Supernatural: Exile On Main Street

Why was the title of Supernaturals first episode of season 6 called Exile On Main Street? I didn't even see main street. Does it even matter? Who knows why it was called that, only the writers?
I actually loved watching this episode again. I haven't watched it for months now. I could even gut seeing Lisa and Ben in it. You wish they would have been killed right away and then Dean could have just started hunting with soulless Sam again and everything would have been great. It never turns out how you want it. I loved watching the Campbell's and I really think they were way underused by the writers. I wish we could have seen more of them throughout season 6 instead of all of them being killed and two of them by Sam and Dean themselves. I would rather have watched the Campbell's than Ben and Lisa in more episodes. It's funny, but I didn't mind Lisa and Ben at first until they kept appearing and never went away. By the time Let It Bleed came on, I just wanted them gone already and preferably dead.
One thing that stood out in this episode was Jensen. He was hot looking. I usually look at just Jared, but Jensen was really looking hot. Jared was just great at playing soulless Sam. You knew there was something off about Sam, but you didn't really know what in this episode.
I actually think the writing was pretty darn good if you love a good mystery. I like mysteries, but not that much on Supernatural. I was entertained during all of season 6, so the writers did their jobs as far as I'm concerned.
I loved that neighbor guy and it's too bad he was killed right away. He was better to watch than Lisa and Ben. I still wish Corin Nemec would have been around longer and that all the Campbell's would have been around. It's nice that Sam and Dean never really went to Samuel for help, but when he was dead, they sure used his library. You gotta love that.
I loved seeing Sam driving his very own car. I bet Sam always wanted his own car to drive and who knows if he drove his own car while he was in college or maybe Jess had a car that he drove. I know Sam loves the Impala, but that was Dean and their dad's car and not Sam's. Soulless Sam probably loved driving a faster car and listening to his own music and having the car how he wanted it to be and not how Dean wanted it.
I notice a lot of fans whining about Sam's point of view and what Sam likes and they hardly know Sam at all. Maybe some of them should have watched the episodes where Sam was soulless a little bit more closely. Soulless Sam was Sam and he had all of Sam's thoughts and memories, just not his soul that is his empathy, compassion and love. I was watching and I learned a whole lot about Sam from watching soulless Sam, but most fans just want Sam to be a certain way and that's it. They want Sam to just be sitting next to Dean in the Impala and keeping his mouth shut. And having Dean's back and doing whatever Dean wants instead of Sam going after what he wants. Then Sam should not have sex. I bet Sam has always wanted sex, especially when you saw him watching porn on TV and having erotic dreams about Bela. He just doesn't go out and get it or do what he wants to like Dean did. Soulless Sam went out and had sex with whoever he wanted to. That was a really good indication that soulless Sam had Sam's memories and thoughts. If soulless Sam was like a sociopath, he would not have paid that hooker. He would have just raped and then probably killed her afterward. I love how fans come up with crap like that. Like soulless Sam was just running around killing innocents for kicks and that was it. Soulless Sam was out hunting monsters, demons and whatever because that's what he always did. He just didn't care if some innocent people died while he was killing the monsters. Dean said Sam was acting just like him, so you wonder how many innocents have died because of some of the choices Dean has made hunting in the past.

Oh well! I really enjoyed the repeat of Exile On Main Street. I just wish I had a DVR to record all the episodes so I could watch them whenever I want to. Right now I just have to wait for repeats. It kind of reminds me of the olden days when there were no DVR's or any way to record a show and watch it later. I sometimes miss those days because it was more exciting to wait for the show to come on.

