My Other Shows

Okay, I've been neglecting all my other shows lately. I moved my little Sammy to his own spot so this place could be for all my shows and other stuff.

I'll start with Gossip Girl. I'm totally and completely loving this season so far. I love that Katie Cassidy is on the show and she's just wonderful as Juliet. She's made Nate more interesting to watch and I actually love seeing them together. I love Chuck and he's still my favorite character of them all. It's like this show never rests and you never know what will come up next for all the characters. I'm hoping to see some more of Eric in future episodes because I like him and would love to see them do more with his character. The Chuck and Blair war is always fun to watch.

Smallville's tenth season. I still can't believe that Smallville has been on for that long. It just doesn't seem possible because it feels just like yesterday that I started to watch it. I still love Smallville even though every character but Clark has left the show. Chloe is supposed to be in the show for how many episodes. I hope that's true because I do miss her. I love seeing Green Arrow or Oliver and it's nice to see him with a storyline. I like Clark and Lois, but I don't think they have the same chemistry that Clark and Lana had. I love Tess Mercer and I'm so happy they've kept her character on the show. You never know if she's doing good or evil and I love that about her. It keeps her character fresh and interesting. You can see she has a heart, but sometimes she's as cold as ice.

Life Unexpected has been good this season. I'm glad that we're finally getting to see more of Ryan and find out about him. I actually love seeing all the main characters of the show. I love them all and it's crazy. I want Cate and Ryan to stay together because I love them together. I like watching Baze and I enjoy his character just as much as Cate and Ryan's. I like watching Lux, but sometimes it gets a little crazy. How many guys have loved her now? It's getting hard to keep track of them all. Now she's hot for a teacher. It's funny.

One Tree Hill started out the season really strong and I loved all the stuff with Clay and Quinn. I loved how Clay and Quinn were spirits walking around and just everything about it. The storyline was heartwarming and sad all at the same time. It was sad because Clay was talking to the guy he got his kidney from and the guy died and Clay lived. Mark Schwann is great and I've loved Tree Hill for a long time now. I love how Haley and Nathan have stayed together. You can still have good storylines without always trying to break couples up all the time, especially married ones. I love little Jamie and he's one of the best parts of the show. I still miss Dan, but I don't know if we'll ever get to see him again. It would be nice to. I love Brooke and she's been my favorite character on the show for a long time. I can't wait to see if she finally will get married to Julian. I love Julian and he's been a great addition to the cast. When you have really great characters coming, then you don't mind if others leave.

Vampire Diaries is interesting and fun to watch this season. It seems like they've gotten all the characters more involved in the story now. I like the whole Katherine storyline and I can't wait to see what she'll do next. I love her because she's so evil and Nina does a great job doing both her and Elena. I love Damon and he of course is my favorite vampire on there. He's positively stunning to watch. I love Stephan because he's supposed to be the good one, but he seems to have a problem with drinking human blood now. I love seeing him struggle and it's nice that you get to see about equal time with the vamp brothers and it's not like Supernatural where one is a mystery and the other is almost the whole show. Both Damon and Stephan have their own stories going and they tie into the whole show. It's great to watch.

Funny Pic Of Jensen And Jared

I found this photo of Jensen and Jared and it's really funny. I kept looking at it and looking at because I knew there was something off about it. It looks like Jensen's head is on Jared's body and Jared's head is on Jensen's body. Jensen does not have a body like that. He is not more muscular than Jared. So, when I looked at those huge muscles on Jensen, I just started laughing. Jensen is shorter and less muscular than Jared by far. I wonder who made this pic because they obviously love Jared's body, but Dean's head. LOL

Thoughts About Sam

I've been posting some thoughts about Sam on the CW mesage board and I don't know why. I think most Supernatural fans just want to see what they want to see. They think Dean is so wonderful and loving a brother to Sam and I haven't seen Dean be loving or wonderful to Sam in the last couple years. I've seen Dean constantly putting everything Sam likes down or making rude comments about what Sam likes. Like every woman should look at Dean and then if one looks at Sam, then there must be something wrong with her or she's evil or something. I've seen Dean constantly trying to control Sam's every move and wanting Sam to tell him the truth, but Dean can lie all the time to Sam and it's great. That's the biggest joke.

