Tangled, Princesses and No Supernatural

Last night I went to see Tangled. It was one of the cutest movies that I've seen in a long time. I miss going to movies like this and the last one was Enchanted. Disney says that Tangled was the last princess movie they are ever going to make. I hope that's not true and they change their minds. I love these movies and they're not just for little kids to enjoy, they're for everyone. My little grand nephews loved the movie, so it's not just for little girls under ten years old. I'm so sick of all the target audience bullshit already. The target audience for any movie or TV show, should be everyone, not just men, women or children of certain ages.
I hope that I never lose the part of me that loves princesses and loves to dream. I still dream about things, even though I'm older and I know they'll never come true. Some of them still might and I still think about them. A lot of my dreams have come true, even though they've taken years. I love to dream and I hope I always will until the day I die.

I missed watching Smallville and Supernatural because there was no signal or the signal was low for the CW. I'm so sick of that crap already. Digital TV sucks because most of the time it doesn't come in or the channels look like crap or they're all broken up. It's mostly the CW channel that has problems in the area where I live and that's the channel I watch the most. I wish all the CW shows were in repeats right now because it's been so hard to watch them.
It's funny but I'm not mad or sad about missing Supernatural. There was a time when I would have went crazy not seeing it. I guess I'm not that obsessed about it anymore. I don't know if it's the current storyline or I've just lost a lot of interest in it in general. It doesn't feel like the same show I've been watching for five years at times and maybe that's what's wrong. Sometimes it does feel like I'm watching a new show and one that I really don't have all that much interest in. I still love Supernatural and I always will, just like all the other shows I've watched over the years. I've been watching my DVDs of Supernatural from seasons 1-5 right now. I love the first three seasons of the show and lately it's gone downhill. I never cared for the whole Apocalypse and angel vessel storyline. Most of it was stupid and didn't make sense at all. Then all the crap with Heaven and angels being just as bad or worse than demons and Hell. The only good thing that came out of it was Castiel. I love Misha Collins and I can't wait to see him at the L.A. Con in Feb. I loved him at the last L.A. Con.
I wonder if Sam is ever going to get his soul back and do I even care anymore. I think I've resigned myself to just watching the show and not caring what happens. Sometimes I don't even want to think about Supernatural at all and other times I think about it a lot. I guess I just don't want to invest too much time into it because I'll probably get disappointed and angry like I was during season 4. I guess I just have a come what may attitude about it right now. I don't care what happens and I'll keep watching it until it ends. Sometimes it's more of a comedy than anything else. Even the serious stuff on it makes me laugh because I can't take some of it seriously at all. I loved Clap Your Hands If You Believe and that's probably been my favorite episode so far this season on the show. I hope there's more episodes coming up like it because I'd rather laugh than get angry at some of the crazy stuff they come up with or laugh at it because I can't take it seriously at all. I'm just hoping they have a good explanation as to how Sam's body can be walking and talking without his soul inside. If they don't explain that crap and I learn nothing about Sam, then that will make me mad.
I've thought up theories and stuff, but I doubt anything I've thought of will be. I've wondered if the angels or someone doesn't have Sam and Dean in some long time loop or something. Now that would be a cheat and would suck. I think I've just lost some of the love I had for Supernatural because it has changed just a little too much over the seasons. Some shows can change and still stay the same, but Supernatural has changed and turned into a different show altogether at times.

I still love One Tree Hill and it's just gotten better as the years have gone by. I love it more now, than when it first aired and the gang were teenagers. I still love Smallville almost as much as when it aired. There have been a lot of changes, but the show still stays pretty much the same and I've always loved that about it. Gossip Girl has been really good lately and has gotten even better. Usually shows like this have gotten stale for me after a few years. Life Unexpected is pretty new and I still love watching it and I hope it continues having good story lines. I love Vampire Diaries and it's pretty new too. I'm loving everything on that show right now. The cast and the story lines are great and I enjoy watching every episode. There's going to be a marathon on CW soon and I hope I'll be able to watch it and my digital signal will be stronger.

I just love all kinds of entertainment, so it's nice that I could enjoy going to the movie instead of watching TV for a night. There will always be something to make me get excited about and make me happy, whether it's a new album, a TV show or a new movie. Sometimes I even love to get excited about sports and other stuff like that. I'd love to go see a musical or a play or something, but there's no one to go see one with and I don't want to go alone. I would even love to see a symphony performing or go to one of the school's little concerts. I love those.

Well, I'm done posting for now. I just had to use a picture of my little fairy princess Jess for this post. Well, she's a fairy princess right now, but who knows what kind of princess she'll be next.

