Goodbye Stranger, It's Been Nice

Okay Goodbye Stranger was a funny episode. Thank God that it was. That's the only reason I watch Supernatural anymore. If it gets too serious, then I get bored. Why is that? Because the only time it gets serious is when it's about poor darling Dean. After episode 10, the episodes have been a whole lot better. I haven't missed boring Amelia or boring Benny. I don't know which character I found more boring. And the saddest thing of all, is I find Dean the most boring out of all the characters on the show. He never changes at all. He's still exactly the same. His hair, his clothing, his attitude. Everything. He's so static and it doesn't matter what character he's interacting with. The scenes with Castiel and Dean were boring and I've seen that same crap how many times now. How many more times is Castiel going to punch Dean in the face and beat him up? I guess Dean probably thinks Castiel beating him up is a sign of love or something. After everything Castiel has done since he first appeared to Dean, I'm still surprised Dean thinks of him as family. Castiel has done nothing but lied to Dean and used him and Sam to get what he wants.
I'd think good stuff is coming up for Sam with these trials, but I doubt it. It will all be about Dean and how he feels about what's happening with Sam. Not how Sam feels about anything. Then, I bet towards the last couple episodes it will turn to Dean's story and what is going to happen with him and continue into season nine. I'd only be interested in Dean, if he finally gets to show his dark side and I know he has one. Then I'd be interested. They've never really explored Dean's dark side and he certainly has one. He loved hunting and killing stuff in Purgatory with Benny. He thought Purgatory was pure. Why? Because he could just kill and not care about who or what he was killing. He tortured souls in hell and loved doing it. So, Dean certainly has a dark side that he wants to forget in his self righteousness. That makes him even more arrogant. Sam has faced his dark side and come out stronger for it. While Dean and Bobby tried to forget their darkness by sucking down a ton of booze.
I have some theories about Naomi and I wish they would be true, but I'm probably not even close. And I'm still hoping that boring Amelia never shows up again because as long as she's gone, I'm going to pretend that she wasn't even real and was all in Sam's head. I still think there was something strange about all that happened with Sam. Just thinking about everything that Sam did and said with Amelia gets me hoping that she was all just in his head. That maybe she was a real person that Sam met, but everything that happened between them was all just being played out in Sam's mind.
Here's some dumb things about the show that I've noticed. I love how the angels and demons resort to punching and physical contact when they all have a ton of powers and can just use them to kill whatever they want. And they can use those powers to torture as well without even touching anyone. If Naomi wanted Dean dead, then why didn't she just kill him herself or have Castiel use his powers to kill Dean. How did Crowley know that Sam killed his precious hell hound? Who told him or how did he know? Or was the stink of his hell hound all over on Sam. Sam and Dean took off and let Meg die and it was like they could just drive away from Crowly as fast as they could, when Crowley if he wanted, could just appear in their backseat. I think the writers of the show forget all that they've had angels and demons do. They have powers that are way beyond normal humans perception. Castiel sitting on a bus. You gotta love it. It still makes me think he's God.
I've read some stupid spoilers that won't spoil the show in any way. Benny coming back. Yuck. I hope he dies. Please let him die. Maybe that will be the next trial for Sam. To kill a vampire. Or maybe they need Benny to get to the Alpha Vampire and that's who Sam has to kill or whatever. Who knows? I'm still waiting for Bobby to show back up. I still think he's going to come back just like Gramps Campbell  and Adam. If the angels can bring people back to life, then they can bring him back.
Just felt like writing this. I've been enjoying the show and I hope it continues to entertain me. I've been laughing at work thinking about all the crap. It makes the day go by faster.

