Supernatural Made Me Very Happy

I loved Supernatural tonight and I thought it was very well written and I just loved everything about it. Sure, I wouldn't have minded seeing some more Sammy, but overall the episode was very entertaining. I actually started to love and feel for Dean again and I haven't for a long time. I'm sad about Bobby dying, but I hope he's really dead and if he does come back, it's either in a memory or something like that. No character ever really dies on Supernatural. Gramps came back from the dead, so Bobby could as well. The thing is, Gramps wasn't very nice and maybe if Bobby came back from the dead, he wouldn't be the same. I wouldn't want to see that. What's dead should stay dead?
I don't think Sam is okay or I'm hoping that he's not. He just hasn't acted like himself for quite a while now. I know that he'd be telling Dean things that he needs to hear, whether he'd want to hear them or not and he's not saying much to Dean and that's what makes me think he's really not doing so well.
I know some Sam fans are not going to like the episode because there wasn't enough Sam in it. I'm a Sam fan and I was satisfied with what I got of Sam. Sure, there was a whole lot more focus on Dean and his emotions and everything, but when isn't it like that. I've gotten used to it. I actually loved seeing Dean maybe hearing some things he needed to hear from other people. Like he's not the only one that has lost people he loves.
I loved those scenes between him and Krissy. It was nice to see a younger girl hunter. You know they are out there. I think Dean saw a lot of Sam in that Krissy girl. I still think Dean wishes that things could be different for Sam. I think Dean feels like he failed Sam and maybe that's what's wrong with him right now. He's guilty about it. And he probably feels like he failed Sam all along. Dean knew that Sam wanted a normal and safe life and he probably still feels guilty because he had pulled Sam back into that life and Dean didn't want to be alone hunting and wanted Sam with him.
I also totally enjoyed Sam being tied up and bleeding. I never get tired of that. I loved how he antagonized that creature,( I can't remember what it was called)to bite him instead of Krissy's father. That shows you that Sam is always putting others before himself. He'd die to save someone else. He knew that one more bite and Krissy's dad was dead. He only got bitten once, so he knew he wouldn't die.

It would be really interesting if the writers did something I've wished for. I've thought about this and I'd love it. What if everything that has happened so far from the end of Hello Cruel World on, has all been happening in Sam's head? Maybe he's in the hospital or the panic room and everything is taking place in his mind. What if he's trapped inside himself and can't get out? Now that would be a really good twist. I doubt it will happen, but if it did, I'd totally love it. Bobby wouldn't be dead for one thing. Just thinking about some of the things Lucifer told to Sam in the first two episodes makes me think certain things.

I'm happy though and I loved Adventures In Babysitting. I'm going back to work on Monday and I was mad and depressed about it and now I'm okay.

What Bullshit?

I need somewhere to vent and I decided to do it on my blog and I don't care anymore.
I ride the UTA and I'm getting tired of less and less service from them. It started about how many years ago and it's getting worse and worse. I used to ride the bus to work everyday and it was great. The bus only took about 20 minutes to get me to my work and the same coming home. Now I have to ride for 50 minutes in the morning and after work for 1 hour and 1/2 home and use two buses instead of one. That's a waste of how much time. The UTA used to claim they were saving people time and money. They may save some people money, but now they just waste people's time. I used to have three buses that took me to one of our malls and now you ride one bus to a train station, wait for 30 to 50 minutes to ride another one to the mall or the area around the mall. I usually just ride the one bus and walk the rest of the way because it saves me time and I get there quicker than waiting for a bus that may not come.
Now UTA is having less and less service around the holidays. I wonder if the drivers don't want more time off and were complaining about it and they gave them the time. It does not make sense to me that they would not be running on a day when college classes started back up and a Jazz game was tonight. The person who was tweeting said that they decided to not have buses running because it was a low ridership day. Yeah, I hope they tell that to all the people who were waiting to take the train to the Jazz game. Or to the college kids who have no other way to go to school except the bus or trax. Maybe they can tell that to all the people who work jobs that needed to work today because they don't work for the state or federal government.
Twice now, I've had to worry about not getting to work because the bus that takes me to my building doesn't run on certain days. Like the 24th of July, our state holiday which I do not get off. I have to tell my boss and then she doesn't believe me and thinks I should drive my non-existent car to work instead. Like it's my fault that I can't make it to work. When they have days with limited service, it's really limited. I work at 6 in the morning and on those days the bus doesn't start going until after 7. I'd be how late to work because I'd have to take the bus and then walk how many miles the rest of the way. I don't know anyone at work that even works the same shift I do and I should not have to beg them for rides when I should be able to count on public transportation.
I don't know why this made me so angry. I guess because I ride the bus and who knows what they'll do next. Will I even be able to ride the bus to work or even work the job I currently have if they do cut even more service. I used to ride the bus to the library and now I just walk there because it's pointless to take the bus because I still have to walk how far to get there. I guess walking is good for me, but not in the crappy polluted air I have to breathe. I love how the news people tell about riding public transportation to cut the pollution. How can you ride, when they don't run?
I just remember in the past when I rode the bus and I could always count on it and now I can't anymore. It sucks. It's all about employee satisfaction and not customer service everywhere anymore. The people who ride the bus are customers and UTA could care less what their needs are and why they even ride the bus. Maybe they think people ride for the fun of it and not because they need to.
I'm done now and I hope I have this out of my system.

