Wild Theories

I keep thinking up all kinds of theories about the show and I have to stop. Most of my theories are totally off the wall or just flat out crazy. You never know though, when one or two could be right, but I don't even want to think about them. I've thought up something about Sam's role in the apocalypse and Dean's role. I don't think it's going to be anything that people are expecting. I have this feeling that Dean defeating Lucifer will result in something, but I'm not even going to post it here, let alone on any message boards.

One thing I still don't get is why people believe that God wanted Dean saved. If God didn't want Dean to go to hell and he had a purpose for him, he would never have gone. Why do people think Dean is on some mission from God and that God is the one that wanted Dean pulled out of hell? I still think Azazel and the bad angels were working together for a long time. I think they made Castiel and some of the good angels believe that they were going to save Dean, but made sure he broke the seal before they went to try save him from breaking it. I think the bad angels are the ones that wanted Dean out of hell for some purpose and it isn't to defeat Lucifer. Why would the bad angels want their beautiful brother defeated or God back in charge? Uriel told about Lucifer and he was on Zachariah's and the bad angels side.

I think there is so much more to what's happening then people think or I'm hoping there is.

Another thing that I've been thinking about. Dean being a leader. People still think Dean is going to lead heaven's army. I personally don't think so. I think Sam and Dean are going to be the same. I think Dean is going to act more like a leader and not a follower. Dean followed orders from his father for years, no matter what they were. Now Dean is not doing anything anyone wants him to. Maybe Dean is starting to be like Sam. Sam has always went off and done his own thing and not cared what anyone thinks and Dean admired that about Sam. Dean said that Sam stood up to his father and went off on his own. You've seen that change in Dean in season 4. I think Dean will be more mature in his thinking and maybe realize that he doesn't have to protect Sam because he can take care of himself.

My mind has been thinking up all kinds of things and I'll just have to see how everything pans out and if any of my theories are right or not. I'm trying not to read too much into anything because I want to enjoy the show and love watching it all season long. I'll have to keep playing with little Sammy, so I stay happy and positive and just keep on loving Supernatural. Little Sammy helps me turn my brain off for a while and I forget all my goofy and crazy theories. I haven't been going to look what other people think are going to happen either, that could drive me crazier than thinking up my own theories.

More About Little Sammy

Should I be worried about little Sammy seeing a witch and kissing her all the time? I don't think so. I think little Sammy can tell a good witch from a bad witch, not like big Sammy who was kissing a horrible bad witch that made him get addicted to demon blood.
Little Sammy keeps running on his treadmill and drinking his chocolate milk. He has gotten stronger and is starting to win a lot of races. Big Sammy should never have drank demon blood to get strong, all he needed was chocolate milk.
Little Sammy named his teddy bear Bobby. He loves to haul Bobby all over the house and hug him, just like Dean. Hopefully Sammy will get a little Cas to love and hug. Poor big Sammy hasn't gotten to hug anyone lately. I think he needs a big hug and a lot of love. Little Sammy gets tons of love and big Sammy none.

Little Sammy Is Great, But I Can't Wait To See Big Sammy Again

I didn't think I'd be able to put these pictures of little Sammy on my blog. Little Sammy is a great stress reducer and he just makes me feel good. It's kind of like playing a game or something, but not. My family probably thinks I'm crazy and I am and my mother says I should act like an adult. What's wrong with having a little computer pet? Grown men play games and do all kinds of stuff on the net and grown women. I can do whatever I want and especially when it makes me happy and it doesn't hurt anyone.
I'm looking forward to seeing big Sammy again and I can't wait to see what's in store for him. I swear Jared just looked so hot in that promo. I can't wait to see Dean, Castiel and Bobby, too. I just have a good feeling that is not going away. Season 5 is going to be one of the best seasons of Supernatural.

As for little Sammy, he is getting ready for the new season to start. I got him a party hat and he's ready to party. He's going to have a Supernatural party for the premiere. lol

I Don't Get It

I just don't get why people read so much into spoilers. I've said it before and I'll say it again. Spoilers are not to tell what's going to happen, they are to get you excited for the show. Kripke and Co are not giving anything important away in interviews. I still think all that crap about Sam having to atone for things he's done is just crap, but then again, how do we know everything that Sam has done? Most of Sam's storyline was off-screen, so you really don't know all that he did with Ruby. Maybe Sam has more to atone for than we know or maybe Sam just thinks he needs to atone for the things he's done. The main thing Sam would need to atone for is that he didn't have enough faith in God, but seeing how his life has gone, who could blame him for not having a lot of faith or even believing that God could care about him?

