. It's been driving me crazy for years. I like having the freedom to think what I want about who and what Sam is, but I'd like to know anyway.
Vampire Diaries was probably the best episode I've seen on the show so far. I loved it. I love Elijah and we found out more of his history and that his brother is Klaus. I love how Klaus is part werewolf and part vampire. That is cool as hell. I love how Vampire Diaries comes up with stuff like this. The writer's really have good imaginations and come up with some good original stuff. I'm happy that Alaric is himself again and Klaus has his own body again. That was some weird stuff. I love all the witches, werewolves and vampires. Who knows what other supernatural creatures they could end up introducing? I love that we get answers to questions and the plot goes along so smoothly. Vampire Diaries is kind of like how Supernatural used to be. Almost all drama with a little comedy thrown in here and there. Now Supernatural is more of a comedy at times with some drama thrown in for good measure. The characters are so compelling to watch on Vamp Diaries and I love almost all of them. I don't care which ones are on the screen at any given time because they all have something that I love to watch.

Now about my beautiful Bela. I took her to the vet on Monday in the pooring rain to get her spayed. I had to ride the bus with her and so we both got sopping wet and my sister came with me and Bela. We stood out in the rain for over a half hour waiting. I took off from work to go and what happened. I found out that Bela has already been spayed. They found a scar and told me that she had already been spayed. I couldn't believe that I took her out in the pouring rain for no reason. And she got put to sleep and shaved for no reason. She did get a rabies shot, but I doubt she'll be in danger from getting rabies unless I somehow get rabies and bite her. That stupid woman from the shelter called to make sure I had got her spayed and I told her that she had already been spayed. She told me that sometimes that happens. That stupid idiot. I love Bela and I had a horrible dream that I lost her. I don't want to lose her because she's already in my heart and holds a special place there. I know Mully would be happy to know that I'm okay and that I have Bela now. I read those Warrior books by Erin Hunter about the cats that live in the forest and they're warriors. I love them and I think sometimes that my Mully is in Skyclan with all my other cats. She was a little warrior, even though she never fought another cat. She would have fought tooth and nail to protect me, if anyone had tried to hurt me. I know she would have.
I was playing with this snake with Bela and pulling it's tongue out for her to see. You pull the tongue out and it goes back in and vibrates as it's going. Bela watched it for how long and it was really funny because she held the snake down and bit the tongue out and was pulling it. It's the cutest thing. I love watching Bela play. Mully never played for a long time. She was too old for that. Sometimes she half-heartedly played for me and other times she just laid there. I hope I have Bela for almost as long or longer than I had Mully.

Matthew Davis And Vampire Diaries

2011-04-16T22:48:00.000-07:00

It's so funny that Matthew Davis is on The Vampire Diaries. I remember first seeing him on Legally Blonde and thinking what a dork he was. His character was a creep, but he was funny too. I'm glad that Matthew is on one of my favorite shows and I can see how great an actor he really is. I loved him as Klaus and I love him as Alaric. It's nice to see the range of acting he has and that he can play two different characters to perfection.
I'm sad that I didn't see the end of the last episode because of stupid technical difficulties. I probably won't see it again until the repeat comes on. I don't have time to watch it on the Internet and it's never really good anyway. It looks like Matthew will be back to being Alaric, but I don't know how. It sucks that I didn't get to see what happened with Bonnie either. I'd go on the message board, but no one ever talks about anything good on there. Mostly it's just people whining about who should be with who. I personally don't care which characters are in love with each other or whatever.
I decided to watch some of the first season episodes of Vampire Diaries today. It's funny to watch how much has changed in not even two years. One of the only humans is Matt on there and now he knows what's going on and told Caroline's mother. I can't wait to see what happens with him and Caroline.

I've decided to try to stay of the message boards again. Who knows how long it will last? When Facebook is slow, I love to go looking and to post how I'm feeling about things on Supernatural. I usually don't go to the other shows boards because they have gotten too crazy. I guess if I just stay in my Hell House, it will be alright, but then you never know. I just love to write about what I'm feeling and what I think about at work. Some of it's crazy as hell and some of it is serious. I guess some people can't tell the difference, but whatever.

I was just thinking about my work and how my employers say that my opinion counts. My opinion counts for absolutely nothing. Now, I don't even say anything at all because I just don't care. I do my job and I try to do it the best that I can. If others don't do their work the way I do mine, then it's their problem. I love how my supervisor and management think that we should all share crap. That I know something and I don't share it with my fellow co-workers, so I look better. That's bullshit. If they want to look good, then they should care about and do their job. I remember once some bitch sleeping at her desk and she had the nerve to tell me that I was making her look bad. She was making herself look bad. It's like people are sheep now a days and just follow each other and they can't have any responsiblity for themselves. It's crazy.

I'm bored tonight I guess and needed to do some typing, like I don't do enough of that at work.

My Heart Will Go On

2011-04-16T00:21:00.001-07:00

My heart will certainly go on for both Smallville and Supernatural long after both shows are off the air.

Smallville was great again and the best part was Jonathan Kent. I just love watching John Schneider and I still remember loving him when I was little when he was in The Dukes Of Hazzard. He's still good looking and even more so now. I've always loved his acting and it was great to watch him and Tom Welling together again.

Supernatural was too damn funny and I couldn't stop laughing at certain parts. I just love that Balthazar. He kills me every time he's on. The only weak part of the episode was Bobby and Ellen. I didn't care for any of that at all. It's kind of crazy that Bobby is sad over Rufus' death, but he hardly had any contact with the guy for years. Then we have to see that onscreen, but we never get hardly anything emotional with Sam. I was just thinking about that. Last year, I saw more of Bobby's emotions and everything while he was in the wheelchair and hardly anything with Sam. Sam is the main character and Bobby is a guest star. True, he's been on the show for a long time, but I'd rather see more stuff from Sam. Then this season, one whole episode is all Bobby and now this stuff. I want to see more of Sam's emotions and how he's feeling, not Bobby and I want it onscreen not off. I'm tired of that already. I love Jim Beaver and his character of Bobby, but I want more of Sam's storyline and emotions onscreen. It seems that we never get to see anything with Sam and it drives me crazy. We might get one episode coming up, but that will probably be all. I loved seeing Ellen again, but I'd have rather seen her in some other way instead of being married to Bobby. I didn't like that at all.

I was worried about both the shows being on after what happened during Vampire Diaries. It sucked. I could hardly understand what the characters were saying because the sound sucked and then I missed the last ten or fifteen minutes of the show. I think it was local with my CW and it didn't affect any other state. They were talking about rebroadcasting the episode and Nikita and I was worried they would try to put it on tonight. Then I was worried about whether I'd even hear or see the shows properly. It seems The CW has been having a lot of problems and most of them occur when the shows are new.

I can't wait for next week. Both shows look great and I can't wait to see Sam on a horse. Tom Welling directed Smallville and the week after Justin Hartley directed that episode. I love when the actors and actresses want to do more. It was nice that Jensen Ackles got to direct an episode of Supernatural. It would be nice if he could direct again, if the show has a seventh season. I'm hoping and praying there will be another season and hoping we'll see more Sam and his emotions onscreen after how many years.

Frontierland Episode Can't Come Fast Enough For Me

2011-04-10T18:59:00.000-07:00

This pic of Sammy from Frontierland is hot. I can't wait to see this episode. I'm so excited and hopefully it will be on in 12 days. I wish it was coming up on Friday.
I went to post something on The CW message boards and what happened. The same as always. Some bitch got offended because I said something about Sam. Honestly, I can't understand some people. This person thinks I should think the same way as her about Sam. I can think and say whatever the hell I want about Sam. I was going to tell her that her drawings of Sammy were awesome, but I'm sure she'd find something offensive about that. I don't even know why I respond to stupid people who try to tell others how to think and feel. I wish I could have told her what Sam told to Dean in season 1. I have a mind of my own, I'm not pathetic like you. I honestly wonder if some people even have brains at all or they just listen to someone else and believe everything they say.
I'm so getting tired of everyone getting offended by the littlest things. At the place where I work, there was a big fight in my team about bullshit. I've had to listen to gossip and all kinds of crap there for the last 21 years. It's no wonder why I don't talk or even try to make friends there because everyone goes nuts and get offended over nothing. Look at one of my best friends, she got offended by what I said on Facebook to my niece and then what I said to her. It was the truth, but whatever. I'm just tired of everything right now. It's no wonder I love pets as company because they don't get offended and they can't talk and they just love you. People are nuts. I'm tired of trying to talk to brick walls too.
I'm just glad that I can go to my job tomorrow. I knew that there would not be a shutdown. I can think of all my theories and other stuff about Supernatural there and make money doing it.

Today Would Have Been Mully's Seventeenth Birthday

2011-04-02T20:54:00.000-07:00

Today was Mully's birthday or it would have been her 17th, if she was still alive. I remember I used to get us a birthday cake together and had both our names put on it to celebrate our birthday's together. Of course, Mully never ate any of the cake. It was just something I liked doing because it was nice that her birthday was a day before mine. I still miss her so much. I listen to that song Into The West from The Lord Of The Rings and think of her. That I'm holding her in my arms and she's just sleeping. I can't stop thinking about her. My one sister said that I should be over her and not be missing her anymore. I'll miss her until the day I die myself. I loved her and no one can understand that, but me. She was my cat and she never let anyone else hold her or love her, but me. I'm sad that she never made it to this birthday and that she won't be here tomorrow for my 42nd Birthday. You never know how long you really have with someone you love, so you'd better make that time count. I spent a whole lot of time with her and I'm glad that I was given that time. My other cats were gone too soon. I hope I have Bela for as long as I had Mully. I'm loving her more every day. It's a different kind of love than what I had for Mully, but she's different and I'm glad I have her now.

