GOD LOVES YOU (With Lyrics) : Jaci Velasquez

TV Ramblings

It's been a while since I last posted because I was busy or too lazy to write.
My TV shows are starting to come back on after being off for a while for the holidays.
I just finished watching The Blacklist: The Director. Loved it so much and it's been the best episode so far of season 3. I love how every character played a part in the greatness of it. Aram was really the best character in this episode. I just love how he was watching Liz and crying, it broke my heart. I think I loved this episode the most because it shows how strong the cast is and that Red does not need to be in every scene to make the show great. James Spader is awesome, but so are the rest of the cast. I love seeing all the characters and how they interact with each other. I love when shows have how many characters and those characters can do so much in one episode without being in a lot of scenes.
The Blacklist has remained one of my top favorite shows for almost three seasons now and it's still going strong and getting even better with each episode.
Once Upon A Time started really strong this current season, but it kind of slowed down before it went on it's three month break. I can't wait for it to return because I can't wait to see how many old characters that I loved again. And I can't wait to see if they can save Hook. Galavant is on right now in it's time slot and I really enjoyed the first two shows. I laughed my butt off and the songs have been great as well.
Gotham has really been a surprise. I loved last season and I'm loving this season so far. The show makes me laugh more than anything and I love that about it. I can't wait to see what's going to happen next. All the characters have been at their best. I love how this show can have so many characters and give them all great stories.
I hate to say it, but I have given up on The Vampire Diaries. I love Ian and Paul and the rest of the original cast, but I do not like any of the new characters nor do I care about them at all. I liked the first couple of episodes, but when I turned on the show for one episode and it didn't feel like I was watched TVD, then that was the end. The show will be coming on Fridays and I doubt I will be able to see it on that night anyway. I think TVD ended when Elena chose Damon. I didn't care for them as a couple and I didn't feel anything when they were together onscreen. I would not have minded if they would have kept the love triangle going between Stefan/Elena/Damon for a whole lot longer than they did. That's what kept me watching and kept me interested. I think Stefan and Elena were better together and I loved seeing them onscreen together. They had more chemistry and when they were together they made me love The Vampire Diaries. After all, it was Stefan and Elena that were writing in diaries when the show first started. I think I loved that as well.
I'm sad that I haven't been able to watch The Originals and I don't even know what's happening on the show. I loved the show when it first started, but stupid CW kept moving the show around to nights when I could not watch because other shows were on. I don't have time to watch how many shows after they have come on when I'm working and I do not binge watch shows either. Maybe one day, I will see the episodes I have missed.
Sleepy Hollow started out good for it's third season, but I have not watched about three episodes. I don't know if I will continue watching this show. Of course, it is moving to Fridays. Now everything is going to Friday night. Also, I do not want to see Abbie and Ichabod in love or as a couple. I wish there could be one good friendship on TV with a man and woman without them turning into a couple. Who knows what will happen with it? I sure don't and I don't think I want to find out.
Last off is Supernatural. I actually liked most of the first half of this current season, but I don't know about the rest of the season. I've been reading about upcoming episodes and getting less and less excited for the shows return. I can't wait to see what happens with Sam and Lucifer, but that's about it. I'm sure those stupid writers will probably wrap things up in episode 10 and that will be the end of Sam's storyline for season 11. I could be wrong, but I might be right. When has Sam's story gone on longer than how many episodes? It would be great if we found out Lucifer wasn't really Lucifer and it was Michael talking to Sam instead. Now that would be a real twist. It's funny to me that Michael and Lucifer are probably the most powerful angels of all, but they really don't show that in the show. You would think that Michael and Lucifer would be able to appear to someone as anyone they wanted to. Gabriel could change into anyone he wanted to, so why couldn't Michael and Lucifer. You'd think Michael would have a lot more powers than Lucifer even. And it seems that he didn't have much at all. I love how fans keep whining about stupid Adam. Adam could have been gone and his soul went to Heaven or wherever when Michael took over his body. Or Michael could have made himself look like Adam. If Lucifer could reach out from the cage to Sam, then why couldn't Michael as well.
I don't have any faith in the writers of Supernatural at all anymore. I just bet the second half of the season will be all about poor Dean, Castiel because he's been absent for a while and how many other dumb characters. I read Jodie is going to return and I'm sure she'll be back with stupid Claire. Yuck. I don't want to see that character again ever. I think I'll be skipping that episode. Hopefully, I will never have to see stupid Charlie again, but I'm afraid that in some way she'll come back.
It's so nice that Jensen Ackles won The People's Choice Award. He deserved it because the writers seem to have only cared about his character for the last how many years now. He has been almost the whole show and his character is what the show has been about. Hopefully, Jared will get more time off to spend with his family because Jensen needs to spend more time doing the show because without him, I'm sure the show would be nothing. It seems to me that Jensen has to be in every episode a certain amount of time and I doubt he gets to have the time off Jared gets.
Maybe even one day those Destiel fans will get what they want. I doubt it, but they can keep dreaming. I just know when Dean and Castiel are together onscreen that's when it's time to either turn the channel or go to bed because I would rather watch grass growing than watching their boring scenes together.
Well that's all for now.

