Supernatural: Defending Your Life, Genevieve Pregnant And Other Stuff

Lots to post about. First is the fourth episode of Supernatural. I loved it. Four great episodes in a row now. Season 7 is still going great and I can't wait for next weeks episode already.
About Dean. I do think Dean does and should feel guilty about keeping Sam with him because he doesn't want to be alone. I think that's the main reason the apocalypse started in the first place. Dean brought Sam back to life after Jake stabbed him and made that deal and went to hell and broke the first seal. How was any of that on Sam? Sam did not ask to be brought back from the dead. I love how some fans went on and on like Dean saved Sam's soul from going to Hell. Why would his soul have gone to hell? That was just crazy and a way for some fans to think Dean had made the deal to save Sam and not that he made the deal for himself. He saved Sam because he didn't want to be alone to hunt on his own. He probably brought him back because he loved him as well and didn't want to live without him, but how many people would do the same thing to have the people they love in their lives. Dean shouldn't feel guilty about some people having died, but others maybe he should.
As for the apocalypse. I love how some fans put all the blame on Sam because he wanted revenge. He wouldn't have wanted revenge on Lilith, if Dean had not made the deal in the first place. Sam would have been dead and Dean would not have made the deal and the first seal would never have been broken. So, no one can tell me that that is not all on Dean. If Dean had not made his deal, then Sam would not have needed to get revenge on Lilith for killing Dean and sending him to hell. Sam would have never drank demon blood or used his powers either. I wonder how long it took Castiel to get Dean out of hell in the first place. I wonder if right after Dean started torturing and the seal broke, that's when Ruby had Sam start drinking demon blood.
Now onto Deans reasoning for getting Sam his soul back. Did Dean do that because Sam's soul was suffering in Hell or because Dean wanted that sweet and caring Sam back to be with him again? Maybe he did it partly for Sam and for himself. I do think Dean would eventually have gone back to hunting. I doubt he would have stayed with Lisa and Ben forever. Ben knew he was a hunter and I bet something would have come up and Dean would have had to leave them or end up training Ben to be a hunter.
I love how Dean drinks on a case, but he tells Sam that he shouldn't or what's he doing drinking while they're on a case. That kills me, but that's just Dean. Maybe Dean thinks he should be a certain way and act a certain way because others expect it of him or something.
I can't wait until Sam finds out that Dean killed Amy. I think that's going to be good. I can't wait to see some good stuff and maybe they will finally start being brothers again like in the first season. They shouldn't have to tell each other everything either, but just things that could affect the other brother.
I loved seeing Jo again. I don't really think she knew Dean all that well and I think she mainly did have a crush on him and it was a lot of hero worship on her part.

Now onto Genevieve being pregnant. I read Jared's tweet on Twitter and I was so happy for them. I wish them all the best and their new little baby. I'll pray for and think about them and hope nothing goes wrong. They deserve to be happy and have good things happen to them because they do some much good things themselves. I love how they've asked people to donate to St. Jude's instead of sending gifts. Jared and Genevieve can provide anything their baby needs, so why would anyone think to send them something. Yeah, I'm sure Jared and Gen would be grateful, but where would all that stuff go. If I was them, I'd want to buy stuff for my own baby. They've got a lot of family and friends as well. I'm sure they're going to get lots of stuff for that child. That's one child in this world that I won't have to cry and pray for all the time. I do sit and think about all the children out there that are being abused, neglected and mistreated and it breaks my heart. And by their own parents.
Usually I really don't pay that much attention to any stars and their personal lives. I rarely look at what they're doing because it's their lives. They should have some privacy for certain things. It's nice when they do share some personal stuff with the fans and that's okay, but I really hate gossip rags and magazines that twist things. Sometimes I just hope and pray for them like I do for everyone. They are people too just like everyone, sometimes I forget that and just see them as entertaining me and that's it.
I know a lot of stars that have kids and I didn't even know about it until years later after a show was over. I appreciate all the movie and TV stars out there and what they do for me and how much they give me and I wish them all the best in their personal lives. I don't have to know about them, but it's nice to know how they are doing. Sometimes you wish you could reach out and help them like they've helped you and sometimes helping them means leaving them alone to live their lives in some kind of peace.
I don't know if anything I've wanted to say is coming out right, but I'm going to leave it like that. It's charity time at work and we do all kinds of activities to help all kinds of charities. We have contests, bake sales and book sales. For my charity that I'm going to help through payroll deduction, I've chosen Cats On Death Row. They rescue cats that have not been adopted and are up for being killed. What's a cats only crime? Being born into this crappy world. Why should they be punished for anything? Cats are great to have in this world because they help keep the rodent and insect population down. I love cats and I chose this charity in honor of my little Mully and my new Bela. I'm going to give some money to St. Jude's as well. It's always been one of my charites. I always try to give just a little because if everyone did that it would amount to a lot. I can't believe some people can't even donate a dollar or two a month to a charity. That's not a lot to ask or to give. That could be one night out to the movies a year or something like that.