Out With The Old Year And In With The New Year Of 2012

2011 is over and during the past year I had many ups and downs. One of the saddest moments of the year was when my little Mully died and I found her dead in her litter box. I still think of her and I spent many new years with her and I'm very grateful for that. I'm happy that I now have my beautiful Bela and I've almost had her for a year now.
I was depressed quite a few times, but not for long. There were a lot of good things that happened. I went to The Supernatural Convention, my niece's wedding, I got to see my two nephews and spend time with them and I reconnected with some people that I love and really missed a whole lot.
The start of 2011 was kind of rocky, but the end was great and I was very happy.

I'm hoping that in 2012 I'll be able to have more fun and experience some new things. Every year is another opportunity to make your life either better or worse. Mostly it's up to everyone for what kind of year they will have. Sure there are a lot of unexpected things that come up, but that's life. People die, get sick, move away and all kinds of other things, but that is what life is all about. No one will ever have a perfect and wonderful year without some kind of sadness or obstacle to overcome. You just have to hope and try to make every year a great year in any way that you can.

I hope and pray that everyone has a Happy New Year all across the world. I never make New Year resolutions and I'm not going to start now. I'm just going to try and make 2012 one of the best years yet.

Some Old Pic Of Me And New Message Board

I was looking through some old pictures and I decided to take some pictures of my old pictures to put on my blog. I love the pic of me when I was a little girl and I had on my Battlestar Galatica shirt. I used to have two of them. The one I'm wearing in the pic and one with Dirk Benedict as Starbuck. I remember when Dirk Benedict was my honey and I loved him and dreamt about him. I still have one of my old trading cards of Starbuck. I remember it was my most treasured possession and I'd carry it in a blue box with all my other treasures.
The other two pics are of two of my cats. They both disappeared outside. I'm holding Mulder by the tree and the other cat stretching is Kiefer. Kiefer was an indoor cat and I had him for five years. I loved him so much and it hurt when he disappeared. I should never have let him outside. He'd purposely knock things over in the night and I'd never get any sleep for work, so one night I let him outside and he never came back. I never found out what happened to him. Mulder, Scully and Grayla were cats that I had outside. I was going to get them all fixed and their mother Pointer as well and they all ended up disappearing except for Grayla. My sister took her and had her for years before she disappeared from her place. I remember one morning, Mulder and Scully followed me to the bus stop. It's funny because Mulder stopped in the middle of the road and checked for cars before crossing the street. The lady that used to ride the bus with me wondered where they came from and I told her they were mine. I'm surprised they didn't try to get on the bus with me.
I remember all my cats and I loved them all. I'm a cat lover and proud of it. I had my Mully for the longest time and I think I miss her the most. It still hurts sometimes when I think of her and I miss how she used to hug me.