Tenderly Calling - John Denver

Ragdoll

This is an old poem I wrote long ago as well. I found a whole bunch of poems that I wrote in school or shortly after I graduated and I decided to post a few of them.

They each take me by an arm and pull so tight
I can be shared, there is no need for a fight
All day long they play their game with me
They keep me there so I will never be free

They don't know how much I can be hurt
When they get finished with me, they throw me in the dirt
I lay there all alone and I silently cry
While people look at me as they pass by

Tomorrow is a long ways away
I don't think that I will last another day
Being torn apart rips at my heart
I feel sorry for myself when it's time for them to start

Day after day it is always the same
There is no cause and I have no one to blame
If I could only make them see what they are doing to me
Then perhaps one day friends they might be

Sadness

This is an old poem I wrote long ago when I was a teenager.

Cold and gray all around me as I stood
Too many evil people and hardly any good
Fights and destruction everywhere that you look
And the only love you get, comes from a book
Tears fill your eyes and fall down your face
You put your head down in disgrace
Friends that you trusted in with your life
Have hurt you bad and twisted and stabbed you in the back with a knife
Hardships and pain are the only things you feel
When no one asks you, but they instead steal
The walls that enclose you come tumbling down
People stare at you and think you're a clown
Love is only a word that is spoken
Promises that are made are forever broken
Time to lay down on your bed
Put a pillow underneath your head
And lay there as if you were dead

Sammy And Lucifer

I just had to use this pic of my Sammy and Lucifer for this post. I still miss them every day.
Now on to Supernatural. I never thought it would happen in a million years, but it did. I actually have been enjoying the show again. I loved Just My Imagination and I loved the fall finale. These are the first two episodes in how long that I actually want to watch more than once. Maybe because I love Sam and finally there has been some focus on his character. I wonder who pulled their head out of their ass and finally realized that Supernatural is about both Sam and Dean, not Dean and all his good buddies. I'm not going to hope for anything come next year because usually when the show starts out good, it ends up crappy or vice versa. It was so nice to see Mark Pellegrino playing Lucifer again. I love how stupid fans whine about why Lucifer looks like he does. Maybe only Sam sees him that way and he looks different to Crowley and Rowena. I wonder if Dean would see him as his last vessel as well. Probably. Mark and Jared are so great together and I loved all those scenes so much. I never thought I'd see any more scenes with them together. I hope and pray that there are a couple more.
As for God. I love how Dean doesn't believe God is around, but he prayed to him last year. And then Dean tells Sam not to believe in God. I don't care if Lucifer sent Sam those visions or not. I still think God is around and just seeing how Castiel has come back from the dead time after time. Who has been bringing him back? Who put Sam and Dean on the plane after Lucifer was released in season 5? When Dean threw away his amulet, that was just like he not only gave up on God, but Sam as well. Why should God have cared about helping Dean after he did that? I still wonder about that bright light that protected Sam from Lilith, then again from Samhain and then that same bright light when they were taken out of the church and put on the plane. That all could have been God.
I love how some fans think Amara hasn't done all that much to be considered a threat. She basically almost killed a whole town, has sucked down tons of souls and killed how many people, but she's not a threat or anything that needs to be stopped anytime soon. Maybe that's because Dean is the one bonded to her. If Sam had been bonded to her, she would need to be stopped immediately and Sam would be some evil rotten no good brother for being bonded with her.
And I love how Amara is the darkness. What does Lucifer's name mean? Light bringer or the morning star. Maybe Lucifer is the answer to stopping her. Maybe Lucifer is just lying that he sent Sam those visions. Who knows? I don't think all that much about stuff anymore because I just try to enjoy the show. I've been enjoying it more because it's about what I always loved most, Sam and Dean, not all the other characters. The show can have guest stars, but that's all they should stay as. When you watch the show, it should not be like Sam and Dean are guest on their own show. That's why I hated last year. The focus of the show was more on Castiel, Crowley, Rowena, Charlie, Claire, Jody and how many other guests and Sam and Dean might as well have not even been in the episodes, especially Sam.
Well, that's all for now.