I've been depressed lately and I don't know why. Maybe I miss my sister because I could always talk to her about stuff and now I haven't talked to her for weeks. Even if she never really paid attention to all the crap I said, it was still nice to have her around. Well, that's about all for now.

Loving It

I love Supernatural and I'm loving season 7 so much. Why? Because I'm so excited to find out what Sam and Dean are going to do next and what's going to happen. I love that fans are going crazy and discussing the show. I've gone kind of crazy today myself, but I think I was good. I think every fan has the right to voice what they think as long as they don't think other fans are wrong to feel and think the way they want to. I think what I do about the show and I don't expect anyone else to think and feel the same way that I do. I love reading all the different opinions about both Sam and Dean. Love that CW message board and that's why I keep going back there. I'm crazy to do it, but did I ever say I wasn't crazy.
I love how some fans will defend every action and decision Dean makes whether it's right or wrong. Like Dean is always right and his character is so much better than Sam's. I still remember the first times I started posting on there. It was like you had to love Dean first and foremost and then Sam was an afterthought or something. Like if you didn't love Dean and Jensen Ackles more than Sam and Jared then you didn't belong there or something. You could say a few nice things about Sam and Jared as long as you mentioned how great and wonderful Jensen and Dean were. Jensen deserves awards because of his stellar acting on the show, but Jared sucked and didn't deserve anything. And his acting was horrible in the first season and he got better as the show went along, like he had never acted in anything before Supernatural. Or what he was in sucked. I didn't care for Gilmore Girls, but Jared was great in it as Dean. Like Jensen is a way better actor than Jared. Some may feel that way, but I sure don't. I think Jared is the better actor and that's just me.
I love how one fan thought I was bashing Jensen because I said he's only been in one movie on the big screen here in America. He has only been in one and that was My Bloody Valentine. Or that I'm bashing Jensen because I don't think he's the better actor than Jared.
I've been called all kinds of things on that board and I know why some fans on there love Dean so much. It's because they are just like him in some ways. I love how a certain fan on there goes on and on about fan bashing, but she's so busy bashing all the fans on there to see that she's the biggest fan basher of all. It's so damn funny that it kills me at times.
I'd love to find some intelligent fans out there that could discuss the show in a rational way, but I'll probably never find them on that board. It's always Sam vs. Dean no matter what some of them say. I can tell the ones that love Dean and will always think everything Sam does is wrong and I can tell the ones that love Sam and think everything Dean does is wrong. I can also tell the ones that just love the show and want to post about it.

I love getting excited and obsessing about the show again. Especially the storyline. I liked season six, but I love season seven already and we're only three episodes in. I still don't think some fans know what season six was all about and why the writers chose to do what they did with Sam and Dean, but I do and that's all that matters.

I need to not go crazy and I might have to try to stay off the boards for a while. I always want to debate stuff, but no one wants to debate, they just want to fight each other or say Dean is always right about everything no matter what. I just personally love thinking about the characters and their motivations and just everything. I love thinking about what's going to happen next and what could happen. I hope to see lots of good dramatic stuff between Sam and Dean and I think it will happen this season.

