Halloween With Little Sammy, Dean And Jess

Well my little Jess had a great Halloween party. All her friends came to it. Three of her best friends were at the party and she had me take pictures of them. There is little Castiel, Peaches and Clover. Jess had a lot of goodies, food and they watched a few scary movies. She had her party earlier in the day and then at night all of them went out trick or treating together. Everyone in the neighborhood had a good time and they all had fun. Little Dean and little Sammy kept changing their costumes all day long. Little Dean could not decide what to wear, but little Sammy told him that they could just wear how many different costumes. Little Dean was happy about that because he had started to cry because he wanted to be how many different things.

Little Sammy and little Dean helped Jess clean up after they got home from trick or treating. I told little Sammy that he was being such a good boy and he said that he was sorry again for being mean to Dean and that he was making up for it. I told him he was doing a good job because little Dean was so happy today.

The cutest and best part of the night was just a half hour ago when I found little Sammy and little Dean in Dean's house sleeping. Little Dean was showing Sammy his new room and they fell asleep on the floor. I didn't have the heart to wake them because they just looked so darn cute together and I've never seen them so close. I put blankets over them and turned out the light. It was a really good Halloween.

People Are Obsessed And I Totally Understand It

Okay, I've just been reading some stuff and I think a lot of people are totally obsessed with either Dean or Jensen or both. They just can't see anything else and I totally understand it. I was so obsessed with Sam's character that I never really noticed some things. It's kind of funny now. I've loved a lot of characters on a lot of shows and I've been obsessed with a lot of them. I never really got the chance to know if anyone else loved them as much as I did. Now I get to look at message boards and see that I'm just like a lot of people out there.

When I used to read message boards, I really didn't think about how other people are feeling because I'm kind of self absorbed. Maybe it's because I'm a loner and all I have is myself. Who knows? I do understand being so obsessed with something, that you can't see anything else, but what you want to. I was obsessed with Supernatural, but now I don't think that I am, so now that means I can enjoy it more. I still love it, but I'm just not as obsessed with it as I used to be. I love all my other shows and I can't miss an episode of them, but I've never been obsessed with them.

Older stars and shows that I used to watch made me so crazy. I remember sitting and waiting for them to come on. I used to get an actual physical pain in my stomach, waiting for them to come on. Then, I was so worried that something would happen during the show. The power going out, a news break or something like that. It drove me crazy, but it was great, too. I don't have those kind of feelings anymore because I know that if I miss an episode that I can watch it online or a repeat. The repeats come on faster nowadays then they did in the past. Some of the episodes never repeated either. So, if you missed it, you missed it and that was that.

I've got to be more nicer and try to understand other people's feelings. It's hard because I'm not that sociable and I spend a lot of time alone. It's hard for me to connect to other people, but I try. Even on Facebook, sometimes I just don't feel like posting or talking to anyone. I guess that's just who I am.

My Little Sammy Is Good

My little Sammy went to Dean's house and apologized for giving him the potion that turned him into a skeleton. Little Sammy bought a stuffed soldier doll for Dean. My little Sammy also sent a bunch of pumpkin cookies to his friends. I asked little Sammy why he was so bad. He wouldn't tell me. I told him that I'd be home for a few days and he started to jump around and was so happy. I told him that soon, I'd be home for a long time. My work is coming to an end and I'll be released soon and then he can come home for lunch and have his mac and cheese and see me every day. I told little Sammy that I love him so much and it hurts when he's not a good boy and he said that he'd be good from now on. I'm hoping he's telling the truth and that he didn't just tell me that so he could watch Supernatural and Vamp Diaries.

Little Sammy and Dean had a big football game at their school and little Dean scored the winning touchdown. I was so proud of him. I just love to watch little Sammy and Dean play football and baseball. I never saw little Jess cheer harder than at this last game. It was really close, but our team won because of little Dean. Little Sammy was very proud of Dean and said that he was glad that he had an older brother like him.

Little Sammy asked why I haven't been going on the message boards and posting about our favorite shows. I told him that I'm tired of it and it's more fun to watch the shows and just enjoy them. I told him that if I looked at what people were writing for too long, I'd go crazy. I'm really happy with all our shows and I don't want anything to ruin that right now. I told him I'd keep the love up for big Sammy and big Dean.

I hope I survive Halloween with my three little demons. Who knows what will happen? I just hope my little Sammy will stay good and not do anymore bad things.

Is My Little Sammy Evil Now?

My little Sammy went and did something really bad this time. He went and bought a potion at The Mystery Shop and had little Dean drink it. It turned my little Dean into a skeleton. I screamed and yelled at little Sammy and he just laughed. I asked Sammy how long the potion would last and he said a few days. Little Dean cried at first when he saw himself and then later he said he was okay. Little Dean wouldn't talk to Sammy. When Jess found out what Sammy had done she sent him a box with a surprise inside. It had an egg in it and it flew at Sammy's face. Egg was dripping down little Sammy's face and Jess, Dean and I were all laughing. Little Jess made Sammy go to her house and help with her party.

I told little Sammy that if he does not behave himself, then I'm going to take all his costumes and masks away and he will not go to Jess' party on Halloween. Little Sammy cried and fell asleep in his coffin bed. I don't know what's gotten into that little demon. Maybe it's just Halloween or is my little Sammy turning evil? He's never done anything so mean before. Maybe I'll have to stop letting him watch Supernatural and Vamp Diaries for a while and then he'll behave and be good.

My Life With Little Sammy, Dean And Jess

Little Sammy and little Dean have been running around town with their bat wings on. I told them that they'd better not be trying to scare anyone. They said they just wanted everyone to see them. They keep dressing in different costumes and wearing their bat wings. Little Sammy is now a vampire pirate with bat wings and little Dean is a mummy with bat wings. One bad thing about the bat wings. Little Sammy thought he could fly wearing them and jumped off his bunk bed and fell and scraped some skin off his forehead. He was crying and bleeding. I just washed his head and put a band aid on and told him he was okay. I told him that I'd take away the bat wings, if he doesn't calm down a little. I told him not to try flying again. Those wings can't make him fly.

