Goodbye 2012

The past year was an okay year for me. The beginning of the year was kind of rocky at work, but then things got better. My favorite part of 2012 was going to the Supernatural Burbank Con. I had a great time there and it was kind of fun to travel on my own. I still love going with someone though and I'll be going to the Vegas Con with my sister come March.  TV was pretty good this year. I started watching a couple of new shows like The Voice and Once Upon A Time. A lot of good albums came out this year and I've been enjoying listening to them. My favorite was Ceremonials by Florence And The Machine. I didn't read as much this year with all the stuff that's been going on, but I did read some really great books as well from all my favorite authors.
The end of this year has been full of ups and downs. I feel so bad about what's happened to my Mom. I thought she was going to die about three times and she's still here. Now, I'm hoping she'll get better and either be able to come home or go into assisted living.  I just would like to see her getting back to walking and doing the things she used to do. It's up to her though. She's in a care facility right now and she's been there for a month. I don't know what will happen.
Despite everything that's happened with my Mom. I had a good Christmas. I saw her and my family. I got to spend time with how many members of my family. It felt good to spend time with them. It seems that I never get to spend a lot of time with them anymore. I went to how many good movies this year. Les Miserables, The Hobbit, Breaking Dawn part 2, The Possession and Parental Guidance.
Here's to hoping that 2013 is a great year. I'll do my best to make it one no matter what happens.

I Dreamed A Dream Of Supernatural

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and Supernatural worth watching
I dreamed my love for Sam and Dean would never die
I dreamed that Chuck would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid and dreams were made and used and wasted

But the demons come at night
With their voices soft like Crowley
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame

They spent multiple summers on my walls
And filled my days with wonder
But season 8 came along and it was gone

And still I dream Sam and Dean will be like brothers
But there are dreams that cannot be
And storms I cannot weather like Amelia and Benny

I had a dream Supernatural would be
So different from this hell it is
Now Carver has killed the dream I dream

Gossip Girl Forever

It's been a while since I've posted because I've just been too lazy and too sick to. I wanted to post right away about the end of Gossip Girl, but I didn't feel good. I'm really going to miss this show being on every Monday night. The finale was awesome. I couldn't have asked for a better ending to such a great show. I've loved this show since it first started and I never missed one episode. I will keep watching my DVD's for a long time because I can see it all again. I'm so happy that they made sure to have Jenny and Eric be in the finale. I've missed them for the last couple of years. Chuck and Blair will now be forever and I love that. I knew they'd end up together when the show ended. I was well rewarded for all my loyalty to this show.

I love all my shows because they've really helped me when I've been depressed. I watch all the characters and I actually never wish I was any of them, but it would be nice sometimes to live in their worlds for a brief time. I'd never want to stay longer than a couple of hours though. TV characters sure have more problems than normal people, but on the other hand, a lot of them have more people who love them and are there for them than real people do. It's nice to wish yourself into TV land and stay there just to forget your problems for a while.