Supernatural: The Girl Next Door

I was so wrong about this episode at first. Then I thought about it today at work and I wondered if they weren't going to do some kind of time jump. That's the only way that Sam would have been okay to work a case on his own. I still wonder if Crowley isn't going to be back at some point to help out. He does have powers and The Leviathans are something Sam and Dean have never faced before. Maybe demons know something about them.
Jensen Ackles did a great job of directing this episode. I still wondered if it wasn't all going to be in someone's head or something. Like Sam was just seeing it and he was in a coma or something like that. I'm glad that it really happened and it opened up Dean's storyline for the season. I can just imagine all the crazy crap out there about Dean now and all the Sam and Dean hating and fighting that's going to go on over this. I don't understand it at all. I get Dean and I get Sam's characters. I don't sit and pretend that they are something or someone they are not. Dean has never been like Sam and Sam has never been like Dean, except when he was soulless. I still say that Dean could not stand soulless Sam because he could not stand looking at himself. Dean can't face himself and who he is. Maybe he finally will this season. I still think it's Dean who needs the saving and not Sam. I'm actually loving what's happening this season and I can't wait for more. I love that everything has changed and those Leviathans are dangerous and it's like Sam and Dean are now the hunted and not just the hunters.
Loved Colin Ford as the young Sam. He does such a great job in each and every episode he is in. He makes me believe that he really is Sam and I love that. The younger version of Sam that is. I loved watching the older Sam and then seeing the younger Sam.
I love how Sam asked Dean to trust him again. Didn't Sam say that before and what happened? Dean didn't trust him and the apocalypse happend. Not because of just Sam, but because of Dean as well. If Dean would have shown an ounce of trust and went with Sam, then the apocalypse could have been diverted. Even what happened with Castiel. Maybe if Dean would have paid more attention to what was happening with Castiel, then maybe none of what is currently happening would be happening. Dean wants others to trust him, but he doesn't trust them. Trust is a two way street. If there is not trust on both sides, then there's no trust at all. I don't think Dean even can trust himself.
I think Dean is the one who needs saving and he either has to save himself by facing the truth about himself or maybe Sam will help him face the truth about himself at some point and help save him. I think Dean wanted Castiel to help save him, Lisa and Ben to help save him, but in the end only Dean can save himself. That's just what I think right now.
I'm excited to find out what the writers have planned and what's going to happen. I haven't been this excited since season three. Three episodes and 20 more to go. Season 7 just is getting better and better.

Supernatural: Hello Cruel World And My Other Shows

WOW! I loved the second episode of season 7 and it's now one of my all time favorite episodes of the show. I've never been this happy or excited about the show since season 3.
I loved all the scenes with Jared and Mark Pellegrino. Loved them. I love that we finally get to see what's happening in Sammy's head for a little bit at least. I loved that Sam and Dean were both injured at the end. Talk about drama. And what about poor Bobby. I think he's going to end up as a Leviathan or possibly the boss because how else will the Leviathans know everything about Sam and Dean. Bobby knows a lot about them and what they do.
Loved seeing Castiel walk into that water. I laughed so hard and when they found the coat. I don't think Castiel is dead and I think his grace went somewhere. I now wonder if he didn't end up in Purgatory after they re-opened the door. Castiel could just be about anywhere right now. Also, what's going to happen in Heaven now. Who's going to try and take charge up there because Castiel is now gone as well as all the others. I don't think Heaven and the angels are all gone from the show either.
I loved the scene with Sam and Dean in the warehouse when Dean talked and helped Sammy. I've been waiting for a long time to see that. Hopefully, Dean will finally treat Sam better and as a brother and not just as a problem.
It was interesting to watch how Bobby treated both Sam and Dean. Bobby saw what was happening to Sam and it was like he just wanted to get away from him. Then Bobby was more worried about Dean than Sam and that little affectionate moment between them. Also, Bobby took off to help Sheriff Mills and left Sam by himself when he knew what was happening. It's like Bobby didn't even care if Sam would be okay or not. I hope Bobby is evil now because that would be awesome.
There's so much I loved about the episode and the best part was seeing Sam finally injured and unconscious. I loved seeing Sam and Dean together in that ambulance at the end. That was my favorite part of the whole show.
As for next week. I wonder how Sam and Dean are going to get out of this one. I wonder if Castiel, Crowley, Death or someone else isn't going to save them and heal them. Something has to. Because I seriously doubt that Dean will have a broken leg for more than the next episode and Sam could die from what's happening to him. I bet something is going to help and heal them both. I'm hoping it's Crowley. He has the power to heal and he'd love having them in his debt. I wonder if Castiel isn't totally gone and maybe he'll come and heal them or something to redeem himself. I doubt the writers are going to reveal everything. Who's to say that Misha won't be in the third episode? Look how Mark Sheppard popped up at the end of Mommy Dearest.

Now onto Vampire Diaries. I loved it again. I loved that we finally got to see Stephan for a change and some of his history. The show is called Vampire Diaries and Stephan kept a diary of everything. Paul Wesley makes Stephan the perfect vampire. He can be sweet and loving one minute and totally evil the next. Just those looks on his face. I loved seeing that history between Klaus and Stephan. This show just keeps staying great and I've never stopped loving anything about it. It seems like it gets better and better every season.

