My Life With Little Sammy, Dean And Jess

Little Sammy bought Dean a guitar of his own and little Dean was so happy. He was rocking out for hours. I told little Sammy that Dean was feeling sad because he was spending so much time with little Jess. Sammy said that was because Jess was feeling bad and he was trying to make her happy. Now, I think they are all happy. Little Dean bought a pumpkin basket for his Halloween treats. My little demons have already been collecting candy around their neighborhood. Sammy has a whole basket of it and has already started to eat it. I have to watch him and make sure he doesn't eat too much or he'll have nightmares and get a tummy ache. I don't want that.

Little Jess is planning a special Halloween party at her house. She has been collecting stuff for it and Sammy and Dean have been helping her. They sent her a bunch of packages with stuff for the party and to help her out. She's going to invite all their friends.

Here's our list of favorite shows for the week ending Oct. 16th, 2009

1. The Vampire Diaries
2. Supernatural
3. Gossip Girl
4. Smallville
5. One Tree Hill

What happened to One Tree Hill? It was my favorite last year. It's still good and I love to watch it, but the other shows beat it. We all loved Vampire Diaries and it had us all on the edge of our seats. Little Jess and I loved watching Damon dancing. I loved seeing some of Damon and Stephan's past. That was great and I hope to see more. Little Sammy told me that he stopped writing a song about Castiel and that he didn't like him anymore. I asked him why and he said that Castiel wanted to kill a kid. I told little Sammy that that kid was half demon and he could be dangerous and that's why Castiel wanted to kill him. We don't know what will happen to that kid and Castiel could have been right in wanting to kill him. Maybe that kid might kill a lot of people. Who knows? Don't be mad at Castiel. Little Sammy told me that he'd start writing the song again.

Poor little Sammy asked me again about the message boards and asked why I was so upset when he saw me posting. He asked if people were being mean to Sam. I told him it didn't have anything to do with Sam and it had more to do with Dean. I told little Sammy that there are a lot of people who love Sam and still love his character and to not worry. Little Sammy asked if people were being mean to Dean. I said people love Dean too. I told him that a lot of people didn't like what Castiel did because they don't understand it. I don't either sometimes. I don't understand a lot of stuff going on and I like to look on message boards to see what people think and to write down what I think. I told little Sammy that I guess I'd have to stop posting because it drives me crazy and people just want to fight. It's so true. Little Sammy asked why people want to fight and I told him I don't know why, maybe they don't have anything else to do or they just want to be mean to someone.

I broke the news to my little demons that Vamp Diaries and Supernatural were not going to be on next week. They took the news okay, especially when I told them that Legend Of The Seeker was coming back on soon. I pulled out the season 1 DVD set I bought and now they're going to have a marathon of Legend. We're all excited about seeing Richard again.

Little Sammy asked why I was at home a lot this week. I told him there was a holiday, I had a day off from work and then I was sick this Friday. I hope I can go to work come Monday and work and not take any more days off. We have a lot to do at my work and it's very busy there and I need to go in every day to get the work out. Little Sammy hugged me and so did little Dean and Jess. They gave me a kiss and said that I'd feel better next week. I know it will be true because they said it would be. Just being with them makes me feel better.

I've Got To Stay Off Message Boards

I swear that I don't know what possessed me to even try to post or talk to people on a message board. People are so close minded, that it's pathetic. Let's all believe one thing and one thing only and that's the only possibility. Eric Kripke is trying to trick people and boy does he succeed at that. People believe every word he says, just like he is God or something. That is so scary and wrong. I love Eric for making Supernatural, but it's sad when people believe everything he says and most of the time he's lying and people are too stupid to know it. Kripke isn't going to tell people everything and he's trying to mislead people into thinking one thing and then he'll do something totally opposite and people will be all surprised. Sorry, but I'm not that stupid. I love to think about all the possibilities and all the different things that could happen.

It's kind of like when Lucifer supposedly came to Sam and told him that he was his vessel. Was that even Lucifer? Everyone thinks it was, but who knows if it was or not. Dean seeing the future. Was that even the future or another trick that Zac was pulling on Dean. Who knows? Maybe Castiel made Sam see Lucifer and then showed Dean some future where Sam becomes Lucifer just to get them back together. Who knows? Is Castiel even on Sam and Dean's side? For all we know he's on Lucifer's side and working for him, not God. I'm not going to believe anything, yet.

