Corin Nemec

I started Hell House for all my crazy love for all things entertainment. I love Corin Nemec and just had to post about him. I remember when I first watched him on "I Know My First Name Is Steven". I thought to myself, wow, who is this kid. He was one of the best actors I had seen in a long time. The movie and Corin made me cry. If a star can make me cry and feel emotion, then they are a great actor or actress. I watched Corin in "Parker Lewis Can't Lose". It was a short lived TV show and I was sad when they cancelled it because I loved to see Corin's smile.
I was so happy to see Corin on Stargate SG1. I loved him as Jonas and I wish he could've stayed on the show. I only got to see him for one season and a few episodes in another. That sucked because I really got into the show for him. I stopped watching after he left the show because I loved his character, so there was nothing left to watch.
My family think I'm crazy because that's the main reason I start watching a show. A hot hunk that I like, but that's not always the only reason. There has got to be a good story and their character has to be interesting to watch. I've loved a lot of actors and went to watch them on something and didn't like who they were playing and didn't watch the show. So their hot good looks didn't mean everything. I'm not that shallow, or at least, I don't think I am.
I still watch my Stargate episodes every now and then to see Corin. I never stop loving actors and stars, even after they grow old and some have even died. My love just goes on for them and I keep it in my heart always.

Sammy and the Panic Room

This is not a theory, but what I believe. I'm going to believe it, until I find out that it's not true. I still think when Sam was in the panic room, that Castiel was making him see every thing that he saw. Young Sam, his mom and Dean. I think it was all to get Sam to go after Lilith. Dean said he was screaming out there for hours, so what was Castiel doing. I think he was down there making those things happen to Sam. Then Castiel, let him out of the panic room.

You would've thought that Dean and Bobby would've tried to figure out who let him out. They knew that it couldn't have been Sam. And it couldn't have been Ruby, so who did they think it was?

People think Sam had an addiction to demon blood, like a drunk or a drug addict. Booze and drugs are chemicals that change your brain chemistry. What does demon blood do? It's funny that people think because Sam didn't get blood, that he would hallucinate. Blood does not change your brain functions. I still think Ruby did something to Sam and made him want to have the blood. Or it's all in Sam's head and he thinks he needs it. That still doesn't mean he'd hallucinate, if he didn't get it.

Maybe Castiel was following orders and was hoping that Dean would go after Sam and stop him somehow. If Dean would've gone with Sam, it would've foiled the demons and angels plot, maybe. Who knows what would've happened? If Dean went with Sam, he probably wouldn't have let Sam drink anymore blood, no matter what. Dean would've killed Ruby. I think a part of Dean was pissed because Sam did decide to go with her.

Sam made the choice to go with her and leave Dean. Sam will pay the price and take responsibility for his actions. I know he will and he'll probably be, guilty as hell. Then Sam has felt guilty for his mother dying, his father dying, Jessica dying and for not being able to save Dean from going to hell. Now he'll be guilty for starting the apocalypse.

Whether Sam would've stopped any of these things from happening, is debatable. I still think he was tricked, manipulated and fooled into breaking the last seal. No matter what Sam and Dean would've done, the demons and angels would've found a way to start the apocalypse.

I can't wait to find out how Sam is going to act without the blood and if he'll need it as much. Will just drinking all the demon blood, that he did, have some major effect on him? I'll have to find out when the show starts again.

Poor Jensen, Lucky Jared

I feel bad for poor Jensen. He'll probably be working his butt off, yet again on Supernatural. All those crazy, obsessed freaks, just want to see him and they go insane, if he's not on constantly and front and center of the show. I think people love his character of Dean more than him. I actually love Jensen more than his character Dean. He's a great actor, but the poor guy is going to be busy.

As for Jared, he'll probably get lucky again and be able to go on another vacation. I think that would be great because he's young and he needs to have fun. I wouldn't want him to work himself to death for anything. I love him more than his character of Sam, so I want what's best for him. Maybe, if he's got more time, he could do a movie or something in between. That would be great because I was so happy to see him in "Christmas Cottage" and "Friday The 13th". It's great when I can watch him on TV, DVD and at the movies. It was nice that I got to see Jensen in "My Bloody Valentine". Jensen can really look evil when he wants to.

I'm just hoping with the addition of Misha and some of the returning and new characters, that Jared and Jensen get some much needed rest during the season. Maybe they can get a break, like Tom Welling got on Smallville. Tom even got to direct an episode. I loved that. It would be neat if Jared or Jensen could direct one of Supernatural's.

Too Much

I think Kripke and Co are saying all kinds of stuff and who really knows what will happen now. I've heard so many different things, that it's starting to get ridiculous. I'm actually tired of reading about interviews and spoilers because who really knows what's going to happen. Kripke has told how many different things now. Sera Gamble and Ben Edlund have told different things. The interview with Jensen said totally different things. So what's going to happen, only they know, until the show comes back on and I'm going to wait before I start jumping to conclusions and thinking up stuff.

I'll have to start another blog about my theories and keep that private, just in case someone has been actually reading this blog, but me. When I had Hell House on the CW site, I knew people were reading it and then going and saying shit about my theories or trying to say they were their own. It still pisses me off, that those stupid mods over there deleted my thread. It had some of my best theories. I can still remember some and I still think some of them are going to happen.

I guess I won't be posting that much on the CW site because of a certain bitch on there. She acts like she's in Junior High School or something. She thinks she's queen bitch of the Supernatural site. I did find a few people to discuss things with, but try to find them when you really want to talk. They're probably afraid to say what they feel because someone will attack them for it. Some of those Dean fans over there give all Supernatural fans a bad name. Now I can see why a lot of people don't stay on there to post, especially ones who love Sam. It's totally biased. Also, some of those people are so stupid and close-minded that it's sickening. They just believe everything Kripke says or everything they read. I wonder if they even have brains to think with. It's scary.

Crossroad's Blues

I haven't watched this episode in a long time and I had forgotten a lot of things. That scene where Sam and Dean were talking about John maybe making a deal and just there faces. I loved it, you could see all the anguish in both of their faces. They both probably wanted to say more to each other at that point, but they couldn't. Dean had to go and trick the Crossroads Demon to save that guy. Then at the end when Sam asked Dean if he was just tricking the demon or was actually thinking about taking the deal. Dean didn't look at Sam and turned the music up. Just the looks on both their faces.

I wonder if somewhere old Azazel and the angels who wanted the apocalypse, were watching Sam and Dean and seeing what they would do and testing them. Maybe they realized at that point that Dean would be willing to make a deal, just like John did for his family or more importantly for Sam.

I now think that that whole thing with Sam and the psychic kids was just a bunch of crap. I don't think old Azazel wanted a demon leader for an army. Maybe he had that whole thing set up, so that Jake would stab Sam. Azazel knew that Sam would do the right thing and not kill Jake because that was Sam. Azazel wanted Dean to sell his soul and he wanted Dean as fast as he could get him. Dean only got a year, but maybe Azazel could deal with that, but you wonder what happened with that Crossroad demon. Was she in trouble after she gave Dean a year?

Also how do the crossroad demons, get in and out of hell. It seems that they've got a direct line there. Also, is the crossroads some kind of link between heaven and hell. On the crossroads, you choose whether to make a deal and go to hell, or not make one and maybe go to Heaven or where ever we go. Are the Reapers involved in it or do they have no choice in the matter. If some one's soul went on to heaven or limbo or whatever, do the demons get their souls back or do angels.

