Salt Lake Comic Con 2014

Yesterday I went to the Comic Con in Salt Lake. I wasn't even going to go at all because I never bought tickets early for cheaper and I didn't want to go for all three days. I remember last year and I loved the Con, but I didn't stay there long on the last day of it. It was crowded and totally crazy.
I decided to go at the last minute yesterday morning. I had to run to the library to get my tickets printed and then my sister and I took the bus down to Salt Lake. I really didn't think that there was going to be a ton of people on the first day. I thought it would be like it was last year. The news said that over 60,000 people showed up. I bet that was pretty accurate.
When my sister and I got there we waited in a line outside for how long and found out we were in the wrong line. Then we had to wait in another line and then when we got in the building, it was another long line. I think we waited longer inside, then we did outside. While we were waiting inside, they threw shirts and I was able to grab one. That was nice, but it was crazy waiting in that line. I'm glad my sister and I actually made it into where the vendors were set up. We didn't make it to any of the panels and that sucked, but at least we got in. There were a lot of people who didn't even make it into the building before everything closed down for the night. They said on the news that they were going to refund people's money or work with them to maybe get in today.
I thought they would be more organized this year, but they did not expect another huge turnout on the first day. Hopefully they learned from it.
I bought some stuff and my sister and I got to see Kevin Sorbo. I also got to see one of my fav authors, Kevin J Anderson and I got a book and had it signed again.
My sister and I had only about two hours to look around, but I think we only spent about  a little over an hour looking. My feet were killing me from standing in lines for almost four hours and from walking.
Maybe next year I will buy a multi pass and go for the whole Con.

Tom Hiddleston And Only Lovers Left Alive

I just love Tom and I finally got to see Only Lovers Left Alive. It still sucks that it never came to a theater here because I would have loved to see it on a big screen. It was a great movie and Tom was just awesome as Adam. That's one of the things I love about Tom. He becomes whatever character he portrays. I love to see him as Loki, but when I watched Only Lovers Left Alive he became Adam. That's the mark of a great actor. I love actors that when you go and see them in another movie, you forget the other characters they've portrayed because they become the character they are playing in the movie or show you are watching.
There are a lot of actors I love that can do this like Johnny Depp, Leonardo Dicaprio, Nicholas Cage and a whole lot more. I think Jared Padalecki can do this as well. It's too bad that I'll probably never see him playing any other characters but Sam Winchester for the rest of his career as an actor. Part of me wishes that Supernatural would have ended years ago so that I could have seen Jared playing different characters.
I love Jared playing Sam, but when I watch him in something else, he becomes that character and I forget that he is Sam from Supernatural. He's not defined by that character and Tom is the same way. I don't see Loki when I watch him in other movies and that's what I love.
Jensen Ackles on the other hand is totally defined by the character Dean Winchester. It's sad really because I love Jensen, but when I go back to watch Smallville or watch My Bloody Valentine, all I see is Dean and not the character Jensen is portraying. Jensen has never been any other character besides Dean on Supernatural and he never will be. He'll be demon Dean, but that's still Dean and who cares.
Now back to Tom. I can't wait for Crimson Peak to come out, but it looks like it will be a long wait for that movie and an even longer wait to see him in the next Thor movie as Loki. I still want a Loki movie, but I doubt that will ever happen. It would be great, though.
Just looking at this picture of Tom and writing this makes me happy and I love watching Tom as Adam. I laughed so hard at some of those scenes in the movie and I guess it was better I didn't see it at the theater because I would have pissed people off with my laughing. I seem to laugh at some things that other people don't find funny. I guess I'd rather laugh and feel good instead of feeling stressed or serious all the time.

Sam And Dean Winchester: Which One Is The Bigger Monster?

