Where's My Sammy?

I really wish I could see my little Sammy. When the world turned dark and cold, then I could always go to Pet Society to find the light and warmth. I always found comfort in visiting my little Sammy because he always made me smile and laugh even though all I wanted to do was cry. Now, I just have to settle for looking at pics of him and remembering what he did for me.
Tonight or maybe way before tonight, I lost someone I really cared about and loved. No, they are not dead but they might as well be. As far as I'm concerned they are now a stranger to me and I wonder if I ever really knew this person. I used to idolize her and now I can't stand to even think about her or to see or talk to her. She's my sister, but I feel like I'm not even related to her anymore. She treats me like I'm a stranger and has for a while now. Whatever. I'm just sad about everything and sick of all the crap. I've lost Mully, my little Sammy, my Mom, my favorite show and her a long time ago. I hope she enjoys her money because that's about all she ever thinks or cares about.
She thinks I care about all the stupid trips she's been going on, but I don't. I went on two trips this year and they were enough for me, maybe too much. I loved going to Colorado because I spent time with my two nephews and I missed how much time with them when they were younger. I remember going on trips with this sister, but she doesn't even remember that I was there for how many of them. That really tells me how much she cared about me. She didn't and I wonder if she ever did.  I guess I finally have found out who really cared about me and who didn't. I thought she cared about me, but she hasn't cared if I've been alive or dead for a couple of years now. Well, now it's mutual because I no longer care about her or what happens to her because she's a stranger to me now. I still have my Bela and my other family members, but I miss what I've lost.
Where's my Sammy to take away all this sadness and pain?