I think I think to much about his stuff. No wonder I haven't watched the episode for a while. On a funny note about the episode, it was funny hearing Dean not knowing what MySpace is. He thought it was a porn sight.

More Pics Of Jensen

Jensen can make me feel almost as happy as Jared.

Getting excited for my shows to come back on

I just went to look at a few sites to see what's going to or might happen in my favorite shows. I really can't wait for Gossip Girl. It said there was going to be a lot of Chuck and Blair and more Dorota. I love that woman. I can't wait to see all the relationship changes and the things the characters will face, now that a lot of them will be going to college. It's going to be fun.
One Tree Hill news. I didn't see too much of. I'm looking forward to seeing what will happen without Peyton and Lucas on the show. Tree Hill has a great cast and they've added some new people. That should prove interesting.
Smallville looks very promising with maybe Lois and Oliver getting together again for a bit. I always loved their chemistry together. I hope Clark learns a few things and it says he's going to be obsessed with saving people and not thinking about the other things. He does need to have a life, too. Even though, he's a hero, he deserves to have a little happiness for a while. They've got more characters coming on and hopefully they'll be good and I won't miss Davis too much.
Legend Of The Seeker looks interesting because Richard has opened a door or something into the underworld. Richard might have a new love interest and not just be with Kahlan. Interesting, but not too worried about it. I love that forbidden love stuff because you see all the wanting and yearning the lovers have for each other. They look at other people and sometimes are with other people, but that doesn't mean they don't still want to be with each other. I just hope there is plenty of fighting, good stories and love and friendship on there.

Certain Sammy Scene, I Wish I Could See In Season 5

Here's a scene I would love to see in season 5. I'd love to see Sam in a church or somewhere praying to God for forgiveness for what he did. Even though, Sam didn't know that's what he was doing and he made the mistake of thinking he was doing what was right. I'd love to see him crying and praying and asking for forgiveness and maybe having Dean hear him. It would be like something I've seen on other shows, but I'd love it. Maybe Sam asking God what he wants of him or to help him be there and help Dean or whatever.
We know that Sam prayed to God every day, but who knows if he stopped or not or if he was still praying, despite doing what he did. I just want to know what Sam feels about God now and whether he believes in God. We never got to know in season 4 because we were just meant to think that Sam was turning dark and he just wanted revenge. I still think Sam wanted to save and help people and to help his brother Dean. Sam believed in the angels and God, so does he still believe? If he doesn't believe, will he find faith in God again and know that God still loves him.

I'm just hoping for anything to see what Sam thinks and feels. I still want Sam to be strong and know that God still loves him and cares about him.
God only gives us what we need, not what we want. Maybe Sam did pray to God to have the strength to drink demon blood, even though he knew it could be harmful, to try to do the right thing.
God never gives verbal answers to anyone, so you have to have faith.
I don't know, I just hope we get to see how Sam feels about God and everything that has happened.

Jensen Ackles And Smallville

I just started to watch some old episodes of Smallville. I watched a couple from season 4 with Jensen. Man was he hot in there. I swear they found the most hunky guys to play on Smallville over the years. I've always loved Tom Welling and he was my main focus. In season 4, Jensen gave him a run for his money. I loved watching Jensen smile on the show. After fighting over stupid Dean's character on Supernatural, I needed to watch Jensen in something else. I loved Dean at the start of Supernatural, but my love is slowing fading away for his character. I don't know if it's Kripke and Co, that stupid CW message board or what. I do know that it is not Jensen Ackles. I love him and will never stop. He's a great actor and I love watching him.

Going back to Smallville. It was funny to see Tom Welling when he was a little bit younger. I've always loved watching him smile. His smile lights up his whole face and makes you want to smile. It's funny that on Smallville the writer's have been using the same formula for the show for the last eight seasons and it works. They don't have to come up with crazy ass stuff to get people to watch. It seems like too many shows are doing that now a days, including Supernatural. People have come and gone on Smallville, but the show still feels the same to me. I guess as long as there's Clark Kent, our Superman, then it doesn't matter who else is with him. I do love that Chloe has been on the show with Clark since the beginning. Her and Clark are the only two characters that have stayed on since the beginning. I love their friendship. It's nice to see a man and woman have a friendship without having sex. It's nice to see.

Watching old Smallville episodes does make me kind of sad. I miss Jonathan and Martha Kent, Lex, Jason, Pete and a few others that are no longer on the show. It is nice that I can see them again in those old episodes, but then you miss them.

I'm going to watch some more episodes of Smallville, so I don't have to even think about Supernatural right now. I'm glad Jensen was in one of my favorite shows that I love. I wish Jared would've been in one and not Gilmore Girls. The only reason I watched that show was to see him. If I watch repeats, it's only to catch a glimpse of him.

More Pics Of Jared

Just looking at pics of Jared makes me smile.

Dean Koontz's Frankenstein

Finally the third book of Dean Koontz's Frankenstein is coming out on Tues. I've been waiting for about four years now. I never thought it was ever going to come out. I had almost given up hope waiting for it. This series is Dean's best series and it's like a new twist on an old tale. A more modern day telling of Frankenstein. I'm currently re-reading the other two books, in preparation for the new book. It's been so long since I've read them, I've forgotten some things. I had my two sisters read the first two books and they got pissed off at me because the third one didn't come out. They said how could I let them read a continuing story, unless there was an end to it. I wonder what happened because the three books were supposed to come out, six months apart from each other. I read the first two and waited and waited. Now the third book is finally here. It was kind of like waiting for that fifth Harry book to come out. It's exciting knowing that it's finally going to be here.

I Thought I Was Bad

I thought I was bad, but people out there are worse. I still think people just want to either like Sam or Dean. Can't discuss anything in a certain way because crazy people just want to cry about poor Dean. Dean went to hell and he suffered and "boo hoo" for him. Dean probably loved hell, but who will believe that. Dean was busy torturing souls, but he was suffering so much. He said he loved torturing the souls, but he's not a monster at all. He's just a great guy, like always.

Sam's big revenge kick. Sam wanted revenge on a demon, but that's so horrible. Lilith is evil, but Sam shouldn't go after her and kill her. Maybe, if Dean or the angels would've told Sam that by killing her, he'd break the last seal, maybe Sam wouldn't gone after her. But on the other hand, that's exactly what the angels wanted in the first place. So Sam was so wrong and evil and revenge driven. What do you call the angels? What do you call Dean for just doing nothing the whole time? He didn't even try to find out what was going on. Part of him didn't even give a rat's ass if the apocalypse started or not and I think a part of him didn't really care what happened to Sam.

Let's just demonize Sam and keep going on about the horrible decisions Sam made. Yeah, Sam was on a dark road. He was kept in the dark because he didn't know what Dean was supposed to do or what the angels were doing. He didn't know what the demons were doing, but he made such horrible mistakes because he's an evil rotten monster that doesn't have any morals and is selfish and prideful. Sam wanted all the glory for himself and he wanted to tell Dean, "Hey Dean, I'm the greatest and you're just an asshole. I stopped Lilith, but you're too weak and stupid." Sorry, but I could never picture Sam shoving that in Dean's face. Maybe Sam finally wanted to be able to do something because he's always felt helpless and Dean has always been stronger and in control and seemed to be able to defeat the demons they've fought.