I've been watching old episodes of Supernatural from the fourth season. There were a lot of great episodes from that season, one's that I just loved. I never did like the whole apocalypse plot and I think that's why season four is my least favorite and that's the main reason. I love all the stand alone episodes and Wishful Thinking was probably my favorite. Even with everything that was happening with Sam and Dean, season four was still funny and it actually had a lot of everything. Too much mystery at times, but still it was all good. It would have been nice to see Sam and Ruby together more on the screen so that we could see what they were doing. I would have loved that, but it never happened. I guess that's one of the reasons that I was so disappointed about season four. You saw every one of Dean's emotions and everything else and hardly anything of what was happening to Sam. It would have been nice to see more of what Sam was doing on screen instead of making it some mystery and then bringing it up. It was kind of stupid and goofy the way the writer's did a few things. It drove me crazy.

I can't wait for the 15th to come already and for all my shows to come back on. I'm tired of watching repeats and when the new shows are on, it gives me something to look forward to.

The Living Planet Aquarium

2011-03-26T20:59:00.000-07:00

Today I went to The Living Planet Aquarium with two of my sisters, my niece, her boyfriend and their two little boys. I had a really great time and I'm so happy that my niece came for a visit. I haven't seen her since September and her two little boys have both grown so much.
I love going to this aquarium because it has gotten better and better all the time. They keep making improvements and adding on to it, all the time. It was supposed to be a big four or five level aquarium with a big giant tank that went all the levels. I guess it never got the approval to build that building and has stayed where it's been for quite a while. It used to be at a mall or it was just a small preview of what it was going to be and it was supposed to be at that mall and that never happened. I'm glad that it's here though and I can go to it. I haven't been to it for about three or four years now. That's a long time. They just got the penquin encounter a year or two ago. They are working on a new area and it's going to be nice when it's completed. I took a lot of pictures and I'm glad I have a digital camera.
The sad part about my visit is that I missed looking at the sharks. I forgot all about them because they are in the same area as those stingrays that you can touch. I was so busy taking pictures and videotaping that I forgot about the sharks and I love watching them. I missed getting a picture of them too.
After we went out to eat at one of my favorite restaurants. I had a wonderful day, even though it was cold and dreary outside. Spring is still a wonderful time of the year. I love how some idiots think that Spring means it's going to all of a sudden be warm or hot and sunny all the time. Spring is a transitional time when Winter is leaving and Summer is coming. You usually have a mixed bag of different weather at this time.

Supernatural Non-Spoilers

2011-03-19T13:14:00.001-07:00

I love all the non-spoilers out there right now for Supernatural. I can't believe that anyone even takes all of them seriously. Some of them might be true and others are put out there just to mislead you. I love reading some of them and the comments that people make about them. It's funny. Spoilers are meant to be misleading and that's why they put them out there. To mislead you into thinking certain things about what is going to happen. I remember all the so-called spoilers I read at the beginning of season 6 and how most of them were just crap. And I doubt Jared, Jensen, Misha or Jim give anything away that's important. They are probably told to say certain things just to appease fans. I love Kripke's crap too. He never tells the truth about things. I personally can't wait to see what's going to happen in the last six episodes and I don't care what the stupid spoilers are about. Nothing is as it seems and it hasn't been from the start of season 6. It's funny that for how long, there wasn't hardly any spoilers and now there are a ton of them. I think most of them are just to get people talking about the show and that's it. They're not meant to reveal anything important. I read them and laugh because I know most of them are not true.

I've been watching Celebrity Apprentice lately because it's so damn funny. I don't watch the regular Apprentice because I could care less about regular people. I love watching those celebrities make fools out of themselves for charity. I found out that Katie Cassidy is David Cassidy's daughter. I never knew that. I don't know why I didn't even think about it. That means Shaun Cassidy is her uncle. Shaun Cassidy was the first star that I ever had a crush on. I was about six years old. I still love him and I still love listening to his music. I always loved Shaun more than David. I never really cared that much about The Partridge Family. It's funny that David was the first celebrity to go. I laughed so hard. I knew he'd be fired for being a wimp and Richard Hatch would stay on. That women's team is crazy and their name is stupid. I like Backbone for the guys team.
I've also been watching The Biggest Loser or The Biggest Fatso, as I like to call it. I think this show should be banned from TV though. All I do is eat while I'm watching those poor people work out and sweat over how much weight they lost. I never worry about how much I weigh. I could care less. I'm fat and I know it and I don't care. I'm not going to stop eating what I want to. I execise every day because I have to walk to my bus stop and I walk around my building at work. I probably get in about a mile or two a day of walking. Plus, I put a lot of energy into my work and I'm sure I'm burning plenty of calories. Speaking of work. It's nice that I'll be working for how much longer. Hopefully, that budget will get worked out, but you never know.
I can't wait until all my shows come back on in April. I miss watching them. I've watched a couple of the repeats, especially the one I missed of One Tree Hill. I always watch Supernatural's new and repeat episodes when I can. I've been trying to read more lately and spend less time on the internet. I hardly go on message boards and I haven't gone on Twitter forever. My new cat Bela and I are getting to know each other better and she's a wonderful cat so far. I love her, but I still miss Mully. I found some old pictures of her when she was a kitten and started to cry. I still remember all those times. I remember my Kiefer too. I found a whole photo album I made for him. I guess I'm a crazy cat lady because I have tons of pictures of all my cats. I love them because most of the time, they are better company than human beings. They love you for who you are and not for who they want you to be. They love you unconditionally and are always there for you when they can be. My Mully was always there when I needed her. She always knew when I needed to hold her and when I cried she wouldn't mind all my tears falling on her. She just loved me. No person on this planet has ever been there for me like that. That's why I loved Mully so much and I still miss her.
Well that's all for now. This was a long post, but I haven't been writing a lot lately anywhere. I try not to post too much on Facebook because I seem to always say something to offend someone. What else is new? People are so easily offended now a days from the simplest things. It's scary.

Cheshire Cat Sammy In Wonderland

2011-03-13T16:59:00.000-07:00

I was a stupid gambling fool again. This time I went to an Indian Casino that's about two hours away from where I live to gamble with my sisters and brother. I've never been there before. I did have fun, but I lost a lot of money. I've never played The Lord Of The Rings or Star Trek slots. They were really fun to play, but I wish I could have won some money on one of them instead of just losing.

I've been very lazy lately and I haven't really had the time to write on my blog. I love playing with Sammy and all my other demons and then I don't have time to do much else. I was going to write some stuff in my Hell House on the CW site, but I doubt I'll have the time. No one cares if I write on there anyway, so I don't care. I've been reading and looking at upcoming spoilers for Supernatural and the last episodes look very good. I can't wait for them. I just hope that I don't have to hear Sam saying he's sorry to anyone else. I'm getting tired of Sam always having to apologize for everything he does. Like everything he does, is wrong or bad and horrible. Dean does plenty of crap and I never hear him apologizing for it. I guess that's the difference between them. Sam cares what others think and Dean doesn't. Even when Sam didn't have a soul, he could not be like Dean with one. One thing I'm really hoping for is not to see Lisa and Ben again, but I'm afraid that we haven't seen the last of them. Maybe we have and I'm hoping against hope that we don't see them and that crap is over with already.

Hopefully, I'll still be working after next week. I'm sure I will be, but you never know. I hope we get another temporary budget until we get a permanent one for the rest of the year. I just don't know how and why that stuff happens. I didn't even know we didn't have a budget until a couple of weeks ago. I don't want to be off work and then have to come back and work twice as hard to get all the work out and then not get my days off that I've scheduled. We'd probably have to work overtime too. That does not make sense and it's a waste of time and money. I'll have to hope and pray for the best.

Bela

2011-03-05T15:38:00.001-08:00

This is my new cat Bela. My oldest sister bought her for me from Petsmart. She was abandoned at some apartment building and she's a year old. I was thinking about getting a kitten and a boy kitten that I could call Sammy, but I'm glad that I got Bela. It's like she was waiting for me to come and get her, just like my Mully. I like having an older cat around because kittens can be little troublemakers and it's nice to take in a cat that needs a home. I was so depressed after my Mully died. I still miss her so much and so many things remind me of her.

Bela is a siamese and I love siamese cats. She's so soft and she keeps herself so clean just like Mully. I love that. Bela ears are smaller than Mully's, but they have the same colors to them. Bela is a beautiful cat and I love her already. She does some things just like Mully and then she has her own little quirks and things she does. It's nice to have her to come home to after a long day at work. I bought Bela a new collar and some toys. Bela is a young cat and I sometimes forget that she likes to play. Mully didn't play much in her last years of life. Most cats though, spend most of their lives grooming themselves and sleeping. I sometimes wonder what cats dream about. I also have wondered if Mully's spirit hasn't been around because Bela looks at something that I can't see. Mully used to do that too. Maybe they're seeing something humans can't. Angels or cherubs like my mom thinks protect and take care of animals.

I haven't been going on the CW message board very much because it's really gotten crazy on there, but when hasn't it been. I can't stand the inconsiderate posters on there, who only think of themselves and no one else. And the posters who think they own that message board and no one else is allowed to use it but them. I sometimes wonder if some of those people even have a life beyond that message board. I thought I didn't have a life, but I must because I don't or would not spend as much time on there as some people. It's kind of scary and sad for some of them. Do they even have friends or anything? I have a job that keeps me busy and how much other crap. Smallville and Supernatural won't be on for the next six weeks and that's a long time. Maybe I'll have time to go to some movies or something during the time that they're off. I like to watch the repeats, but if I have the chance to do something else, I will.

Fortune And The French Mistake

2011-02-27T12:45:00.000-08:00

Smallville and Supernatural were both so much fun to watch because I laughed so hard it hurt during both of them. Who knew that it would turn out to be comedy night on Friday? Both shows had a lot of comedy, but there was plenty of drama too. They both had the right mix of everything that I love to watch and I was so happy. I could not stop laughing when I saw Oliver in that dress and I loved seeing Genevieve on Supernatural. It was so funny and cute seeing her in those scenes with Jared. The French Mistake just became my favorite episode of season 6 so far and one of my all time favorites. I loved seeing both Jared and Jensen in this episode because they were both at their very best. I loved it because Sam and Dean acted like real brothers again and it reminded me of how they were in season 3. I haven't seen them like that in a long time. This episode was even better than Changing Channels for Sam and Dean's relationship. I loved the end when Dean thought Sam would have rather stayed in that alternate dimension instead of coming back to their real lives. When is Dean going to realize that Sam loves and cares about him as much as Dean cares about Sam? The second half of both shows is turning out to be great and I can't wait to see the next episodes. It's going to be sad when Smallville ends and I'll enjoy every friday that both shows are still on together. I hope Supernatural lasts another season, but who knows what it will be paired with, if it does. I hope something good.