Trolls and Trolling On The Internet

Here's my opinion about trolls on the Internet. I think most people are trolls or trolling on the Internet. There are people trolling for info, trolling for a good deal on merchandise, trolling for porn, trolling for friends, trolling for gossip and all kinds of other things. You could almost say that everyone who uses the Internet is a troll because everyone is trolling for something.

Here's what I think about the CW message board. The only trolls on there are the ones that are constantly patrolling the board and harassing anyone who doesn't have the same opinion as they do or they get angry at what other people like as opposed to what they do. I was a troll because I didn't love Jensen or Dean and I didn't want to constantly post how great Dean is or how Jensen deserves an award for playing his character. That was a crock of shit in my opinion. I'm glad that now on the message board that more posters are posting about Sam and about Jared. Jared deserves just as much recognition as Jensen does. Both of them are deserving of awards for their acting. I happen to think Jared is the better actor myself and I don't give a crap what anyone else thinks. Jared has played a bigger variety of roles in movies and on Supernatural than Jensen has. Dean to me, is a one dimensional character and he's now getting boring. Sure, Dean still makes me laugh and that's about it. I can't take his character seriously at all. Dean tells one thing and then says the exact opposite later. Maybe one day we'll get to see some really great acting out of Jensen on the show, but I highly doubt it. I'd love to see Jensen play a totally different role than Dean on the show, just to see if he can and if it would be believable.
Now back to the trolls. I still remember the story about the troll under the bridge. That's a troll. Someone who sits somewhere and never leaves and tries to keep other people from ever invading that space because they think they own it. Then they constantly harass you for what you like or what you want to talk about. They never really listen to anything you say and that's happened on that CW board. I had the biggest troll ever telling me a bunch of crap and calling me how much crap and I never called her anything. How many of those posters thought that I was going to go all over the board and defend Sam's character? What the hell for? I love Sam and I love Jared for playing him, but if others don't, then that's their deal and they should be free to say whatever they want. I even tried to start a Sam bashing thread so they'd have a place to bash Sam and of course it was deleted by the mods. It wasn't a joke thread. The problem with that board is that you really can't express how you feel and that's just wrong. If someone hates a character, then they should be allowed to post about it and not just characters that some posters think others should hate or love to hate. If you don't like or even hate a character, then you should have somewhere to post about it. It should not just be for posters that love characters and especially Sam and Dean. It's like the love board or something and if you don't become a part of their little click and clan, then you don't belong or something and you have no right to post about what you feel and you'll be called a troll.

To me a real troll is someone that treats you like crap and is mean to you without even getting to know you. A troll is someone who comes on there and just says they hate something and never says why and never comes back. A troll is someone who is just waiting to pounce on you for having a difference of opinion or if you say something they don't like. That's a troll. It's funny that I've only seen that stupid stuff on the Supernatural board on the CW site. I've gone on the other boards and they don't call people trolls or they didn't when I used to post on them. It was just Supernatural. I think they need to come up with some other name for people who come on there to start trouble because calling them a troll is like being a hypocrite because the trolls that live on the message board are sometimes worse than the trolls that come on there to cause trouble. It's actually kind of funny. I also love the crap about respecting what others think, like they really do. It's a big joke and I laugh my butt off over the crap they spout. I think some of them love Dean's character because they are hypocrite's just like he is at times. You should practice what you preach to others and not just tell others what to do.

I could call some of my facebook friends trolls, but I know they are just having fun when they make certain comments to posts. The whole thing about the Internet is, if you don't want someone to read your crap or comment on it, then don't post or talk about it. I love how I read that article about trolling. You should not blog for a few days if a troll comes on to your blog. Just get rid of comments and other things or hide your blog. It's as simple as that. You don't want someone to make fun of you, then don't put your shit out there for everyone to read. The Internet is all public and whoever can read whatever you are posting or writing about. If I didn't want someone to read the crap I write, then I wouldn't write it at all or I'd keep it private. I have a blocked blog because I use it to vent on and I swear on it and then I feel good after I've let everything out.

I just think some people don't understand what a troll really is because everyone who's on the Internet could be considered a troll.

Dan Scott On One Tree Hill

I was so happy to see Dan Scott back on One Tree Hill. I don't know if he's just going to be on the one episode or more, but I'm happy. Even if he was only in one episode of this season, that's good enough for me. I just love Paul Johansson and I love him for playing Dan Scott on Tree Hill. He's one of the reasons I started and kept watching Tree Hill. I love his character. Yeah, he's been considered one of the bad guys, but he's been good too. He's done a lot of good things and helped a lot of people since he shot his brother, so he's trying to atone for what he did. He'll never be able to take what he did back and he's paying every day for what he did. I love how Quinn went to him and asked him for advice on how to kill someone and I love what he told her. Those scenes were the best scenes I've seen on Tree Hill so far this season. I hope that Paul will be on more episodes in the second half of the season, but if he's not, then that's okay too. I just love him and want more of him.