People keep bringing up all the stuff Sam said to Dean under the siren's spell, but they can't say Sam ever told anything to Dean when he wasn't under that spell. He never told Dean that he was weak, but he did tell Dean he was self-righteous and just like Uriel said, Dean should come down off his high horse. If that wasn't pride and arrogance on Dean's part, then I don't know what was. Dean tortured souls in hell and loved it, but Sam using his powers was horrible and evil and wrong. Here's some things Dean said to Sam and Dean wasn't under a spell. " The smarter brother is back". " What's with you and banging monsters?", If I didn't know you, I'd want to hunt you." ( hunt Sam for pulling demons out of people and sending them to hell). Dean told Sam he was a monster and that he wouldn't do anything to stop Lilith or whatever. Tell me Dean wasn't full of pride. Most of the time Dean thinks he's the best hunter, the best lover and the best everything. That's pride.

Sam lied to Dean and went behind his back. Like Dean didn't lie to Sam's face how many times. Dean has kept stuff from Sam and kept Sam in the dark about what Azazel said about Sam not being 100 percent pure Sam. But that's okay, because Dean the chose one can do whatever he wants to.

I'm sick of fighting with people over this because the more people say crap, the more they make me dislike Dean's character. They constantly put down Sam's character to make Dean look great, but say that they're not. What a joke.

Good Or Bad Thing

I'm going to be going back to work and I don't know if that's good or bad in relationship to my obsession with Supernatural. At work, I have too much time to think about things, while I'm typing. My work is mostly repetitive and I have a lot of time to think. I hope I don't just sit there thinking up theories and stuff because for some reason, I just can't stop thinking stuff.

I know I sit and take things out on Dean's character and I mainly do that because Kripke and Co have made his character more in depth than Sam. I want Sam to have as many layers and dimensions as Dean. I want us fans to finally get to know Sam better, not just Dean. It seems like Sam is this big mystery and that's how the writers have portrayed him, just to make people think Sam is either good or evil. I still think Sam is good and I've always thought that, since the show started.

I guess I'll spend less time on The CW board because spoilers are coming out and people are getting kind of crazy at times. It drives me crazy and I don't know why. I don't think spoilers really spoil, they just cause people to talk more and speculate on things. Sometimes it's fun to think what will happen and sometimes not. Kripke and Co aren't going to give anything away, just like they didn't last year.
Mostly people are just writing about what they want to see happen or what they think will happen from little snippets of info. Nothing ever is as it seems.

I like the boards because there are a lot of great people who want to talk and discuss the show and sometimes I really need to do that. It's nice when you can find those people and connect with them. Everyone should be able to discuss what they like to. I try to stay off the boards when I'm depressed or angry and I try to be positive. I'm going to keep the love going for Sammy and for Dean. I love them both and I'm looking forward to season 5. I'm setting my expectations low, though, so I won't be too disappointed and if Kripke and Co surprise me and give me something great, I'll be flying high and be happy.

I've just got to survive another month and a half until the premiere. We'll see from there.

Kripke's Crap

I'm so sick of hearing about Kripke's big five year plan for Supernatural. It's all a load of crap. Kripke didn't even know if the show would last past the first season, let alone five seasons. It seems to me that the show has made less and less sense as it's gone along and Kripke and Co just keeping coming up with more crap.
First the YED had some big plan for Sammy and he told Sam it was for him to lead his demon army. Then we find out it was for Sam to start the apocalypse, which didn't make any sense at all. In season 3, Sam was supposed to turn evil and save Dean from going to hell. That changed and Dean went to hell. I don't think it was that stupid writer's strike that made that happen. Then Dean was going to be in hell for a while before he got out and we were going to see Sam dealing with Dean being gone. That didn't happen because things changed.

Kripke and Co do not have some big five year plan for the show. Lately they've just been writing crap and trying to please people, mainly the fans that love Dean. Like Dean is the only character that fans want to see. Kripke couldn't convince people that Dean had an important part in the show, so he had to create one. Now Dean is supposed to save everyone by defeating Lucifer and what not. Kripke even says who knows if Dean really is the one that will defeat Lucifer and that the demons just think he is the one. Whatever that means.

Kripke and Co are just writing whatever they want right now because they know that people will watch the show, no matter what. Even when the show has been stupid, people still watch it. The writing for the show in season 4 was the worst. There were so many plot holes and questions without answers, that it was sickening. Who knows what anyone was even doing after a while?

Dean seemed to me like he got back from Hell and didn't really care about anything, except for thinking Sam was going down a dark road and turning into a monster. I didn't see Dean trying to stop seals from breaking or to stop the apocalypse from coming. It's like he didn't care what happened. Then I saw him trying to save as many people as he could to make himself feel better for torturing souls in hell. He told Castiel and the angels off, whenever he could and didn't really care what they were doing or what they wanted from him. He treated Sam like he was a freak and a monster and threw him in a panic room without even talking to him.
I realize that Dean got out of hell and was going through stuff, but he acted so weird and you never knew the reason for it. Then Dean is supposed to be the one who broke the first seal and the only one to stop Lucifer and the Apocalypse.

Sam seemed like he was depressed and didn't care about anything, until Dean came back from Hell. Sam wanted revenge on Lilith and was going after her with a vengeance. Who knows why? I doubt it was just for Dean going to hell or maybe it was, but I guess Sam wasn't supposed to be angry that she sent Dean to hell. Sam to me looked like he was the only one trying to do anything. He saw that Dean and the angels weren't doing anything to stop the seals from breaking and he tried to do it himself. It's funny that Ruby used Sam's caring about people against him. Sam never thought he could save anyone and he thought that by stopping Lilith and the seals from breaking, that he would finally be worth something and that he could save people. Sam kept saving Dean's life the whole season and he stood by Dean and treated him like he always did. Sam has lied to Dean before and he's disappeared without telling Dean where he went, so Sam didn't act different. Sam was drinking demon blood, which I thought was a goofy thing to do and crazy that the writers had Sam doing that. Then Sam is the one that breaks the last seal and turns into a monster because he supposedly killed some nurse. Sam thought he was trying to help people, but found out he started the apocalypse.

Then the Angels on the show. Who the hell knew what was going on with them and who knows what the hell they really want? We still don't know. Do they even want the apocalypse to end and Lucifer to go to hell, or do they want Lucifer to be with them. It seems like the angels on Supernatural are not taking orders from God, or that's what it looks like to me. They wanted the apocalypse and made sure that it happened. I still don't get any of that shit and I don't think I want to.

Kripke is just making stuff up and stringing people along. Everyone thinks he is a genius and he's so wonderful. I think his writing for the show sucked big time this season. Heaven And Hell had the most stupid dialogue that I've ever seen on Supernatural, yet. It was probably the worst episode I've ever seen of any of my favorite shows for years. Then Lucifer Rising, was the slowest and most boring season finale, I've ever seen. It plodded along and I'm glad that I didn't fall asleep during it. Nothing made sense on it and it probably won't make sense for the season 5 season premiere.

I read some of that dialogue for the show in TV Guide and it sounded stupid. I hope the rest of the writing is better than that short snippet.

