Roses

Here are some old pics of me when I was a really little girl. Our roses were so beautiful on the side of our house. Some of the rose bushes are still alive and I keep leaving them there, but they are starting to get really thorny now and some of them have died. I want to tear out all the old ones and plant new ones, so that the side of the house will look the same as it did when I was little. I hate yard work, so mostly I just leave them alone. I have to pull weeks and creeping vines out of them and a stupid tree has gotten into them and started growing. That's why I need to start over.
I remember when I was a kid and how I took roses and tried to preserve them in water. I thought they would stay beautiful and never die if I put them in water in an old frosting container. I wanted their beauty to stay forever, but that was not the way for it to be. I learned that their beauty stayed forever in my memory and I thought about them in the long cold winters and saw them blooming in my mind.
Then come spring, there would be new beautiful roses growing.
I love looking at old pics and remembering all that I had growing up. Some would say that I didn't have much, but I was rich in ways some people will never experience. Sometimes, when I've been angry, I have forgotten all that I have and have had in my life.
I sometimes wonder why when I gamble and win money, I throw it back and lose it all. Maybe, I really just don't want or need it. Money has never made me feel rich, only love has. When I have love in my heart and life, then I'm feel like I'm the richest person in the world.

T R I C I A - "What I Know"

John Denver Looking for Space

Supernatural Writers: Thank You

I'd like to thank the Supernatural writers in this post for totally destroying the show that I loved for so many years. Supernatural was my favorite show for so long, even when I got angry about certain stuff starting in the fourth season. I still loved the show and kept watching and supporting it. Now, there is no reason to watch it. Sam is probably the most underused main character that I've ever seen in any show that I've ever watched. The show is no longer about two brothers, only one and a bunch of other boring characters. Now on to more thank yous.
Thank you writers for making Sam Winchester the most worthless and useless character on any show that I've ever watched.
Thank you for making Dean Winchester the biggest hypocrite on any show that I've ever watched.
Thank you for constantly bringing back the most boring characters I've ever seen on any show ever and bringing them back and making the show more about them than Sam and Dean who the show is supposed to be about.
Thank you for making a big confusing stupid mess with the angels. I still have no clue what is going on with any of that crap and I don't care anymore.
Thank you for making Crowley and all the other demons on the show into stupid boring idiots.
Last but not least. Thank you for saving me a ton of money. I used to go to at least one Con a year and now I will never go to one again. I used to buy tons of merchandise and now I will not buy anything again.
Thank you and keep going with making the show a piece of crap because I don't care anymore.
It took me a long time to finally let go, but I think it's finally happened and it's all thanks to you.
One last thank you before I go. Thank you to Jared Padalecki for getting a shirt that says Always Keep Fighting. It's sad but Supernatural is the reason I was depressed for how long and Jared doesn't understand that. I loved his character Sam so much and now Sam might as well be dead because of the writers and Jared could care less. So thank you Jared for not caring that I loved your character and now I don't because of the stupid writers who don't know how to write Sam with any emotions.
That's all and the pic of my Johnny says it all.

Pet City And Constantine

I'm going to make a Constantine room in Pet City and I hope that I can make a really good one. I'm still hoping and praying for a season 2. I loved every episode of Constantine and I really want to see more. I've never read the comics, but I'm going to have to if there is no more show to watch. I'd really love to see everything played out on my TV screen instead of reading the comics. I like comics, but I don't read them very often. I'm glad I changed my pet's name to Johnny. Now his name not only comes from my love of Johnny Crawford, but John Constantine as well.
Pet City has been so much fun to play lately. I'm loving all the themes and the cute stuff they come up with. I love all the other people who can create rooms using different stuff from all the themes and the shops. I'm not that creative. I try and I'm going to really try making a great Constantine room. I'm going to take my time with it and hopefully I will come up with a great looking room. I'm pretty simple and I really can't get the hang of doing more dimensional rooms.
I still wish I had my Sammy in Pet Society. I sometimes think of all the cute stuff my Sammy had or that he could have had by now. If I still had Pet Society, then I'm sure my Sammy would have had a Constantine room as well.
Well that's it for now.