More Of My Pics From The Supernatural L.A. Con

2011-02-26T11:20:00.000-08:00

Pics From L.A. Convention

2011-02-21T15:38:00.001-08:00

The first pic of Jared and Genevieve is one I pulled off Facebook from the Brian Buckley Band. It's cute and I didn't even know where they were at during the concert. It's nice that they could be snuggled up like that together.
The rest are some of my pics from the Convention. A lot of my pics didn't turn out because I really don't know how to use my camera yet. Some of my pictures are great and others are blurry and rotten. I'm still learning how to use a digital camera. Usually I buy a cheap one and just point and shoot a picture. I recorded a few things, but they are for me only. The stars ask that no one records them because they don't want to be on Utube. It's nice that fans record them anyway and put them all over the internet. How respectful is that of their wishes? I saw tons of fans recording besides taking pictures. It's okay to take pictures because they allow it and all the stars were so nice. How many of them let fans take pictures of them and were in the pictures. That was like getting a free photo op. How many of them took pictures of themselves with the fans? That was so sweet and nice of them to do that. Richard and Traci were great because they walked through the audience and answered questions, so everyone would have a chance to see and interact with them. It was great.
I'll have to look and post some more pictures in a few days when I have the time.

Mannequin 3: Reckoning and Unforgiven

2011-02-18T20:44:00.000-08:00

I just finished watching Supernatural and I decided to write about what happened on tonight's episode and Unforgiven. Tonight's episode was well written concerning the spirit using the dummies, mannequin's and Dean's baby. I loved that aspect of the show. It was nice to see that they didn't just dump what happened to Sam from one episode to the next, but I would have loved to see more. The boring part of the episode was with Ben and Lisa and I hope and pray that this was the last time that we have to see them and that Dean left them for good.
It's interesting that Sam with or without his soul can't seem to save people. Actually the only difference now is that Sam feels bad about not saving people, so what good does that do. I never read any comments from other fans about Unforgiven and I'm glad that I haven't. I'm sick of everyone thinking Sam was horrible and rotten without a soul. Sam still was out there hunting things and trying to save people and the only difference was that he never felt anything about it. That creature in Unforgiven had not been seen in forever and even Samuel didn't know much about it. So what would Sam and Dean have done differently together than soulless Sam did by himself. They probably would have done the same thing with the same result. The only difference was that soulless Sam didn't care.

I really love Dean's advice to Sam. He should drink and start throwing punches instead of dealing with things. And Dean isn't an alcoholic. That's exactly what one would do. Bury their problems in a booze bottle. Maybe that's what Sam should do. Drink a whole bottle of liquor and then give Dean a good punch. Another interesting thing about soulless Sam and Sam with his soul. Neither of them was willing to punch Dean. Soulless Sam was almost respectful of Dean and tried to do what Dean wanted and what Dean expected of him. I wonder if now, Dean isn't regretting getting Sam's soul back. Sam thanked Dean for getting his damaged soul back. Interesting and I wonder how he'll feel about that later when the wall comes down and he's suffering. I think Dean wishes he didn't have his soul and he couldn't feel anything about Lisa and Ben.

The next couple episodes look really good and I can't wait to see Genevieve on the show again. It was so wonderful to see her and get her autograph at the Convention. She was sweet and so nice. It's going to be funny to see the looks Dean gives Sam when he's kissing on her because he'll think it's Ruby. That's why Genevieve is going to be on as Sam's wife because she was Ruby in the show. Maybe that's why Danneel is not going to be on and that's because she's never been on the show. I'd love to see her in an episode, but I doubt she'll ever be on. It would be so nice to see her being with Jensen and seeing them together.

Well, I'm tired and I have nothing else to say for now.

L.A. Supernatural Convention 2011

2011-02-15T11:29:00.000-08:00

This Convention was better than last years. Last year was fun and I had a great time, but it felt like I was missing something and now I know what I missed. I got five photo ops this year and it was so great. I should have bought the duo of Jared and Jensen at the Con because they added extras and I did have the money. I got lucky and my refund came just as I was leaving for the airport.

Of course, my favorite part of the Convention was getting my photo op with Jared. Wow! He hugs you close and is so nice and sweet. So was Jensen. Both of them were just awesome. They did all kinds of poses for fans and were really great to everyone. I loved watching other fans getting their pictures taken because of all the different poses. I just decided to get quick ones and let them choose. There were a lot of fans there and I didn't want to hold anything up. Everything ran pretty much on time, so it was all great. All my photo ops were wonderful and I let my sister in two of them.

This year was even better than last year because I was Gold and got to go to the Dessert Party and The Breakfast with Jared and Jensen. I had a better time at the breakfast and enjoyed what they said at it better than in the theatre. I was able to take more pictures and I didn't have a ton of heads blocking my view of the stage.
The dessert party was awesome and Misha, Jim, Mark and Traci were all wonderful. It was nice to see them up close and be able to talk to them for a few minutes. It's great that you get that opportunity. The Karaoke Party was such a fun time and I still remember that the most. I think that was one of the best things at the Convention and it was for everyone to enjoy. I like that some of the general admission and silver got to have fun too.

Jim Beaver was just totally wonderful at the Convention. He did photo ops and autographs for two days and he was just sitting out there. Even if you didn't see him up close on the stage, you could have seen him sitting there signing autographs. He walked by my sister and I in the hall and waved at us. Then on Sunday, he came out and talked again on the stage to entertain us while Jared and Jensen were signing. That was so fun because Jared and Jensen were yelling stuff from back stage. I got to see Jensen jump up on stage and hug Jim while I was waiting for Jared's autograph. Genevieve came late for her autographs, but it was so wonderful to see her and get her autograph and tell her thank you for coming. Maybe one day, she'll actually do photo ops and talk on the stage. That would be great. All the female characters of Supernatural should be able to come to the Cons because they've all made Supernatural great to watch.

Misha Collins was funny and great as ususal. I had him sign his autograph and he wrote Hamburglar for me on his picture. He's wonderful and my sister told him what he did last year to her picture and he told her that it just made her picture more valuable. That's true.

I had such a great time and it was nice to have this Convention right after my Mully died. I came home though and it was sad to not have her waiting for me like always. I remember she'd be so happy that I was home, that she would not leave my side and kept meowing and rubbing on me. I miss that so much. I miss holding her him my arms and telling her how much I love her.

My Little Hellcat Mully Died Today

2011-02-08T16:22:00.000-08:00

My sweet little Mully died today. I found her dead in her litterbox when I got home from work. I've known for how long now, that she was going to die, but I still wasn't prepared for it. I guess you never are. I held her in my arms last night for one last time and said goodbye to her. I almost knew that she was going to die. Maybe she waited until I was gone and my Mom was too. It's funny that she kept herself clean almost right up until she died.

I got Mully over 16 years ago from a pet store. I saw her there a month before I took her home. She licked teriyaki sauce off my fingers and that's the first memory I have of her. I wish now that I would have taken her home right then and there. I was still hoping that my other cat Kiefer would come home, but he never did and I still don't know what happened to him. That's why I didn't take her home at the time. I'm glad she was still there and waiting for me. I think it was fate.

I remember when Mully was this little kitten and she barely had a meow. She was so cute and her body was all white. As she got older, her body turned darker and darker. She was a strange looking cat. She always kept herself so clean and beautiful and sometimes right after I pet her, she'd lick herself like I contaminated her or something. I'm glad that she was so clean. She was an indoor cat and she never did like to go outside. Sometimes I'd bring her out there with me, so she could chew on some grass and get some sun. She'd cry and cry and want to go back inside. She'd run when she heard the house door opening. I used to have to drag her out and sometimes she'd claw me to not go out.

I've never had a cat that hugged before. Mully used to hug me. She'd put both her hands on either side of my neck and I'd hug her and hold her. She always knew when I needed her the most and she'd come and hug me. She knew when I was upset and when I was angry and she'd always try to comfort me. One of my favorite things was holding her in my arms while I was sitting in bed and the sunlight would shine on her sweet face. She was my angel straight from Heaven. I always told everyone that. She was an angel and I thanked God every day for her. I thank God that he let her live for so long to be with me and I'll always have my memories of her.

It really hurts right now to even think about her and that I'll never be able to hold her again and she won't be waiting for me when I get home from work ever again. I used to find her under the covers on my bed when I got home. Even in the heat of the the summer. She loved to be warm and she loved to cuddle and hug. I've never had a more loving and wonderful cat.

Some more things about her. She used to love my denim pants. She'd crawl in my pants when I put them on the bed and try to sleep in them. She used to sleep on my pillow above my head sometimes. Her tail would flap in my face. I called her my little kooky girl. I had a lot of things I used to call her besides Mully. I called her Mully because of X-Files and I loved Mulder and Scully. I thought she was a boy when I got her from the pet store. They lied and said she was and I never checked. I was going to call her Mulder. When I found out she was a girl, I decided to call her Mully for both Mulder and Scully.

Well that's all I have to say about her right now. I hope one day that there is a heaven and when I die, I'll go there and she'll be waiting for me right along with everyone else that I've loved who has died. They say that animals have no souls, but I think that's crap. My Mully had the sweetest soul ever.