Those promos really gave me a good look at how season 5 is going to be. I'm not going to read too much into them because they are tiny little clips and who knows what they're about or what's really going to happen. Take for instance, the episode where we get to see evil Sam. Is that a dream, an alternate reality, an illusion or what. The episode is called "The Douche Of Oz". It sounds like the Wizard Of Oz and that means it could just be Dean dreaming or something like that about Sam being evil. As for Jessica being on, what will she be, a ghost, a spirit, a dream, a hallucination. Who knows at this point, except for Kripke and Co and Jared, Jensen and the rest of the cast?

When I first got my computer and started looking at spoilers, I went a little crazy and then I realized that they don't really spoil at all. Sometimes they are just misleading you into thinking something and then it turns out to be something else. I was scared to start looking at spoilers for season 5, but now I can't wait for new ones. I still have a really good feeling about the show and nothing is going to spoil or ruin that for me.

I'm So Happy Right Now

I'm so happy right now that I could burst. I'm getting more excited as the TV season gets closer. I can't wait for all my shows to come back on. I can't wait for Supernatural and I don't care what happens on it. Sam could turn evil, Dean could turn evil or even Castiel could turn evil and I wouldn't care. Here's a quick thought about Castiel. Who would have more sympathy for Lucifer? Sam or Dean. I don't think so. Castiel is now a fallen angel, what was Lucifer but a fallen angel who thought God didn't care about him. Who knows what will happen on Supernatural now? I'm just hoping season 5 will be fun and full of surprises. I hope the writers got their groove back because I want to see great episodes. From the promos it looks like Sam and Dean are going to be together. When I read that Dean might not be able to look at Sam because of what he did. I think that's bull crap. I think Dean is going to find out how the angels manipulated Sam. When you hear Dean say that they jump started the apocalypse. He didn't say that Sam did. Who knows what will go on, but hopefully it will be good?

I just looked on Amazon and seen that a new Supernatural book is going to be coming out in April called Dark History. I love the other three Supernatural books and I've been reading them again for the fifth or sixth time. I wish there were more books. Someone could write a story that took place in any of the seasons or even before the show started. It would be great to read some books about when Sam and Dean were teenagers and learning to help John on hunts. I'd love that.

My little Sammy will keep me happy no matter what happens. I know I'm crazy loving a computer animated creature, but I can't help it. Also my sweet little Mully will keep me happy. I love her so much. She's a little hellcat, but she's sweet and loving too. Here's another picture of her.

More Pictures Of Little Sammy

Here's some more pics of my little Sammy. I bought Sammy a treadmill so he can run faster in the races. Big Sammy probably runs really fast because his life is always in danger and things are chasing him. Sammy has a couple of stuffed animals and he named his little black ducky Dean. Sammy was lonely and now he can hug Dean whenever he needs to. I got Sammy a bigger fish tank because he's caught a whole ton of fish at the fish pond. Too bad big Sammy doesn't have the time to go fishing, maybe big Sammy would smile more if he could relax every once in a while.

Big Sammy Or Little Sammy

I love big Sammy and I love my little Sammy. They are both just so cute. The only difference is that big Sammy is addicted to demon blood and little Sammy is addicted to chocolate milk. I wish big Sammy was addicted to chocolate milk, too. I wish big Sammy could go fishing sometime, like my little Sammy. Sammy has caught a whole ton of fish, that are now in a tank. Little Sammy can transport himself wherever he wants to, you wonder if big Sammy could too. Seeing as how those demons can move around, big Sammy should be able to. Sure little Sammy is a kitty and he's blue, but both of big and little Sammy have puppy dog eyes that just draw you in and make you love them.

Has Sam Been Replaced For Little Sammy?

I think Sammy is my favorite now. Not Sammy Winchester, either. I love my little blue Sammy in Pet Society more than Sam or Sammy Winchester. I can't go a day without spending time with him. I don't know why, but just looking at that little blue kitty named Sammy makes me so happy. It's kind of scary. How can I love a computer animated creature? I'm crazy, that's how. I've never claimed to be sane.

I love buying clothes for Sammy, taking Sammy to the races, the fishing pond and visiting his friends. I bought him a transporter, so he can visit even more little buddies. He has fourteen close friends that he goes to visit and he loves to kiss his girlfriends.

My little Sammy has made me so happy, that I've been thinking about Supernatural less and less. That's a good thing because if I think too much about Supernatural and what could happen on it, I go even crazier. It's two weeks to go until Supernatural comes back on and in the meantime, I'll be spending that time with little Sammy. If Supernatural is anything like last season, I'll really need little Sammy. If Supernatural is better than last season, than Sam Winchester might take my love away from little Sammy. Doubtful because my little Sammy is cute just like Sam Winchester and I love them both.