Ringer was good this week. It wasn't as good as the first two episodes, but I loved it as well. It has me watching every week and wanting to know what's going to happen next. Sarah Michelle Gellar is awesome as two characters.

Gossip Girl started finally and I loved it. I didn't think it would be as good because last season towards the end wasn't that great. I thought maybe Blair wasn't going to be pregnant and she is. Now who's the daddy? I think it's Chuck but who knows now.

Here's something else that I've got to say in this post. It's about Supernatural and it's Fandom. I personally don't think that all the Fandom want the same things and I don't think the Fandom that shouts the loudest on the Internet should speak for the whole Fandom of the show. There are fans that don't even go on the Internet at all. I'm sure they've loved characters that have been killed off, but how would you know. I loved Ruby and Bela in season three and Katie Cassidy and Laura Cohan were main stars on the show and now they are gone. Just because Misha became a main star did not mean he was going to stick around forever. I doubt they kept him for as long as they did because part of the Fandom loved him. There were a lot of Fans that didn't like his character as well. I think most people need to realize Supernatural is about Sam and Dean and always will be. It's not about the other stars. Yes, they are in the show and you can love them, but they are expendable and can be dropped just as fast. It seemed to me that when Misha Collins became a main star, that was the end of him because you saw him in less episodes and in the episodes less.
Another thing that I read about that makes me mad. I love how some claim to be such big fans of the show, but they won't support it in ways that would keep it around for a long time. It's not just about ratings, it's about marketing. Okay, I'm done on this subject because some of the Fandom drive me crazy and it's not worth it to worry about them and what they think. I just hope that the Supernatural writers and Sera write the show how they want to and not just to please all these fractions of fans out there. If you love what's happening then great, if you don't, then quit watching the show.

Supernatural Season 7: Meet The New Boss

The thing I loved most about the first episode of season 7 was Julian Richings as Death. I loved that whole scene when he first appeared and when Misha Collins came. Death and the New God. I loved the whole thing. I swear sometimes Misha, Julian and Mark Sheppard steal scenes and I totally forget that Sam and Dean are even there. It's kind of scary.
I wonder about this episode and is all of it real or is some of it all taking place in Sam's head again. Why did Sam have that bandage on his hand for the whole episode? I'm sure it took a couple of weeks for Dean to fix the Impala and for all of that to take place and Sam still had a bandage on his hand. Then when Lucifer said what he did to Sam and you didn't see Sam again. How that blood was just out there and no Sam?
Now on to good old Dean. If it was real, then I think Dean is an asshole. The way he treated Sam. It was almost like he wasn't even worried about Sam at all and that Sam was just a problem and that was it. I hated how Dean told Sam to not lie to him. How many times does Dean lie to Sam, but you don't see Sam getting angry about it? I wonder if Dean's attitude isn't guilt. He's guilty over his part in everything and he knows Sam is suffering because of him. Sam never asked for his soul to be restored or for his body to be brought back from Hell without his soul. Sam never got a choice in the matter at all. It was all Castiel's and Dean's choices and Sam never even got a say. Anything that Sam has done, is all on Dean's and Castiel's head as far as I'm concerned.
I thought this episode was so damn funny. I loved it for that. I love laughing and it make me laugh and feel good. That stuff with Castiel just killed me and then when Mark Sheppard came on. I love all of them. It was nice to see Mark Pellegrino again and I hope we get to see more of him and more of Julian Richings.
I'm not going to even look on any message boards because I can just imagine the crap that's being said. I'm tired of it. All the sniveling over Dean not having a storyline or not having his time in Hell addressed. Dean suffered in Hell, but all he has left from that is guilt over torturing. I wish some stupid fans would get that already. And some of the other stuff they bring up about Dean. I sometimes wonder if they can even process stuff in their crazy heads. Oh well, I'm not going to worry about that crap.
I can't wait for the next episode.
I'm also enjoying The Vampire Diaries right now. The last episode went by so fast because it was so good and I couldn't believe it was over when it ended. I wanted more. I thought I'd like The Secret Circle, but I really haven't gotten into it. I do love Ringer though. I always liked Sarah Michelle Gellar. I loved her as Buffy for the first three seasons of Buffy and then I couldn't stand what they did to her character. She was a strong slayer and then she because some weakling and turned into a slut as well. I hated that. I still loved Sarah, but I hated Buffy.
I also finished Bobby's Guide To Hunting. I thought it got better in the middle of the book and some parts were good. It was a pretty good read altogether. Not great, just good.

