Dean Koontz's Frankenstein

Finally the third book of Dean Koontz's Frankenstein is coming out on Tues. I've been waiting for about four years now. I never thought it was ever going to come out. I had almost given up hope waiting for it. This series is Dean's best series and it's like a new twist on an old tale. A more modern day telling of Frankenstein. I'm currently re-reading the other two books, in preparation for the new book. It's been so long since I've read them, I've forgotten some things. I had my two sisters read the first two books and they got pissed off at me because the third one didn't come out. They said how could I let them read a continuing story, unless there was an end to it. I wonder what happened because the three books were supposed to come out, six months apart from each other. I read the first two and waited and waited. Now the third book is finally here. It was kind of like waiting for that fifth Harry book to come out. It's exciting knowing that it's finally going to be here.

I Thought I Was Bad

I thought I was bad, but people out there are worse. I still think people just want to either like Sam or Dean. Can't discuss anything in a certain way because crazy people just want to cry about poor Dean. Dean went to hell and he suffered and "boo hoo" for him. Dean probably loved hell, but who will believe that. Dean was busy torturing souls, but he was suffering so much. He said he loved torturing the souls, but he's not a monster at all. He's just a great guy, like always.

Sam's big revenge kick. Sam wanted revenge on a demon, but that's so horrible. Lilith is evil, but Sam shouldn't go after her and kill her. Maybe, if Dean or the angels would've told Sam that by killing her, he'd break the last seal, maybe Sam wouldn't gone after her. But on the other hand, that's exactly what the angels wanted in the first place. So Sam was so wrong and evil and revenge driven. What do you call the angels? What do you call Dean for just doing nothing the whole time? He didn't even try to find out what was going on. Part of him didn't even give a rat's ass if the apocalypse started or not and I think a part of him didn't really care what happened to Sam.

Let's just demonize Sam and keep going on about the horrible decisions Sam made. Yeah, Sam was on a dark road. He was kept in the dark because he didn't know what Dean was supposed to do or what the angels were doing. He didn't know what the demons were doing, but he made such horrible mistakes because he's an evil rotten monster that doesn't have any morals and is selfish and prideful. Sam wanted all the glory for himself and he wanted to tell Dean, "Hey Dean, I'm the greatest and you're just an asshole. I stopped Lilith, but you're too weak and stupid." Sorry, but I could never picture Sam shoving that in Dean's face. Maybe Sam finally wanted to be able to do something because he's always felt helpless and Dean has always been stronger and in control and seemed to be able to defeat the demons they've fought.

People keep bringing up all the stuff Sam said to Dean under the siren's spell, but they can't say Sam ever told anything to Dean when he wasn't under that spell. He never told Dean that he was weak, but he did tell Dean he was self-righteous and just like Uriel said, Dean should come down off his high horse. If that wasn't pride and arrogance on Dean's part, then I don't know what was. Dean tortured souls in hell and loved it, but Sam using his powers was horrible and evil and wrong. Here's some things Dean said to Sam and Dean wasn't under a spell. " The smarter brother is back". " What's with you and banging monsters?", If I didn't know you, I'd want to hunt you." ( hunt Sam for pulling demons out of people and sending them to hell). Dean told Sam he was a monster and that he wouldn't do anything to stop Lilith or whatever. Tell me Dean wasn't full of pride. Most of the time Dean thinks he's the best hunter, the best lover and the best everything. That's pride.

Sam lied to Dean and went behind his back. Like Dean didn't lie to Sam's face how many times. Dean has kept stuff from Sam and kept Sam in the dark about what Azazel said about Sam not being 100 percent pure Sam. But that's okay, because Dean the chose one can do whatever he wants to.

I'm sick of fighting with people over this because the more people say crap, the more they make me dislike Dean's character. They constantly put down Sam's character to make Dean look great, but say that they're not. What a joke.

Good Or Bad Thing

I'm going to be going back to work and I don't know if that's good or bad in relationship to my obsession with Supernatural. At work, I have too much time to think about things, while I'm typing. My work is mostly repetitive and I have a lot of time to think. I hope I don't just sit there thinking up theories and stuff because for some reason, I just can't stop thinking stuff.