Season Finale Of Supernatural And All My Other Shows

Supernatural's season finale was awesome. I loved each and every minute of it. That is the real finale "The Man Who Knew Too Much". I consider "Let It Bleed" as just episode 21 because it was not the finale, even though they were both shown together. "Let It Bleed" was pretty good and hopefully that's the last we'll see of Dean's other family. That's what I'm going to call them, but who the hell really knows who Dean considers family anymore. The finale was awesome because of Jared's awesome acting. I loved how he had to put himself back together again after Castiel tore down the wall that was protecting him from his memories of Hell and from when he was soulless. I also enjoyed Misha Collins and Mark Sheppard because they were just so wonderful to watch and I could not stop laughing at the line. "Flee or die" It still kills me. I'm hoping that in season 7, we'll get to know more about what happened to Sam in Hell and other things, but I won't hold my breath or hope too much. I always know what will happen. It will be all about poor Dean and how he lost his other family and his best buddy Castiel. I just hope Dean stops using Sam as his emotional and physical punching bag because I'm really getting tired of it. I love how some fans think Dean is such a wonderful and loving brother to Sam. If he was so wonderful and loving, then he would be able to accept all of Sam. He wouldn't tell Sam to shut up all the time or be worried about Sam not having his back. Sam is a grown man and he can make decisions for himself. That's another thing about Dean. He needs to start making decisions for himself and not other people all the time, like he knows what's right for them and they don't. Dean is not right all the time and his self worth is about zero and I for one am tired of it already. Dean's character really needs something right now because I'm getting bored with that same old same old crap. Dean never changes and he hasn't since season 1.

Now on to my other shows. Smallville's series finale was just great and I'm so happy that the show lasted for 10 whole years. I never thought it would go on that long and I loved every season of it. It could have gone on longer as far as I'm concerned because I never got tired of it and the writers always came up with new and interesting stories.
One Tree Hill's finale was heartwarming and I loved it. If it had been the last episode ever, then that would have been okay because they left it in such a good place. It's going to be on for only 13 episodes, but I'll take what I can get. I hope they're as good as the last seasons of the show. It's funny, but I thought I'd never love this show the way I do. When it first started, I never watched it and now I think it's funny because I've been watching it for the last 6 years and loving every minute of it.
Vampire Diarie's finale blew me away with what happened to Stephan and how he saved Damon by doing what he did. Now what's going to happen to him and the other characters. I loved the whole season of this show and it just got better from the first season. I'm hoping the third season is even better.
Gossip Girl's finale surprised me because it was really good. I really haven't cared all that much for the second half of the season. The first half was great when Katie Cassidy was on and I loved it. Then it kind of went downhill for a while, but it ended up being good. I can't wait to see what's going to happen with Chuck and Blair next.
Next Top Model and Celebrity Apprentice's season finales were okay, but I really didn't care who won Top Model and I wish John Rich had not won Apprentice. I think Marlee did a better job and I've never heard of her charity. I've given money to St. Jude's and always will. I'm sure tons of people give to them because they are so well known and it is for a good cause. All those children with cancer and other diseases. It breaks your heart.
Now I'll be watching America's Got Talent when it starts. I hope it's as good as it was last year and the year before. I'm still following Taylor Mathews and hopefully he'll have an album out soon.

Supernatural Fandom

I love Supernaturals fandom and I actually went and posted for a while at the CW boards. I didn't think it would be possible because I've been called how many things on there and attacked by other posters for what I think. I like all the fans on there and not just the ones that agree with me. I like a lot of them that have great ideas, see the characters in different ways and have interesting theories. I don't agree with all of them, but it's nice to know what other fans are thinking and feeling. I just sometimes have to hold back because I sometimes get caught up in their emotions somehow and it makes me crazy.
I think fans are very passionate about what they love. Whether it be, Sam, Dean, Castiel, Bobby or combinations or the whole show. I think all fans want different things from the characters and from the show. The writers can not please all the fans, they try to, but it will never happen.
I've been a sarcastic bitch on there sometimes, but I can't help that. I like to be and I don't expect anyone to understand that. I just get angry and it comes out as sarcasm. I love to make fun of the characters as well. I sometimes laugh and laugh at work thinking about things that the characters have done or could do. It kills me and I love it. There have been posters on there that I've thought of as bitches and they have been at times. I know I'm a bitch at times, but I don't go around and try to tell others how they should think and feel about the characters or the show. They can feel however they want to, but no one should be attacked for feeling and thinking what they want to. I see the show how I want to and the characters.
I do love Sam the most because I love Jared. That's just me. I understand the fans who love Dean more and want more of him. I understand the fans that love the female characters and want to see more of them. I don't like Lisa and Ben and I want them gone, but I do know other fans did like them. There just needs to be more respect for others on there. No one is going to see the show in the same way. Some do and others don't.
I still love Supernatural through all the changes. I think now, the writers have been trying to please fans more than come up with a really good story and one they want. You can't please every fan out there. Not all fans want the same thing.
I think the writers should come up with something and not worry so much about fan reaction to everything. Fans are either going to like the show or not. That's what made the first couple of seasons the best because the writers probably didn't worry so much over pleasing every fan out there.
Not all Supernatural fans are online or on the Internet. Not all fans are obsessed with the show and every detail. There is a big division of fans out there and they will never all be pleased. I hope the writers don't write because of certain fans on the Internet alone and what they want only. Or what fans say at Conventions, like they are the only ones who love the show. I know there are more fans out there that love Jensen and his character Dean. They only want to see Dean and have the show be all about him. A lot of those fans do think Dean is the heart of the show. I think both Sam and Dean are the heart of the show.
I got a little heart and hand to decorate at work for our theme for the year. I put Sam on the heart and Dean on the hand. I wish I could have gotten two hearts, so that I could have put them both on a heart. I would have put Castiel on the hand. They are not big and I had to find small pictures of Sam and Dean to put on them. It's nice to look at them all day at work and think about the show.