Crazy Dean Fans And Other Stuff

I'm so tired of all the crazy and looney Dean fans out there. I love how some of them think that Dean has no storyline. It's the biggest joke ever and I can't stop laughing. And Dean's time in hell. I could hit a couple of them over the head with a brick, but they still would not get what I'm saying or believe that Dean's time in hell was fully addressed on the show. It's ridiculous and I wonder if some of them even have brains in their heads to think with. Or they just want to think of Dean in a certain way and not how he really is. How many times do you have to tell someone something? I won't even try anymore. I wish the stupid idiots would just accept that Dean tortured souls in hell and loved inflicting pain on others and now all he has left is the guilt from what he did and that part of himself that was able to do that. What more do some of these crazed fans want? Dean to sit in a corner crying and Sam hugging him or more appropriately Castiel hugging him or Bobby. I doubt Sam would be good enough to hug him or offer any comfort seeing how Sam is so horrible to Dean all the time. I love the idiot who wants to see Dean as a baby with Sam taking care of him. That's about the stupidest thing I've ever heard. Like that would be some great storyline for Dean. To be a baby and have Sam changing his diaper. Wow! I can just imagine how exciting that episode or episodes would be. I guess this fan in particular wants Dean to be the younger brother and Sam to be the older brother. She's living in a fantasy and she also probably wishes that Dean was Sam.
I haven't even been looking on message boards lately and I'm very happy that I haven't. I went on the CW message board just to read a few posts and get a few laughs and that's about it. I read a few other things that led to this post. I'm tired of all the crazy Dean fans who just want Dean to be front and center all the time and Sam to just stand behind him and do nothing but whatever Dean tells him to do. And for Dean to be the smart one and the brother who's the hero above all others. Like Dean hasn't already been a hero or something. All that crap about Dean not having a storyline or dropped storylines. I wonder if these nutty fans even watch the show or they just live in their little fantasy world of what they think the show should be and that's The Dean Show. Like Dean is the one who should have everything and Sam should have nothing. Like Sam's time in Hell even compares to Dean's. I love the idiot fans who think that. When was Dean ever possessed by Lucifer, had his soul separated from his body and his soul in hell for over a year and a half. Dean was in hell for only four months our time and Sam was there for about 18. Dean was being tortured and then tortured souls himself. Sam was locked in a cage in hell with Michael and Lucifer and who knows what they did to him. Whether is was all psychological or what kind of pain he went through, who knows? To even compare their time is crazy.

Now onto Vampire Diaries and Paul Wesley. Wow! He was awesome. I swear he hardly gets any kind of appreciation or acknowledgement just like Jared Padalecki. The funny thing is that Paul and Jared to me are the better actors on both Vamp Diaries and Supernatural. Jensen Ackles and Ian Somerhalder may have more quantity on the shows, but Paul and Jared have more quality. Their acting moves me and I feel everything they do. You hardly see them in some episodes, but when you finally do, they totally make it worth your while to wait. I almost cried watching that scene at the end of Vamp Diaries when Stephan called Elena and they were talking. Paul made it so believable and I loved it. I can't wait to see what's going to happen with Sam on Supernatural and I hope it's been worth the wait of about three years now. That's another thing about Dean fans, they can't even let Sam fans have anything at all. Sam gets about one emotional episode in how many and they cry and moan and complain about Dean getting nothing. It's crazy. I'm hoping we finally get to see some emotional scenes with Sam for a change. It would be very nice. I'm not going to get my hopes up too high because I know everything will go right back to poor Dean. Dean who has to carry the weight of the world on his shoulders and who trusts no one, not even his own brother. I love how Sam had to pull himself together after everything he's been through to prove to Dean that he has his back, but Dean never has to prove anything like that to Sam. There are times that Dean never had Sam's back, but then it doesn't matter because he's the great Dean Winchester and can do whatever he wants to.
I get so angry at some of those stupid fans and other times I could care less what they say or do because they are idiots. I'm tired of talking to stupid people already. I'd rather do something else with my time. I'm reading more and I'm loving my new Supernatural book Night Terror by John Passerella. He's an awesome writer and I've loved how many of his other books. I'm glad that he doesn't bog down his Supernatural book with all kinds of stuff from the show. Most of the people reading the book are fans of the show and already know what's happened with Sam and Dean, so why repeat it again or get it wrong trying to repeat it.
The book Bobby's Guide To Hunting is kind of crazy. I love how David Reed the author says that Sam was hopped up on demon blood when he faced Samhain. Sam did not drink demon blood for how long and who knows how much he had drank before he stopped doing it the first time. Lilith couldn't kill him and neither could Samhain with that demon killing light or whatever. Sam killed Samhain and did it mostly on his own. Then David says that an angel did what and it was Castiel. Why didn't he say that? It's crazy the whole book so far. It must take place in the Supernatural Twilight Zone because David doesn't say when it takes place. I guess it just took place in his imagination or something.
I'm probably not going to go on message boards while the show is on and if I do, it will be to post a few things and then leave or to read some stupidity and get a good laugh out of it. I'm tired of all the stupid Dean fans out there, especially on a certain board. I swear if they get any more stupid, I'll feel even more sorry for poor Jensen Ackles. I wonder what he thinks of all the crap they say about his character. I mean what he really thinks and not what he says at a convention. I bet he wishes that amulet never makes an appearance again. I wish I was psychic and could know what Sera Gamble, Jensen, Jared and everyone on the set of Supernatural thinks of some of the crazy fans out there and what they want to see on the show and what they want for Dean's character.

