My Favorite TV Character Of 2010 Is Sam Winchester

My favorite TV character for 2010 is Sam Winchester. That's not a surprise because he's been my favorite character on TV since Supernatural started. I'd say so far that he's my all time favorite too. I've loved a lot of TV characters over the years and Sam tops my list. I hate to say it, but Dean falls way down like into the 50's or 60's on my list. I really don't have a list, but if I made one, I know that Dean would fall down under a whole ton of characters. As brothers, Sam and Dean are still my favorites followed closely by A.J. and Rick Simon, The Hardy Boys and the new Salvatore brothers. I'm sure there are some other brother duos, but I can't think of them right now. I've watched too much TV over the years and I'm how old and I can't recall everything I've ever watched. I'd say that TV for me has been pretty good the last couple of years and that's thanks to the WB and CW. I hardly ever watch any other channel because I'm tired of finding a show on another network and it being cancelled after a few episodes for one reason or another. Stupid reasons besides.

I haven't been able to use my computer a lot right now because my Internet connection is low. I don't know why. I just know it started on Christmas Eve and hasn't improved. I don't know what's causing it. I can hardly do anything. I usually have to wait anywhere from 20 minutes to an hour to see my little Sammy and my other demons. Those games on Facebook take forever to load without a strong connection. I can only do a few things on Farmville and it's starting to make me mad. I love Farmville and Pet Society and I can hardly play them right now. I can hardly go on message boards or even do e-mail. I'm surprised that my blog loaded. It took about fifteen minutes. I guess its a good thing that I haven't been able to be on my computer that much. I remember the days when I didn't even have a computer at all. I've been reading more books lately instead. I've also started watching Supernatural from the 1st season. I love the first season because Sam and Dean seemed to act more like brothers in it. They didn't hug and say words of love to each other, but there were certain things that they did say and do that told you that they loved each other. I liked that they both had issues with each other. Sam didn't like being bossed around by Dean and Dean was really insecure about things. I wish Dean would let Sam be his own person and hopefully that will happen now that Sam has his soul back. Dean needs to learn who Sam really is and not who he wants Sam to be.

I can't wait for my shows to all come back on, but right now I can watch movies, repeats of all my shows and read some good books. I sometimes like a little break from TV. This is a long break, but to me it's going by fast. I can't believe that it's almost the new year. Where did the last year go? 2010 was a great year for me. I got to go to the Supernatural Convention in L.A., Washington D.C., and to see my nieces in Reno twice. I had fun and I can't wait for Feb for the next Supernatural Convention. I just hope the weather isn't too bad at that time. It's finally been snowing here and sometimes we get a ton of snow and other times hardly any. As long as we get it in the mountains, it doesn't matter to me whether it's down here in the valley or not.

One other thing about Jensen. I think I know why he keeps his hair so short. It's probably so some crazy fan can't pull his hair out because he's hardly got any to pull on. I sometimes feel sorry for Jensen because of all the loonies out there that are obsessed with him and think he's Dean and not Jensen. I swear some people can't tell the difference between reality and fantasy. Jensen does not seem like he'd be like Dean at all and I don't get where anyone would think he was. I think some fans are so in love with the character of Dean that they don't care about Jensen at all. They're just crazy. I think Jensen should be more like Jared. I'd probably never recognize Jared if I walked by him on the street. Jared would probably have facial hair and one of those knit caps on and I'd think he was a bum or something and walk right by him. Or, he'd have his hoodie on or something. Jensen stands out too much because he looks the same as he does on the show, where Jared sometimes doesn't.

Well, that's all for now. Hopefully, my stupid computer or Internet will work properly again sometime soon.

Christmas Eve

Today I went to my sister's for dinner. It was a little family get together. It was nice that I got to spend some time with a few of my family members. I'm sad because this was the first year that my family didn't have a Christmas Eve party. We've always had one since I was a little girl. We had food, exchanged gifts and played games. I still remember all the years past and I cherish the memories of all those Christmas Eve's and everyone I shared them with. My one sister went to Mexico for Christmas with her friend and her two kids. This is the first Christmas that she hasn't spent here. For the last two years we had the party at her house. My mom and I didn't even put up a tree. I wanted to, but my Mom didn't because of the windows being installed. I think we could have moved the tree, but I didn't want to fight with her. We didn't get any snow down here in the valley where I live, but the mountains have plenty. It's cold, but that's it. I wish it would have at least snowed a little for Christmas.
My oldest sister and I went to see Narnia:The Voyage Of The Dawn Treader and I just got home a few hours ago. I had a good time and I'm glad I got to see this movie. It seems like I hardly get to the movies lately. I've wanted to see movies, but sometimes I just don't find the time to go. I've loved all three of the Narnia movies so far.

I watched A Very Supernatural Christmas again last night. I am obsessed with Supernatural and I watched Appointment in Samarra again too. I wanted to see it again just to see those scenes with Bobby and Sam. I still don't get Dean. Does he even know Sam at all. He just thinks Sam should be good and sweet and want certain things. Who knows what Sam really wants because we never get to know what he's thinking and it seems like Dean doesn't care most of the time what Sam wants. I think if Death had not shown up, Dean would have killed soulless Sam, just because of what he said. He told Bobby that he couldn't keep doing this and I think he was considering killing Sam. I don't know why Dean thinks Sam is so dangerous. And not just Sam without his soul. Dean has locked up Sam in that panic room when he had his soul, so I just don't understand. Dean thought Sam was dangerous because he wanted revenge on Lilith who was a demon and Dean did not know at the time that killing her would break the last seal. Dean thought Sam was dangerous when he drank demon blood and killed Famine who was a horseman that would have killed how many people. So, how was Sam a danger to anyone, but evil creatures. Then soulless Sam only tried to kill Bobby because he didn't want his soul back and he was willing to do anything not to have it.
I still think Death purposely showed Dean what happens when you mess with Death and the natural order of things. Dean has messed with Death how many times now. Maybe that's why everyone dies all the time around both Sam and Dean because Death won't be cheated. Tessa told Dean that the little girl if she stayed alive would only cause chaos and death all around her. It made me think of Sam. Maybe Sam wasn't supposed to be born or be alive and that's why everyone dies around him and has since he was a baby. I still wonder if Sam isn't half angel or half demon. Jesse the kid that was half demon and half human was hidden from angels and demons. What if the same thing applies to Sam? Maybe Azazel gave Sam and the other psychic kids blood, so that he could find them when it was time and to keep track of them. The demons lost track of Jesse and they didn't know where he was because the mom gave him up for adoption. It's just something I've thought of, but I doubt it is. I doubt the writer's will ever explain why Sam was special. I hope they do, but I've resigned myself to the fact that they probably won't.

