To Hell With Supernatural Or The Dean Show

I've just read some more crap about the upcoming season and it looks like the same old tired crap, but this time Dean will be a demon. Who cares? I feel sorry for anyone who wants to see Sam and Dean being brothers. Looks like that is not going to happen for the first part of the season. Dean will be off finding new friends and probably another new brother to replace his rotten little brother Sam.
I love reading all the crap that the writers and Jared and Jensen say about the show. Jared is happy because he gets to spend plenty of time with his family now because his character Sam has nothing to do and is hardly ever in the show. When he is in an episode, he doesn't do much at all. It's mainly Dean doing all the talking, the acting and whatever. I'm happy for Jared and I'm betting he'll get even more time off this season to spend with his family. Now that Misha and Mark are regulars, I'm sure they will get even more airtime and more to do on the show. I'm sure there are going to be a whole ton of new characters coming and I read there are going to be two new females. One is going to be with Dean, of course. Who knows about the other one?
Here's something I hope for. I hope that Sam saves Dean by killing someone, or killing a whole bunch of people or maybe even restarting the apocalypse. I wonder if that would be enough for Dean to realize that Sam cares about him. Is that what it will take? Sam choosing saving Dean over saving the world or other people. I guess Sam sacrificing himself and spending how long down in hell did not prove to Dean that he cared about him. Sam wanted Dean to be happy, but Dean will never be happy because he hates himself.
Dean will never love or feel love until he can love himself and I don't think that will ever happen.
I don't care about Castiel and that whole angel crap. Angels fighting angels and who the hell knows even what they are fighting about or for. I'm so sick of it. And I still don't know how Castiel could have his grace taken and become human and then steal another angel's grace and have powers again. And now the grace is slowing leaking away or whatever and he'll die. What the hell? Whatever.
I just know one thing and it's highly unlikely that I will be watching Supernatural when it comes on in the Fall. The more I read about what's coming up, the more I don't care. Sad, but true. During the summer, I usually go back and watch all the seasons and my favorite episodes, but this summer I haven't watched any. I've been watching old shows from the past and I found one of my favorite shows ever on DVD and now I'm stuck on it again.
I was sad about no more Supernatural novels coming out and now I don't care because I probably wouldn't read one even if it did come out. I can't wait for the new Monk, Fringe, Grimm and Sleepy Hollow novels to come out. I can't believe that there is going to be a Sleepy Hollow novel. I can't wait to get it and I can't wait for the show to come back on.
I'm sad about Supernatural because it was my favorite show and I loved it so much and now I almost hate it and I don't care about what happens next on it. I could care less what happens to Dean anymore because that's all the show is about and has been about since season 4. I had fun on Twitter reading all the tweets with AskSupernatural and I wrote a few myself. I love all the fans sniveling over what they want to see. Good luck to them.  I loved reading all the ones to TVD as well. I don't care what happens on TVD because I will love it because I love all the characters.
I love Jared Padalecki and I will continue to be loyal to him, but I can no longer support Supernatural because I don't love it anymore. I still love Sam and always will, but the show sucks and I don't see it getting any better in the future. It's been going downhill for a while now and it really got bad towards the end of season 7. I don't see how it could get better because I could care less what Demon Dean is going to be doing the whole time and I'm sure that's what will be shoved in our faces, plus tons of Castiel and Crowley. Sam will probably be off screen looking for Dean because it will be boring to have him onscreen looking. Whatever. It's the same old tired crap and I'm done. I just hope I can kick the habit of Supernatural. That's all it is now. A really bad habit. Hopefully, I can go cold turkey and not even watch one episode or even peek to see what's happening. I still love Sam and I want to know what happens with his character, but I need to stop even caring about him because the writers never do anything good with his character or follow through. Here's to hoping I can say to Hell with Supernatural and kick the rotten habit I have of watching a show I no longer love. I've stopped wearing my Supernatural shirts and I've stopped buying any merchandise and I doubt I will ever go to another Convention again. I love the Conventions and all the stars, but I think it's over and done with. I had fun at the Conventions I went to and they will always be great memories for me. Well that's all.

