I Don't Get It

I just don't get why people read so much into spoilers. I've said it before and I'll say it again. Spoilers are not to tell what's going to happen, they are to get you excited for the show. Kripke and Co are not giving anything important away in interviews. I still think all that crap about Sam having to atone for things he's done is just crap, but then again, how do we know everything that Sam has done? Most of Sam's storyline was off-screen, so you really don't know all that he did with Ruby. Maybe Sam has more to atone for than we know or maybe Sam just thinks he needs to atone for the things he's done. The main thing Sam would need to atone for is that he didn't have enough faith in God, but seeing how his life has gone, who could blame him for not having a lot of faith or even believing that God could care about him?

Those promos really gave me a good look at how season 5 is going to be. I'm not going to read too much into them because they are tiny little clips and who knows what they're about or what's really going to happen. Take for instance, the episode where we get to see evil Sam. Is that a dream, an alternate reality, an illusion or what. The episode is called "The Douche Of Oz". It sounds like the Wizard Of Oz and that means it could just be Dean dreaming or something like that about Sam being evil. As for Jessica being on, what will she be, a ghost, a spirit, a dream, a hallucination. Who knows at this point, except for Kripke and Co and Jared, Jensen and the rest of the cast?

When I first got my computer and started looking at spoilers, I went a little crazy and then I realized that they don't really spoil at all. Sometimes they are just misleading you into thinking something and then it turns out to be something else. I was scared to start looking at spoilers for season 5, but now I can't wait for new ones. I still have a really good feeling about the show and nothing is going to spoil or ruin that for me.

I'm So Happy Right Now

I'm so happy right now that I could burst. I'm getting more excited as the TV season gets closer. I can't wait for all my shows to come back on. I can't wait for Supernatural and I don't care what happens on it. Sam could turn evil, Dean could turn evil or even Castiel could turn evil and I wouldn't care. Here's a quick thought about Castiel. Who would have more sympathy for Lucifer? Sam or Dean. I don't think so. Castiel is now a fallen angel, what was Lucifer but a fallen angel who thought God didn't care about him. Who knows what will happen on Supernatural now? I'm just hoping season 5 will be fun and full of surprises. I hope the writers got their groove back because I want to see great episodes. From the promos it looks like Sam and Dean are going to be together. When I read that Dean might not be able to look at Sam because of what he did. I think that's bull crap. I think Dean is going to find out how the angels manipulated Sam. When you hear Dean say that they jump started the apocalypse. He didn't say that Sam did. Who knows what will go on, but hopefully it will be good?

I just looked on Amazon and seen that a new Supernatural book is going to be coming out in April called Dark History. I love the other three Supernatural books and I've been reading them again for the fifth or sixth time. I wish there were more books. Someone could write a story that took place in any of the seasons or even before the show started. It would be great to read some books about when Sam and Dean were teenagers and learning to help John on hunts. I'd love that.

My little Sammy will keep me happy no matter what happens. I know I'm crazy loving a computer animated creature, but I can't help it. Also my sweet little Mully will keep me happy. I love her so much. She's a little hellcat, but she's sweet and loving too. Here's another picture of her.

More Pictures Of Little Sammy

Here's some more pics of my little Sammy. I bought Sammy a treadmill so he can run faster in the races. Big Sammy probably runs really fast because his life is always in danger and things are chasing him. Sammy has a couple of stuffed animals and he named his little black ducky Dean. Sammy was lonely and now he can hug Dean whenever he needs to. I got Sammy a bigger fish tank because he's caught a whole ton of fish at the fish pond. Too bad big Sammy doesn't have the time to go fishing, maybe big Sammy would smile more if he could relax every once in a while.

Big Sammy Or Little Sammy

I love big Sammy and I love my little Sammy. They are both just so cute. The only difference is that big Sammy is addicted to demon blood and little Sammy is addicted to chocolate milk. I wish big Sammy was addicted to chocolate milk, too. I wish big Sammy could go fishing sometime, like my little Sammy. Sammy has caught a whole ton of fish, that are now in a tank. Little Sammy can transport himself wherever he wants to, you wonder if big Sammy could too. Seeing as how those demons can move around, big Sammy should be able to. Sure little Sammy is a kitty and he's blue, but both of big and little Sammy have puppy dog eyes that just draw you in and make you love them.