I went on the CW message board and posted in Hell House because that's the only place I want to post right now. I love how someone told about online Trollers. I was called a Troll on that message board because I loved Jared and his character of Sam more than I loved Jensen and his character of Dean. I wanted to post about how I felt about Sam's character and what I thought and I was called a troll for it. And just because I didn't think Dean's character was some great saint and the greatest thing on Supernatural. I loved that shit. Then I was banned for trolling in a thread I made for loving or hating characters. I said I hated Sam, Dean, Castiel and Bobby and I was banned for doing it because that was considered trolling. That's the stupidest crap ever. What the hell was I trolling for in my own thread. I stated you could love or hate any character in it. Of course, I love Sam, Dean, Castiel and Bobby, but I was angry and took out my anger on fictional characters instead of real people. I sometimes forget that some people can't tell the difference between a fictional character and reality. That Sam, Dean, Castiel, Bobby or any other character could care less what you say about them because they are not real. Gotta love those Mods on that site. Then once I went on One Tree Hill's message board and asked if anyone liked Mark Schwann and the Mods deleted the thread and probably thought I was trolling on that board, when I love the show. It's stupid and it made me so angry. You can't even go on those boards and post about anything or some cry baby will cry to a Mod and act like a little kid or something or whine about you bashing a fictional character. It's really scary at times. I love to talk Supernatural and what's happening, but there is no way in hell I'm going to try again on that board. I'll keep posting in Hell House and my other two threads and that's it. Sometimes I go on and read some interesting threads, but now a days, there isn't very many of them.

I went to the dentist yesterday and had six cavities filled. I was in that dentist chair for over an hour and half. It felt like I was strapped to a torture device or something. I'm glad that I didn't have more problems with my teeth. Those cavities already cost me a ton of money. Here's the reason I don't go to the dentist or I'm reluctant to go to one. When I was a kid, my sisters and brother and I went to this horrible dentist. He could have starred in a horror movie or something. I can still remember his face and I just think of it and don't want to go to the dentist now that I'm older. I remember my Mom and brother having to talk me into getting my teeth done. One time I had 12 cavities and that dentist filled them all. Later, when he died and my brother went to his son who became a dentist, my brother found out that he drilled good teeth that didn't even have cavaties and he made holes in our teeth to make sure we'd get cavities. That's just sick. Of course, there was nothing you could do about it then because he wad dead and there was no proof of what he did. I just remember brushing my teeth really good and hoping I didn't have a ton of caviites when I went. It seemed like every time I went, I did have cavaties, but I probably didn't. The dentist I've been going to now is very good and nice, but I just still remember that other dentist and cringe every time I go to a dentist or have my teeth drilled on.

Okay, back to the shows. I loved Life Unexpected tonight too. That Thanksgiving on there topped them all. I loved when Cate spit on the turkey, that was just too good. That show has been kind of up and down this season, but this episode was the best so far. I loved it and I hope that Cate and Ryan have a baby together, but I bet that Cate will lose the baby somehow because so many fans want Cate and Baze together. I don't. I love Cate and Ryan and I think they look cute together and they are cute together. I can just guess what's going to happen. I bet Cate will somehow lose the baby and then not be able to conceive again and that will mean that Lux will be her only kid and I will be angry because that happened on a soap I used to watch and I was so pissed off. I loved Port Charles and I loved Kevin and Lucy and Lucy lost their baby and could not have another one and so the little girl she conceived for her friend and Scott was the only child she could ever be close to and that was crap. I hated it. I just hope something unexpected happens on Life Unexpected and it turns out better than that.

Harry Potter And Other Stuff

Today I went to see the new Harry Potter movie. I love all the books and the movies. I'm so grateful to J.K. Rowling for writing the books. I've read and re-read the entire series so many times and I'm going to start reading them again. You never get tired of reading them because they are just so good and it's nice to lose yourself in that world of magic and wonder. It's kind of scary too, especially as the books go along.
I think The Deathly Hallows is my favorite movie so far out of all the other movies. It was filmed perfectly. My favorite scene out of the whole movie, is when Snape goes to the Malfoy's and they're all sitting around that table with Voldemort. I just love everything about that scene. It was chilling and I loved it. I just love Helen Bonham Carter and I'm so happy they got her to play the role of Bellatrix. I love Alan Rickman playing Snape. He just does it so well and I love the character of Snape. I think he's the biggest hero in the entire series. I think he had the hardest job of all of the Order Of The Phoenix. It's great to see how Daniel Radcliffe, Emma Watson and Rupert Grint have all grown up. You first saw them as these little kids and now they're adults just like the characters grew up.
I just wish that all the actors, actresses, writers and directors and everyone that has brought the movies to the screen would get the credit they deserve. I can't believe how talented all the actors and actresses have been that have starred in all the movies. I love them and I've very grateful to them for bringing Harry Potter and his world to life.