Daktari And Summer TV

It's nice that I finally get to see Daktari again. I bought the first two seasons on DVD and I love watching them. The last time I watched Daktari on TV was probably over 20 years ago. It's a show that is great to watch no matter how many years has passed. I wish it was on a TV channel so that other people could discover how great it is. It's great for anyone who loves animals. They are the best part of the show. It had a lot of good lessons about animals and people. It's sad to know that a lot of people today could care less about animals or how close how many of them are getting to extinction.
TV is not that great right now during the summer. It's a long wait until all my shows come back on. I've been watching old shows on DVD and old shows on TV. I'd rather watch them, than some of the crap that is on right now. I don't really care for AGT. I watched the show Extant and it was interesting and I may keep watching it. Nothing else is interesting at all. I have watched repeats of TVD, The Originals and The Blacklist. Also, it's been nice to watch Leverage. I've always wanted to watch it, but I haven't had cable for years. Now the repeats are playing on two different channels.
I've been reading a few spoilers for what's coming up on all my favorite shows, but they don't tell much. The only thing I've gotten from The Supernatural spoilers is that I probably will not be watching the first half of the season. I could care less about stupid Dean being a demon and going out to do all kinds of crap. From what I've read, it seems like the show will mainly be about Dean, Castiel and Crowley. The side character Sam will probably not do much, but look for Dean. Who cares? Love Jared and I still love the character of Sam, but I'm done hoping for something that will never happen. Sam Winchester might as well be dead and hopefully the writers will have demon Dean kill him. They can have an angel, a demon or something else take over Sam's body. Maybe they can bring Benny back in Sam's body, so that Dean can have his real brother back again. Whatever.
I can't wait for September and all my favorite shows to come back. I'm sure I'll be watching how many of them on Hulu or wherever because there are going to be a lot of shows on all at the same time. Monday is going to be the best night of the week. Well that's all.