I wouldn't blame Sam if he was totally and completely pissed off at Dean because I think Dean has been an asshole to Sam for a long time now. Fans can see the show any way they want to and that's how I see things. I don't think Dean has really cared about Sam because he doesn't even know Sam. Dean just wants Sam to be some carbon copy of himself and not Sam. Sam does not like the same music as Dean, Sam doesn't like the same food as Dean or the same clothes or woman. Sam is his own person and that's who he should be. Why does Sam have to like everything that Dean likes? He should not have to. Dean never listens to Sam when Sam wants to talk about things. Dean tells Sam to shut up or he doesn't want to hear it or it doesn't matter. I love how Sam tried to tell Dean about his anger and Dean just said to bury it. Maybe Sam did just that and now that anger is coming out and that anger was about how Dean treated Sam for how long.

I don't know what Sera has in store for either Sam or Dean, but when you say that things are not as they seem. I believe it. Who knows what's really happening and the whole show is like some mystery now? I like a little mystery, but I don't like it between Sam and Dean. It's funny because I was watching Vampire Diaries and watching Stephan and Damon and they've been treating each other better than Sam and Dean have. They've also been working with each other and helping each other more. It's kind of funny in a way. I love the whole what is Katherine doing on there? She's the big bitch and I love it. That's what I would have loved for Supernatural. A new character that you don't know and finding out what they're doing and wondering about it and not Sam and Dean yet again. I'm tired of that myself. I hope we find out what's going on.

I wonder if Sam is really Sam or not. Is Sera Gamble, Jared and everyone lying about Sam to keep it a secret or is that really Sam? I find it interesting that Jared in some interview said that Sam has gone to hell before. When did Sam ever go to hell? I just don't get that. He said Sam has gone to heaven and hell before. Sam died when Jake stabbed him and if he went to Hell because he didn't kill Jake, then I totally don't understand that. Why would Sam go to hell? It makes no sense. Sam never made any kind of deals or any that we know about. Why is Crowley so afraid of Sam? Or he was last season. Maybe he was afraid that Sam wanted to take over as King Of Hell. I doubt that. Sam has a total rage about killing demons and Crowley knew that. Why was Crowley still holding on to Bobby's soul long after Lucifer was back in his cage?

There are a million questions with no answers yet again. I hope I don't lose interest in Supernatural like I did with The X-Files. Too much mystery makes me lose interest because I get tired of waiting to find out what's what and then you never find out and more mystery and questions are piled on the top of the old ones and nothing is answered. It's like Gamble and Co think they need everything to be a mystery to keep people watching the show and I don't think they do. I would have watched Supernatural and never been bored with the show, if for the last four years, Sam and Dean had just been driving around and killing monsters. I don't need all the other crap and it's actually cheapened Supernatural. Like the angels and the apocalype storyline. I hated how Azazel and then even The Trickster/Gabriel acted like little kids or something. That sucked. They were kick ass supernatural badies and turned into spoiled brats or something. It was stupid on the writer's part to do that.

