John Denver

I've been listening to my John Denver CD's lately because I always feel good when I listen to them. I love John Denver so much because he saved my life and I never even got the chance to thank him for it. I guess some people would think I'm crazy for even saying that. How can someone you've never met, save your life? John Denver's music has been like a drug to me and it's helped me so much. There are certain songs of his that make me feel like John was singing personally to me, even though I know he wasn't. My favorite John Denver song is Looking For Space. It's a song about finding out who you are, but enjoying life while you're doing it. Sometimes you are deep in despair and other times you can fly as high as an eagle. I love that song and the words really helped me when I needed it the most. Another song of John's that I really love is Fly Away because that's how I feel all the time. I'm lonely, but I choose it.
I can never properly put into words how I feel about John. I just know that I wished I could have met him and thanked him for all he did for me. His beautiful songs that helped me and help me still today. I'll have them forever and they are truly his autograph. Who needs his signature, when I can listen to his music and he'll be there and it's like he's still alive or a part of him is. The best part. I think John put the best part of himself into his music and songs and he shared that part of himself with the world. That's a very rare thing. His love for the Earth, family and living are all expressed in his beautiful and timeless songs.
I love John Denver for what he personally has done for me and I always will.

Award For Supernatural

Okay my little Sammy made an award for Supernatural. He says it's the best show on TV today. Maybe it's not an Emmy or People's Choice or anything like that, but it's an award from the heart. Sammy calls it The Catnip Award For The Best TV Show On TV and it goes to Supernatural. Sammy says this award goes to everyone who helps to make Supernatural the best, even the people that are hardly recognized. Everyone and not just Jensen, Jared or the stars. It's for everyone who helps to put Supernatural on the air and for The CW Network because it's the best. Without CW, Supernatural probably would not still be on the air, so he wants to thank them for keeping Supernatural around for six years and counting.

Beautiful Roses

It's nice to stop and smell the roses every once in a while and it's even nicer when they're in your own yard. The roses are finally blooming and they are beautiful. I love when water is on roses and when they are first starting to bloom. I always stop and smell roses when I'm out walking somewhere and I enjoy flowers blooming. It took how long this year for the roses to bloom because it's been so cold and we've finally started to warm up a little. Hopefully it will get hot soon because it will be summer in only how many days. Usually, I've got a window open and I've only opened my window three times so far this year. I'm hoping for some 80's and 90's soon, so I can be warm and feel like a lizard laying on a rock again.

Jared Padalecki Is A Movie Star Already

I love that stupid poll that's going on right now. TV Stars We Want To See Become Movie Stars. Jared is on there and he's already a movie star. He's been in five movies that have been in movie theaters and as far as I'm concerned, that already makes him a movie star. I love how some fans think Jared has become a better actor since he's been on Supernatural and like he's never acted in anything before that or that his acting sucked before Supernatural.
Then that other stupid poll with Jensen. They should just make Jensen the winner because you only know the crazed Jensen fans are going to spend their time in front of their computers voting for him over and over. I'm sorry, but as far as I'm concerned, Jensen is not the King Of Drama. I wish they had a real contest going on and each person got to choose who they wanted and only got to vote once. Jensen would never win.
I love Jensen, but I think there are way more talented actors out there right now. The one thing about Jensen that I find lacking in his acting is his inability to show parts of himself and go all the way. I love that quality in Jared. You can see his very soul when he acts and he gives so much of himself in any role he plays and becomes that character. I'd love to see Jensen play other roles besides Dean Winchester or play a different role on Supernatural. Jensen has played demon Dean, vampire Dean, shape shifter Dean and future Dean. Never a totally different character, only Dean. Jared on the other hand has played various characters and his best was Lucifer. Jared never gets any kind of acknowledgement on the Internet or anywhere except for a few fans giving him an award for his acting. Jared to me is the most under appreciated actor out there right now. He gives great award winning performances on Supernatural, but they are never acknowledged because Jensen always gets the nod for the best performances. For a show that says it's about two brothers and that they are equal and the actors both make the show, Jensen is the one that is always getting acknowledgement for his role as Dean and that he's so great playing the character, but Jared never does. In magazines, polls and whatnot, Jensen's acting is so much better than Jared's. I personally don't see this at all. I think Jared far outshines Jensen, but Jared has less screen time and less focus on his character. Of course, Jensen will always be said to be the better actor because he gets all the storyline and the dialogue while Jared is mostly in the background of most episodes. Sam is the mystery and Dean is the drama and heart of the show and has been since season 4.