I found a new message board to post on and it looks like it's going to be really fun there. I'm really grateful to the posters that made it from the old boards. They've done a great job with it. I love how many of The CW shows. I'm going to try and watch The Secret Circle marathon to catch up on it. It's only about a week left until Vamp Diaries and Supernatural return. The hiatus for Supernatural wasn't too long and it's been shorter than years past. I saw that after two weeks a repeat will come on. I don't mind because I'd rather have the show come back on for a little bit and then be off for another week instead of waiting longer. There are five months left and only 13 episodes. So they have to space them out a little. I've been watching various episodes from all the seasons while waiting for new episodes to air. My sister went back to Reno again so I have no one to talk to about Supernatural, so I'll be happy to talk and post on the new board. Who knows when I'll go back to work? It could be in a week or next month.

This last week has been kind of crazy again, but hopefully things will settle down again.

Merry Christmas 2011

Merry Christmas to all who come to visit here. May you have peace, joy and love in your lives today and all next year.

This is a very strange Christmas Eve for me because I've mainly spent it alone. That's okay because I remember all the wonderful Christmas Eve's that I've spent with my family. Memories are my greatest treasures in this world. No matter where I am or what I am doing, I always have them with me. Everyone that I have ever loved that is no longer on this Earth is still with me always. They are just one thought away. At Christmas I remember all my family, neighbors and friends of old. Some are dead, some I haven't seen in years, but I still remember them and all the memories of Christmas' that they spent at my house or when I went to visit them.
I still remember being little and watching my Mom put up and decorate our Christmas tree and my Dad putting up the fake fireplace. I loved that fake fireplace and I always wished we could have a real one. My Mom used to make pies, cookies and fudge. She'd play Christmas music on our old turntable and make us hot chocolate. I loved sitting and looking at our Christmas tree.

I still remember going to visit Santa and sitting on his knee and being nervous and trying to remember what I wanted for Christmas. I remember going to the Christmas lights with my Dad and sisters and brother. I remember going to visit all my aunts and uncles and a lot of them are no longer on this Earth. I remember going to church and the big nativity scene out front. I remember the times when Christmas Eve was the longest night of the year. It seemed like the time just dragged and dragged and I never got any sleep because I was too excited. I remember sneaking into our living room and trying to see what Santa left for us, but you couldn't tell because it was so dark in there. I have so many wonderful memories of past Christmas Eve and Days and I thank God for all those times.

I hope and pray for everyone here on this Earth,no matter whether they believe in God or not. They will always be in my prayers. I hope the best for every living thing on this planet and that one day there truly will be peace and love everywhere.

Christmas Zoo Lights 2011

I went to The Zoo Lights last Monday with my two sisters and my niece's two little boys. We had a great time and it wasn't too cold that night. I didn't even wear my gloves like I've had to for the last couple of years. The kids went to visit Santa first and then we looked around the zoo. I just love the bats. I have to see them every time I go because I love them. They are beautiful creatures. I took a ton of pictures of them. It's nice that the Zoo here is finally making some good changes. They're making bigger and better enclosures for the animals. They're working on a new area for the polar bears and it looks like they started working on another new area for some of the other animals. It was very sad to go to the Zoo in the past and see those poor animals in those tiny cages and enclosures. Now, they have a little bit of space to roam in and move around in.

I've been very busy lately and haven't had the time to post these pics. And I've been trying to read more. I can't believe Christmas is almost here and another new year is going to start. It's only two more weeks to Supernatural coming back with new episodes and Vampire Diaries. My other shows will be starting up as well. I hope I'm not called back to work too soon because I hate when I'm called and then there is no work to do. It drives me crazy. I like to know that there is a ton of work and then I want to go to work because I'll be busy. It's only a little over two months to the L.A. Con. I've been going on the Convention site every day to see who is going to be there and hoping none of them cancel. The concert is going to be Louden Swain. I loved seeing them last year and I should have bought their CD. Hopefully I can buy one at this next Con.

I was stupid again and went gambling like an idiot. I didn't lose a lot of money, but I still should not be going. I went to the gambling hole on Tues. and last night. I went Tues. in the day with my Mom and I only lost about 40 bucks. That wasn't too bad. Then I went last night with my Mom and two of my sisters. I lost 80 bucks, but I did have a good time. It was fun riding down on the bus. Plus I got mini tacos and cookies at the buffet. Yummy. I had fun, but I wish that I could have won or come home even. It seems like I can never leave with even a dollar in my pocket. I'm rarely lucky and when I am, I usually throw back the money I've won trying to win more. Now that is crazy.