My Mom

My Mom passed away this morning. She had a stroke last week and she never did recover from it. For almost the last two years it's been how much stuff happening to my Mom. First she needed stents and then a pacemaker in her heart. She had heart failure and that's why she needed all the that. She almost died how many times. My Mom was tough and I really can't believe what she recovered from, but this time, I guess her time was up.
I'm so grateful to have had a Mom like mine. She took care of me for my whole life. I have never gotten married or had any children. I stayed living with my Mom and Dad after I graduated and then when my Dad died, I stayed with my Mom. I've been living in our house for almost two years without my Mom. She was at an assisted living place. I could not take care of her by myself and when I had to go back to work, there would not have been anyone to be with her. A couple of times she needed a lot of care. I'm glad that my Mom didn't die almost two years ago and that I was able to spend more time with her. My oldest sister would always take me to visit my Mom where she was living. We walked over there how many times to see her. We also got to take her gambling to Wendover. She loved to go there. We took her a few times out to eat and I'm glad that last year she was here for Thanksgiving and Christmas and she was able to spend time with us. I'm going to miss visiting at the place she lived because when we left, she would come to the door of her room and wave to us before we turned the corner to leave.
I have how many great memories with my Mom. I will always cherish them and all my memories are my greatest treasures. I treasure every minute I spend with the people I love and I treasure all the memories I have of those times. When I'm alone, I'm never really alone because everyone I love is always with me in my heart and in my memories of them.
I thought I'd write down some of those memories.
I remember all the times that I went to Wendover on the bus with my Mom to gamble. The best part was the ride down there. I mostly sat with my Mom and we'd laugh and talk to the other people on the bus. My Mom really loved to talk to people. She used to call the people on the bus her Wendover family. I mostly went to Wendover to spend time with my Mom. I remember the times after my Dad died and we'd use to walk how far from where the bus dropped us off. And a few of the bus drivers would drop us off closer to our house so that we wouldn't have to walk so far. I had so many fun times and great memories with how many people that were on the bus and my family that used to go as well. There were times when my sister and I and my Mom would go. Those were fun trips. I'm glad I have so many wonderful memories to remember.
I remember when my Mom and I went on the bus on a long trip to Laughlin. And I can't believe that my Mom went on a plane to Vegas with me for my Birthday one year. That was a great trip and my Mom and I had a lot of fun together. We mostly gambled, but we did other stuff as well. I got her to go to the IMAX that used to be at The Luxor. We saw how many shows and we even watched NSYNC in concert on the screen and my Mom even liked it.
My Mom went to a couple of Jazz games with me because I had no one else to go with at the time. I used to get free tickets for subscribing to their magazine and we'd go to those games. It was really fun and I know my Mom had fun too, except for the night we had to wait over two hours for our bus to come to get us home.
I remember all the shopping my Mom and I did. It seemed like we went shopping 2-4 times a week. We also did a whole lot of walking. My Mom didn't like to drive and neither did I. We would usually take the bus or walk to wherever we wanted to go. I'll never forget all those times. Sometimes we were alone and other times we were with how many family members. My Mom loved to eat out and we'd do that quite a lot as well. We also went to a lot of movies together. The last movie I remember going to with my Mom was Spiderman 3. After that, she didn't want to go to the movies. She would still watch movies on DVD or TV, but that's about it. I can't believe that when Lord Of The Rings and Harry Potter came out, she went with me how many times to see them. I don't think she ever did watch all the Harry movies and she didn't really care about seeing The Hobbit.
Well, I have a whole ton of memories, but I can't write all of them down. I just know that whenever I'm feeling sad, I can remember all the good times I had with my Mom and she'll always be with me. My Mom will always be in my heart and soul, along with everyone I love, no matter where I go or what I do.
I just feel that when I'm out walking, even though my Mom won't be there in person, she'll be walking beside me always.
I like to be honest even when I'm just posting something on my blog. There's no reason to lie about stuff. There were times when I was mean to my Mom and there were times when we said hurtful things to each other. I don't know if everyone does that or not, or if they admit to it or not. I will admit to it. There were times that I was a dirty little spoiled brat, but I do believe my Mom loved me any way and I know I loved her. We'd fight sometimes, but it never lasted for long. Most of the time it was great with my Mom. She was my best friend through the years when I became an adult. I'll never forget all the special things she did for me and I know she unselfishly did them even though she didn't want to.
Before I end this very long post. I remember when I was a little girl and all the stuff my Mom did for me and our family. She did so much and worked so hard for a whole lot of years. It seemed like her job was 24/7 and she did so much. I remember her scrubbing the floors, washing the dishes, cooking, getting us ready for school and so much more. I think my Mom liked to cook, but when we were all grown up, she liked going out to eat because she didn't have to cook.
Well, I think I'm done because I don't know if I'm expressing myself and how I feel properly. I can never find the right words to express how I feel. It's very hard. I just know I loved my Mom and no matter what, she'll always be with me. She'll never be gone as long as I remember and love her. I may never get to see her or hear her talk to me, but if I talk to her, I'm sure somewhere she'll be listening. The love and everything she gave me will give me comfort for the rest of my days.

Great Pic Of Ian Somerhalder

This is the best pic of Ian that I've seen yet. He's great and I love him for everything that he is doing. I love how he's been spending his time off from filming Vampire Diaries. I just hope he takes a little time for himself.
I'm so happy that Ian is out there fighting and trying to get more people involved in saving The Earth and everything and everyone on it, not just people.