Hot Vampire Brothers, Chloe Returns and Sam With His Soul

2011-02-04T22:19:00.000-08:00

Wow! Vampire Diaries just keeps getting better and better. I love it. I love watching Damon being Damon again. He's killed two women so far and I've loved every minute of it. Poor Caroline. I felt so bad for her when those two werewolves had her locked up and were torturing her and going to kill her. I can't believe Tyler and that he wasn't there for her and she was there for him. I love how Elena and Bonnie came over to spend the night with her. That was so cute that it almost made me cry. I love Kevin Williamson. Vampire Diaries is kind of like watching Dawson's Creek with a twist. I love everything that's happening on the show. I love how there are witches, vampires and werewolves. Who knows what else will turn up? Matt it seems is the only character in the dark right now. I feel sorry for him. I can't wait until he finds out that Caroline is a vampire. That should be good. I love all the drama.

Finally Chloe returns to Smallville and what a return it was. I've really missed Chloe and I'm so glad that she's back and hopefully for the rest of the season. This episode was probably the best one of the final season. I loved watching Chloe kick some ass even if it wasn't in the real world. It was great. I even loved seeing Chloe and Oliver together at the end. I wasn't that fond of them getting together, but they are cute together. Clark finally flew and with Lois in his arms. Sure, it wasn't in reality, but close enough and we finally got to see it for once.

Sam got his soul back after it was gone for a year and half in hell. Now poor Sam has to be forgiven for what his body did while he was in hell and supposedly suffering. Like it's Sam's fault that his soul was in hell and his body was on Earth. Bobby has a right to feel wary of Sam for trying to kill him, but the only reason Sam was going to kill him was so he'd never get his soul back. Does that even make sense? Finally, Dean is back to being the Dean I know and love. I love how he stole all that gold. Of course, Dean could not pull that sword out of the stone and that's because he has no virtue. And Dean has very little morals. That still kills me. That Dean was trying to be Sam's moral compass when Sam didn't have his soul. I'm still laughing my ass off about that. Dean has hardly any morals at all. I love how in You Can't Handle The Truth we found out that Dean thought Sam was being just like him. And that was Sam without a soul, so what does that say about Dean. I can't wait to find out some more about what Sam did without his soul. I guess we'll find out next week. I don't know if I'll be watching the show or at the concert. I loved how Sam is the one that killed one of the dragons. I knew he was like a virgin again once he got his soul back. I don't think Dean can ever be like a virgin. True, he hasn't had as much sex in the last couple of years as he normally does. He had sex with Lisa, but that was all. I'm hoping Lisa and Ben are gone for good after we see them again. It would be nice if they died, but I bet they won't. That sucks because I want them gone off the show all together. I still can't stand Lisa and it wouldn't matter what the writer's did with her character now. I'll never like her.

The L.A. Convention is only one week away. This time next week, I'll be at the Con. I can't wait. The rotten part is I got called back to work this week. Now I have to use my leave for the Con and I won't get any extra money either. I don't get a pay check for about three weeks. Maybe my refund will come and I'll have some money from that to buy things at the Con. Oh well. It's still going to be fun. I have three photo ops and gold tickets and I'm very excited.

Vampire Diaries And The Postponement of Smallville And Supernatural

2011-01-28T20:47:00.000-08:00

Vampire Diaries was excellent this week. Lauren Cohan was awesome as Rose and it was so sad to see her die. I loved that scene with her and Damon and then Damon stabbing her. Damon turning evil again is also great. I think that's why I love him the most on the show. His character is so multi-dimensional, just like Sam's is on Supernatural. Vampire Diaries is a great show and I think it has gotten even better now in it's second season.
I've been reading all the rude comments some people have been making on Facebook about it. They're just angry about Smallville and Supernatural not being on. Mainly Supernatural. I think Vampire Diaries is ten times better than those Twilight movies. I bought Eclipse and I still haven't even watched it and I didn't even go to see it in the theaters. I loved Eclipse the most out of all the books and it's funny that I'm just not interested in watching the movie.
I have enjoyed reading a lot of those Facebook comments about Nikita and I totally agree with all of them. I can't stand Nikita and I will never watch that show, even if one of my favorite actors or actresses appeared on it. I can't stand that Maggie Q for some reason. There are some actors and actresses that I just can't stand and I'll never watch any movie with them in it or any TV shows.
I've been laughing at all the swearing and everything. I just hope CW's decision does not hurt the network. I still love CW, but I'm very disappointed and angry right now just like a lot of other people who were waiting for both Smallville and Supernatural to come on or either show. I've seen this kind of crap happen before and that's why I don't watch the big TV networks anymore. They play all kinds of tricks to get ratings and crap like that. I'm just glad that I have the internet and I found out about the shows not being on or I'd have been really angry. At least, I got a little advance notice. In the past, I never got any. I'd be waiting in anticipation for my favorite show, only to see something else come on. I swore at the TV and I was so angry. I didn't care what came on instead of my favorite show, it sucked no matter what.

I do think Vampire Diaries has had the best writing and it's got everything I love in a show. I'm hoping that Supernatural will have some more dramatic moments and less comedy in the second half of the season. I love the comedy, but I want more of a balance on the show. I thoroughly loved Supernatural's last three episodes and they were better than any of the Vampire Diaries episodes. I just want more balance between Sam and Dean's characters and drama and comedy on the show. If I get that, then Supernatural will be the best show on CW. I think it is now and that's only because I'm obsessed with it and most of the time, I really don't care what happens. I just want to watch Jared, Jensen, Jim and Misha every week in new episodes.

Here's something. CW is TV to chat, text and blog about. I say it's TV to chat, text and bitch about. I guess once the show is back on, some fans can go back to bitching about how crappy Supernatural has gotten and how crappy the writing is, instead of bitching about the show not being on. I love it.

Nikita Sucks and So Does The CW

2011-01-27T17:21:00.000-08:00

I'm just so angry at the CW right now. This is the like the biggest kick in the face to Smallville and Supernatural fans. Not airing the new episodes of both shows on Friday and airing repeats of Vampire Diaries and Nikita. I wonder what dumbass at CW made that decision. They think people are going to be watching American Idol instead of Vampire Diaries and Nikita. If you're a fan of either show, then you'd be watching them instead. Obviously, CW doesn't have very much faith in either of these two shows to think that their fans would watch something else instead of new episodes.

When Smallville and Supernatural were on Thursday nights and up against some of the top shows on TV, CW never repeated their episodes. Why was that? Because the rating were always good. If you really love a show and are a fan of that show, then nothing will stop you from watching it.

This decision of the CW's has made me hate Nikita even more. I've never watched the show and now I will never even give it a chance or even look at it. Shitting on Supernatural fans for a show that will probably be cancelled is not wise. Look what happened to Reaper. I never really cared about that show and I hated it for a while because CW took Supernatural off the air and put Reaper on in it's place for a month or so. It was to help Reaper and it really didn't. All that decision did was to make people hate Reaper. I started to watch Reaper and what happened to it. It was cancelled and CW didn't give a shit about it.

Smallville has probably kept the CW on the air for the last ten years and they treat this show like a piece of crap just like Supernatural. I've lost a lot of respect and love I had for the CW. I still appreciate them for having my favorite shows on, but this was the biggest kick in my face as a fan of their shows and the network. I guess that's what you get for being loyal nowadays. You get shit on and then kicked in the face and treated like dirt.

4 Days To Supernatural

2011-01-24T20:07:00.000-08:00

Four more days to Supernatural. It's not long now. I can't wait to see Sam with his soul back, but I loved him without it too. Some fans can quit complaining about Sam and Dean having a beer together or being like brothers again. I seriously don't know why some fans didn't think Sam and Dean acted like brothers last season. Did they even watch the show or what? I watched and I saw them acting like brothers. It's like some fans think Sam and Dean should be hugging and kissing each other or something. I saw emotions and how many good brotherly moments between them. Maybe now that Sam has his soul back, we'll get to see more of them. I just hope that Dean treats Sam like a brother and not a monster or something. I'm getting tired of that crap already. I getting tired of Dean thinking Sam is some dangerous monster that he has to either save or kill. Dean acted like soulless Sam was going around and killing innocent people for no reason and doing other things just because he could. Soulless Sam would have just raped women instead of paying them for sex. Maybe Dean could not stand the fact that women found Sam more attractive than him. I thought that was funny as hell. I just hope we finally get something with Sam already and not more Dean moaning and groaning about everything. He's become a whining crybaby already about everything. I want the old Dean back already, not the one that constantly thinks he has to save or kill Sam. I want the Dean that used to care about Sam and treat him like a human being, even though I wonder if Sam is all human or not. Who the hell knows anymore?

I went on the Conventions site and now there is going to be fourteen guest stars. Wow! Now I'm really getting excited for the Con. It's going to be great. I just hope I have enough money to buy everything that I want to. My oldest sister is now regretting not going with me. I hope there is not going to be any problems with my sisters before the Con. I told my oldest sister that I needed to buy the tickets and asked her how many times if she was going and she decided not to. She wanted to drive down there and I didn't. I can't stand that long drive, when the flight is only about an hour and a half. I'd rather fly because I love planes and flying.

I just finished watching Gossip Girl's new episode. It was okay, but not great. I wonder if GG will even be renewed for next year. One Tree Hill is on tomorrow and I hope it's good because I love it. I can't wait to see Julian and Brooke get married. I don't know when that will be, but it will be good when it happens. I haven't looked at any spoilers except for Supernatural. Vampire Diaries looks good and I bet it's going to be as good as it's first 11 episodes. I hope it sticks around next year, but I wonder if it will be as good. Some shows die after the first season or two. There are a few that have gotten even better in their third season and others that have not. Then Smallville looks really good for the second half of season ten. It's too bad that it's the final season. I'm really going to miss watching my wonderful Clark and Company. I've loved Smallville for all the seasons it's been on and it's one of the only shows that have been good for every season.

It's funny because a couple of days ago I watched some old episodes of Dawson's Creek. I loved season 1 and 2 and then the show kind of died after that. There were some good episodes in the other seasons and I watched the show until it ended, but it was never as good as when it first started. I loved that episode where Dawson turned 16 and got drunk and Joey pushed his head into his birthday cake. I could not stop laughing. I used to love Pacey back then and then in the later seasons, I could not stand his character anymore. It was like he turned into someone else and I hated that person. As I was watching the episodes, I realized the character that I liked the least was Joey. I just could not stand her character at all. I loved watching Kerr Smith in those episodes and he even made me cry while watching one. He made me cry watching Life Unexpected. Kerr has that power. He's just like Jared. When Jared cries in something, I cry right along with his character because he makes it so believable.