Supernatural Las Vegas Con 2013

Well I'm home from the Con. I got home Monday night, but I've been too tired and lazy to post about it until now. This Con was very fun and I had a great time. I wouldn't say that it was my favorite because I've loved every Con I've attended. My two addictions collided and I'm afraid my gambling addiction pretty much won out over the two. I spent more money gambling than I did at the Con. I did manage to buy myself two new shirts and some new pics.
To start off with, my hotel room was huge. I can't believe how big that room was. It was one of the nicest I've ever stayed in. The Rio is pretty big and I walked back and forth to the Convention how many times. I sure got my exercise in while I was there. The Convention areas were huge and everything was great.
I'm so happy that I made my pic of little Sammy and Dean to have signed. Rob and Matt said that it was cute and they liked it. I think Rob Benedict was the highlight of the Con for me. He was so nice and sweet. I loved that he actually even looked at the centerpiece I brought to the Cocktail Party. It was a kleenex box holder my sister made out of plastic canvas. It had pictures of Sam, Dean, Castiel and Bobby on two sides and then my sister put mirrors and crosses on the other sides. My sister loves mirrors and crosses. I told her it needed a pentagram and other crap like that, but she did it how she wanted to. I never even got my box made for the Con. Anyway, Rob was probably the nicest one at the Cocktail Party. He talked to everyone at the table and not just to a few people. There were how many people who came to sit at my table and there was an empty chair on my side. I thought it was great because maybe one of the them would have sat next to me. No, some guy who had been sitting next to his woman or whatever she was, purposely came and sat next to me when the stars started coming around so that they'd have to sit next to his woman or whatever. Rick Worthy came by and he wasn't even one of the scheduled guests. That was a nice surprise. My opinion of Richard Speight lowered after the Cocktail Party and I just don't want to say why, but it had to do with my centerpiece.
I loved all the panels and my favorite was Sebastian Roche. He was up there dancing, singing and totally entertaining us. I laughed so hard at some of the stuff he did. Jared and Jensen were awesome as usual and I loved their panel as well. I can't believe some fans don't even go to the panels. They are my favorite part.
I only got three photo ops this Con and I'm happy about all three. I think they all turned out great. I can't believe I was brave enough to ask Jared for the pose I asked, but he was great and the pic turned out better than I thought it would.
My most favorite part of the Con was Rob Benedict and Louden Swain. I loved them when they were The Elastic Waste Band as well. I loved the band starting out the Con every day and I really loved the concert on  Sunday. I love listening to Louden Swain at work because I always smile and the day goes by so much faster. You just feel good when you hear the songs and the music is playing. Rob was awesome and sweet and I appreciate him so much right now.
The Karaoke Party was really fun and it was about three hours long. I stood for most of the time and sang and danced. I didn't take as many pics, but I got a few good ones. Matt came and stood next to me and then stood on the chair by me and danced when Love Shack was on. That was great. As I was coming out the door after I saw Ty Oleson talking to people in the hall. He came too late. He missed a great time.
I loved going with my oldest sister, but I really don't think she enjoyed herself too much. I told her the Con would be all day and into the night and I wouldn't be able to go anywhere else all the three days. We got into a few fights and stuff, but then on Sunday night after the concert we went out to the strip. We gambled at The Paris and Planet Hollywood. We didn't get back to The Rio until almost 4 in the morning. I swear I only got about 4 or 5 hours asleep a night the whole trip. No wonder I'm still dead tired.
Well another Con is over and who knows if I'll get to another one. With the current crap happening, who knows if I'll have the money to get to another one.

Las Vegas Here I Come

I'm so excited for Vegas. I haven't been there for I don't know how many years now. It's been way too long that's for sure. I'm sure stuff down there has changed a lot since I've been there. I hope this Supernatural Convention is the best one yet. I'm still bummed about Corin and Mark not being there. I really wanted their autographs and a photo op with them. Oh well! Stuff happens and stars can't make it for one reason or another. I can't wait to see what goes on. I'm sure this Con is going to be really crazy. Jim Beaver is bringing his daughter and asking fans to not take pictures of her. I hope they are respectful because I've seen a ton that are not. They say no audio or videotaping allowed and there are still a ton of videos all over YouTube. That's disrespectful to the stars, but I don't think fans really give a crap. They just want other fans to like them or whatever. I hope things go great and my sister and I have a really good time. This is the first time I've gone to a Con with my oldest sister. I hope she has fun and enjoys it, even though she's not a huge fan of the show.

TV, Movies and Other Stuff

I've been too lazy to write lately or I've been busy. I thought it was about time I wrote about something. I started back to my job three weeks ago, so I don't have a lot of time to play on the computer or do anything.
My Mom is going to be going into assisted living. She's been at a care facility for a while now. She's finally been able to walk and do more things for herself. I'm glad that she's doing so much better and this last weekend my sisters and I took her to the Red Lobster and we went to the gambling town with her. She hasn't been there for almost five months. I'm sure she was happy to get out for a while. I know I was happy to spend time with her and with my sister who came from out of town to visit for her birthday.
I went to see Les Miserables and Beautiful Creatures this weekend as well with my sisters. This was my second time seeing Les Mis and I loved it even more the second time around. Beautiful Creatures was better than I thought it would be. I knew it would be good, but it was better than that. I'm glad my sister came to visit because I've really missed spending time with her. I talk to her on the phone, but it's not the same thing. I hope I can go and visit her and my nieces in Reno sometime soon.