My Trip To Reno

Just got back from my trip to Reno yesterday. I had a really fun time, but it was crazy too. I'm just so happy that I was able to go to my niece's wedding. It was very beautiful and she had it in a park. We had to wait for the preacher and he didn't come, so someone else did the vows for them and then later when the preacher finally showed up, he made it official in another little ceremony. They had a very nice reception and their wedding cake was really yummy. It had real strawberries in the middle of the frosting. I love strawberries.
I'm surprised that everyone got along and it was such a nice day. My sister and I got there with just a little time to spare. We had a free room at a motel, so that was nice. Later that night, my sister and I went gambling with our niece. We stayed out a little late. My poor niece even walked home from the casino because she was tired and didn't want to gamble anymore. My sister just kept gambling and didn't care. Lucky my niece didn't live far and she works at the casino we played at for hours. I had a good time and I was actually winning for a while and then of course, I threw it all back. I always do.
The next day we got up late and we went to Virginia City with the niece who got married. We went with her and her two little boys. That was a fun day, but the town closed early and we had gotten there late. So we missed a lot of stuff. It was still fun and nice to see all the stuff we did see. I went in some shop that had all kinds of old stuff from the past. I loved it because it reminded me of when I was a kid. I even found some candy in a candy shop that I haven't seen for years. There was a mansion there and it looked like it was about as big as my one sisters house. She thinks her house is small and that was a mansion back in those days. Most people probably lived in one room houses and tents.
The next day we were there both my niece's had to work and do other things, so my sister and I went to eat and gamble at The Atlantis. They have a really nice buffet and we played Deal Or No Deal on a big machine. It had a huge seat, so we could both sit at it and play. My sister played a Dirty Dancing machine. I've never seen those before. Then later we went out gambling with our other sister and the two nieces. There were a few fights, but I think we had a good time.
Then the next day we left town. My other sister came home with us. She had been staying there for about a month and she was ready to come home. I'm sure she enjoyed spending time with her kids and grandkids. I loved seeing all my nieces children. They are so cute. I think I got the flu or a cold or something. Now, I'm all stuffed up and I feel like crap. Anyway, we headed down the road and when we stopped in Winnemucca, my sister's van would not start. Thank God, it was only bad gas from the pump because she put in some gas treatment and it started again. We got to the gambling town that I play in all the time, just in time because my Mom had taken the bus there and it was almost leaving. She went and ate a buffet with us because we were starving and had hardly eaten all day. We gambled there for a little while and then all of us went home.
I had a really good time, but it was crazy as well. My sister and I fought more on this trip. I really don't understand how anyone can think Sam and Dean would never fight after spending all that time with each other. If I spent as much time with any of my sisters or brother the way Sam and Dean do, I'd end up killing one of them.
We'd probably come to blows and go our separate ways, quicker rather than later.
I saw a lot of crazy things and signs and stuff like that. I just wanted to sit and people watch in Reno. It's fun to see all the crazy people out there.

