Cheshire Cat Sammy In Wonderland

I was a stupid gambling fool again. This time I went to an Indian Casino that's about two hours away from where I live to gamble with my sisters and brother. I've never been there before. I did have fun, but I lost a lot of money. I've never played The Lord Of The Rings or Star Trek slots. They were really fun to play, but I wish I could have won some money on one of them instead of just losing.

I've been very lazy lately and I haven't really had the time to write on my blog. I love playing with Sammy and all my other demons and then I don't have time to do much else. I was going to write some stuff in my Hell House on the CW site, but I doubt I'll have the time. No one cares if I write on there anyway, so I don't care. I've been reading and looking at upcoming spoilers for Supernatural and the last episodes look very good. I can't wait for them. I just hope that I don't have to hear Sam saying he's sorry to anyone else. I'm getting tired of Sam always having to apologize for everything he does. Like everything he does, is wrong or bad and horrible. Dean does plenty of crap and I never hear him apologizing for it. I guess that's the difference between them. Sam cares what others think and Dean doesn't. Even when Sam didn't have a soul, he could not be like Dean with one. One thing I'm really hoping for is not to see Lisa and Ben again, but I'm afraid that we haven't seen the last of them. Maybe we have and I'm hoping against hope that we don't see them and that crap is over with already.

Hopefully, I'll still be working after next week. I'm sure I will be, but you never know. I hope we get another temporary budget until we get a permanent one for the rest of the year. I just don't know how and why that stuff happens. I didn't even know we didn't have a budget until a couple of weeks ago. I don't want to be off work and then have to come back and work twice as hard to get all the work out and then not get my days off that I've scheduled. We'd probably have to work overtime too. That does not make sense and it's a waste of time and money. I'll have to hope and pray for the best.

Bela

This is my new cat Bela. My oldest sister bought her for me from Petsmart. She was abandoned at some apartment building and she's a year old. I was thinking about getting a kitten and a boy kitten that I could call Sammy, but I'm glad that I got Bela. It's like she was waiting for me to come and get her, just like my Mully. I like having an older cat around because kittens can be little troublemakers and it's nice to take in a cat that needs a home. I was so depressed after my Mully died. I still miss her so much and so many things remind me of her.

Bela is a siamese and I love siamese cats. She's so soft and she keeps herself so clean just like Mully. I love that. Bela ears are smaller than Mully's, but they have the same colors to them. Bela is a beautiful cat and I love her already. She does some things just like Mully and then she has her own little quirks and things she does. It's nice to have her to come home to after a long day at work. I bought Bela a new collar and some toys. Bela is a young cat and I sometimes forget that she likes to play. Mully didn't play much in her last years of life. Most cats though, spend most of their lives grooming themselves and sleeping. I sometimes wonder what cats dream about. I also have wondered if Mully's spirit hasn't been around because Bela looks at something that I can't see. Mully used to do that too. Maybe they're seeing something humans can't. Angels or cherubs like my mom thinks protect and take care of animals.

I haven't been going on the CW message board very much because it's really gotten crazy on there, but when hasn't it been. I can't stand the inconsiderate posters on there, who only think of themselves and no one else. And the posters who think they own that message board and no one else is allowed to use it but them. I sometimes wonder if some of those people even have a life beyond that message board. I thought I didn't have a life, but I must because I don't or would not spend as much time on there as some people. It's kind of scary and sad for some of them. Do they even have friends or anything? I have a job that keeps me busy and how much other crap. Smallville and Supernatural won't be on for the next six weeks and that's a long time. Maybe I'll have time to go to some movies or something during the time that they're off. I like to watch the repeats, but if I have the chance to do something else, I will.