The Blacklist, Constantine And Other TV Stuff

I'm so happy that The Blacklist is back on again. It was a long wait, but well worth it. I loved that two parter two weeks ago. It was nice to see the show twice that week. I have to keep reminding myself that it is now on Thursday night. It's nice that it's on an hour earlier and right after Vampire Diaries. I can watch my vampire soap opera and then a nice action show right after and then go to bed with visions of Red dancing in my head. I just love when Red talks and tells one of his stories. They are just so mesmerizing and James Spader just delivers them so well. Sometimes I cry while watching and other times, I laugh and cry depending on what he's saying.
Constantine's first season has ended. It was only 13 episodes and that just sucks because I want more. I'm still hoping and praying for season 2, but I'm not going to count on it. I love how NBC kept saying how much they believed in the show, but then never had any promos for it during the week. Or none that I saw. If Constantine does not get renewed, then I doubt I will be trying out any new show NBC comes out with. I'm tired of watching new shows only for them to be cancelled because the ratings are not what was expected. And the stupid networks still using an outdated ratings system when there are so many ways to watch TV today. I personally love to watch my shows live and when they are first aired. It drives me crazy when I miss one of my shows and I later have to watch it on Hulu. The finale of Constantine was excellent and I suspected what was going to happen, but I was still pretty surprised and I loved that. I loved seeing Constantine pissing in the rain. There was just something really funny about that.
Now onto my other shows. I have missed watching The Originals, Gotham and Sleepy Hollow for the last four weeks now. I don't think I'll ever catch up on them. I really don't know about Sleepy Hollow anymore. Sometimes I like it and sometimes it's just weird and nothing like the first season. I really want to see what's going on with all the characters on The Originals and I hope to catch up soon. I really hate Monday nights because so many of my favorite shows are on all at the same time. It sucks.
Now, onto Vampire Diaries and Supernatural. Both of these shows have given into the ships and certain fans and I really hate that. It seems like majority rules for both shows. I guess most fans just want Dean Winchester and that's about all you get when you watch Supernatural. On Vampire Diaries most fans want Damon and Elena together and that's what you're getting, plus the fans who want Stefan and Caroline together. The main reason I loved Vampire Diaries was for the love triangle between Damon, Elena and Stefan. I wanted it to go on to the end of the show and then find out who she would choose. I can at least still enjoy watching Vampire Diaries because I love all the characters and most of the time, I don't care who they are with at any given time. I cried during the last episode when Caroline's mother died. It made me think of my own Mom. I love all the music and how they do certain scenes on Vampire Diaries. One thing I also love is that Vampire Diaries uses all their characters and not just the popular ones. I know a lot of fans that just watch for Damon and Ian, but it's nice that the writers don't just push him front and center and forget about the rest of the cast.
Where Supernatural has really become The Dean Show and his character is front and center and the show is boring as hell. I'm so tired of them researching that stupid mark and looking in books in how many episodes. And I'm tired of Dean staring at his stupid hand and arm. I mostly watch episodes with the sound turned off and listen to music while watching. Then I don't have to hear the stupid things Dean says to other people. He's such a big hypocrite that it's not even funny anymore. The writers are just horrible and they just write whatever. They probably think they are writing the greatest episodes because idiots on Twitter constantly tell them how great their writing is. Then the same idiots go somewhere else and complain how crappy the episodes are and the writing. It's pretty funny and probably the only enjoyment I get out of Supernatural anymore. I love to read what people think about the episodes even when I don't watch or listen to them. I at least get a laugh because Supernatural is just one big joke of a show right now. It's pretty sad for me to say that, but it's true. I really don't care what happens on the show anymore and I hope those Dean fans are getting what they want. Dean is the big hero of the show and has been since day one and now the writers are just making that totally and completely clear. That's why I hate listening to Carry On My Wayward Son because when they play it on the show, it's about Dean and only Dean, not both Sam and Dean. The show has been Dean's journey since season four and it's continued and probably will be until the show ends. I hope Sam turns evil to save Dean because then Sammy turning evil will be all Dean's fault. Then Dean can kill Sam and know he was right all along about his brother being a monster. I love how the writers and Carver try to make it look like the show is about two brothers. It's not, It's about one brother who's the righteous hero and the right hand of God and that's Dean. Whatever. I really can't wait to find out what crap the writers come up with for the end of season 10 and for the whole season 11.
I've been watching some of my older shows on DVD and loving them all over again. They are a comfort to me when my other shows are in repeats or I just need to watch something from the past. I love old shows because they make more sense than some of the shows that are on today.
Well that's it for now.