I'd love for Jared to be a bigger movie star after Supernatural is over. It would be nice to see him on the big screen again and in a drama not a romance comedy. That's the last thing I'd want to see him in. I'd love for him to be in a serious dramatic role because he does that so well. I loved him in Christmas Cottage and I'd love to see him do more roles like that. Heck, I wouldn't mind if he was on Supernatural less and did another movie role because what does it matter. I'd rather see him being the star of a movie, than like a guest star on a show he's starred in for the last six years and hardly getting to shine because he's always in the shadow of Jensen Ackles to most people. As far as I'm concerned, Jared when he finally gets to act on Supernatural shines like the brightest light and shows what a great actor he really is.

I love Jared not just because he's a great actor but because he makes me feel good and when I watch him act, I'm moved by him. I can see his soul and he just gives me something that no one else can. He makes the world a better place to live in and he shines so bright that you want to stay warm in his light. I still remember getting my photo op with him at the L.A. Con. Words can't even express how I feel about just being that close to him and for one moment standing in that light that is Jared Padalecki.

Daniel Radcliffe Is Not Just Harry Potter

I loved seeing Daniel on the Tony's last night. It was nice to see him dancing and singing. I'd love to see him in a musical or a play. Daniel is not just Harry Potter, but a whole lot more.
I'd love to see more of my favorite actors and actresses in musicals or plays. It's always amazing when I find out that an actor or actress can sing and dance as well as they act. The sad part is, I'm not rich and most of those musicals and plays are only being shown in New York or London or somewhere that I'll never get to. I've been to see Phantom Of The Opera and Les Miserables and that's it. I loved going to both of them and I wish that I could see The Woman In White and Miss Saigon. They have to come to the theatre where I live in order for me to see them. Also, I have no one to go and see them with. I'd have to go alone and I doubt I'm going to wear a dress on a bus going to the city to see one. I don't think I even own a dress that fits me anymore. Or it's so old, it's totally out of style. I bought my last dress about 15-20 years ago.

Now to go back to Daniel. I love him as Harry Potter and he sure does deserve an award for playing the character through 8 movies. That is quite an accomplishment and Daniel has done an excellent job. I doubt he'll ever win or be nominated for an academy award for Harry Potter. The Harry Potter movies are blockbusters and they're usually never considered for awards. Sometimes music and special effects, but that's about it. The acting in them has been the best reason I go and see them.

I'm taking a break from the CW board because it's gotten very boring on there. Snivelers sniveling about Castiel. Most of the Castiel haters probably really love him because they sure do talk about him a lot. So they must think of him a lot. Then Jared's a twit on twitter now and of course how many fans are following his twitterings. I'm one of those fans because I've been following him, but I don't expect him to tweet all day long about everything. I'm sure the non-spoilers will start to come out soon and fans will get nutty over those. Maybe things will pick up in a month or two on there, but for now I'm going to occupy myself with other things. I may post every once in a while and that's it. I've found some other fun and exciting places on the Internet to go to.

Castiel And Who's Good Or Bad

I love how Castiel is now considered a bad guy or evil all of a sudden. Why is that? Because he did something the great and wonderful Dean Winchester did not like. I guess Castiel was supposed to have Dean tell him what to do about the war in Heaven and not do anything himself. It doesn't matter if Dean really gives a shit what happens in Heaven or not. Dean who only cares about who he considers family at any given time is the only one that anyone should listen to because he's the only character on Supernatural that knows right from wrong. No other character does. Sam is just stupid and evil all the time. He has no moral compass, even when he has his soul inside his body. Sam was the bad guy in season four because he wanted to kill a demon. A demon who had his brother killed and sent to hell to be tortured. But Sam was not supposed to try and get revenge, he was probably supposed to send Lilith a fruit basket or something. Maybe he should have told her he loved her and hugged her for sending Dean to hell. Sam and Dean were trained by John to kill the Supernatural and demons fall into that category. I just don't get that when Sam wanted to kill Lilith, everyone thought he was evil for doing it. Evil for wanting to kill a demon. Sam never knew she was the last seal at the time, if he had known, then he would never have tried to kill her.
It seems to me, that Dean tells who is a good guy or a bad guy at any given time. The Trickster/Gabriel is now a good guy because he helped them once, but let's forget how he killed people and all the crap he put Sam and Dean through, especially Sam.
Death is a good guy now because he restored Sam's soul, but who really knows why he did that. I doubt he's really going to tell Dean everything and let him in on anything when he considers all humans as nothing. Death who brought how many people's loved ones back to life including Bobby's wife and then Bobby had to kill her. I guess Death is the good horseman and all the others were the bad horsemen. Give me a break.
Balthazar became a good guy because he helped Sam and Dean for two seconds, but he was busy buying peoples souls and doing who knows what. He helped Castiel to obtain weapons from Heaven, but he's the good guy in the end and everyone should feel sorry for him because Castiel killed him.
Crowley. I love him and he can really make Dean look like the biggest idiot in the world. Probably because he can read Dean's mind. Oh, but I forget. Demons can't read minds and neither can angels, even though it's been mentioned how many times on the show that they can. Crowley was the good guy and Dean trusted him in season 5, but then later didn't and he became the bad guy again. Dean can work with a demon, but heaven forbid if Sam and Castiel works with one.
I just love how characters turn from bad to good or from good to bad according to what Dean thinks about them. If Dean likes them, then they're the good guys, if Dean doesn't like them, then they're the bad guys. It's like Dean thinks he's God or something and he rules the planet, hell and heaven.