I've seen the end of how many shows now that I love. Smallville, One Tree Hill and now Gossip Girl. I've loved these shows for years. I love Supernatural, but I don't think it's going to end like any of these shows. I'm actually scared about how it will end. I want to love the show until it ends, but it's getting very hard to do so right now. I was never obsessed with any of my other shows like I have been with Supernatural. I think my obsession is over now though and I still love it, but not as much as the earlier seasons. I've been watching   the Christmas episode how many times and I realize how different the show really is now. Dean actually used to love and care about Sam and now I feel like he could care less what happens to Sam. Sam cares and loves Dean, but Dean acts like Sam doesn't give a crap about him. I don't know what Sam could possibly do to make Dean realize how much he cares about him. Nothing I guess. As I was watching the Christmas episode and Sam giving Dean that amulet, I thought about something. Why did Sam give Dean the amulet? Because he knew he could always count on Dean and that Dean was there for him. Maybe that's why Dean threw the amulet in the trash because he knew that Sam would not be able to count on him anymore. It was more about how Dean felt and not how he felt about Sam and that's why he threw it away. I hate fans who think Sam should have pulled it out of the trash and tried to give it to Dean again, when Dean clearly didn't want it anymore. It would be really funny if Kevin finds out that the amulet is important to closing the gates of hell or whatever and Dean then realizes he threw it away and they have no idea where it is, but they need it.
Part of me no longer gives a crap about Dean or what he even thinks of Sam. Dean seems to only worry about what he needs or wants and could care less what Sam wants or needs. To me, that is selfish. It's funny that fans think Dean is the poor injured party and that Dean isn't selfish for not even caring what went on with Sam while he was in Purgatory. It's not like Sam went to Purgatory himself and then just found a way out and left Dean there. It's not Sam's fault that Dean had to be the big hero and kill Dick and end up in Purgatory. I read how much crap and can't even believe what I'm reading. It's still the same. Dean is always right and anyone he wants to be friends or family with is great and Sam is always wrong and anyone he even talks to is evil or horrible and how dare he choose or be with anyone other than Dean. Dean can choose angels, vampires or anyone over Sam and it's great and he's a wonderful loving brother to Sam. That's utter and complete crap. It's funny because I think a lot of Dean fans are hypocrites just like Dean. I stay far away from those fans.

Wow! Long post. I guess I just needed to write for a little bit. My poor Mom is in a care facility and now she has two infections she's trying to fight. I've been praying for her. Hopefully one day her suffering will end either way. She'll either get better or God will take her home. I can't stand seeing her this way. It's very hard and I'm sure more harder for her than me.

Alone

I'm all alone writing this. Usually my Mom is here with me. She went back into the hospital two weeks ago and now she's in a care facility. Who knows if she'll ever come home? I miss her being here in the house and it's way too quiet now. I try to pretend that she's just gone to the gambling town on the bus or she went there with my sister or something. I saw her yesterday and she didn't look good or very happy. I don't think I'd be happy either if I was her. First she had to deal with all the stuff with her heart, then she came home and had to go right back to the hospital for more stuff. I've been stressing out and worried about her and my family and what's going to happen.
Watching my shows has helped a little bit and Blake Shelton really made me smile and laugh with his Christmas special. Even Supernatural was pretty good this last Thursday. I had to go back to work as well. I'll probably be only working for a few more days. I can't take the inner conflict with my family either. I love them all, but it feels like I'm being torn apart. I don't know who to trust and what to believe anymore. I just wish that we could all pull together for each other and for our Mom.
I put up our tree hoping that somehow my Mom would be home by Christmas, but that's looking less likely right now. I'd like to have a little get together for my family on Christmas Eve, but who knows if anyone would come or if they would put their differences aside for one night. Right now, all I can think about is Christmas and past years spent with my family. For the last couple of years, we haven't even been getting together. I don't know why. You never know what's going to happen and you should spend time with your family for as long as you can.
I've been thinking about all my Mom used to do at Christmas time. I remember she used to scrub the floors and clean the house for days. Then she put up all the Christmas stuff and the tree. My Dad would put up our fake cardboard fireplace. Once everything was up, it was perfect. I remember coming home from school and  my Mom would have Christmas music playing on the record player and she'd make cocoa for us. She'd be in the kitchen cooking while we played or whatever. When it got close to Christmas, my Mom would make cookies, pies, fudge, divinity and how many other goodies. We always had a Christmas Eve party at our house with the whole family. It didn't matter who stepped in the door, they were family. I still think of them as that, even if maybe some of them don't feel that way. When I was younger, we'd always do a gift exchange. And I remember we always got clothes from our parents and not Santa. Santa always brought all the toys and fun stuff. When I was little, I never realized that Santa was really mainly my Mom. My Dad helped her, but she did most of it. I don't even know how she hid all that stuff from us. I used to get so much, that I never knew what to play with and it was hard to choose. We'd look and start playing with our presents and then it was time for pictures and then we went to church. I still can't believe all that my Mom did for us. She did so much and I love her for it. I don't know if very many mothers today would do all she did. We'd always go and visit the relatives after church. I'm so glad that we did. I still miss them as well. Most of them have been dead for a long time now. Even though they're gone, I still think of them and I have so many good memories of all of them. My Dad always took us to the Christmas lights in Ogden. That's something my Mom never did. I wonder if she just wanted some alone time for a while.