Has Sam Been Replaced For Little Sammy?

I think Sammy is my favorite now. Not Sammy Winchester, either. I love my little blue Sammy in Pet Society more than Sam or Sammy Winchester. I can't go a day without spending time with him. I don't know why, but just looking at that little blue kitty named Sammy makes me so happy. It's kind of scary. How can I love a computer animated creature? I'm crazy, that's how. I've never claimed to be sane.

I love buying clothes for Sammy, taking Sammy to the races, the fishing pond and visiting his friends. I bought him a transporter, so he can visit even more little buddies. He has fourteen close friends that he goes to visit and he loves to kiss his girlfriends.

My little Sammy has made me so happy, that I've been thinking about Supernatural less and less. That's a good thing because if I think too much about Supernatural and what could happen on it, I go even crazier. It's two weeks to go until Supernatural comes back on and in the meantime, I'll be spending that time with little Sammy. If Supernatural is anything like last season, I'll really need little Sammy. If Supernatural is better than last season, than Sam Winchester might take my love away from little Sammy. Doubtful because my little Sammy is cute just like Sam Winchester and I love them both.

Sam And Lilith

Here's a few thoughts I've had about Sam. First off, I think a part of Sam was crying out to Dean and trying to get him to help him. Not a lot of people believe this. I still think Sam left his cell phone for Dean to find. Maybe so Dean would find out he was talking to Ruby and try to stop him. Also when Dean found out why didn't he do anything. He knew Sam was up to something and didn't try to find out what it was. People think Dean didn't change when he went to hell. The old Dean would've watched and followed Sam and found out what he was up to. The old Dean would've never let Sam be with Ruby in any way, especially after Dean found out that Sam slept with her. Sure Dean had his own problems, but if he didn't change from hell, he would've done something. Also, when Sam told Dean to come with him and Ruby. He wanted his big brother with him, but Dean set the conditions and said no way if the skank was coming. I think Sam made sure that Dean would be able to find him in that honeymoon suite. He was probably waiting for him to show up, even though he told Ruby that he was trying to throw Dean off. Dean knew Sam and Sam knew Dean knew what he would do. I still think there was a part of Sam crying out to Dean and Dean just never looked or noticed.

Now about Lilith. A part of me wants to believe that Ruby was Lilith the whole time. Why did we never see Lilith and Ruby at the same time? The writers kept saying Lilith would be in the 5th season, that could have been to throw people off and make them not believe that Lilith dying was the last seal or she could still be alive. Also, why didn't the ground open up right away after Lilith died, it wasn't until Dean stabbed Ruby that the blood started going and the ground opened up. What was the deal with that? Possibly a delay and not what I'm thinking. Maybe there's a part of Lilith inside Sam now. Who knows? I still think Ruby wanted Sam to drink that blood for some reason other than to just trick him. There had to be a purpose to it. I still think the blood somehow made Sam stronger in some way or his powers. It probably made him feel good and he didn't have the headaches. If there is not more to the blood drinking and Lilith and all of that, then that will just be stupid.
Also, demons lie and was Lilith lying to Sam when she said she was going to be killed off at the best part. Why do people keep believing the demons and the angels? They are constantly lying to Sam and Dean. Dean being the one to defeat Lucifer. That could be a big fat lie. Lilith dying to break the last seal. Another lie. Who really knows?

