Who Is The Stronger Brother?

I've been thinking about who's the stronger brother. Is it Sam or Dean? Or are they both strong in different ways. I think Dean has always thought that Sam has been the stronger brother and he still does. Maybe Dean thinks it was weak of Sam to drink the demon blood, but was it?

When Sam and Dean were growing up. Who always stood up to John? Sam did and Dean said that he always admired Sam for that. Dean's loyalty to family could be mistaken for being afraid to stand up to John and to Sam. Dean even told Gabriel that he was afraid to stand up to his family and did Dean say that because he had always been afraid to do the same thing with his. Dean never told John what he wanted or stood up to him and told him that he didn't want to hunt. Maybe Dean did have plans for his own life, but maybe he should have let John know and Sam even. Who's fault is it that Dean never told anyone what he wanted out of life? He didn't have to hunt with John or stay with him. Dean did that on his own out of a sense of loyalty to him.
Sam stood up to John his whole life and let John know that he did not want that kind of life. Sam wanted to go to college and he wanted a safe and normal life and he tried to get it. He defied John, but at least John knew what Sam wanted. Maybe Sam was disloyal to his family and maybe he wasn't. He never wanted revenge on what killed their mother because Sam never even got to know her. He did love her and you could see that in the episode "Home" when he saw her spirit.

John never broke in hell after being tortured for how long, but Dean did. Dean knows that and maybe he feels weak himself because he did give in. I personally don't think Sam thinks Dean is weak because he gave in and started torturing. Sam even said so to Dean. I think Dean's whole problem is that he feels weak himself and he knows that he broke that first seal to set everything in motion for the apocalypse to start and then he couldn't stop Sam from breaking the last seal. Why couldn't Dean stop Sam? Dean didn't know what would break the last seal and he was so afraid of and for Sam that he couldn't see what was happening. Then Sam ended up being possessed by Lucifer and going to Hell and Dean couldn't stop that. Now Sam is back and he seems to be different, but only to Dean. Maybe Dean is wondering why Sam isn't acting the way he did when he got out of hell. Just like Sam said, they both had different experiences and they are both different.

Dean made the deal with the crossroads demon after Sam got stabbed by Jake because he couldn't stand the thought of living without Sam. Sam lost Dean and seen his brother ripped apart and knew he was in hell suffering. Sam drank and didn't care if he lived or died, but he didn't outright try to commit suicide. Sam actually did whatever it took to live. Maybe he trusted Ruby and let her help him, but he did live and kept on living without Dean. Then Sam went to hell for who knows how long and came back and was living a whole year without Dean. Dean was living with Lisa and Ben and thinking Sam was in hell. Dean was drinking and having nightmares, but what was happening to Sam. Was he okay? It seems like he was to me. We don't know anything of what Sam was doing except for Sam saying he was hunting.

I still think Dean thinks of himself being the weaker brother just for the fact that he made the deal and went to hell and broke the first seal. Then Dean told Castiel in "On The Head Of A Pin" that he needed to find someone else besides him to stop the apocalypse because it was too big. Dean would've stopped the apocalypse and it would've been easy. All he had to have done was go with Sam and Ruby and I bet there would have been no apocalypse and the last seal would never have been broken. The angels knew what Dean was going to do and they played on every little weakness they could. They also played on every weakness Sam had and Ruby was the one who helped there. Both Sam and Dean didn't trust in each other enough and I still think Dean didn't trust in Sam enough. Sam begged Dean to go with him and Dean was too stubborn to go with him, just because of Ruby.

On another subject. In "When The Levee Breaks" Sam told Dean that he'll never know who Sam is? I still don't think Dean really knows who Sam is and that's why Dean is worried that Sam is not himself and there's something wrong with him. I wonder if there is something wrong with Sam or if it isn't just all Dean think there's something wrong with Sam. Bobby didn't seem to worried when Dean was talking about how changed Sam was. He seemed kind of bored and sure he had his own problems to worry about at the time, but if he really loved Sam then he'd be just as worried about Sam as Dean is. Dean never saw Sam for a whole year and Sam didn't just get out of hell. He's been hunting for almost the whole time that Dean was with Lisa and Ben. Maybe it's Dean who's been the one that changed and not Sam. Also, I think Castiel would be able to sense a change in Sam and Crowley too. It's mainly just Dean thinking there's something wrong with Sam.

I think that each brother is strong but in their own ways. Sam to me, seemed like he didn't need anyone. He left John and Dean and I'm sure he loved them, but he left them to go live his own life. That takes a lot of courage and strength to strike out on your own and go after what you want. Dean stayed with John and that took strength and courage on Dean's part because he gave up what maybe he wanted in order to help his father. There are how many other ways that both brothers are strong. Sam just drinking demon blood and then having to stay in that room all alone with no one but himself. Dean alone in Hell and being tortured with no one but himself. I don't know why fans have to fight about either Sam or Dean being stronger or weaker. I think most fans just want Dean to be the stronger brother because he's the oldest, but that makes no difference. Sometimes the younger sibling can be stronger than the older one. Everyone has different strengths and you have to play to yours when you find out what they are. Maybe Sam knows what his are, but Dean still doesn't.

Another thing I was thinking about and was angry about while season 4 was on. That stupid saying "Save Dean Save The World". Like only Dean was a hero and could save the world and that Sam was just a piece of crap and couldn't save anything. I hated that. Sam and Dean save people and the world together, not just one or the other. They're both heroes in their own ways and have always been.