I don't know why, but I just felt like writing this tonight. I really hope that all my family and that includes everyone in the world has a wonderful Christmas this year. I hope everyone can put their differences aside and forgive and love each other. Isn't that what Christmas is all about? God gave his son as a gift to us and his son brought us the gift of love and forgiveness.

Happy Thanksgiving

On this Thanksgiving, I'm grateful for my family and everything I have. I'm always thankful that I have a roof over my head, food in my stomach, clothes on my back and everything I need to live. I pray for all those people who do not have what I have even though most people would think I have nothing.

I'm very thankful for music, books, movies, TV and anyone who is a part of any of these things. I'm alive right now mainly because of these things. Music is the best drug in the world and I can never have enough of it. I'm always looking for new music to listen to. I just discovered One Direction and I bought their first CD. It's really good and I should have bought it long ago. All my TV shows are good right now, even Supernatural. I just hope Supernatural gets better than it's been. The first how many episodes bored me to tears. I've liked 3 out of the 7 that have been on so far. Last season I loved the first seven episodes and I re-watched them multiple times. I hope the rest of the episodes for the season will be good and I'll want to watch them more than once.

I've went to see Breaking Dawn 2 twice now. I love the Twilight movies even though I thought the books were not that great. I think the movies are better than the books. Usually, I love the books better than the movies. I love the Lord Of The Rings movies better than the books. I thought most parts in the books were boring.

I've got how many books to read. I just finished reading Blood Line by James Rollins. Awesome read and kind of scary. I love how he always uses facts in his fiction. That's what makes it scary. You read about this stuff and you know how much of it is real. It's really happening somewhere in the world or it's happened. Robotics and genetics scare me. Who knows what's happening in some lab in some part of the world or who or what is being used as a lab rat? People have been used to experiment on. It happened during the holocaust and I'm sure it's been happening for a long time now even today. God only knows what kind of robots and other artificial intelligence is being engineered right now. I try not to think too much about stuff like this because it scares me to even think of what could be happening or what could happen in the future.

I had a good Thanksgiving with my Mom. I made my own feast for myself and my niece brought my Mom some stuff. She has to watch her sodium intake right now. I ate like a pig and stuffed myself full of food while watching The Christmas Cottage. I love watching Jared in this movie. I'm so grateful he's in it. No one else would have been able to play the role of Thomas Kinkade. At least in my opinion. Jared was perfect for the part and he was awesome in it. I cry every time I watch Jared, especially the scene at the end with Peter O'Toole.

Well that's all for now.

Voting For People's Choice Awards

I've voted a few times now for my favorites for the People's Choice Awards. I really don't care who wins, but I'm voting for who I think should win and who I personally like. I'm not part of the SPN Family and frankly I don't even know who they are. I know most all of them are voting for Jensen for the actor award. I guess they should because Supernatural is The Dean Show, so the award should go to the person who plays Dean. I'm alternately voting for Jared and Paul Wesley. I personally think they are the best actors out of the bunch. I'm hoping the Vamp Diaries fans split the vote between their two and SPN  fans split over their two and the other guy wins. Now that would be a laugh and a half. I'd love it.

I'm voting for Vampire Diaries to win the sci fi award because I think it's a better show that focuses on all it's characters and has a better storyline overall. Supernatural used to be good when it was about both Sam and Dean and not just Dean and his supernatural pals. I'm voting Once Upon A Time for the drama. It's my favorite show this year closely followed by Vampire Diaries. I'm voting Beauty And The Beast for the best new drama. Nina for the best actress because she is the best actress out of all the others that I watch. And I'm voting for Blake Shelton of course. The rest of the stuff, I don't really care about. And I decided to vote for TVD fans or whatever they call themselves. Like I said, I'm not part of the SPN Family or whatever. I've been mainly treated like crap from other supernatural fans on the Internet, so I'm sorry, but I'd never consider them family. There are a few nice ones on Twitter and I've met some nice fans at the Cons, but that's about it. I still remember The CW message boards and all the bitches who treated me like crap and called me a troll and how much other crap because I didn't agree with them. I don't care. Supernatural is no longer an obsession for me and I'm happy about that. Hopefully the show will end this season, but if it goes on, then hopefully Jared will decide to do a movie or something and not be on the show as much. I'm hoping and praying for this. Dean fans would rejoice because then the show could be all about Dean and only Dean. Or Dean and his buddies Castiel and Benny.