I love both Jared and Jensen and I don't mind if Jensen is on the show more and they concentrate on his character. I guess I should just be lucky and grateful that Jared is still on the show with all the hate people have for him and his character. I loved the first four episodes and then five came along and I didn't care for it. It was the storyline more than anything. Jensen did a great job as a vampire and Jared did a great job with Sam's character, even though we don't know what's going on. I'm sure Jared knows and that's what I love. I actually loved Sam standing there and watching Dean get fed the blood. Then Sam's little smirk or smile of satisfaction. I loved it. Who knows what's really going on with Sam or if that's even Sam all the time? Sam could have split personalities, Sam could be possessed by who knows what, Sam could be just Sam or maybe that's not even Sam and Sam is still in Hell or he's somewhere else and someone or something takes his place and Sam doesn't know about it.
There's more going on than what fans think, but the reactions are just stupid. Like Sam is so rotten and horrible to Dean. Like Dean is so wonderful to Sam. I'm just sick of it and now I have to not go on message boards again. I get angry at all the crap and most fans or people or whatever the hell they are, just want to hate Sam. They pick up what other fans are saying and just repeat everything. It's like they don't have minds of their own. Like they need someone else to tell them how to think and feel about the show and Sam and Dean. There are some smart and intelligent fans and then some outright stupid mindless ones. It's downright scary. It's like fans just see want to see what they want to see and that makes it so easy to trick and deceive them that it's laughable. I bet Eric Kripke, Sera Gamble, Jared and Jensen and all the rest just laugh their asses off at the stupidity and how easy it is to trick people into thinking certain things. It is easy because people want to be told things, it's like they don't have the ability to use their own brains to think with. And it's scary in this world that so many people are out there. I love to think for myself and no one is going to tell me how to think about anything about the show or characters. Everyone can love Dean and think he's the greatest thing ever, but who cares. I love Sam more and always will. Sam could kill Dean and I'll still love him more. Maybe that's how fans feel about Dean. It seems that way. Dean can do no wrong. Dean could outright kill someone and love doing it, but fans would twist things around to make it like Dean was doing something wonderful. Just like when Dean went to hell and you found out he started torturing and loved causing pain. I loved all the crap. Dean was torturing evil souls, Dean didn't break in hell and break the first seal, Dean was in hell so he had no choice but to do it. Give me a break. That said something about Dean's character, but no one wants to really know who Dean is either. He's just so loving and wonderful to Sam. He was loyal and caring. He loves and tries to save everyone. That is the stupidest crap and I wonder if some fans even watch the show. Most of the time Dean didn't give a crap about people. He loved hunting and maybe he loved killing the monsters. Who knows how he felt? Just like Sam.

I'd say that Sam and Dean are two different people from when the show started, but they haven't changed all that much. I just don't think we knew who Sam and Dean were when the show first started and now we've found out more about them.

Pics Of Little Sammy

Here's some pics of what little Sammy has been doing. Little Jess bought him a firebolt broom to ride and he won't stop riding it. Little Sammy and the rest of the little demons watched the ring on Sammy's new TV. Little Sammy has the shining and he wrote redrum on his wall. I hope it doesn't mean what I think it does.

My Little Pumpkin Sammy

Little Sammy got a pumpkin outfit for collecting all 12 pieces of special candy. All the little demons have been out trick or treating already. They trick or treat all month long in their little town. Little Jess got a graveyard room and she bought herself a broomstick. She's going to buy Sammy the special one that's coming out. All the little demons have been pulling pranks on each other and trying to scare each other. I hope they don't go to far with any of them because I don't want any of them to get hurt.
My little demons are excited about the vamp episode of Supernatural that's coming up. I thought it was on next week and it's on this week. I told the little demons and they were very happy because they want to see Dean as a vampire.

Who Is The Stronger Brother?

I've been thinking about who's the stronger brother. Is it Sam or Dean? Or are they both strong in different ways. I think Dean has always thought that Sam has been the stronger brother and he still does. Maybe Dean thinks it was weak of Sam to drink the demon blood, but was it?

