My Life With Little Sammy, Dean And Jess

Well, I finally got released from my work and now I can be at home for a while. My little Sammy is so happy because I told him that I'll be waiting with his mac and cheese at lunch time. He hugged and kissed me and was so happy. I'm happy because I get to spend more time with my three little demons.

I started to read Vampire Diaries to them. They wanted to know how the books went, so I told them I'd get the books and we'd find out how different the show is from the books. It's very different. I like how Elena has a brother on the show. It's interesting the Stephan was drinking human blood in the books, but not on the show.
I like the show and the books and so do my little demons.

We had a great week watching TV because all our shows were back on and we loved all of them. We made our list and here it is.

Favorite Shows for week ending 11/07/09

1. Legend Of The Seeker
2. Supernatural
3. Smallville
4. One Tree Hill
5. Gossip Girl
6. Vampire Diaries

We had a hard time voting for the top place, but we all loved Seeker and it was the very first episode of the second season. This season of Seeker is really going to be good. Is Richard going to end up as evil as Darken Rahl because of his good intentions? I just know Richard was hot looking and I had to keep wiping the drool off my chin before my little demons saw it. I just love watching him fighting and his shirt being open like that.
Supernatural was runner up for the top show and it was almost first place. We all laughed and we've watched it three times already. We loved seeing Sam and Dean being in TV Land. The ending was really different and we were sad that the Trickster turned out to be Gabriel. I told my little demons that maybe it could be a good thing or maybe not. We'll have to see. I told them I went on the message boards and a lot of people were talking about this episode. Some liked it and others didn't. I just know that I loved it and so did my little demons and we'll probably watch it a couple more times.
My little Sammy didn't care for Smallville, but I loved it and he asked me why. I told him because I got to see that hunky Zod guy in it a lot and some of his history. Little Dean was sad that Lois wasn't on and little Jess loved seeing Oliver and she was happy that him and Clark were with each other again and helping each other.
My little demons loved the camping in One Tree Hill so much that little Sammy made him get a fire for his outdoor room so they could roast hot dogs and marsh mellows on it. I loved that camping trip with the boys and I loved seeing Haley acting crazy from eating the pot filled brownies. I can't wait to see how Dan's story is going to turn out and now he's going to be back in Tree Hill next week.
Gossip Girl was okay, but my little demons didn't watch much of it and I don't think I'll let them watch it next week because there is going to be a threesome. I don't know if I even want to watch it.
Vampire Diaries was okay, but none of us got excited about it until the end when we got to see Stephan and Damon fighting again.
All our shows are really good and TV is so good right now. I'm loving it.

I have to get back to my little demons right now because we are going to watch Supernatural yet again.

My Life With Little Sammy, Dean And Jess

Little Sammy finally finished writing his song for Jess to sing. Here it is.

CASTIEL

Castiel is an angel from heaven
He followed orders and did what he was told
Castiel saved Dean from hell and his voice is as clear as a bell
He has penetrating eyes that look right through you
Castiel is always trying to do the right thing
We hope that he's helping Dean and Sam and he's on the right side
It was sad when we thought that he had died
Castiel is alive and trying to find God
We want him to stay good and be our angel from heaven forever

Sure it's a little short and that's because little Sammy got sick while writing it. He ate his whole Halloween cake and then threw up and hasn't been feeling good. He showed it to little Jess and they sang it and Jess loves it. Little Castiel joined their band so now there is four of them. They're thinking of asking another friend to play in the band too. Now little Sammy is working on a special song for big Sam. It's going to be about Sam drinking chocolate milk, so that people will forget that he drank demon blood. My poor little Sammy is so worried about people not loving Sam. I told him that lots of people love Sam. I've been looking on the message boards and posting some stuff. I told him I've been keeping up the I Love Sammy thread. He's still wants to write the song and he's already started on it.

I forgot to post our favorite shows for the week ending Oct 31, 2009, so here it is.