I'm also getting so tired of people referring to Sam having an addiction to demon blood. That is just stupid. Sure it was like an addiction, but Sam was addicted to the power he thought he got from it, not the demon blood. Sam wanted the power to save people and help people, not kill and destroy. How people don't get that is way beyond me?

You ask a simple question about Dean and people freak the hell out. I swear it's almost impossible to get a decent conversation or discussion going with anyone. I guess I'd better go back to just saying I love them and forget about plot points because there's not a lot out there who can open their minds to all the possibilities. Some can, but God are they hard to find.

Sam's Power And Sam And Dean Being Vessels

Here's something that I still don't understand. I don't get why a lot of people believe that Sam's powers are demonic, who knows where they come from? I read message boards and I just can't believe some of the stuff I've been reading. Sam did not drink that demon blood for power or because he loved it. Sam did think that the demon blood gave him the power to do what he did. Sam said he missed the feeling he got and what was that feeling. It was saving people. Why does no one get that? The only power that Sam has ever wanted was the power to save people. I still don't believe like most people do, that Sam was addicted to demon blood. Sam was addicted to the power that he thought the demon blood gave him. The power to save people. If the power to save people is evil, then what is good. I just don't get it.

I don't understand why no one thinks that Michael's sword is inside of Sam, not Dean. Dean has never had any power of any kind at all. Why did Azazel have all of Mary's friends and family killed. It seemed to me that he killed them when they tried to reveal stuff to John. These people died throughout how many years. Who knows what they knew about Mary, Sam's birth or anything. Did John find out before he made the deal with Azazel? Maybe John wasn't worried about anything because he knew that Dean would always protect and take care of Sam. Or he was worried about Sam becoming evil and knew that Dean wouldn't let that ever happen. I just don't know. Maybe John found out that Sam had Michael's sword inside of him and that sword can be used for good or evil.

I wonder about that. Why wouldn't the demons want Michael's sword? Maybe they can use it to defeat Michael. In this last episode the demon told Sam that killing him was off limits, but had no problem doing whatever to Dean. If Dean was really a threat to Lucifer, why didn't this demon just kill him? What does Sam really have inside of him and can the demons use it for their gain? Are they trying to make Sam think he's evil, when in fact his power is good. Who knows and I've been thinking about it more and more?

As for Sam and Dean being vessels for Michael and Lucifer. Lucifer told Sam that if he killed himself, that he'd just bring him back to life. How could Lucifer bring Sam back to life, if someone salted and burned his bones. He'd be dead. As for Dean. If he's Michael's vessel, then why don't the angels tell him the same thing. If Dean died, then goodbye to Michael's vessel. It doesn't seem to me that the angels have done a great job of protecting such an important vessel like Dean. Dean could have been killed by Alistair and would the angels have brought him back to life? I personally think Zac and Co have been leading Dean on and making him think he's important, but I could be wrong. I think Zac and Co have been using Dean to further their own purposes along. When Zac kept Dean prisoner in that room and said they were keeping him safe. Safe from what. If he got killed, why wouldn't they be able to bring him back to life? I think they were purposely keeping Dean away from Sam. I think they wanted Sam to start the apocalypse and then they knew he'd feel so guilty about it, that he wouldn't use his powers again and he hasn't. I still think Sam has those powers and they are just inside of him. Just think in season three, Ruby told Sam that his powers were dormant and maybe he could have stopped Dean from going to hell. That would've screwed up the angels and demons plan for the apocalypse. Lilith was going to kill Sam and then she found out she couldn't. Why not? Why didn't any of Lilith's powers work on Sam. Why can't an angel kill a demon, they can only send them to hell? A demon can't kill an angel, they can only send them to heaven. Why could Sam kill a demon like Alistair? Where did Sam get the ability to send demons to hell? Why would that be a demonic power, why wouldn't that be a angelic power?

Like I said before. I still think the power inside of Sam is Michael's sword. Maybe with the combined powers of angels and demons, that's how Sam could kill Alistair and Lilith. Maybe he needed angelic and demonic power both inside of him for it to work. Maybe that's how the gun and the knife work. It seems that no one ever wants to think that Sam had the same power that the gun and the knife have. Maybe that's why Sam needed all the demon blood inside of him and that's why Ruby had him drink it. I think the demon blood kind of boosted the power that Sam already had.

I think there is a part of Sam that is afraid of what's inside him and doesn't understand it. Why does everyone think what's inside Sam is evil, when who knows what it is? There are more questions than answers again. I just hope we find out what some of the answers are.