Late Night Posting

I just finished writing a story. I'm a pretty crappy writer, but I try anyway. I wish that I could write better and tell what's really in my heart. All I can do is try to express what I'm feeling by practicing. I wrote a short story about Dean getting the amulet back. I don't want Sam to give Dean that amulet back because Dean threw it away. If one of my sisters threw something I gave them away, I'd never think they wanted it back. That's why I don't want Sam to be the one to give the amulet back to Dean. Why would Sam even think that Dean would want it back? Maybe Sam did leave it in the trashcan where Dean threw it. I think it would be cool if Dean got the amulet back in some mysterious way and it made him believe in God and that God really does care about him and Sam. That would be more moving and interesting than Sam just giving Dean back the amulet. I can't even picture it in my mind. I did picture what I wrote about, that it's God that makes sure that Dean gets the amulet back. I guess that's kind of stupid. I don't know.
I do believe in God. I know a lot of people lose faith in God because they don't get what they want. Or they don't believe in God because of all the suffering and pain they see every day.
I believe in God and I believe that he is in the middle of our suffering and that he suffers right along with us. That when we hurt, then so does he. He doesn't want us to fight, hate and kill each other. He wanted us to love and help each other and it's our choice what we do. We can love or hate. How would be ever grow and learn, if God didn't give us free will to make our own choices? I love how some people make stupid choices with their lives and then blame God for everything. God gave them a brain and free will and they only have themselves to blame for how their life turns out.
I believe that if you trust and believe in God, then he is there for you and you can feel his love surrounding you. There have been times in my life when I've been so depressed and all alone and everything is dark and I feel like I've fallen into this deep dark pit that I can't get out of. And while I've been in that dark pit, I have felt something giving me comfort. Some people would think I'm stupid and that's okay. Maybe they don't believe in God, but I do. I have felt things all my life and I know that God is there for me and he watches over me and all the people of the world. There have been times that I pray to God to help all the people and animals that are suffering and being abused and hurt. I pray that he comforts them in their time of need and is there for them. I'm sure he is. When I feel sad or depressed, I think about what others could be suffering and I don't feel all alone and most of the time I think my situation could be worse.
I think suffering and pain are a part of life and if we never experienced them, then how could be appreciate being happy and at peace. I think there are some people who actually make their lives here on Earth worse and some that there lives are bad, but they still love to live and wouldn't trade their lives with anyone.
I have a friend on Facebook and I love to read her posts. She's been through quite a lot this year and does she complain. No, she makes me laugh by what she's posting. Even when she was in pain in the hospital a while ago. I was worried about her when Irene hit back East and she lost her power and what not. I prayed for her and everyone over there. Her posts are not full of please pity me because of what I'm going through, but instead she tries to get some good out of the bad and actually make others feel good. I love that about her and I wish I could meet her and really know her.
I've just been thinking about this stuff and decided to write it down.

Sam Winchester Is Not Special, He's Just Awesome

Sam Winchester is just awesome. I had to say that first. I love how some fans just want to believe that Sam is just some ordinary human being. How many ordinary human beings drink demon blood and can drink as much as they want without having their stomachs explode or die from drowning in demon blood. I swear, the stupidity kills me. Sam did have powers and I still think he has them, but now he just won't use them or maybe he did need the blood for a charge or something. It was just power anyway. Some fans believe it was evil, but I don't. It was just power and it depended all on what Sam would use it for. Whether he used it for good or evil. That's just like a gun. Some people say a gun is evil. A gun does not kill people, someone has to pull the trigger and that's the same thing with that power Sam had. It's what he used that power for and he used it to send demons back to hell or kill them. I still don't get how that was evil. Sam was trying to use that power for good or what he thought was good.

Now on to the colt. I tried to post in that thread about the colt on the CW site. I swear that no one wants to see that Sam, the colt and the knife killed demons all in the same way. So, what was it that gave them the power to kill demons. I wonder if it wasn't Death that gave Sam his powers and it's Death that helps the gun and the knife work. There's writing on Ruby's knife. I wonder if it's a spell or what on it. Does that help it kill demons? Also, where does that energy go when someone kills a demon or supernatural entity? Their spirit or power has to go somewhere and I've often wondered if something hasn't been collecting all that power. A demon is a human or fallen angel and they go to hell when they die, so what happens after they die for good from Sam, the gun or the knife. Where do their powers go to? Demons have powers and they get them from collecting souls. Obviously, so do the angels.
I posted about Sam not being able to be killed by the colt and obviously no one got that. Anna was going to kill Sam, so why didn't she find the gun or the knife and kill Sam that way. If the gun and knife kill and kill for good, then why wouldn't she use it on Sam. I think Sam is a supernatural entity because how could he use powers if he's not one. Where did all that power come from and he had power long before he sucked on Ruby's or any other demons blood. No one has ever tried to shoot Sam with the gun and sure Sam has died, but that has nothing to do with the gun. I still wonder if Dean or someone else had tried to shoot Sam with that gun, would they have succeeded in killing him.