I'm just hoping that Sam doesn't get the short end of the stick this upcoming season, yet again. They say he's going to be dealing with his demon blood addiction, trying to mend his relationship with Dean and redeem himself for trying to save people. I hope that isn't all Sam gets to do. Mope and grovel at the almighty Dean's feet and sit in a corner crying.

As for Dean, why doesn't he have some part in mending the relationship with Sam. He called Sam a monster and thought Sam was turning evil, but why did he think that? Who the hell knows? That's just one of the big mysteries. Then Dean has to save the world and everyone. He broke the first seal, but he's going to save everyone. He was supposed to die long ago, but now he has some big destiny. Tessa told him in "MY Time Of Dying" that the war was over for him, but now he's the main part of the war. Give me a break. The only reason Dean lived was because John sold his soul for him, not God wanted Dean to live.

Who knows what kind of crap Kripke will come up with next, just to please the fans? I can't believe people believe every word that comes out of his mouth, like it's gospel or something. Kripke probably laughs his head off reading and listening to all the stuff people come up with. I think Kripke and Co just want the show to be talked about and not to have good plots that make sense. They just want the show to be some big mystery that people will have to solve. I'm sick of guessing and trying to come up with theories or anything. If Kripke keeps crapping on Supernatural, then I probably end up not watching it anymore. I'm not going to believe a word of what Kripke and Co say is going to happen because who knows what new crap they will come up with.

Shows That I Watched To The End And Shows That Have Bit The Dust

With the new TV season starting here soon, I thought I'd put down all the shows that I've watched to their end and the ones I dumped before they ended.

Here's a list of shows that I watched to the end of their run and loved them.

7th Heaven
Charmed
Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman
Hart To Hart
Simon And Simon
The Love Boat
Trapper John M.D.
M.A.S.H.
The Fall Guy
Alice
Happy Days
Three's Company
Star Trek: The Next Generation
Scarecrow And Mrs. King
Christy
Jack And Bobby

I know that I'm probably forgetting some, but these are a few that I could think of off the top of my head. I love TV and have been watching for a long time. Not all my favorite shows kept entertaining me to the end, but that doesn't mean that I don't love them, it just means that the writers or something made me stop watching them.

Here's some shows that bit the dust before their run was over and I stopped watching them for various reasons.

Buffy The Vampire Slayer
Angel
Roswell
Felicity
Stargate SG.1
E.R.
The O.C.
Dallas
Dynasty
Melrose Place
The X-Files

I'm just hoping that I don't have to add Supernatural to this list and that it will stay in my other list of shows that I watched to the end. Supernatural has become like the X-Files, in that it keeps giving more questions than answers and after a while the show doesn't make any sense. Supernatural is making less and less sense as it has gone along and I'm getting tired of trying to figure out what's going to happen next. I'm sick of all the mystery crap and the questions that never get answered.

My Favorite Characters From My Favorite Shows

Supernatural: Sam Winchester played by Jared Padalecki

Smallville: Clark Kent played by Tom Welling
It would have been Davis Bloome, but he's dead now and he was only on for a season.

One Tree Hill: Dan Scott played by Paul Johansson

Gossip Girl: Chuck Bass played by Ed Westwick

Legend Of The Seeker: Richard Cypher played by Craig Horner

Reaper: The Devil played by Ray Wise
I included Reaper because it was such a good show, even though it was cancelled.

My favorite characters are either heroes or villains, it's just a matter of how you look at them.

Interviews and Spoilers

I'm not going to read to much into spoilers this season because they are a load of crap and are meant to deceive. I think the interviews of Jared, Jensen and Kripke and Co are also meant to deceive us. I don't think they want us to know anything because they want everything to be a big surprise. I just hope the surprises of season 5 are better than the ones in season 4. It's funny when they tell something in an interview and really they've done the total opposite of what they were going to do. Kripke has a crappy sense of humor and I think he's in cahoots with the real devil. lol

All I Own In This World And My Greatest Treasures

I've just been thinking about this and decided to write it down. What do I own in this world? The only thing I really own are my memories and they are my greatest treasures on this Earth.

I'm 40, so I have a whole lot of memories. I see things in my head, like someone watching a video or looks at a picture. Every person, pet, place, song and a whole lot more are stored in my head. People always ask me how I remember all the stuff that I do. I think I remember everything because it is important to me. I remember simple things, but some of those things are greater than any rich man's treasures or possessions.

People I love have died, but they still live on in me. I take those people everywhere that I go and they are with me always. I see their sweet smiles and I hear their voices, sometimes they are angry or something else, but I still love the memories of them.

Some might think I'm crazy, but I've learned a lot over time. When I was younger, I always heard those sayings, like "The Grass Is Not Always Greener On The Other Side Of The Fence" and I thought they were stupid. Now, I believe in how many things.

I believe that there is a God and I believe in Jesus Christ. Why do I believe? When I've been so depressed, that I felt like I was going to die, just from wanting to so much and I didn't think I was loved or worth anything, I felt some one's presence and heard a voice in my head. Some might think I'm crazy, but I believe that was either God or my guardian angel. When my own mind was telling me that I'd never be happy and I'd always be miserable, this voice kept saying, I just had to wait and that I wouldn't be miserable or depressed always.

I thought that no one loved me in this world. I found some one who loves me, and I found out that this person was myself. I had to learn to love myself before I was ever going to be happy. I've been having a great life, since I found myself and started to love myself. That old saying is true, "You Can Never Love Some One, Unless You Love Yourself".

Why am I writing this on here? I writing it here because Jared and Jensen and all my favorite stars, singers, athletes and writers are part of my greatest treasures. Every show that I watch, every movie and TV star that I love, all the singers who sing my favorite songs, all the athletes who inspire me and all the writers who write great books that I read are all a part of what makes me be happy and I carry them around with me too.

My greatest treasures on this Earth are always with me. They are in a place where nothing can destroy them and I trust in God to keep them safe for me. If by some chance, I lost my memory, would I lose everything. No, I would not, I'd just start from scratch and start collecting and loving again.

People take videos and pictures of people they love and places they go to, but do they ever remember the joy of being there. I remember certain trips I've gone on with the people I love, but I don't have a lot of pictures and in some cases, I never took any. I take pictures in my mind and I remember things, just like I'm back on the trip reliving it again. I can picture myself in certain places and I can remember what the weather was like and everything. Maybe some people can't do this and I'm grateful that I can.

Pictures can fade or be destroyed, even electronic ones. Videos can be destroyed and lost and whatnot, but my memories and how I feel about the people I love will never be destroyed or lost or fade away.

Everyone I love on this Earth could die, all the animals I love could die and everything beautiful, but I'd still have those things, no matter what.

New Commandments For Sam Winchester

Here's some new commandments for Sam.

1. Thou shall not have any other Gods, except for Dean Winchester

2. Thou shall not lie to Dean Winchester

3. Thou shall not kill, but only certain creatures and demons

4. Thou shall not have sex with demons, creatures or humans, or anyone Dean wants to have sex with

5. Thou shall not drink demon blood

6. Thou shall not exorcise demons, unless he uses the knife

7. Thou shall not covet any one's normal life

8. Thou shall honor only Dean

9. Thou shall not steal, but only certain things that Dean says are okay to steal

10. Thou shall not take Dean's name in vain

I hope I'm not leaving anything out. It seems like Sam has to bow down to Dean and people think Dean is an angel or getting orders directly from God. Like Dean is on some mission from God and everything he tells Sam is gospel or something.