1. Supernatural
2. Gossip Girl
3. One Tree Hill
4. Smallville
5. Vamp Diaries

Vamp Diaries fell and One Tree Hill moved up to three. Smallville wasn't as good as last week. Supernatural was the best because it made us all laugh and so did Gossip Girl. Next week we'll be able to add Legend Of The Seeker because it will finally start. We can't wait for it.

My little Sammy, Dean and Jess have been busy in their own houses. Sammy got a new washing machine because I told him he could start washing his own clothes and Dean and Jess can bring their laundry over and use it too. Sammy bought some other stuff too. He's been really busy and sick too. I don't know where my little Sammy gets the energy to do all the stuff he does. Little Dean's beach room is done and he loves it and has spending a lot of time there.

I love my little demons and who knows what they'll do next.

My Supernatural Nightmare

Last night I dreamt about Sam and Dean. I don't know if I was in the show or watching it or both. One minute I was running around with Dean and the next minute watching it on TV. Sam went undercover as a woman. He was wearing makeup and a dress. He even had fake boobs to go along with it. I don't remember some of it, but the end was the scary part. I love dreaming about Sam and Dean, but not like this. At the end, Sam was crying and Dean went to hug and kiss him. I'm not a slash fan and I was so sickened by this. They were actually kissing on the lips. Yuck! Then in the dream I was thinking to myself that this could not be happening and it changed. Sam and Dean instead of sucking on each others faces, they were both sucking on a beer bottle and then I woke up. I guess at the end of the dream, I was watching them on TV, but how did I change it. This was just a nightmare and I know where it came from. It's probably from all the Supernatural fans out there treating Sam and Dean like they are women, not men. It's scary.

Halloween With Little Sammy, Dean And Jess

Well my little Jess had a great Halloween party. All her friends came to it. Three of her best friends were at the party and she had me take pictures of them. There is little Castiel, Peaches and Clover. Jess had a lot of goodies, food and they watched a few scary movies. She had her party earlier in the day and then at night all of them went out trick or treating together. Everyone in the neighborhood had a good time and they all had fun. Little Dean and little Sammy kept changing their costumes all day long. Little Dean could not decide what to wear, but little Sammy told him that they could just wear how many different costumes. Little Dean was happy about that because he had started to cry because he wanted to be how many different things.

Little Sammy and little Dean helped Jess clean up after they got home from trick or treating. I told little Sammy that he was being such a good boy and he said that he was sorry again for being mean to Dean and that he was making up for it. I told him he was doing a good job because little Dean was so happy today.

The cutest and best part of the night was just a half hour ago when I found little Sammy and little Dean in Dean's house sleeping. Little Dean was showing Sammy his new room and they fell asleep on the floor. I didn't have the heart to wake them because they just looked so darn cute together and I've never seen them so close. I put blankets over them and turned out the light. It was a really good Halloween.

People Are Obsessed And I Totally Understand It

Okay, I've just been reading some stuff and I think a lot of people are totally obsessed with either Dean or Jensen or both. They just can't see anything else and I totally understand it. I was so obsessed with Sam's character that I never really noticed some things. It's kind of funny now. I've loved a lot of characters on a lot of shows and I've been obsessed with a lot of them. I never really got the chance to know if anyone else loved them as much as I did. Now I get to look at message boards and see that I'm just like a lot of people out there.

When I used to read message boards, I really didn't think about how other people are feeling because I'm kind of self absorbed. Maybe it's because I'm a loner and all I have is myself. Who knows? I do understand being so obsessed with something, that you can't see anything else, but what you want to. I was obsessed with Supernatural, but now I don't think that I am, so now that means I can enjoy it more. I still love it, but I'm just not as obsessed with it as I used to be. I love all my other shows and I can't miss an episode of them, but I've never been obsessed with them.