I actually love all of Supernatural. I love Sam first of course and then Dean. That's just me. I love all the other characters of the show. Good and evil. Male and Female. Monster, angel, demon or human. They have all made the show wonderful to watch and I still enjoy watching it. I'd like certain things to happen on the show. Mainly more Sam and one episode that is all about his character and no one else. I don't think it's asking too much, but maybe it is. I'd love other stuff to happen to, but most of it will only happen in my thoughts or if I write some fan fic one day. I'm just hoping that season 7 will be more about Sam and Dean again. Not just either or, but about both brothers and the focus will stay on both of them. I don't mind that. I loved season 5 because it felt like that. Like both of them were on the show and had the same amount of story. I still think Jensen and Dean have been focused on, way more than Jared and Sam have. Any fan that tells me otherwise, has never watched the show. I've watched all the episodes countless times over and over for years. I've seen more of Dean's pov, more of him on the screen, more of other characters interacting with him and episodes that Sam is not even hardly in and it's all Dean. No one can tell me the show has been equal between them since the third season. It has not. I joke around and call it The Dean Show, but sometimes that's how it feels to Sam fans and I don't think Dean fans will ever understand that. They get plenty of Dean on the screen and just all the time.
I just had to get this out of my system and thought I'd come and post it here.

What A Week

What a week. I'm very happy that all my shows are new right now. They were all pretty good this week, even Gossip Girl. I'm hoping that Dan shows up again on One Tree Hill for the finale because I want some closure between him and Nathan. I've been waiting for that for a long time now. I have to say that Vampire Diaries topped the list for being my favorite of the week. Supernatural come in at a close second.
I was hoping for a dramatic episode of Supernatural and finally got it, but then it's all about Castiel. I knew the episode would be about him, but I really wish that we'd get a few episodes about Sam that are like this. I'm sick of not seeing Sam's perspective on things and how he feels about everything.
Part of me is happy that there is going to be a season 7 of Supernatural and a part of me that wishes the show would have ended this season. I just hope season 7 will focus a little bit more on Sam's character and less on Castiel and Bobby and even Dean that's been the main focus of the show since it started. Sam and Sam fans deserve something for being loyal to this show for so many years.

Now to Vampire Diaries. I got blown away by what happened with Klaus and Elijah. Two characters were killed and I loved that. And just the way they were killed was so dramatic and heartbreaking. I love how Vamp Diaries had a big baddie in Klaus and he was mysterious and you wondered about him and then they delivered him and you got a big payoff. I wish Supernatural would do something like this instead of trying to make their main characters be mysterious and end up being the big baddie or evil for the season. Vampire Diaries has just used all it's characters and I feel for all of them, even the evil ones or the ones others probably don't like. It's interesting that they can have so many characters, but be able to show their thoughts and feelings and the writers of Supernatural can't show Sam's thoughts and feelings and have more time to do it in. That's how I think the writers are crapping on Sam's character and making other fans actually hate him.