Funny thing is neither Sam or Dean are on a mission from God. They are both being pawns for the angels and demons. Neither Sam or Dean are above each other and they shouldn't treat each other like that. Both of them have done things and made mistakes. Neither is more righteous than the other. Neither of them should tell the other what to do, like they know right from wrong. No one really knows what God wants, not even angels, or at least, the angels on Supernatural. God does not try to control people, that went out long ago with Christ. When Christ came along, we got free will and we still have it. I still think Sam and Dean do too. Or least, Sam does because he did not sell his soul to a demon. Dean on the other hand, who knows?

One Tree Hill And Why I Love This Show

When I first saw One Tree Hill, I called it One Tree Shit and didn't really watch it. I didn't start noticing how good the show was until the third season. Then, I thought to myself, this is a pretty darn good show. I loved it in season four, then season five came along and I loved it even more and by season six, I totally and completely loved it. I've bought all the seasons on DVD and I can't wait for season six to come out.
One thing about One Tree Hill this last season, it was my new 7th Heaven. I loved 7th Heaven because when I watched the show, I always felt great after, that's what One Tree Hill usually does for me. It is uplifting and it makes you believe that if you work hard enough and believe hard enough, your dreams can really come true. Not a lot of people believe in good things, now a days. You usually have a pretty good say in how your life is working out. If you want a good and happy life, then it will be hard and you'll usually have to work for it. If you want a rotten and unhappy life, then you'll follow your passions and take the easy way, but you'll probably never be happy or get what you dream or want.
One Tree Hill usually has everything that I love in a show. It has love and relationships, villains, fighting, friendships, happy times and great music. Not all the characters of One Tree Hill are related by blood, but they sure do act like they're a family. Sometimes they are closer, than family. It's great to watch and it makes you believe that there is good in this world, not just evil and heartache.
When the show started the characters were teenagers and they've grown over the years into adults. I like how they mostly portray them as responsible adults, not adults that just do whatever they want to satisfy themselves. The characters think about each other and help each other. They've changed and grown, but they don't know everything, but even adults have still a lot to learn. You never get too old to learn new things.
I've always loved the music on One Tree Hill and I love Kate Voegele being on the show as Mia. Now I get to listen to her on the show, previewing her latest album. I love that. I'd really love to hear Bethany Joy Galeotti, sing more on the show. I love her playing Haley.
My second favorite character on Tree Hill has to be Brooke Davis. She is a real kick ass character and I love her. Sophia Bush is one of my favorite female actors, if not my favorite right now. Dan Scott is my favorite character and he usually is the villain of the piece. I love Paul Johansson because he can really make me either laugh or cry with his character.
I loved that I could laugh and cry all season long of season six. There was sadness and there was happiness. I loved all the great things that happened on the show. It's funny that God was never mentioned on Tree Hill, but the show was so uplifting and made you feel that God was there.
Here's another thing. Tree Hill had the creepiest scene that I saw all last season on any of my shows. It was where Sam got into the car with Q's killer and his brother. I was so scared and it didn't help that Jamie was reading that creepy poem.
Well, that why I love Tree Hill and now I call it One Tree Great.

Sam Turning Dark And Evil

Here's some of my thoughts about Sam turning dark and evil. I almost wished that Kripke and Co would've turned Sam evil for real, instead of trying to make it look like it. I would've loved to see Sam really hurting Dean, not just lying to him and sneaking around. Did Dean even care about that or was he pissed that Sam didn't confide in him and tell him everything?
I would've loved seeing Sam be like Angeleus was in Buffy. He wanted to make Buffy hurt and suffer and he hurt all her friends to hurt her more. That was the best acting David Boreanaz has ever done in his career. I just love watching those episodes from season 2 of Buffy. David could never really pull that off on his own show, Angel. He could never really be as evil as he was in those episodes of season 2.
I would think that Sam was turning dark or evil, if he started to not care about the people he's killed or had to kill. If Sam killed someone for the pure pleasure of the kill or killed someone and just shrugged it off, I would think of Sam as evil. Lying doesn't make anyone evil because everyone lies and anyone who says they don't is the biggest liar of all. Sam lying to Dean didn't real hurt anyone, but Dean. Or did it. I really don't know.
It's funny that Dean kept telling Sam that he was going down a dark road, but Castiel told Dean that Sam was heading down a dangerous road. Dangerous is totally different than dark. Dangerous for who? Sam or the world and why did Dean just jump to the conclusion that what Sam was doing was evil.
People keep going on and on about Sam killing the woman in "The Rapture" and "Lucifer Rising". The angels were manipulating everything, so why does everyone blame Sam. Who knows if that nurse is even dead? If she did die, who helped to kill her? Ruby and Castiel( who let Sam out of that panic room). If Sam had never been released by Castiel, than the nurse if she's dead, might not have died and the apocalypse wouldn't have started.
If Sam had wanted the apocalypse, I would've said he was dark and evil. Sam thought he was trying to stop it, not start it.
So it would have been nice to see Sam evil, but I sure didn't see him doing anything evil in season 4, but who knows what he'll do in season 5. If Kripke and Co do have Sam turn evil, than at least make him totally evil, not just try to make us think he's going evil. Have him kill, torture and make people suffer and not care about it. Let him fall in with Lucifer and the other demons and start wrecking havoc upon the Earth. Don't make him half-ass evil, make him bad-ass evil.

Happy Birthday Jared

I hope that Jared has a great Birthday and many more to come after this one. It was a great day when this wonderful guy was born.

The Music Of Smallville

I just have to write down, that I love the music on Smallville. The music always sets the tone of the show. I love when they have a song playing and the characters aren't even talking to each other. You just see their emotions and listen to the music that's playing. I just love that.
I watched an old episode where Brainiac took over Lana and I loved watching the end. Lana was at the hospital just sitting in a chair because she was totally taken over by Brainiac and couldn't respond to Clark. Clark was kneeling down by her side and talking to her and he closed her eyes because he couldn't stand the glassy stare. There was an angel right next to them and then it pulled back and you saw Clark kneeling there by Lana and the angel and Chloe looking on, all while the music of Vast was playing. The song by Vast was, "One More Day" and it just made the whole scene even more heartbreaking than it was.
I've always loved that on Smallville. There have been so many great scenes like that throughout the years. Another of my favorites, was Jonathan Kent's funeral when " I Grieve" by Peter Gabriel was playing. That had to be my most favorite scene of all time on Smallville. It was the most moving and one of the most heartbreaking.
I hope that in season 9, there will be more scenes like that and more great music.