Ian Somerhalder Is My Hero

I love Ian Somerhalder. Not because he is drop dead gorgeous, which he is. And not because he plays a hot vampire on Vampire Diaries. I love him because he cares so much about the Earth and everything on it. And I love that he does so much, not just giving money or occasionally volunteering to help out. I love that he started The Ian Somerhalder Foundation and I love to see the posts on my Facebook page because he shares so much good information and inspiring stuff. Just knowing that there is just one person out there willing to do so much for our Earth gives me hope. I remember when John Denver was alive because he used to be a voice for this Earth and now Ian is, in a different way.
I love watching Ian play Damon on Vampire Diaries, but I love him more seeing pictures of him with animals and videos of him helping to fight for the environment.
I love seeing the positive things people are doing to help animals, the environment and people. I love that Ian usually only posts positive things. It breaks my heart when people post horrible pictures and videos of animals being tortured and killed. It just hurts so much. I don't want to see that. I know no matter what that there will always be cold hearted, greedy and selfish people out there. People who will torture and kill animals and not even care. People who will tear down rain forests and mountains. I don't want to see what these horrible people are doing because nothing will ever change. There will always be people out there who only care about themselves and about making money and getting what they want. I've seen that for years now. Animals have been tortured, experimented on, and killed for various reasons since the dawn of man. It's sad to know that a lot of people just think animals are on this planet for us to use, abuse and kill. I'm an animal lover and it hurts when I see that animals have been killed for no other reason than that some greedy creep can make a profit off of them.
I love how some idiots think dolphins and whales are just stupid fish and who cares how they are treated. I read and saw how much about all the Sea World stuff and it just made me so sad. It's sad when people think animals should just be around for our amusement and who cares about how they feel because idiots think they can't feel. I think some animals have more feelings and know more about love than human beings do. If more people cared about the environment, animals and each other, than this world would be a much better place to live in. Most people only care about themselves, their own families or trying to get ahead of everyone else.
I love how some people whine and snivel about helping people over animals and plants and what not, but when you help the Earth, you are helping people. The Earth is are only home and if we don't take care of it soon, then one day we will not have a home left because everything will be gone. Maybe not everything, but most certainly humans. I'm sure microorganisms would still be around in some form or another, but that's about it.
Now back to Ian. Every day Ian makes me smile and gives me hope and that's why he is my hero. He makes me believe that one day more people will care about the environment, animals and the beautiful world we live in.

Evermore Without Sammy And Pet Society

I didn't think I would make this video. It's been a whole year now since Pet Society has been closed down. As I was making this video, I couldn't stop crying. I know it's crazy to keep crying over my Sammy, but I just can't help it. I still miss him and Pet Society so much that it hurts.

A Year Without My Little Sammy

It's been a year now since I've seen or played with my little Sammy. Not one day has gone by that I haven't thought about him and missed him and his friends. It's good to know that I'm not alone. There are still other people out there that still miss their pets as well. I'll never stop wanting to play Pet Society again. No other game has even come close to comparing. Pet City is fun and cute, but it will never be anything even close to Pet Society. No matter how many cute things they add or what they do, it will never come close to being Pet Society. Pet Society was unique and it was like the pets were alive. Little Sammy would wander around his rooms and do whatever he liked. I still miss the fishing hole and all the fish Sammy had. I miss the doors that you could put in a room and go to other rooms through. I miss the way little Sammy would pick up his toys and then laugh when he set them down. I miss watching him sleeeping and that's something Pet City doesn't even come close to. It was like Sammy was real and he was breathing and dreaming.
I can't believe it's been a whole year already. It still hurts when I think about Sammy and all his friends. Just knowing that I'll never hear them laugh or see them smile again unless I watch some videos I took. It's just not the same.
My anger towards EA is gone and I really don't care what they do anymore. I just know I've stopped thinking about them and I don't even hate them anymore. I will never buy or play another one of their games and I still pray that other people learn from what happened to Pet Society and the other games EA has shut down. They will never care about their players, only their bank accounts and how much money they can make.
That's all for now.

Supernatural Season 10: Predictions and Hopes

I'm making my predictions for season 10 early because it's not that hard to predict what will happen.
1. One or more characters will die throughout the season.
2. Last season Sam didn't have sex with anyone, so this year it's time for that. I'm sure he'll either have sex with a monster, a demon or some boring woman. Or the stupid writers will have a new love interest for him yet again because they are too stupid to think of anything else.
3. Dean will be an even bigger dick and an even bigger hypocrite now that he's a demon. He was so worried about Sammy becoming a monster, when he really should have worried about himself becoming one.
4. Castiel will have some boring angel or human storyline that will be totally separate from what is happening. Hopefully he'll kill another angel for their grace. He's killed angels for less than that. He's killed other angels for no reason at all.
5. Crowley will be the same as he's always been. If he changes, then his character will suck. I can just picture Dean doing Crowley's dirty work for him. And by that, I mean his killing.
6. Last of all. Sam will have zero storyline at all. Or if he has one, then it will be a boring love story or some other crap like that. Hopefully, Sam will have something else besides just trying to save Dean from his stupidity.