Crimson Peak And The TV Season So Far

It's been a while since I've posted anything and that's because I just haven't felt like writing.
I have gone to Crimson Peak twice now and I love it. And I am currently reading the book because I usually get even more story out of the book than the movie. Sometimes scenes and lines are cut out of the final cut of the movie, but the book still has them. Tom Hiddleston made me go to this movie, but I found that I loved it, even if he had not been in it, I still would have thought it was a great movie. I love Tom and I loved him playing Thomas Sharpe and I will go to almost every movie Tom is in. I can't wait for the movie I Saw The Light just to see him play Hank Williams. I never really liked Hank Williams music, but with Tom singing it, it will be interesting to watch how he plays that part and sings those songs.
Now on to TV so far this season. I've actually enjoyed all the shows I've been watching. I guess I was a little hasty with worrying about Vamp Diaries. It has been pretty good, but it's just not must see TV for me. If I'm able to watch it, I will. If I miss it, sometimes I do not go and watch on Hulu. I love Paul Wesley and Ian Somerhalder and they are the reason I still watch the show when I do. It's kind of sad to see poor Ian asking people to watch the show.
Once Upon A Time, Gotham and The Blacklist are my favorites so far. I have loved all their episodes so far. The only thing that I could do without is all the girl kissing on Gotham. I just try to ignore that crap. I know Barbara is a crazy bi-sexual psycho and I love her character this season, except for the kissing. Last season she was boring as hell and now that she's a villain she's great. I do want to see someone kill her character, though. I guess the show is going more like what happened in the comics. I could care less what happened in the comic books. I hate how writers think that's how shows should have to go. There are tons of different versions of all these comic book characters.
I don't know why I love Shark Tank so much, but I do. Maybe it's just fascinating to me to see so much greed for money. Or people coming up with crazy crap to make money and become rich. I love to see the sharks fighting over deals. I guess that's the best part of the show. When I miss the show, I end up watching it on Hulu over Sleepy Hollow. I've watched the first two episodes of Sleepy Hollow and they've been pretty good, but I missed two of them because I don't have the time to watch how many shows. I did watch the Bones and Sleepy Hollow crossover and it was great. Loved how the characters all interacted with each other. It was funny and entertaining. The writing was great and I loved the story.
Last off is Supernatural. I actually was interested in the first two episodes and they were pretty funny. I at least got a laugh out of them. The third episode came and when I saw that stupid Rowena, I knew it was going to be boring as hell and it was. I turned my TV off and went to bed before I fell asleep in front of the TV. As for the Baby episode. The only good thing in that episode was Baby. I loved seeing Matt Cohen again. I laughed when Dean turned on the windshield wipers and wiped that head off the window, but that was it. I didn't think this episode was great or anything special. It was not epic. I love how Jared said it was going to be like an episode from ten years ago. It wasn't anything close to that. Castiel was not on the show and I don't know why they felt he needed to be in there, even if it was just his voice. I love how Sam disappeared for how long, probably because Jared needed time off. I guess the writers have thought up some new ways for Jared to get time off and Sam to disappear from the show for a long period of time. I love how fans are going on and on how great Robbie Thompson's writing was for this episode. Any fan could have wrote this stupid episode. All he did was have Sam and Dean in some scenes together saying stupid sappy unbelievable crap and fans think it's the greatest thing ever. The sad thing is, every episode should have some meaningful scene between Sam and Dean. Most of the time when I have watched the show, Sam and Dean act more like co-workers than brothers. Dean acts more like a brother to Castiel and Crowley than he does with Sam. That's what is stupid about the whole show. Also, it feels like when I turn Supernatural on, I never know which show it is going to be. Sometimes it feels like how many different shows. That's probably due to the stupid writers. One other thing before I end this post. It's interesting to me that Jared and Jensen who say they love doing the show so much, have never become producers of their own show, so they can make some decisions for their own characters. Most shows that have gone on for a long time, the actors and actresses usually become producers of. Some even write and direct episodes because they love the show so much. I personally don't think Jared is that invested in the show, nor does he care about his character. Jensen still seems invested because he directs and he is in most of the episodes a whole hell of a lot. I wonder how much time Jensen gets off compared to Jared. Jared probably needs more time off so he doesn't get depressed or something and he wants more time with his wife and kids. One wonders how much Jensen even gets to see his wife and child. It seems Jensen has more action scenes and they probably take longer to film. Jared hardly is even in any action scenes.
Well I'm done for now.