When Sam and Dean were growing up. Who always stood up to John? Sam did and Dean said that he always admired Sam for that. Dean's loyalty to family could be mistaken for being afraid to stand up to John and to Sam. Dean even told Gabriel that he was afraid to stand up to his family and did Dean say that because he had always been afraid to do the same thing with his. Dean never told John what he wanted or stood up to him and told him that he didn't want to hunt. Maybe Dean did have plans for his own life, but maybe he should have let John know and Sam even. Who's fault is it that Dean never told anyone what he wanted out of life? He didn't have to hunt with John or stay with him. Dean did that on his own out of a sense of loyalty to him.
Sam stood up to John his whole life and let John know that he did not want that kind of life. Sam wanted to go to college and he wanted a safe and normal life and he tried to get it. He defied John, but at least John knew what Sam wanted. Maybe Sam was disloyal to his family and maybe he wasn't. He never wanted revenge on what killed their mother because Sam never even got to know her. He did love her and you could see that in the episode "Home" when he saw her spirit.

John never broke in hell after being tortured for how long, but Dean did. Dean knows that and maybe he feels weak himself because he did give in. I personally don't think Sam thinks Dean is weak because he gave in and started torturing. Sam even said so to Dean. I think Dean's whole problem is that he feels weak himself and he knows that he broke that first seal to set everything in motion for the apocalypse to start and then he couldn't stop Sam from breaking the last seal. Why couldn't Dean stop Sam? Dean didn't know what would break the last seal and he was so afraid of and for Sam that he couldn't see what was happening. Then Sam ended up being possessed by Lucifer and going to Hell and Dean couldn't stop that. Now Sam is back and he seems to be different, but only to Dean. Maybe Dean is wondering why Sam isn't acting the way he did when he got out of hell. Just like Sam said, they both had different experiences and they are both different.

Dean made the deal with the crossroads demon after Sam got stabbed by Jake because he couldn't stand the thought of living without Sam. Sam lost Dean and seen his brother ripped apart and knew he was in hell suffering. Sam drank and didn't care if he lived or died, but he didn't outright try to commit suicide. Sam actually did whatever it took to live. Maybe he trusted Ruby and let her help him, but he did live and kept on living without Dean. Then Sam went to hell for who knows how long and came back and was living a whole year without Dean. Dean was living with Lisa and Ben and thinking Sam was in hell. Dean was drinking and having nightmares, but what was happening to Sam. Was he okay? It seems like he was to me. We don't know anything of what Sam was doing except for Sam saying he was hunting.

I still think Dean thinks of himself being the weaker brother just for the fact that he made the deal and went to hell and broke the first seal. Then Dean told Castiel in "On The Head Of A Pin" that he needed to find someone else besides him to stop the apocalypse because it was too big. Dean would've stopped the apocalypse and it would've been easy. All he had to have done was go with Sam and Ruby and I bet there would have been no apocalypse and the last seal would never have been broken. The angels knew what Dean was going to do and they played on every little weakness they could. They also played on every weakness Sam had and Ruby was the one who helped there. Both Sam and Dean didn't trust in each other enough and I still think Dean didn't trust in Sam enough. Sam begged Dean to go with him and Dean was too stubborn to go with him, just because of Ruby.

On another subject. In "When The Levee Breaks" Sam told Dean that he'll never know who Sam is? I still don't think Dean really knows who Sam is and that's why Dean is worried that Sam is not himself and there's something wrong with him. I wonder if there is something wrong with Sam or if it isn't just all Dean think there's something wrong with Sam. Bobby didn't seem to worried when Dean was talking about how changed Sam was. He seemed kind of bored and sure he had his own problems to worry about at the time, but if he really loved Sam then he'd be just as worried about Sam as Dean is. Dean never saw Sam for a whole year and Sam didn't just get out of hell. He's been hunting for almost the whole time that Dean was with Lisa and Ben. Maybe it's Dean who's been the one that changed and not Sam. Also, I think Castiel would be able to sense a change in Sam and Crowley too. It's mainly just Dean thinking there's something wrong with Sam.

