Here I Go Again

I can't believe I said I wasn't excited for Supernatural. It always happens during these long waits for the show. One minute, I don't care if the show comes back on and the next minute, I can't wait for it. I'm totally obsessed still with Supernatural and that's why I go so crazy. I want to love the show, the way it is now and I hope that I can. Sam and Dean have changed a little too much and not in good ways. I'm praying for them to change into the hunters and brothers that I know they have and can be again. I guess I'm just scared about what Supernatural's future is and I'm hoping the show doesn't disappoint me as much as it did in season 4. I really almost stopped watching Supernatural all together because of what was happening. It was the first time in season 4 when another show caught my attention and I almost started to love and obsess about it more. The show was Legend Of The Seeker. I love it and I'm looking forward to the new season. It doesn't start until November, so that is one long wait still. Supernatural had a lot of good episodes in a row after that stupid "Heaven And Hell" episode. That had to be the single worst episode of any show that I've ever watched. I don't ever want to see another episode like it again on Supernatural or one of my favorite shows. The writing for Supernatural in season 4 was all over the place and it basically sucked at times. The best episodes were the stand alone ones.
I'm really not looking forward to buying Supernatural season 4 on DVD. I'll probably only watch about 11 of the episodes. I know there are 3 episodes that I won't even look at again. I just want to forget they were on. That's sad to say about my favorite show. Even during my least favorite season of Smallville, there were not any episodes that I wouldn't watch again.
I guess my mood swings are based on not knowing what's going to happen and if Kripke and Co will turn Supernatural back into the show that I loved and looked forward to watching. I really want to be excited every minute for my favorite show and I want to look forward to each episode. I'm just scared that the show won't be able to go back to being as great to watch as the first three seasons that I loved. I'm trying really hard to be optimistic and give Kripke and Co the chance to prove they can do good with Supernatural, but it's hard.