Why I Love Jared Padalecki So Much And What He Personally Does For Me

Why do I love Jared Padalecki so much? I love him the most because when he smiles, I feel like everything is right with the world. I love his sweet smile and I feel good inside when I see it. I don't know why. I've never met Jared in person, but Jared does so much for me. It's hard to explain the way I feel about certain actors, actresses, singers and athletes and how they make me feel.
When I first saw Jared on Gilmore Girls, I thought to myself, who's the tall, geeky kid with the goofy hair, then he smiled and I loved him. I only watched Gilmore Girls because he was on the show, otherwise I wouldn't have given it another look. No matter what character Jared plays on TV or in movies, I love him.
Some will say, that I'm just a 40 year old cougar who loves young guys and that's partly true. I do love younger guys, but funny thing is, when I was younger, I loved older guys. I love how Jared has turned into a hot and good looking hunk, but that isn't why I love him, so much. The thing that I love the most about guys are their eyes, their smile and their voice's. Jared Padalecki has those three things in spades. There is just something I see when I look at him, it's right there and I can't explain what it is. It's just something Jared has. Maybe that's why I love his character of Sam Winchester, because I can see Jared shining through his eyes, every time I watch the show.
I thank God and Jared's parents for bringing him into this world. I know I'm probably crazy, but what of it. I just love him and seeing how his birthday is coming up here soon, I just had to say it. It was a great day, when Jared was born into this world and I'm so happy that he's here and that he makes me happy just watching him act or when he smiles.
I keep watching that goofy "Candyman" on Utube and it makes me love him even more. I always feel great after watching it. Jared can always make my day.

My Love For Smallville

From the first season of Smallville to season 8, I have never stopped loving and watching Smallville. Clark Kent is my true blue hero. While most heroes, now a days are turning into down and dirty heroes, Clark Kent is one of the old fashioned heroes. I can't say enough, how much I appreciate Tom Welling for playing Clark Kent for all eight seasons and then now for a ninth season. Tom has even started to direct episodes. The next person I appreciate is Allison Mack, who has been on the show with Tom Welling from the start. They are the only two characters that have lasted all eight seasons. Allison has started to direct too, and I love her as Chloe. She's a hero herself. Her character has gone through so much and has suffered so much, but she still believes in Clark and what he stands for. She protects him and I love her character for that. I've loved all the characters that have come and gone on Smallville. Here are a couple that I love the most: Lex Luthor, Lioner Luther, Martha and Jonathan Kent, Lois Lane, Lana Lang, Oliver Queen,Pete and Jimmy Oleson. There has been a ton of guest stars and other regulars that I've loved over the years. Smallville is still a great show and it's going strong.
In season 8 of Smallville, I started to love the character, Davis Bloome, who's alter ego was Doom. There was a great storyline for him, right up until the end, when they just ended him how fast. I was disappointed and I'm so sad that Sam Witwer will not be coming back on the show and that his character of Davis is gone. I hope that the show will still keep some good momentum and that there will be good new characters for me to love. Hopefully some more hot hunky super heroes.

Why I Love Gossip Girl And Chuck Bass

I love Gossip Girl because it is so far from my life. I just love to watch shows that have nothing in common to what my life is. You can watch them and like fall into the story. I love watching the beautiful and rich people of GG. I'll probably never be beautiful and I'll never be rich. Gossip Girl is like a guilty pleasure, but I'm not guilty for watching it. I'll tell the world and anyone I know that I love it. It's not just for teenagers and there is something for everyone on it. I love the relationship between Rufus and Lily and I love Blair's mom. I like the adults on the show, almost as much as the teens. I love Chuck and Blair's love story and they are probably the only couple I love on TV right now. They probably won't stay together for long, but I'll enjoy the relationship, while it lasts. I love Ed Westwick as Chuck Bass. Chuck is a wonderful character that you just love to watch. Whether Chuck is being the bad boy or the sweet, loving boyfriend, he's just a great character all around.

Dean And Ruby

Here's something I found strange in season 3 and season 4 of Supernatural concerning Dean and Ruby. In season 3, one minute Dean was listening to her and letting her help them and then the next he hated and mistrusted her. So what the hell was going on with that. Then in season 4, Dean finds out that Sam has been hanging out with Ruby and he tries to kill her. Then he finds out Ruby saved Sam's life while he was in hell and thanks her and goes to protect her from Uriel. What the hell was that about? Then all of a sudden Dean doesn't like her or trust her again. It's funny to me that Dean found out that Sam was talking to Ruby again and he didn't do anything about it. He didn't even talk to Sam about it or find out why Sam was in contact with Ruby. Then in "Death Takes A Holiday", Sam told Dean that Ruby was following him, but Dean didn't seem all that worried about her and he just didn't want her help. I thought to myself the whole time that Sam was lying to Dean, why didn't Dean try to find out what Sam was lying about, instead of acting like a two year old about it, why didn't Dean confront Sam about it? Why did Dean wait so long and then found out what Sam was doing and just threw Sam in the panic room without even finding out what Sam was really doing.
Also what was the deal with Dean. If he knew Sam was lying to him, then how did Sam sneak out to see Ruby and drink demon blood all the time. What was Dean doing? Did Sam slip out of the motel rooms they were in and Dean was dead to the world and never heard Sam leave. Or did Sam say he was going out to the store or something. I don't understand any of that at all.
Another thing is, people think Dean owes Sam the biggest I told you so, ever. What the hell? What did Dean tell Sam? I never once heard Dean telling Sam not to go near Ruby or that she was just an evil bitch that was using him. I never heard Dean tell Sam anything. Or was that more stuff that we were just supposed to assume because all of Sam's storyline was off-screen. Maybe after Dean told Ruby thanks for saving Sam and then Dean protecting her, maybe Sam thought Dean was okay with her. Even though Sam lied to Dean, what the hell was Dean doing the entire season? I just don't get it.
What was the deal with Dean's whole attitude towards Ruby? One minute he was okay with her and then the next he wasn't. Were the angels or demons doing something to Dean? I wonder about that because I just think Dean's whole attitude towards Sam and Ruby was weird and that Dean never did anything until it was too late. If Dean thought that Ruby was so evil, why didn't he try to kill her before he found out what Sam was doing with her?
It's not a popular thought about Dean's attitude towards Ruby, but I think a part of Dean was jealous of Ruby. That Ruby became a part of Sam's life and that Sam started to trust her. I think Dean was pissed off about that and it wasn't just the fact that Ruby was a demon. I think Dean was pissed that someone else could take his place in Sam's life, even though, Ruby didn't take Dean's place, even though Dean might have thought that.

Anna's Grace

What's the deal with Anna? If Anna ripped out her grace and it was gone, how did she hear the other angels and how did she move stuff with her mind? I thought that's what her grace was. When I first saw Anna, I thought of her as evil. Who knows what side she's really on? She liked Ruby, so obviously, she was either stupid or she was in cahoots with the demons. Why did Ruby even have Sam and Dean going to find her and rescue her in the first place? I didn't get that. What was the purpose of both " I Know What You Did Last Summer and Heaven and Hell?" If Anna was worse than Ruby, then Dean having sex with her, was worse than Sam having sex with Ruby. She was a fallen angel, that means she turned her back on God. Like I said before, how do we know that Anna wasn't a demon first and somehow got out of hell and she's still a demon. Maybe now she's a demon with an angel's grace. I just don't like Anna and I still think she's trouble. I don't think she's really on Castiel's side at all, unless Castiel is evil, right along with her and the other evil angels.
People think God sent Anna to help Dean. That's kind of crazy because God would've had to know how many years ago about what was going to happen. I doubt God would want any of his angels to be like human beings. Sex is one of the worst things on this Earth. It can be beautiful and a great thing between people who love each other, but otherwise, it has been used for evil. Look at all the children and adults that suffer because they are raped and sexually abused. Lust is one of the seven deadly sins, so why would God want his angels to sin. Sex is not for healing, unless like I said for people who love each other.
Who knows where that Anna really went or what her purpose is? I'm just hoping that her character will be a little less boring in season 5.