I think that each brother is strong but in their own ways. Sam to me, seemed like he didn't need anyone. He left John and Dean and I'm sure he loved them, but he left them to go live his own life. That takes a lot of courage and strength to strike out on your own and go after what you want. Dean stayed with John and that took strength and courage on Dean's part because he gave up what maybe he wanted in order to help his father. There are how many other ways that both brothers are strong. Sam just drinking demon blood and then having to stay in that room all alone with no one but himself. Dean alone in Hell and being tortured with no one but himself. I don't know why fans have to fight about either Sam or Dean being stronger or weaker. I think most fans just want Dean to be the stronger brother because he's the oldest, but that makes no difference. Sometimes the younger sibling can be stronger than the older one. Everyone has different strengths and you have to play to yours when you find out what they are. Maybe Sam knows what his are, but Dean still doesn't.

Another thing I was thinking about and was angry about while season 4 was on. That stupid saying "Save Dean Save The World". Like only Dean was a hero and could save the world and that Sam was just a piece of crap and couldn't save anything. I hated that. Sam and Dean save people and the world together, not just one or the other. They're both heroes in their own ways and have always been.

Weekend At Bobby's And Thoughts About Sam

I really enjoyed watching Weekend At Bobby's and it was nice to see more about how Bobby spends his time. It was interesting because you could see he not only helped Sam and Dean but other hunters as well. I loved watching Crowley and now he's the King Of Hell, who knew? I loved seeing Rufus again and I'm hoping he'll come on again. It seems he's not done with hunting and hasn't been since last season. In the third season, they made it like he was retired from hunting, but with the apocalypse and now with all the monsters, I'm sure he's out of retirement. There wasn't a lot of Sam and Dean, but they were in the show and that's all that mattered. Jensen did a good job directing. I don't know anything about directing, but it was just like all the rest of the Supernatural episodes, so he did just as good a job as all the other directors that have done directing on the show. That is a compliment to Jensen because I love all the other episodes of Supernatural, except for Heaven And Hell and even that episode was okay.

I'm glad I'm not going on the message boards because I can just guess what's being posted on there. Sniveling over Sam and Dean not being in the episode a lot and mainly that Sam wasn't in the episode. Then the mystery of Sam and Dean crying to Bobby about how different Sam is. Then there are probably fans either loving or hating Crowley, Rufus, the cop or the neighbor. Then there are all the crazed Jensen fans that probably loved it just because he directed it. Like they know what good directing is. It was a well written episode as well as directed. Jim Beaver is a class act and I loved meeting him at the last L.A.Con. I'm glad we got to see some more of his great acting. Well, it's been almost a week since I've gone on message boards and I'm happier not knowing what anyone is saying about anything.

Now on to Sam. What is the deal with Sam? I read some of the comments on the message board last week about Sam. Like Sam is so full of anger and rage. Why? I actually think it's the opposite. I think Sam has no anger or rage left and now it's gone. Sam killed Brady and he was the one who killed Jessica, so Sam's anger about that should be gone. YED was killed by Dean long ago, so I'm sure Sam's anger about him is gone. Then Lucifer killed all the demons that had watched Sam all his life, so why would Sam still be angry? I think Sam is kind of empty and his anger is gone. I think that's what kept Sam going was his anger and now he's got nothing left. Maybe all he has is hunting and he really doesn't even care about that. All the demons, Lucifer and all the rest are gone, so who would he want revenge on or be angry at now? Maybe Sam isn't even angry at Dean anymore. He said he used to be angry at John and Dean. What if all of Sam's anger is gone and he let that all go?
Who knows what went on in Hell or how Sam got out? I hope we find out soon. I just see Sam as not caring about anything because he has nothing to care about, even Dean because he has Lisa and Ben. What does Sam have? Nothing, but hunting.
It's funny that Dean thinks there's something wrong with Sam, but he didn't consider that maybe that's what Sam thought when he came back from hell, that there was something wrong with him. It's kind of funny.