I asked little Sammy where the song was for Castiel. Little Sammy wouldn't look at me because he hasn't been working on it. I think he got angry when little Jess gave their new friend Castiel a friendly kiss. Little Sammy said that he'd try to work on it again after Halloween and I told him that I'd help him, if he needed me to.

Here's are favorite shows ending the week of Oct 24, 2009

1. Smallville
2. Gossip Girl
3. Supernatural (repeat)
4. One Tree Hill
5. Vamp Diaries (repeat)

I've been watching Top Model, but my little demons don't care for it. Sometimes I miss it, but I don't really care. It's not very good this cycle.

Little Sammy asked me if he looks mean and scary with his wings and fangs. I told him that he looks really scary. I lied to little Sammy because there's no way he could look anything but sweet no matter what.

My Life With Little Sammy, Dean And Jess

My three little demons have been busy again. Little Jess is still getting ready for her big Halloween party next Saturday. Little Sammy keeps changing into different costumes and now he has Dean doing it to. Little Sammy asked why I didn't buy Dean some big wings like he has. I thought they were skeletal wings,but they are huge bat wings that are growing. He asked me if I loved Dean. I told him that I love Dean very much and if he wanted the wings, then all he had to do was ask me. Little Dean came and asked and I went and got him some too. He was so happy and he's started to wear his as much as Sammy. Little Dean's wings are still growing, but Sammy's are how big now.

Little Sammy made me get him the special bait at the store to get weird looking fish out of the fish pond. I don't know why I bought him that bait. Those fish are horrible looking and they look evil. Now he has a little tank full of them. Little Sammy wore his special fishing jacket, hat and glove to catch the fish. Please, let that fishing pond ice over for the winter. With my luck, they'll probably have ice fishing or something.

Little Sammy, Dean and Jess have had some more new friends move into their neighborhood. They just made friends with Castiel and have invited him to join their rock band. He said that he'd think about it. Also, there's a weird little friend named Ninja Clown. That's one strange name and the little guy is kind of scary looking and he's not wearing a Halloween costume. Sometimes I worry about some of the friends my little demons are associating with.

I took little Sammy, Dean and Jess to a couple of Haunted Houses tonight at the fun park by where I live. They were all kind of scared. In the first one they got candy and it wasn't scary at all. The other three scared them all. Little Sammy was clinging to me and crying. Little Dean was brave, but I could tell he was scared and so was Jess. I had to tell them that everything was all fake and none of it was real. I thought the haunted houses were fun. Little Sammy asked if I thought he was a baby and I told him that a lot of people are scared going into haunted houses. That's the point, to be scared. I let little Sammy eat a lot of candy which was a big mistake. About an hour ago he woke up crying and said that a killer clown was trying to kill him. It was chasing him and it had killed little Dean and Jess in his dream. I had to hold him and tell him everything was okay. Little Dean was spending the night and he woke up and reassured little Sammy. I've been letting little Sammy watch Supernatural and hopefully he'll fall asleep again. I bought little Sammy a coffin bed for his Supernatural room. Him and Dean just love taking turns sleeping in it.

It's been a pretty good week and Halloween is coming up next Saturday. I hope I have the energy to handle my three little demons.

Sam And Dean's Destiny

Here's something that I can't figure out. Why would anyone believe that Sam and Dean's ultimate destiny or fate is to fight each other? Or have Michael and Lucifer take over their bodies to fight each other.
So Dean's big destiny over all was to protect Lucifer's vessel for years and then sell his soul for Lucifer's vessel and go to hell for how long. That does not make any kind of sense at all. As for Dean being Michael's vessel. If it turns out that Dean is Michael's vessel, then Supernatural will really have jumped the shark. It doesn't make sense. Dean went to that storage unit of John's thinking the sword was there and it turned out to be him. That could have just been bull Zac and Co made up, but if John knew about the sword, why didn't he protect Dean the way he protected Sam. Sam was the one John said that had to be watched and protected,not Dean. Sam has power inside him that no ones knows what it is, but everyone assumes is demonic. When Dean died, the reaper Tessa came for him and if Dean would've went with her, then no more Michael's vessel. We never saw Sam with an actual reaper. I think that is a really big clue. I think people just want Dean to have some kind of special destiny or think his destiny or fate wasn't just to protect Sam. If Sam does have something inside him that is special or whatever, then Dean spent his life protecting something good, not evil. I think it would suck, if we find out that Dean protected Sam all those years, just so Sam would be the ultimate evil or something. It's just wrong.

As for Sam. Sam has always been the kinder and gentler of the two. He seems to care more about people than Dean. If I said that on a message board, I'd be berated for it, but it's true. How many times did Dean say to Sam that there was nothing, then the nothing turned out to be something and they probably saved people's lives. Dean would've just left and not cared. Sam has always felt guilty about everyone that has died and everyone that he has personally had to kill. I don't get the same feeling from Dean. Sometimes Dean's attitude is that a person gets what they deserve or something and they might not be worth saving. Sam is the one that has special psychic ability, he was chosen by Azazel for a reason. What does evil love to corrupt the most? People that are good and who care about God. They care about hurting what is good. That's probably why Dean has never been possessed. People think it's because he's God's chosen one. If he was, he'd be the first person the demons would've gone after. And I'm not saying that God doesn't care about Dean because God cares about every human being, no matter what.

When you think back to season 3 and Ruby was telling Sam about fighting. You could tell that Sam does not like to fight. I'd say that Sam is like that Jesse kid in that regard. I doubt that he wants to fight, but he has to and he's been doing it for years. Sam tried to get away from that life and he always got pulled back into it. I doubt it's for some evil reason. In "It's A Terrible Life" Sam said he's got something in his blood and I doubt he was talking about something evil. He was the one who convinced Dean that there was something going on in that episode. He came to the realization of who and what he was before Dean. People will just say it was the demon blood Sam drank, but why didn't it make Sam do evil stuff. Sam tried to save people.

