Why I Deleted My Post?

Here's why I deleted one of my earlier posts. Someone asked me to, but I'm sorry when I say that I really don't think you love me. Please don't be mean to my sister because she has no control over what I do. Here's why I made the post. It was to vent about something that pissed me off and that's what my Hell House is for, plus to say how much I love entertainment. I meant nothing against your family because I didn't mention names, it's sad when people have to go snooping on other people's blogs.

Why do I love entertainment so much? Why do I love my shows, music and books? They have been my drugs for years. They've helped me more than anyone on this Earth. When I've been depressed and I felt like the world's coming to an end. These are the things that I cling to the most. I'd cling to my family, but they have their own problems and their own lives.

I've been reading the person's blog for a while and maybe I saw something in her that I saw in myself long ago. I've taken a good hard look at myself, that's what I meant when I said she should look in a mirror. I wasn't talking about her personal appearance. I'm personally short, fat and ugly and I know it. I'm not a beautiful person inside or out. I know who I am and I love myself and I don't care if anyone else loves me or not. I love myself and that's all that matters. I love the old saying, "No one will ever love you, until you can love yourself." No truer words were ever spoken.

My Hell House is for my love for Supernatural, all my TV shows, all the singers, all my authors and for the people who inspire me. I watch and I listen to music because I learn from these things. Maybe I'm crazy, but I don't care. I try not to inflict myself on other people and I mainly keep to myself. I like to be alone, but I also like to spend time with the people I love. I love TV, but I love my family and friends more and I treasure my time with them, like the greatest treasures I own.

I'm sad that people looked at one thing I wrote on a blog and judged me for it and went postal over it. I never mentioned names or anything. I've deleted the post, so now leave my blog alone and go snoop or read other more interesting blogs please.

Thanks

America's Got Talent

I was a little surprised last night while watching the results show. I was sad that Paradiso Dance didn't make it to the finals. I'm glad that those cute Texas Tenors made it in and Kevin Skinner. Grandma Lee was funny and The Voices Of Glory were nice singers, but I wouldn't want to see them in Vegas. I'd love seeing the Fab Five from Morgan, Utah. I think they were great and full of energy and that's what you want when you go to Vegas. You want flash, energy, entertainment and excitement. I'd really love to see David Hasselhoff the most in Vegas. Too bad he's a judge and not a contestant. I've loved him seeing last night the most. I always loved watching him in Baywatch and Baywatch Nights. I have one of his albums and music from the cast of Baywatch. David is a real great entertainer that makes you feel good when you watch him.
I can't wait to see the other acts next week and see who makes it through to the finals. I've never got to watch this show because I've only been able to pull in CW on my TV. I'm glad that I found it. I'd love to get tickets to the show in Vegas in October, but I probably won't be able to. Vegas is one of my favorite places to go.

How Much Do I Love Supernatural?

Here's how much I love Supernatural. Sure season 4 wasn't my favorite season, but today I rushed out after work and got season 4 on DVD. I paid more money for it at F.Y.E. because they were all out at Target. I haven't even bought any of my other favorite shows yet and I probably won't until they go on sale. I love Supernatural so much that no matter what, I'll get everything Supernatural that I want.
I love Supernatural so much and that's why I bitch, complain, analyze and tear it apart. It's all because I love it so much. I don't do that with my other shows.
The only show that has gotten close to it, is Legend Of The Seeker. I'm praying and hoping season 5 of Supernatural kicks butt because I want it to always be my favorite.

I love Jared and Jensen and Eric Kripke for giving me this wonderful show. Also, all the writers, directors, producters, and cast. Also a nod to all the people who never get any credit and you never get to see their names because they're so small on your TV screen. All of these people bring my favorite show to me and I love them for it.

My little Sammy is starting to get ready for his Supernatural party on the 10th. He's put up Supernatural on the wall, he's gotten some balloons, a pie, a cake and he's going to try and invite some of his friends over to watch.

9 more days to go. I remember when it was four months. Where has the time gone?