The few shows that I watch on TV now have all been getting good. Supernatural has been a real surprise. I never thought that it would be must see TV again or that they'd finally get something good on it. I'm loving Sammy's story, but I'm still cautious and I hope they don't take it away too soon. I'm hoping Dean finally sees Sam as a brother and not just a job or a duty he has to do. I'd love to talk on message boards or with other fans about the show, but there is no one to talk to. There are too many extreme fans out there and too many serious ones. I love to make fun of stuff on the show because it makes me love the show more. I guess I'll be keeping my theories and thoughts on the show to myself. I'm still thinking that closing hell is not a good idea. If both Heaven and Hell's gates get closed, then what about Purgatory. I think some fans have forgotten  where Dean spent a whole year. I'd think that Sam and Dean would want to make sure the gates to Purgatory were closed forever and that none of those monsters or Leviathan could ever escape again from there. I love how some fans think all of Sam's visions and powers were from the YED demon. Sam had headaches and nosebleeds and Kevin is having them translating the tablets. Does that mean he's getting the power to translate the tablet from demons? I still think Sam's powers came from God somehow and he still has them or I'm hoping he does. Here's something I'm hoping for regarding Benny. I hope he comes back and tries to hurt Sam and Dean finally realizes that he's a monster just like everything else he's killed and kills Benny to save Sam. I'd love that. Doubt it will happen, but I can dream and hope for it.
Vampire Diaries has really been getting good and so has Once Upon A Time. Now I can't wait for Celebrity Apprentice and The Voice to start.

I'm getting excited for the SPN Vegas Con. I'm sad that Corin Nemec is not going to be able to make it. I really wanted to meet him and tell him thank you. He's been one of my favorite actors for about 25 years now. The Con is less than two weeks away. It will probably be my last one because I doubt I'll be able to afford another one. I think I'm done posting for now.

Emily Owens, M.D.

When I first saw previews for this show, I wasn't too thrilled about it. It looked kind of dumb even. I wasn't even going to watch and I was still mad about Ringer. I started watching the show just to see what it was like and was pleasantly surprised by how funny, cute and entertaining it was. It's funny one minute and serious the next. All the characters are entertaining and interesting. Of course, because I started watching, it was cancelled. That seems to be the case any time I like a show. The shows I don't care for end up being on for years and the shows I love end up being cancelled right away. The CW didn't even really give this show a chance. Maybe it's because they have more shows lined up and want to air them instead. I'm not even going to watch Cult at all until I find out if it's going to be on longer than how many episodes. If it lasts then I might consider watching the episodes online, but if it doesn't, then I'll have nothing to miss. I'm tired of watching new shows, only for them to be cancelled right away for one reason or another. It seems like CW keeps cancelling shows just because not enough people are talking about them. If it's a good show and you love it, then there's really nothing to talk about or more likely bitch about. I love all the characters and they really didn't get a good chance to establish them all. I'm sure there would be more to talk about after you got to know them all and find out who you wanted to be with who. I love the cute little love triangle or whatever it is. I love Emily with Micah and I love her with Will. I love that she loves Will, but he's with Cassandra and Micah likes her and she doesn't know it. I thought the show was just going to be a comedy, but it's so much more and I love it all. I'm grateful that they're even airing all the episodes. The CW could have just dumped it and moved on. But they are dumping it and I doubt anything will save it. The CW won't even promote the new episodes at all, but whatever. I'm just going to finish enjoying it until the end.