I wanted Supernatural to be paired with Vampire Diaries next season, but now I don't. Who knows how long I'll watch Supernatural next season? If the show keeps making fun of itself and the characters, I might watch just to get a laugh. But if they go a serious route, then they'd better have something good with Sam's character and not just crap. I've enjoyed season 6 because at least it made me laugh. I loved watching soulless Sam with Dean and Jared played the part so well. I loved the Campbell's and wished to see more of them. There have been a lot of good episodes, but the only thing I've wished for was more Sam insight and just more Sam period. Sam gets his soul back and the show focuses more on how Bobby feels about Rufus dying, how Dean feels about Lisa, Ben, Castiel and Bobby, how Castiel feels about everything. What the hell? What about how Sam feels? You seen a little bit at first and then nothing since. Sam who had Lucifer possessing him and you didn't even get to know how he felt about all of that. There was just nothing,except how sorry Sam is for everything his empty body did without a soul for a year. Like Sam should be guilty about everything he did or his body did without his soul. I'm hoping for something in the finale, but I've almost given up hope to see anything.

Now for Stevie Nicks. I just bought her new album In Your Dreams and I love it. I've always loved Stevie and she's my favorite female singer of all time. I love Sarah Brightman as well and many others. I bought Avril's new album and I love her singing and all her albums. I'm glad that I have new music to listen to because I do think of music like a drug. It makes me feel good and I always turn to it when I'm depressed or feeling sad about things.
I was so happy on Friday when I went to work. I wore my Supernatural T-shirt with Sam, Dean, Castiel and Bobby and the day flew by and I couldn't wait to see the episode. It was a great episode and I enjoyed it, but I am getting so tired of Sam not getting episodes like that. It's really starting to wear thin. I went on the message boards because Pet Society was down for maintenance. I think that was a mistake. I thought message boards were for discussing the show and how you felt about it. You shouldn't have to worry about offending everyone on there because you have an opinion or you want to express how you feel about a character. Bashing. What a stupid word? I still don't understand why fans have to whine about someone bashing their favorite character. I've seen all my favorite characters talked about in one way or another and I don't consider it bashing. Fans like who they like and don't like who they don't like. It would be nice to actually find a board that can discuss fictional characters without getting so emotional over them and thinking they are real. Jared and Jensen are real. Misha and all the other actors and actresses are real, but the characters are not. I take offense to anyone saying bad things about them, but characters. Who cares?
I guess I'll just talk to cyberspace about how I feel about things because it's impossible to talk to people.

Bela

My beautiful Bela is wonderful. I just love her so much. I'm glad that I have her with me and she makes me happy. I've been depressed more this year for a lot of different reasons, but right now, I'm happy again.
All my shows are new and they've all been really good with the exception of Gossip Girl. It has gotten kind of boring to watch recently. It's still okay to watch.

I really loved Supernatural's episode Mommy Dearest. It was funny and dramatic and Crowley is back and I love him. Castiel and Crowley. I just love it. It's too good to be true. Castiel has been acting way too mysterious and shady this season to have not been up to something. At the beginning of the season, the writers said that someone close to Sam and Dean would betray them. There were only two people close to Sam and Dean, Castiel and Bobby. I'm still wondering about Bobby, though. Anything could happen at this point. I have a ton of theories about everything, but who knows what is what. I can interpret the show any way that I want to and it's finally making sense to me.

I really loved Smallville. I don't look at the titles very often for the episodes of the other shows. I just enjoy watching them and don't care what their titles are. I just love the content. It was great seeing Zod again. Wow! Is he hot looking. Three hot guys all at once on there is too much. I loved watching Clark and Oliver fighting. That was one of the best scenes that I've ever seen on Smallville in the last ten years. Justin Hartley did a great job directing that episode and he did a great job acting as well. I'm really going to miss Smallville. It could go on for more years and I'd still love it.