I also think Dean needs to realize that soulless Sam was still Sam or a part of him. Does and can Dean accept Sam for who and what he is? Sam isn't perfect and he's not sweet and innocent either. He's done things that he's felt guilty about with his soul, let alone without it. What led Sam to drinking demon blood in the first place and to Sam listening to Ruby? Dean's deal for Sam's life. Dean probably wasn't supposed to die after his father gave up his life for him. Dean knocked over a huge domino when he made the deal for Sam to be brought back to life and look at all the deaths that resulted from it. Maybe that was supposed to be Sam's time to die and maybe that's why we never got to see him with a reaper. So we would not know what happened or where Sam's soul went. Dean brought Sam back to life and he probably wasn't supposed to be alive and how many people died because of it and the apocalypse started because of Dean's choice. I love how fans want to put all the blame on Sam for all kinds of crap and Sam was dead. Dean made the choice to bring Sam back to life, not Sam. Dean is responsible for everything that has happened since he made that deal and maybe deep down Dean knows this and that's why he's been treating Sam the way he has. I'm trying to figure it out. This is just my opinion, but I still think Dean saw in soulless Sam himself and he was afraid, not of Sam but of himself and what he did. Dean said that soulless Sam was acting like him and Dean has always had low self esteem and self worth. I still think when he beat the crap out of Sam, he wasn't angry at Sam, but at himself. When soulless Sam was around, it was like Dean was with himself and he could not stand it because I still think Dean doesn't like himself and who he is. Dean doesn't have any self respect, so he has no respect for anyone or anything, even Death. I don't know. I said I hated Dean, but that's not true. I still love Dean and I'm still just trying to figure him out and understand him. I still want Dean to find self worth and to see Sam for who he is and not who Dean wants him to be.

I know I expect a lot from the show, but I'd love to see real brother moments between Sam and Dean, not fake crap. I want to see Sam and Dean having real conversations and getting to know each other better and what each of them want from each other. I don't want them to just pretend the last how many years didn't happen. That's stupid and unrealistic. I would not mind a few angry words between them as well as the good words. Sam's going to have his emotions back and that doesn't just mean the good ones.

I'm trying not to go on message boards right now. I've gone to the CW just to read a few things and to post a few posts, but that's it. I love reading some of the stuff posters write about. Most of it makes me laugh my butt off and makes me smile and feel good. I'm grateful to those people for that. The sad part is, that sometimes I read crap that makes me mad in between reading the good stuff. I mostly ignore it. I'm sick of some fans trying to make Dean into something he's not and never will be. The only way he'll be that way is in their loony imaginations and that's it. It's just scary sometimes to read some of that crap.

Well, I'm done for now. It's been a long day.

The Vampires Win And Other Things I Want To Post About

Vampire Diaries tops my list for my favorite show or at least for mid-season. I love how the Vampire Diaries has gotten better and better. I love that all the characters now have a part to play in the overall storyline. Now there's werewolves with the vampires and witches. I just love that and sometimes this show has more supernatural stuff than Supernatural does. I'm glad that Laura Cohan has guest starred as Rose and I hope we get to see more of her and that she doesn't get killed off too quickly. And Daniel Gillies coming on as the hot vampire Elijah. Wow! I just can't get enough of this show and the whole excellent cast. The whole Katherine storyline has been great and I appreciate Nina Dobrev for being able to play both Elena and Katherine and make it so believable. I love Vampire Diaries the most right now because it has all the elements that make a show great. Drama, hot guys, kick ass females, great music, fight scenes and romance.

One Tree Hill takes second place because I still love it so much and it's always heartwarming to watch. I loved how the season started and that Clay and Quinn were spirits walking around and that whole storyline. I never cared to watch them until I saw that and now I love them too. I love watching Brooke and Julian and can't wait for their wedding. I always love Nathan, Haley and little Jamie. They're the cutest family on TV. I loved seeing Dan for one episode and hope to see him again. I just adored the Thanksgiving episode and it was so fun to watch. Tree Hill still has plenty of drama, laughs, music and great characters.

Gossip Girl comes in third place because it had such a good storyline with the whole Juliet thing. I loved watching Katie Cassidy as Juliet and she just made the show even better to watch. I loved everything with Chuck and Blair so far and their relationship that's so full of ups and downs. I liked seeing Jenny come back for a few episodes and didn't think we'd see that much of her. This show always makes me laugh, cry and cheer at times. I also love everything that Gossip Girl says, it's just so funny and fits everything.

Smallville comes in fourth place because it's the final season and it's been great so far. I love the overall storyline and that there are stand alone episodes in the middle. It's great and I love all the guest stars that have been on so far. I missed one episode and I hope that I'll catch the repeat when it's on. Smallville has always consistently done a great job of entertaining me and it's still doing it, in it's tenth season. The show has never changed it's format and that's why I love it so much. I missed Chloe, but the rest of the cast have been great and so have the stories. I loved learning that Tess is Lionel Luthor's daughter. I've loved her character since the show started and I still love her. She can either be good or bad and that's what makes her so good. I still laugh, cry, scream and love Smallville and it never fails to entertain me.

Supernatural sadly comes in fifth place because of the stupid storyline for this season. I love some mystery, but when the whole show just keeps you wondering and waiting for answers and then you never get any. That just gets old and I'm tired of it. I liked watching Sam without his soul because you finally got to see an uninhibited Sam who's not so weighed down by guilt all the time. I liked Dean until the episode Family Matters and then now I can't stand his character at all. The show has been more of a comedy than anything this season and I'd love to see more drama with a little comedy thrown in not the other way around. Their have been two episodes that made my list of all time favs and they are Two And A Half Men and Clap Your Hands If You Believe. I probably would not have enjoyed this season as much without these two episodes. I loved them. I also loved Weekend At Bobby's because it had a good mix of drama and comedy. Castiel has been great in the few episodes he's been in and I liked all of them. The main reason I still love Supernatural is because it is still entertaining and makes me laugh, plus I love watching Jared play such a complex character that I still love so much. Hopefully the second half of the season will be better and Supernatural will come out on top for my favorite show.

Last but not least is Life Unexpected which looks like it's going to be cancelled. There is going to be only two more episodes and that't it. So, it had a 13 episode season. I still love watching this show, but it lost a little of it's charm. I didn't care for Lux and the teacher and that whole relationship. I thought it was sick. I liked watching Cate and Ryan and even when they had problems, they were still fun to watch. I liked Baze's character a lot more than I did the first season and it's been fun to watch him. This show still made me smile, laugh, cry and feel good.

I love all my shows and I love them for various reasons. I just rated them because I felt like it. Vampire Diaries entertained me the most out of all of them. Of course, Supernatural is my obsession and I rate it hard because I love it so much and I expect more from it. I'm hoping that all my shows are great for their next 11 episodes.