Sam And Lilith

Here's a few thoughts I've had about Sam. First off, I think a part of Sam was crying out to Dean and trying to get him to help him. Not a lot of people believe this. I still think Sam left his cell phone for Dean to find. Maybe so Dean would find out he was talking to Ruby and try to stop him. Also when Dean found out why didn't he do anything. He knew Sam was up to something and didn't try to find out what it was. People think Dean didn't change when he went to hell. The old Dean would've watched and followed Sam and found out what he was up to. The old Dean would've never let Sam be with Ruby in any way, especially after Dean found out that Sam slept with her. Sure Dean had his own problems, but if he didn't change from hell, he would've done something. Also, when Sam told Dean to come with him and Ruby. He wanted his big brother with him, but Dean set the conditions and said no way if the skank was coming. I think Sam made sure that Dean would be able to find him in that honeymoon suite. He was probably waiting for him to show up, even though he told Ruby that he was trying to throw Dean off. Dean knew Sam and Sam knew Dean knew what he would do. I still think there was a part of Sam crying out to Dean and Dean just never looked or noticed.

Now about Lilith. A part of me wants to believe that Ruby was Lilith the whole time. Why did we never see Lilith and Ruby at the same time? The writers kept saying Lilith would be in the 5th season, that could have been to throw people off and make them not believe that Lilith dying was the last seal or she could still be alive. Also, why didn't the ground open up right away after Lilith died, it wasn't until Dean stabbed Ruby that the blood started going and the ground opened up. What was the deal with that? Possibly a delay and not what I'm thinking. Maybe there's a part of Lilith inside Sam now. Who knows? I still think Ruby wanted Sam to drink that blood for some reason other than to just trick him. There had to be a purpose to it. I still think the blood somehow made Sam stronger in some way or his powers. It probably made him feel good and he didn't have the headaches. If there is not more to the blood drinking and Lilith and all of that, then that will just be stupid.
Also, demons lie and was Lilith lying to Sam when she said she was going to be killed off at the best part. Why do people keep believing the demons and the angels? They are constantly lying to Sam and Dean. Dean being the one to defeat Lucifer. That could be a big fat lie. Lilith dying to break the last seal. Another lie. Who really knows?

Closer And Closer

The new TV season is getting closer and closer. Only about two weeks to go now. I'm glad that I've decided to stay off message boards for a while. I get crazy and I start to think negatively about Supernatural. I'm more excited now for the new season, since I've stayed away from the message boards and stupid spoilers. Also some of the interviews make me crazy. Like I've said before, they are not going to give the good stuff away. Spoilers are just meant to get you excited for the show, not to reveal anything good. I've just stopped thinking about stuff and I've had fun playing with my little Sammy. I think of Jared's sweet face when I play with him. Even though, they look nothing alike my little Sammy makes me think of Jared playing Sam Winchester.
I can't wait for Tree Hill, even though it looks like a lot of stuff is going to change and it will be strange without Peyton and Lucas on the show.
Smallville has me worried a little because in the last couple of years. Smallville has been better than Supernatural one year and the next Supernatural has been better. Smallville was better last season, so I wonder if Supernatural will be better this season. It still has me pissed off that CW moved Smallville to Friday night.
Gossip Girl has me the least worried because no matter what happens on it, I'll probably love it.
Legend Of The Seeker has me totally waiting. I haven't been thinking about it at all lately. Maybe because the new season doesn't start until November. That is so far away. I hope Supernatural is good and stays good all the way to November, so that Legend doesn't replace it for my obsession show.
I'm just going to keep on doing what I'm doing and the next two weeks should fly by and all my shows, except Legend will be back on. I've been watching America's Got Talent and that has helped. Sometimes I forget that I can watch other channels on my TV.

Love For Sam And Dean

My love for Sam and Dean is strong and after seeing that new promo for season 5, I'm looking forward to the premiere and the new season.

I personally don't get when people are disappointed in Sam and Dean's characters. They are human and they don't know everything. I wish people would take them down off those high pedestals that they have them on or they will crash right down to the ground. Sam is not innocent and the last time that he was, was when he was a baby. I can't stand people telling how they want the old Sam back because he was innocent. Innocent of what? I just don't get it. I love Sam, even if he slept with a demon and drank demon blood. I understand that Sam would do whatever it takes to save people because he's always felt like he can't save anyone. Dean has always had a little darkness to his character and I never stopped loving him, when I found out he tortured souls in hell and liked it. Dean is just Dean. I love him because of who he is, not someone I want him to be. Dean never got a proper childhood and had to grow up too fast, so sometimes he doesn't act as mature because his inner child wants to have the fun, that he never had.
Sam and Dean have changed a lot over the course of the show and I've never stopped loving them. Sure, I really didn't get some stuff about Dean's character, but I never stopped loving him and thinking of him the same way, just like Sam.
Season 4 to me was just a weird season all around and most times, I didn't understand what the writers were trying to do or accomplish. I don't want a mystery show, where I'm constantly trying to guess what's going to happen next. I want a show that I can enjoy each week and get it all in every episode. Maybe a little mystery, action, romance, bromance, horror and whatnot. I have a feeling that the show is going to be a whole lot better in season 5 and I hope it makes more sense than season 4. I'm not going to stop loving Sam and Dean for anything. They both could kill someone, sleep with someone I hate, do something totally out of character or whatever, I'm sure they'll have a good reason for it.