The Women Of Supernatural

Here's some of the female characters that have been on Supernatural. There's Lauren Cohan who played Bela Talbot in season 3. She was actually one of my most favorite females on the show. Then Samantha Ferris and Alona Tal who played Ellen and Jo Harvelle. I loved Ellen and she was my favorite female character of all on Supernatural. Then there is Genevieve Cortese and Katie Cassidy who both played different versions of Ruby. I liked Katie a little more than Genevieve, but I really liked the character of Ruby and I had hoped that she would've turned out to be good, so that Ruby would've stayed on the show. There have been other female characters on the show and I've liked most of them. They add a lot to the show and I sometimes forget about them because I'm just looking at Jared's and Jensen's hot goodness.

Paul Johansson is Dan Scott

Why do I love the character Dan Scott from One Tree Hill? Dan is a great character because his is a villain, but he is also a character that wants more. Dan killed his own brother in cold blood, so why do I like him? He thought that his brother tried to kill him and then later found out it was his wife. Dan was probably jealous of his brother because he got the woman that Dan loved, plus he was like a father to Dan's son Lucas. Dan has tried to redeem himself and he'll probably never be forgiven for what he's done, but at least he does feel guilty about what he did. He loves his grandson, Jamie and he's saved his life now, how many times. Dan is paying for what he's done because he can't be a part of his son's or grandson's life. It's sad to see and I hope to see more of him in the upcoming season and maybe he'll get a little redemption or forgiveness.
When you compare what happened with Dan and his brother to Sam and Dean. Sam hasn't done anything close to what Dan has done to his brother, or Dean hasn't done anything to Sam. Sam and Dean's brotherly bond is a whole lot closer and more unbreakable. At least, Sam and Dean are alive to keep being brothers and they haven't done anything that can't be fixed. Dan killed his brother and his brother will never come back to life, that's irreversible.

Craig Horner And The Legend Of The Seeker

I keep forgetting about my new favorite show. Legend Of The Seeker won my heart this season and Craig Horner is one of my new favorite hot hunks. I have so many shows and good looking guys, that sometimes I forget about Craig. When Supernatural pissed me off and it was driving me crazy, Legend Of The Seeker gave me something to believe in. Richard Cypher is one hot hero to watch. Now that I'm back to being crazy and obsessed about Supernatural again, Legend kind of fell to the wayside for a bit. I still love it and watch it and I can't wait for season 2. I love Legend Of The Seeker because it is kind of like watching a weekly version of Lord Of The Rings. I love the fight scenes, the creatures, the villans, the heros, the lovers. Seeker has it all and more importantly, Richard without his shirt on a lot. I just love to see Richard with his shirt open or off. Yes, I'm shallow, but what of it.

What I Love About Sam And Dean

What I love most about Sam is his compassion and his willingness to believe that everything isn't evil. People think that Sam has turned into John because of revenge, but I don't think so. One thing Sam has not done is see evil everywhere he goes. Sam looks for the good in people and the creatures that the boys hunt. Sam wants to believe that even they could be good, if they want to be.

What I love the most about Dean is his loyalty to family. Dean loves and is loyal to his family first and foremost. He could've left and went out on his own, when he got older, but he continued to be a hunter to help other people and to help his father. Dean protected and helped to keep Sam safe for most of his life. I love that the most.

Like I've said before, I hope that Sam is not some kind of monster and that he is something more. I want to believe that Dean spent his life protecting Sam for a reason. A good reason, not that Dean protected someone that was just going to turn evil. I don't know what Kripke and Co have planned, but I hope that both Sam and Dean will be the brothers that I love them to be and not turn into something that I'll hate or not want to watch anymore. I want to see something good come out of this Apocalypse storyline and that both Sam and Dean have a part to play in saving people and doing good. Who wants to watch a show where Sam and Dean are against each other? I certainly don't and I don't think that's where Supernatural is headed. I could be wrong or I could choose to believe that Kripke will make this continue to be a show about two brothers fighting evil, not becoming evil themselves or fighting each other. I'll have to wait and see what will happen and hope for the best.

Who's A Monster?

I've just been thinking about this. What is a monster or what makes a monster? When I watched "When The Levee Breaks" and the previews said, who's the monster? I wondered and thought about that. If compassion is divine, than who was the monster, Sam or Dean. Did Dean even show any compassion towards Sam at all and does he ever show any compassion for any of the creatures that he hunts. The creatures and monsters that Sam and Dean kill have killed people, but what about the people who kill people. Aren't human beings monsters when they kill other humans. Actually I think humans are worse. Some creatures just have an instinct to kill, but humans always have a choice. It's all about how we choose, to do what's right and what's wrong. Sam it seems to me has more compassion about people and the creatures that the boys hunt and he always has. Maybe that's why Sam wanted to live a normal life because he couldn't stand the killing and he was afraid of seeing his father and brother kill. Maybe Sam didn't want to turn into a killer, that just killed and didn't care anymore about what they were killing. Who's to say that the creatures that Sam and Dean hunt, should die any more than the humans who do monstrous things and kill people have the right to live. Who has the moral high ground here? It's funny that Dean tells Sam what he should do and tells him what's right and wrong. What makes Dean think he knows what God wants, when he doesn't? Even God's angels don't know what God wants.
I wonder if all the hunters on Supernatural are just as much monsters as the monsters they hunt and kill. When you stop caring and loving and have no compassion,or you have no forgiveness, then what are you?

Casting Call

I wish there was a casting call for a 40 year old, short, fat and ugly woman. I would be perfect for whatever roll.
One Tree Hill: I could be a lover for Dan or something. Or I could be some old psycho that tries to kill Dan or one of the other characters. That would be great.
Gossip Girl: I could be some old, fat rich woman on this show. I'd want to be somehow related to Chuck or have something to do with his character.
Smallville: I could be some old, fat and short Kryptonite freak that goes on a killing spree or I could be a super hero.
Legend Of The Seeker: I could be some old, fat and ugly woman that's evil and wants to kill the Seeker. Or I could be some witch woman or something like that.
Supernatural: I could be a old, fat demon or an angel and get it on with either Sam or Dean. Or I could try to kill them or something.
America's Next Top Model: Why don't they have a competition for old, short and fat models? I would be perfect.
I think there is a lot of discrimination against old, short, fat and ugly people on TV. I could play so many parts, even though , I've never done any acting, I know I'd be good at it. I guess no one would watch shows, if the beautiful people weren't on them. I probably wouldn't watch one of these shows, if I was on it. I hate to say it, but I'm shallow and I love the beautiful, young, and tall hunks on TV. That's mainly why I watch shows, but it would be nice to be on them with the beautiful people.

More Pics I Love

Sammy's Puppy Dog Eyes

Little Sammy with those puppy dog eyes. Who could resist giving him whatever he wanted? Dean sure couldn't. When they were children, Dean gave him those lucky charms because one look of Sammy's puppy dog eyes and Dean caved. It was sweet that Sammy was willing to give up that prize, but I bet Dean made sure Sam got that too. I wonder if, now that Sammy drank demon blood and Dean doesn't trust him, if Sammy's puppy dog eye weapon will work on Dean. That will be sadder to me than anything, if Sammy's little puppy dog eyes are gone for good. I don't think they will be, because you saw them in the season finale when he told Dean he was sorry. The only thing I'm worried about is that the puppy dog eyes won't work on Dean and Sam will have to find a new weapon to use on Dean to get what he wants.