I've hardly gone on message boards lately because I could care less what anyone else is saying about Supernatural anymore. I love the show for the reasons I love it and that's that. I've just been mainly keeping myself to myself lately. I've stopped looking for anyone on the internet to talk to or be friends with. It's pointless. My brother has tried to use my computer to talk to cyperwhores and I won't let him. He's married and talking to woman and meeting with them. Sick, but then that's what this world has become lately.

Another thing. I just read a really good fairie book. I love reading fantasy books and especially when they're well written like this one was. It would be nice to go to another world for a while and get away from this one. I think I do that when I go to sleep, but the world I go to is crazier than the real one and it's more like a nightmare.

I've also been trying to limit my time on the internet. You could spend hours and hours in front of a computer screen and not even know it. It gets scary. I've mainly just been visiting my little Sammy and the other little demons. I can't stand to spend time apart from my little Sammy. I wish my real cat Mully will be alright. She is getting thinner and thinner and hardly eating at all. I wonder if she isn't going to die soon. Hopefully, I'll be ready to let her go when she does die. It's going to be hard, but everything dies eventually.

Life Expected

2011-01-19T20:29:00.000-08:00

How boring and predictable and expected was Life Unexpected's finale? I'm glad I missed the first hour of the crap and most of the second hour because I knew it was going to be crap and it was. Who didn't know that Cate and Baze would end up together at the end of the show? How unexpected was that? I even knew that Ryan's ex would show up and really be pregnant and that Cate would lose their baby. I didn't even watch the show and I knew that's what happened. That was one of the worst endings for a show that I've ever seen and I'm glad now that the show was cancelled. The second season started out not that good and it went downhill. There were a few good episodes and scenes that I really loved. I still wish Cate and Ryan would have ended up together because that would have been unexpected. The most stupid thing was the end when Lux was talking about light years. That should have been the title of the show and the last two years went like the speed of light. If the writer's wanted Cate and Baze to be together in the end, then they should have slowly been putting them back together and Cate and Ryan should not have gotten married at all.

This show reminds me of Felicity. A show I absolutely adored when it first aired because it was so good. It steadily went downhill in it's first season and then got worse and worse. There were a few good episodes and scenes during the years, but that was it. I hated how they turned Noel into an asshole, just to make that stupid Ben's character look good. The same thing happened on Life Unexpected with Ryan's character. They purposely made his character look rotten in the second season to make Baze's character better. It's interesting how women go for the guys most likely to cheat on them and be unfaithful to them instead of the sweet and steady guys that would love only them. I think most women think they are going to change the guy they are with and made him into a better man. How deluded is that? You can never make someone be a better person because they have to want to be a better person and do things themselves. Someone else doesn't make you into a better person.

Oh well! That's the end of that dumb show and I don't have to worry about it and I certainly will not miss it being on. I do hope that Supernatural ends up getting a seventh season because it might end up being the only show I watch after this season. Who knows? I'm getting tired of all the stupid reality shows that are coming out. One day, we're just going to be watching each other on TV and there will be no good shows on to watch. There are only a few good shows out there right now. There may be more, but I don't know about them or haven't watched them. I guess I'd rather do other things than watch TV.

I can't wait for Supernatural to come back on. I've been reading spoilers and things are looking good. I'm sure they'll be more surprises and hopefully they'll be good ones and not bad ones. I'm sure we'll get to see the unexpected on Supernatural. Instead of Life Unexpected, it's Supernatural Unexpected.

I can't wait for the L.A. Con because it's really going to be good. I just saw that Jim Beaver is coming and I'm very happy about that. I keep looking at the Convention site every day for news and updates. There's only about three weeks left and I'm getting more and more excited.

John Dye

2011-01-15T15:34:00.000-08:00

I can't believe that John Dye is dead. I was looking around the Internet and found out and I could not believe it. He was only 47 years old. That's way too young to die. I loved John playing Andrew the Angel Of Death on Touched By An Angel. He's one of the main reasons I loved the show so much. I loved his character the best. He had such a nice voice and he made a perfect angel. I used to think that if I died, I'd want Andrew to come to bring me to Heaven. It would be nice to know that an angel like him came and got you and led you home to Heaven when you died. It's mainly wishful thinking, but I love to think of that. I haven't watched Touched By An Angel in years and I should buy some of the seasons on DVD because I loved the show so much. It was such an inspirational show and you always felt better after you watched it. It was uplifting and made you believe in God and that we could be better humans here on this Earth. I remember watching Touched By An Angel and it was like going to church, only better. I think I learned more from watching the show than I did going to church for years. It's just a sad thing that John had to die, but I guess we all have to one day. I'll be praying for his family and friends and the people who knew him and that they find the strength to go on without him. I've also been praying for a friend of mine that recently lost her husband. It's sad when people die, but that's a part of life. Everything will die one day.

I'm worried about my little hellcat Mully. She's almost 17 years old and lately she just hasn't been herself. She's hardly been eating and she mainly stays curled up in this little cat tunnel I have. I wonder if she is going to die soon. I know that she will one day and it scares me because I've had her for so long and it's going to be hard when she dies because I've never had a cat as long as I've had her. She wants me to hold her a lot too and she lets other people pet her and that's something she's never let anyone do before. She used to scratch anyone else that tried to pet her with the exception of a few people. Maybe she's just depressed right now or something else. I hope she'll be okay and live for a little bit longer. I know that an average cat's life span is only 18 to 20 years, so she's getting close.

I was released from work again because I chose to be. We have hardly any work and they offered us days off. So, I bet I'd be released anyway soon. I just want money for the convention coming up in Feb. and I either need to be at work or be off so that I'll have enough. There have been times I've been released in the middle of the week and I get screwed out of money, so I don't want that to happen. I hope more work comes in because I actually liked going to work and I was getting used to getting up early and going to bed early. Hopefully, when I start back to work, all my shows will be new again and I'll have something to look forward to when I get off work every night. I can't wait for the new episodes of Supernatural and I hope the second half of the season is even better than the first half. I watched Caged Heat again last night and I just loved it. It was nice to watch on my TV and not my computer. It looked better and I could not stop laughing at some of those scenes. I think Caged Heat is my favorite episode so far of season 6. I thought I liked Clap Your Hands If You Believe the most, but after watching Caged Heat, it's the best so far.

My Little Sammy Is The Phantom Of Pet Society

2011-01-12T15:40:00.001-08:00

My little Sammy is the Phantom Of Pet Society or at least one of them. I love the themes they come up with. I love Phantom Of the Opera and I was so excited to see all the new stuff on Sunday. I love the musical and I went to see it about 15 or more years ago. I'd love to see it again. I also love the movie they did and I love watching it. I love Andrew Lloyd Webber's music because it touches your very soul when you listen to it and the music from Phantom is the best. I wish I could have seen the musical when Michael Crawford was the phantom and Sarah Brightman was Christine. That would have been awesome. I love them singing the songs because their voices are so beautiful.

Work is pretty good right now and I found out that I'm going to be doing some different work this year. That could be a good or bad thing. Right now, I'm just trying to stay awake doing the work that I'm doing because it's so boring. I make a lot of extra money doing it, but I'm falling asleep all the time and I hope I'm not making errors. It's the kind of work that I really have to concentrate on. I just hope we get some more work in or I'll be released again for a while. I don't want that to happen because I need money for the Convention.

It's only a little over two weeks to go for the new episode to be on. I can't wait to see what's going to happen. I hope we get some more Sam for a change and not a bunch of crap. I'm tired of it. I hope there will be some more focus on Sam's character, but I'm not going to count on it. I've learned not to because I've always been disappointed after all the episodes are over and we've gotten nothing but more Dean issues and more Dean angst. I want Sam issues and Sam angst for a change, but it will probably never happen. I've looked at what some people want for Sam's character and I doubt they're going to get it. How many people think Sam is going to have some big emotional breakdown or something and I don't think he will? Maybe, he will and maybe he won't. I still wonder where Sam's soul really was. Sure it could have been in hell, but maybe it wasn't and it was in heaven or somewhere nice and it was pulled back because of Dean. I just hope we get some good stuff between Sam and Dean and not hugging and crap. I want to see reality. I actually want to see Sam punch Dean in the face just one time. Sure, Sam doesn't do that, but it would be nice to see it because Dean deserves a good punch. Then Sam can hug him.

Well, that's it for now. Maybe I'll post some more Pet Society pics on my other blog over the weekend.

Back To Work

2011-01-09T11:58:00.000-08:00

I'm going back to work tomorrow and part of me is happy and the other part of me is wishing I was off for longer. I hate going back to work at the start of every new season because I have to take refresher training on the crap that I've been doing for over 20 years. Like I could ever forget anything. They treat us like idiots that can't remember anything and we've only been gone for a month and a half. If something has changed in the work I do, then it's okay to train for a little bit on it, but if it hasn't changed hardly at all, it's a big waste of time and money. My employer likes to waste time and money I guess. I just can't stand being bored for eight hours and I want to just start working and doing what I do. I love how some people want me to change jobs and they think I'll be happy doing something else. I love typing and listening to music and not having to stress about anything and that's what my job is. The only time I have stress at work, is when I have to deal with idiots that think I don't know my job or the whiners that whine about everything. They think the work is too hard and that we have to type to much an hour. There are a lot of lazy people where I work and they seem to get lazier all the time. The funny thing is, I do my best work and I don't even have to try to and they act like the work is so hard and they're trying their hardest. It's just a lie because they want to talk, go out to smoke, sleep or something other than work.
I hope I get my days off for the Convention and that there won't be a problem and that we won't be too busy when that time is. Sometimes we get a ton of work in and they think everyone should be there and not take a day off at all. I love my work, but I need time off too for fun. When I'm at work, it's all work and when I play it's all play. I never mix the two.