Vampire Diaries has the best plot running out of all the shows. I hate to say it, but they also have a ton of hot guys on there. And it's not just about their looks, they are great actors too. I love watching them all. All the characters have a storyline and fit into the main plot. I love watching the mix of male and female characters on there. It's nice. Stephan and Damon act like two brothers in the way that they are more rivals than they are loving brothers. I love that too. I like how they will defend each other one minute and then turn around and fight with each other the next.

I've been trying to read more again. I only get to read a lot on the weekends. I really don't have time on the weekdays because I'm going to work and doing a ton of other things. I love reading and most of the time when I read, it's just like watching a movie in my head. I love it and I can't wait for more Supernatural books to come out. I've read the other ones a ton of times and I'm still reading them over and over. I'm not too excited about the next one that's coming out, but the two after that, look very promising.

Supernatural, Vampire Diaries and My Bela

Frontierland was just one of those fun episodes of Supernatural. It got me thinking about Castiel and I actually love that. I just hope to hell, we find out what the deal is with him in the next couple of episodes. I really think Supernatural has too much mystery right now. There are just too many questions and there have been no answers so far. I loved seeing Sam on a horse and both Sam and Dean wearing those clothes. Dean with that whore or saloon woman or whatever you want to call her, was the best part of the show. I loved the looks on Sam's face, it was priceless. When Dean went to have his drink and it tasted awful and Sam was just drinking his sarsaparilla. I loved all of that. It reminded me of good times between Sam and Dean. I like how they're working together right now and that Dean is actually not believing everything Castiel tells him. I can't wait to see how everything turns out with what's been going on and I hope I'm not disappointed and we finally get some answers and especially about Sam. It's been driving me crazy for years. I like having the freedom to think what I want about who and what Sam is, but I'd like to know anyway.
Vampire Diaries was probably the best episode I've seen on the show so far. I loved it. I love Elijah and we found out more of his history and that his brother is Klaus. I love how Klaus is part werewolf and part vampire. That is cool as hell. I love how Vampire Diaries comes up with stuff like this. The writer's really have good imaginations and come up with some good original stuff. I'm happy that Alaric is himself again and Klaus has his own body again. That was some weird stuff. I love all the witches, werewolves and vampires. Who knows what other supernatural creatures they could end up introducing? I love that we get answers to questions and the plot goes along so smoothly. Vampire Diaries is kind of like how Supernatural used to be. Almost all drama with a little comedy thrown in here and there. Now Supernatural is more of a comedy at times with some drama thrown in for good measure. The characters are so compelling to watch on Vamp Diaries and I love almost all of them. I don't care which ones are on the screen at any given time because they all have something that I love to watch.

Now about my beautiful Bela. I took her to the vet on Monday in the pooring rain to get her spayed. I had to ride the bus with her and so we both got sopping wet and my sister came with me and Bela. We stood out in the rain for over a half hour waiting. I took off from work to go and what happened. I found out that Bela has already been spayed. They found a scar and told me that she had already been spayed. I couldn't believe that I took her out in the pouring rain for no reason. And she got put to sleep and shaved for no reason. She did get a rabies shot, but I doubt she'll be in danger from getting rabies unless I somehow get rabies and bite her. That stupid woman from the shelter called to make sure I had got her spayed and I told her that she had already been spayed. She told me that sometimes that happens. That stupid idiot. I love Bela and I had a horrible dream that I lost her. I don't want to lose her because she's already in my heart and holds a special place there. I know Mully would be happy to know that I'm okay and that I have Bela now. I read those Warrior books by Erin Hunter about the cats that live in the forest and they're warriors. I love them and I think sometimes that my Mully is in Skyclan with all my other cats. She was a little warrior, even though she never fought another cat. She would have fought tooth and nail to protect me, if anyone had tried to hurt me. I know she would have.
I was playing with this snake with Bela and pulling it's tongue out for her to see. You pull the tongue out and it goes back in and vibrates as it's going. Bela watched it for how long and it was really funny because she held the snake down and bit the tongue out and was pulling it. It's the cutest thing. I love watching Bela play. Mully never played for a long time. She was too old for that. Sometimes she half-heartedly played for me and other times she just laid there. I hope I have Bela for almost as long or longer than I had Mully.