I've been trying to read more lately and I just finished a book called 13 1/2. This was a very interesting book. It was about a sick relationship between two brothers. I just can't believe what one brother did to the other one and everything that happened. I think I need to start reading some Christmas books and get into the spirit of Christmas. I've still got a few more vampire books to read, but I think I can squeeze some Christmas in between them. I'm usually reading about five books at a time. I'll read a few chapters in each of them and sometimes, if they are really good, then I keep reading one until it's read. I also finished that new V.C. Andrews book. I know darn well that V.C. Andrews had nothing to do with this book or how many of the others. I think it's one of her family or someone writing new books and just using her name to sell them. I doubt it's some unfinished work of hers. If it is, then she had tons of unfinished books before she died. She's been dead for a long time and there's more books from after she died, then before. I love to read them and I don't care who's writing them because they are still good. This latest vampire one was interesting and a good read.

Last night, I froze my ass off watching a Christmas parade. It was pretty fun though. I love to go to parades and I went to this one last year. Then I saw some Christmas lights. They're animals and stuff like that in a park and they're all lit up and cute. I loved last year because my nephew was here and he went to the parade and lights with us and now he's gone again. I enjoyed every minute I got to spend with him and I hope one day to spend more time with him. I missed so much time with him and his brother. You can never get that time back, but there was nothing I could do about it.

I also watched The Christmas Cottage with Jared Padalecki in it. I just love this movie. I remember two years ago when my oldest sister bought it for me for Christmas. She gave it to me early and surprised me with it, because I never knew it was out and she had saw it being advertised on a channel on TV that I didn't watch. I was so happy and I just love that Jared is in this movie. There is no other actor that would have been better to play Thomas Kinkade in it. Jared just has these sweet looks and his beautiful eyes and I just want to hug him or something when I watch the movie. I love that scene where Thomas goes to see Glen and he brings him that candle and says he has nothing to give him, just love. I cry every time despite myself. I love that Jared has such a wide range of acting talent. He can play such various roles and I love that Sam has changed so much on Supernatural because it shows that Jared is an awesome and talented actor. He can express every emotion and make me believe every one of them and that's what makes a great actor and that's what Jared is. I'd still love to see Jensen play a different role. I mean a really different role and not that same Dean persona all the time. Even on Supernatural, Dean is still Dean and has been since the start of the show. His character hasn't changed all that much and most of the time is static and same old same old. It would be nice to see his character Dean do something totally different for a change. I doubt it will ever happen because fans would freak out of their minds or something. I know darn well they would.

Well, this has been another long one, but I needed to type.

I'm A Loser And I Love Sam

I'm a big fat loser. I went to the gambling town for Thanksgiving and lost like usual. I'm not a winner and I doubt I ever will be. I had a good time though. It was a nice ride down on a double Decker bus. I sat up top with two of my sisters that went. I lost quite a bit of money like a fool. I hope I can still buy Misha's photo op for the Con. I think I'll have enough money for it. The sad part is, I've lost more money gambling than anything else. I think of all the money I lost and I could have went to how many conventions in the past. Gambling is my addiction, but I can stop and I have. I'm probably not going to go again until after the Convention. I really need all my money for it and other things right now. Losing makes me not want to go back for a long time. I like to have money to do other things with and when I go to gamble, I just end up losing and I hate that. There have been a rare few times that I actually won money and brought it home and bought things I needed with it.