I still think Sam's power is Michael's and Sam could be Michael's vessel. I think Lilith found out what Sam had inside him and used it to get Lucifer out of his prison. If it was Michael that put Lucifer in hell in the first place, maybe it was his power that could bust Lucifer out. Now maybe Michael needs to use Sam to send Lucifer back to hell and lock him in his cage. Sam had the power to kill demons and send them to hell. In the Halloween episode last season, Sam sent Samhain back to hell and he had not drank the demon blood for how long. It took how much effort on Sam's part to get the demon out and send it to hell. Maybe when Michael takes over Sam's body then he'd be able to use that power inside Sam and send Lucifer to hell. If Lucifer goes back to hell, then humanity will be able to keep free will. If Lucifer and Michael fight and Lucifer dies, then where will are free will go. Sure we'll be in paradise, but will we want to be. Did Adam and Eve love paradise?

It seems to me that Zac and Co want to make Sam think what's inside him is evil and want to make Dean think he is special for a reason. They want things to go back to the way they were before humans. Who knows that if the Earth turned into paradise, the angels wouldn't be God's favorites again or the angel's think they will be.

How does Zac and Co know that Dean is Michael's vessel, but they didn't know Sam was supposed to be Lucifer's? Zac told Sam and Dean that Lucifer was circling his vessel, but why didn't he say it was Sam. Why not tell Dean he was Michael's vessel before the apocalypse, not after it came about?

Another thing. Maybe neither Sam nor Dean are vessels of any kind and that's what I'd like best. Maybe the power that's inside Sam can be taken out of him somehow and it was just put there to keep it safe. I'm starting to believe Jensen's interview before the season started. He said Sam and Dean were going to be helping the angels, but he probably meant God and the good angels that are still following him. Who knows? I sure in the hell don't. I'm just not going to believe that everything is black and white and set in stone. I can't believe people think Kripke is revealing everything and not leaving anything for a surprise.


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Justin Hartley As Oliver Queen

I just love Justin Hartley. I love him even more after watching him on Smallville tonight. He brings Oliver Queen and the Green Arrow to life. I can't believe what a great episode that was and it was all about Oliver. Chloe made Oliver face his demons and become the hero he was and has always been. I knew something funny was going on, but I didn't know what. I just loved it. I love Chloe and Allison Mack right now, too. I don't show enough love for all the great actors and actresses on my other shows. Tonight Justin just blew me away with his acting. Smallville just has such a big range of talent and it's so great to see it each and every week. It's nice when the other actors and actresses can carry some of the load for the show and give Tom Welling a break every now and then.

It's sad that Supernatural can't deal with Sam's storyline like Oliver's. Oliver only had Lex Luthor killed and felt guilty over it. Sam started the apocalypse, so you'd think Sam would feel worse than Oliver. It's too bad that Jared doesn't get great scrips and lines like Justin's were tonight on Smallville. Maybe the writers of Supernatural just don't have the time or think people wouldn't want to see all that emotion. I sure would. I loved Chloe's line. "Even though your face was in the gutter, there was still the hero in your heart". It went something like that. I loved it.

Tonight's episode is one of the reason's that I love Smallville and have loved it for the last eight years. It just keeps delivering great stories and entertainment.

My Life With Little Sammy, Dean And Jess

My little demons are busy getting Halloween stuff and having fun. They all got a costume picked out. Little Jess is going to be a witch, Little Dean is going to be a mummy and my Little Sammy still hasn't decided. He's bought a dracula costume and a scream costume. He wants the mummy costume, too. He just loves dressing up and can't decide. I told him that he could wear all his costumes if he wants. I helped little Dean get a pumpkin and helped him decorate it. I'm so happy that's he's finally getting in the Halloween spirit. He loves the candy, too. He's got a big bucket and he's been eating it. I have to watch both little Sammy and Dean and make sure they don't eat too much. Little Jess really doesn't eat a lot of candy.

One bad thing my little Sammy did. He went to school and put on his scream outfit and scared a kid. The school called me at work. I was very angry at little Sammy when I got home today. He started to cry and said he was sorry. He went and brought a pumpkin cookie over to the kid and told him he was sorry. They laughed about it and now that kid wants a scream outfit too. I told little Sammy not to scare anymore people with his costumes. Sure it's fun, but someone might get hurt if they get scared too much. Little Sammy promised that he'd be good.

Here's how I can't resist doing whatever my little Sammy wants me to. I had to buy him some skeleton wings. They cost a lot, but little Sammy cried for them and looked at me with those big brown eyes and I could not say no. Little Sammy's power over me is frightening sometimes. I tell him that and he just laughs. Little Sammy also bought some special bait and caught an ugly mutant fish from the fishing pond. Little Sammy has so many fish that his two tanks are getting full. I just know that I'm going to have to buy him a new one soon. Hopefully that fishing hole will close up for the winter.

Little Jess is still collecting stuff for her big Halloween party. Sammy sent Jess a white spiderweb for her front room. She would not put anything Halloween in it. She loves her room the way it is and the spiderweb goes nicely and looks cute in her house. Little Dean is spending more time at Sammy's house because Sammy has more stuff and he loves to spend time with Sammy.

Little Sammy asked why I was so quick going on the message board. I told him that I just showed some love for our big Sammy and that was it. We've got to keep the love going for our wonderful Sammy. Tomorrow I'll show some love for both Sam and Dean. Maybe I'll dig up the Devil's Playground and show some love for Castiel on there. Little Sammy still wants me to start a chocolate milk drinking campaign for Sam and maybe a love campaign for Sam, Dean, Castiel and Bobby. I told little Sammy that it's enough that we love them. We'll let the other people out there love them however they want to. If someone doesn't like a character, then it's up to them.
Little Sammy hugged and kissed me and said he wished he could go on the message boards and tell everyone how great and wonderful all the characters of Supernatural are. I told him we can put that on his sign in his house, maybe after Halloween. Then all his friends will know how much he loves Supernatural.