Wild Theories

I keep thinking up all kinds of theories about the show and I have to stop. Most of my theories are totally off the wall or just flat out crazy. You never know though, when one or two could be right, but I don't even want to think about them. I've thought up something about Sam's role in the apocalypse and Dean's role. I don't think it's going to be anything that people are expecting. I have this feeling that Dean defeating Lucifer will result in something, but I'm not even going to post it here, let alone on any message boards.

One thing I still don't get is why people believe that God wanted Dean saved. If God didn't want Dean to go to hell and he had a purpose for him, he would never have gone. Why do people think Dean is on some mission from God and that God is the one that wanted Dean pulled out of hell? I still think Azazel and the bad angels were working together for a long time. I think they made Castiel and some of the good angels believe that they were going to save Dean, but made sure he broke the seal before they went to try save him from breaking it. I think the bad angels are the ones that wanted Dean out of hell for some purpose and it isn't to defeat Lucifer. Why would the bad angels want their beautiful brother defeated or God back in charge? Uriel told about Lucifer and he was on Zachariah's and the bad angels side.

I think there is so much more to what's happening then people think or I'm hoping there is.

Another thing that I've been thinking about. Dean being a leader. People still think Dean is going to lead heaven's army. I personally don't think so. I think Sam and Dean are going to be the same. I think Dean is going to act more like a leader and not a follower. Dean followed orders from his father for years, no matter what they were. Now Dean is not doing anything anyone wants him to. Maybe Dean is starting to be like Sam. Sam has always went off and done his own thing and not cared what anyone thinks and Dean admired that about Sam. Dean said that Sam stood up to his father and went off on his own. You've seen that change in Dean in season 4. I think Dean will be more mature in his thinking and maybe realize that he doesn't have to protect Sam because he can take care of himself.

My mind has been thinking up all kinds of things and I'll just have to see how everything pans out and if any of my theories are right or not. I'm trying not to read too much into anything because I want to enjoy the show and love watching it all season long. I'll have to keep playing with little Sammy, so I stay happy and positive and just keep on loving Supernatural. Little Sammy helps me turn my brain off for a while and I forget all my goofy and crazy theories. I haven't been going to look what other people think are going to happen either, that could drive me crazier than thinking up my own theories.

More About Little Sammy

Should I be worried about little Sammy seeing a witch and kissing her all the time? I don't think so. I think little Sammy can tell a good witch from a bad witch, not like big Sammy who was kissing a horrible bad witch that made him get addicted to demon blood.
Little Sammy keeps running on his treadmill and drinking his chocolate milk. He has gotten stronger and is starting to win a lot of races. Big Sammy should never have drank demon blood to get strong, all he needed was chocolate milk.
Little Sammy named his teddy bear Bobby. He loves to haul Bobby all over the house and hug him, just like Dean. Hopefully Sammy will get a little Cas to love and hug. Poor big Sammy hasn't gotten to hug anyone lately. I think he needs a big hug and a lot of love. Little Sammy gets tons of love and big Sammy none.

Little Sammy Is Great, But I Can't Wait To See Big Sammy Again

I didn't think I'd be able to put these pictures of little Sammy on my blog. Little Sammy is a great stress reducer and he just makes me feel good. It's kind of like playing a game or something, but not. My family probably thinks I'm crazy and I am and my mother says I should act like an adult. What's wrong with having a little computer pet? Grown men play games and do all kinds of stuff on the net and grown women. I can do whatever I want and especially when it makes me happy and it doesn't hurt anyone.
I'm looking forward to seeing big Sammy again and I can't wait to see what's in store for him. I swear Jared just looked so hot in that promo. I can't wait to see Dean, Castiel and Bobby, too. I just have a good feeling that is not going away. Season 5 is going to be one of the best seasons of Supernatural.