Fortune And The French Mistake

Smallville and Supernatural were both so much fun to watch because I laughed so hard it hurt during both of them. Who knew that it would turn out to be comedy night on Friday? Both shows had a lot of comedy, but there was plenty of drama too. They both had the right mix of everything that I love to watch and I was so happy. I could not stop laughing when I saw Oliver in that dress and I loved seeing Genevieve on Supernatural. It was so funny and cute seeing her in those scenes with Jared. The French Mistake just became my favorite episode of season 6 so far and one of my all time favorites. I loved seeing both Jared and Jensen in this episode because they were both at their very best. I loved it because Sam and Dean acted like real brothers again and it reminded me of how they were in season 3. I haven't seen them like that in a long time. This episode was even better than Changing Channels for Sam and Dean's relationship. I loved the end when Dean thought Sam would have rather stayed in that alternate dimension instead of coming back to their real lives. When is Dean going to realize that Sam loves and cares about him as much as Dean cares about Sam? The second half of both shows is turning out to be great and I can't wait to see the next episodes. It's going to be sad when Smallville ends and I'll enjoy every friday that both shows are still on together. I hope Supernatural lasts another season, but who knows what it will be paired with, if it does. I hope something good.

More Of My Pics From The Supernatural L.A. Con

Pics From L.A. Convention

The first pic of Jared and Genevieve is one I pulled off Facebook from the Brian Buckley Band. It's cute and I didn't even know where they were at during the concert. It's nice that they could be snuggled up like that together.
The rest are some of my pics from the Convention. A lot of my pics didn't turn out because I really don't know how to use my camera yet. Some of my pictures are great and others are blurry and rotten. I'm still learning how to use a digital camera. Usually I buy a cheap one and just point and shoot a picture. I recorded a few things, but they are for me only. The stars ask that no one records them because they don't want to be on Utube. It's nice that fans record them anyway and put them all over the internet. How respectful is that of their wishes? I saw tons of fans recording besides taking pictures. It's okay to take pictures because they allow it and all the stars were so nice. How many of them let fans take pictures of them and were in the pictures. That was like getting a free photo op. How many of them took pictures of themselves with the fans? That was so sweet and nice of them to do that. Richard and Traci were great because they walked through the audience and answered questions, so everyone would have a chance to see and interact with them. It was great.
I'll have to look and post some more pictures in a few days when I have the time.

Mannequin 3: Reckoning and Unforgiven

I just finished watching Supernatural and I decided to write about what happened on tonight's episode and Unforgiven. Tonight's episode was well written concerning the spirit using the dummies, mannequin's and Dean's baby. I loved that aspect of the show. It was nice to see that they didn't just dump what happened to Sam from one episode to the next, but I would have loved to see more. The boring part of the episode was with Ben and Lisa and I hope and pray that this was the last time that we have to see them and that Dean left them for good.
It's interesting that Sam with or without his soul can't seem to save people. Actually the only difference now is that Sam feels bad about not saving people, so what good does that do. I never read any comments from other fans about Unforgiven and I'm glad that I haven't. I'm sick of everyone thinking Sam was horrible and rotten without a soul. Sam still was out there hunting things and trying to save people and the only difference was that he never felt anything about it. That creature in Unforgiven had not been seen in forever and even Samuel didn't know much about it. So what would Sam and Dean have done differently together than soulless Sam did by himself. They probably would have done the same thing with the same result. The only difference was that soulless Sam didn't care.

I really love Dean's advice to Sam. He should drink and start throwing punches instead of dealing with things. And Dean isn't an alcoholic. That's exactly what one would do. Bury their problems in a booze bottle. Maybe that's what Sam should do. Drink a whole bottle of liquor and then give Dean a good punch. Another interesting thing about soulless Sam and Sam with his soul. Neither of them was willing to punch Dean. Soulless Sam was almost respectful of Dean and tried to do what Dean wanted and what Dean expected of him. I wonder if now, Dean isn't regretting getting Sam's soul back. Sam thanked Dean for getting his damaged soul back. Interesting and I wonder how he'll feel about that later when the wall comes down and he's suffering. I think Dean wishes he didn't have his soul and he couldn't feel anything about Lisa and Ben.