I can't understand the fighting between people who love either Sam or Dean more. I don't want to fight anyway, but I get tired of so many people trying to put Sam down all the time. His character is as great as Dean's and in my opinion, greater. I love Sam and I will tell what I love about his character and what I think his character is doing. I don't think that's tearing down Dean to build up Sam, if I say something good about Sam. It's not tearing down Sam, when someone says something good about Dean and something bad about Sam. Everyone sees the characters how they want to see them and maybe that's the trouble.

I love Sam and Dean for who they are, not what I want them to be. If someone can't love them that way, then they don't love them at all.

Could Dean Turn Evil?

Could Dean possibly turn evil or is he already? I was just thinking about this today. A lot of people would say that it's not possible for Dean to turn evil because they think he's on a mission from God. I don't think God had anything to do with Dean getting out of hell. Like I said before, is Dean still under his contract. How did he get out of it? I doubt Castiel pulled him out and his deal just went away. How do we know that Dean didn't make another deal in hell? Maybe he made a deal with Lilith. I just think of how Dean treated Sam all season long and I don't get it. I could understand Dean being afraid of Sam turning evil by using his powers, but Sam still was the same Sam he's always been, so why didn't Dean want Sam using those powers? Why didn't Dean do anything when he found out that Sam was talking to Ruby again and did Dean sleep like the dead, that he didn't know that Sam was slipping out and doing what he was doing.
I think about when John made the deal for Dean. Who knows what that entailed? It looked like the YED is the one who took over the Reaper and pushed Dean's soul back to his body, who knows what else he did to Dean. Dean said that he didn't feel right. Was all of Dean's anger and agression in season 2 because of the father or something the YED did to him.
Both Sam and Dean have died. Dean was dying in the hospital and we saw what happened with him, but we never saw where Sam went or if he talked to a Reaper. Maybe Sam was able to come back to his body on his own or something else had him go back there.
I just think there is a little possiblity that Dean could turn evil or has evil inside him. He went to hell after all. He tortured and he enjoyed it, so go figure that. There has got to be something inside Dean. Why didn't Dean care about the seals breaking? Maybe that's why Dean was having nightmares, not about what happened in hell, but for the new deal he's made and what could happen. Who knows?
My theories are crazy, but they could be possible. Who knows what Kripke and Co are doing? They could be trying to make us think that Sam is evil or going evil, when it's really Dean. That would be a big surprise, if that did happen because most people would never expect it. People expected Sam to turn evil because Kripke and Co kept leading people on and especially in season 4. They purposely didn't let you know what Sam was doing and when you did find out, they made it look like Sam was dark and evil.
I just love to consider all possiblities. Who knows, the YED could be in Bobby right now for all we know? lol

Fictional Characters Over Real People

Here's why I love fictional characters over some people I know. Fictional characters aren't real, but they make you feel good. They never put you down, they're not mean to you or treat you like dirt. They can't hurt you. The best part about watching my shows is that sometimes I wish I could jump into my TV set and join them. Who cares if Sam and Dean are always in danger? Who cares if Smallville and Metropolis have a lot of crime, they have Superman to protect them? Who cares if the Gossip Girl crowd are rich and you probably wouldn't fit in, they care more about each other than people do in real life? I'd love to live in Tree Hill the most and be friends with that crowd. You're treated like family and they care about and love each other. It would be nice to have that every once in a while.