I'm very happy right now and so are my little demons. I love fall and the trees look so beautiful here with the leaves falling and turning colors. The chill in the air and the threat of rain is wonderful. I love that it gets darker earlier at this time of year. October is one great month.

Legend Of The Seeker And Other Stuff

It took me a while to find a good picture, but I did. I wanted to put a picture of Richard without his shirt on, but that could be considered sexual in nature. Man, but those pictures were hotter than a firecracker. Craig Horner is one hot, burning hunk of a man. I can't wait until Legend starts in three weeks. It feels like I've been waiting forever. Supernatural has been so good lately that I haven't been paying a lot of attention to Legend. I found the DVD set at the store and I don't even know when it came out. There was one episode that I never even got to see. It was nice to watch it. I'm going to watch some more episodes that I missed parts of too. I'm really glad that Legend was on last year and it almost replaced Supernatural as my favorite show that I'm obsessed with. Scary, but it almost happened. Richard to me was more of a hero than Sam and Dean last year. I love to see characters struggling with right and wrong, but Sam and Dean were just wrong last year. I think it was the writers and it kind of pissed me off. I took it out on message boards and in my Hell House on the CW site. I don't think Legend can beat Supernatural this season because it is so good right now. I just want to see Sam and Dean fighting evil and the show has kind of gone back to where I loved it the most. It kind of reminds me of season 3 and that was my second favorite season of Supernatural. I loved every episode of that season. I loved every episode of Legend Of The Seeker and I can't wait to see the new season. I loved the episode called "The Puppeteer" and Richard was hardly in it. It was just one of the best written shows of Legend last year. Good writing makes for good TV.

I've gone back to my farms on Facebook and to my Little Sammy, Jess and Dean. They make me happy and I love Supernatural more when I don't think about it too much. I've started to become obsessed with Farkle. I am very competitive and I want to beat all my friends for some reason. Crazy. Mafia Wars is fun to play too. I have millions of dollars and own casinos, restaurants and all kinds of things that I'd never own in real life.

I'm still going to post here about my theories, but I'm done for a while at least on the boards. I just can't take that. Someone has to try to fight with me all the time, especially crazy Dean fans who can't love Dean for who and what he is.

I'm going to believe that Sam was not addicted to that demon blood until I find out otherwise. You tell people stuff and nothing sinks in. Yes, it was like an addiction, does not mean that it was an addiction. I think Sam would've stopped once Lilith was dead and he thought he saved people, but all people want to believe is that Sam wanted to suck down that blood to get powerful and tell Dean that he was better than him. Sad. I don't think a lot of people understand Sam or Dean's characters.

Sam being corrupted or turning evil drinking demon blood. That was evil, Sam pulling out demons and sending them to hell and killing demons. That's all Sam ever did with his power. He wasn't going around threatening and killing people. He didn't take enjoyment from other people's pain and misery, in fact that's what hurts Sam the most. That people die and get hurt around him. Man, people are stupid to think Sam is the evil or even dark for that matter.

God, I've got to rant for some reason about this. Another thing I get sick of reading about Sam. He never listened to Dean, Bobby or Castiel and the other angels. What did they tell Sam? Don't use your abilities, but we won't tell you why? Just don't. Dean didn't know that killing Lilith was the final seal, if in fact it was. Was that even Lilith that Sam killed? I didn't see her white eyes to know that was her. Hell, that might not have been Ruby in that dead body, either. Dean doesn't know everything and he finally admitted that in "Fallen Idols", but that episode was stupid. Of course it was because Dean didn't look so smart in it. Dean admitted that he didn't know everything. Dean didn't know what to do when Sam drank that demon blood. Maybe if he would've talked to Sam like his brother or something, then Sam would've listened to him. Dean was as much in the dark about everything as Sam was. As for Sam trusting a demon over Dean. Dean trusted Azazel's bullcrap about Sam not being 100% pure Sam. So Dean trusted what a demon told him over what he knew about his own brother. Dean never gave Sam all the facts and then he didn't tell Sam why he changed his mind and wanted to hunt with Sam again. Maybe, it's just to make sure that Sam won't say yes to Lucifer because Dean doesn't trust Sam. Dean doesn't tell Sam things, that maybe Sam should know, but it's okay. But, Sam on the other hand should tell everything to Dean. I don't think so. If Sam would've had all the facts and knew what Dean was afraid of, then maybe he would've made better choices, but Dean didn't want to talk to Sam. The blame is on both these two and I'm sick of people heaping it all on poor Sam's head all the time, Sam already does that enough. He'd take on the weight of the world if he could.

I Think I Need To Stay In Fantasy Land

I swear I need to just keep myself to myself because it is scary out there in the Supernatural Fandom. I just read some posts on a sight I've never gone to before. I can't believe the crap about Sam. I swear that's what I hated the most about last season. Kripke and Co made is sound like the angels talking to Dean made him angelic and Sam consorting with a demon to be demonic. I swear I do not understand this. I can't believe people out there. Most people forget that Dean went to hell, he didn't take a trip to Heaven to talk to God or something. He was down in hell, first suffering for 30 years and then torturing for the last 10. Dean said that he loved torturing souls in hell and it helped him forget the pain he felt for the first 30 years. He said all the pain washed away, when he was torturing. I hate to bring this up on a message board because people freak out of their minds and think you have something against Dean. It's like they don't want to accept the truth about Dean or something. They want to think Dean is this great guy that can do no wrong and that he knows everything and he's on the side of God. Dean turned away from God by making that deal for Sam's life. I wish the show would address this. It's not like God was happy that Dean didn't believe in him and then went to get Dean out of hell because he didn't deserve to be there. Everyone thinks Dean should be suffering and thinking about being tortured. When Dean remembers hell, he probably wants to forget that he enjoyed torturing souls down there, not that he was tortured.