FanX15

Wow! I had a great time at FanX. It was the best Con that I've ever been to. I actually was not going to go to it at first and I wish I would have bought a ticket when they were on sale. The main reason I decided to go was to meet Paul Wesley. When they announced that he was going to be coming, I literally freaked out. I was not disappointed because Paul Wesley is just an awesome person. I think he was the best celebrity I have ever met. He was so kind and while he was signing my autograph he talked to me for a bit and it didn't feel rushed. I'm glad my shirt came from the campaign he had with the Humane Society. I loved that I was able to wear it and he gave me a high five. That was just the best thing ever. I can't believe how down to Earth and great he really is. He made my day and during his panel with Phoebe, he made me laugh so hard. He was the best part and I'm so happy and grateful that he came here to Salt Lake.
I enjoyed every day I was there because I got to meet some of my favorite stars and listen to their panels. The Con people did such a great job this time around. There was no waiting in big long lines because we had wristbands that we scanned coming and going. It was nice to leave and then if you wanted to come back, you could. I'm also glad that they limited the tickets that they sold and gave away. It was a better experience all the way around. It wasn't so crowded and it was a whole lot nicer.
I was not going to go to Felicia Day's panel, but I was already in the room and had good seats with my sister so we stayed for 5 panels straight. I like Felicia, but there is no way in hell that I will ever like her character from Supernatural. I do not think her character on the show is a strong female. It seems like every time Charlie is on, Sam and Dean have to rescue her or save her. She's had her arm broken twice now and she's almost died and has died and been brought back to life. I'm tired of it already. Truly strong female characters can take care of themselves and save themselves. They don't need someone to help and rescue them all the time.
To go off on a tangent here, I'm going to say something about Supernatural and Jared. I used to love reading Jared's tweets on Twitter, but now I'm actually getting tired of them. When he starts complaining about how much an airline charges, whether he was joking or not, is getting ridiculous. He can certainly afford paying how much to fly wherever he needs to go. True he is not a billionaire, but he certainly is a millionaire and can afford a couple thousand dollar flight at the last minute in first class. It's bad enough that I've stopped enjoying him playing Sam Winchester, but now I've stopped enjoying his tweets or even seeing him on Twitter in pictures or anything else. It's sad to say this but when I do watch Supernatural, it seems that Jared's acting is very lackluster, not that he gets much material to work with. But it just seems like he's just sticking around on Supernatural to make money or whatever. It's like he's not even serious about acting at all and it shows when you watch his character. But like I said, the writers don't write anything really for him to act. I guess I just don't enjoy seeing his character of Sam just sitting around doing almost nothing in almost every episode. Jared seems okay with it and that's what's sad as well. It seems like he doesn't even care about his fans anymore. I guess that's okay because he can do whatever he wants to. I think if he cared about his fans then he would tell the writers to maybe do something more with his character than what they are doing. Instead he says he's just sitting back and letting them write whatever. I would too if that meant I did not have to work as much, but I still got paid a ton of money. Whatever. I used to really think Jared was a wonderful person, but now I feel nothing for him as well as the nothing I feel for the character of Sam. It seems like Jared now does not put anything of himself into his character and it really shows. I guess that's why I love the first three seasons the most because it felt like Jared truly liked to act and now it feels like he's just going through the motions and waiting until the show ends so he can do something else.
Okay that was enough of that, but I just needed to get it out.
I have tons of new stuff from FanX to think about and I might start watching Game Of Thrones. I never thought much about the show until I saw the panel with two of the stars. I love going to Cons like FanX because I can learn about all kinds of new things and find new shows to watch and new books to read.
I'm hoping to go to the next Comic Con here in Salt Lake. Hopefully, I will buy my ticket early and lots of good stars will attend.