Supernatural Is Torn And Frayed

Yes, Supernatural is torn and frayed and so is Sam and Dean's relationship. The first part of this episode was boring yet again. I almost turned the TV off after watching Sam and Amelia and their boring scenes together. Jared and Liane Balaban have zero on-screen chemistry. I've never seen worse chemistry between two actors on any show I've ever watched. There is just nothing there and no romance to the story at all. I'd rather see Sam be with someone who helps make the romance scenes sizzle. Maybe the writers intentionally made this romance boring, for what purpose, I have no idea. I don't see the point of it at all, nor the relationship Dean had with Benny. Here's something that concerns me with what happened. Sam and Amelia had sex, so I hope to hell she doesn't turn up pregnant and not know if the baby is Sam's or her husband's. I really will drop the show if this happens and I could see the writers doing this. I certainly don't want the worst female character ever to end up with Sam at the end of the show. I'd be sick to my stomach. Or, Amelia will be pregnant and some monster will kill her and the baby or be after them.
And I'm still wondering if Sam's time with Amelia was real or not. Dean never met her in person the way Sam met Benny. I'm sure she's a real person, but did Sam really spend time with her or was it all in his head.
Amelia saw Sam outside the window. I don't know how because he was in the shadows. I look out the window from a distance and I can't see anything and if I did, it would just be a shape. So how did Amelia know that was Sam outside her window and how did she know he'd go to that bar so she could meet him.
Also the writers tried to make it sound like Sam kept showing up there in Texas. Amelia hasn't seen Sam for months and she told him, how could she move on, if he keeps showing up. Dean kept showing up at Lisa's door. We saw him do it how many times. I could understand when she said that to Dean, but not Amelia.
And the fact that Sam and Amelia just hopped into bed after not seeing each other for so long, is really goofy. When Sam told Dean that he had to go clear his head, did he just imagine Amelia going to that room and not finding him. Where you actually saw Dean talking to Benny and telling him goodbye? The writers made Benny more real and they made Amelia more unreal and unrealistic. I'm hoping and praying that's the end of Amelia, but I really fear it's not. I know it's not the end of Benny, yet. Hopefully, that will happen because I'm sick of Dean making friends with how many supernatural beings and then basically Sam has to be friends with them as well or else.
Castiel was the saving grace for the show once again. I loved all the scenes he was in, but the rest were crap.
I don't care about stupid tablets that are supposed to be the word of God. The whole story with Kevin and the tablets is boring and stupid. Naomi is interesting because you wonder if she hasn't been the one pulling Castiel's strings all along since he first showed up to Dean. Who was really giving the angels orders in Heaven? It sure wasn't God. Naomi probably was the boss of Zacariah even and pulling his strings. I hope this storyline goes somewhere, otherwise it will be stupid.
I feel nothing when Sam and Dean are together anymore. I used to think they loved and cared about each other, but now I don't. Even having them fighting this season over crap is stupid and pointless. It does nothing for either of their characters. Dean was supposed to have changed from going to Purgatory. He seems the same to me. Every season, he is the exact same. Sure he might drink heavy in one season and then not in the next, but he's basically the same. He never changes and still acts the exact same way.

Supernatural is torn and frayed and I blame Jeremy Carver for this. He's the worst show runner ever. He's made the show boring and like a soap opera instead of what it once was. The show used to be about Sam and Dean hunting monsters and fighting evil. Now it's about them fighting each other and boring scenes with them with their new lovers or whatever. There's hardly any action or excitement anymore on the show. It's just talking and boring empty dead scenes. I used to get excited to watch an episode again right after it aired. This season, I haven't even wanted to re-watch one episode. If I do go to watch one, I only watch certain parts of it and then I turn it off. I doubt I'll be buying the DVD set when the season is over. That will be the first time in seven years that I don't want to buy them. I used to get so excited and I'd run to the store. Doubt that I'll do that, unless the last episodes really are good. Otherwise, there is no point. I still love the show and all the past seven seasons. Hopefully, Carver pulls his head out of his butt and delivers something good like he did in season 3.

My Favorite TV Shows Of 2012

1. ONCE UPON A TIME
I started watching this show after my sister told me about it. I'm sure glad I did. I love it and it tops my list of favorite shows for last year. Mr. Gold/Rumpelstiltskin is my favorite character.

2. VAMPIRE DIARIES
Loving the vampires this year. Love Stefan and Damon and the fact that even though Elena comes between them, they still act like brothers is one of the best parts of the show. Love the whole cast and every episode either surprised or shocked me in some way.

3. ONE TREE HILL
It was the end of a great show and it never disappointed me. The ending was excellent and all the last episodes wonderful and entertaining. Didn't start out loving this show, but ended up loving it more than I thought I would. Dan Scott was the best and my most favorite character of this show and Mark Schwahn did not fail me.