On a personal note. Yesterday my Mom and I got new windows put in. I had to clean most of my room so that they could get to the windows to replace them. I cleaned out five big trash bags of trash. I'm a slob and I know it. I was bitching and swearing because I didn't even know what to do with some of my crap. I threw a ton of stuff away. I found two TV Guide's with Smallville on the cover. I wonder how many times they made the cover and Supernatural finally got a cover because of the fans. That just sucks. Both Smallville and Supernatural have been great shows and I still can't believe it took that long for Supernatural to finally get a cover. I also found a magazine I had with Jared in it. He was 21 or 22 years old. There was a lot of cute pics of him in it. I have a ton of magazines that I've been keeping and I want to keep all my sci-fi and movie ones. I just need somewhere to store them besides my bedroom. We have a shed, but I need a waterproof container to put them in so they don't get ruined. We've had little floods that have ruined stuff in our sheds before.
It's scary because I went on the CW message board and posters are fighting over whether Sam's soul was in hell or not. Who cares? I wonder if it was or not myself. Who knows who's lying about where Sam's soul was because the show is such a mystery and they just keep you guessing about crap like that. Hopefully we'll find out one way or another. I just think poor Sam is going to have plenty to deal with and not just because he might remember hell, if he went. Soulless Sam had all his memories, so he knows how he felt about everything. About his mother, father, Jessica, Madison, Jo, Ellen and how many other dying and plus Dean and Sam has always felt responsible for these deaths. I bet Sam thinks that if he'd never been born, then Mary, John and Jessica would never have died. Also, that Dean would have had a better life and the life he wanted. Sam probably still has all that guilt over that and then now he'll have more heaped onto it. If he remembers that he tried to kill Bobby, then there will be that guilt. If he remembers letting Dean be turned into a vampire and that he lost Lisa and Ben because of it. You only know that if Sam remembers stuff, then he's going to blame himself about Dean losing Lisa and Ben and thinks he's the reason that Dean isn't with them. I just hope Dean doesn't let him feel guilty for that. I'm hoping that Dean tells Sam that he wants to hunt and that he doesn't want a normal life. I want Dean to make up his mind already about what he wants from life and quit treating Sam like he's the reason Dean doesn't have what he wants. It's up to Dean to choose and hopefully Sam will get to make his own choices regarding his life for a change. I'm sick of Sam being treated like some piece of crap that everyone is trying to control and especially Dean. Dean should not make huge choices that affect Sam and if he does than I hope he takes responsiblity for the choices he made and not try to blame Sam for them. Like Sam should be a certain way and if he's not, then he's evil or he's let Dean down in some way. Sam never wanted Dean to bring him back to life and make that deal for him. Look how much that choice Dean made affected Sam and then Dean had the nerve to tell Sam he let him down. Dean expects too much from Sam and I doubt he really knows his brother and just seeing Dean with soulless Sam proved how little Dean knows about his brother.

I just think that now that Sam has his soul back, it's not like Sam is going to be happy. When has Sam ever been truly happy and had the life he really wanted? Never. Sam's whole life has been like hell on Earth and thanks to Dean, he gets hell again and maybe it will be even worse this time because not only will Sam feel guilty about everything from before, now he'll feel guilty about new stuff.
I've read some stuff about what others are thinking and they think Dean is just going to help Sam cope with stuff and then Sam will be great and heal from everything. You've got to be kidding me. Like the only pain Sam would have is what he suffered in hell or if he went there even. Not like Sam suffers all the time and about everything. I don't think I'm going back to my Hell House on there until after the New Year. I'll keep posting in my Sammy thread, but that's it. Posters are just getting nutty on there and I can't stand all the crap and that everything is going to be wonderful for Sam now that he's got his soul back. And that Sam and Dean are just going to go back to the way they were and that wasn't even that great. Dean needs to tell Sam how he feels about things and quit being such a stupid idiot and let his brother know how he feels about him. Maybe if I ever hear Dean telling Sam that he loves him and loves him for who he is and not what he expects him to be, then I'll love Dean again.
I just want Dean to go back to being Dean and admitting that he loves to hunt and he loved killing Supernatural creatures. That's who Dean has always been and that's why I loved him. I want to love him again like I did before.

Zoo Lights And Gambling Trip

Last night I went to the Zoo Lights. It was really fun and it cheered me up and got me in the mood for Christmas and the New Year. I've been feeling depressed lately, so I really needed this. I went with my oldest sister and her two grandsons and my other sister who is going to the Convention with me. We never got to see the Zoo Lights last year because my sister was in an accident and her truck got totalled.
There were tigers out and they were playing and were the most active I've ever seen. It was fun. I remember when the Zoo had small cages for the big cats and it hurt just to see them in them. I'm glad that the Zoo finally got a big habitat area for them to roam around in. We saw a few other small animals and reindeer and then all the lights. We stopped in to see Santa and my sister asked Santa for some luggage for the Convention. I love spending time with my family, especially when we're doing something really fun.

Today, I went to go to the gambling town that's not that far away. I'm glad that I only lost 17 dollars. I had a good time and I played for the whole six hours we were there. Usually, I'm broke right away and waiting for our bus to come to take us home. I almost was broke, but then I had a little winning streak, but that ended. I probably could have come home with about 200 hundred dollars if I would have not gone crazy and played bigger amounts on the machines. I had fun playing different machines and it was a great day.

Having Fun With Little Sammy

My little Sammy has cheered me up a bit from my depressed mood. I love to play with him. He got an igloo to play in and he has a new chimney that will transport him to any house in Pet Society. I love playing with Sammy and my other little demons.

I've been playing Farmville more now since I've been released from work. I'm in a competition with some woman to get more presents than her. I swear it keeps me really busy. I found a new typing game to play and it's fun to try and beat my own score. I don't know if any of my Facebook friends type for a living like I do, so I probably would not be able to compete with them, so I compete with myself.

I bought a new digital camera to take to the L.A. Convention and now I have to figure out how to use it. I've never owned one before. I've always just used disposable cameras whenever I've needed to take pictures. Hopefully, I'll learn how to do everything and I'll be able to post pictures on Facebook and my blog at the convention.

I went on the CW message board and it's the same old crap on there. No one can tell me it isn't Sam vs. Dean all the time on there. I love how some posters can just sit and lie and lie that they love Sam, when they really don't. I used to love Dean, but I really don't even like him right now and I don't care what others think about that. I think he's been an asshole to Sam and probably will continue to be one even now that Sam has his soul back. I love how fans think Sam acted cold without his soul for the past how many months, when Dean acted worse than Sam did and he supposedly has his soul. Whatever.

