Sam Winchester Is Not Special, He's Just Awesome

Sam Winchester is just awesome. I had to say that first. I love how some fans just want to believe that Sam is just some ordinary human being. How many ordinary human beings drink demon blood and can drink as much as they want without having their stomachs explode or die from drowning in demon blood. I swear, the stupidity kills me. Sam did have powers and I still think he has them, but now he just won't use them or maybe he did need the blood for a charge or something. It was just power anyway. Some fans believe it was evil, but I don't. It was just power and it depended all on what Sam would use it for. Whether he used it for good or evil. That's just like a gun. Some people say a gun is evil. A gun does not kill people, someone has to pull the trigger and that's the same thing with that power Sam had. It's what he used that power for and he used it to send demons back to hell or kill them. I still don't get how that was evil. Sam was trying to use that power for good or what he thought was good.

Now on to the colt. I tried to post in that thread about the colt on the CW site. I swear that no one wants to see that Sam, the colt and the knife killed demons all in the same way. So, what was it that gave them the power to kill demons. I wonder if it wasn't Death that gave Sam his powers and it's Death that helps the gun and the knife work. There's writing on Ruby's knife. I wonder if it's a spell or what on it. Does that help it kill demons? Also, where does that energy go when someone kills a demon or supernatural entity? Their spirit or power has to go somewhere and I've often wondered if something hasn't been collecting all that power. A demon is a human or fallen angel and they go to hell when they die, so what happens after they die for good from Sam, the gun or the knife. Where do their powers go to? Demons have powers and they get them from collecting souls. Obviously, so do the angels.
I posted about Sam not being able to be killed by the colt and obviously no one got that. Anna was going to kill Sam, so why didn't she find the gun or the knife and kill Sam that way. If the gun and knife kill and kill for good, then why wouldn't she use it on Sam. I think Sam is a supernatural entity because how could he use powers if he's not one. Where did all that power come from and he had power long before he sucked on Ruby's or any other demons blood. No one has ever tried to shoot Sam with the gun and sure Sam has died, but that has nothing to do with the gun. I still wonder if Dean or someone else had tried to shoot Sam with that gun, would they have succeeded in killing him.

Now that brings me to Dark Side Of The Moon. Sam and Dean were supposedly shot and died and went to heaven. After watching Castiel and Rafael in Heaven,the more I think it's a crock of crapola. I doubt Sam and Dean went to Heaven at all. Because every time you see Castiel and Rafael in Heaven they are in some humans Heaven. I doubt Sam and Dean were in each others Heaven or in Heaven at all. I think that was all made up crap to make Dean lose faith in Sam and it sure succeeded. Even that Joshua guy and the garden were crap. Why didn't we see Castiel or Rafael in that garden if they were fighting to be the next big leader up there?

Here's an old but one of my favorite pics of Sam from the first season. And a pic of my string dolls. Sammy, Ruby and Dean. I hope I'm able to get more of them. I love them.

Supernatural Hellatus

I just love this pic of Jared and Jensen. I mainly love Jared's hair because it just looks so beautiful and you want to run your hands through it or something. Anyway on to the Hellatus.

It's really been a Hell on Facebook lately. How many friends have I dumped and they've dumped me and all over nothing. It's kind of funny in a scary way. My sister's ex-husband had a heart attack and I went to express my sympathy and say that he and the whole family were in my prayers and his daughter from a new marriage called me a creep because she thought I didn't know her father. I told her that I knew her father before she was born and that I still thought of him as part of my family and she obviously misinterpreted it. I just give up on trying to say anything in a public forum. I swear, someone will take everything you say out of context or try to get in a fight with you or something. It's scary and sad. I'm glad that my brother in law is getting better. I don't consider him an ex anything and I still care about him. He'll always be a part of my family because he's part responsible for me having my two wonderful nieces. Yes, sometimes they do things that drive me crazy, but they have their own lives now and I wish them all the best in everything they do. I wish my other niece the best also. I still love her, but it's very hard to express that to her and I love all my niece's little boys. They are a joy and I love them all. I don't see five of them because they are far away, but when I do, I enjoy every minute I can.

I'm still working and I'm kind of grateful that I am. I'm glad that I even have a job in this shitty economy. It would be nice to get released so I can go and see my niece get married. She had to postpone her wedding and I'm hoping to go to it still. I don't know if I'll get to make it. I'll be very sad about that. I'd love to see all the kids and my two nieces. If I go, I just need to avoid certain people down there.