I love Sam, even though I think he's an abomination. I just think there has to be more to Sam and if there isn't, than I'm going to be very disappointed. I just don't get how Sam's body could be walking and talking without his soul or something to make it be alive. I still think Sam could be part angel or something and maybe his grace is what's animating his body right now. Maybe he's a human body with angel grace and his soul isn't there. Or, Sam's body is being possessed by an angel. He has the tattoo to keep him from being possessed by demons, but that doesn't work with angels and who knows if only Lucifer could possess him. I still wonder if Michael isn't possessing Sam or there's always been a part of Michael or some of Michael's grace in Sam.
I think back to last season when Castiel was acting and becoming more human because he was cut off from heaven and he was losing his grace. At the end he was sleeping in the car and angels don't sleep. Sam isn't sleeping right now at all. Why is that?
Castiel was an angel losing his grace, where Sam could be a human body with just angel grace and no human soul. Maybe that's what's special about Sam. That he is human and has a soul, but also angel grace. Then he's an angel vessel too.
I just know that if at the end of the show, we never find out about Sam, I'm going to be angry as hell. Maybe they're leaving it up to us to decide what Sam is, but I want it explained. How Sam could have the powers he does and they're not all from demon blood? How Sam could even drink a ton of demon blood, without his stomach exploding or something?
I can't wait for Caged Heat because I just watched the preview a couple of times and I love Sam with that blood in his mouth. Hot is what it is. I thought Sam and Dean were being tortured, but I watched it really slow and you can see that it looks like Meg is being tortured and you see Crowley screaming. It just looks like it's going to be a great episode. I hope so. I'm loving this season, as long as I stay off message boards. I looked on a few and went on the CW one and I just don't feel like posting on any of them. I can't stand all the crap and don't bash this character or that or blah blah blah. Basically, don't say anything and that's what I'm doing, except for Hell House because I can bash whoever I want and say what I want.
All that crap about the People's Choice Awards. I don't care if Supernatural or Vampire Diaries wins because they are both great shows and deserving of any award. I just don't like how some people think that's fair. You can vote a ton of times and how is that the people's choice. You should only be allowed to vote one time and one time only. Then, it's sad that they only go with what people on the Internet like. There are tons of people watching all these shows, so it's not the people's choice, it's only some people's and that's a crock of crap. I voted for Supernatural for the TV Guide cover because they deserve it and should have had a big spread and a cover long ago. It's sick that TV Guide has never given them one. Supernatural has been very deserving of awards for a long time and so have Jared and Jensen. I hope Jared and Jensen know that they've gotten the best award of all for doing Supernatural and that's what they give us fans every time the show is on. If I could ever talk to them for a few minutes, that's all I'd want to do, is thank them for being in Supernatural and doing such a great job of entertaining me. I love them so much for that and I always will.

Sam Is The Abomination

I wonder if Sam isn't the key to finding Purgatory. Just think about it. He is like some abomination because before he jumped into Hell, he was a human being possessed by an angel and he had a ton of demon blood in him too. How is that even possible? Plus there was Sam's soul in there too. Maybe Crowley right now is using Dean to help find Purgatory because he doesn't really have Sam's soul and is looking for it himself. Maybe by Sam getting his soul back, he'll remember where Purgatory is.
I love the fans who think Dean is the one who knows where Purgatory is. Dean has never been called an abomination, he's never been considered a monster or a freak. Also, he's never had powers. He's never been possessed by an angel or a demon, like Sam has. And he's never drank demon blood.
Who knows where Sam's soul really went when he was stabbed by Jake? Maybe he went to Purgatory and maybe that's where all the other psychic children's souls went to. I've been thinking about all this for days at work for something to do.
Here's something about Crowley. He used Sam and Dean before and he's probably using Dean now. Maybe he was using Grampa Campbell to find Sam's soul and it wasn't working and now he's using Dean to. Crowley is a demon and he lies all the time or do people forget that. Like he's telling the truth about holding Sam's soul, when he might be trying to get it back to find Purgatory. Nothing is ever as it seems. Maybe Sam getting his soul back, would not be a good thing. Just like killing Lilith and how many other things that the Winchester's have done. Crowley and all the other demons have used Sam and Dean constantly and that's probably what's going on now.
This is just a theory I have and it's probably wrong like all the rest, but I do think there is more to everything and Crowley is up to more than he's saying. Crowley thinks Sam and Dean are morons and he's probably proving that they are right now because they believe what he's saying or Dean does. It seems that Dean always believes what how many demons and angels are saying and never questions some of their crap because he thinks they're telling him the truth, but they're lying to Sam. It's actually kind of funny.

Another thing about Sam. Sam was considered the special child. So what made Sam special. What is it about him that he can be Lucifer's vessel? He can drink demon blood and have powers. I hope we learn more about why Sam was considered special and what it is about him. It seems that even Sam without his soul has something like powers or strength. I hope we get some explanation or more about Sam soon.