I know I sit and take things out on Dean's character and I mainly do that because Kripke and Co have made his character more in depth than Sam. I want Sam to have as many layers and dimensions as Dean. I want us fans to finally get to know Sam better, not just Dean. It seems like Sam is this big mystery and that's how the writers have portrayed him, just to make people think Sam is either good or evil. I still think Sam is good and I've always thought that, since the show started.

I guess I'll spend less time on The CW board because spoilers are coming out and people are getting kind of crazy at times. It drives me crazy and I don't know why. I don't think spoilers really spoil, they just cause people to talk more and speculate on things. Sometimes it's fun to think what will happen and sometimes not. Kripke and Co aren't going to give anything away, just like they didn't last year.
Mostly people are just writing about what they want to see happen or what they think will happen from little snippets of info. Nothing ever is as it seems.

I like the boards because there are a lot of great people who want to talk and discuss the show and sometimes I really need to do that. It's nice when you can find those people and connect with them. Everyone should be able to discuss what they like to. I try to stay off the boards when I'm depressed or angry and I try to be positive. I'm going to keep the love going for Sammy and for Dean. I love them both and I'm looking forward to season 5. I'm setting my expectations low, though, so I won't be too disappointed and if Kripke and Co surprise me and give me something great, I'll be flying high and be happy.

I've just got to survive another month and a half until the premiere. We'll see from there.

Kripke's Crap

I'm so sick of hearing about Kripke's big five year plan for Supernatural. It's all a load of crap. Kripke didn't even know if the show would last past the first season, let alone five seasons. It seems to me that the show has made less and less sense as it's gone along and Kripke and Co just keeping coming up with more crap.
First the YED had some big plan for Sammy and he told Sam it was for him to lead his demon army. Then we find out it was for Sam to start the apocalypse, which didn't make any sense at all. In season 3, Sam was supposed to turn evil and save Dean from going to hell. That changed and Dean went to hell. I don't think it was that stupid writer's strike that made that happen. Then Dean was going to be in hell for a while before he got out and we were going to see Sam dealing with Dean being gone. That didn't happen because things changed.

Kripke and Co do not have some big five year plan for the show. Lately they've just been writing crap and trying to please people, mainly the fans that love Dean. Like Dean is the only character that fans want to see. Kripke couldn't convince people that Dean had an important part in the show, so he had to create one. Now Dean is supposed to save everyone by defeating Lucifer and what not. Kripke even says who knows if Dean really is the one that will defeat Lucifer and that the demons just think he is the one. Whatever that means.

Kripke and Co are just writing whatever they want right now because they know that people will watch the show, no matter what. Even when the show has been stupid, people still watch it. The writing for the show in season 4 was the worst. There were so many plot holes and questions without answers, that it was sickening. Who knows what anyone was even doing after a while?

Dean seemed to me like he got back from Hell and didn't really care about anything, except for thinking Sam was going down a dark road and turning into a monster. I didn't see Dean trying to stop seals from breaking or to stop the apocalypse from coming. It's like he didn't care what happened. Then I saw him trying to save as many people as he could to make himself feel better for torturing souls in hell. He told Castiel and the angels off, whenever he could and didn't really care what they were doing or what they wanted from him. He treated Sam like he was a freak and a monster and threw him in a panic room without even talking to him.
I realize that Dean got out of hell and was going through stuff, but he acted so weird and you never knew the reason for it. Then Dean is supposed to be the one who broke the first seal and the only one to stop Lucifer and the Apocalypse.