I went to go look at some things around the Internet and I read some crap about Jared. I love how some people have to try to knock Jared's acting to make Jensen look like a better actor than he is. Jared to me is the better actor of the two and has been since the show started. Jared can play different characters on Supernatural and in his movies. He does not let the role of Sam Winchester define him as an actor. Jensen on the other hand is defined by the role of Dean Winchester. I worry about Jensen's acting career when Supernatural is over. He's played Dean so well, that will anyone want to see him as any other character in a show or a movie. It's funny that we've never seen Jensen play any other character in the last five and a half seasons of Supernatural, but Dean. To me, the mark of a great actor is the variety of roles they can play and make believable. Look at Johnny Depp and Nicholas Cage. I can watch them play a wide range of roles and love them in every one. That's how I picture Jared after Supernatural. I can see him playing how many different roles and being great at them, just like he's done for the last how many years. He's played how many different characters on Supernatural and made them believable and he's been in how many different movie roles. I'd love to see Jensen actually play a different character just once on Supernatural and to see him have a starring role in a movie and have a totally different character persona than Dean. I'd love to see Jensen playing any other kind of role besides Dean just to see how he is at it and then I'd know and be able to say that Jensen is as good as Jared. That's why I love Jared more and think he's a better actor and that's because I can watch him play any character and love him. I love him as Sam Winchester, but I love him as all the characters he's been in other TV shows and movies.

I'm too lazy to post in my other thread about Sammy and Co. They've been playing in their hospital rooms and pretending to be doctor's, nurse's, surgeon's and patient's. I always wanted to work in a hospital. I was seriously considering becoming a nurse, but I read a book about a real nurse and decided I'd never be able to do some of the things nurses have to do. I love medical stuff though and I love reading medical books. It's kind of crazy. I should have looked into other medical professions that didn't have a lot of patient contact. Oh, well. I've always wanted to be a writer, a skater, a veterinarian, an actress, a teacher and how many other things. Now I just sit at my job and dream about being something else. I guess what I really am is a dreamer and I love to dream. The best part of dreaming is when you're in the middle of one. Everything is perfect. Nothing ever goes right in real life and what you dream could end up being a nightmare if it comes true. I think I'd rather just dream about certain things without them ever coming true, but in my dreams.

The New Year So Far

2011-01-04T19:46:00.000-08:00

It's only been four days into the new year and what a four days it's been. I went to the gambling town for New Year's day with my family. I had fun, but I lost a lot of money because my one sister brought her bank card with her. I was smart enough to leave mine at home, but then I borrowed money from her. I've got to face the facts that I'm just a loser. I haven't won any good money for a long time now and I've tried to not gamble at all. I don't mind when I lose a little money, it's when I lose a lot that it becomes a problem. I used to gamble a whole lot more than I do now. I hardly ever go. I remember a time when I went with my Mom and other family members two and three days a week. I sometimes go once or twice a month now and sometimes I'll end up not going for months at a time.

I found out what my computer problem was. It was my ancient modem for my internet. It finally gave out and I had to get a new one because it wasn't even worth it to keep the old one. It lasted two years and it was one of the first modems Cricket had. I have Cricket and I'll never call the customer service number again. I called it twice and got two different answers to the same question. They tried to tell me that I used up all my giga-bites and that's why my internet was slow. That was a crock of shit because I've never had a slow computer or internet before and I've been on the computer for hours. Who the hell even knew how many giga-bites I had or could use? I was just thinking what the hell is a giga-bite. I've had Cricket for two years now and never had a problem. I had to go to the store and there was finally someone there that knew what the hell was going on and helped fix it for me. I ended up getting a new account and everything.

On Sunday I didn't get to see my little Sammy and it almost killed me. I know I'm crazy for loving an electronic cat, but I can't help it. I see little Sammy and all is right with the world. When I don't see him, the world is ugly and gray and I'm depressed. I love all my other little demons, but not as much as my little Sammy. It's hospital week in Pet Society and I've been waiting for this. I love hospitals and medical stuff. Little Sammy got all kinds of fun stuff to play with and he's so cute to watch.

I've been watching old episodes of Supernatural and going through all the previous seasons and not any episodes in any order. I've just been watching my favorites and ones that I don't watch that often. I like doing that. I also got an old favorite TV show of mine on DVD. It's Scarecrow and Mrs. King. I just loved that show and I still love watching it now. It's funny to watch some of those episodes and see how different things were back in the 80's. I was a teenager when this show was on and I remember loving Bruce Boxleitner. He got married to Melissa Gilbert from Little House On The Prairie. I think they're still married and I hope they stay that way. I still remember watching Melissa on Little House as Laura. I have some of those episodes too that I watch and it comes on public TV here. That show was one of the best shows ever for anyone to watch. It had values and morals and showed what could happen if people helped each other and stayed together.

I can't wait for the L.A. Con and it's getting closer and closer. I went on the site and seen they added Mark Sheppard and now I can't wait to see him. I loved him playing Crowley. He's been one of my favorite demons on the show so far. I kind of wish I was going to the San Francisco Con because Corin is going to be there and Jared and Genevieve are going to be at the concert on Saturday. If I had the money, I would have tried to get tickets just to sit at their table and meet Genevieve. I just don't understand why Genevieve is never at one of the conventions as a star. I would love it if I could get her autograph and I'd get a photo with her too. I'd love for Lauren Cohan and Katie Cassidy to be at a convention too. It will probably never happen. These three women helped make Supernatural be a great show and they played main stars on the show and they should be at a convention. It sucks that we'll probably never get to see any of them on stage or anything.

Well, that's it for now. The year didn't start off too great because I didn't have my internet, but it's getting better. I guess I found out that I can't live without the internet for long or I can't live without my little Sammy for too long.

My Favorite TV Character Of 2010 Is Sam Winchester

2010-12-29T19:03:00.000-08:00

My favorite TV character for 2010 is Sam Winchester. That's not a surprise because he's been my favorite character on TV since Supernatural started. I'd say so far that he's my all time favorite too. I've loved a lot of TV characters over the years and Sam tops my list. I hate to say it, but Dean falls way down like into the 50's or 60's on my list. I really don't have a list, but if I made one, I know that Dean would fall down under a whole ton of characters. As brothers, Sam and Dean are still my favorites followed closely by A.J. and Rick Simon, The Hardy Boys and the new Salvatore brothers. I'm sure there are some other brother duos, but I can't think of them right now. I've watched too much TV over the years and I'm how old and I can't recall everything I've ever watched. I'd say that TV for me has been pretty good the last couple of years and that's thanks to the WB and CW. I hardly ever watch any other channel because I'm tired of finding a show on another network and it being cancelled after a few episodes for one reason or another. Stupid reasons besides.

I haven't been able to use my computer a lot right now because my Internet connection is low. I don't know why. I just know it started on Christmas Eve and hasn't improved. I don't know what's causing it. I can hardly do anything. I usually have to wait anywhere from 20 minutes to an hour to see my little Sammy and my other demons. Those games on Facebook take forever to load without a strong connection. I can only do a few things on Farmville and it's starting to make me mad. I love Farmville and Pet Society and I can hardly play them right now. I can hardly go on message boards or even do e-mail. I'm surprised that my blog loaded. It took about fifteen minutes. I guess its a good thing that I haven't been able to be on my computer that much. I remember the days when I didn't even have a computer at all. I've been reading more books lately instead. I've also started watching Supernatural from the 1st season. I love the first season because Sam and Dean seemed to act more like brothers in it. They didn't hug and say words of love to each other, but there were certain things that they did say and do that told you that they loved each other. I liked that they both had issues with each other. Sam didn't like being bossed around by Dean and Dean was really insecure about things. I wish Dean would let Sam be his own person and hopefully that will happen now that Sam has his soul back. Dean needs to learn who Sam really is and not who he wants Sam to be.

I can't wait for my shows to all come back on, but right now I can watch movies, repeats of all my shows and read some good books. I sometimes like a little break from TV. This is a long break, but to me it's going by fast. I can't believe that it's almost the new year. Where did the last year go? 2010 was a great year for me. I got to go to the Supernatural Convention in L.A., Washington D.C., and to see my nieces in Reno twice. I had fun and I can't wait for Feb for the next Supernatural Convention. I just hope the weather isn't too bad at that time. It's finally been snowing here and sometimes we get a ton of snow and other times hardly any. As long as we get it in the mountains, it doesn't matter to me whether it's down here in the valley or not.

One other thing about Jensen. I think I know why he keeps his hair so short. It's probably so some crazy fan can't pull his hair out because he's hardly got any to pull on. I sometimes feel sorry for Jensen because of all the loonies out there that are obsessed with him and think he's Dean and not Jensen. I swear some people can't tell the difference between reality and fantasy. Jensen does not seem like he'd be like Dean at all and I don't get where anyone would think he was. I think some fans are so in love with the character of Dean that they don't care about Jensen at all. They're just crazy. I think Jensen should be more like Jared. I'd probably never recognize Jared if I walked by him on the street. Jared would probably have facial hair and one of those knit caps on and I'd think he was a bum or something and walk right by him. Or, he'd have his hoodie on or something. Jensen stands out too much because he looks the same as he does on the show, where Jared sometimes doesn't.

Well, that's all for now. Hopefully, my stupid computer or Internet will work properly again sometime soon.

Christmas Eve

2010-12-24T22:01:00.000-08:00

Today I went to my sister's for dinner. It was a little family get together. It was nice that I got to spend some time with a few of my family members. I'm sad because this was the first year that my family didn't have a Christmas Eve party. We've always had one since I was a little girl. We had food, exchanged gifts and played games. I still remember all the years past and I cherish the memories of all those Christmas Eve's and everyone I shared them with. My one sister went to Mexico for Christmas with her friend and her two kids. This is the first Christmas that she hasn't spent here. For the last two years we had the party at her house. My mom and I didn't even put up a tree. I wanted to, but my Mom didn't because of the windows being installed. I think we could have moved the tree, but I didn't want to fight with her. We didn't get any snow down here in the valley where I live, but the mountains have plenty. It's cold, but that's it. I wish it would have at least snowed a little for Christmas.
My oldest sister and I went to see Narnia:The Voyage Of The Dawn Treader and I just got home a few hours ago. I had a good time and I'm glad I got to see this movie. It seems like I hardly get to the movies lately. I've wanted to see movies, but sometimes I just don't find the time to go. I've loved all three of the Narnia movies so far.