I have zero hope in loving this show again. I've been addicted to it, but I haven't loved it since the beginning of season 7.
I have zero hope at all for Sam's character this season. I'm just hoping that Sam does not turn into Dean. I've hated Dean because he always puts himself first and what he wants over saving anyone. I love how fans keep whining about Dean saving Sam all the time. Dean has not saved Sam all the time. Dean brought Sam back from the dead by making some stupid deal and that was not saving Sam. That was Dean not wanting Sam to die or failing at his job of protecting Sam. Dean did not save Sam at the beginning of season 9. Gadreel did. Sure Dean called out and whined for an angel, but Dean should have known that angels were not to be trusted. Saving someone does not just mean saving their physical body, but you can save someone emotionally and mentally as well. Dean never considers how Sam feels about anything, nor does he care.
If Sam becomes some dumb ass like Dean and starts drinking and whining and sniveling, then I'll hate Sam as well. I still love Sam, but if he becomes like Dean, then my love will be gone.
One more thing while I'm on this rant. I love how Dean and Castiel never take any responsibility for helping to start the Apocalypse. It's all Sam's fault because he did it all by himself. I don't know how. He never broke the first seal that started it all like Dean did. And Castiel who constantly lied to Dean and then let Sam out of the panic room. None of that is ever brought up. I love how Dean was crying and sniveling about breaking the first seal and felt guilty about it, then when Sam broke the last seal, it was like Dean's guilt just went away and all the blame went to Sam. That's probably another reason I don't like Dean. He always puts the blame on everything on someone else. He never takes responsibility for the choices he's made and when he does, he just ends up doing something even more stupid like getting that Mark Of Cain.
I don't care if Sam and Dean act like brothers again ever. Dean hasn't treated Sam like a brother since season three. He's treated Sam like he's some monster that has to be stopped or saved from destroying and killing everyone. He even called Sam a monster in season 4 and said if he didn't know Sam, he would want to hunt him. Dean would want to hunt and kill Sam for killing demons. I thought that's what Sam and Dean were supposed to do. Sam was horrible and turning dark in season 4 because he drank demon blood and then he only sent demons to hell or killed them. He killed Alistair to save stupid Dean. He killed Lilith who was a demon. Oh wait! He killed some sweet innocent nurse being possessed by a demon. At least he felt guilty about the nurse. I've never seen Dean feel guilty or sorry about any demon he's killed or about the person they've been possessing. Dean could care less. I love how Dean told Sam in season 4 to kill demons with the knife and not his powers, but now that Dean's going to be a demon, he'll probably have powers and it will be okay for him to kill demons or whatever with his powers, but it wasn't okay for Sam. And Sam has never said that Dean is not his brother, but on the other hand Dean basically told Bobby that Sam wasn't his brother. Whatever. Dean will always be right and Sam will always be wrong. Dean will always be the one doing everything for Sam, but Sam has done nothing for Dean. Even though, Sam really wanted Dean to have something besides just hunting and that's why he wanted him to be with Lisa and Ben. Sam would have gladly stayed in Hell being tortured for all eternity if it meant that Dean found some happiness and joy out of life and something besides hunting. While Dean on the other hand talks about wanting Sam to be happy, but when he's gone, then he expects Sam to sit around crying about him or looking for a way to save him. Sam had something besides hunting twice now and Dean didn't care if Sam lost it or if he ever finds that again. I still think Dean has always been jealous of Sam. He jealous that Sam can just drop hunting and live a normal life and he knows he can't do that. It's like in that episode Skin from the first season. That shapeshifter knew everything that was in Dean's head and he basically told Sam that he was jealous that Sam could have a life and he knew that he was a freak and would always be one. The shapeshifter told Sam that Dean had a lot of issues with Sam and I've seen plenty of those over the seasons.