Sam seemed like he was depressed and didn't care about anything, until Dean came back from Hell. Sam wanted revenge on Lilith and was going after her with a vengeance. Who knows why? I doubt it was just for Dean going to hell or maybe it was, but I guess Sam wasn't supposed to be angry that she sent Dean to hell. Sam to me looked like he was the only one trying to do anything. He saw that Dean and the angels weren't doing anything to stop the seals from breaking and he tried to do it himself. It's funny that Ruby used Sam's caring about people against him. Sam never thought he could save anyone and he thought that by stopping Lilith and the seals from breaking, that he would finally be worth something and that he could save people. Sam kept saving Dean's life the whole season and he stood by Dean and treated him like he always did. Sam has lied to Dean before and he's disappeared without telling Dean where he went, so Sam didn't act different. Sam was drinking demon blood, which I thought was a goofy thing to do and crazy that the writers had Sam doing that. Then Sam is the one that breaks the last seal and turns into a monster because he supposedly killed some nurse. Sam thought he was trying to help people, but found out he started the apocalypse.

Then the Angels on the show. Who the hell knew what was going on with them and who knows what the hell they really want? We still don't know. Do they even want the apocalypse to end and Lucifer to go to hell, or do they want Lucifer to be with them. It seems like the angels on Supernatural are not taking orders from God, or that's what it looks like to me. They wanted the apocalypse and made sure that it happened. I still don't get any of that shit and I don't think I want to.

Kripke is just making stuff up and stringing people along. Everyone thinks he is a genius and he's so wonderful. I think his writing for the show sucked big time this season. Heaven And Hell had the most stupid dialogue that I've ever seen on Supernatural, yet. It was probably the worst episode I've ever seen of any of my favorite shows for years. Then Lucifer Rising, was the slowest and most boring season finale, I've ever seen. It plodded along and I'm glad that I didn't fall asleep during it. Nothing made sense on it and it probably won't make sense for the season 5 season premiere.

I read some of that dialogue for the show in TV Guide and it sounded stupid. I hope the rest of the writing is better than that short snippet.

I'm just hoping that Sam doesn't get the short end of the stick this upcoming season, yet again. They say he's going to be dealing with his demon blood addiction, trying to mend his relationship with Dean and redeem himself for trying to save people. I hope that isn't all Sam gets to do. Mope and grovel at the almighty Dean's feet and sit in a corner crying.

As for Dean, why doesn't he have some part in mending the relationship with Sam. He called Sam a monster and thought Sam was turning evil, but why did he think that? Who the hell knows? That's just one of the big mysteries. Then Dean has to save the world and everyone. He broke the first seal, but he's going to save everyone. He was supposed to die long ago, but now he has some big destiny. Tessa told him in "MY Time Of Dying" that the war was over for him, but now he's the main part of the war. Give me a break. The only reason Dean lived was because John sold his soul for him, not God wanted Dean to live.

Who knows what kind of crap Kripke will come up with next, just to please the fans? I can't believe people believe every word that comes out of his mouth, like it's gospel or something. Kripke probably laughs his head off reading and listening to all the stuff people come up with. I think Kripke and Co just want the show to be talked about and not to have good plots that make sense. They just want the show to be some big mystery that people will have to solve. I'm sick of guessing and trying to come up with theories or anything. If Kripke keeps crapping on Supernatural, then I probably end up not watching it anymore. I'm not going to believe a word of what Kripke and Co say is going to happen because who knows what new crap they will come up with.

Shows That I Watched To The End And Shows That Have Bit The Dust

With the new TV season starting here soon, I thought I'd put down all the shows that I've watched to their end and the ones I dumped before they ended.

Here's a list of shows that I watched to the end of their run and loved them.

7th Heaven
Charmed
Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman
Hart To Hart
Simon And Simon
The Love Boat
Trapper John M.D.
M.A.S.H.
The Fall Guy
Alice
Happy Days
Three's Company
Star Trek: The Next Generation
Scarecrow And Mrs. King
Christy
Jack And Bobby

I know that I'm probably forgetting some, but these are a few that I could think of off the top of my head. I love TV and have been watching for a long time. Not all my favorite shows kept entertaining me to the end, but that doesn't mean that I don't love them, it just means that the writers or something made me stop watching them.

Here's some shows that bit the dust before their run was over and I stopped watching them for various reasons.

