The Truth

I have never laughed so hard in my life after tonight's episode of Supernatural. It just killed me. I loved the end of Smallville too. I laughed so hard at what happened at the end and I just kept laughing right into Supernatural. This is just what I needed after this week.

As for the episode of Supernatural. Now we know the truth about Sam or we do next week. Sam has no soul. Where the hell is it? How can he be walking and talking and animated without a soul? Maybe he's just on auto pilot or something. I guess we'll find out next week. As for Dean. I tried to tell those people on that message board about Dean and they just don't get it. Dean was born a hunter, raised a hunter and will always be a hunter. He is a killer and he knows it. He knows what's inside him and who he is and he's been trying to lie to himself about it and be something he's not. I'm sure Dean is afraid of that part of himself. I don't think Dean is some cold blooded killer either. He does care, but in his own way. It's funny because some fans just want Dean to be Sam or ascribe Sam's emotions or what Sam wants to what Dean wants or something. Sam is Sam and Dean is Dean and they will never be like each other. I could tell a whole complicated thing about why Dean is like he is, but I'm not. I love Dean for who he is and always will and the same goes for Sam.

I just found out a truth about someone I know and was very surprised and shocked about it. I didn't know that was going on and it was interesting to find out. I don't know why people lie because most of the time someone is going to find out the truth. People like to lie to themselves too and I guess it makes them feel better for a while until they have to face themselves and the truth about themselves.

I went to my Aunt's funeral on Thursday. My aunt wrote her own obituary and it was really long and it cost 600 hundred dollars and someone paid for and my cousin doesn't know who. It was probably his church. They really helped him. Her obit was very nice and I loved reading it. She did live a simple life and wanted a simple graveyard service and that's what she got. I hope my cousin is going to be alright. I prayed for him at the funeral and I'll pray everyday that God will give him the strength to move on. It's hard because you want to see the person you lost and know the only way you'll see them is memory. It's very hard to accept. At the funeral, I just thought about all the good times that I had with my aunt and everything she did for me. I felt a peace and I've always felt peace at funerals. I never feel sad for the person who died, but only for their loved ones that are left behind to live without them. It was very nice to see some of my relatives again. It's rare that I get to spend time with them and I should make time to spend more time with them.

God has always given me strength to get through things and I pray that he gives strength to anyone who needs it. I wouldn't be here on this Earth right now, if God had not given me the strength to keep on living at the time I needed him the most. He was there for me. That's one thing I always have to keep in mind about Supernatural. It's just a story and a show and not real. I believe in God and he is always there when you need him and he would never leave us or Heaven. It's sad that God hasn't lost faith in us, but some people have lost faith in him. They think God should solve all their problems and fix everything. God helps you with your problems so that you can learn and grow. I've always thought that God wanted us to rise above our humanity and become something better than we are and what do we do. We wallow in our humanity and use it to excuse our every sin instead. God wanted us to love one another and all we seem to do is hate or fight one another. I wouldn't be surprised if God gave up on us, but I doubt he ever will. I love a song called God Don't Give Up On Us. It's a wonderful song and there's a part in it that says nothing loved is ever lost. And about God not giving up on us and the part of us that's still beautiful. I cry when I listen to this song.

Well this has been a long post and I feel better and good right now about everything. I hope I keep on feeling good and nothing else happens to change that.