I'm going to vote every day for my favorites, but I'm not going to waste time voting over and over and spending hours doing it. That's a waste of time better spent on other things. Who cares who wins? Because it's not really the People's Choice, but the choice of how many fans voting multiple times because they want their favorites to win. I hate to say it, but if you could only vote one time, Supernatural wouldn't even stand a chance. I'm probably not even going to watch the Award show when it comes on, but I'll see who won after.

Vampire Diaries Just Keeps Getting Better And Better

I'm loving Vampire Diaries this season. I love the whole cast and the new characters that have come on. The writers always seem to be coming up with something new each season. I'm always surprised and shocked at the end of each episode and then I can't wait for the next one. I love how the writers manage to tell both Damon and Stefan's stories. Neither of them are neglected. Not like Supernatural. It seems like the writers just think everyone wants to see Dean and his supernatural lovers and not see Sam at all. Sam is shoved into the background and most of the time, I forget he's even a main character of the show. Sam fans are treated like crap by the writers, producers and the show runner. We get nothing. Ian and Paul fans should be happy because they get to see both of them. I love watching Elena with Stefan. In my personal opinion, they just have more chemistry and their scenes touch me and have made me cry. I love Elena with Damon as well. I loved watching Elena feed on that girl and then start dancing with Damon. That scene was just too hot for words. I think some fans of the show forget that this is a love triangle between Damon, Elena and Stefan. It's not about one or the other being with her all the time. That would get boring.
My other shows have been awesome so far this year. I even started to watch Emily Owens M.D. and it's better than Supernatural. All my shows are. That's what makes me so sad. I used to watch Supernatural to make me feel happy and now I just get depressed watching it. It's boring as well. I could care less about the new characters on the show. The only character left worth watching is Crowley and maybe Castiel when he gets out of Purgatory (or the forest).  All those Purgatory flashbacks are boring and stupid. Even Sam's flashbacks are boring. Now Sam is a handyman. Whatever.

I haven't posted for a while because my Mom has been in the hospital. She needed stents in her heart and a pacemaker. For a while, we thought she wouldn't make it. I was scared that she was going to die. She's okay right now and she's coming home tomorrow. I love my Mom and I've been praying for her. If it had been her time to die, then I would have let her go. Everyone dies. It's hard to let go of their physical being, but you have to find a way to do that. Everyone that I've loved and has died, will always be in my heart and memories until I die. I'm just glad that I have so many good memories of my Mom and I. I've spent a lot of time with her and I live with her. I never moved out. My father died 15 years ago already. It's hard to believe he's been gone that long. So many people in my life have died already, but they are always with me. I just think about them and they are here with me. I thank God every day that I've been blessed with so many memories and happy times. There have been bad days as well, but the good far out number the bad.
While all this was happening to my Mom, I watched old episodes of Supernatural, plus all my new shows to comfort myself.

One more thing before I end this post. I bought my Jared photo op for the Vegas Con on Monday and when I looked at the site on Wed. they were all sold out. I might have gotten the last one. I can't believe I almost didn't get my photo op. This will probably be the last Con I go to. I want it to be the best one. I've gotten all my stuff for the project I'm doing and now I can start it. I was released from work, so I'll have the time now.