I watched A Very Supernatural Christmas again last night. I am obsessed with Supernatural and I watched Appointment in Samarra again too. I wanted to see it again just to see those scenes with Bobby and Sam. I still don't get Dean. Does he even know Sam at all. He just thinks Sam should be good and sweet and want certain things. Who knows what Sam really wants because we never get to know what he's thinking and it seems like Dean doesn't care most of the time what Sam wants. I think if Death had not shown up, Dean would have killed soulless Sam, just because of what he said. He told Bobby that he couldn't keep doing this and I think he was considering killing Sam. I don't know why Dean thinks Sam is so dangerous. And not just Sam without his soul. Dean has locked up Sam in that panic room when he had his soul, so I just don't understand. Dean thought Sam was dangerous because he wanted revenge on Lilith who was a demon and Dean did not know at the time that killing her would break the last seal. Dean thought Sam was dangerous when he drank demon blood and killed Famine who was a horseman that would have killed how many people. So, how was Sam a danger to anyone, but evil creatures. Then soulless Sam only tried to kill Bobby because he didn't want his soul back and he was willing to do anything not to have it.
I still think Death purposely showed Dean what happens when you mess with Death and the natural order of things. Dean has messed with Death how many times now. Maybe that's why everyone dies all the time around both Sam and Dean because Death won't be cheated. Tessa told Dean that the little girl if she stayed alive would only cause chaos and death all around her. It made me think of Sam. Maybe Sam wasn't supposed to be born or be alive and that's why everyone dies around him and has since he was a baby. I still wonder if Sam isn't half angel or half demon. Jesse the kid that was half demon and half human was hidden from angels and demons. What if the same thing applies to Sam? Maybe Azazel gave Sam and the other psychic kids blood, so that he could find them when it was time and to keep track of them. The demons lost track of Jesse and they didn't know where he was because the mom gave him up for adoption. It's just something I've thought of, but I doubt it is. I doubt the writer's will ever explain why Sam was special. I hope they do, but I've resigned myself to the fact that they probably won't.

I also think Dean needs to realize that soulless Sam was still Sam or a part of him. Does and can Dean accept Sam for who and what he is? Sam isn't perfect and he's not sweet and innocent either. He's done things that he's felt guilty about with his soul, let alone without it. What led Sam to drinking demon blood in the first place and to Sam listening to Ruby? Dean's deal for Sam's life. Dean probably wasn't supposed to die after his father gave up his life for him. Dean knocked over a huge domino when he made the deal for Sam to be brought back to life and look at all the deaths that resulted from it. Maybe that was supposed to be Sam's time to die and maybe that's why we never got to see him with a reaper. So we would not know what happened or where Sam's soul went. Dean brought Sam back to life and he probably wasn't supposed to be alive and how many people died because of it and the apocalypse started because of Dean's choice. I love how fans want to put all the blame on Sam for all kinds of crap and Sam was dead. Dean made the choice to bring Sam back to life, not Sam. Dean is responsible for everything that has happened since he made that deal and maybe deep down Dean knows this and that's why he's been treating Sam the way he has. I'm trying to figure it out. This is just my opinion, but I still think Dean saw in soulless Sam himself and he was afraid, not of Sam but of himself and what he did. Dean said that soulless Sam was acting like him and Dean has always had low self esteem and self worth. I still think when he beat the crap out of Sam, he wasn't angry at Sam, but at himself. When soulless Sam was around, it was like Dean was with himself and he could not stand it because I still think Dean doesn't like himself and who he is. Dean doesn't have any self respect, so he has no respect for anyone or anything, even Death. I don't know. I said I hated Dean, but that's not true. I still love Dean and I'm still just trying to figure him out and understand him. I still want Dean to find self worth and to see Sam for who he is and not who Dean wants him to be.

I know I expect a lot from the show, but I'd love to see real brother moments between Sam and Dean, not fake crap. I want to see Sam and Dean having real conversations and getting to know each other better and what each of them want from each other. I don't want them to just pretend the last how many years didn't happen. That's stupid and unrealistic. I would not mind a few angry words between them as well as the good words. Sam's going to have his emotions back and that doesn't just mean the good ones.

I'm trying not to go on message boards right now. I've gone to the CW just to read a few things and to post a few posts, but that's it. I love reading some of the stuff posters write about. Most of it makes me laugh my butt off and makes me smile and feel good. I'm grateful to those people for that. The sad part is, that sometimes I read crap that makes me mad in between reading the good stuff. I mostly ignore it. I'm sick of some fans trying to make Dean into something he's not and never will be. The only way he'll be that way is in their loony imaginations and that's it. It's just scary sometimes to read some of that crap.

Well, I'm done for now. It's been a long day.

The Vampires Win And Other Things I Want To Post About

2010-12-22T20:41:00.001-08:00

Vampire Diaries tops my list for my favorite show or at least for mid-season. I love how the Vampire Diaries has gotten better and better. I love that all the characters now have a part to play in the overall storyline. Now there's werewolves with the vampires and witches. I just love that and sometimes this show has more supernatural stuff than Supernatural does. I'm glad that Laura Cohan has guest starred as Rose and I hope we get to see more of her and that she doesn't get killed off too quickly. And Daniel Gillies coming on as the hot vampire Elijah. Wow! I just can't get enough of this show and the whole excellent cast. The whole Katherine storyline has been great and I appreciate Nina Dobrev for being able to play both Elena and Katherine and make it so believable. I love Vampire Diaries the most right now because it has all the elements that make a show great. Drama, hot guys, kick ass females, great music, fight scenes and romance.

One Tree Hill takes second place because I still love it so much and it's always heartwarming to watch. I loved how the season started and that Clay and Quinn were spirits walking around and that whole storyline. I never cared to watch them until I saw that and now I love them too. I love watching Brooke and Julian and can't wait for their wedding. I always love Nathan, Haley and little Jamie. They're the cutest family on TV. I loved seeing Dan for one episode and hope to see him again. I just adored the Thanksgiving episode and it was so fun to watch. Tree Hill still has plenty of drama, laughs, music and great characters.

Gossip Girl comes in third place because it had such a good storyline with the whole Juliet thing. I loved watching Katie Cassidy as Juliet and she just made the show even better to watch. I loved everything with Chuck and Blair so far and their relationship that's so full of ups and downs. I liked seeing Jenny come back for a few episodes and didn't think we'd see that much of her. This show always makes me laugh, cry and cheer at times. I also love everything that Gossip Girl says, it's just so funny and fits everything.

Smallville comes in fourth place because it's the final season and it's been great so far. I love the overall storyline and that there are stand alone episodes in the middle. It's great and I love all the guest stars that have been on so far. I missed one episode and I hope that I'll catch the repeat when it's on. Smallville has always consistently done a great job of entertaining me and it's still doing it, in it's tenth season. The show has never changed it's format and that's why I love it so much. I missed Chloe, but the rest of the cast have been great and so have the stories. I loved learning that Tess is Lionel Luthor's daughter. I've loved her character since the show started and I still love her. She can either be good or bad and that's what makes her so good. I still laugh, cry, scream and love Smallville and it never fails to entertain me.

Supernatural sadly comes in fifth place because of the stupid storyline for this season. I love some mystery, but when the whole show just keeps you wondering and waiting for answers and then you never get any. That just gets old and I'm tired of it. I liked watching Sam without his soul because you finally got to see an uninhibited Sam who's not so weighed down by guilt all the time. I liked Dean until the episode Family Matters and then now I can't stand his character at all. The show has been more of a comedy than anything this season and I'd love to see more drama with a little comedy thrown in not the other way around. Their have been two episodes that made my list of all time favs and they are Two And A Half Men and Clap Your Hands If You Believe. I probably would not have enjoyed this season as much without these two episodes. I loved them. I also loved Weekend At Bobby's because it had a good mix of drama and comedy. Castiel has been great in the few episodes he's been in and I liked all of them. The main reason I still love Supernatural is because it is still entertaining and makes me laugh, plus I love watching Jared play such a complex character that I still love so much. Hopefully the second half of the season will be better and Supernatural will come out on top for my favorite show.

Last but not least is Life Unexpected which looks like it's going to be cancelled. There is going to be only two more episodes and that't it. So, it had a 13 episode season. I still love watching this show, but it lost a little of it's charm. I didn't care for Lux and the teacher and that whole relationship. I thought it was sick. I liked watching Cate and Ryan and even when they had problems, they were still fun to watch. I liked Baze's character a lot more than I did the first season and it's been fun to watch him. This show still made me smile, laugh, cry and feel good.

I love all my shows and I love them for various reasons. I just rated them because I felt like it. Vampire Diaries entertained me the most out of all of them. Of course, Supernatural is my obsession and I rate it hard because I love it so much and I expect more from it. I'm hoping that all my shows are great for their next 11 episodes.