Christmas And Supernatural

I just watched A Very Supernatural Christmas for like the fifth time so far in the last couple of days. I was trying to cheer myself up. I wish that I could jump into the TV set and into those God's home. I would not care if they ate me as long as I got to sit on their plastic couch and enjoyed all the decorations and their beautiful tree. Maybe Madge could make me some cookies first and we could all watch some cute Christmas show together and then they could eat me. I'm sure they'd love me because I've got a lot of fat on my bones.
Right now, I really don't give a rat's ass what is going to happen with Sam and Dean. I just mostly think of Supernatural as a comedy now because it's gotten so crazy and goofy. I'm getting tired of waiting for answers to things that will probably never come. Of course, they are mostly about Sam. I'm surprised when I go looking around and reading some stuff and no one is mentioning how in hell Sam could have his soul in one place and his body walking around without it. That is so unnatural because if your soul is not in your body, you're either unconscious or dead. If your soul is gone from your body for too long, then your body dies, it doesn't go walking around for over a year with nothing to animate it. I just would finally like to know what Sam really is and how that was even possible. I'm not even going to hope they explain anything anymore. I'm also not even hoping for more Sam insight or POV or anything concerning Sam because I'll just end up disappointed. I'll be very surprised if the writer's even concentrate a little on Sam's character because I bet it will all be about Dean and how he feels about Sam now. I'm getting tired of Dean's shitty attitude towards Sam. Dean does not love Sam unconditionally and what he did proved that. Dean only accepts Sam when Sam is doing what Dean wants or expects him to do. Otherwise Sam is wrong or evil or horrible to Dean. It's getting very ridiculous at this point. I'm tired of Sam always accepting Dean for who and what he is and for everything he does. While Dean on the other hand, can only accept Sam when he acts like he's supposed to.
I love how Dean fans will constantly come up with anything and everything to excuse the crap that Dean does to Sam. I love how fans have forgotten that Dean beat the crap out of Sam and was still beating on him when he was unconscious. Either Dean really hates Sam or he hates himself because I can't explain why Dean would beat on Sam that badly. Sam didn't even try to fight back and he was supposed to be the dangerous one that didn't have a soul or a moral compass. Yeah, right.

I'm trying to read more books right now and I've started to read the Supernatural books again and they don't even make me care about anything. I guess I'm just depressed because of all the crap that's been happening lately and this is probably going to be one crappy Christmas. I wish I could go to Las Vegas for Christmas.
I was going to write some Christmas spoofs of Supernatural and I even started one, but who cares about it? I lost all interest after I saw poor Sam's soul forced back into him. I'm not even excited for the show to come back on in January, not like I was last year. I knew that Sam, Interrupted was going to be a great episode and it was one of my favorite episodes ever. Even the title of the episode that's coming up is stupid, Like A Virgin. Obviously someone loves Madonna. Whatever. I just hope that my love for Supernatural will come back full force. I love Jared and Jensen and I'll always love the show, but right now I really hate Dean's character and I don't know how to stop hating him. I used to love him, right up until season four and then he turned into a real dick and he was an asshole to Sam. I've tried to understand all the crap and the shitty things he's said to Sam, but I just don't get it. I still think Dean is afraid to face himself and what he did in Hell and takes it all out on Sam. Dean's soul was the one that tortured souls in Hell and got pleasure from it. So, what kind of soul does Dean have right now. It sure could not be good. I'm sick of Dean telling Sam that he's arrogant and self-righteous and Dean is the King Of Arrogance right now and he thinks he's always right about everything.

Then, there is still a ton of stuff that is never going to be explained and that makes zero sense. I'm tired of all the mystery already on Supernatural and trying to figure out who's bad or good anymore. There should be Sam and Dean and they both should be good and be heroes and then there should be the bad guys that they fight and kill. That's the way the show started and should have stayed. Now it's too convoluted and crazy and who knows who's evil or good now.

I can't wait to go to the L.A. Con because I loved going to the one last year and this year I have photo ops with Jared and Jensen and Gold tickets, so it should be more fun than last year.

Tales Of The Gold Monkey And Stephen Collins

Today I went to FYE Superstore and was looking in the DVD's and I could not believe my eyes when I saw Tales Of The Gold Monkey. I grabbed it and started to jump up and down because I was so excited. Never in a million years did I think I'd ever see this show again. This was one of my favorite shows of all time. It only lasted one season, but I loved it so much. I loved Stephen Collins,even though he was way older than me. I was only 12 or 13 when this show aired and Stephen Collins was probably in his 30's. I had a picture of him on my wall for how long because I loved him so much and I had a crush on him. It's funny because when I was younger, I'd look at older guys and now that I'm older, I like younger guys. I laugh about that. There are some older actors that I think are still very good looking. Stephen Collins looks pretty good for his age and he still has his cute dimples.

When I was a kid, I was never in love with any of my favorite actors, I just had a crush on them and thought one day I'd marry them. I dreamed about being with them, but that's all they were, just dreams. I still will always love my favorite actors, singers, athletes and movie stars and some of them are dead and have been for years. I remember Andy Gibb. It was sad that he died at 30. I still can't believe that and I still love him and think about him, especially when I listen to the beautiful songs he wrote and sang.

Now back to Stephen Collins. I was so happy to see Stephen was back in a series on TV. I know he was in other shows and movies, including Star Trek, but some of them I don't even know. I just know when I saw he was in 7TH Heaven, I was very happy and I loved watching him play reverend Camden. It's nice that 7TH Heaven went for 11 seasons and he was in the show until the end. I just loved his character in there and I loved the show. I remember when the TV Guide wrote about the show and said that it was too preachy. I guess that's the word to use for being a good and decent show, instead of filth. I hope kids watched the show and got something out of it and it helped them in their lives. I know when I used to watch TV in the past, there was always something that helped me in my own life. I don't know why people call TV the idiot box. It's only that, if you're an idiot sitting there watching with an empty head that gets filled up with everything you see and you don't use your brain to process anything. I've always gotten something out of watching TV. I've learned how many things because of certain shows that I've watched. I learned new words and I used to always look things up in the dictionary or an encyclopedia all the time because I wanted to know things.

It's nice when you can find these old shows to watch. Now I have something else to watch while all my shows are in repeats.

Smallville and Supernatural's 11th episodes

Both Smallville and Supernatural were great to watch and I'm glad that I was able to watch them. My CW finally has a strong signal again. Just in time for the Vampire Diaries Marathon and repeats for about six to seven weeks.
I loved Smallville because Michael Shanks was on again as Carter. I loved his character and now he's dead. Why do they kill off all the hot looking guys, except for Clark and Oliver? I never really thought Michael was cute when he was on Stargate and now I think he's hot. I loved all the dialogue with him and Justin Hartley. I laughed my ass off at some of the things that were said. Smallville still knows how to entertain me after all these years. Clark proposing to Lois was cute, but I just don't think they have the chemistry that Clark and Lana had. I don't mind watching them, but I don't feel anything either. I can't wait to see what happens when the show comes back on and to see what that was at the end.