Which brother is the monster or the worst monster? Sam, of course. He's also the worst brother because he didn't go looking for his little baby brother Dean when he went to Purgatory. Dean acts like some two year old crying constantly about why Sam didn't look for him. Did Sam become his mommy or something? Poor little baby Dean was lost in Purgatory and his mean old mommy didn't even care. That's about how I felt watching that crap from season 8. Sam is not allowed to have a life if stupid Dean isn't in it. Dean on the other hand can have whatever life he chooses and to hell with Sam. Whatever.
I just saw that stupid Jeremy Carver interview and I started laughing. Which brother is the worst monster? Like everyone doesn't already know that it will be Sam no matter what. Sam is the worst hunter and the worst brother, but he is the best monster on the show.
I bet Sam will either kill people or allow people to be killed to find darling Dean, but that will never be good enough. No matter what Sam does, he will always be a crappy brother.
Dean preaches free will, but Sam never has any.
All Dean has wanted for Sam is for him to sit beside him in that stupid Impala and hunt with him. If Sam does not want the same thing, then he is a crappy brother and is letting darling Dean down. Dean has looked for a new brother to replace Sam. First it was Castiel and then it was Benny. Both of them did whatever Dean wanted and that's what he wants from Sam. This is probably why I actually hate Dean. I hate that he doesn't care what Sam wants and he doesn't care if Sam is ever happy. Sam hasn't been happy being next to Dean hunting, but Dean doesn't give a crap because that's all he wants and that's all he's wanted since the first season.
So, Sam will always be the monster. Hopefully, Dean will kill Sam much in the same way that Cain killed Abel to save him and the world. Who knows what dark and evil stuff Sam will have to do to save darling Dean from being a demon and then Dean will have to kill Sam to save him and the world. Saint Dean will save everyone and be the hero of the show like he's always been. Sam isn't a hero and he's never sacrificed anything or saved anyone.
Blah, blah, blah and on and on it goes for who knows how much longer.

And to end this post. Jensen is now on Twitter. It's about time. Now hopefully, he'll share the duties of being twitter cheerleader with Jared and Misha.

Leverage, 7th Heaven And Books

I found a new show to love and it's called Leverage. I remember back when I had cable and I was going to watch this show, but then my Mom and I got rid of cable because it cost too much. I might have even watched an episode when it was on. Anyway, now I can watch it all I want to. It ran for 5 seasons, so that's a lot of episodes to watch. I love Sunday night because I can watch how many straight hours of it on one channel I have. I can also watch episodes on Hulu. I bought the novels to read as well. I wish this show was still running because it's a great show. I love all the characters and I loved how there were women characters as well. Good female characters that I could enjoy watching. I love the show because all the characters work as a team and they are like a family as well.
I've also been watching 7th Heaven on Hulu lately. I love to go back and watch all the episodes and it doesn't matter what season I'm watching because I love every episode. This show always made me smile, laugh and feel good inside. It gave me hope and that's what it does now. It's too bad that there is not a really good family drama out there right now on TV. I guess it doesn't matter because I can just watch this show whenever I feel like it.
I've been trying to read more again and I've found some great books to read. I've got my Leverage books and I've been reading The Psych books. I've never watched Psych, but I really love reading the books. I'm still waiting for how many books to come out like my Sleepy Hollow, Fringe and Grimm While I have time off from work, I want to read as many books as I can.

My Grumpy Bela and Grumpy Cat

Where's My Sammy?

I really wish I could see my little Sammy. When the world turned dark and cold, then I could always go to Pet Society to find the light and warmth. I always found comfort in visiting my little Sammy because he always made me smile and laugh even though all I wanted to do was cry. Now, I just have to settle for looking at pics of him and remembering what he did for me.
Tonight or maybe way before tonight, I lost someone I really cared about and loved. No, they are not dead but they might as well be. As far as I'm concerned they are now a stranger to me and I wonder if I ever really knew this person. I used to idolize her and now I can't stand to even think about her or to see or talk to her. She's my sister, but I feel like I'm not even related to her anymore. She treats me like I'm a stranger and has for a while now. Whatever. I'm just sad about everything and sick of all the crap. I've lost Mully, my little Sammy, my Mom, my favorite show and her a long time ago. I hope she enjoys her money because that's about all she ever thinks or cares about.
She thinks I care about all the stupid trips she's been going on, but I don't. I went on two trips this year and they were enough for me, maybe too much. I loved going to Colorado because I spent time with my two nephews and I missed how much time with them when they were younger. I remember going on trips with this sister, but she doesn't even remember that I was there for how many of them. That really tells me how much she cared about me. She didn't and I wonder if she ever did.  I guess I finally have found out who really cared about me and who didn't. I thought she cared about me, but she hasn't cared if I've been alive or dead for a couple of years now. Well, now it's mutual because I no longer care about her or what happens to her because she's a stranger to me now. I still have my Bela and my other family members, but I miss what I've lost.
Where's my Sammy to take away all this sadness and pain?