More Michael Talk And Why Didn't I Buy Six Million Dollar Man

Before I get to Michael talk, here's a pic of my little Jensen from Pet City. He went to see Santa at the store. Santa asked if he was naughty or nice, but I couldn't hear what Jensen said. I think he's been nice, so I bet he'll get a nice Christmas present for being good.
Now on to more crap about Michael and why I still don't think Dean was ever Michael's true vessel. I still don't understand why anyone believes that Dean is Michael's true vessel. I don't care who has told that to Dean on the show. It's just seems interesting to me that Michael only talked to Dean one time and one time only and that was in the past. Or was Dean even talking to Michael or was that all some big setup by Castiel or whoever. If Lucifer could appear to Nick as his dead wife and ask him to be his vessel, then why couldn't Michael come to Dean and ask him directly to be his vessel. What was the whole deal with that crap that Zacariah was the only one that could talk to Dean and he was like the go between. If Dean was truly Michael's one and only vessel, then Michael should have been able to appear to Dean in some form and ask him directly to be his vessel. I don't think it had anything to do with faith either, that Michael couldn't go to Dean. Who really was Zac's boss? It seemed to me that the angels needed Dean to be in that beautiful room before Michael could take him over, but all the other angels could be wherever they wanted to be. Michael is supposed to be the most powerful angel of all and he couldn't even appear to his one and true vessel. That's crap. I still think Castiel and the rest of the angels were all lying to Dean about him being Michael's vessel. They lied about all kinds of crap so why not that. Lucifer appeared to Sam and it's funny that after Sam got back with Dean, Lucifer could not make contact with him again. Maybe Dean and that amulet really protected Sam. Maybe that's what Dean was supposed to be doing all along. Another thing about Michael. If he was truly following God's will, then why would God want there to be an apocalypse. Or are the Supernatural writers saying that Michael rebelled against God's wishes. That makes no sense whatsoever. I still wonder if Castiel is not Michael or if every time we've seen Castiel, he's either been Michael or Castiel. Maybe Michael can appear to Dean and Sam as Castiel or just to Dean. Maybe if Dean is Michael's vessel, then Michael has been talking to Dean, but as Castiel. It would explain why sometimes Castiel was so weak and other times he was more powerful than any other angel. Maybe Michael was testing Dean in some way. Who knows? I don't but I love to think about it.

I was at F.Y.E today and the store is closing and they're having a big sale and stuff is how much percent off. I really wanted to buy The Six Million Dollar Man. I remember how much I just loved to watch it. I loved The Bionic Woman as well, but not as much as the man. I held the DVD set in my hand for how long, but I put it back on the shelf. I wondered if I would still love it as much as I did then. I still love a lot of the shows I used to watch, but I hardly ever watch all the ton of DVD's I have now. I mainly watch all the seasons of Supernatural over and over and there's always a disc in my player. I hardly ever watch any other show. Every once in a while, I'll put in something different. I did watch old episodes of Christy and Legend Of The Seeker. I've also watched some Dawson's and Vampire Diaries. I put it back because I didn't want to spend money on it and then have it sit there and never watch it. And one day there probably won't even be discs anymore, it will all be digital downloads or whatever. Technology is moving so fast. My computer is ancient already and I've only had it for three years. It was probably out of date when I bought it, that's how fast everything goes.

Well, that's all for now.