My Poor Little Sammy

My poor little Sammy. He got chased all over his house by that evil bunny toy. It bit him in the head when he fell. Little Dean, Ollie, Jared and Lucifer all tackled the bunny and threw it in a metal box. Little Sammy had a Supernatural marathon last night with all the other little demons. The girls all went out shopping when the bunny attacked Sammy, so they weren't home. My little Sammy was crying and I had to hold him for a long time before he stopped. I told little Sammy not to buy anymore suspicious toys and I told him that I wanted to see what he was getting before he bought it. Little Sammy stuck his tongue out at me and then said he wasn't a baby and could choose his own toys. I told him he was a baby for sticking his tongue out and I won't give him anymore money to buy toys if he's not good. He said he was sorry and I hugged him again. I took that stupid bunny and threw it in the trash.

Little Sammy's Bunny

I came home today to find out that little Sammy's bunny was walking and had bandages and glowing eyes. It looks like it's got teeth too. I asked Sammy what was happening to his bunny and where he got it. He wouldn't tell me, he said it's just a toy. I'm starting to wonder about it. I hope it's going to be alright. I'll have to have someone check in on Sammy tomorrow while I'm at work. He doesn't have school and I'm worried about that so called toy of his.

Dean Read Books

I sat laughing all day at work today thinking about Dean reading and looking up stuff to get Sam out of hell. What kind of books could he even read or look at? The Bible wouldn't even help. As far as I know, Sam is the only one who's ever been possessed by Lucifer and ended up going to Hell with him and Michael. What the hell would Dean even research on the subject to find out how to get Sam out of Hell? It's just like when Bobby said he'd check his demon blood addiction manual when they had Sam locked up in the panic room.
I personally don't think Dean even tried anything because what could you try. The only one that could possibly be able to help would be either Death or Crowley and I doubt Dean tried to find either one of them. Maybe Dean just realized that he'd never get Sam back and just started to live. He looked pretty happy in those photos of him Lisa and Ben. Maybe the only thing Dean could do was honor the promise he made to Sam and try to live a normal life. I doubt Dean was happy all the time, but I doubt he just thought of Sam every minute either. Why didn't Dean try to get in contact with Castiel himself or ask for his help in getting Sam out of hell?
I just thought it was funny today and was thinking up all kinds of books Dean could possibly read and here's some titles. How To Get Your Possessed Brother Out Of Hell? and I'm sure it was written by an unknown author. Journey Through Hell and How To Get Out Of Lucifer's Cage Down In Hell by Lucifer himself. Maybe he wrote it in the year he was out and in between summoning the four horsemen or something.


Today at work I chose my new charity to support for next year. The money comes right out of my paycheck and goes to that charity. I chose one of Jared's charities because I was thinking about him and his love for dogs. I usually support St. Jude's, but I can send them checks throughout the year if I choose to. I still remember going to look at those videos from one of the Conventions and that stupid bitch who said what she did to Jared about his charity. Just the look on Jared's face. I wish I knew who she was. Like Jared was supporting a rotten charity or something. I give to charities and I hope they do what's right with the money I give and that's all I can do. You shouldn't just stop supporting charities. I hate to say it, but I bet a lot of those animal charities that say they don't euthanize, do anyway. They probably have to because there are just too many animals and not enough loving homes to go around for the animals to go to.

Today is the anniversary of John Denver's death. I still remember when I heard the news. I just couldn't believe it. I love John Denver and I still love him. He gave me the gift of his beautiful music to enjoy for the rest of my life and I'm so grateful to him for that. I'm also grateful to John Denver for saving my life. He did with his music. I remember being afraid of going to work and just going out and I'd listen to his music and it would give me self confidence and strength. John Denver's songs are like my favorite drug. I can listen to them and all my worries and fears go away. I can't express everything I feel for him, but I loved him and I wish I could've met him to thank him for everything he's done for me and for saving my life. He was an inspiration to me and many others.

When I came home today I saw little Sammy's new toy. It looked like it had been fought over. I asked Sammy if one of his friends and him had been playing with it or fought over it because it looked so ragged. Little Sammy said he hasn't touched it all day and he was at school. Who did that to his little bunny? Now, I'm worried.