As for little Sammy, he is getting ready for the new season to start. I got him a party hat and he's ready to party. He's going to have a Supernatural party for the premiere. lol

I Don't Get It

I just don't get why people read so much into spoilers. I've said it before and I'll say it again. Spoilers are not to tell what's going to happen, they are to get you excited for the show. Kripke and Co are not giving anything important away in interviews. I still think all that crap about Sam having to atone for things he's done is just crap, but then again, how do we know everything that Sam has done? Most of Sam's storyline was off-screen, so you really don't know all that he did with Ruby. Maybe Sam has more to atone for than we know or maybe Sam just thinks he needs to atone for the things he's done. The main thing Sam would need to atone for is that he didn't have enough faith in God, but seeing how his life has gone, who could blame him for not having a lot of faith or even believing that God could care about him?

Those promos really gave me a good look at how season 5 is going to be. I'm not going to read too much into them because they are tiny little clips and who knows what they're about or what's really going to happen. Take for instance, the episode where we get to see evil Sam. Is that a dream, an alternate reality, an illusion or what. The episode is called "The Douche Of Oz". It sounds like the Wizard Of Oz and that means it could just be Dean dreaming or something like that about Sam being evil. As for Jessica being on, what will she be, a ghost, a spirit, a dream, a hallucination. Who knows at this point, except for Kripke and Co and Jared, Jensen and the rest of the cast?

When I first got my computer and started looking at spoilers, I went a little crazy and then I realized that they don't really spoil at all. Sometimes they are just misleading you into thinking something and then it turns out to be something else. I was scared to start looking at spoilers for season 5, but now I can't wait for new ones. I still have a really good feeling about the show and nothing is going to spoil or ruin that for me.

I'm So Happy Right Now

I'm so happy right now that I could burst. I'm getting more excited as the TV season gets closer. I can't wait for all my shows to come back on. I can't wait for Supernatural and I don't care what happens on it. Sam could turn evil, Dean could turn evil or even Castiel could turn evil and I wouldn't care. Here's a quick thought about Castiel. Who would have more sympathy for Lucifer? Sam or Dean. I don't think so. Castiel is now a fallen angel, what was Lucifer but a fallen angel who thought God didn't care about him. Who knows what will happen on Supernatural now? I'm just hoping season 5 will be fun and full of surprises. I hope the writers got their groove back because I want to see great episodes. From the promos it looks like Sam and Dean are going to be together. When I read that Dean might not be able to look at Sam because of what he did. I think that's bull crap. I think Dean is going to find out how the angels manipulated Sam. When you hear Dean say that they jump started the apocalypse. He didn't say that Sam did. Who knows what will go on, but hopefully it will be good?

I just looked on Amazon and seen that a new Supernatural book is going to be coming out in April called Dark History. I love the other three Supernatural books and I've been reading them again for the fifth or sixth time. I wish there were more books. Someone could write a story that took place in any of the seasons or even before the show started. It would be great to read some books about when Sam and Dean were teenagers and learning to help John on hunts. I'd love that.

My little Sammy will keep me happy no matter what happens. I know I'm crazy loving a computer animated creature, but I can't help it. Also my sweet little Mully will keep me happy. I love her so much. She's a little hellcat, but she's sweet and loving too. Here's another picture of her.

More Pictures Of Little Sammy

Here's some more pics of my little Sammy. I bought Sammy a treadmill so he can run faster in the races. Big Sammy probably runs really fast because his life is always in danger and things are chasing him. Sammy has a couple of stuffed animals and he named his little black ducky Dean. Sammy was lonely and now he can hug Dean whenever he needs to. I got Sammy a bigger fish tank because he's caught a whole ton of fish at the fish pond. Too bad big Sammy doesn't have the time to go fishing, maybe big Sammy would smile more if he could relax every once in a while.

Big Sammy Or Little Sammy

I love big Sammy and I love my little Sammy. They are both just so cute. The only difference is that big Sammy is addicted to demon blood and little Sammy is addicted to chocolate milk. I wish big Sammy was addicted to chocolate milk, too. I wish big Sammy could go fishing sometime, like my little Sammy. Sammy has caught a whole ton of fish, that are now in a tank. Little Sammy can transport himself wherever he wants to, you wonder if big Sammy could too. Seeing as how those demons can move around, big Sammy should be able to. Sure little Sammy is a kitty and he's blue, but both of big and little Sammy have puppy dog eyes that just draw you in and make you love them.