Ragdoll

This is an old poem I wrote long ago as well. I found a whole bunch of poems that I wrote in school or shortly after I graduated and I decided to post a few of them.

They each take me by an arm and pull so tight
I can be shared, there is no need for a fight
All day long they play their game with me
They keep me there so I will never be free

They don't know how much I can be hurt
When they get finished with me, they throw me in the dirt
I lay there all alone and I silently cry
While people look at me as they pass by

Tomorrow is a long ways away
I don't think that I will last another day
Being torn apart rips at my heart
I feel sorry for myself when it's time for them to start

Day after day it is always the same
There is no cause and I have no one to blame
If I could only make them see what they are doing to me
Then perhaps one day friends they might be

Sadness

This is an old poem I wrote long ago when I was a teenager.

Cold and gray all around me as I stood
Too many evil people and hardly any good
Fights and destruction everywhere that you look
And the only love you get, comes from a book
Tears fill your eyes and fall down your face
You put your head down in disgrace
Friends that you trusted in with your life
Have hurt you bad and twisted and stabbed you in the back with a knife
Hardships and pain are the only things you feel
When no one asks you, but they instead steal
The walls that enclose you come tumbling down
People stare at you and think you're a clown
Love is only a word that is spoken
Promises that are made are forever broken
Time to lay down on your bed
Put a pillow underneath your head
And lay there as if you were dead

Sammy And Lucifer

I just had to use this pic of my Sammy and Lucifer for this post. I still miss them every day.
Now on to Supernatural. I never thought it would happen in a million years, but it did. I actually have been enjoying the show again. I loved Just My Imagination and I loved the fall finale. These are the first two episodes in how long that I actually want to watch more than once. Maybe because I love Sam and finally there has been some focus on his character. I wonder who pulled their head out of their ass and finally realized that Supernatural is about both Sam and Dean, not Dean and all his good buddies. I'm not going to hope for anything come next year because usually when the show starts out good, it ends up crappy or vice versa. It was so nice to see Mark Pellegrino playing Lucifer again. I love how stupid fans whine about why Lucifer looks like he does. Maybe only Sam sees him that way and he looks different to Crowley and Rowena. I wonder if Dean would see him as his last vessel as well. Probably. Mark and Jared are so great together and I loved all those scenes so much. I never thought I'd see any more scenes with them together. I hope and pray that there are a couple more.
As for God. I love how Dean doesn't believe God is around, but he prayed to him last year. And then Dean tells Sam not to believe in God. I don't care if Lucifer sent Sam those visions or not. I still think God is around and just seeing how Castiel has come back from the dead time after time. Who has been bringing him back? Who put Sam and Dean on the plane after Lucifer was released in season 5? When Dean threw away his amulet, that was just like he not only gave up on God, but Sam as well. Why should God have cared about helping Dean after he did that? I still wonder about that bright light that protected Sam from Lilith, then again from Samhain and then that same bright light when they were taken out of the church and put on the plane. That all could have been God.
I love how some fans think Amara hasn't done all that much to be considered a threat. She basically almost killed a whole town, has sucked down tons of souls and killed how many people, but she's not a threat or anything that needs to be stopped anytime soon. Maybe that's because Dean is the one bonded to her. If Sam had been bonded to her, she would need to be stopped immediately and Sam would be some evil rotten no good brother for being bonded with her.
And I love how Amara is the darkness. What does Lucifer's name mean? Light bringer or the morning star. Maybe Lucifer is the answer to stopping her. Maybe Lucifer is just lying that he sent Sam those visions. Who knows? I don't think all that much about stuff anymore because I just try to enjoy the show. I've been enjoying it more because it's about what I always loved most, Sam and Dean, not all the other characters. The show can have guest stars, but that's all they should stay as. When you watch the show, it should not be like Sam and Dean are guest on their own show. That's why I hated last year. The focus of the show was more on Castiel, Crowley, Rowena, Charlie, Claire, Jody and how many other guests and Sam and Dean might as well have not even been in the episodes, especially Sam.
Well, that's all for now.