Sammy And Lucifer

To start off with, I still miss Pet Society and Little Sammy and all his friends. This is a pic of Sammy and Lucifer before Pet Society closed down.
I looked at some stuff from the San Diego Comic Con and now I know for sure that I will not be watching Supernatural when it comes back on for season 10. I just listened to Jared talk for a minute about what's coming up for Sam and that was it. I love how Jared said they were going to tease morals and ethics with the characters and who is the biggest monster, Sam or Dean. Sam, of course. Who doesn't already know that? Sam will always be wrong and evil and Dean will always be good and righteous no matter what he does. And does it really matter what either Sam and Dean do? There is no God on Supernatural. So, who cares what they do or who they hurt or kill. No one. Dean has never had any morals and it was so funny that in season 6, he was trying to teach soulless Sam morals. I laughed at that.
Supernatural is no longer about two brothers hunting evil and saving people. It's about two brothers doing whatever the hell they want to and saving each other and to hell with everyone else. There is no good or evil. And I would say there was no right and wrong, but there is on the show. Dean is right and Sam is wrong. Castiel also does whatever the hell he wants to and he learned all that from good old righteous Dean.
Whatever.
I now know the reason why I do not love Supernatural anymore. It's Sam and Dean. I don't know who the hell they are anymore and they are not the same two brothers I loved from the start. And no they did not grow up because they were adults when the show first started. They both changed into characters that I no longer love or respect. I wouldn't care if they were good or evil, but neither one of them has been true to themselves and that's what I don't like. Also, the writers of the show are idiots and they don't know what to do with the characters. I wish that Sam and Dean would have changed just a little, but basically stayed the same. I would have loved them. Through most of the seasons of Supernatural, Sam hasn't even been himself and Dean has just been a big hypocrite that I can't stand. When I watch older shows and shows that ran for a very long time, I did not see the characters change very much and that's why I loved the shows. The characters stayed true to who they were and I loved it.  I never seen characters become someone else on their show for more than one episode and they did not become altogether different characters. Gunsmoke was on for 20 years and I never saw the characters change except to get older. Smallville was on for 10 years and I never saw Clark change so drastically that I would never stop loving his character. There were a few episodes when he went dark or whatever, but he never stayed that way for more than one episode. He was a hero until the end, where Sam and Dean started out heroes and have ended up being worse than some villains. Whatever.
And the 200th episode of Supernatural is going to be some musical crap and love letter to the fans. More like a hate letter as far as I'm concerned. Whatever. Supernatural is finally over for me. I hope other fans out there get what they want from it because it no longer has anything for me. I just hope fans don't fall into that crap about Sam and Dean. I know The CW just wants fans to fight all over social media about who is better or right, Sam or Dean. I just hope fans don't join in the hate or anger or whatever because I was done with that long ago.  Supernatural has just made me miserable for the last couple of years when I've let it.
Well, that's it for now.
I can't wait for the Fall when all my other shows come back on. Sleepy Hollow, Vampire Diaries, Once Upon A Time. The Originals. The Voice, The Blacklist and some new shows, Gotham and Constantine.

