I'm going back to work tomorrow and part of me is happy and the other part of me is wishing I was off for longer. I hate going back to work at the start of every new season because I have to take refresher training on the crap that I've been doing for over 20 years. Like I could ever forget anything. They treat us like idiots that can't remember anything and we've only been gone for a month and a half. If something has changed in the work I do, then it's okay to train for a little bit on it, but if it hasn't changed hardly at all, it's a big waste of time and money. My employer likes to waste time and money I guess. I just can't stand being bored for eight hours and I want to just start working and doing what I do. I love how some people want me to change jobs and they think I'll be happy doing something else. I love typing and listening to music and not having to stress about anything and that's what my job is. The only time I have stress at work, is when I have to deal with idiots that think I don't know my job or the whiners that whine about everything. They think the work is too hard and that we have to type to much an hour. There are a lot of lazy people where I work and they seem to get lazier all the time. The funny thing is, I do my best work and I don't even have to try to and they act like the work is so hard and they're trying their hardest. It's just a lie because they want to talk, go out to smoke, sleep or something other than work.
I hope I get my days off for the Convention and that there won't be a problem and that we won't be too busy when that time is. Sometimes we get a ton of work in and they think everyone should be there and not take a day off at all. I love my work, but I need time off too for fun. When I'm at work, it's all work and when I play it's all play. I never mix the two.
I went to go look at some things around the Internet and I read some crap about Jared. I love how some people have to try to knock Jared's acting to make Jensen look like a better actor than he is. Jared to me is the better actor of the two and has been since the show started. Jared can play different characters on Supernatural and in his movies. He does not let the role of Sam Winchester define him as an actor. Jensen on the other hand is defined by the role of Dean Winchester. I worry about Jensen's acting career when Supernatural is over. He's played Dean so well, that will anyone want to see him as any other character in a show or a movie. It's funny that we've never seen Jensen play any other character in the last five and a half seasons of Supernatural, but Dean. To me, the mark of a great actor is the variety of roles they can play and make believable. Look at Johnny Depp and Nicholas Cage. I can watch them play a wide range of roles and love them in every one. That's how I picture Jared after Supernatural. I can see him playing how many different roles and being great at them, just like he's done for the last how many years. He's played how many different characters on Supernatural and made them believable and he's been in how many different movie roles. I'd love to see Jensen actually play a different character just once on Supernatural and to see him have a starring role in a movie and have a totally different character persona than Dean. I'd love to see Jensen playing any other kind of role besides Dean just to see how he is at it and then I'd know and be able to say that Jensen is as good as Jared. That's why I love Jared more and think he's a better actor and that's because I can watch him play any character and love him. I love him as Sam Winchester, but I love him as all the characters he's been in other TV shows and movies.
I'm too lazy to post in my other thread about Sammy and Co. They've been playing in their hospital rooms and pretending to be doctor's, nurse's, surgeon's and patient's. I always wanted to work in a hospital. I was seriously considering becoming a nurse, but I read a book about a real nurse and decided I'd never be able to do some of the things nurses have to do. I love medical stuff though and I love reading medical books. It's kind of crazy. I should have looked into other medical professions that didn't have a lot of patient contact. Oh, well. I've always wanted to be a writer, a skater, a veterinarian, an actress, a teacher and how many other things. Now I just sit at my job and dream about being something else. I guess what I really am is a dreamer and I love to dream. The best part of dreaming is when you're in the middle of one. Everything is perfect. Nothing ever goes right in real life and what you dream could end up being a nightmare if it comes true. I think I'd rather just dream about certain things without them ever coming true, but in my dreams.