The next couple episodes look really good and I can't wait to see Genevieve on the show again. It was so wonderful to see her and get her autograph at the Convention. She was sweet and so nice. It's going to be funny to see the looks Dean gives Sam when he's kissing on her because he'll think it's Ruby. That's why Genevieve is going to be on as Sam's wife because she was Ruby in the show. Maybe that's why Danneel is not going to be on and that's because she's never been on the show. I'd love to see her in an episode, but I doubt she'll ever be on. It would be so nice to see her being with Jensen and seeing them together.

Well, I'm tired and I have nothing else to say for now.

L.A. Supernatural Convention 2011

This Convention was better than last years. Last year was fun and I had a great time, but it felt like I was missing something and now I know what I missed. I got five photo ops this year and it was so great. I should have bought the duo of Jared and Jensen at the Con because they added extras and I did have the money. I got lucky and my refund came just as I was leaving for the airport.

Of course, my favorite part of the Convention was getting my photo op with Jared. Wow! He hugs you close and is so nice and sweet. So was Jensen. Both of them were just awesome. They did all kinds of poses for fans and were really great to everyone. I loved watching other fans getting their pictures taken because of all the different poses. I just decided to get quick ones and let them choose. There were a lot of fans there and I didn't want to hold anything up. Everything ran pretty much on time, so it was all great. All my photo ops were wonderful and I let my sister in two of them.

This year was even better than last year because I was Gold and got to go to the Dessert Party and The Breakfast with Jared and Jensen. I had a better time at the breakfast and enjoyed what they said at it better than in the theatre. I was able to take more pictures and I didn't have a ton of heads blocking my view of the stage.
The dessert party was awesome and Misha, Jim, Mark and Traci were all wonderful. It was nice to see them up close and be able to talk to them for a few minutes. It's great that you get that opportunity. The Karaoke Party was such a fun time and I still remember that the most. I think that was one of the best things at the Convention and it was for everyone to enjoy. I like that some of the general admission and silver got to have fun too.

Jim Beaver was just totally wonderful at the Convention. He did photo ops and autographs for two days and he was just sitting out there. Even if you didn't see him up close on the stage, you could have seen him sitting there signing autographs. He walked by my sister and I in the hall and waved at us. Then on Sunday, he came out and talked again on the stage to entertain us while Jared and Jensen were signing. That was so fun because Jared and Jensen were yelling stuff from back stage. I got to see Jensen jump up on stage and hug Jim while I was waiting for Jared's autograph. Genevieve came late for her autographs, but it was so wonderful to see her and get her autograph and tell her thank you for coming. Maybe one day, she'll actually do photo ops and talk on the stage. That would be great. All the female characters of Supernatural should be able to come to the Cons because they've all made Supernatural great to watch.

Misha Collins was funny and great as ususal. I had him sign his autograph and he wrote Hamburglar for me on his picture. He's wonderful and my sister told him what he did last year to her picture and he told her that it just made her picture more valuable. That's true.

I had such a great time and it was nice to have this Convention right after my Mully died. I came home though and it was sad to not have her waiting for me like always. I remember she'd be so happy that I was home, that she would not leave my side and kept meowing and rubbing on me. I miss that so much. I miss holding her him my arms and telling her how much I love her.

My Little Hellcat Mully Died Today

My sweet little Mully died today. I found her dead in her litterbox when I got home from work. I've known for how long now, that she was going to die, but I still wasn't prepared for it. I guess you never are. I held her in my arms last night for one last time and said goodbye to her. I almost knew that she was going to die. Maybe she waited until I was gone and my Mom was too. It's funny that she kept herself clean almost right up until she died.

I got Mully over 16 years ago from a pet store. I saw her there a month before I took her home. She licked teriyaki sauce off my fingers and that's the first memory I have of her. I wish now that I would have taken her home right then and there. I was still hoping that my other cat Kiefer would come home, but he never did and I still don't know what happened to him. That's why I didn't take her home at the time. I'm glad she was still there and waiting for me. I think it was fate.