4. RINGER
I absolutely loved this show and of course it was cancelled. Sarah Michelle Gellar was awesome playing two roles and I was always wondering what was going to happen next. Doubt this show will ever make it back on TV, despite all the die hard fans wanting it back.

5. CELEBRITY APPRENTICE
I loved this show from the first episode to the last. I laughed so hard watching almost every episode. It was a great way to start my week off. Was happy that the final two were Clay Aiken and Arsenio Hall and it didn't matter who won between them. Loved that Aubrey O'Day because she made me laugh, but I'm glad she didn't win cause she was too full of herself. I also love all the Trumps.

6. SUPERNATURAL
It's sad for me to say that this show is in sixth place. I loved the episodes at the start of the year, but towards April and May, they sucked. My favorite episode was The Born Again Identity and mainly for that I loved the show. The start of season 8 was boring as hell and Dean and his new brother Benny and the stupid flashbacks of Purgatory did not entertain me. Also, Sam and the boring love story flashbacks with Amelia were almost as bad. The show has gotten a little better and I'm hoping for better episodes this year.

7. GOSSIP GIRL
Sad, but another show I had to say goodbye to this year. It ended up great though. I loved that Chuck and Blair were together in the end. I really didn't care about Dan and Serena, but they were okay as well. Loved how Dan was Gossip Girl. That was funny. I loved how the show brought back a whole bunch of characters for the ending. I'll miss this show as much as One Tree Hill.

8. AMERICA'S GOT TALENT
I love this show because of all the variety. You'll never know what you're going to see next. I was happy that the dogs won because they really had talent. I still miss Piers Morgan, but Howard Stern turned out to be a surprise and is a pretty good judge.

9. EMILY OWENS M.D.
I really love this show and of course it was cancelled because CW won't give any new shows a chance anymore. Just like Ringer this show is in the tough time slot of Tues. Doubt CW will ever find anything that's going to get the ratings they want. I'm going to watch this show to the end because CW is running the final episodes at least. I loved this show because it was serious, cute and funny and I've even cried while watching it.

10. THE VOICE
I discovered this show this year and I love it. I love Blake Shelton and I loved watching all the talented singers. The blind auditions are my favorite part and you love to see who the judges will turn their chairs around for. I'll be watching when it makes it's return because it's very entertaining, even though two the judges are leaving, Blake is still there and that's all that matters.

11. BEAUTY AND THE BEAST
I really like this show, but I've missed how many of the episodes for different reasons. I'm still not totally into it yet. Love the beast a lot and the story is pretty good. I can't wait for it to come back on and then I'll get back into it. It's a new show, so I'm very wary of loving it too much because if I do, I'm sure The CW will cancel it as well.

12. MALIBU COUNTRY
I just started watching this show about a month ago or so. It's pretty good and it's great to see Reba back on TV. I love watching Lily Tomlin as her mother on the show. She's a laugh and a half.

Okay, that's all the shows I can think of that I watched in 2012. I sporadically watch other shows, but these are the shows I watched the most.

Goodbye 2012

The past year was an okay year for me. The beginning of the year was kind of rocky at work, but then things got better. My favorite part of 2012 was going to the Supernatural Burbank Con. I had a great time there and it was kind of fun to travel on my own. I still love going with someone though and I'll be going to the Vegas Con with my sister come March.  TV was pretty good this year. I started watching a couple of new shows like The Voice and Once Upon A Time. A lot of good albums came out this year and I've been enjoying listening to them. My favorite was Ceremonials by Florence And The Machine. I didn't read as much this year with all the stuff that's been going on, but I did read some really great books as well from all my favorite authors.
The end of this year has been full of ups and downs. I feel so bad about what's happened to my Mom. I thought she was going to die about three times and she's still here. Now, I'm hoping she'll get better and either be able to come home or go into assisted living.  I just would like to see her getting back to walking and doing the things she used to do. It's up to her though. She's in a care facility right now and she's been there for a month. I don't know what will happen.
Despite everything that's happened with my Mom. I had a good Christmas. I saw her and my family. I got to spend time with how many members of my family. It felt good to spend time with them. It seems that I never get to spend a lot of time with them anymore. I went to how many good movies this year. Les Miserables, The Hobbit, Breaking Dawn part 2, The Possession and Parental Guidance.
Here's to hoping that 2013 is a great year. I'll do my best to make it one no matter what happens.