Constantine:Quid Pro Quo And Other Stuff

I swear Constantine just keeps getting better with each new episode. I love how this episode had so much packed into it and it turned out the best episode yet.
First we got to see more about Chas and I'm very happy about that. I wanted to know more about him because I've never read the comics. I love how he has a family, but still spends how much of his time fighting evil and saving people with John. I love how you found out why he comes back to life when he dies. Talk about supernatural. That's what I love about this show. All the characters have something tied to the supernatural and that's what makes them all compelling.
It's sad that Supernatural is no longer about anything supernatural and it's more about the characters, minus Sam, talking about their feelings. Sam is not allowed to talk about how he feels and now his character is totally reduced to only being about saving Dean. The writers have literally turned Sam into the worst character on TV. Sam has zero personality now. He can't even have sex or even look at a female and heaven forbid if he wanted a relationship with anyone but Dean. Sam is now like a dog at Dean's feet. He can only protect and defend Dean and that's all.
I said once that Constantine is what Supernatural used to be. Supernatural doesn't even measure up or even come close to how good Constantine is. The earlier seasons of Supernatural don't even measure up now.
Poor Crowley and Mark Sheppard. I used to love Crowley. I remember a time when he used to be in a mansion and now he looks like he's living in the sewers or something. And now Crowley is stupid and boring and his mother is worse.
I love Constantine and part of me wants a second season, but another part of me hopes that it doesn't go as long as Supernatural because who would want it to turn into shit like Supernatural has.

I love Constantine

I don't know if Constantine will have a second season, but I'm going to enjoy every minute of the last episodes of this season. I love this show and I hope and pray it will go on, but with my luck, it will probably be cancelled. I will royally hate NBC if they cancel this show and I may decide not to ever watch anything new they put on again. I hate how networks don't even give some shows a chance to succeed. If this show gets cancelled, then that will make three of my favorite shows being cancelled after only one season.
I love Constantine because it has such a great cast and I finally get to watch a strong female character who can take care of herself. Zed is a great character and I like her character better than Lizzy from The Blacklist. I love Manny the angel because he helps John and is around, but does not instantly fix everything for him. Chas rounds out the cast and I love him as well.
I did not know if I was going to like this show or the guy playing Constantine. Matt Ryan is the best and I love him as Constantine. I didn't think I would because I loved Keanu Reeves in the movie.
I have never read the comics and I doubt I ever will. I don't like how some fans want everything to be exactly the same as the comics. All of the shows that are from comics do not have to be exactly like them. They are mainly based on the comics and those characters in the comics, but they do not have to be exactly the same and the story does not have to follow exactly like the comics.
I remember watching Smallville and how many fans wanted it to follow exactly like the Superman in comics and the movies. Why? I loved it the way it was and I loved Smallville the most when it first started.
I hope Constantine does not get cancelled, but I have done everything I can do. Now all I can do is hope and pray that the idiots at NBC pull their heads out of their butts and renew the show for a second season.

People's Choice Awards 2015

I really can't believe I spent two hours watching the worst awards show ever. When it started is when I should have known what would happen. The whole show was yet again a big promo for CBS. I could not stand those to co-hosts and I don't even know what their names are, nor do I care. All I know is that they were boring and stupid. I did vote a couple of times for some of my favorites in between doing stuff while I was online. I voted for Constantine a bunch of times, but I knew it would not win. The People's Choice Awards are not about who the people's favorites are, but whose fans are the most craziest. I wonder how many hours Misha Collins fans spent voting over and over to make sure he won. And what did he win. Some dumb award and the knowledge that his fans are crazy about him which I think he already knew.
Who didn't know that the end of the award show was going to be the big award for best TV show and of course The Big Bang Theory would win. If another show would have won, then it would not have even been televised. There were how many awards and only how many of them were televised. That was probably the most stupid thing of all. They could have at least mentioned on the show who won those awards. Even if stupid Jane The Virgin and The Flash won for CW, it will not do anything for either show and I still will not watch either one. Once Vampire Diaries and The Originals are gone from CW, then I will be gone as well. Those are the only two shows I love and it's sad because I have to watch The Originals on Hulu all the time because CW moved it to the worst time slot ever. I still occasionally watch Supernatural, but it's getting more stupid all the time and becoming a teen soap opera.
About the only good thing I saw on this award show was Betty White. She is one of the greatest TV icons ever and I love her.