To Hell With Supernatural Or The Dean Show

I've just read some more crap about the upcoming season and it looks like the same old tired crap, but this time Dean will be a demon. Who cares? I feel sorry for anyone who wants to see Sam and Dean being brothers. Looks like that is not going to happen for the first part of the season. Dean will be off finding new friends and probably another new brother to replace his rotten little brother Sam.
I love reading all the crap that the writers and Jared and Jensen say about the show. Jared is happy because he gets to spend plenty of time with his family now because his character Sam has nothing to do and is hardly ever in the show. When he is in an episode, he doesn't do much at all. It's mainly Dean doing all the talking, the acting and whatever. I'm happy for Jared and I'm betting he'll get even more time off this season to spend with his family. Now that Misha and Mark are regulars, I'm sure they will get even more airtime and more to do on the show. I'm sure there are going to be a whole ton of new characters coming and I read there are going to be two new females. One is going to be with Dean, of course. Who knows about the other one?
Here's something I hope for. I hope that Sam saves Dean by killing someone, or killing a whole bunch of people or maybe even restarting the apocalypse. I wonder if that would be enough for Dean to realize that Sam cares about him. Is that what it will take? Sam choosing saving Dean over saving the world or other people. I guess Sam sacrificing himself and spending how long down in hell did not prove to Dean that he cared about him. Sam wanted Dean to be happy, but Dean will never be happy because he hates himself.
Dean will never love or feel love until he can love himself and I don't think that will ever happen.
I don't care about Castiel and that whole angel crap. Angels fighting angels and who the hell knows even what they are fighting about or for. I'm so sick of it. And I still don't know how Castiel could have his grace taken and become human and then steal another angel's grace and have powers again. And now the grace is slowing leaking away or whatever and he'll die. What the hell? Whatever.
I just know one thing and it's highly unlikely that I will be watching Supernatural when it comes on in the Fall. The more I read about what's coming up, the more I don't care. Sad, but true. During the summer, I usually go back and watch all the seasons and my favorite episodes, but this summer I haven't watched any. I've been watching old shows from the past and I found one of my favorite shows ever on DVD and now I'm stuck on it again.
I was sad about no more Supernatural novels coming out and now I don't care because I probably wouldn't read one even if it did come out. I can't wait for the new Monk, Fringe, Grimm and Sleepy Hollow novels to come out. I can't believe that there is going to be a Sleepy Hollow novel. I can't wait to get it and I can't wait for the show to come back on.
I'm sad about Supernatural because it was my favorite show and I loved it so much and now I almost hate it and I don't care about what happens next on it. I could care less what happens to Dean anymore because that's all the show is about and has been about since season 4. I had fun on Twitter reading all the tweets with AskSupernatural and I wrote a few myself. I love all the fans sniveling over what they want to see. Good luck to them.  I loved reading all the ones to TVD as well. I don't care what happens on TVD because I will love it because I love all the characters.
I love Jared Padalecki and I will continue to be loyal to him, but I can no longer support Supernatural because I don't love it anymore. I still love Sam and always will, but the show sucks and I don't see it getting any better in the future. It's been going downhill for a while now and it really got bad towards the end of season 7. I don't see how it could get better because I could care less what Demon Dean is going to be doing the whole time and I'm sure that's what will be shoved in our faces, plus tons of Castiel and Crowley. Sam will probably be off screen looking for Dean because it will be boring to have him onscreen looking. Whatever. It's the same old tired crap and I'm done. I just hope I can kick the habit of Supernatural. That's all it is now. A really bad habit. Hopefully, I can go cold turkey and not even watch one episode or even peek to see what's happening. I still love Sam and I want to know what happens with his character, but I need to stop even caring about him because the writers never do anything good with his character or follow through. Here's to hoping I can say to Hell with Supernatural and kick the rotten habit I have of watching a show I no longer love. I've stopped wearing my Supernatural shirts and I've stopped buying any merchandise and I doubt I will ever go to another Convention again. I love the Conventions and all the stars, but I think it's over and done with. I had fun at the Conventions I went to and they will always be great memories for me. Well that's all.

Daktari And Summer TV

It's nice that I finally get to see Daktari again. I bought the first two seasons on DVD and I love watching them. The last time I watched Daktari on TV was probably over 20 years ago. It's a show that is great to watch no matter how many years has passed. I wish it was on a TV channel so that other people could discover how great it is. It's great for anyone who loves animals. They are the best part of the show. It had a lot of good lessons about animals and people. It's sad to know that a lot of people today could care less about animals or how close how many of them are getting to extinction.
TV is not that great right now during the summer. It's a long wait until all my shows come back on. I've been watching old shows on DVD and old shows on TV. I'd rather watch them, than some of the crap that is on right now. I don't really care for AGT. I watched the show Extant and it was interesting and I may keep watching it. Nothing else is interesting at all. I have watched repeats of TVD, The Originals and The Blacklist. Also, it's been nice to watch Leverage. I've always wanted to watch it, but I haven't had cable for years. Now the repeats are playing on two different channels.
I've been reading a few spoilers for what's coming up on all my favorite shows, but they don't tell much. The only thing I've gotten from The Supernatural spoilers is that I probably will not be watching the first half of the season. I could care less about stupid Dean being a demon and going out to do all kinds of crap. From what I've read, it seems like the show will mainly be about Dean, Castiel and Crowley. The side character Sam will probably not do much, but look for Dean. Who cares? Love Jared and I still love the character of Sam, but I'm done hoping for something that will never happen. Sam Winchester might as well be dead and hopefully the writers will have demon Dean kill him. They can have an angel, a demon or something else take over Sam's body. Maybe they can bring Benny back in Sam's body, so that Dean can have his real brother back again. Whatever.
I can't wait for September and all my favorite shows to come back. I'm sure I'll be watching how many of them on Hulu or wherever because there are going to be a lot of shows on all at the same time. Monday is going to be the best night of the week. Well that's all.