Matthew Davis And Vampire Diaries

It's so funny that Matthew Davis is on The Vampire Diaries. I remember first seeing him on Legally Blonde and thinking what a dork he was. His character was a creep, but he was funny too. I'm glad that Matthew is on one of my favorite shows and I can see how great an actor he really is. I loved him as Klaus and I love him as Alaric. It's nice to see the range of acting he has and that he can play two different characters to perfection.
I'm sad that I didn't see the end of the last episode because of stupid technical difficulties. I probably won't see it again until the repeat comes on. I don't have time to watch it on the Internet and it's never really good anyway. It looks like Matthew will be back to being Alaric, but I don't know how. It sucks that I didn't get to see what happened with Bonnie either. I'd go on the message board, but no one ever talks about anything good on there. Mostly it's just people whining about who should be with who. I personally don't care which characters are in love with each other or whatever.
I decided to watch some of the first season episodes of Vampire Diaries today. It's funny to watch how much has changed in not even two years. One of the only humans is Matt on there and now he knows what's going on and told Caroline's mother. I can't wait to see what happens with him and Caroline.

I've decided to try to stay of the message boards again. Who knows how long it will last? When Facebook is slow, I love to go looking and to post how I'm feeling about things on Supernatural. I usually don't go to the other shows boards because they have gotten too crazy. I guess if I just stay in my Hell House, it will be alright, but then you never know. I just love to write about what I'm feeling and what I think about at work. Some of it's crazy as hell and some of it is serious. I guess some people can't tell the difference, but whatever.

I was just thinking about my work and how my employers say that my opinion counts. My opinion counts for absolutely nothing. Now, I don't even say anything at all because I just don't care. I do my job and I try to do it the best that I can. If others don't do their work the way I do mine, then it's their problem. I love how my supervisor and management think that we should all share crap. That I know something and I don't share it with my fellow co-workers, so I look better. That's bullshit. If they want to look good, then they should care about and do their job. I remember once some bitch sleeping at her desk and she had the nerve to tell me that I was making her look bad. She was making herself look bad. It's like people are sheep now a days and just follow each other and they can't have any responsiblity for themselves. It's crazy.

I'm bored tonight I guess and needed to do some typing, like I don't do enough of that at work.

My Heart Will Go On

My heart will certainly go on for both Smallville and Supernatural long after both shows are off the air.

Smallville was great again and the best part was Jonathan Kent. I just love watching John Schneider and I still remember loving him when I was little when he was in The Dukes Of Hazzard. He's still good looking and even more so now. I've always loved his acting and it was great to watch him and Tom Welling together again.

Supernatural was too damn funny and I couldn't stop laughing at certain parts. I just love that Balthazar. He kills me every time he's on. The only weak part of the episode was Bobby and Ellen. I didn't care for any of that at all. It's kind of crazy that Bobby is sad over Rufus' death, but he hardly had any contact with the guy for years. Then we have to see that onscreen, but we never get hardly anything emotional with Sam. I was just thinking about that. Last year, I saw more of Bobby's emotions and everything while he was in the wheelchair and hardly anything with Sam. Sam is the main character and Bobby is a guest star. True, he's been on the show for a long time, but I'd rather see more stuff from Sam. Then this season, one whole episode is all Bobby and now this stuff. I want to see more of Sam's emotions and how he's feeling, not Bobby and I want it onscreen not off. I'm tired of that already. I love Jim Beaver and his character of Bobby, but I want more of Sam's storyline and emotions onscreen. It seems that we never get to see anything with Sam and it drives me crazy. We might get one episode coming up, but that will probably be all. I loved seeing Ellen again, but I'd have rather seen her in some other way instead of being married to Bobby. I didn't like that at all.

I was worried about both the shows being on after what happened during Vampire Diaries. It sucked. I could hardly understand what the characters were saying because the sound sucked and then I missed the last ten or fifteen minutes of the show. I think it was local with my CW and it didn't affect any other state. They were talking about rebroadcasting the episode and Nikita and I was worried they would try to put it on tonight. Then I was worried about whether I'd even hear or see the shows properly. It seems The CW has been having a lot of problems and most of them occur when the shows are new.