Now for Supernatural. I thought this episode was good and it was one of my favorites for this season. I mainly loved the scenes with Sam and Bobby. Jared and Jim were awesome in those scenes. I've waited a long time to see Sam and Bobby in scenes together alone without Dean and Gamble and Co delivered. I loved it. You only knew that something would stop Sam from killing Bobby and of course it was Saint Dean to the rescue. Bobby would never have been in danger from Sam, if Dean hadn't been so fired up to get his soul back. Dean just can't live with Sam the way he was and I wonder why that is. I personally don't think Dean really loves or even likes his little brother all that much. Dean doesn't care if Sam will have to suffer. That just makes me mad. Like Sam should deal with all the consequences of Dean's choices. When does Sam ever get to choose what he wants to happen? The only time he got to is when he chose to stop the apocalypse by jumping into hell with Lucifer.
I think Dean is going to have to deal with some consequences of his choice. I bet Sam won't be able to remember Lisa and Ben or that whole year and a half that has passed. Is that how the writers are going to get rid of Lisa and Ben? Dean will never be able to be in contact with them because if Sam learns anything about what happened it will break the wall that Death put in his mind. There are just too many possibilites that could happen with that wall that poor Sam will need to keep in place, so he doesn't go crazy.
I love how Dean finally mentioned Adam, like an afterthought or something. When did Dean even give a crap about Adam. I can see Sam not caring because his soul was gone, but Dean didn't care until now. I love how Dean said he read books and did other stuff to get Sam out of hell. I bet Dean didn't do anything when he was with Ben and Lisa and that's why he drank so much. Maybe Dean was happier knowing Sam was in hell or something. Either Dean is stupid because he didn't think about Death helping him get Sam out of Hell or Dean didn't care to get Sam out of hell until Sam's body showed up and Dean could not stand to live with Sam without his soul.
There are all kinds of other stuff that really bugged me in the episode and I try not to think about them because then I go crazy about it.
Also, maybe Dean will finally realize something about all the deals that have been made. How many people died because Dean made that deal for Sam to live after Jake stabbed him? All that is on Dean because he made the choice and chose Sam to live when maybe that was Sam's time to die. Then John made the deal for Dean and that was probably Dean's time to die. What about when Dean made the deal for Sam and died and went to Hell? It's like Dean has cheated Death three times already. There have been three times that Dean should have died and didn't. Two of those times, it was probably his destiny to die and one time, who chose for him to live. Is Death the one that gave Dean his soul back when Castiel pulled him out of Hell or does Dean even have his soul himself. Sometimes it makes me wonder.

The thing that killed me that most about this episode concerning Sam and Dean was the very end. Dean just looked so evil when he was looking in at Sam from outside that panic room. Sam didn't look evil, he just looked afraid and he didn't want his soul and it just killed me that Sam got his soul forced back into his body against his will. When does Sam ever get the choice to want something. Probably never. Maybe that's the reason why Sam is angry and he said he was angry and didn't know why. Maybe the reason for Sam's anger is that he's angry at others making choices for him and he's never able to make choices for himself or live and get what he wants. It's always about what someone else wants for him and not what he wants for himself.

I sometimes think that Sam and Dean have a twisted and sick brotherly relationship. Most of it is sick from Dean's side because it seems that Dean doesn't care about how Sam feels or what he wants. Dean always thinks he knows what's best for Sam and he could care less how Sam feels about it. Dean could actually care less about anything concerning Sam. I don't think Dean even knows who Sam is and he probably never will. Dean just wants company in his misery. It makes me wonder sometimes if Dean wanting Sam to get his soul back, wasn't his way of getting revenge on Sam or something. Like Dean wants Sam to suffer because he had because of Sam. It seems to me that Dean really didn't care what was going on with Sam until he totally lost Lisa and Ben. Then Dean started to care because he just thinks he's stuck with his rotten little brother again and that he had to take care of him.

I don't know. I think I'm just depressed about crap right now. I'm sad that we won't get to see the carefree Sam again and now it's back to poor Sam being miserable and being crapped on by Dean again. I can't wait to go see what some people have to say when the show comes back on and Sam is emotional again. They'll start complaining about Sam being too emotional or some other crap. I notice that most fans just constantly bitch about Sam no matter what his character does. Like the character of Sam is always making them angry no matter what he does. Like Sam is the one that's always horrible and making Dean's like a living hell, when in fact it's probably the reverse. Sam has probably wanted to die and go to Heaven, Hell or anywhere just to get away from Dean and no matter what, he never can.

When You Think You Know Someone

I always thought that I knew a certain friend of mine and who she was. I can't believe how wrong I was. You find out that the person you thought you knew, is not who you believed they were. I thought of this friend like she was one of my sisters. Now I realize how stupid I was to think that. Now I see her for the lying, phony and manipulative bitch that she really is. I can't believe all the phony crap she puts on Facebook. I wish her so-called friends really knew her and what she was like. I could write down all kinds of stuff she's done, but who really cares about her anymore. I still love her little daughter dearly and it breaks my heart that I'll probably never get to spend time with her again, but I guess that's just how it is. I've been thinking about her a lot lately because I can't help it. I missed her baptism and that just sucks. I don't care what religion she is because I'm not prejudiced against any religion. It would just have been nice to be there. I still remember when she was born and I got to hold her first. I'm grateful to my friend for that and sometimes I'm not. Sometimes I wish that I had never gotten to know my friend or her children.
I'll always cherish the memories I have of my friend, when I thought she was really my friend. I had a lot of good times with her throughout the years and I remember so much of it. Sometimes I wish I could forget like she's obviously done. I still remember all the trips I went on with her and my one sister. I had a lot of fun on all of them. Now, I wonder if my sister and her didn't want me along on those trips just to help pay, so they would not have to pay for everything. Who knows anymore? It's really sad that our friendship ended because she wanted to adopt my niece's baby and I didn't think it was right. She wanted to break up my niece's family and thought the baby would be better off with her instead of with his mother and brothers. She didn't even care about my niece's other children. Like maybe they would want to know their little brother, their own flesh and blood. I just don't get it at all.

Then my sister who I loved more than anything in this world has turned into a total and complete stranger who I don't know. Last time I saw her was about a month ago. It was a miracle I saw her then because obviously she's too busy to come visit or she doesn't care to and I guess that's her choice. I guess my friend and her kids mean more to her than her own family does. I thought she loved and cared about me, but I doubt she does. Most of the time she probably wanted me to be just like her and her friend and I just can't be. I love how my sister has come over to my place and tells me what I should do with my bedroom. It's not her bedroom and she doesn't have to live there, so what makes her think what she likes would be what I would like. Then I should get new carpeting and blinds and just get rid of my cat that I've had for over 16 years like she's an old piece of trash that I should throw out. I love my Mully and I won't get anything new until she dies. I don't care how old and worn it is. I love my cat more than a stupid room or anything else for that matter.
It hurts to think of my sister because she was my idol. She's the person that I always used to look up to and believe in. I used to believe everything she told me like it was gospel or something. I can't believe how stupid I was. My sister has done a lot for me and I'll always love and be thankful to her for that. She helped me out with a lot of things when I needed her. My other sisters have too. It's funny but she told me that if she didn't have her friends kids in her life, then she'd have nothing. That was just like saying I'm nothing and our whole family is nothing to her. She's the one that stays away and never comes to visit us. I've wished for her to come and visit, but she stopped and I know why. She made her choice between us and her friend and she chose her friend and her kids. That's the kind of person my friend really is. She's a selfish bitch that pretends to care about people, but she really doesn't because it's all just an act.
I just really needed to write this. Maybe that's the way I feel about Dean on Supernatural because he's like this sister of mine. You have an older sibling that doesn't even know you and who is constantly telling you what to do because they think they know what's best for you. Sometimes they don't. I looked up to this sister like Sam looked up to Dean while I was growing up. I wanted to be just like her the same way Sam wanted to be like Dean. I think Sam found out that maybe he didn't want to be like Dean and that's how I feel about my sister right now. I would never want to be like her or who she is. One time I thought I did, but now I'm glad that I'm nothing like her. She has how much, but she doesn't realize it. Most of the time she just wants more. I thought she was really smart and I really admired her art because she could draw the best pictures. She never did draw anything for me and that should have been a clue how she felt about me. She always wanted to impress friends that never gave a crap about her and she probably still does that today and so does her friend.
I don't care if I never have a ton of friends because most of them would be false friends. They'd be the kind that never really give a crap about you, but say they do. Sometimes I'll be truthful with people and I don't care. I'm not going to tell people a bunch of untrue shit just to be friends with them and I'm not going to go along with what they like to please them and make myself miserable. Friends are people who love you for who you are and not what they want you to be. If they don't like or love you for you, then they're not real friends. I guess my friend was never really my friend at all because she probably never did like me for who I really am. Neither did my sister. I can't be someone I'm not to please other people because then I'm miserable and it just takes to much effort to be false.