I think I'm done posting at that CW message board already. The mods deleted I'm leaving from my thread. I guess that's offensive now or something. Whatever. I'm sure they'll think up some way to ban me and I'll be grateful if they do. I hardly post on there any way. It's like High School or something on there and goofballs coming up with clubs and crap like that. I've been out of school for a long time and I don't want to go back to that. Plus there's the bullies on there and the Queen that thinks she owns the whole board. Lately all the Queen has done is snivel and whine about Dean again. I love what a hypocrite she is. One minute she loves something and then turns around the next and snivels and whines about it. It's funny, but crazy at the same time. I wonder how many screen names she has. Then I love how she doesn't read anything you say and just attacks you and then pretends that you attacked her. I read someone else being attacked by her and it was just so funny because it reminded me of the times she attacked me and accused me of shit I didn't say or do on there.

I'm happy and content and nothing is going to change that and I can't wait for season 7 to start. I bet it's going to be a great season with both Sam and Dean getting good storylines together. I hope they come up with some new stuff and throw in some old stuff too. I think some fans should just stop watching the show, if all they can do is snivel about it. I remember I went on the CW message board and I was discontented with season 4 and I was attacked by how many posters and now those same posters are sniveling and whining how rotten the show is. I didn't even snivel that much during season 4 about the show and I've listened to these ones cry and snivel for two years now about how Dean doesn't get anything. Dean gets so much that it's pathetic already. I love his character, but I'm tired of all the sniveling and whining and it's us Sam lovers that had something to snivel about for the last couple of years. Dean fans had nothing to cry about, but they found plenty and they'll always snivel about everything.

Hellatus is almost over and new books are coming out and the season 6 DVD set. I can't wait for them and the show to start. There's also two new shirts and the calendars for pre-order.

More Of My Beautiful Bela

Here's two more videos of my Bela outside. When I first brought her home she one day ran outside and my sister had to catch her. Then, for a while she didn't want outside at all and she'd run back in the house. Now she's wanted outside again. She's so cute out there rolling in the carport and eating grass. I only let her outside when I'm out there because I don't want anyone to hurt her. There's creepy kids in my neighborhood and I wouldn't want them to harm her in any way and I won't give them that chance. My little Mully never did like going outside and I used to take her out there and stay outside reading while she sat in the four o'clocks. Now she's buried under them. I wish I could have gotten some video of my little Mully before she died and I'm sad that I didn't take the time to learn this stupid digital stuff earlier. I'm still learning how to do things. Once you learn something, it's pretty easy and you wonder why you haven't been doing it or using stuff that you could have and made things easier. Bela is a very beautiful cat and I just love her pretty paw or funky paw as I like to call it. It's different from all the rest and it makes her look so cute. I'm glad that I took her home with me and I didn't leave her in that cage. I'm sad that she even had to spend any time in a cage. I can't understand what person would have just abandoned her like they did. I wish I could take care of more cats, but all I can do is love Bela and hope other people pick up the other cats and dogs that need a home and love.