Here's the thing with real people and I just found out something about a friend or someone I thought was my friend. She basically treats me like a stranger and I guess I am one anymore. I hardly ever see her because she's so busy, but that's not the only reason. She lives with my sister and they've lived together now for over 20 years and I've thought of her as a sister herself. People think my sister and her are lesbians, but they're not. My sister would tell me if she was one. They've just never found anyone and they were best friends and it was cheaper to live together. My sister helped her get a better job, she's had more money and I know she's paid for more in the household. My friend has kids, but my sister never could. My sister wanted children, but she couldn't have any, that's one of the only reasons that my sister stays with her now. Her children. My sister loves them and I love them too. It's hard that this friend treats my sister like a piece of shit after all she's done for her. She's told people that my sister is just a person who lives downstairs in their house, not that she's her best friend and they've been living together for a long time. Here's the thing that got to me. I've been on Facebook and she talked to me like a stranger, not someone she's known for years. That really hurts because it feels like I'm nothing to her now. I still love her and her children and I'll always remember the great times I've spent with her. It just hurts that she doesn't feel the same way about me. She was like family and my sister and that's how I treated her. I guess that's just the way people are.
Most of the time I don't know how anyone in my family feels about me. I hope they love me as much as I love them, but I don't know. We're not a family that shows our love or hugs and says I love you to each other. That's something I rarely have heard in my life or that I've said out loud. Sometimes I love my family and the people so much, that it hurts and I've learned not to hold on too tightly to them because then I'll lose them. I guess I just had to write this, especially about my friend because I doubt we're friends anymore. It sad when you know something is over and maybe you were holding on and hoping, but it was over and you couldn't let go. I guess I've finally let go of her as a friend. Who knows what will happen with her and me or my sister, since she lives with her and I hardly see my sister because she's so busy helping her with her kids and taking care of their house. I just hope she one day appreciates my sister for all she's done for her and her kids.

Enjoying Myself

Here's some great entertainment that I've found while waiting for my shows to come back on. I started on Facebook about a month and a half ago. I'm sure glad that I did. Now I've got about four different farms, little Sammy in Pet Society and I play Mafia Wars and Vampire Wars. It's really fun and I get to connect more with my family and other people. I've got 21 friends and it's great. I've been able to stop obsessing about Supernatural all the time. I've really got to stay off that CW Message Board for a while. Maybe I'll just go on and read some posts and say I love Sammy and Deano for a while or at least, until the show starts up. It will be fun to go on when the show starts because I didn't have a computer last year at this time. I don't know what it's like. If I did have a computer, I probably would've pissed off more people than I did piss off. Who knows what would've happened? My passion and obsession for Supernatural gets me into all kinds of trouble. I just want to enjoy the upcoming weeks until all the shows start back up and I'm busy watching and wondering what's going to happen on all of them. One new show that I think might be interesting is that " The Beautiful Life". It looks good and probably looks better than all the new shows that CW is putting out this upcoming season.

Thoughts On What I Want To See In Season 5 of Supernatural

I didn't even want to think about what I want to see happen because it probably won't and I'll be disappointed. I keep thinking about things and I can't stop.

1. The first and most important thing that I want to see is how Sam and Dean deal with everything that has happened and what both of them have said and done. I want them both to apologize to each other for the things they said, not just Sam. Dean hurt Sam probably as much or more than Sam hurt Dean. I want them slowly to work out there problems. Also it would be interesting to see that that's what Chuck is going to be able to help them with. Maybe he'll be able to tell Sam and Dean how the other was thinking and feeling. Who knows? It would be great to see a scene with Sam talking to Chuck and learning about Dean and then Dean talking to Chuck and learning about Sam. Maybe Chuck will be able to help them the most.

2. Sam's addiction to demon blood. Is it a true addiction or is it something else? How will it affect and alter him and how will he deal with it and how will Dean deal with Sam and his problem? I'd love to see how everything has affected Sam and see how much he agonizes over it because that's usually what Sam does. Sam usually blames himself for everything and he's done it since the first season. He usually blames himself for things that he's had no control over as well as the things he has had control over. I'd love to see a scene where Sam thinks about committing suicide and actually takes some action, but Dean coming to save him or Sam not being able to do it or maybe something else happens and Sam finds out it isn't his time to die.

3. I'd love to see how Dean becomes a better leader and is able to think of a lot of people and not just about saving his family or just Sam. To put others first. Maybe the lives of billions over the cost of one person. Almost like Clark in Smallville when he saved Chloe. Chloe told Clark that she'd have rather died than other people dying and that's probably how Sam would feel on Supernatural. Clark found a way to save Chloe and everyone and I could see Dean trying to too.

4. I want to see more action and less talking, especially boring scenes with guest stars and just I don't know. I want more story and fighting and stuff like that. I love the talking between Sam and Dean and want more of it, so they can get to really know who each other is and to mend their relationship. There doesn't have to be endless monologue, but just short scenes that say it all.

5. I love Castiel, but I really don't want to see him a lot on the show. I don't want his character to become as important as Sam and Dean's or to overshadow either of their characters. I know a lot of people love him and I do too, but I want to see him interacting more with both Sam and Dean, not just Dean all the time with Sam left to be by himself or Sam going to talk to someone and Dean thinking everyone Sam talks to is evil or something.