It's funny because I always imagined this day would come and I hoped that it never would. I knew back when I was spending time with my sister and friend that one day it would be over and never be the same again. I'll always cherish the memories of the years I spent with my sister and friend. I did so many fun things with them and I'll never forget them even if they do. I don't care. I still love them both, but I know they don't feel the same way about me. My friend especially and I wonder if she ever really did care or if it was all an act. I guess it doesn't matter.
It sometimes hurts to think of everything and remember all that we did together and all the good times we had or I had with them. I went on a lot of trips with them, I saw a ton of movies with them, I went shopping with them too many times to count and I remember concerts I went to with them. I went to my first ever concert with them and it was Fleetwood Mac, one of my favorite groups ever.
Okay, I think I just needed to type again and vent a little about things. What better place than here in Hell.

Caged Heat, Jared And Other Stuff

I'm glad that I got to watch Caged Heat on the internet. I'm happy that I even have a computer to watch it on and I feel sorry for the people who don't have one and probably missed it because of CW having a low signal for two weeks. CW's signal is now at full strength and I was able to watch One Tree Hill and Life Unexpected last night, but I missed the second half of Gossip Girl on Monday and that really made me mad. Now I have to wait to watch it online or the second half of it.
Caged Heat was one of my favorite episodes so far of season six. I loved all of it and I'm surprised about that. Usually some of these episodes are disappointing. It was interesting to read some of the stuff people wrote about it before I watched it. It didn't even spoil my enjoyment of the show and that was surprising. I did think that part with Castiel watching porn was funny. I even didn't mind him kissing Meg. You wonder why he did kiss her. I still have suspicions about Castiel and I think he could be evil. I wonder if he didn't have something going with Crowley and then he double crossed him and killed him. I still wonder if all that war in heaven stuff is real or what. Maybe Heaven is in a big shakeup, but I bet it was long before Michael went to Hell with Lucifer.
I still don't think Sam's soul is in Hell. It could be, but I wonder if it's not. And if it is, what makes anyone believe that it was a bad experience for Sam down there. Lucifer didn't seem to angry at Michael for locking him up down there for how long. Lucifer didn't even want to kill Michael, Michael was the one that wanted to kill Lucifer. No one but Lucifer knows what the cage down in Hell is like. So how would Castiel even have a clue what's happening to Sam down there, if he is down there. Even Meg would have no idea because she's never been in the cage herself.
Castiel is just assuming things and then you have Dean believing everything Castiel tells him like always. Dean who says they'll deal with whatever after Sam gets his soul. Just what would Dean have to deal with. His choice of getting Sam's soul back, but then Sam suffering for it. Sam will be the one going through all the pain and suffering, not Dean. So who the hell is Dean to decide what's best for Sam, when he doesn't even have a clue about anything. Maybe it would be a bad thing for Sam to get his soul back and who knows what the consequences will be and not just to Sam. Dean never cared when he made the deal for Sam and went to Hell. Dean broke the first seal and Sam the last and the apocalypse started mainly because of Dean making the deal he did. I don't think Dean even thinks how others feel at all. Look at Samuel Campbell. He's been dead for years and he came back to a world that was totally changed and different. He came back without the people he loved the most and that was probably his wife and daughter. How would Dean even understand anything about that and he doesn't even try to? Dean would not know what it's like to lose a child because he's never had one, unless Ben turns out to be his.
I seriously doubt that Crowley even had the power to bring Sam's body back and then who brought Samuel back to life. I still think there is more that we don't know about and nothing is as it seems still.
I love how some fans have been going on about Sam and Dean. I'm enjoying seeing them together in every episode and they have been for the last how many now. Fans wanted more Sam and Dean together and the writers have given them that, they didn't say it was going to be sunshine and roses with them. I just think this current storyline has been great for Jared. His acting has been outstanding and I've been enjoying seeing something different out of him. He's still playing Sam, but a totally different Sam than the one we know. He's been more interesting to watch than Dean. I loved watching Dean in Live Free And Twihard. That's probably been the only episode this season when Jensen was at his best and I thoroughly loved Dean. I loved watching Dean become a vampire because we got to see badass Dean for one episode. I've missed him and it's sad that he had to become a vampire just to see the Dean I used to love.

I've been following Taylor Mathews on Facebook and I wish that I could have went to one of his shows. I love reading what he's doing and I hope he's having fun and enjoying life. It seems like he is. I'm hoping he'll get a contract and we'll get a CD soon from him. I would so love it and I'd listen to it all the time. I just loved his voice and he does remind me of John Denver and a little bit like Clay Aiken.

I just got two new Star Trek books. I never get tired of Star Trek and I don't think I ever will. I'm reading the one with Bashir and he's my favorite character ever from Deep Space Nine. It kind of sucked when I watched the show because it was rare when there were episodes that focused on his character only. That's one thing about all the Star Trek shows that drove me crazy. Most of the episodes focused on one or two characters mainly and sometimes you didn't see your favorite at all or you just saw them for a couple of minutes. Then all the characters had to have love interests and they wasted good time on that crap. It was sick that even Data and the holographic doctor from Voyager even needed love interests. I loved Data and he tried to be human so I could understand that, but the holographic doctor I didn't understand. I saw an ornament at the mall of Capt. Kirk and Spock when they were fighting on Spock's home planet. I wanted to buy it, but it cost 30 dollars. That's expensive for an ornament. It was cool because it even played the music that was on during that fight. I so loved all the Star Trek shows. The only one I didn't watch was Enterprise. I never really could get into it and I didn't care for any of the characters. I have read a few of the books and they've been pretty good. I guess I liked reading the books of Enterprise because then I could picture the characters however I liked.

I picked up my copy of the latest Supernatural magazine today and I can't wait until that TV Guide comes out with Sam and Dean on the cover.