All I know is if Sammy used his puppy dog eyes on me, I'd move heaven and hell to give him whatever he wanted. Of course, I can't move anything, but I sure would try.

Sam's puppy dog eyes are what made Azazel's daughter possess Sam because she knew people would fall for Sam's sweetness. I know I'd open the door, if he flashed those eyes at me. I'd drag him in and hug him so tight. ha, ha, ha.

Was Sam Being Tested Or Was Dean By The Angels?

I wonder if Sam was being tested all along by the angels, to find out what he was capable of. In "It's The Great Pumpkin, Sam Winchester" you wonder if Castiel and Uriel didn't set that up to find out what Sam was capable of and to see if he'd be able to send Samhain back to hell. I don't think Castiel or Uriel were serious about destroying the town and I don't think they were testing Dean. Or if they were testing Dean, it was to see what he'd do, when Sam used his powers. Also in "On The Head Of A Pin", who knows if that was all set up? That could've have been a test to see what Sam would do. It seems that Castiel is pretty strong, so why did he act so weak in the episode. Maybe he knew that Sam was going to come and that was part of the test to see what Sam was going to do and if he could send Alistair back to hell. Castiel seemed surprised by what Sam could do, but he wasn't afraid or he wouldn't have gone to the hospital to talk to Sam. Look at "The Monster At The End Of This Book" and that seemed like another test for Sam and how he'd react to Lilith's offer. I've just been thinking about this and wondering if the angels were testing Sam. Like I've said before, maybe it's Sam that has to send Lucifer back to hell and will he be able to do it and does Zachariah and the other angels even want Lucifer back in hell. Maybe by Sam drinking the demon blood and opening the last seal, he'll be too afraid to use his abilities because he'll think they're evil or be scared of what Dean will think of him. Maybe that's what Zach wanted all along. Sam won't have the strength or Dean to help him. Who knows?

Spoilers, Interviews and Whatnot

I'm not going to believe in spoilers or anything like that. I think spoilers are put out there to deceive not to give you any useful info about an episode. I read a whole bunch of spoilers of all my favorite shows and how many of them were so far off the mark that it was sickening. As for interviews, they can only say so much and reveal so much. I doubt any director, producer or actor/actress would be able to give anything major away. Sometimes they say one thing and then the exact total opposite happens. TV Guide had the worst info about Supernatural ever. I can't believe some of the crap they came up with or put in their magazine. I like to watch sneak peeks of the show because they can get me excited for the episode, but then sometimes they make me think up all kinds of things that could happen, and when they don't, I get disappointed. I love wondering what's going to happen next and the spoilers give a brief glimpse, but they never ruin the show for me. I'll be looking at them, but I won't put too much down here because who knows what will really happen. It's fun to speculate on what's going to happen, but most of the time, I end of thinking the wrong thing and so do a lot of other people.

I'm looking forward to season 5 and I don't want to be disappointed like season 4. Season 4 had about three episodes that I didn't like at all and will probably not watch when I buy the DVD set. But, there were about 15 episodes that I really enjoyed and the storylines were good. As long as Sam and Dean are riding together in that Impala, than I'll be happy. I want to see them get back to trusting and loving each other, but it will take time and I hope there's some great scenes and a lot of drama as they get back to being the brothers that I love.

Thoughts About Sam And Dean

I can't believe that I let other people stop me from believing in what I want to about Dean. I love Dean and for a while, I almost stopped. It wasn't because of anything on the show, it was all about what people want Dean to be or think he should be. I love Dean for who his is and that's a hero, a wise cracking hunk, a womanizer and a devoted brother and family man. I would never want to see Dean be anything else. Dean was never just about protecting Sam, he's about so much more and I'm surprised that people don't see that. A lot of people think Dean is turning into Sam or becoming like him and I don't see that at all. Dean will never be like Sam. Also the whole Dean is an angel crap is just that, crap. Who would want to see Dean become something that he is totally not or could ever be. Dean went to hell and the last time I checked, no one returned from hell and turned into an angel. Angels have fallen from grace and went to hell, especially Lucifer and his followers because they displeased God and didn't want to obey him, but I doubt someone that goes to hell, becomes an angel. That makes absolutely zero sense to me. Also, Kripke and Co keep telling that Dean will never have powers, so why do people think he will become an angel or a vessel for an angel. Sure Kripke and Co could change their minds, but I know I would hate for Dean to become an angel or have powers.

I love Sam and I don't get why a lot of people just want to see Sam as evil or turning evil. That's all they'll see and nothing more. Sam slept with a demon and he has abilities or powers and that's all they think Sam is about. Sam is about so much more and it's sad to me that people can't see it. Sam feels guilt all the time about people that die around him and for him. He feels guilty over the people that die because evil wants to use them. Sam has a compassion for creatures that don't want to harm or do evil in the world. Maybe Sam wants to see good in them, so he knows that there is good in him and that he has a choice to be evil or good. Sam wanted to stop the apocalypse to save people, he didn't do it to say how great he was or to show Dean up. He thought he was doing the right thing and he was manipulated by Ruby and the angels. People thought that Sam was going to be Lucifer's vessel because all they think is, Sam is evil. Also, Sam is the anti-christ or that he's going to go and team up with Lucifer or be tempted by him. All people want to see is Sam evil and he's just not. If Sam was evil, than Sam wouldn't have needed to be manipulated into doing anything evil or bad. If Sam was evil, he would've been killing people and enjoying it. Sam has never enjoyed or been happy when someone has been hurt or not cared about someone being hurt or killed. Sam wants to do the right thing for good and that's why it was so easy for him to be manipulated.

I want Sam and Dean to be together and fight together, but a lot of people don't. I love Sam and Dean's brotherly bond and I think it's going to be strong again. I don't want to see Dean on his own, listening and trusting in Castiel over Sam. I don't want to see Sam trusting in demons over Dean and I don't think he did. I think Sam isn't going to be able to trust anyone and he's really going to need Dean more than ever, but is Dean going to be able to trust Sam and not look at him like he's some creature that's evil or going to turn evil. I still think Sam has a choice, even with all that demon blood in him. Sam saved Dean and has his back in all of season 4, despite what Dean thought. I still think there was a part of Dean that was jealous of Ruby and that she got so close to Sam. Dean probably thought that Sam would just fight and be a hunter on his own. We don't know all of what Sam did while Dean was in hell. I doubt he was just having sex with Ruby and drinking demon blood. Who even knows if he was with Ruby all the time or how much of the time they were together? Who knows what Sam fought and how many people he saved or anything? We just got a small look at what happened.

I'm just hoping for season 5 to be stronger and Sam and Dean to be on the same side and not fighting each other or one evil and one good. Especially people thinking Dean is the good one and Sam is the bad one because I know that's what people think. I believe Eric when he says Supernatural is a show about two brothers and I hope I see that in season 5 or I'll label Eric Kripke a liar. I want Sam and Dean to be standing together and fighting and both have a part to play in stopping the apocalypse and Lucifer, not just Dean being the big hero of Supernatural, but Sam being right there with him, just as much a hero as Dean.

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