My Little Turkey

My little Sammy is a turkey right now. Actually, he's wearing a turkey costume, but he's still a little demon. I haven't been able to play with my little Sammy a lot because my internet has been so slow and they've been playing with Facebook and Pet Society again. I wish they'd leave stuff alone for just a little bit and quit changing things, constantly. It drives me crazy. It's been hard to see my other little demons too. I've been able to see them, but I don't get to spend a lot of time with them.
I was released from my job today. I stayed on as long as I could, until they kicked me out the door. Our work ran out and I probably won't be called back until Jan. or Feb. I hope that I'm called back a couple of weeks before the convention, so that I have some money for it. I still have to collect enough money to pay for the motel, get a camera and have money for food and goods while I'm there. I should be able to get unemployment, so that will help. I wish the Convention would have been in March instead of Feb. Then I could have had my tax return to use. I probably won't get it before the Con.
I'm trying to stay off the message boards again and I've been succeeding. I just don't feel like going on them anymore. There are too many fans complaining and moaning about the show and that Sam doesn't have his soul. I'm tired of it already.
I think it's kind of funny that Dean is getting what he deserves. What I mean by that is, that he's finally seeing what Sam goes through dealing with him. Sam has been acting like Dean, but now Dean can see how he's treated Sam, by the way Sam is treating him. It's funny that the only way that Sam could ever be like Dean, is without his soul. I can't wait for the next episode Caged Heat. It looks like it's going to be really good. It looks like both Sam and Dean are going to be tortured.
I'm going to start watching some season four episodes again. I've been watching season five a lot and now I want to watch season four again. I can watch all the seasons of Supernatural and I love them all, even season four. It might be my least favorite season, but I still love a lot of the episodes. This season is still better than season four.
All my shows are repeats this week because of Thanksgiving, but I don't mind. Then, they'll be another week or so of new episodes and another big break. I kind of like the breaks because I can read or go to the movies and stuff like that. I still need to go see the new Harry Potter movie. Hopefully, I'll see it this coming week or weekend. I'm going to go to the gambling town again for Thanksgiving. My Mom and two of my sisters are going with me, so we can eat and gamble together. I'm not going to take a lot of money because I don't want to lose a lot. It would be nice if I could win a little money and come home with it. I haven't done that in a long time. I remember once going down there for Thanksgiving and winning a couple hundred dollars and then going shopping on Black Friday with it. It was really fun to have money to spend on whatever I wanted. I doubt I'll win anything, but I hope I have fun at least.

Do I Believe In Supernatural?

Okay, I was losing faith in Supernatural and it's been restored again. I think it's just going on message boards and reading all the stupid crap that I do. I need to stop and not let that stuff affect me or idiots thinking Dean is now Sam's moral compass. If that isn't the biggest laugh. Sam has more smarts and more morals without a soul than Dean does with a soul. I love how Sam told Dean about making deals. Dean thinks it's bad to trust or work with a demon, but you can make deals with them or other supernatural creatures. Like that always works out great for them. You'd think Dean would have learned by now that making deals is not a good thing because there are always consequences.
Look at everything that's happened to the Winchester's because of deals that were made. Mary made a deal for John and Sam paid the price. John made a deal for Dean and both Sam and Dean paid the price. Then Dean made a deal for Sam and they both paid the price for that deal and so did the whole world for all the deals. I had more to say about the deals, but I'm too tired to write them down right now. I just think that Dean would come to realize that deals are not a good thing by everything that's happened to them. I think Sam knows because he's paid a big price for all the deals that have been made.
I think Dean wants Sam to get his soul back because misery loves company and Dean wants Sam to suffer like he is. Sam doesn't care if he gets his soul back and it's probably because he doesn't want to suffer and feel everything. Sam is a better hunter because he doesn't let his emotions get in the way of the job. Most of the time, that's what Dean used to do. Emotions can be more harmful, than not having any at all.
I loved Clap Your Hands If You Believe because it was just a plain fun episode. Dean was hilarious and I just loved how Sam was having sex while Dean was abducted and when Dean walked in on them. That was just too damn funny. It was nice to see Robert Picardo from Voyager on there and all the UFO stuff, fairies and just everything. It was a nice episode to just enjoy without all the other crap.
I've been sick and I haven't had time to go on message boards or do much of anything. I also got my tooth pulled and it's been a busy week. It seems like once the winter hits, time goes by so much faster for some reason.
I loved Smallville tonight too. I loved Aquaman being on again. Three hot hunks all on one show. I'm enjoying Smallville more this season than I did last season. Maybe it's just because I can watch both shows together and then I'm watching with my sisters and it's nicer. My two grand nephews watched the shows with us too and I love spending time with them.
I just booked my flight for the Supernatural Con in L.A. I've never booked a flight before and I've always had my one sister do it for me and this time I did it myself. My sister who went to the Con this year is going next year with me. I guess my other sister can't go. I just hope the weather is half way decent with the Con rolls around and it's not snowing or anything like that. I'm looking forward to going to the Convention even more now.
I was hoping that Sam would get his soul back soon on the show and now I don't think I want him to. I kind of like this Sam and it's nice to see him not having to suffer about everything. It's nice to see a carefree Sam for a change. Sam still has all his memories and his brain, so he still can remember stuff, but he just doesn't care about it all that much now. Fans wanted more Sam and Dean and they got it, but you should be careful what you wish for because it always doesn't turn out the way you want it. I still believe in Supernatural and I just need to stop worrying about what other fans are thinking about what's happening and just like it for what I like it for and that's it.