I remember when Mully was this little kitten and she barely had a meow. She was so cute and her body was all white. As she got older, her body turned darker and darker. She was a strange looking cat. She always kept herself so clean and beautiful and sometimes right after I pet her, she'd lick herself like I contaminated her or something. I'm glad that she was so clean. She was an indoor cat and she never did like to go outside. Sometimes I'd bring her out there with me, so she could chew on some grass and get some sun. She'd cry and cry and want to go back inside. She'd run when she heard the house door opening. I used to have to drag her out and sometimes she'd claw me to not go out.

I've never had a cat that hugged before. Mully used to hug me. She'd put both her hands on either side of my neck and I'd hug her and hold her. She always knew when I needed her the most and she'd come and hug me. She knew when I was upset and when I was angry and she'd always try to comfort me. One of my favorite things was holding her in my arms while I was sitting in bed and the sunlight would shine on her sweet face. She was my angel straight from Heaven. I always told everyone that. She was an angel and I thanked God every day for her. I thank God that he let her live for so long to be with me and I'll always have my memories of her.

It really hurts right now to even think about her and that I'll never be able to hold her again and she won't be waiting for me when I get home from work ever again. I used to find her under the covers on my bed when I got home. Even in the heat of the the summer. She loved to be warm and she loved to cuddle and hug. I've never had a more loving and wonderful cat.

Some more things about her. She used to love my denim pants. She'd crawl in my pants when I put them on the bed and try to sleep in them. She used to sleep on my pillow above my head sometimes. Her tail would flap in my face. I called her my little kooky girl. I had a lot of things I used to call her besides Mully. I called her Mully because of X-Files and I loved Mulder and Scully. I thought she was a boy when I got her from the pet store. They lied and said she was and I never checked. I was going to call her Mulder. When I found out she was a girl, I decided to call her Mully for both Mulder and Scully.

Well that's all I have to say about her right now. I hope one day that there is a heaven and when I die, I'll go there and she'll be waiting for me right along with everyone else that I've loved who has died. They say that animals have no souls, but I think that's crap. My Mully had the sweetest soul ever.

Hot Vampire Brothers, Chloe Returns and Sam With His Soul

Wow! Vampire Diaries just keeps getting better and better. I love it. I love watching Damon being Damon again. He's killed two women so far and I've loved every minute of it. Poor Caroline. I felt so bad for her when those two werewolves had her locked up and were torturing her and going to kill her. I can't believe Tyler and that he wasn't there for her and she was there for him. I love how Elena and Bonnie came over to spend the night with her. That was so cute that it almost made me cry. I love Kevin Williamson. Vampire Diaries is kind of like watching Dawson's Creek with a twist. I love everything that's happening on the show. I love how there are witches, vampires and werewolves. Who knows what else will turn up? Matt it seems is the only character in the dark right now. I feel sorry for him. I can't wait until he finds out that Caroline is a vampire. That should be good. I love all the drama.

Finally Chloe returns to Smallville and what a return it was. I've really missed Chloe and I'm so glad that she's back and hopefully for the rest of the season. This episode was probably the best one of the final season. I loved watching Chloe kick some ass even if it wasn't in the real world. It was great. I even loved seeing Chloe and Oliver together at the end. I wasn't that fond of them getting together, but they are cute together. Clark finally flew and with Lois in his arms. Sure, it wasn't in reality, but close enough and we finally got to see it for once.