There's one main hope I have for season 10 and that's for the writers to give Jared all the time off that he wants. Hopefully, they will be nice and just let him be gone for most of the episodes when his character isn't needed and that will be about over half of them. Let Sam appear for about 5 minutes in each of these episodes and that will be enough. I don't watch the crappy episodes that totally focus on Dean, Castiel, Charlie, Kevin and Momma, Metatron and any other crappy character I don't like so who cares how much Sam is in them or not. Hopefully they will give him a break. Jared looked happier this year when I saw him in pictures on Twitter. Now I'd rather look at Twitter and read his tweets and see pics then watch his character on the show. I'm hoping he live tweets during episodes, so that I'll have something interesting to read. I love Misha's tweets as well. I still love Misha, but Castiel has gotten very boring.
I hope other fans of the show get all they want out of it and hopefully they'll get to see what they want to see. I know the show will never be as good as it was when I  first started watching it.. I'll just continue to watch the older episodes and enjoy them. I enjoyed a few episodes of season 9 and maybe there will be a few in season 10. I've only enjoyed about 6-8 episodes each season since season 7 started.
Well that's all and I can't wait to see some stupid spoilers when they start coming out. I may just watch certain episodes in season 10 because of spoilers and episode descriptions, otherwise I'll be watching something else during that time. There are a lot of new shows coming out and I might start watching Agents Of Shield and I saw it will be on at the same time. By October, who knows what will be on and what I'll be watching.

Old TV Shows And Music In TV Shows

I'm so happy because I found a new channel on TV that is playing how many of my favorite old shows. Now I can watch old TV shows all summer long. I was going to watch America's Got Talent, but now I don't know if I will or not. I'm sick of the judges constantly whining about the singers and if they don't want a singer to win the show, then they should not let singers audition. Singers are one of the main reasons I watch the show. I love all the different variety of acts and they are all fun to watch, but the singers are usually my favorites. There's no other shows that I'm even interested in watching on any channel over the summer. The CW always has crap shows and then they never repeat their good shows. The few they have left anyway.
I'd rather watch old shows that I used to love to watch with characters that I loved. The shows were untainted by social media and crazies whining over ships and shipping characters. Also, the shows didn't have all kinds of crazy and shocking crap happen to the characters just to get a reaction out of fans. Now they do that all the time because they want fans to whine and snivel all over social media. I think the networks and especially The CW don't really care all that much about ratings, they care more about who's talking about their shows and how much they're talking and where they are talking. Otherwise, some of the shows would be cancelled for their dismal ratings. And there's all kinds of ways to watch TV now, not just on a TV. You can watch your favorite show on how many forms of media now. Well, that's all about that. I just can't wait to watch some good TV again with my old shows. Shows like Six Million Dollar Man, The Bionic Woman, Hart To Hart, Magnum P.I., Charlie's Angels, Starsky And Hutch and how many more.

Now onto music in TV shows. I love music and songs when they are played during a TV show. A lot of my favorite shows have had how much music in them and that's where I've found tons of new music to listen to. I know I've said this before, but I'm going to say it again. I love when a song is playing during a scene and you see the characters and the music is playing and the characters don't even need to talk because the music is saying it all. I love it. The Blacklist, The Originals and Vampire Diaries all had great songs and wonderful scenes where this happened. I loved every time I heard a great song and saw my favorite characters. Sometimes just their facial expressions were all you needed to see and other times they talked while the music was in the background, but I loved it. That's something Supernatural has only done a very few times. There is one scene from season two during Heart that is my favorite. I don't even know what the song is, but I loved it. It's when Sam and Dean are talking and Sam is crying and goes to kill Madison and you see a single tear fall out of Dean's eye. I loved that scene so much because I loved the music playing and all the emotion during it. Of course, it was Sera Gamble who wrote that episode and she always had great emotional scenes with Sam and Dean. I love how fans want to see emotional scenes between Sam and Dean and I think to myself, that they never will because The Boys Club is writing the show now. This current crop of writers that I call The Boys Club do not know how to write an emotional scene at all. I didn't feel anything while watching the season finale when Dean was dying and said he was proud of them and Sam was crying. What was Dean proud of them for? Being stupid or lying to each other or what? I still don't know. It would have been more emotional for me if Dean would have said that he loved Sam or something like that. Not some stupid line like that. I'll probably never see another emotional scene between Sam and Dean again, not while these stupid writers are writing the show. Oh, well. I still have the first three seasons of the show to watch.
And speaking of watching old shows. I'll probably watch some old episodes of One Tree Hill, The O.C. and Smallville during the summer because they have great scenes with great music that I love in them. I can watch these shows over and over and never get tired of watching them.
Here's to hoping that next season on my favorite shows, I'll get lots of great songs playing during great scenes that I can watch over and over. I'm always looking for new music to listen to, but I love how some shows play old classic songs as well. When a song fits the mood of what's happening during the show, then it's like magic is happening and I'm amazed and enthralled by it.
That's all for now.