Supernatural Finally Gets A TV Guide Cover

WOW! Supernatural finally got a TV guide cover. It's sad that it took a ton of people voting to get it. Supernatural should have gotten a cover long ago like maybe in the first or second season of the show. I voted as many times as I possibly could and as many times as I had time for. I was working at the time the voting was going on and didn't have a lot of time. I'm just glad that finally Jared and Jensen will grace the cover of the TV Guide. I stopped subscribing a while ago because the TV Guide is no longer a guide to TV. I don't mind the articles, but I loved knowing what was coming on too. I also loved when the TV Guide was that little magazine that fit into a small spot and it wasn't the same size as any other magazine. It was great. Sure TV Guide covered Supernatural because there were a few articles in it about the show. I remember it had two whole pages during the fourth season, but then had no pictures of Jared, just Jensen. I like what the cover is going to look like and it's been fun reading all the comments about it. I've laughed my butt off reading some of them.

I've been reading some other stuff about the last episode Caged Heat and it's all very interesting, especially the stuff with Castiel. I still don't think he's being honest with Dean and he never has been. One minute he doesn't know jack squat and then he knows everything or what to do. I still think the writer's are purposely writing his character so he could either be good or bad. He could be the big evil of the whole show and no one is suspecting him. Look at all the stuff he's done so far. He's the one that let Sam out of that panic room and does Dean even know that or will they ever talk about it or not. I think it's interesting that they've never brought it up. Then Castiel can say things are happening, but is he lying about it. He says there's some war in heaven right now and is that really the truth or a crock of crap. Just like last season when he supposedly went looking for God. Who the hell knows what he really was doing? I love how some fans think Castiel has been killed and been brought back to life by God. Castiel's human vessel has been destroyed twice, but not Castiel himself. We've seen how many angels die or supposedly die. Who says they're telling the truth about those angel blades?

Another thing about Sam. I just don't get how fans don't think it's strange that Sam is running around without his soul. His body wouldn't even be running around and it would eventually shut down without a soul or something to make it be living. For all we know, Sam has his soul and it's inside his body right now. Or maybe it's not far from him or something. I still think there is more to Sam and maybe it's better if he doesn't get his soul back. Then about his soul being in Hell with Michael and Lucifer. How does anyone know that that's where his soul really is, unless they can see into the cage or something? I just don't get all of that stuff or why Dean believes Crowley is telling the truth about Sam's soul when Crowley is a demon and they lie. Hell, Castiel is probably lying right along with all the demons that have lied to both Sam and Dean. It's just interesting that Dean always thinks everyone is telling him the truth and that no one lies to him, except maybe for Sam.

Adam. Who gives a crap about him? I certainly don't. I don't care where his soul is right now and why should Sam and Dean. They didn't even know Adam at all. Who cares if they're half brothers or not? They knew Adam for maybe a few hours and should care deeply about where he is. That's crap. I doubt Adam would care about them because he didn't know them or give a crap about them. I actually wish the writer's would bring up Adam and where the hell his soul is, just so I don't have to read anymore about him and why Sam and Dean don't care where he is. Sam doesn't care because he doesn't have a soul and Dean just doesn't care about anything but his darling Sammy. LOL

What does the new TV Guide with Supernatural on it say? It says about the battle for Sam's soul. Who's battling who for Sam's soul? Sam doesn't want his soul back and Dean it seems is the only one that does. I still wonder if Sam's soul or spirit is on Earth, but is purposely staying away from his body for some reason. Maybe that was Sam's spirit or soul that was standing under the streetlight watching Dean and that's why the light went out. It's still all a big mystery and probably will be until the end of the season. I know how many fans think Sam is going to get his soul back soon, but I wonder if he will. Then they think Sam is going to be all messed up after he gets his soul back and I'm sure they'll want him recovered in like two seconds because they don't want him crying for too long and then for him to hug Dean or something. I could picture Sam getting his soul back and punching and beating the crap out of Dean because he will have to suffer the same hell he's been suffering for years. I can picture Sam coming back and being angry as hell. What did happen to all of the anger Sam had in him? I doubt it disappeared and who knows why he was so angry. He didn't even know why he was angry all the time. I still think Sam was angry because all his life he was controlled and used by someone or something and he was never free to make his own choices and live the life he really wanted. Then he had to suffer all the consequences of other people's actions like his Mom, Dad and Dean making their deals. Sam paid something for each of those deals and he's suffered because of all of them.

I love how fans think Sam had something to apologize to Dean for. Like Sam chose Ruby over Dean. That made Dean look like he was some jealous lover or something instead of Sam's brother. It's funny because I think Dean should apologize to Sam for all the crap he's said and done to Sam over the years. Dean should be sorry that he was such a dick to his brother. It's not Sam's fault that Dean had to take care of him or watch him. It's not Sam's fault that Dean lets himself be led by anyone like John, demons, angels and how many others and doesn't make his own choices or be his own man. Sam has absolutely nothing to apologize to Dean for.

Wow! Long post, but I needed to type again. It helps for me to type while I'm released from work. I've been playing on Facebook more right now because there are all kinds of fun stuff going on with the games. I just love my little Sammy and my other demons because they all look so cute in their darling houses that are all decked out for Christmas. My little Sammy put on his wall this saying. " The best present you can give someone for Christmas is LOVE." How true is that? That is the best gift of all to give anyone and it should last all year and always.

Tangled, Princesses and No Supernatural

Last night I went to see Tangled. It was one of the cutest movies that I've seen in a long time. I miss going to movies like this and the last one was Enchanted. Disney says that Tangled was the last princess movie they are ever going to make. I hope that's not true and they change their minds. I love these movies and they're not just for little kids to enjoy, they're for everyone. My little grand nephews loved the movie, so it's not just for little girls under ten years old. I'm so sick of all the target audience bullshit already. The target audience for any movie or TV show, should be everyone, not just men, women or children of certain ages.
I hope that I never lose the part of me that loves princesses and loves to dream. I still dream about things, even though I'm older and I know they'll never come true. Some of them still might and I still think about them. A lot of my dreams have come true, even though they've taken years. I love to dream and I hope I always will until the day I die.