Buffy The Vampire Slayer
Angel
Roswell
Felicity
Stargate SG.1
E.R.
The O.C.
Dallas
Dynasty
Melrose Place
The X-Files

I'm just hoping that I don't have to add Supernatural to this list and that it will stay in my other list of shows that I watched to the end. Supernatural has become like the X-Files, in that it keeps giving more questions than answers and after a while the show doesn't make any sense. Supernatural is making less and less sense as it has gone along and I'm getting tired of trying to figure out what's going to happen next. I'm sick of all the mystery crap and the questions that never get answered.

My Favorite Characters From My Favorite Shows

Supernatural: Sam Winchester played by Jared Padalecki

Smallville: Clark Kent played by Tom Welling
It would have been Davis Bloome, but he's dead now and he was only on for a season.

One Tree Hill: Dan Scott played by Paul Johansson

Gossip Girl: Chuck Bass played by Ed Westwick

Legend Of The Seeker: Richard Cypher played by Craig Horner

Reaper: The Devil played by Ray Wise
I included Reaper because it was such a good show, even though it was cancelled.

My favorite characters are either heroes or villains, it's just a matter of how you look at them.

Interviews and Spoilers

I'm not going to read to much into spoilers this season because they are a load of crap and are meant to deceive. I think the interviews of Jared, Jensen and Kripke and Co are also meant to deceive us. I don't think they want us to know anything because they want everything to be a big surprise. I just hope the surprises of season 5 are better than the ones in season 4. It's funny when they tell something in an interview and really they've done the total opposite of what they were going to do. Kripke has a crappy sense of humor and I think he's in cahoots with the real devil. lol

All I Own In This World And My Greatest Treasures

I've just been thinking about this and decided to write it down. What do I own in this world? The only thing I really own are my memories and they are my greatest treasures on this Earth.

I'm 40, so I have a whole lot of memories. I see things in my head, like someone watching a video or looks at a picture. Every person, pet, place, song and a whole lot more are stored in my head. People always ask me how I remember all the stuff that I do. I think I remember everything because it is important to me. I remember simple things, but some of those things are greater than any rich man's treasures or possessions.

People I love have died, but they still live on in me. I take those people everywhere that I go and they are with me always. I see their sweet smiles and I hear their voices, sometimes they are angry or something else, but I still love the memories of them.

Some might think I'm crazy, but I've learned a lot over time. When I was younger, I always heard those sayings, like "The Grass Is Not Always Greener On The Other Side Of The Fence" and I thought they were stupid. Now, I believe in how many things.

I believe that there is a God and I believe in Jesus Christ. Why do I believe? When I've been so depressed, that I felt like I was going to die, just from wanting to so much and I didn't think I was loved or worth anything, I felt some one's presence and heard a voice in my head. Some might think I'm crazy, but I believe that was either God or my guardian angel. When my own mind was telling me that I'd never be happy and I'd always be miserable, this voice kept saying, I just had to wait and that I wouldn't be miserable or depressed always.

I thought that no one loved me in this world. I found some one who loves me, and I found out that this person was myself. I had to learn to love myself before I was ever going to be happy. I've been having a great life, since I found myself and started to love myself. That old saying is true, "You Can Never Love Some One, Unless You Love Yourself".

Why am I writing this on here? I writing it here because Jared and Jensen and all my favorite stars, singers, athletes and writers are part of my greatest treasures. Every show that I watch, every movie and TV star that I love, all the singers who sing my favorite songs, all the athletes who inspire me and all the writers who write great books that I read are all a part of what makes me be happy and I carry them around with me too.

My greatest treasures on this Earth are always with me. They are in a place where nothing can destroy them and I trust in God to keep them safe for me. If by some chance, I lost my memory, would I lose everything. No, I would not, I'd just start from scratch and start collecting and loving again.

People take videos and pictures of people they love and places they go to, but do they ever remember the joy of being there. I remember certain trips I've gone on with the people I love, but I don't have a lot of pictures and in some cases, I never took any. I take pictures in my mind and I remember things, just like I'm back on the trip reliving it again. I can picture myself in certain places and I can remember what the weather was like and everything. Maybe some people can't do this and I'm grateful that I can.

Pictures can fade or be destroyed, even electronic ones. Videos can be destroyed and lost and whatnot, but my memories and how I feel about the people I love will never be destroyed or lost or fade away.