Frightmares, My Weekend And Other Stuff

This last Saturday I went to Frightmares again. It was the second time I've gone so far this year. I had fun going to all the haunted houses and I was with my family and that made it even better. I love spending time with people I love. Sometimes it seems like I don't get to spend as much time as I would like with them.
I also went to my aunt's 80th birthday party. It was nice to see my relatives again. I don't even know most of them because I hardly ever see them except at funerals. That's pretty sad. It was nice to see them and spend time with them at a happy occasion.

My whole weekend was busy. I went shopping on Friday. My sister bought me seven Blake Shelton Cd's and that made me very happy. I can't get enough of listening to him. I already loaded how many songs onto my MP3 player to listen to at work. I love that I get to see Blake on The Voice and listen to him as well.
My sister also took my Mom and I out to dinner at Red Lobster. I love eating there. I spent the rest of the weekend reading and relaxing.

The TV season has finally started full swing. Gossip Girl and Vampire Diaries are going to be on this week and I bet both of them are going to be great. I'm going to see if Beauty And The Beast is any good and I might end up watching it if it is. I watched Supernaturals premiere and I was bored. I never expected anything and that's exactly what I got. Nothing like usual, just the same old tired crap. That was the worst season premiere of Supernatural or any show that I've watched. I thought Lazarus Rising was boring, but at least it had a few surprises. Maybe the rest of the season will get better, but I seriously doubt it. It will probably be The Dean Show now until the show is over for good. Whatever. Dean fans can watch and love it all they want to. Hopefully, Jared will get more time off to be with Gen and Thomas. And I'll just go to bed early if it sucks and is all sniveling Dean.

I think I'm done posting for now. I'm happy and I hope everyone in the world finds some happiness.

Once Upon A Time: Season 2

I just finished watching the first episode of the second season called Broken. I absolutely loved it. I'm so very happy that this show is on. I finally have something new to watch that surprises and amazes me every time I watch. I read of few of the spoilers, but they never spoiled the surprises. I saw some promos as well and I had no idea what was going to happen.

The best part of this show is the writing. I love how it is written. I do so love all the actors and actresses as well. I can't believe how many characters have been on and how many more are going to be coming. I'm excited to find out what characters are going to be coming next. It's almost like watching two shows at once, but they are the same. I love the special effects with all the creatures and the other lands and just everything.
The show must have a pretty good budget because the stuff looks so good. You feel like you are somewhere magical when watching. It's like you want to jump in your TV set and join in on all the action and be a part of it.

One of the best things about this show is that I feel something for all the characters whether they are good or evil. The writers help you get to know them and why they do what they do. You see a glimpse into every character on the show. I feel for Regina and she's the evil queen and I love Rumpelstiltskin/ Mr. Gold. I love all the character interaction. There is so much going on and the hour flies by so fast and leaves me wanting more.

The magic has arrived and I love it and can't wait for more.

Blake Shelton And Other Stuff

                                                                                              I just discovered Blake Shelton and I'm so happy that I did. I started to watch The Voice and I loved him right away. He has the cutest smile and laugh. I heard him talk and I just knew that his singing would be great as well. I bought his album Red River Blue and I love every song on it. I never heard one song from it before I bought the album.  I sometimes do that. I will buy a CD of a certain artist and I've never even heard one of their songs and it's either hit or miss. I've bought some bad CD's, but most of the ones I've bought, I've loved. I never really get a chance to hear country music. I don't listen to the radio. I have to discover music from either TV shows, movies or something else. I saw that Blake has a Christmas album coming out and I'm going to buy that right away. I'll be watching The Voice as well and I'm happy I found something new to watch. I went and bought the Supernatural season 7 DVD set. I love how many episodes and I'll be watching them. I'm still not happy reading what's coming up for season 8. More angels, demons and other crap. I'm wondering if good old Michael is going to enter the picture again. Maybe some of those Dean fans who wanted Dean to be Michael or see him being Michael's vessel will get their wish. Michael will save the world, but it won't be Dean, so who gives a crap. I just wonder if they're going to bring up Michael and Lucifer again. They are supposedly trapped in the cage in hell together. With all this quest crap, I'm sure it will come up again. I'd love to see Sam drink demon blood right in front of his new love. I doubt she'd want to be with him after that. And if she did, she's either nuts or something. I doubt Sam is going to be completely and totally honest about everything with her because if he is. Then she's either a saint or crazy. I've stopped caring what's coming up on Supernatural. I'll either like it or not. I'll either watch it or go to bed early. If there is some other show I like on at the same time, then I may watch it instead. Who knows? I'm just done obsessing about it already or at least I hope I am. I bought the new calendars only out of loyalty and I still love Jared and Jensen. I loved that short video with Jared and Jensen more than I've liked scenes with Sam and Dean. I'll always love them and how many of the other actors and actresses that have been on the show. I can't wait for the Vegas Con. Who cares whether I'm watching the show or not? It's going to be fun. I love being around all the stars and it's like one big three day party of fun. Louden Swain is going to be in concert and I can't wait to see them again. The karaoke party is always fun and I love Vegas. I can't wait to go on vacation and that will be my vacation for next year. Okay I think I'm done for now. 