Older stars and shows that I used to watch made me so crazy. I remember sitting and waiting for them to come on. I used to get an actual physical pain in my stomach, waiting for them to come on. Then, I was so worried that something would happen during the show. The power going out, a news break or something like that. It drove me crazy, but it was great, too. I don't have those kind of feelings anymore because I know that if I miss an episode that I can watch it online or a repeat. The repeats come on faster nowadays then they did in the past. Some of the episodes never repeated either. So, if you missed it, you missed it and that was that.

I've got to be more nicer and try to understand other people's feelings. It's hard because I'm not that sociable and I spend a lot of time alone. It's hard for me to connect to other people, but I try. Even on Facebook, sometimes I just don't feel like posting or talking to anyone. I guess that's just who I am.

My Little Sammy Is Good

My little Sammy went to Dean's house and apologized for giving him the potion that turned him into a skeleton. Little Sammy bought a stuffed soldier doll for Dean. My little Sammy also sent a bunch of pumpkin cookies to his friends. I asked little Sammy why he was so bad. He wouldn't tell me. I told him that I'd be home for a few days and he started to jump around and was so happy. I told him that soon, I'd be home for a long time. My work is coming to an end and I'll be released soon and then he can come home for lunch and have his mac and cheese and see me every day. I told little Sammy that I love him so much and it hurts when he's not a good boy and he said that he'd be good from now on. I'm hoping he's telling the truth and that he didn't just tell me that so he could watch Supernatural and Vamp Diaries.

Little Sammy and Dean had a big football game at their school and little Dean scored the winning touchdown. I was so proud of him. I just love to watch little Sammy and Dean play football and baseball. I never saw little Jess cheer harder than at this last game. It was really close, but our team won because of little Dean. Little Sammy was very proud of Dean and said that he was glad that he had an older brother like him.

Little Sammy asked why I haven't been going on the message boards and posting about our favorite shows. I told him that I'm tired of it and it's more fun to watch the shows and just enjoy them. I told him that if I looked at what people were writing for too long, I'd go crazy. I'm really happy with all our shows and I don't want anything to ruin that right now. I told him I'd keep the love up for big Sammy and big Dean.

I hope I survive Halloween with my three little demons. Who knows what will happen? I just hope my little Sammy will stay good and not do anymore bad things.

Is My Little Sammy Evil Now?

My little Sammy went and did something really bad this time. He went and bought a potion at The Mystery Shop and had little Dean drink it. It turned my little Dean into a skeleton. I screamed and yelled at little Sammy and he just laughed. I asked Sammy how long the potion would last and he said a few days. Little Dean cried at first when he saw himself and then later he said he was okay. Little Dean wouldn't talk to Sammy. When Jess found out what Sammy had done she sent him a box with a surprise inside. It had an egg in it and it flew at Sammy's face. Egg was dripping down little Sammy's face and Jess, Dean and I were all laughing. Little Jess made Sammy go to her house and help with her party.

I told little Sammy that if he does not behave himself, then I'm going to take all his costumes and masks away and he will not go to Jess' party on Halloween. Little Sammy cried and fell asleep in his coffin bed. I don't know what's gotten into that little demon. Maybe it's just Halloween or is my little Sammy turning evil? He's never done anything so mean before. Maybe I'll have to stop letting him watch Supernatural and Vamp Diaries for a while and then he'll behave and be good.

My Life With Little Sammy, Dean And Jess

Little Sammy and little Dean have been running around town with their bat wings on. I told them that they'd better not be trying to scare anyone. They said they just wanted everyone to see them. They keep dressing in different costumes and wearing their bat wings. Little Sammy is now a vampire pirate with bat wings and little Dean is a mummy with bat wings. One bad thing about the bat wings. Little Sammy thought he could fly wearing them and jumped off his bunk bed and fell and scraped some skin off his forehead. He was crying and bleeding. I just washed his head and put a band aid on and told him he was okay. I told him that I'd take away the bat wings, if he doesn't calm down a little. I told him not to try flying again. Those wings can't make him fly.