Buffy And Angel

I thought I'd write about Buffy and Angel. I used to love watching Buffy The Vampire Slayer seasons 1-3. After that I didn't watch it very much. Every once in a while, I'd watch a certain episode if it looked good. I loved Angel being on the show and I was so sad and disappointed that they made a spin-off of just him. Sure I got to see Angel more and David Boreanaz, but I loved Angel on Buffy. I loved watching Buffy and Angel and all their scenes together. I loved their love story so much. You knew that they loved each other so much, but they would never be together. I still think that scene when Buffy sent Angel to hell is my favorite scene of any show. I still remember watching it for the first time. I just died inside and it was probably the most saddest thing I've ever watched on TV. I loved how Buffy told Angel to close his eyes before she stabbed him and that's what Darla had said to him, right before she changed him into a vampire.
I loved the whole cast from the first three seasons. You knew the good guys were and you knew who the bad guys were. After that season, it all became a blur and I couldn't stand it. I started watching Buffy at the start of the third season. I read how many of the Buffy books and loved them. The original stories and the ones from the show. I was totally and completely obsessed and in love with the show and the love story between Buffy and Angel. After I stopped watching both shows, I would still read the books because I loved them. I still have all of them. I love Angel's first season and the fifth season the most. The other three are okay, but I still couldn't stand that Angel had a baby with Darla. They were both vampires and had a human baby. That was just stupid.
I loved Buffy until I watched her become a ditsy slut and then I couldn't stand her. She was this strong and kick ass female and turned into some whimpering weakling out of no where. She acted weak in front of that Riley guy and Spike and I couldn't stand it. When she was with Angel, she was always the stronger one or on equal ground with him. I loved Willow and even when she turned gay, I didn't mind. It's when her lover got killed and she turned evil to get revenge and she wanted to destroy the world. The character Xander was just around for comedy because that's about all I seen him as. I loved Oz in the second season and I loved him with Willow. They were too sweet together. I loved Cordelia in Buffy and I actually loved her in Angel until her and Angel fell in love. Giles was great too and then all of a sudden, I don't know what happened to him. He was having sex, playing a guitar and doing goofy crap and I didn't even get his character. Spike went from a bad ass vamp to a groveling love sick idiot around Buffy, except when he wasn't trying to rape her. I thought that all stuff with Buffy and Spike was sick and that Buffy even had sex with him. I guess some fans liked it. You knew Spike liked her from the start and had a thing for her, but when she reciprocated it, that was scary.
I never minded how Buffy ended. I even watched a couple of the last episodes of the show and liked them. I also loved all the crossover episodes of Buffy and Angel. My favorite was when Buffy came to see Angel and he was a human being and they were together and then Angel had to turn back time and he remembered and Buffy didn't. That episode broke my heart and that was one of my favorite scenes ever on a show when Buffy put her hand on Angel's chest and said she felt his heartbeat.
I guess I loved that because back then I was a romantic and believed that one day I'd find someone to love me. I still haven't found anyone and I can blame myself because I don't even try. I just take a look around at all the people at my work, my family and everywhere I go. It seems like no couples stay together and no one wants to try and make things work between them. Like there is no love anymore. I've never been on a date and I've never been kissed or had sex. I can admit that. I'm to blame for that because I guess I'm afraid or part of me is. I'm overweight and I know when a guy looks at me, he's only thinking about getting easy sex or something because I'd be desperate or they think I'd be. I just don't see any reason to try and find someone now. I'm how old and most people my age have been with how many people and married how many times. I don't think I could deal with that. I couldn't be with someone who has kids of their own with someone else. I'd love the kids, but would they love me.