Supernatural Sniveling

I decided to come here and snivel about the show. I guess I wasn't done in my last post. I'm just so sad and totally disappointed with where the show is going to be going in season 8. I've never been so non excited for a season to start until now. Nothing I've seen so far has got me even close to excited for season 8 and instead I have just gotten angry and upset reading the crap I read.

First off. Carver says that season 8 is going to be some Indiana Jones theme crap with a quest. Jeez, I wonder who Indiana Jones is on the show. It sure in hell is not Sam, so it's probably good old hero Dean.
Next, Sam is getting a love interest and supposedly he's not with her when he gets reunited with Dean. And his love story is going to be told in flash backs and she may appear later in the season. Now, you find out that Sam will be going to see her right away and that he'll be trying to maintain his relationship with her. I'm sure Sam is still with her at the beginning of the season and enjoying his wonderful life without Dean.

Next, Sam and Dean will have a more mature relationship with each other now that they've been separated for like the 100th time. And they will have the tools to live without each other. How stupid is that? Sam has always been able to live without Dean. Sam left for college on his own and didn't even see Dean for years. In the last how many seasons, Sam has walked away from Dean and been fine on his own. The only time he wasn't, was when Dean went to Hell and Sam knew he was suffering there because of him and the deal Dean made to bring him back to life. Otherwise, Sam has been fine on his own. Dean on the other hand has not been. It's like he constantly needs someone to cling to. First there was daddy, then Sam, Castiel, Bobby, Lisa and Ben and now his new buddy Benny. Dean has always been needy and has needed someone around to give him self worth because he has none.

Next the mythology or whatever the crap it is. I swear that I'm getting sick of it already. Carver wants to get rid of the crushing mythology of the first seven seasons. What that probably means is, let's just forget about what happened for those seasons and start all over again with something new. Let's reboot the show. Sam with be with the love of his life and Dean will be with his new buddy Benny. Then they'll get together over some bullshit and lah dah dah.

Supernatural is all about Sam and Dean. Sure it is. It's been The Dean Show since season four and has never stopped being all about Dean. Now Dean is going to have a totally separate story that doesn't involve Sam at all. Shocker, not. So how precisely is the show about Sam and Dean. Sure, Sam will have his new love Amelia for who knows how long. I'm sure there are how many fans that want her to stick around so that Sam will safely be out of Dean's way and his story. I care nothing for Sam's love interest or Sam having a love story. That's probably the stupidest thing the show is doing again. I couldn't stand Lisa and Ben, but I tolerated them and the stupid crap. I don't think Dean ever wanted a normal life ever. Sam on the other hand wanted a normal life, but then he's been saying he doesn't want one for how many years now and I guess he's been lying to Dean and himself all that time.