As for Sam. I think people still just want to think he's evil because now he is supposedly Lucifer's vessel. I can't believe people think that Sam doesn't care or love Dean. I think Sam cares about Dean more than Dean cares about Sam. If Sam didn't care about Dean, then why did he keep saving his life all the time. Sam could have just let Dean die at any given time. If Sam wanted to get away from Dean, he could have left Dean and went with Ruby whenever he wanted. People think Sam would ever use his powers on Dean. Dean wasn't a demon and that's all Sam has ever used his powers on. People want to think Sam was doing evil and that's all. Sam wanted Dean to see him for the man he is, not the little boy that Dean had to protect. That maybe Sam could be right about something and that Dean wasn't always right about everything. Dean didn't think Sam could kill Lilith and he did. I think Dean was shocked by that and scared. Now Dean sees the remorse Sam has for what he did and Sam didn't even have all of the facts. It's like Sam is trying to take the blame for everything and Dean is letting him.

What happened to the Dean in the hospital bed that was so guilty over breaking that first seal and starting everything? Now it seems he's letting Sam take all the responsibility for starting the apocalypse and you don't see any guilt on his part at all. Maybe he does feel guilty deep down because he almost can't stand when Sam keeps going on and saying he's sorry. Sam said that he was sorry how many times for what he unknowingly did and he said that no one will make him feel worse than he does himself.

I think too much about this crap and it drives me crazy. I need to go back to spending time with Little Sammy, Dean and Jess. At least there I can be free to love everything and everyone on Supernatural without any worries or cares.

My Life With Little Sammy, Dean And Jess

Little Sammy bought Dean a guitar of his own and little Dean was so happy. He was rocking out for hours. I told little Sammy that Dean was feeling sad because he was spending so much time with little Jess. Sammy said that was because Jess was feeling bad and he was trying to make her happy. Now, I think they are all happy. Little Dean bought a pumpkin basket for his Halloween treats. My little demons have already been collecting candy around their neighborhood. Sammy has a whole basket of it and has already started to eat it. I have to watch him and make sure he doesn't eat too much or he'll have nightmares and get a tummy ache. I don't want that.

Little Jess is planning a special Halloween party at her house. She has been collecting stuff for it and Sammy and Dean have been helping her. They sent her a bunch of packages with stuff for the party and to help her out. She's going to invite all their friends.

Here's our list of favorite shows for the week ending Oct. 16th, 2009

1. The Vampire Diaries
2. Supernatural
3. Gossip Girl
4. Smallville
5. One Tree Hill

What happened to One Tree Hill? It was my favorite last year. It's still good and I love to watch it, but the other shows beat it. We all loved Vampire Diaries and it had us all on the edge of our seats. Little Jess and I loved watching Damon dancing. I loved seeing some of Damon and Stephan's past. That was great and I hope to see more. Little Sammy told me that he stopped writing a song about Castiel and that he didn't like him anymore. I asked him why and he said that Castiel wanted to kill a kid. I told little Sammy that that kid was half demon and he could be dangerous and that's why Castiel wanted to kill him. We don't know what will happen to that kid and Castiel could have been right in wanting to kill him. Maybe that kid might kill a lot of people. Who knows? Don't be mad at Castiel. Little Sammy told me that he'd start writing the song again.

Poor little Sammy asked me again about the message boards and asked why I was so upset when he saw me posting. He asked if people were being mean to Sam. I told him it didn't have anything to do with Sam and it had more to do with Dean. I told little Sammy that there are a lot of people who love Sam and still love his character and to not worry. Little Sammy asked if people were being mean to Dean. I said people love Dean too. I told him that a lot of people didn't like what Castiel did because they don't understand it. I don't either sometimes. I don't understand a lot of stuff going on and I like to look on message boards to see what people think and to write down what I think. I told little Sammy that I guess I'd have to stop posting because it drives me crazy and people just want to fight. It's so true. Little Sammy asked why people want to fight and I told him I don't know why, maybe they don't have anything else to do or they just want to be mean to someone.

I broke the news to my little demons that Vamp Diaries and Supernatural were not going to be on next week. They took the news okay, especially when I told them that Legend Of The Seeker was coming back on soon. I pulled out the season 1 DVD set I bought and now they're going to have a marathon of Legend. We're all excited about seeing Richard again.

Little Sammy asked why I was at home a lot this week. I told him there was a holiday, I had a day off from work and then I was sick this Friday. I hope I can go to work come Monday and work and not take any more days off. We have a lot to do at my work and it's very busy there and I need to go in every day to get the work out. Little Sammy hugged me and so did little Dean and Jess. They gave me a kiss and said that I'd feel better next week. I know it will be true because they said it would be. Just being with them makes me feel better.

I've Got To Stay Off Message Boards

I swear that I don't know what possessed me to even try to post or talk to people on a message board. People are so close minded, that it's pathetic. Let's all believe one thing and one thing only and that's the only possibility. Eric Kripke is trying to trick people and boy does he succeed at that. People believe every word he says, just like he is God or something. That is so scary and wrong. I love Eric for making Supernatural, but it's sad when people believe everything he says and most of the time he's lying and people are too stupid to know it. Kripke isn't going to tell people everything and he's trying to mislead people into thinking one thing and then he'll do something totally opposite and people will be all surprised. Sorry, but I'm not that stupid. I love to think about all the possibilities and all the different things that could happen.

It's kind of like when Lucifer supposedly came to Sam and told him that he was his vessel. Was that even Lucifer? Everyone thinks it was, but who knows if it was or not. Dean seeing the future. Was that even the future or another trick that Zac was pulling on Dean. Who knows? Maybe Castiel made Sam see Lucifer and then showed Dean some future where Sam becomes Lucifer just to get them back together. Who knows? Is Castiel even on Sam and Dean's side? For all we know he's on Lucifer's side and working for him, not God. I'm not going to believe anything, yet.