I Dreamed A Dream Of Supernatural

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and Supernatural worth watching
I dreamed my love for Sam and Dean would never die
I dreamed that Chuck would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid and dreams were made and used and wasted

But the demons come at night
With their voices soft like Crowley
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame

They spent multiple summers on my walls
And filled my days with wonder
But season 8 came along and it was gone

And still I dream Sam and Dean will be like brothers
But there are dreams that cannot be
And storms I cannot weather like Amelia and Benny

I had a dream Supernatural would be
So different from this hell it is
Now Carver has killed the dream I dream

Gossip Girl Forever

It's been a while since I've posted because I've just been too lazy and too sick to. I wanted to post right away about the end of Gossip Girl, but I didn't feel good. I'm really going to miss this show being on every Monday night. The finale was awesome. I couldn't have asked for a better ending to such a great show. I've loved this show since it first started and I never missed one episode. I will keep watching my DVD's for a long time because I can see it all again. I'm so happy that they made sure to have Jenny and Eric be in the finale. I've missed them for the last couple of years. Chuck and Blair will now be forever and I love that. I knew they'd end up together when the show ended. I was well rewarded for all my loyalty to this show.

I love all my shows because they've really helped me when I've been depressed. I watch all the characters and I actually never wish I was any of them, but it would be nice sometimes to live in their worlds for a brief time. I'd never want to stay longer than a couple of hours though. TV characters sure have more problems than normal people, but on the other hand, a lot of them have more people who love them and are there for them than real people do. It's nice to wish yourself into TV land and stay there just to forget your problems for a while.

I've seen the end of how many shows now that I love. Smallville, One Tree Hill and now Gossip Girl. I've loved these shows for years. I love Supernatural, but I don't think it's going to end like any of these shows. I'm actually scared about how it will end. I want to love the show until it ends, but it's getting very hard to do so right now. I was never obsessed with any of my other shows like I have been with Supernatural. I think my obsession is over now though and I still love it, but not as much as the earlier seasons. I've been watching   the Christmas episode how many times and I realize how different the show really is now. Dean actually used to love and care about Sam and now I feel like he could care less what happens to Sam. Sam cares and loves Dean, but Dean acts like Sam doesn't give a crap about him. I don't know what Sam could possibly do to make Dean realize how much he cares about him. Nothing I guess. As I was watching the Christmas episode and Sam giving Dean that amulet, I thought about something. Why did Sam give Dean the amulet? Because he knew he could always count on Dean and that Dean was there for him. Maybe that's why Dean threw the amulet in the trash because he knew that Sam would not be able to count on him anymore. It was more about how Dean felt and not how he felt about Sam and that's why he threw it away. I hate fans who think Sam should have pulled it out of the trash and tried to give it to Dean again, when Dean clearly didn't want it anymore. It would be really funny if Kevin finds out that the amulet is important to closing the gates of hell or whatever and Dean then realizes he threw it away and they have no idea where it is, but they need it.
Part of me no longer gives a crap about Dean or what he even thinks of Sam. Dean seems to only worry about what he needs or wants and could care less what Sam wants or needs. To me, that is selfish. It's funny that fans think Dean is the poor injured party and that Dean isn't selfish for not even caring what went on with Sam while he was in Purgatory. It's not like Sam went to Purgatory himself and then just found a way out and left Dean there. It's not Sam's fault that Dean had to be the big hero and kill Dick and end up in Purgatory. I read how much crap and can't even believe what I'm reading. It's still the same. Dean is always right and anyone he wants to be friends or family with is great and Sam is always wrong and anyone he even talks to is evil or horrible and how dare he choose or be with anyone other than Dean. Dean can choose angels, vampires or anyone over Sam and it's great and he's a wonderful loving brother to Sam. That's utter and complete crap. It's funny because I think a lot of Dean fans are hypocrites just like Dean. I stay far away from those fans.

Wow! Long post. I guess I just needed to write for a little bit. My poor Mom is in a care facility and now she has two infections she's trying to fight. I've been praying for her. Hopefully one day her suffering will end either way. She'll either get better or God will take her home. I can't stand seeing her this way. It's very hard and I'm sure more harder for her than me.