6. I want to see John and Mary Winchester in an episode together and maybe to be with Sam. Sam never got to know his mother and he never got to resolve anything with his father. It would be nice to see Sam saying everything he wanted to say to John and his mother. I'd really love that.

7. The thing that I want to see the most is Sam and Dean fighting side by side and being together most of the time. Sure they can be with other people because they can't be with each other 24/7, but I want to see more of their relationship issues addressed. I want Dean to be able to help Sam by talking about hell and Sam to be able to help Dean by talking about his demon blood addiction. I really think they can help each other by talking to each other.

If only one thing that I want happens, I'll probably be happy and okay. I'm not going to count on anything and maybe I'm not too excited about the show coming back on because I can still think about what I want to see. When the show comes back on, then it's what Kripke and Co have planned and it might not be what I want or they could surprise me and give me something I love even better than what I wanted to see.

Here I Go Again

I can't believe I said I wasn't excited for Supernatural. It always happens during these long waits for the show. One minute, I don't care if the show comes back on and the next minute, I can't wait for it. I'm totally obsessed still with Supernatural and that's why I go so crazy. I want to love the show, the way it is now and I hope that I can. Sam and Dean have changed a little too much and not in good ways. I'm praying for them to change into the hunters and brothers that I know they have and can be again. I guess I'm just scared about what Supernatural's future is and I'm hoping the show doesn't disappoint me as much as it did in season 4. I really almost stopped watching Supernatural all together because of what was happening. It was the first time in season 4 when another show caught my attention and I almost started to love and obsess about it more. The show was Legend Of The Seeker. I love it and I'm looking forward to the new season. It doesn't start until November, so that is one long wait still. Supernatural had a lot of good episodes in a row after that stupid "Heaven And Hell" episode. That had to be the single worst episode of any show that I've ever watched. I don't ever want to see another episode like it again on Supernatural or one of my favorite shows. The writing for Supernatural in season 4 was all over the place and it basically sucked at times. The best episodes were the stand alone ones.
I'm really not looking forward to buying Supernatural season 4 on DVD. I'll probably only watch about 11 of the episodes. I know there are 3 episodes that I won't even look at again. I just want to forget they were on. That's sad to say about my favorite show. Even during my least favorite season of Smallville, there were not any episodes that I wouldn't watch again.
I guess my mood swings are based on not knowing what's going to happen and if Kripke and Co will turn Supernatural back into the show that I loved and looked forward to watching. I really want to be excited every minute for my favorite show and I want to look forward to each episode. I'm just scared that the show won't be able to go back to being as great to watch as the first three seasons that I loved. I'm trying really hard to be optimistic and give Kripke and Co the chance to prove they can do good with Supernatural, but it's hard.

Armie Hammer

Armie has a weird name, but wow is he hot looking. I loved seeing him in both Gossip Girl and Reaper. I got double the Armie. I loved him more on Gossip Girl, probably because he didn't get killed and sent to hell, like on Reaper. He's my new star to watch and I've got to start finding out what he's going to be in and what he's been on. Right now, I can watch him on my Reaper DVDs. Reaper was so good and I was hoping for another season, so that his character could get out of hell and go after Sam. I would've loved that. He was the perfect son of Satan on the show. He really fit the part. He was a good lying, cheating creep on Gossip Girl, too. It's funny because he looks so sweet and he played evil characters or bad ones.
I saw Armie on the repeat of Gossip Girl and my heart just started pounding really hard. He might make me forget about Jared. He's kind of like Jared because he has those sweet looks, but he can look evil too.

Not Excited For Fifth Season Of Supernatural

I'm not even excited for the upcoming season of Supernatural. I try to make myself get excited, but it doesn't work. It was just like last year. I read what was going to happen and I didn't care. Last season wasn't that great and who knows what's going to happen this season. I'm not too thrilled about the whole apocalypse crap and the angels and shit like that. I'm actually sick of it. I'm sick of trying to guess what's going to happen next. I'm tired of wondering who or what they'll have Sam sleeping with next. Maybe he'll sleep with a vampire and they can suck each other's blood or something. Dean is so pure and sweet now that he's had an angel, who knows what he'll do. He acts like he's morally superior to Sam, which is crap. Dean has less morals, than Sam ever will. Misha as Castiel is great, but what's going to happen with his character. I don't care anymore. This is probably the end of my obsession with the show, but I'll still watch it and like it. I don't know about loving it anymore. I love seasons 1-3 and I always will. I keep reading spoilers and they make me just not want to watch the show at all. I hope I even watch it when it comes back on. Now that Smallville isn't there to be the other half of Thursday night, I'll probably set the DVD recorder for Supernatural and then go to bed early and watch it whenever. I can't wait for Smallville, Gossip Girl and One Tree Hill. I'm more excited for them to come back on. It's sad.