I'm also getting so tired of people referring to Sam having an addiction to demon blood. That is just stupid. Sure it was like an addiction, but Sam was addicted to the power he thought he got from it, not the demon blood. Sam wanted the power to save people and help people, not kill and destroy. How people don't get that is way beyond me?

You ask a simple question about Dean and people freak the hell out. I swear it's almost impossible to get a decent conversation or discussion going with anyone. I guess I'd better go back to just saying I love them and forget about plot points because there's not a lot out there who can open their minds to all the possibilities. Some can, but God are they hard to find.

Sam's Power And Sam And Dean Being Vessels

Here's something that I still don't understand. I don't get why a lot of people believe that Sam's powers are demonic, who knows where they come from? I read message boards and I just can't believe some of the stuff I've been reading. Sam did not drink that demon blood for power or because he loved it. Sam did think that the demon blood gave him the power to do what he did. Sam said he missed the feeling he got and what was that feeling. It was saving people. Why does no one get that? The only power that Sam has ever wanted was the power to save people. I still don't believe like most people do, that Sam was addicted to demon blood. Sam was addicted to the power that he thought the demon blood gave him. The power to save people. If the power to save people is evil, then what is good. I just don't get it.

I don't understand why no one thinks that Michael's sword is inside of Sam, not Dean. Dean has never had any power of any kind at all. Why did Azazel have all of Mary's friends and family killed. It seemed to me that he killed them when they tried to reveal stuff to John. These people died throughout how many years. Who knows what they knew about Mary, Sam's birth or anything. Did John find out before he made the deal with Azazel? Maybe John wasn't worried about anything because he knew that Dean would always protect and take care of Sam. Or he was worried about Sam becoming evil and knew that Dean wouldn't let that ever happen. I just don't know. Maybe John found out that Sam had Michael's sword inside of him and that sword can be used for good or evil.

I wonder about that. Why wouldn't the demons want Michael's sword? Maybe they can use it to defeat Michael. In this last episode the demon told Sam that killing him was off limits, but had no problem doing whatever to Dean. If Dean was really a threat to Lucifer, why didn't this demon just kill him? What does Sam really have inside of him and can the demons use it for their gain? Are they trying to make Sam think he's evil, when in fact his power is good. Who knows and I've been thinking about it more and more?

As for Sam and Dean being vessels for Michael and Lucifer. Lucifer told Sam that if he killed himself, that he'd just bring him back to life. How could Lucifer bring Sam back to life, if someone salted and burned his bones. He'd be dead. As for Dean. If he's Michael's vessel, then why don't the angels tell him the same thing. If Dean died, then goodbye to Michael's vessel. It doesn't seem to me that the angels have done a great job of protecting such an important vessel like Dean. Dean could have been killed by Alistair and would the angels have brought him back to life? I personally think Zac and Co have been leading Dean on and making him think he's important, but I could be wrong. I think Zac and Co have been using Dean to further their own purposes along. When Zac kept Dean prisoner in that room and said they were keeping him safe. Safe from what. If he got killed, why wouldn't they be able to bring him back to life? I think they were purposely keeping Dean away from Sam. I think they wanted Sam to start the apocalypse and then they knew he'd feel so guilty about it, that he wouldn't use his powers again and he hasn't. I still think Sam has those powers and they are just inside of him. Just think in season three, Ruby told Sam that his powers were dormant and maybe he could have stopped Dean from going to hell. That would've screwed up the angels and demons plan for the apocalypse. Lilith was going to kill Sam and then she found out she couldn't. Why not? Why didn't any of Lilith's powers work on Sam. Why can't an angel kill a demon, they can only send them to hell? A demon can't kill an angel, they can only send them to heaven. Why could Sam kill a demon like Alistair? Where did Sam get the ability to send demons to hell? Why would that be a demonic power, why wouldn't that be a angelic power?

Like I said before. I still think the power inside of Sam is Michael's sword. Maybe with the combined powers of angels and demons, that's how Sam could kill Alistair and Lilith. Maybe he needed angelic and demonic power both inside of him for it to work. Maybe that's how the gun and the knife work. It seems that no one ever wants to think that Sam had the same power that the gun and the knife have. Maybe that's why Sam needed all the demon blood inside of him and that's why Ruby had him drink it. I think the demon blood kind of boosted the power that Sam already had.

I think there is a part of Sam that is afraid of what's inside him and doesn't understand it. Why does everyone think what's inside Sam is evil, when who knows what it is? There are more questions than answers again. I just hope we find out what some of the answers are.

My Life With Little Sammy, Dean And Jess

I can't believe what my little Sammy did. I came home from work to find him sitting with fangs in his cute little mouth. I started to scream and yell and swear and poor Sammy got scared. I asked him why he would get fangs in his mouth and he pulled them out. They were just fake fangs for Halloween. He wanted to surprise little Jess with them. I hugged him and said that I was sorry. It's okay for Jess to have fangs, but not my little Sammy. Jess' fangs are here real teeth. Sammy bought some potion for Jess at the Mystery Shop and now she has bat wings. She'll only have them for a few days. A lot of her friends had wings and she wanted them too, so little Sammy got them for her. My little Sammy is just too sweet. Little Sammy bought Jess a lighted makeup stand and some makeup too. He just loves to buy Jess stuff and I let him.

Little Dean does not like all the Halloween stuff popping up. He told little Sammy that he was stupid for wearing fake fangs and little Jess was stupid for getting bat wings. I told Dean that they just want to have fun. Little Dean hasn't been too happy lately and I asked him what was wrong. He told me that little Sammy was spending too much time with little Jess and not with him. I told little Dean that little Sammy and Jess love each other and that's what people in love do. I told him not to worry and maybe if he started getting excited for Halloween then little Sammy will spend more time with him. He told me that he'd try to get excited. I told him that I love October and Halloween and it's my favorite time of year. I held little Dean and comforted him and told him that when little Sammy and Jess are together he can spend time with me, if he can't find one of his other friends to play with. Little Dean smiled and went off to the store to get some Halloween stuff.