Sam got his soul back after it was gone for a year and half in hell. Now poor Sam has to be forgiven for what his body did while he was in hell and supposedly suffering. Like it's Sam's fault that his soul was in hell and his body was on Earth. Bobby has a right to feel wary of Sam for trying to kill him, but the only reason Sam was going to kill him was so he'd never get his soul back. Does that even make sense? Finally, Dean is back to being the Dean I know and love. I love how he stole all that gold. Of course, Dean could not pull that sword out of the stone and that's because he has no virtue. And Dean has very little morals. That still kills me. That Dean was trying to be Sam's moral compass when Sam didn't have his soul. I'm still laughing my ass off about that. Dean has hardly any morals at all. I love how in You Can't Handle The Truth we found out that Dean thought Sam was being just like him. And that was Sam without a soul, so what does that say about Dean. I can't wait to find out some more about what Sam did without his soul. I guess we'll find out next week. I don't know if I'll be watching the show or at the concert. I loved how Sam is the one that killed one of the dragons. I knew he was like a virgin again once he got his soul back. I don't think Dean can ever be like a virgin. True, he hasn't had as much sex in the last couple of years as he normally does. He had sex with Lisa, but that was all. I'm hoping Lisa and Ben are gone for good after we see them again. It would be nice if they died, but I bet they won't. That sucks because I want them gone off the show all together. I still can't stand Lisa and it wouldn't matter what the writer's did with her character now. I'll never like her.

The L.A. Convention is only one week away. This time next week, I'll be at the Con. I can't wait. The rotten part is I got called back to work this week. Now I have to use my leave for the Con and I won't get any extra money either. I don't get a pay check for about three weeks. Maybe my refund will come and I'll have some money from that to buy things at the Con. Oh well. It's still going to be fun. I have three photo ops and gold tickets and I'm very excited.

Vampire Diaries And The Postponement of Smallville And Supernatural

Vampire Diaries was excellent this week. Lauren Cohan was awesome as Rose and it was so sad to see her die. I loved that scene with her and Damon and then Damon stabbing her. Damon turning evil again is also great. I think that's why I love him the most on the show. His character is so multi-dimensional, just like Sam's is on Supernatural. Vampire Diaries is a great show and I think it has gotten even better now in it's second season.
I've been reading all the rude comments some people have been making on Facebook about it. They're just angry about Smallville and Supernatural not being on. Mainly Supernatural. I think Vampire Diaries is ten times better than those Twilight movies. I bought Eclipse and I still haven't even watched it and I didn't even go to see it in the theaters. I loved Eclipse the most out of all the books and it's funny that I'm just not interested in watching the movie.
I have enjoyed reading a lot of those Facebook comments about Nikita and I totally agree with all of them. I can't stand Nikita and I will never watch that show, even if one of my favorite actors or actresses appeared on it. I can't stand that Maggie Q for some reason. There are some actors and actresses that I just can't stand and I'll never watch any movie with them in it or any TV shows.
I've been laughing at all the swearing and everything. I just hope CW's decision does not hurt the network. I still love CW, but I'm very disappointed and angry right now just like a lot of other people who were waiting for both Smallville and Supernatural to come on or either show. I've seen this kind of crap happen before and that's why I don't watch the big TV networks anymore. They play all kinds of tricks to get ratings and crap like that. I'm just glad that I have the internet and I found out about the shows not being on or I'd have been really angry. At least, I got a little advance notice. In the past, I never got any. I'd be waiting in anticipation for my favorite show, only to see something else come on. I swore at the TV and I was so angry. I didn't care what came on instead of my favorite show, it sucked no matter what.

I do think Vampire Diaries has had the best writing and it's got everything I love in a show. I'm hoping that Supernatural will have some more dramatic moments and less comedy in the second half of the season. I love the comedy, but I want more of a balance on the show. I thoroughly loved Supernatural's last three episodes and they were better than any of the Vampire Diaries episodes. I just want more balance between Sam and Dean's characters and drama and comedy on the show. If I get that, then Supernatural will be the best show on CW. I think it is now and that's only because I'm obsessed with it and most of the time, I really don't care what happens. I just want to watch Jared, Jensen, Jim and Misha every week in new episodes.

Here's something. CW is TV to chat, text and blog about. I say it's TV to chat, text and bitch about. I guess once the show is back on, some fans can go back to bitching about how crappy Supernatural has gotten and how crappy the writing is, instead of bitching about the show not being on. I love it.