Now Castiel is all of a sudden some horrible and evil being that's going to try and kill Sam, Dean and Bobby and for what reason? I still don't get it. Where do some fans get those stupid names for Castiel like Godstiel. That is so stupid. It's about as stupid as some calling that amulet of Dean's the Samulet. God, I hate that crap.
I'm a fan of the show and I love it, but I will not use stupid crap other fans think up. I really hated that RoboSam crap. Sam with his soul has been more like a robot doing whatever Dean tells him to do, than Sam was without his soul. At least soulless Sam got to use his brain and thought up strategies and plans to kill monsters, plus he got to have sex and a life other than following Dean around.
It seems that all Sam can do on the show now is follow Dean and do everything he tells him to do. I hope the old Sam returns and starts telling Dean off again and standing up to him. Dean is not right all the time and I want Sam to knock him off his high horse every once in a while. I hope Castiel knocks Dean of his high horse when season 7 starts and makes Dean realize that he's not the be all of the universe.

Hogle Zoo

I had a great time going to Hogle Zoo with my two nephews, two of my sisters and my nephews girlfriend. I will treasure this day always. I went on Tuesday and it was a really nice and sunny day just like when I went to the Lagoon. I'm glad that there has been two nice days in the last week. Now there's more rain and cooler weather. I wonder if this year isn't going to be like a few years back when it was cooler and the summer ended very fast.
A lot of people take their lives, their days, minutes, hours and people they love for granted. I try not to take anything for granted anymore because you just don't know when something will be taken away from you or how long you really have with the people you love. Some people think I'm crazy because I remember so many things. I remember them because they meant something to me and they are my greatest treasures. My memories will always be the best and most valuable treasures I have and I take them with me everywhere that I go. I'm never alone because everyone I've ever loved is with me always and forever.

Having Fun

I've been having fun for the last couple of days. Yesterday I went to the Lagoon with my oldest sister and her two sons and one of their girlfriends and my brother. I had a really fun time and I rode a lot of rides. My favorite roller coaster was not working and that kind of sucked, so I had to go on Wicked a couple of times instead. I love that ride. It's short but scary and fun. The new ride Bombora was really boring and short. It was slow and over way too fast. I think it's more for little kids than anyone else. I went on the kiddie ride like The Rocket because I did not want to go on it. It scares me and I feel like throwing up after I've gotten off. I had a headache already, so I didn't want to make it worse. The kiddie version was fun and kind of like the one my little Sammy is riding on. It's nice to see and spend time with my nephews because I never got the chance when they were growing up. Now they're teenagers and the youngest will graduate next year. I'd like to go and see his graduation, but I'll have to wait and see if I can. My niece is going to get married in August and she wants me to come to her wedding and I hope that I can.

I've been sick lately. First I had a staph infection and either the flu or a cold and now my stupid allergies are acting up too. I've been running around and doing things. I've gone shopping, eating out and then I went to the amusement park.
I'm trying to read more right now and I got a whole bunch of books from the library to read. I'm also still reading the current Supernatural book. I read it slowly, so that it will last longer. I haven't been going on message boards and posting because there's not much to post about. It's mainly been fans whining and moaning about Castiel and how wrong he was to do what he did. Maybe he should be more like Dean and just sit around doing nothing and hope everything gets taken care of by whoever. Castiel was just doing what he thought needed to be done and Dean has no right to even judge him about it. Dean knows nothing about Heaven, nor does he care about what Castiel has been going through. It was just like with Sam. Dean needs to jump off his high horse every once in a while and realize that he doesn't know everything and he's not God, so he doesn't know what God wants.

Jared is on Twitter and I've been reading his tweets and laughing. I'm glad he's tweeting, but I hope he doesn't tweet himself out or something. He doesn't need to be witty on there, but just himself and that's what he's been doing and that's why I love him so much. I wish that I could have went to that Nashville Con. That would have been a blast. I've bought my gold ticket and a J & J photo op for the L.A. Con. I'll probably be going alone because I really can't afford buying my sister a ticket. I could barely afford mine. I hope that I'm even working and making money before the next Convention.

I'm trying to think up a good story for a fanfic right now and I'm playing with my little Sammy and Co. I'm trying to stay off message boards for a while and if I do go on, I just read a few things and leave. I don't really feel like posting right now and I'd rather spend my time doing other things.