My Mom

My Mom passed away this morning. She had a stroke last week and she never did recover from it. For almost the last two years it's been how much stuff happening to my Mom. First she needed stents and then a pacemaker in her heart. She had heart failure and that's why she needed all the that. She almost died how many times. My Mom was tough and I really can't believe what she recovered from, but this time, I guess her time was up.
I'm so grateful to have had a Mom like mine. She took care of me for my whole life. I have never gotten married or had any children. I stayed living with my Mom and Dad after I graduated and then when my Dad died, I stayed with my Mom. I've been living in our house for almost two years without my Mom. She was at an assisted living place. I could not take care of her by myself and when I had to go back to work, there would not have been anyone to be with her. A couple of times she needed a lot of care. I'm glad that my Mom didn't die almost two years ago and that I was able to spend more time with her. My oldest sister would always take me to visit my Mom where she was living. We walked over there how many times to see her. We also got to take her gambling to Wendover. She loved to go there. We took her a few times out to eat and I'm glad that last year she was here for Thanksgiving and Christmas and she was able to spend time with us. I'm going to miss visiting at the place she lived because when we left, she would come to the door of her room and wave to us before we turned the corner to leave.
I have how many great memories with my Mom. I will always cherish them and all my memories are my greatest treasures. I treasure every minute I spend with the people I love and I treasure all the memories I have of those times. When I'm alone, I'm never really alone because everyone I love is always with me in my heart and in my memories of them.
I thought I'd write down some of those memories.
I remember all the times that I went to Wendover on the bus with my Mom to gamble. The best part was the ride down there. I mostly sat with my Mom and we'd laugh and talk to the other people on the bus. My Mom really loved to talk to people. She used to call the people on the bus her Wendover family. I mostly went to Wendover to spend time with my Mom. I remember the times after my Dad died and we'd use to walk how far from where the bus dropped us off. And a few of the bus drivers would drop us off closer to our house so that we wouldn't have to walk so far. I had so many fun times and great memories with how many people that were on the bus and my family that used to go as well. There were times when my sister and I and my Mom would go. Those were fun trips. I'm glad I have so many wonderful memories to remember.
I remember when my Mom and I went on the bus on a long trip to Laughlin. And I can't believe that my Mom went on a plane to Vegas with me for my Birthday one year. That was a great trip and my Mom and I had a lot of fun together. We mostly gambled, but we did other stuff as well. I got her to go to the IMAX that used to be at The Luxor. We saw how many shows and we even watched NSYNC in concert on the screen and my Mom even liked it.
My Mom went to a couple of Jazz games with me because I had no one else to go with at the time. I used to get free tickets for subscribing to their magazine and we'd go to those games. It was really fun and I know my Mom had fun too, except for the night we had to wait over two hours for our bus to come to get us home.
I remember all the shopping my Mom and I did. It seemed like we went shopping 2-4 times a week. We also did a whole lot of walking. My Mom didn't like to drive and neither did I. We would usually take the bus or walk to wherever we wanted to go. I'll never forget all those times. Sometimes we were alone and other times we were with how many family members. My Mom loved to eat out and we'd do that quite a lot as well. We also went to a lot of movies together. The last movie I remember going to with my Mom was Spiderman 3. After that, she didn't want to go to the movies. She would still watch movies on DVD or TV, but that's about it. I can't believe that when Lord Of The Rings and Harry Potter came out, she went with me how many times to see them. I don't think she ever did watch all the Harry movies and she didn't really care about seeing The Hobbit.
Well, I have a whole ton of memories, but I can't write all of them down. I just know that whenever I'm feeling sad, I can remember all the good times I had with my Mom and she'll always be with me. My Mom will always be in my heart and soul, along with everyone I love, no matter where I go or what I do.
I just feel that when I'm out walking, even though my Mom won't be there in person, she'll be walking beside me always.
I like to be honest even when I'm just posting something on my blog. There's no reason to lie about stuff. There were times when I was mean to my Mom and there were times when we said hurtful things to each other. I don't know if everyone does that or not, or if they admit to it or not. I will admit to it. There were times that I was a dirty little spoiled brat, but I do believe my Mom loved me any way and I know I loved her. We'd fight sometimes, but it never lasted for long. Most of the time it was great with my Mom. She was my best friend through the years when I became an adult. I'll never forget all the special things she did for me and I know she unselfishly did them even though she didn't want to.
Before I end this very long post. I remember when I was a little girl and all the stuff my Mom did for me and our family. She did so much and worked so hard for a whole lot of years. It seemed like her job was 24/7 and she did so much. I remember her scrubbing the floors, washing the dishes, cooking, getting us ready for school and so much more. I think my Mom liked to cook, but when we were all grown up, she liked going out to eat because she didn't have to cook.
Well, I think I'm done because I don't know if I'm expressing myself and how I feel properly. I can never find the right words to express how I feel. It's very hard. I just know I loved my Mom and no matter what, she'll always be with me. She'll never be gone as long as I remember and love her. I may never get to see her or hear her talk to me, but if I talk to her, I'm sure somewhere she'll be listening. The love and everything she gave me will give me comfort for the rest of my days.