Keane - Crystal Ball

Goo Goo Dolls - Iris (Performed by Taylor Mathews)

Salt Lake Comic Con 2015

I wanted to post this how many days ago, but I've been sick. I loved the Comic Con this year. It was great and I'm glad I went Gold this year. Maybe for Fan X or the next Comic Con, I will get VIP.
There was no long line to stand in waiting to get in this year. I'm so glad we got wristbands and everything in the mail and registered online. I'm happy that the Con was more organized this year.  I think they still need more work, though. The longest line I stood in the whole Con was while I was waiting to get my autograph with Ian. I waited a good three hours in that line and how many people didn't even have a paid autograph and they had sold out online. They should have only let people in the line that had already paid for an autograph. And I waited another almost two hours in the photo op line. That was crazy because they gave a time to show up and a group and when I got over there, you just got in a line. There needed to be more organization. And I found out that people had bought photo ops at the Con. They were sold out online and then they sold more at the Con. It was crazy.
Ian was awesome though and it was worth the wait to meet him. I think he took time with every fan because he is such a great guy. He tried to make personal contact with everyone he met. My sister said he had a lot of positive energy and he did. He sure made me feel good after our picture.
I can say I was one of the lucky people who was able to get into the Chris Evans panel. He was only onstage for about 20 minutes and then Anthony Mackie was on for about a half hour. I sat for about four hours for their panel and then Ian's. I guess the last day was equal sitting and standing.
My sister and I stayed down in Salt Lake at a hotel for two nights. It was nice because we didn't have to waste time driving back and forth or looking for somewhere to park every day.
I loved seeing all the people who dressed up because some costumes were great. Others were not so great, but I hope everyone had fun. I wish I would have been able to look around more in the vendors area, but I got a lot of stuff. I even got me two Constantine comics to read.
Out of all the panels I went to, I think Marina Sirtis was the best. I laughed and she was really entertaining. Linda Blair had an interesting panel and she mostly talked about her charity. I love that how many of the stars at this Con love animals and try to help them.
Well that's about all I have to say. It was a great Con and I'm looking forward to Fan X in March and the next Comic Con. Hopefully, more great actors and actresses will come here so that I can finally meet them in person.