Okay, I'm getting too crazy about that. Now back to why I even posted about Buffy and Angel. I was just so obsessed with Buffy when Angel was on the show and I loved it so much. It was so hard for me to let it go and I eventually did. I don't want to let Supernatural go, but it's starting to get too crazy and convoluted to watch. When you don't even know now who's good or evil and who's good or bad and even the main characters have changed into people you don't even know or like anymore. I'm starting to actually dislike Dean's character and Sam isn't even all there right now. It's funny that Dean during the series has never been anyone but Dean, but Sam has been possessed twice now, has changed bodies with someone and is now without a soul and is like a different person. Jared does a great job of playing the different roles, but I want to see Sam, not all these other characters. I want to know that Sam is one of the good characters and what he's doing is the right thing. Then we have Dean, who is always doing the right thing, no matter what he does. Even when he's done stuff that Sam has done, he's always right. I can't stand it anymore. Now on Supernatural there is no good guys or bad guys. The hunters on the show, I thought were the good ones fighting evil and now they're being depicted as killers and whatnot. The only hunter on the show who's good is Dean. Sam is either wrong all the time or he's turning evil or darkside and that doesn't matter what he's doing. He kills demons and he's wrong for doing it. He doesn't kill demons and he's wrong for doing that. It just seems like everything Sam does is wrong and everything Dean does is right and I'm tired of it already.
I'm starting to wonder if the writer's aren't going to make Dean be God or something in the end. God came down to Earth to be a human being and then lost faith in himself and needs to get it back or something. Or there's some big plot and he knows about it and is waiting around until it's the right time to reveal himself. Tons of fans think there is something about Dean and he's not all human, so I'm sure he's God. Seeing as he's now the whole moral center of Supernatural and he know what's right and wrong and no one else does but him. Sam is I don't know who at this point. Maybe one of God's angels that's helping him or something and is more devoted to him. Who the hell knows? I think I'm getting sarcastic because I can't stand all the crap anymore. Sam always has to be some mystery character and Dean is always Mr. Wonderful good guy that does no wrong and everyone should feel for him.

I think I have to write about this just to stop being depressed about it. I'm slowly letting Supernatural go and I don't want to. I'm still clinging on it and hoping for the best and that I'll love it again like I did last year. I'm still going to enjoy going to the L.A. Con because I love Supernatural and always will. I appreciate Jared, Jensen and all the other actors and actresses that have been on the show. I appreciate Kripke for creating it and all the other writers and directors and everyone who has made the show possible. I might not like what's happening now, but I still love all the other seasons and always will. I'm not mad at Sera Gamble either or what she's doing with the show. It's up to her and whoever to make it what it is. I hope to keep watching the show. I just want to love it, like I did before. I loved the beginning of this season and the last episode, but I've hated how Sam now doesn't have a soul and no one likes him, even Sam fans. It's like everyone hates this Sam and it's just Sam without a soul. He still seems like Sam to me, even without a soul. Sure he doesn't care about things, but he has all his emotions. He may have been going through the motions of being the old Sam, but isn't that what Dean did all last season and the season before. That's what Death told him in My Bloody Valentine. That he was defeated and just going through the motions of trying to live because he felt dead inside already.

I hope my love for Supernatural doesn't die yet and maybe I'll get the love I had for it back soon. I'm hoping and praying for that.

Animal Abuse

I was watching Stargate tonight and I saw that Humane Society commercial. It always makes me sad and I start crying. I think of all the animals out there that are being abused or mistreated and it just hurts. I can just imagine those poor white seals being beaten in the head by men for their coats. You'd have to be totally inhumane to do something like that to something so innocent that can't fight back. I can see people hunting for food. Like when you kill a deer, bird or fish and eat it. I don't mind that, but when you just kill an animal to kill it, that makes me sick. Like people get some sick pleasure out of hurting or killing something.
It's even sadder to think how many children out there are being physically, mentally and sexually abused. I can't even think about it for too long because I'll get too depressed and there's nothing I can do about it.
I try to help whatever charities I can. I mostly help animals and children. I feel they need more help because they can't take care of themselves and they have no voices in this world. Someone has to give them a voice and help them.

I just want to grab my sweet Mully and hold her really tight. I take care of her the best that I can and I love her more than anything. She may just be a cat, but she's sometimes the only comfort I have. I still can't believe that she's almost 17 years old. I've never owned a cat that long. She is an indoor cat and she hates to go outside. It's funny because when I pick Mully up in my arms, she hugs me like a person or something. I've never had another cat do that before. Mully always knows when I'm upset or when I need her for comfort. I just love her and I wish all the rest of the animals in this world could be loved like her, but the only thing I can do is love her and hope others love their pets and other animals enough to help them.

I pray for this whole world to one day be better, but I doubt it ever will be because most people don't even try to make it a better place. They just say, that's the way it is and oh well.