I just had to use of pic of my little Sammy for this post to cheer me up.
I'm really getting tired of people lying to me. Do they think I'm some stupid idiot that doesn't realize they are lying to my face. I don't know what I've done to deserve being lied to. My one sister that I thought cared about me has been lying to me as well and I'm about fed up with it. If she does not want to spend time with me, then all she has to do is tell me. I'd rather hear the truth. I'd actually rather go somewhere alone than go somewhere with someone that does not want to be doing what I'm doing. I will not inflict myself on someone if they do not want me around. All they have to do is tell me and I will go and do whatever alone. I've been alone for so long that I'm used to it. And being with someone that doesn't want to be with you makes you feel even more alone and terrible.
I like spending time with my family and other people, but if they don't enjoy spending time with me, then tell me for crying out loud. Don't lie to spare my feelings because it's worse when I know I'm being lied to.
I really don't care about anything right now. I really don't care about any of my shows except for The Blacklist. That's all that has been on for a while except for Galavant. I can't wait for Gotham and Once Upon A Time to come back on. It feels like it's been forever since I saw their last episodes.
I watched Supernaturals episode of Love Hurts with the sound turned off and it was still boring. Didn't even look at that episode with Jodie and her teens. I really don't care about Jodie now. I used to like her before and now her character sucks. Just seeing Sam as Dean's obedient dog makes me sick to my stomach. I've been watching old episodes of Simon and Simon again and I bought the fourth season of the show on DVD. I love that show because Rick and A.J. were who they were and they always fought and said crap to each other, but they loved each other. Rick always acted like the older brother that he was and that's what I loved the most. It's funny because Gerald and Jameson were almost the same age in real life. That was some great acting on their parts to play the older and younger brother and make it seem real. I loved that neither brother ever tried to change the other brother nor did they ever want the other to be unhappy. I hate how Dean doesn't really give a crap if Sam has someone else in his life. Dean didn't even give a crap if Amelia made Sam happy or not, nor does he care if Sam will ever be happy in his life. I hate how Dean practically made Sam accept Benny, when Dean made zero effort to even find out anything about Amelia or how Sam felt about her or anything. Whatever. Dean is the worst TV brother ever in my opinion and that will never change. I don't feel anything when Sam and Dean hug or supposedly have brother moments because of how Dean has treated Sam. I just know Rick would never have treated A. J. like that.
I hope I'm ready to go to Fan X next month alone. I just want to enjoy it without someone trying to make me as miserable as they are. I want to have fun even if I'm alone having fun.
That's all for now.