Supernatural And Death Theory

Okay here's my theory about Death. What if Death is behind everything that has happened on Supernatural? I know a lot of fans think Death is helping Sam and Dean. I don't think he's helped them at all. Death was chained up in hell right along with Lucifer and the other horsemen. Now Death is free to do whatever he wants to. Does he care if The Leviathan destroy the whole planet? When we first saw Death he told Dean that humans meant nothing at all to him and that one day he'd reap God even. Would he care whether every human being was reaped or not? I think Death has been using Dean to further his own goals. It was interesting when Death said in Meet The New Boss that he'd be reaping someone soon. He told the couple not to worry, so there was only Castiel, Bobby, Sam and Dean. Most people probably thought Death meant Castiel, now I wonder if he didn't mean Bobby. I don't think Castiel is dead because he never died with an angel sword and that's supposed to be the only way to kill an angel. I still hope that Bobby is really dead and not in some coma or something. Jim Beaver could still be on the show, but maybe as a memory or a spirit or something like that.
If I think about all the stuff that has happened on Supernatural too much, it drives me crazy because a lot of it does not make sense at all. I try to come up with theories and what not, but most of the time I just try to enjoy the show. The writers it seems just keep plugging along and I think they sometimes forget what they've written in the past. Maybe some of them should go back and watch older episodes or something.
It's funny that Michael is supposedly down in Hell and that's supposed to be a good thing and Death is running around loose when he should be chained up in Hell right along with Lucifer. I still wonder about Michael all the time and I don't think he's in Hell right now. I still wonder if Michael or some of his grace isn't in Sam. I still remember how Lilith tried to kill Sam and so did Samhain and they couldn't. Who or what was protecting Sam and I don't think it was Lucifer or demons? Also, I wonder in Houses Of The Holy if Sam really didn't see an angel and it wasn't just that priest. Usually there is not some bright light that accompanies spirits when they appear. Maybe that priest did know something and was getting instructions from Heaven. It sure is interesting to think about stuff like that.
I've been watching some episodes from season 3 and I do think it's my favorite season of all. There was a lot of good scenes between Sam and Dean and I loved them both so much in that season. I keep watching A Very Supernatural Christmas. That's still one of my favorite all time episodes ever. I could watch it a million times.
I love how some fans went on and on about how Sam has left Dean. How Sam left Dean when he had that broken leg and was so vulnerable. That was a laugh. Dean is a grown man and he cut off his own cast. I loved that. I love how in A Very Supernatural Christmas, young Dean left Sammy by himself in a motel room. Who knows how long Dean was gone and Sam knew nothing about how to defend himself? Then when little Sam was sleeping Dean left him again and went to steal presents. No one brings up that.
Now Sam and Dean are grown men. Sam does not need to be stuck to Dean 24/7. They probably need some time apart or they'd wind up killing each other. I love how Dean always says we when he talks about stuff. We've lost enough. We've been through enough. Who is he talking about? The way he acts is like Sam does not have a brain or a mind of his own or that Sam shares his brain or something. Dean doesn't even know or care what Sam thinks or feels. When does Dean even ask Sam how he feels or what he thinks about anything. Dean just assumes to know everything. That's why I don't like Dean right now. I wish Dean would see Sam as his brother again and not as his problem or someone who should just be there but not have any say in anything. Like Sam should just stand by him and do whatever Dean wants him to. And the way Dean treats Sam like he's stupid and doesn't know anything. Like Dean has to tell him what to do because Sam doesn't know or he's wrong and Dean is right so he tells what's what.
I've been having weird dreams about Supernatural. I dreamt the other night that Jared and Jensen were talking to me and I loved the coat Jensen was wearing but I was too afraid to talk to him. Last night I dreamt that I was at a Supernatural convention on a cruise ship. The funny thing about that is, I never got to see any of the stars from the show. I was doing all kinds of weird things getting ready for the Convention.
I've been trying to read more lately and it's been hard. It seems like the time is just flying by so fast. It seems like the day starts and then I blink my eyes and it's over. I've read some really good books lately and I'm about a third of the way in Modelland. It's a really good book and I may be older, but the main character Tookie reminds me of when I was younger. I am the forgetta girl. I feel like Tookie. I may be an older, fatter, shorter and ugly Tookie, but I'm Tookie.