I missed watching Smallville and Supernatural because there was no signal or the signal was low for the CW. I'm so sick of that crap already. Digital TV sucks because most of the time it doesn't come in or the channels look like crap or they're all broken up. It's mostly the CW channel that has problems in the area where I live and that's the channel I watch the most. I wish all the CW shows were in repeats right now because it's been so hard to watch them.
It's funny but I'm not mad or sad about missing Supernatural. There was a time when I would have went crazy not seeing it. I guess I'm not that obsessed about it anymore. I don't know if it's the current storyline or I've just lost a lot of interest in it in general. It doesn't feel like the same show I've been watching for five years at times and maybe that's what's wrong. Sometimes it does feel like I'm watching a new show and one that I really don't have all that much interest in. I still love Supernatural and I always will, just like all the other shows I've watched over the years. I've been watching my DVDs of Supernatural from seasons 1-5 right now. I love the first three seasons of the show and lately it's gone downhill. I never cared for the whole Apocalypse and angel vessel storyline. Most of it was stupid and didn't make sense at all. Then all the crap with Heaven and angels being just as bad or worse than demons and Hell. The only good thing that came out of it was Castiel. I love Misha Collins and I can't wait to see him at the L.A. Con in Feb. I loved him at the last L.A. Con.
I wonder if Sam is ever going to get his soul back and do I even care anymore. I think I've resigned myself to just watching the show and not caring what happens. Sometimes I don't even want to think about Supernatural at all and other times I think about it a lot. I guess I just don't want to invest too much time into it because I'll probably get disappointed and angry like I was during season 4. I guess I just have a come what may attitude about it right now. I don't care what happens and I'll keep watching it until it ends. Sometimes it's more of a comedy than anything else. Even the serious stuff on it makes me laugh because I can't take some of it seriously at all. I loved Clap Your Hands If You Believe and that's probably been my favorite episode so far this season on the show. I hope there's more episodes coming up like it because I'd rather laugh than get angry at some of the crazy stuff they come up with or laugh at it because I can't take it seriously at all. I'm just hoping they have a good explanation as to how Sam's body can be walking and talking without his soul inside. If they don't explain that crap and I learn nothing about Sam, then that will make me mad.
I've thought up theories and stuff, but I doubt anything I've thought of will be. I've wondered if the angels or someone doesn't have Sam and Dean in some long time loop or something. Now that would be a cheat and would suck. I think I've just lost some of the love I had for Supernatural because it has changed just a little too much over the seasons. Some shows can change and still stay the same, but Supernatural has changed and turned into a different show altogether at times.

I still love One Tree Hill and it's just gotten better as the years have gone by. I love it more now, than when it first aired and the gang were teenagers. I still love Smallville almost as much as when it aired. There have been a lot of changes, but the show still stays pretty much the same and I've always loved that about it. Gossip Girl has been really good lately and has gotten even better. Usually shows like this have gotten stale for me after a few years. Life Unexpected is pretty new and I still love watching it and I hope it continues having good story lines. I love Vampire Diaries and it's pretty new too. I'm loving everything on that show right now. The cast and the story lines are great and I enjoy watching every episode. There's going to be a marathon on CW soon and I hope I'll be able to watch it and my digital signal will be stronger.

I just love all kinds of entertainment, so it's nice that I could enjoy going to the movie instead of watching TV for a night. There will always be something to make me get excited about and make me happy, whether it's a new album, a TV show or a new movie. Sometimes I even love to get excited about sports and other stuff like that. I'd love to go see a musical or a play or something, but there's no one to go see one with and I don't want to go alone. I would even love to see a symphony performing or go to one of the school's little concerts. I love those.

Well, I'm done posting for now. I just had to use a picture of my little fairy princess Jess for this post. Well, she's a fairy princess right now, but who knows what kind of princess she'll be next.

Trolls and Trolling On The Internet

Here's my opinion about trolls on the Internet. I think most people are trolls or trolling on the Internet. There are people trolling for info, trolling for a good deal on merchandise, trolling for porn, trolling for friends, trolling for gossip and all kinds of other things. You could almost say that everyone who uses the Internet is a troll because everyone is trolling for something.

Here's what I think about the CW message board. The only trolls on there are the ones that are constantly patrolling the board and harassing anyone who doesn't have the same opinion as they do or they get angry at what other people like as opposed to what they do. I was a troll because I didn't love Jensen or Dean and I didn't want to constantly post how great Dean is or how Jensen deserves an award for playing his character. That was a crock of shit in my opinion. I'm glad that now on the message board that more posters are posting about Sam and about Jared. Jared deserves just as much recognition as Jensen does. Both of them are deserving of awards for their acting. I happen to think Jared is the better actor myself and I don't give a crap what anyone else thinks. Jared has played a bigger variety of roles in movies and on Supernatural than Jensen has. Dean to me, is a one dimensional character and he's now getting boring. Sure, Dean still makes me laugh and that's about it. I can't take his character seriously at all. Dean tells one thing and then says the exact opposite later. Maybe one day we'll get to see some really great acting out of Jensen on the show, but I highly doubt it. I'd love to see Jensen play a totally different role than Dean on the show, just to see if he can and if it would be believable.
Now back to the trolls. I still remember the story about the troll under the bridge. That's a troll. Someone who sits somewhere and never leaves and tries to keep other people from ever invading that space because they think they own it. Then they constantly harass you for what you like or what you want to talk about. They never really listen to anything you say and that's happened on that CW board. I had the biggest troll ever telling me a bunch of crap and calling me how much crap and I never called her anything. How many of those posters thought that I was going to go all over the board and defend Sam's character? What the hell for? I love Sam and I love Jared for playing him, but if others don't, then that's their deal and they should be free to say whatever they want. I even tried to start a Sam bashing thread so they'd have a place to bash Sam and of course it was deleted by the mods. It wasn't a joke thread. The problem with that board is that you really can't express how you feel and that's just wrong. If someone hates a character, then they should be allowed to post about it and not just characters that some posters think others should hate or love to hate. If you don't like or even hate a character, then you should have somewhere to post about it. It should not just be for posters that love characters and especially Sam and Dean. It's like the love board or something and if you don't become a part of their little click and clan, then you don't belong or something and you have no right to post about what you feel and you'll be called a troll.

To me a real troll is someone that treats you like crap and is mean to you without even getting to know you. A troll is someone who comes on there and just says they hate something and never says why and never comes back. A troll is someone who is just waiting to pounce on you for having a difference of opinion or if you say something they don't like. That's a troll. It's funny that I've only seen that stupid stuff on the Supernatural board on the CW site. I've gone on the other boards and they don't call people trolls or they didn't when I used to post on them. It was just Supernatural. I think they need to come up with some other name for people who come on there to start trouble because calling them a troll is like being a hypocrite because the trolls that live on the message board are sometimes worse than the trolls that come on there to cause trouble. It's actually kind of funny. I also love the crap about respecting what others think, like they really do. It's a big joke and I laugh my butt off over the crap they spout. I think some of them love Dean's character because they are hypocrite's just like he is at times. You should practice what you preach to others and not just tell others what to do.

I could call some of my facebook friends trolls, but I know they are just having fun when they make certain comments to posts. The whole thing about the Internet is, if you don't want someone to read your crap or comment on it, then don't post or talk about it. I love how I read that article about trolling. You should not blog for a few days if a troll comes on to your blog. Just get rid of comments and other things or hide your blog. It's as simple as that. You don't want someone to make fun of you, then don't put your shit out there for everyone to read. The Internet is all public and whoever can read whatever you are posting or writing about. If I didn't want someone to read the crap I write, then I wouldn't write it at all or I'd keep it private. I have a blocked blog because I use it to vent on and I swear on it and then I feel good after I've let everything out.

I just think some people don't understand what a troll really is because everyone who's on the Internet could be considered a troll.