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Sam Witwer

I just love Sam Witwer and I love watching the reruns of Smallville to see him again. I loved him as Davis Bloome and Doom. He played innocent and sweet and had evil lurking inside of him. I loved how they played his part until the end. It's sad that they couldn't have done more with his character. They just turned him into a killer and left it at that. I liked the idea that it was Doom inside him, making him kill, not his human half. I loved him with Chloe, because they had such great chemistry together. I loved to watch their scenes together and I was hoping that Clark could somehow separate Doom from Davis and he'd still be on the show and be together with Chloe. Then they had to have Davis kill Jimmy and make him out to be just a killer after Clark separated them. That sucked.
I just loved seeing Davis in that confessional at the church, telling how he went out searching for evil people to kill and not innocent ones. He saved people, but he killed too. He didn't want to kill anyone and he was fighting what was inside him. I was hoping it was Chloe's love that helped him, but then they just made him out to be an obsessed killer that just wanted Chloe for himself.

On another note. I'd love for Sam on Supernatural to be like Davis. If Sam has something evil inside him, then I'd love to see Sam struggling with it and fighting it. Maybe seeing that Dean is the one person that could keep that evil at bay, or more like love of any kind could keep the evil in Sam from turning him evil.

I'm going to miss Sam Witwer on Smallville, but maybe I'll pay more attention to Tom Welling again. I just totally focused on Sam and could think of nothing else, not Clark or Oliver or any guy on there.

Saints And Sinners and What Makes A Hero?

I was thinking about this all day at work. How many characters and people in real life are labeled either a saint or a sinner? I hate how society sometimes dictates who is good and who is bad and not by what the person does.
Here's some thoughts on some of my favorite characters that would be labeled as sinners.
Davis Bloome: Davis was out killing people. These people were rapists and murderers themselves and they did other terrible things. Sure Davis was wrong to kill them, but on the other hand. How many people did Davis save? How many people weren't raped and killed because he killed those people? Talk about a gray area here. I'm sure Davis would be considered a hero to the people he saved, but then he's bad because he killed those people. What's right and what's wrong? Is it right that murderers sit in jail for their whole lives at our expense and then get executed or die. A lot of them get out to kill again. Look at rapists, most of them get about 5 years and then they go and rape again.

Dan Scott and his brother Keith Scott: Dan is the big sinner because he killed his brother in cold blood. Dan thought his brother tried to kill him and he had good reason to think it, but he found out it was his wife Deb. Did Deb get punished for trying to kill Dan? Not as far as I could see. Keith slept with Deb, so he committed adultery. What's worse killing or adultery? It doesn't say in the bible that one is worse than the other, so who's the sinner and who's the saint. Keith is treated like a saint, even after he's dead. Dan is treated like a sinner and an outcast. Here's where society comes in to play. Adultery is a crime, but there are so many people doing it, no one enforces it. So is it right? I don't think so.
If Dan hadn't done what he did, maybe he wouldn't have been around to save Jamie later. He saved Jamie twice from the psycho nanny. Dan is trying to make amends for what he's done and God is giving him the chance to do it, by not letting him die.

Chuck Bass: My rotten little womanizer and drug user. Is Chuck a saint or a sinner or both? Chuck has hurt other people by what he's done, but mostly he's hurt himself. Chuck has a sweet heart under all his bravado and bull crap. What he's done for Blair at times, makes you want to cry. Also, I think Chuck has been a good big brother to Eric. Chuck has been a hero, but not in the typical sense. He's been a hero in the most subtle ways.

Sam and Dean Winchester: Are either or both of them a saint or a sinner. People think Sam is such a big rotten sinner for sleeping with a demon and drinking demon blood. I don't see anywhere in the bible that says, that's a sin. People sleep with all kinds of people and don't care. Married people and just sleep around and not care who they're sleeping with. So why would God think worse of Sam for sleeping with a demon. Dean has slept with tons of women and just for the sex. He's had threesomes and God only knows what. So is he any better than Sam because he didn't sleep with a demon or a werewolf. Who knows what Dean has slept with? Does he even know. Dean sold his soul to a demon, but he was selfless and noble. Sam went to kill a demon with abilities that are from who knows where? He was selfish and proud. I don't get it. Both Sam and Dean have done some horrible and good things. They've both been heroes and they've both been sinners.

Clark Kent: Poor Clark. I love him and I don't think he's either a saint or a sinner because he's from another planet. What's wonderful about Clark is that he does try to be a better human, than most humans on the planet? He tries to save everyone that he can because he's got these powers and he can use them to help people. On the other hand people and creatures come looking for him and try to kill him and people get hurt or killed in the crossfire. Clark's friend Green Arrow is a human. He's been treading on the side of sinner more than saint, lately. Green Arrow still knows that saving people is the no. 1 priority, though.