I asked little Sammy where the song was for Castiel. Little Sammy wouldn't look at me because he hasn't been working on it. I think he got angry when little Jess gave their new friend Castiel a friendly kiss. Little Sammy said that he'd try to work on it again after Halloween and I told him that I'd help him, if he needed me to.

Here's are favorite shows ending the week of Oct 24, 2009

1. Smallville
2. Gossip Girl
3. Supernatural (repeat)
4. One Tree Hill
5. Vamp Diaries (repeat)

I've been watching Top Model, but my little demons don't care for it. Sometimes I miss it, but I don't really care. It's not very good this cycle.

Little Sammy asked me if he looks mean and scary with his wings and fangs. I told him that he looks really scary. I lied to little Sammy because there's no way he could look anything but sweet no matter what.

My Life With Little Sammy, Dean And Jess

My three little demons have been busy again. Little Jess is still getting ready for her big Halloween party next Saturday. Little Sammy keeps changing into different costumes and now he has Dean doing it to. Little Sammy asked why I didn't buy Dean some big wings like he has. I thought they were skeletal wings,but they are huge bat wings that are growing. He asked me if I loved Dean. I told him that I love Dean very much and if he wanted the wings, then all he had to do was ask me. Little Dean came and asked and I went and got him some too. He was so happy and he's started to wear his as much as Sammy. Little Dean's wings are still growing, but Sammy's are how big now.

Little Sammy made me get him the special bait at the store to get weird looking fish out of the fish pond. I don't know why I bought him that bait. Those fish are horrible looking and they look evil. Now he has a little tank full of them. Little Sammy wore his special fishing jacket, hat and glove to catch the fish. Please, let that fishing pond ice over for the winter. With my luck, they'll probably have ice fishing or something.

Little Sammy, Dean and Jess have had some more new friends move into their neighborhood. They just made friends with Castiel and have invited him to join their rock band. He said that he'd think about it. Also, there's a weird little friend named Ninja Clown. That's one strange name and the little guy is kind of scary looking and he's not wearing a Halloween costume. Sometimes I worry about some of the friends my little demons are associating with.

I took little Sammy, Dean and Jess to a couple of Haunted Houses tonight at the fun park by where I live. They were all kind of scared. In the first one they got candy and it wasn't scary at all. The other three scared them all. Little Sammy was clinging to me and crying. Little Dean was brave, but I could tell he was scared and so was Jess. I had to tell them that everything was all fake and none of it was real. I thought the haunted houses were fun. Little Sammy asked if I thought he was a baby and I told him that a lot of people are scared going into haunted houses. That's the point, to be scared. I let little Sammy eat a lot of candy which was a big mistake. About an hour ago he woke up crying and said that a killer clown was trying to kill him. It was chasing him and it had killed little Dean and Jess in his dream. I had to hold him and tell him everything was okay. Little Dean was spending the night and he woke up and reassured little Sammy. I've been letting little Sammy watch Supernatural and hopefully he'll fall asleep again. I bought little Sammy a coffin bed for his Supernatural room. Him and Dean just love taking turns sleeping in it.

It's been a pretty good week and Halloween is coming up next Saturday. I hope I have the energy to handle my three little demons.

Sam And Dean's Destiny

Here's something that I can't figure out. Why would anyone believe that Sam and Dean's ultimate destiny or fate is to fight each other? Or have Michael and Lucifer take over their bodies to fight each other.
So Dean's big destiny over all was to protect Lucifer's vessel for years and then sell his soul for Lucifer's vessel and go to hell for how long. That does not make any kind of sense at all. As for Dean being Michael's vessel. If it turns out that Dean is Michael's vessel, then Supernatural will really have jumped the shark. It doesn't make sense. Dean went to that storage unit of John's thinking the sword was there and it turned out to be him. That could have just been bull Zac and Co made up, but if John knew about the sword, why didn't he protect Dean the way he protected Sam. Sam was the one John said that had to be watched and protected,not Dean. Sam has power inside him that no ones knows what it is, but everyone assumes is demonic. When Dean died, the reaper Tessa came for him and if Dean would've went with her, then no more Michael's vessel. We never saw Sam with an actual reaper. I think that is a really big clue. I think people just want Dean to have some kind of special destiny or think his destiny or fate wasn't just to protect Sam. If Sam does have something inside him that is special or whatever, then Dean spent his life protecting something good, not evil. I think it would suck, if we find out that Dean protected Sam all those years, just so Sam would be the ultimate evil or something. It's just wrong.