Piers Morgan, Ducks, Castiel and The Snivelers

First off, I love Piers Morgan. He's one of the main reasons that I love America's Got Talent. I love the show for the variety of acts that they can find and sometimes the level of talent is outstanding. It certainly is this season on the show. It's not just singers, but all kinds of different and exciting acts that I'd love to see in Las Vegas. I'd love to see these acts perform anywhere or how many together at the same time. Piers is my favorite judge on there because he doesn't sit and sugarcoat everything and say someone has talent when they don't. He's been wrong a few times and I can admit that because he's buzzed a couple of my favorite acts.
I love when he buzzes those stupid and crappy acts and then tells why he did it. I love it. There's just something about him that attracts me to him and not in a sexual way. I feel that way about a lot of people. They can pull you in with something hidden or something only you can see and feel about them and you want more. I always feel that way about Jared Padalecki. Some stars are not even that good looking, but they have something about them and I just love them for it.
Now on to the ducks. That crazy duck pond and duck nation or whatever they're calling it. I loved that pic of Jared and Jensen with their feet in that kiddie pool. They looked like two rednecks or something and all that was missing was beer and some guns in their hands. I couldn't stop laughing. A kiddie pool is their duck pond. I wish I could send a duck, but I'm sure they're going to get tons of them from all over. I've looked at how many of the pics of ducks that have been sent in and I can't believe all the different kinds. I hope all the fans are having fun with it. If I had the time, maybe I could think of something to do with a duck and then send it in, but I don't.
Kiss Your Cass Goodbye. I actually like to shorten Castiel to Cas, but whatever. It's Cass in all the novels, so whatever. I really don't care how anyone shortens the name. I hope Castiel isn't totally and completely gone for good. I do like his character, but there have been a lot of fans that want him gone and the show to go back to being about Sam and Dean. I'd love for the show to be about Sam and Dean again, but Castiel could still be around. I love his character. I didn't really care about him in season 4 and the storyline drove me crazy, but I really enjoyed him in seasons five and six.
Now to snivelers. Where do I even start? I guess I'll start with the Dean snivelers that constantly snivel about poor Dean. Dean doesn't have a storyline except for taking care of and worrying about Sam. What a bunch of shit? Anyone who thinks that has seriously never watched the show or they just want to snivel because they're not seeing what they want to on it. Dean has had more storyline and airtime then Sam ever will. It would be nice to see Sam actually have some storyline and not be another character for one season after the last 3 seasons. Maybe Dean could become a different character for a while and Jensen would get more story and maybe that would make other fans happy. I highly doubt it. They'd snivel no matter what. I'm so tired of the sniveling. Dean could be on for the whole show and the writers could totally focus on his character like always and I'm sure some fan would still snivel because Dean is not the Dean they want to see.
I love the snivelers at work who have to snivel about everything they have to do. They're so lazy, it makes me sick and then they snivel and snivel about the work. They snivel because they can't get time off from work, but maybe if they actually worked when they were at work, they'd get time off because the work would get done.
The snivelers on Facebook and Twitter and all over the Internet. Is anyone ever happy or do people just need to snivel about anything and everything? Can't anyone be content and happy with things for just a little while. I snivel about stuff, but I don't do it every day and all the time. I'm happy and content right now. I don't care what will happen on my shows or Supernatural because I'm just happy they are going to be new soon and not repeats. I'm sure Sam's character will get a little attention in the first part of season 7 and then the focus will go back to Dean like it always does and Sam will be back in the background again. I'm hoping that both Sam and Dean will stay the main focus of Supernatural, but if that doesn't happen, then whatever. I'm hoping for some more Stephan in Vamp Diaries, but we'll see what happens. I want more Chuck and Blair on Gossip Girl and some great storylines and I'm sure I'll get them.
I think right now it's best that I avoid certain snivelers because I'm tired of all the sniveling and it's getting boring as well. I'd rather be happy and excited for things to come.