Before I left the CW message boards I read a few posts and how some posters didn't want to go on Facebook. I love Facebook and I've been on it for years. Sure it's not a message board and it's not like those CW boards, but if you knew some other fans, it wouldn't be bad to get a discussion going on there. I bet some posters do that. I like to leave my comments on the Supernatural page and I love to read other comments. You get a wider audience and shorter answers to how other fans feel about things. I mainly love to play the games on Facebook. I decided to do that instead of posting about the show all the time and fighting with other fans about stuff. I was never trying to make other people feel the same way I did even though I was accused of it. I loved reading different views on certain things instead of all the same old same answers and everyone agreeing with everyone else because they were afraid to say how they really felt about things. Now that the CW boards are gone, I still have Twitter and Facebook. I looked at some message boards and went on the other one that I used to go on and I don't really like how they are set up. It drives me crazy looking at all those pictures and moving pictures and it's hard to read anything between all that crap.
Well this has been long, but I no longer have my quick House to go to. I loved the CW board for that. It was easier to log on and post how fast next to this blog, but oh well.

Supernatural Prediction For The New Year

Okay seeing as there is no more message board at CW to write this crap on, I have to do it in this house. I'm sure I'll be posting more here now when I can.
I was watching the promo for Adventures In Babysitting and I read the synopsis and here's what I think is going to happen.
I think Sam is going to somehow be taken back into the past in episode 11 and then Dean is going to have to go back to get him in episode 12. I bet they are working on a case and Sam gets snatched by whatever they are hunting. I've read how many different spoilers and I wonder if this will happen or not. I'm not very good at predicting episodes, but I love to try. Something could happen like this. I wonder if Bobby is going to be dead or in a coma or something. I just hope that whatever the writers choose to do in regards to Bobby is original and not predictable. I can't wait to see Castiel again and I hope when he comes back that it will be a good return of his character.
I haven't seen any other spoilers yet for the next episodes after 13. There really haven't been a lot. I wonder what episode they are filming right now and do they film in order of episode or do they film different scenes from multiple episodes. I know that a lot of shows that I used to watch would film how many scenes from different episodes and out of order as well. I've read certain things and I wonder exactly how Supernatural does their episodes. I'll never know I guess. It really doesn't matter to me, but it is interesting.
I hope all those posters from the CW site have found new places to post and that they can be happy wherever they post and have a good time. I wish them luck and hope they never stop watching Supernatural. I'd love to post with a few of them and bounce some theories around, but I gave up on that as well a long time ago. Now I just write them down for fun. I do have a new theory about Death but I'm still thinking about it and I'll write it down when I've thought it through some more.

CW Closing Their Message Boards

The CW is closing their message boards tomorrow. I wondered when they would. It seems like more people are posting now that the site is closing then when it was open. I love how some of those posters go on and on about how crappy the CW is, but they watch the shows on the CW. How many of them have wished that Supernatural could be on another network. I haven't because Supernatural would probably not have lasted for as long as it has. I bet if it had started on a big network, it would not have even made it to a whole first season, let alone seven seasons.
I remember how much I used to love to post on that board and I loved debating things and seeing what others thought about stuff. I haven't wanted to post on there in a long time because of certain posters. I got sick of their stupid crap and their Sam vs. Dean bullshit. I especially loved a certain poster who constantly went on and on about crap and attacked other people on the board and then turned around and sniveled when they attacked her or tried to talk to her. Sometimes that board was scary and depressing. It got so negative and how many of the posters literally took over the board and basically thought it was their board and no one else could join in on anything unless it was something they wanted to post about. I'm mainly talking about the Supernatural board on there. I remember when I first started going on those boards and I went to all of them. I had a good time until I had a bunch of mean people tell me all kinds of crap. Maybe that's why they are getting rid of them.
I think there are more people on Facebook, Twitter and other areas around the Internet and they are all talking about the show. You don't have to obsess and talk about anything and everything on the show. Some fans dissect the whole show or they just want some place to snivel about the show.
It's interesting that none of the posters ever really appreciated the fact that they had that board and CW was the ones that supplied it for them. I appreciate The CW and I always will because it has given me my favorite shows now for seven seasons. It gave me Smallville, Vampire Diaries, Gossip Girl, Ringer and One Tree Hill. I've mainly watched the CW and the WB for the last 13 or 14 years and it's my favorite network.
I hate to say that I'm not that sad about those boards being closed. As one poster once pointed out to me, I had no friends on there. I did have no friends on that board. It would have been nice to have made some, but I gave up on that long ago. There were some very nice posters and friendly ones and I appreciate all the ones that came into my threads on there.