As for Sam. Sam has always been the kinder and gentler of the two. He seems to care more about people than Dean. If I said that on a message board, I'd be berated for it, but it's true. How many times did Dean say to Sam that there was nothing, then the nothing turned out to be something and they probably saved people's lives. Dean would've just left and not cared. Sam has always felt guilty about everyone that has died and everyone that he has personally had to kill. I don't get the same feeling from Dean. Sometimes Dean's attitude is that a person gets what they deserve or something and they might not be worth saving. Sam is the one that has special psychic ability, he was chosen by Azazel for a reason. What does evil love to corrupt the most? People that are good and who care about God. They care about hurting what is good. That's probably why Dean has never been possessed. People think it's because he's God's chosen one. If he was, he'd be the first person the demons would've gone after. And I'm not saying that God doesn't care about Dean because God cares about every human being, no matter what.

When you think back to season 3 and Ruby was telling Sam about fighting. You could tell that Sam does not like to fight. I'd say that Sam is like that Jesse kid in that regard. I doubt that he wants to fight, but he has to and he's been doing it for years. Sam tried to get away from that life and he always got pulled back into it. I doubt it's for some evil reason. In "It's A Terrible Life" Sam said he's got something in his blood and I doubt he was talking about something evil. He was the one who convinced Dean that there was something going on in that episode. He came to the realization of who and what he was before Dean. People will just say it was the demon blood Sam drank, but why didn't it make Sam do evil stuff. Sam tried to save people.

I still think Sam's power is Michael's and Sam could be Michael's vessel. I think Lilith found out what Sam had inside him and used it to get Lucifer out of his prison. If it was Michael that put Lucifer in hell in the first place, maybe it was his power that could bust Lucifer out. Now maybe Michael needs to use Sam to send Lucifer back to hell and lock him in his cage. Sam had the power to kill demons and send them to hell. In the Halloween episode last season, Sam sent Samhain back to hell and he had not drank the demon blood for how long. It took how much effort on Sam's part to get the demon out and send it to hell. Maybe when Michael takes over Sam's body then he'd be able to use that power inside Sam and send Lucifer to hell. If Lucifer goes back to hell, then humanity will be able to keep free will. If Lucifer and Michael fight and Lucifer dies, then where will are free will go. Sure we'll be in paradise, but will we want to be. Did Adam and Eve love paradise?

It seems to me that Zac and Co want to make Sam think what's inside him is evil and want to make Dean think he is special for a reason. They want things to go back to the way they were before humans. Who knows that if the Earth turned into paradise, the angels wouldn't be God's favorites again or the angel's think they will be.

How does Zac and Co know that Dean is Michael's vessel, but they didn't know Sam was supposed to be Lucifer's? Zac told Sam and Dean that Lucifer was circling his vessel, but why didn't he say it was Sam. Why not tell Dean he was Michael's vessel before the apocalypse, not after it came about?

Another thing. Maybe neither Sam nor Dean are vessels of any kind and that's what I'd like best. Maybe the power that's inside Sam can be taken out of him somehow and it was just put there to keep it safe. I'm starting to believe Jensen's interview before the season started. He said Sam and Dean were going to be helping the angels, but he probably meant God and the good angels that are still following him. Who knows? I sure in the hell don't. I'm just not going to believe that everything is black and white and set in stone. I can't believe people think Kripke is revealing everything and not leaving anything for a surprise.


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