I'm almost scared to tell my little demons that Supernatural is going to be a repeat coming up next week. I don't know how they'll take it because they get so excited for each episode. Now that Sam and Dean are back together again, they love the show and so do I. I'll have to tell them after tomorrow night's show. Maybe I can get them excited about something else next week. I hope so.

Sam's Power And Dean's Fear

I thought I'd post about Sam's power. I still think Sam has something inside him and I think it's Michael's sword. Sam probably thinks it's evil and so does Dean, but I don't think it is, or maybe it can be used for good or evil. I still can't believe that people think Sam's powers came from drinking the demon blood. Ruby told him that it was inside of him all along and he didn't need the blood. Also, the power that Sam craves is the power to save people. Is that evil? Sam was addicted to the power that he had because he could save people, he was addicted to the demon blood. I think that once Lilith was dead, then Sam would've stopped drinking the demon blood, anyway. Sam did not like drinking it and in fact, probably hated to. He did it because he thought he was helping to save everyone and stop the apocalypse, not start it. Neither Sam or Dean knew that killing Lilith would break the last seal. I'm sick of people saying that Sam made wrong choices. He made choices based on what he knew and the fact that he wanted to save people. Why doesn't anyone get that? I think people just want to think that Sam is evil and that's all there is to it.

Now for Dean's biggest fear. That is that Sam will turn evil. The demons and angels both have used this to trick and manipulate Dean and the sad thing is that Dean has let them. Maybe Ruby had Sam drinking the demon blood only so that Dean would think that Sam was turning evil. I still think Lilith and Ruby were working with Zac and the other angels. I think Zac and the angels wanted Dean to think that Sam was evil or turning evil for a reason. Look how Dean reacted when he found out that Sam was drinking demon blood. He just threw Sam in the panic room because he was so afraid for Sam and that he was turning into a monster and becoming evil.

I think Zac and the other angels wanted both Sam and Dean to think that the power inside Sam is evil, when in fact it could be good and from God or it is Michael's sword and Sam is Michael's real vessel. It's funny that people don't get that the angels and demons can read minds. They know what Sam and Dean are thinking and they've used that against them all along. Who knows if now, they are purposely tricking Sam into thinking that he's Lucifer's vessel, when in fact he's Michael's. Maybe Zac and Co don't want the apocalypse to end until all of humanity is destroyed and they know that Dean will never say yes to being a vessel for Michael, so he'll never know that he's really not Michael's vessel. Maybe Dean is Lucifer's vessel. Who knows?

I just think that Dean needs to stop being afraid that Sam will turn evil. Look at all that's happened to Sam. He drank demon blood for a long time and he didn't turn evil. He was exposed to the demon virus and he was immune to it. Now Sam is just trying to fight evil and he's been doing it for a long time. I just hope that Dean realized that Sam is not evil or never was or is going to be. Dean has never told Sam about Azazel telling him what he did or how much other stuff and maybe that was Dean's biggest mistake. Not telling Sam how he feels or what he's afraid of. Who knows? We'll have to find out what happens.

My Life With Little Sammy, Dean and Jess

I had to change this story to my life with little Sammy, Dean and Jess because I love all of them. Sure little Sammy holds a special place in my heart, but so do Dean and Jess. I'm not going to do chapters anymore because I always forget which one I'm on.

Okay here's what's been happening with these three lately. They started a little rock band. There was a little disagreement over the title of the band and then they agreed to call it, Little Sammy And The Demons. I asked them why they chose demons and they said it was because of me. I usually call them my little demons at times and I'm their big demon. I was so happy about this. They've already got a song and I told them I'd write down the lyrics to it. It's a great song and of course, it is about their favorite show Supernatural.

Here it is

SUPERNATURAL ROCKS

Supernatural is the greatest show on tv
everyone loves it, especially you and me
Supernatural rocks and we love it
Supernatural rocks and we watch it every week
Supernatural rocks because of Sam and Dean

Sam and Dean fight evil each and every week
It is saving people that they seek
Evil demons, monsters and creatures better beware
because Sam and Dean will fight you anywhere
Supernatural rocks and we love it
Supernatural rocks and we watch it every week
Supernatural rocks because of Sam and Dean

Sam and Dean are brothers who love each other
and always try to help and save one another
Maybe that's their weakness, but it's their greatest strength
Supernatural rocks and we love it
Supernatural rocks and we watch it every week
Supernatural rocks because of Sam and Dean

I cried when I first heard my little Sammy, Dean and Jess sing this song. I love it so much and I'm so happy that Supernatural is so good this year. Little Sammy is working on the lyrics for a new song about Castiel and he wants to surprise Jess with it because he knows that she likes him. I can't wait to hear it.

We rated our favorite shows for the week ending Oct. 10, 2009 and here's how they fell.
1. Supernatural
2. Smallville
3. Vampire Diaries
4. Gossip Girl
5. One Tree Hill
We all just loved Supernatural and we've all watched the episode three times now. I had to keep rewinding the part where Paris Hilton said "Awesome" and brought her shoe down on Dean's face. We could not stop laughing. I had to rewind the part where Sam killed her and he told Dean that he got whaled on by Paris Hilton. It was about time that Sam got to say something like that to Dean.
We all loved Smallville, but Jess and I were sad about Oliver. Jess asked me if he was going to ever be a hero again and I told her that I hoped so.
Vamp Diaries was good and we all loved when Damon got out because then it will make the show more fun to watch.
I hardly got to see much of Gossip Girl and One Tree Hill because I was fighting with my computer and MP3 player. I just know that Dan wasn't on Tree Hill and he's my favorite part of the show. What I saw was good and so was Gossip Girl.
There's going to be a lot of competition for the best show next week because they all look great. It's going to be a good week of TV.

Little Jess found some new friends in their neighborhood and they have fangs just like she does. Even though Jess has a lot of friends, she told me it was nice to know that others had fangs too, just like her.