So who is a saint and who is a sinner?
I think the word hero has a definition. Someone is only a hero to the person that the hero saved. Who knows how you can be saved? Physically, mentally and emotionally. There's a lot of ways to be saved and who knows who your hero is or how they will save you.

Who's More Stupid, Eric Kripke or Supernatural Fans?

I've just been thinking about who is more stupid. Eric Kripke for coming up with some stupid plots or the Supernatural fans that believe everything he says.

Here's something stupid about Supernatural fans. They think Dean was chosen by God to defeat Lucifer. Who started the apocalypse? Dean supposedly started it, so I guess God wanted it. How stupid is that? Sam is evil or going to be Lucifer's right hand man. So it was really smart of Dean to sell his soul to evil to bring Sam back from the dead. I'm sure God loved him even more for that.

Dean turned away from God when he made that deal for Sam. If Dean had believed in God or that we go to a better place, maybe he would've let Sam stay dead. Dean failed at his job of saving Sam, so he went and sold his soul. I still think that is all Dean sees Sam as. A job, not a little brother. Dean followed his orders from daddy, no matter what.

I guess selling your soul to evil, is so noble and self sacrificing, but Sam drinking demon blood and trying to stop the apocalypse, was selfish and proud. Give me a break.

Sad part is, if Kripke and Co have Dean be some special blah, blah, then the whole show is worth nothing. Dean was supposed to die, how many times. The war was over for him and he was supposed to go with Tessa. If Dean had some greater destiny, then why was he supposed to die at that point.
Also, Dean spent his whole life protecting and taking care of Sammy. So, basically Dean took care of and protected evil all his life, not good. Then Dean is just as evil as Sam for protecting Sam all those years.

Now if Kripke and Co do have a few surprises like I'm hoping, then some of those Supernatural fans are in for one big rude awakening. I'll be jumping for joy, if I find out what I think is going to happen, happens.

Another thing about Sam being evil or having demon blood in him. We use only how much of our brain capacity and some believe that in an earlier time, we used more. Maybe that's where psychic stuff is, in those parts of the brain that most people don't use. God made Sam, so he's all good and if Lucifer made Sam, then I'll believe he's evil and his abilities are evil.
If Sam was so evil, then why was he praying to God for all those years. What was Sam praying for? Hopefully and I'm keeping my fingers crossed, that we'll find out. I doubt that Sam just prayed for himself. I still think Sam prayed for Dean and John to maybe one day, stop hunting and to start being a family with him. Who knows?

A part of me really wants Sam to turn full blown evil and have another good showdown with Dean. I'd really love that because Dean just wouldn't stand a chance, even with Castiel hanging on him. ha, ha, ha.

Azazel's Plot

I think now, that things make sense a little more. I think Azazel was looking for the special child and it was Sam. Here's how Azazel found out that it was Sam. I think in Croatoan he had Sam see that vision, so he would go to the town. They wanted to see if he was immune to the demon virus or whatever it was. Sam did not turn evil. I think that was one of the most important episodes. I now think that in "Born Under A Bad Sign" that Meg's demon, purposely possessed Sam, to see if Dean would kill his own brother. Also, why did the demon have to have that symbol on Sam's arm to stay in him. Maybe that was the only way Sam could ever be possessed. I think the whole demon army stuff was crap. Azazel didn't want anyone to lead his demon army. I think that was all a setup to have Sam killed and for Dean to make a deal, so the demons could get Dean's soul. Papa Winchester was not breaking in hell, so they had to see if Dean would, so he could break the first seal. They needed Sam to break the last, so they didn't want him in hell.
Also where did Sam's soul go when he died. Did the angels who wanted the apocalypse bring Sam back to life? Did Sam have a choice? Why didn't we see Sam with a reaper or anything? I'm hoping that these questions will ever get answered. I also wonder if Sam didn't die. I still think that. Maybe Sam was able to heal himself or choose to go back in his body and heal himself. Or the angels who wanted the apocalypse, healed Sam and brought him back to life. Maybe, Sam was being watched over by an archangel, just like Chuck the prophet was. If they could bring Chuck back to life, who's to say they couldn't bring Sammy back to life too.
Azazel had to have been plotting with the angels who wanted the apocalypse. That's just my theory. I still think Lilith was working with them.

Also I still think Sam is going to be the one who sends Lucifer back to hell. I think Dean is going to have to be willing to sacrifice Sam and let him go and that's how he'll stop the apocalypse. I don't know how Castiel figures into anything, but I'll have to wait and see what goes on.