On a personal note. Yesterday my Mom and I got new windows put in. I had to clean most of my room so that they could get to the windows to replace them. I cleaned out five big trash bags of trash. I'm a slob and I know it. I was bitching and swearing because I didn't even know what to do with some of my crap. I threw a ton of stuff away. I found two TV Guide's with Smallville on the cover. I wonder how many times they made the cover and Supernatural finally got a cover because of the fans. That just sucks. Both Smallville and Supernatural have been great shows and I still can't believe it took that long for Supernatural to finally get a cover. I also found a magazine I had with Jared in it. He was 21 or 22 years old. There was a lot of cute pics of him in it. I have a ton of magazines that I've been keeping and I want to keep all my sci-fi and movie ones. I just need somewhere to store them besides my bedroom. We have a shed, but I need a waterproof container to put them in so they don't get ruined. We've had little floods that have ruined stuff in our sheds before.
It's scary because I went on the CW message board and posters are fighting over whether Sam's soul was in hell or not. Who cares? I wonder if it was or not myself. Who knows who's lying about where Sam's soul was because the show is such a mystery and they just keep you guessing about crap like that. Hopefully we'll find out one way or another. I just think poor Sam is going to have plenty to deal with and not just because he might remember hell, if he went. Soulless Sam had all his memories, so he knows how he felt about everything. About his mother, father, Jessica, Madison, Jo, Ellen and how many other dying and plus Dean and Sam has always felt responsible for these deaths. I bet Sam thinks that if he'd never been born, then Mary, John and Jessica would never have died. Also, that Dean would have had a better life and the life he wanted. Sam probably still has all that guilt over that and then now he'll have more heaped onto it. If he remembers that he tried to kill Bobby, then there will be that guilt. If he remembers letting Dean be turned into a vampire and that he lost Lisa and Ben because of it. You only know that if Sam remembers stuff, then he's going to blame himself about Dean losing Lisa and Ben and thinks he's the reason that Dean isn't with them. I just hope Dean doesn't let him feel guilty for that. I'm hoping that Dean tells Sam that he wants to hunt and that he doesn't want a normal life. I want Dean to make up his mind already about what he wants from life and quit treating Sam like he's the reason Dean doesn't have what he wants. It's up to Dean to choose and hopefully Sam will get to make his own choices regarding his life for a change. I'm sick of Sam being treated like some piece of crap that everyone is trying to control and especially Dean. Dean should not make huge choices that affect Sam and if he does than I hope he takes responsiblity for the choices he made and not try to blame Sam for them. Like Sam should be a certain way and if he's not, then he's evil or he's let Dean down in some way. Sam never wanted Dean to bring him back to life and make that deal for him. Look how much that choice Dean made affected Sam and then Dean had the nerve to tell Sam he let him down. Dean expects too much from Sam and I doubt he really knows his brother and just seeing Dean with soulless Sam proved how little Dean knows about his brother.

I just think that now that Sam has his soul back, it's not like Sam is going to be happy. When has Sam ever been truly happy and had the life he really wanted? Never. Sam's whole life has been like hell on Earth and thanks to Dean, he gets hell again and maybe it will be even worse this time because not only will Sam feel guilty about everything from before, now he'll feel guilty about new stuff.
I've read some stuff about what others are thinking and they think Dean is just going to help Sam cope with stuff and then Sam will be great and heal from everything. You've got to be kidding me. Like the only pain Sam would have is what he suffered in hell or if he went there even. Not like Sam suffers all the time and about everything. I don't think I'm going back to my Hell House on there until after the New Year. I'll keep posting in my Sammy thread, but that's it. Posters are just getting nutty on there and I can't stand all the crap and that everything is going to be wonderful for Sam now that he's got his soul back. And that Sam and Dean are just going to go back to the way they were and that wasn't even that great. Dean needs to tell Sam how he feels about things and quit being such a stupid idiot and let his brother know how he feels about him. Maybe if I ever hear Dean telling Sam that he loves him and loves him for who he is and not what he expects him to be, then I'll love Dean again.
I just want Dean to go back to being Dean and admitting that he loves to hunt and he loved killing Supernatural creatures. That's who Dean has always been and that's why I loved him. I want to love him again like I did before.

Zoo Lights And Gambling Trip

2010-12-18T22:19:00.000-08:00

Last night I went to the Zoo Lights. It was really fun and it cheered me up and got me in the mood for Christmas and the New Year. I've been feeling depressed lately, so I really needed this. I went with my oldest sister and her two grandsons and my other sister who is going to the Convention with me. We never got to see the Zoo Lights last year because my sister was in an accident and her truck got totalled.
There were tigers out and they were playing and were the most active I've ever seen. It was fun. I remember when the Zoo had small cages for the big cats and it hurt just to see them in them. I'm glad that the Zoo finally got a big habitat area for them to roam around in. We saw a few other small animals and reindeer and then all the lights. We stopped in to see Santa and my sister asked Santa for some luggage for the Convention. I love spending time with my family, especially when we're doing something really fun.

Today, I went to go to the gambling town that's not that far away. I'm glad that I only lost 17 dollars. I had a good time and I played for the whole six hours we were there. Usually, I'm broke right away and waiting for our bus to come to take us home. I almost was broke, but then I had a little winning streak, but that ended. I probably could have come home with about 200 hundred dollars if I would have not gone crazy and played bigger amounts on the machines. I had fun playing different machines and it was a great day.

Having Fun With Little Sammy

2010-12-15T20:20:00.000-08:00

My little Sammy has cheered me up a bit from my depressed mood. I love to play with him. He got an igloo to play in and he has a new chimney that will transport him to any house in Pet Society. I love playing with Sammy and my other little demons.

I've been playing Farmville more now since I've been released from work. I'm in a competition with some woman to get more presents than her. I swear it keeps me really busy. I found a new typing game to play and it's fun to try and beat my own score. I don't know if any of my Facebook friends type for a living like I do, so I probably would not be able to compete with them, so I compete with myself.

I bought a new digital camera to take to the L.A. Convention and now I have to figure out how to use it. I've never owned one before. I've always just used disposable cameras whenever I've needed to take pictures. Hopefully, I'll learn how to do everything and I'll be able to post pictures on Facebook and my blog at the convention.

I went on the CW message board and it's the same old crap on there. No one can tell me it isn't Sam vs. Dean all the time on there. I love how some posters can just sit and lie and lie that they love Sam, when they really don't. I used to love Dean, but I really don't even like him right now and I don't care what others think about that. I think he's been an asshole to Sam and probably will continue to be one even now that Sam has his soul back. I love how fans think Sam acted cold without his soul for the past how many months, when Dean acted worse than Sam did and he supposedly has his soul. Whatever.

Christmas And Supernatural

2010-12-15T00:40:00.001-08:00

I just watched A Very Supernatural Christmas for like the fifth time so far in the last couple of days. I was trying to cheer myself up. I wish that I could jump into the TV set and into those God's home. I would not care if they ate me as long as I got to sit on their plastic couch and enjoyed all the decorations and their beautiful tree. Maybe Madge could make me some cookies first and we could all watch some cute Christmas show together and then they could eat me. I'm sure they'd love me because I've got a lot of fat on my bones.
Right now, I really don't give a rat's ass what is going to happen with Sam and Dean. I just mostly think of Supernatural as a comedy now because it's gotten so crazy and goofy. I'm getting tired of waiting for answers to things that will probably never come. Of course, they are mostly about Sam. I'm surprised when I go looking around and reading some stuff and no one is mentioning how in hell Sam could have his soul in one place and his body walking around without it. That is so unnatural because if your soul is not in your body, you're either unconscious or dead. If your soul is gone from your body for too long, then your body dies, it doesn't go walking around for over a year with nothing to animate it. I just would finally like to know what Sam really is and how that was even possible. I'm not even going to hope they explain anything anymore. I'm also not even hoping for more Sam insight or POV or anything concerning Sam because I'll just end up disappointed. I'll be very surprised if the writer's even concentrate a little on Sam's character because I bet it will all be about Dean and how he feels about Sam now. I'm getting tired of Dean's shitty attitude towards Sam. Dean does not love Sam unconditionally and what he did proved that. Dean only accepts Sam when Sam is doing what Dean wants or expects him to do. Otherwise Sam is wrong or evil or horrible to Dean. It's getting very ridiculous at this point. I'm tired of Sam always accepting Dean for who and what he is and for everything he does. While Dean on the other hand, can only accept Sam when he acts like he's supposed to.
I love how Dean fans will constantly come up with anything and everything to excuse the crap that Dean does to Sam. I love how fans have forgotten that Dean beat the crap out of Sam and was still beating on him when he was unconscious. Either Dean really hates Sam or he hates himself because I can't explain why Dean would beat on Sam that badly. Sam didn't even try to fight back and he was supposed to be the dangerous one that didn't have a soul or a moral compass. Yeah, right.

I'm trying to read more books right now and I've started to read the Supernatural books again and they don't even make me care about anything. I guess I'm just depressed because of all the crap that's been happening lately and this is probably going to be one crappy Christmas. I wish I could go to Las Vegas for Christmas.
I was going to write some Christmas spoofs of Supernatural and I even started one, but who cares about it? I lost all interest after I saw poor Sam's soul forced back into him. I'm not even excited for the show to come back on in January, not like I was last year. I knew that Sam, Interrupted was going to be a great episode and it was one of my favorite episodes ever. Even the title of the episode that's coming up is stupid, Like A Virgin. Obviously someone loves Madonna. Whatever. I just hope that my love for Supernatural will come back full force. I love Jared and Jensen and I'll always love the show, but right now I really hate Dean's character and I don't know how to stop hating him. I used to love him, right up until season four and then he turned into a real dick and he was an asshole to Sam. I've tried to understand all the crap and the shitty things he's said to Sam, but I just don't get it. I still think Dean is afraid to face himself and what he did in Hell and takes it all out on Sam. Dean's soul was the one that tortured souls in Hell and got pleasure from it. So, what kind of soul does Dean have right now. It sure could not be good. I'm sick of Dean telling Sam that he's arrogant and self-righteous and Dean is the King Of Arrogance right now and he thinks he's always right about everything.

Then, there is still a ton of stuff that is never going to be explained and that makes zero sense. I'm tired of all the mystery already on Supernatural and trying to figure out who's bad or good anymore. There should be Sam and Dean and they both should be good and be heroes and then there should be the bad guys that they fight and kill. That's the way the show started and should have stayed. Now it's too convoluted and crazy and who knows who's evil or good now.

I can't wait to go to the L.A. Con because I loved going to the one last year and this year I have photo ops with Jared and Jensen and Gold tickets, so it should be more fun than last year.