Closer And Closer

The new TV season is getting closer and closer. Only about two weeks to go now. I'm glad that I've decided to stay off message boards for a while. I get crazy and I start to think negatively about Supernatural. I'm more excited now for the new season, since I've stayed away from the message boards and stupid spoilers. Also some of the interviews make me crazy. Like I've said before, they are not going to give the good stuff away. Spoilers are just meant to get you excited for the show, not to reveal anything good. I've just stopped thinking about stuff and I've had fun playing with my little Sammy. I think of Jared's sweet face when I play with him. Even though, they look nothing alike my little Sammy makes me think of Jared playing Sam Winchester.
I can't wait for Tree Hill, even though it looks like a lot of stuff is going to change and it will be strange without Peyton and Lucas on the show.
Smallville has me worried a little because in the last couple of years. Smallville has been better than Supernatural one year and the next Supernatural has been better. Smallville was better last season, so I wonder if Supernatural will be better this season. It still has me pissed off that CW moved Smallville to Friday night.
Gossip Girl has me the least worried because no matter what happens on it, I'll probably love it.
Legend Of The Seeker has me totally waiting. I haven't been thinking about it at all lately. Maybe because the new season doesn't start until November. That is so far away. I hope Supernatural is good and stays good all the way to November, so that Legend doesn't replace it for my obsession show.
I'm just going to keep on doing what I'm doing and the next two weeks should fly by and all my shows, except Legend will be back on. I've been watching America's Got Talent and that has helped. Sometimes I forget that I can watch other channels on my TV.

Love For Sam And Dean

My love for Sam and Dean is strong and after seeing that new promo for season 5, I'm looking forward to the premiere and the new season.

I personally don't get when people are disappointed in Sam and Dean's characters. They are human and they don't know everything. I wish people would take them down off those high pedestals that they have them on or they will crash right down to the ground. Sam is not innocent and the last time that he was, was when he was a baby. I can't stand people telling how they want the old Sam back because he was innocent. Innocent of what? I just don't get it. I love Sam, even if he slept with a demon and drank demon blood. I understand that Sam would do whatever it takes to save people because he's always felt like he can't save anyone. Dean has always had a little darkness to his character and I never stopped loving him, when I found out he tortured souls in hell and liked it. Dean is just Dean. I love him because of who he is, not someone I want him to be. Dean never got a proper childhood and had to grow up too fast, so sometimes he doesn't act as mature because his inner child wants to have the fun, that he never had.
Sam and Dean have changed a lot over the course of the show and I've never stopped loving them. Sure, I really didn't get some stuff about Dean's character, but I never stopped loving him and thinking of him the same way, just like Sam.
Season 4 to me was just a weird season all around and most times, I didn't understand what the writers were trying to do or accomplish. I don't want a mystery show, where I'm constantly trying to guess what's going to happen next. I want a show that I can enjoy each week and get it all in every episode. Maybe a little mystery, action, romance, bromance, horror and whatnot. I have a feeling that the show is going to be a whole lot better in season 5 and I hope it makes more sense than season 4. I'm not going to stop loving Sam and Dean for anything. They both could kill someone, sleep with someone I hate, do something totally out of character or whatever, I'm sure they'll have a good reason for it.

I can't understand the fighting between people who love either Sam or Dean more. I don't want to fight anyway, but I get tired of so many people trying to put Sam down all the time. His character is as great as Dean's and in my opinion, greater. I love Sam and I will tell what I love about his character and what I think his character is doing. I don't think that's tearing down Dean to build up Sam, if I say something good about Sam. It's not tearing down Sam, when someone says something good about Dean and something bad about Sam. Everyone sees the characters how they want to see them and maybe that's the trouble.

I love Sam and Dean for who they are, not what I want them to be. If someone can't love them that way, then they don't love them at all.

Could Dean Turn Evil?