My little Sammy, Dean and Jess are so good right now. They've been busy helping each other out and sending gifts to each other. They've all started sticker books and they are so happy right now. I'm so happy too.

My Life With Little Sammy...chapter 6

I just knew that once I went back to work that Sammy would forget that I wasn't going to be at home. He came home to get some mac and cheese and found me gone and started to cry. I found him sound asleep in his outdoor room. My poor little baby. I told him again that he can't come home to visit me in the afternoons because I have to work. He was so sad about it, but I told him that's how I make money and that I have to work. I certainly wish that I could spend all day with him, but that just can't happen. I told Sammy that I have my MP3 player and it has pictures of him, Dean and Jess on it and I look at them all day long. I miss him as much as he misses me.

Little Sammy, Dean and Jess wanted me to start writing down our favorite shows in order of how we loved them. Here's our list for the week ending Oct. 3.
1. Gossip Girl
2. Smallville
3. One Tree Hill
4. Vampire Diaries
5. Supernatural
I don't know what happened to Supernatural. It was our favorite until this week. Little Sammy and Dean actually fell asleep during it and missed the best part of the show. Little Jess loved watching Castiel and so did I. I loved seeing him smile on the show. Little Jess woke up Sammy and Dean at the end and told them that Sam and Dean were back together and they all started dancing around and screaming. Now they can't wait for next Thursday because they'll get to see Sam and Dean together again. Little Dean can't wait to see Paris Hilton because he can't wait to see her smash Dean's face with her shoe. I told them that the episode looks funny and that it will probably make us all laugh and smile.

Little Dean is really enjoying Smallville because I think he has a little crush on Lois. He gets all excited when she comes on. Little Jess cried this Friday because the Green Arrow wasn't on. Sammy was just happy to see Clark and I told them I liked everything about it. All our shows look great for next week and we can't wait.

Little Sammy asked again about the message boards and what people were saying about Sam. I told them that they were saying good things. I try to go on the boards when I have the time, but I can't go on too often because they drive me crazy. I told Sammy that I've been reading a few threads on the message boards I look at and they've been saying all kinds of stuff. They have a lot of theories and ideas for the show. I told little Sammy what I think will happen and he looked sad. I then told him that I don't know what Kripke and Co have planned for Sam, but we just have to wait. I told him to think positively and believe that everything will turn out good for Sam. Sammy asked me if I think Sam is evil and I said he's the least evil person on Supernatural right now. Sam wants to save people and that's not evil, that's good in my opinion.

Little Sammy and Jess were playing school in Sammy's school room and what I feared the most happened. Little Jess bit my little Sammy. It wasn't a hard bite and it didn't draw blood, but I was mad at little Jess. I told her that if she did that again, then she wouldn't be able to come over and play with Sammy anymore. She cried and said she was sorry. She said she just got excited because she loves Sammy so much. I told her that she has to be careful and that her fangs are sharp and she could really hurt him. She started to cry again and I held her and told her it was alright. I told her that I loved her and that I want her to come over and see Sammy, but that she has to be careful. She told me that she would. She's such a little sweetheart and I have to admit that sometimes I want to bite my little Sammy, too. He is just so cute and adorable. I told her that and she laughed and smiled.

My little Sammy, Dean and Jess make my day and my week. Whenever I'm stressed or I get depressed, they are always there for me and I love them.

New Sam and Dean Theory

Here's my new theory about mainly Sam. I think Sam has Michael's sword inside of him. We know that Sam's powers didn't come from the demon blood that he drank, so where do they come from. Lucifer told Sam that only he could be his vessel, but what about Michael. If Michael and Lucifer are both so strong that they'd burn out their vessels, than how could Dean be a vessel for Michael? Dean does not have any powers of any kind, but Sam does. Michael was supposed to be the one that sent Lucifer to hell and Sam has the power inside him to send demons to hell. I think Lucifer, Azazel, Lilith and Ruby all knew that Sam had Michael's sword in him and he was the only one that could do what he's done so far. I think Castiel knows about Sam, but is keeping it to himself or maybe he doesn't know. I think Zac and the other angels think it's Dean because God wants them to believe it is. Where is Michael and why does Dean have to be taken to him? Are Zac and the other angels holding him hostage or something? Is Michael powerless without his sword?
I think that when Sam came back from the dead after being stabbed by Jake, that's when he had the sword in him. Thinking back to what Azazel told Dean about Sam not being 100% pure Sam, maybe he knew that Sam came back with the sword inside him. I still think Dean's deal is not what brought Sam back to life. It could have been God that brought him back to life.

My theory on why God would want the apocalypse. Maybe God started the apocalypse to show the angels that we did have worth. That maybe we can somehow rise above our humanity and be better than what we are. Maybe God wanted the apocalypse to be a wake up call for humanity. We've just been wallowing in our humanity and not loving and caring about each other. We've been greedy and selfish and maybe God is trying to teach us a lesson. It's funny that we tend to blame God or the Devil for everything that happens on this planet, when in fact, it is humans who decide the fate of everything that happens here. I've heard people blaming God for the weather, people dying and all kinds of other things. It's sad that we can't take a good hard look at ourselves and what we're doing to this beautiful planet God created for us and realize that we are destroying it and no one else.

It's funny that people think that Sam is making the wrong and dark choices when he's mostly worried about saving people. If that is evil, then I guess letting people die is good and sitting around doing nothing to save people is great. I don't get that.
I still think that everything is going to be on Sam's shoulders and that he's the ultimate vessel. Either the vessel for Michael or for Lucifer. I don't think Dean is a vessel at all. It's funny that Dean has always had this overpowering need to protect Sam. Where did that come from? If Sam is evil, then it came from Lucifer. If Sam is good, then did it come from God. I still think Sam is like the guy in the story I read. This person saw people dying all the time and had to learn why that was. This person saved everyone and sacrificed himself to do it.