Now that brings me to Dark Side Of The Moon. Sam and Dean were supposedly shot and died and went to heaven. After watching Castiel and Rafael in Heaven,the more I think it's a crock of crapola. I doubt Sam and Dean went to Heaven at all. Because every time you see Castiel and Rafael in Heaven they are in some humans Heaven. I doubt Sam and Dean were in each others Heaven or in Heaven at all. I think that was all made up crap to make Dean lose faith in Sam and it sure succeeded. Even that Joshua guy and the garden were crap. Why didn't we see Castiel or Rafael in that garden if they were fighting to be the next big leader up there?

Here's an old but one of my favorite pics of Sam from the first season. And a pic of my string dolls. Sammy, Ruby and Dean. I hope I'm able to get more of them. I love them.

Supernatural Hellatus

I just love this pic of Jared and Jensen. I mainly love Jared's hair because it just looks so beautiful and you want to run your hands through it or something. Anyway on to the Hellatus.

It's really been a Hell on Facebook lately. How many friends have I dumped and they've dumped me and all over nothing. It's kind of funny in a scary way. My sister's ex-husband had a heart attack and I went to express my sympathy and say that he and the whole family were in my prayers and his daughter from a new marriage called me a creep because she thought I didn't know her father. I told her that I knew her father before she was born and that I still thought of him as part of my family and she obviously misinterpreted it. I just give up on trying to say anything in a public forum. I swear, someone will take everything you say out of context or try to get in a fight with you or something. It's scary and sad. I'm glad that my brother in law is getting better. I don't consider him an ex anything and I still care about him. He'll always be a part of my family because he's part responsible for me having my two wonderful nieces. Yes, sometimes they do things that drive me crazy, but they have their own lives now and I wish them all the best in everything they do. I wish my other niece the best also. I still love her, but it's very hard to express that to her and I love all my niece's little boys. They are a joy and I love them all. I don't see five of them because they are far away, but when I do, I enjoy every minute I can.

I'm still working and I'm kind of grateful that I am. I'm glad that I even have a job in this shitty economy. It would be nice to get released so I can go and see my niece get married. She had to postpone her wedding and I'm hoping to go to it still. I don't know if I'll get to make it. I'll be very sad about that. I'd love to see all the kids and my two nieces. If I go, I just need to avoid certain people down there.

I think I'm done posting at that CW message board already. The mods deleted I'm leaving from my thread. I guess that's offensive now or something. Whatever. I'm sure they'll think up some way to ban me and I'll be grateful if they do. I hardly post on there any way. It's like High School or something on there and goofballs coming up with clubs and crap like that. I've been out of school for a long time and I don't want to go back to that. Plus there's the bullies on there and the Queen that thinks she owns the whole board. Lately all the Queen has done is snivel and whine about Dean again. I love what a hypocrite she is. One minute she loves something and then turns around the next and snivels and whines about it. It's funny, but crazy at the same time. I wonder how many screen names she has. Then I love how she doesn't read anything you say and just attacks you and then pretends that you attacked her. I read someone else being attacked by her and it was just so funny because it reminded me of the times she attacked me and accused me of shit I didn't say or do on there.

I'm happy and content and nothing is going to change that and I can't wait for season 7 to start. I bet it's going to be a great season with both Sam and Dean getting good storylines together. I hope they come up with some new stuff and throw in some old stuff too. I think some fans should just stop watching the show, if all they can do is snivel about it. I remember I went on the CW message board and I was discontented with season 4 and I was attacked by how many posters and now those same posters are sniveling and whining how rotten the show is. I didn't even snivel that much during season 4 about the show and I've listened to these ones cry and snivel for two years now about how Dean doesn't get anything. Dean gets so much that it's pathetic already. I love his character, but I'm tired of all the sniveling and whining and it's us Sam lovers that had something to snivel about for the last couple of years. Dean fans had nothing to cry about, but they found plenty and they'll always snivel about everything.

Hellatus is almost over and new books are coming out and the season 6 DVD set. I can't wait for them and the show to start. There's also two new shirts and the calendars for pre-order.