Could Dean possibly turn evil or is he already? I was just thinking about this today. A lot of people would say that it's not possible for Dean to turn evil because they think he's on a mission from God. I don't think God had anything to do with Dean getting out of hell. Like I said before, is Dean still under his contract. How did he get out of it? I doubt Castiel pulled him out and his deal just went away. How do we know that Dean didn't make another deal in hell? Maybe he made a deal with Lilith. I just think of how Dean treated Sam all season long and I don't get it. I could understand Dean being afraid of Sam turning evil by using his powers, but Sam still was the same Sam he's always been, so why didn't Dean want Sam using those powers? Why didn't Dean do anything when he found out that Sam was talking to Ruby again and did Dean sleep like the dead, that he didn't know that Sam was slipping out and doing what he was doing.
I think about when John made the deal for Dean. Who knows what that entailed? It looked like the YED is the one who took over the Reaper and pushed Dean's soul back to his body, who knows what else he did to Dean. Dean said that he didn't feel right. Was all of Dean's anger and agression in season 2 because of the father or something the YED did to him.
Both Sam and Dean have died. Dean was dying in the hospital and we saw what happened with him, but we never saw where Sam went or if he talked to a Reaper. Maybe Sam was able to come back to his body on his own or something else had him go back there.
I just think there is a little possiblity that Dean could turn evil or has evil inside him. He went to hell after all. He tortured and he enjoyed it, so go figure that. There has got to be something inside Dean. Why didn't Dean care about the seals breaking? Maybe that's why Dean was having nightmares, not about what happened in hell, but for the new deal he's made and what could happen. Who knows?
My theories are crazy, but they could be possible. Who knows what Kripke and Co are doing? They could be trying to make us think that Sam is evil or going evil, when it's really Dean. That would be a big surprise, if that did happen because most people would never expect it. People expected Sam to turn evil because Kripke and Co kept leading people on and especially in season 4. They purposely didn't let you know what Sam was doing and when you did find out, they made it look like Sam was dark and evil.
I just love to consider all possiblities. Who knows, the YED could be in Bobby right now for all we know? lol

Fictional Characters Over Real People

Here's why I love fictional characters over some people I know. Fictional characters aren't real, but they make you feel good. They never put you down, they're not mean to you or treat you like dirt. They can't hurt you. The best part about watching my shows is that sometimes I wish I could jump into my TV set and join them. Who cares if Sam and Dean are always in danger? Who cares if Smallville and Metropolis have a lot of crime, they have Superman to protect them? Who cares if the Gossip Girl crowd are rich and you probably wouldn't fit in, they care more about each other than people do in real life? I'd love to live in Tree Hill the most and be friends with that crowd. You're treated like family and they care about and love each other. It would be nice to have that every once in a while.

Here's the thing with real people and I just found out something about a friend or someone I thought was my friend. She basically treats me like a stranger and I guess I am one anymore. I hardly ever see her because she's so busy, but that's not the only reason. She lives with my sister and they've lived together now for over 20 years and I've thought of her as a sister herself. People think my sister and her are lesbians, but they're not. My sister would tell me if she was one. They've just never found anyone and they were best friends and it was cheaper to live together. My sister helped her get a better job, she's had more money and I know she's paid for more in the household. My friend has kids, but my sister never could. My sister wanted children, but she couldn't have any, that's one of the only reasons that my sister stays with her now. Her children. My sister loves them and I love them too. It's hard that this friend treats my sister like a piece of shit after all she's done for her. She's told people that my sister is just a person who lives downstairs in their house, not that she's her best friend and they've been living together for a long time. Here's the thing that got to me. I've been on Facebook and she talked to me like a stranger, not someone she's known for years. That really hurts because it feels like I'm nothing to her now. I still love her and her children and I'll always remember the great times I've spent with her. It just hurts that she doesn't feel the same way about me. She was like family and my sister and that's how I treated her. I guess that's just the way people are.
Most of the time I don't know how anyone in my family feels about me. I hope they love me as much as I love them, but I don't know. We're not a family that shows our love or hugs and says I love you to each other. That's something I rarely have heard in my life or that I've said out loud. Sometimes I love my family and the people so much, that it hurts and I've learned not to hold on too tightly to them because then I'll lose them. I guess I just had to write this, especially about my friend because I doubt we're friends anymore. It sad when you know something is over and maybe you were holding on and hoping, but it was over and you couldn't let go. I guess I've finally let go of her as a friend. Who knows what will happen with her and me or my sister, since she lives with her and I hardly see my sister because she's so busy helping her with her kids and taking care of their house. I just hope she one day appreciates my sister for all she's done for her and her kids.