Everyone I love on this Earth could die, all the animals I love could die and everything beautiful, but I'd still have those things, no matter what.

New Commandments For Sam Winchester

Here's some new commandments for Sam.

1. Thou shall not have any other Gods, except for Dean Winchester

2. Thou shall not lie to Dean Winchester

3. Thou shall not kill, but only certain creatures and demons

4. Thou shall not have sex with demons, creatures or humans, or anyone Dean wants to have sex with

5. Thou shall not drink demon blood

6. Thou shall not exorcise demons, unless he uses the knife

7. Thou shall not covet any one's normal life

8. Thou shall honor only Dean

9. Thou shall not steal, but only certain things that Dean says are okay to steal

10. Thou shall not take Dean's name in vain

I hope I'm not leaving anything out. It seems like Sam has to bow down to Dean and people think Dean is an angel or getting orders directly from God. Like Dean is on some mission from God and everything he tells Sam is gospel or something.

Funny thing is neither Sam or Dean are on a mission from God. They are both being pawns for the angels and demons. Neither Sam or Dean are above each other and they shouldn't treat each other like that. Both of them have done things and made mistakes. Neither is more righteous than the other. Neither of them should tell the other what to do, like they know right from wrong. No one really knows what God wants, not even angels, or at least, the angels on Supernatural. God does not try to control people, that went out long ago with Christ. When Christ came along, we got free will and we still have it. I still think Sam and Dean do too. Or least, Sam does because he did not sell his soul to a demon. Dean on the other hand, who knows?

One Tree Hill And Why I Love This Show

When I first saw One Tree Hill, I called it One Tree Shit and didn't really watch it. I didn't start noticing how good the show was until the third season. Then, I thought to myself, this is a pretty darn good show. I loved it in season four, then season five came along and I loved it even more and by season six, I totally and completely loved it. I've bought all the seasons on DVD and I can't wait for season six to come out.
One thing about One Tree Hill this last season, it was my new 7th Heaven. I loved 7th Heaven because when I watched the show, I always felt great after, that's what One Tree Hill usually does for me. It is uplifting and it makes you believe that if you work hard enough and believe hard enough, your dreams can really come true. Not a lot of people believe in good things, now a days. You usually have a pretty good say in how your life is working out. If you want a good and happy life, then it will be hard and you'll usually have to work for it. If you want a rotten and unhappy life, then you'll follow your passions and take the easy way, but you'll probably never be happy or get what you dream or want.
One Tree Hill usually has everything that I love in a show. It has love and relationships, villains, fighting, friendships, happy times and great music. Not all the characters of One Tree Hill are related by blood, but they sure do act like they're a family. Sometimes they are closer, than family. It's great to watch and it makes you believe that there is good in this world, not just evil and heartache.
When the show started the characters were teenagers and they've grown over the years into adults. I like how they mostly portray them as responsible adults, not adults that just do whatever they want to satisfy themselves. The characters think about each other and help each other. They've changed and grown, but they don't know everything, but even adults have still a lot to learn. You never get too old to learn new things.
I've always loved the music on One Tree Hill and I love Kate Voegele being on the show as Mia. Now I get to listen to her on the show, previewing her latest album. I love that. I'd really love to hear Bethany Joy Galeotti, sing more on the show. I love her playing Haley.
My second favorite character on Tree Hill has to be Brooke Davis. She is a real kick ass character and I love her. Sophia Bush is one of my favorite female actors, if not my favorite right now. Dan Scott is my favorite character and he usually is the villain of the piece. I love Paul Johansson because he can really make me either laugh or cry with his character.
I loved that I could laugh and cry all season long of season six. There was sadness and there was happiness. I loved all the great things that happened on the show. It's funny that God was never mentioned on Tree Hill, but the show was so uplifting and made you feel that God was there.
Here's another thing. Tree Hill had the creepiest scene that I saw all last season on any of my shows. It was where Sam got into the car with Q's killer and his brother. I was so scared and it didn't help that Jamie was reading that creepy poem.
Well, that why I love Tree Hill and now I call it One Tree Great.