Dean Winchester Is Special

I love how some fans have to try and make Dean special by thinking he's an angel, or that angels were watching over him because he was the chosen special child to save the world, or that he has special powers of some kind and try to think up a bunch of crap. Even now, after we've found out why Dean was rescued from Hell, how many fans want to believe it's because God loves him the most and he's the chosen one to save everyone or the world. Dean can look directly into an angel's grace. I've never seen Dean do that and I guess other fans can think he looked into Zac's grace and think whatever the hell they want to. Even the writers say that he didn't, but they think he did. That means that Sam could see an angel's grace as well, seeing how he was Lucifer's vessel and Lucifer was an angel.
That's just like the crap with Sam drinking demon blood. Like the blood was evil or something and turning Sam into some arrogant and evil monster and it did nothing to him as far as I'm concerned. Demon blood is just blood and if it did help Sam charge something or give him power, then that's all it was. Where did demons get their power from to begin with? Lucifer, the angel. Honestly, the stupidity about all of this just drives me crazy. Like Dean supposedly being Michael's vessel made him way more righteous than Sam being Lucifer's vessel. Dean is no more righteous than Sam and never has been.
To go off on something else because I was thinking about it and it drove me crazy reading some of the stupidity about it. Yellow Fever. How many fans thought Sam was so horrible to Dean in this episode? I don't get that at all. I just finished watching it again. I guess it's because Sam didn't cry and hold Dean and tell him he loved him or something and hoped he didn't die. Instead, Sam used his head and figured out a way to save Dean from dying. I guess that was so horrible and rotten for Sam to do and I'm sure he still had demon blood flowing in his veins at the time or something.
To me, Dean is special and has always been since the show first started. Maybe he's never been psychic or had any powers, but he kicks ass and the one thing I love him the most for is that he always protects and takes care of Sam. The one time he didn't do that was when he came back from hell and listened to an angel over his own intuition and his brother. Look what happened. If Dean had stayed by Sam's side like he should have and not thought that Sam thought of him as weak, then maybe things would have turned out differently. The angels and demons manipulated and used him and made him think Sam was turning into some monster or becoming dangerous and Dean believed them.
If God had any plans for Dean, then I think his plans meant for Dean to watch over and protect Sam. Dean himself has always thought that was his job and I don't think it was just John telling him to constantly take care of Sam. Dean felt like he had to take care of and protect his little brother. That could have come from God. When was the only time that Dean didn't take care of and protect Sam. That's when Sam was with Ruby. Dean basically turned away from Sam because he thought Sam believed him to be weak and he left. What happened when Dean found out what the angels were up to and then went to go and help Sam? Sam and Dean were saved together before Lucifer rose. If God did that, then both Sam and Dean are special, but in totally different ways. God cares about and loves them both. I still wonder about the amulet and whether it was the amulet that stopped Lilith from hurting Sam or from Samhain hurting him. Dean was there both times with the amulet on him. I like to wonder about that amulet, but that's it. I don't care if they bring it back or not, but if they do, then I'd expect to see Dean get it back in some other way than Sam giving it to him. Dean threw it away, so why would Sam think that Dean would ever want it back, even though they have a good relationship now. I'd love for the amulet to come back in some totally and completley unexpected way and maybe affirm that God does want Dean to protect Sam and that's what his job was to do and that's why Sam gave it to Dean or it was meant to go to Dean.
I hate when fans believe that Dean is not special just because he doesn't have powers or some other crap like that. I'd love for Dean to experience having some powers and find out how hard it is and what and how Sam felt having the powers he did. I know that if Dean had powers of any kind, he'd probably use them to help people at whatever cost and isn't that what Sam did. No one can tell me, Dean would not use powers, even evil ones to help Sam or to save other people.
I hate when fans whine and moan about Dean not saving the world. I still remember all that stupid crap with Save Dean Save The World on it. Like Dean was the only one that could save the world and that he was way more special than Sam because of it and that Dean had to save the world and Sam because Sam was turning evil or something. All the fans that cried and moaned that Dean didn't help save the world when he let his little brother die and go to hell. That was the hardest thing Dean has ever had to do in his life and they think it was nothing. Dean was a hero by not doing anything and letting Sam do it. I never ever wanted Dean to be Michael's vessel or ever see him be Michael's vessel. If that would have happened, then I would have lost all my love and respect for Dean. Dean is special and he's a hero that I love to watch right along with the other hero of Supernatural, his brother Sam.
I guess I just needed to post this here because I'm certainly not going to post it on some message board with snivelers and whiners. I'm sure in some way this post is bashing Dean or it would be to certain Dean fans and I don't care what they think anymore.

Frontierland And More

I just love to watch Frontierland. It was one of the best episodes ever of Supernatural and one of my favorite of season 6. I've watched it a few times on the Internet and I just watched it again tonight on TV. I can't wait for the season 6 DVD set to come out so I can watch it even more times and all my other favorites.
I just loved Dean wearing his blanket. It still kills me to watch his face when how many characters comment on it. He looked like he was going to cry or something.

Here's what I'm hoping for in season 7. Dean to finally deal with his issues and what he did in Hell. I still think Dean is afraid to face what he did by torturing those souls down there. I'd love for a demon to come along and you find out it was a soul that Dean tortured in Hell. Then I'd loved to see that demon go after Sam for revenge or something. That would be great to watch and Dean would finally have to deal with what he did or finally face it. It seems that Dean just wants to forget about everything and try to bury it, but that never works. Drowning your problems in a booze bottle does not help either. Eventually you have to face yourself one day and what you've done and who you are. I don't think Dean has ever done this. He's never had to face his dark side before. It would be neat to see Dean split in two and his good side and bad side have a face off or something. I liked that scene in Dream A Little Dream Of Me when Dean faced demon Dean. It would be awesome to see that, but with Dean facing himself and who he was in Hell. I love how I always bring up Dean torturing souls in hell and loving it and that qualifies as me bashing Dean. Dean said that himself right in Family Remains. He told that all the pain he suffered in hell was washed away when he started to torture and that he liked it. He liked causing others pain. That was Dean's soul that did that in Hell.