I can't wait for next week. Both shows look great and I can't wait to see Sam on a horse. Tom Welling directed Smallville and the week after Justin Hartley directed that episode. I love when the actors and actresses want to do more. It was nice that Jensen Ackles got to direct an episode of Supernatural. It would be nice if he could direct again, if the show has a seventh season. I'm hoping and praying there will be another season and hoping we'll see more Sam and his emotions onscreen after how many years.

Frontierland Episode Can't Come Fast Enough For Me

This pic of Sammy from Frontierland is hot. I can't wait to see this episode. I'm so excited and hopefully it will be on in 12 days. I wish it was coming up on Friday.
I went to post something on The CW message boards and what happened. The same as always. Some bitch got offended because I said something about Sam. Honestly, I can't understand some people. This person thinks I should think the same way as her about Sam. I can think and say whatever the hell I want about Sam. I was going to tell her that her drawings of Sammy were awesome, but I'm sure she'd find something offensive about that. I don't even know why I respond to stupid people who try to tell others how to think and feel. I wish I could have told her what Sam told to Dean in season 1. I have a mind of my own, I'm not pathetic like you. I honestly wonder if some people even have brains at all or they just listen to someone else and believe everything they say.
I'm so getting tired of everyone getting offended by the littlest things. At the place where I work, there was a big fight in my team about bullshit. I've had to listen to gossip and all kinds of crap there for the last 21 years. It's no wonder why I don't talk or even try to make friends there because everyone goes nuts and get offended over nothing. Look at one of my best friends, she got offended by what I said on Facebook to my niece and then what I said to her. It was the truth, but whatever. I'm just tired of everything right now. It's no wonder I love pets as company because they don't get offended and they can't talk and they just love you. People are nuts. I'm tired of trying to talk to brick walls too.
I'm just glad that I can go to my job tomorrow. I knew that there would not be a shutdown. I can think of all my theories and other stuff about Supernatural there and make money doing it.

Today Would Have Been Mully's Seventeenth Birthday

Today was Mully's birthday or it would have been her 17th, if she was still alive. I remember I used to get us a birthday cake together and had both our names put on it to celebrate our birthday's together. Of course, Mully never ate any of the cake. It was just something I liked doing because it was nice that her birthday was a day before mine. I still miss her so much. I listen to that song Into The West from The Lord Of The Rings and think of her. That I'm holding her in my arms and she's just sleeping. I can't stop thinking about her. My one sister said that I should be over her and not be missing her anymore. I'll miss her until the day I die myself. I loved her and no one can understand that, but me. She was my cat and she never let anyone else hold her or love her, but me. I'm sad that she never made it to this birthday and that she won't be here tomorrow for my 42nd Birthday. You never know how long you really have with someone you love, so you'd better make that time count. I spent a whole lot of time with her and I'm glad that I was given that time. My other cats were gone too soon. I hope I have Bela for as long as I had Mully. I'm loving her more every day. It's a different kind of love than what I had for Mully, but she's different and I'm glad I have her now.

I've been watching old episodes of Supernatural from the fourth season. There were a lot of great episodes from that season, one's that I just loved. I never did like the whole apocalypse plot and I think that's why season four is my least favorite and that's the main reason. I love all the stand alone episodes and Wishful Thinking was probably my favorite. Even with everything that was happening with Sam and Dean, season four was still funny and it actually had a lot of everything. Too much mystery at times, but still it was all good. It would have been nice to see Sam and Ruby together more on the screen so that we could see what they were doing. I would have loved that, but it never happened. I guess that's one of the reasons that I was so disappointed about season four. You saw every one of Dean's emotions and everything else and hardly anything of what was happening to Sam. It would have been nice to see more of what Sam was doing on screen instead of making it some mystery and then bringing it up. It was kind of stupid and goofy the way the writer's did a few things. It drove me crazy.

I can't wait for the 15th to come already and for all my shows to come back on. I'm tired of watching repeats and when the new shows are on, it gives me something to look forward to.