Crowley And Season 10 Of Supernatural

Crowley is probably going to be the only interesting character in season 10 of Supernatural. The only crappy part is that he'll probably be with Dean a lot. I love how Crowley has done so much to hurt the people Sam and Dean care about and then Dean goes off and trusts him and becomes he's new best friend. I guess Sam was right at the end of last season when he said who was Dean going to trust next. First it was an angel and then a vampire and now it's a demon. Dean can't trust and believe in his own brother, but he'll believe in other supernatural creatures and trust them over his own brother. And Dean has to wonder why Sam never bothered to look for him when he went to Purgatory. Dean was with his two best brothers, Benny and Castiel.
I was watching the first couple of episodes from season 4 and I just loved Dean. What a big fat hypocrite he is and is going to turn into an even bigger hypocrite, now that he's a demon. I love when he told Sam that God didn't want Sam to use his powers. Dean didn't even believe in God and it wasn't God, it was lying Castiel who told Dean that. Castiel used and manipulated Dean and now Crowley is doing the same thing and stupid Dean just lets them because he feels betrayed by Sam. For what, I have no idea. Because Sam doesn't constantly kiss his ass all the time. I love how Dean sat on his high horse and basically made Sam feel like crap for all of season four, but Sam listened and supported Dean when he heard about what happened in hell. Sam has never looked at Dean like he's a monster, but Dean has looked at Sam like that and basically called him a monster and fans wondered why Sam punched him in the face. Sam didn't just punch Dean for nothing. Not like Dean is constantly punching Sam for no reason, except that he can because he knows Sam won't punch him back. I doubt Sam is going to look at Dean like he's a monster when he finds out he's a demon and if he does, then I'll really hate the writers of this show. Sam has never looked down on Dean or he's never said that Dean has let him down. But Dean has let Sam down and that's probably why Dean hated himself so much. He didn't watch out and protect Sam because he wasn't able to. It's not that Dean was a bad brother, but he did not have the power to protect Sam from everything. But making deals and doing whatever to keep Sam alive was not protecting him. I love how Dean has killed everyone who was there for Sam or helped him. Like Amy. If Amy had not saved Sam's life when he as a kid, then Dean would have failed in his job to protect Sam and that's probably why he killed her. She was there for Sam when he wasn't. Ruby was there for Sam when Dean was gone and Dean was really stupid in thinking that she wouldn't be around after he was gone.
I also love how fans jumped on Sam about what he said to Dean in Purged. Like Sam would not try to save Dean. Sam only said he would not do the same thing Dean did if the circumstances were the same. Because he knows Dean would not want to lose control to a supernatural entity, but Dean obviously thinks Sam has had fun being possessed now by how many demons and angels. And I love how at the end of season four, Dean basically told Bobby that Sam was not his brother, if he ever was. Sam has never once said that Dean is not his brother and he's never treated Dean the way Dean treats him.
I'm over the whole Sam and Dean against evil and saving people and hunting things. They don't save anyone,  they hardly hunt anything anymore. Dean has been more worried about saving Sammy than saving anyone in the world. He would have let the world burn to save Sam, but then Dean doesn't care how Sam feels about that and he doesn't really care about Sam. Dean's job was to save Sammy, but it was not drilled in his head as a kid. Dean himself said that he always felt that it was his job to protect Sam. I love how some fans go on and on like Dean was both a mother and father to Sam. He was not because there was how many people that took care of both of them, including John himself.
The only thing about Dean becoming a demon is that he did not do that to save Sammy. He did that on his own like always. He didn't really give a crap about Sam at all when he made that choice. Just like with all his other choices. He never thought how the choices he made has affected Sam. Sam would have been dead long ago and there would have been no apocalypse or anything else if Dean had not made that deal. He did not do it to save Sam, but to do his job of taking care of Sammy. He felt like a failure so he made the deal and after that he didn't care what happened to Sam. He thought Sam didn't care about him or that Sam was totally torn up inside and did everything he could to get Dean out of his deal. Sam even tried to trade places with Dean in hell. But then when Dean comes back from Hell, Sam is an asshole for not finding some way to get him out of hell. Same as with Purgatory. Dean made the choice to trust Crowley and he paid the price by going to Purgatory. Dean has made tons of choices that have affected and hurt Sam and he just doesn't give a crap.
I hope Dean turns evil, but I'm sure he'll be a good demon and be killing evil things that need to be killed unlike Sam who killed Lilith and Alistair. Both demons who hurt Dean in different ways. Sure Lilith was the final seal, but neither Dean nor Sam knew that. Sam wasn't even evil in season four. All he wanted was to have power so that he could kill demons and stop the apocalypse and maybe the power to protect and save Dean. I love how fans say that Sam was just addicted to demon blood and that was it. Sam didn't like the taste of it and he hated doing it, but he thought he was doing it to save people and stop the apocalypse because Ruby made him believe it. You would have thought that Dean, after so many years, would have realized that Crowley is a master manipulator and would not have ever trusted him. Dean once told Sam that demons lie and that they can read minds and they use that against you. Funny that Dean has totally forgotten that. Also, Crowley spent a little bit of time inside of Sam's head and you never know what he found out to use later against both Sam and Dean. I love how Dean let Crowley possess Sam as well and then didn't really give a crap how Sam felt about it. It was just all about how Dean felt and that was all. He only cared about getting his little brother back, but didn't care how everything affected Sam. Neither did the writers because we don't know how anything affected Sam because Sam is internal and he keeps it all inside now. That's just the writers way of saying that they will never show how Sam feels about anything because they don't care about Sam's character at all. They probably think no one wants to know anything about how Sam feels or thinks because it will be boring.