I love how fans want to compare Sam and Dean's experiences in Hell. They both had such different experiences and we really know nothing yet about what happened to Sam down there yet. We know Dean was tortured by Alistair and then started torturing himself and liked it. I think Dean is so guilty about that and he's so afraid of who he was in Hell and what he's capable of. It would be interesting if part of Sam's hell included Lucifer showing Sam what Dean did in Hell and how he tortured souls. I'd love that. I know that would be so hard for Sam and that would be like hell for him. I doubt it will happen, but I can hope for it.

I love going on the CW site and reading dumb threads like that one about Dean seeing Zachariah's grace. Like that made him special or something. Like Sam would not be able to see an angel's grace but Dean can. Like Lucifer wasn't an angel and so was Azazel. It's so damn funny to see the stupidity at times. And like angels watched over Dean when he was a baby or something because he was more righteous or special than Sam. I love how some fans have to make up crap to try to believe that Dean is more righteous or that God loves him more than Sam or something. Like God chose him over everyone and he's God's special child or something. I guess that makes Sam Lucifer's special child. Even though it was Sam who believed in God and prayed to him for years and Dean never even believed there was a God or angels or nothing.
The thing is on Supernatural the angels have been way worse than the demons for killing humans. It seems like the angels hate humans way more than the demons do.
I think Dean still doesn't believe in God, but I still think Sam does and maybe that's why he's been able to survive everything he's gone through. He prayed to God and who said he stopped. Maybe he did and maybe he didn't.

My little Sammy went to Frontierland way before Sam and Dean did on the show. Instead of having an angel send him back for 24 hours, he used his transporter and stayed for as long as he wanted to. I think he was way smarter than Sam and Dean and maybe Sam and Dean should have found a transporter and they could have used it to go anywhere and in time they wanted to.

Pet Society Is 3 Years Old

Pet Society is 3 years old and it's a party. I love playing and there is just so much fun stuff. I'm glad that I have something to do while waiting for my shows to come back on.

My Little Sammy And Little Jared

Here are some pics of my little Sammy and Jared playing in their new bouncy houses. I just love Pet Society. Whenever I'm depressed, I just go and play with my little demons and all is right with the world again. They look so cute playing in their houses and with all their stuff. It's Pet Society's 3rd Birthday and I've been playing for over two years now myself. I should have gotten my computer sooner and I could have played from the start. Pet Society has fixed some of their problems, but there are still a few things that drive me crazy when I go on.
I have a really good idea for a Supernatural story, but I don't know if I'll be able to write it down. It's all in my head, but when I go to type it, it never comes out right. It sounds stupid and pathetic. I've been thinking about writing some more spoofs as well. Hopefully I'll find some time to start writing again. It's a miracle I have time to do anything. It seems like the days are just flying by. I'm still working and I doubt I'll be released anytime soon, but you never know. I never know what my employers have planned. It feels like I'm just working right now because the perm workers are so lazy that they can't get the work out and it's up to us to get it done.
I feel so disconnected from everyone right now for some reason. I usually feel this way all the time. Like I don't really belong anywhere or I'm not really wanted anywhere. I'm not going to lie to others so that I can belong somewhere. I guess I just don't fit in anywhere right now and maybe I've never fit in anywhere. Sometimes I feel disconnected from my own family. I love how some people want you to lie to them so that they can feel good about themselves or the things they've done. I refuse to do that. I don't lie to myself and I don't like when others lie to themselves about things. It drives me crazy. I will not tell people what they want to hear or say that I like something when I really don't. I like what I like and that's all. I won't apologize or feel bad about loving the things that I do. I like to be my own person and I will not become a sheep following others around trying to stay in some group with them and pretend to be like them. I see other people doing that all the time. They say things to make friends, but they don't really mean what they're saying. I don't know why I'm even writing this or thinking about it.
TV is pretty boring right now. All that's on is America's Got Talent and repeats of all my other shows. I look forward to Tues. and Wed. when AGT is on. I root for how many of the acts and I wish all of them could be stars. I guess they are in a way, even if it's only for a short time. They made it on TV, so they are stars in that regard.
I can't wait for Supernatural to start again, so that I can look forward to Friday night. I still wish that Supernatural could be on with Vampire Diaries. I loved watching them together, but I guess they have to help other shows get ratings. Pretty soon all my shows will be new again and my life will revolve around the TV set. I used to watch a whole lot more TV back when I was younger because there were so many shows I just loved to watch. I still get excited for shows to come on, but not as much anymore. I mainly get the most excited for Supernatural because I'm so obsessed with it. I've gotten less obsessed lately, but once the new season starts, I'll get crazy again for it.