I can't wait for season 10 to see Crowley and I'm glad Mark Sheppard will be a regular and I hope he somehow turns totally evil again and gets rid of his addiction to human blood. I'm tired of that crap.
The only thing I'll be hoping for in season 10 is a few good fight scenes between Sam and Dean, but they probably won't happen because Dean will either lie to Sam and hide that he's a demon or he'll be a good demon helping fight evil. What a load of crap that will be? I love how when Sam's eyes turned black in season four, no one cared, but Dean's turns to black and he's a demon and everyone goes nuts. I love how the writers made Sam's storyline of turning dark disappear, but Dean will get a great storyline like always.
I'm sure Sam will get zero storyline in season 10, just like this season. He was totally and completely crapped on and so were how many Sam fans. I'm sure the writers went on Twitter and they thought all Sam fans wanted LimpSam in every episode, so that's what we got. I've always wanted Sam to be strong and he is capable of taking care of himself without Dean around, being soulless or being possessed.
Gadreel got a storyline in season 9. Dean, Castiel, Crowley and even Jodie got more than Sam did and she was only in two episodes.
I doubt I will be watching Supernatural live come season 10. It is not must see TV for me anymore because Sam is no longer a main character, even though he's getting the paid as one, he's just a guest with no storyline of his own and I'm tired of watching that. I'm tired of Sam being knocked unconscious, disappearing, being tied up and basically just there to support other characters.
My other shows are ten times better than Supernatural. Supernatural is still good as a comedy when I want a good laugh, but that's about it. I'm sure Mark won't let me down and I'll laugh when he's on the screen as Crowley. Who knows? Maybe they'll bring his son back and we'll find out he's evil as well or something will happen because he's affecting stuff in the future because he's not supposed to be here.
Well this was long, but it's about all I have to say for a while until Supernatural returns and even then, I may be done posting about it. I hope so. I think my addiction to the show ended again. Carver and Co have cured me yet again and I thank them for that.