Now on to the crazy and nutty fans who think Sam should have kept looking for Dean. Where was Sam supposed to start looking for Dean when he didn't know where Dean went? Crowley didn't tell Sam that Dean went to Purgatory and seeing how Sam is no longer psychic, then he didn't have a clue what happened to Dean. So how the hell would he look for Dean, if he had no starting point. Obviously, Sam is totally normal because he just decides Dean is dead or gone and just settles down into some normal life with his new love and forgets all about his life up to that point. I guess he probably forgets about his whole family being dead or gone wherever. His good old uncle Bobby being dead. He forgets about being soulless and going to hell and everything else that's happened in his life up to that. I guess he just decides that life is to short not to live and find love. Even though his new love could be killed anytime just like his last real love Jess. Now Amelia is going to be his one true love. I'm sure she'll be able to survive all the supernatural crap.
And now for all the crazy fans that think Sam had to be the one to get Dean out of Purgatory. Who knows how him and Benny get out and what comes out with them? I don't think they only get out together and nothing else escapes with them? I sure in hell don't want Sam to be blamed for saving Dean and releasing more monsters at the same time. Sam is always damned if he does and damned if he doesn't, so I guess that doesn't matter. He'll be a selfish asshole for not looking for Dean and saving him.

Now onto something I think was totally dropped throughout the last couple of seasons on the show. First off in the second season, Gordon tried to kill Sam because he thought he was dangerous. Then, Sam being possessed by Meg killed that one hunter guy and other hunters were looking for whoever killed him. I guess they never found out that it was Sam. Then in season 4, Dean tells Sam that if he wasn't his brother, he'd want to hunt him and so would other hunters. I'm surprised no other hunters ever found out that Sam could send demons back to hell or kill them. I'm sure hunters would be lining up to hunt Sam if they found out that he could kill demons. Why would they want Sam to kill demons? They'd be mad at Sam for killing the demons and not giving them a chance, I guess. So, he would have to die for that. Season 5 comes along and Walt and Roy. I love how they told Sam that other hunters were looking for him. I guess they never found Sam either. Maybe Castiel burned some extra sigils into Sam's ribs to make him invisible to other hunters because none found him. There were those three at the beginning of season 5, but they wanted him to drink demon blood and kill demons for them. I'm sure after Sam did that, they would have killed him if they could have. I guess all the other hunters on the show are either dead or they've just forgotten all about Sam and what he's done and they are no longer after him. I'm sure Bobby spread the word to the whole hunter community that Sam was okay, even thought Sam was talking to Lucifer for almost a year.

I'm just so sad right now. I don't even want to watch old episodes. I was excited about buying season 7 on DVD, then I read some more crap and now I don't know if I'll even buy it or not. I'm sure I will, just for the episodes I loved. I think this might be the year when I stop watching the show. I just get more angry and upset about it. When that happens, it's time to let it go. It will be hard, but I'm sure I'll be able to, unless something really surprising happens and I actually end up liking season 8. I've let go of a lot of shows I've loved. First I stop watching them because what's happening on them is depressing me and after a while I just don't watch them anymore. I still remember that I almost stopped watching the show during season 4. I hope season 8 doesn't come close to anything that happened like that season or I'm afraid it will be over.
I saw the gag reel from season 7 and I felt absolutely nothing. I didn't even smile seeing Jared laughing and smiling and usually I do. I hope I can get out of this Supernatural funk and try to give season 8 some kind of chance before I really give up on the show altogether.

I think I'm done sniveling for now and I hope I've gotten this all out of my system. This is the only place I can think to post all this crap I'm feeling right now.

JDM And Other Stuff

Wow! I just love Jeffrey Dean Morgan. He was just awesome in The Possession. I still miss seeing him on Supernatural, even though he hasn't been on since the second season. He's one of the reasons why the show was so good when it first started.  I still wish he could come back on the show just for a quick appearance or something like that. I know he's busy, but I'd still love to see him on the show again or at a Convention. 

As for Supernatural. I'm still not excited about season 8. It seems like everything I read just makes me less excited for the show to come back on. Now there is going to be another major recurring character called Naomi. I wonder how many more guest stars and recurring characters there are going to be. I can't remember if they said that Sam's love interest was a major recurring character or just a recurring character. Either she will be killed off in the first how many episodes or something else is going to happen. Because I doubt that she is going to be safe from all of Sam's enemies or maybe he doesn't have any anymore and only Dean does. It seems like in the last couple of years, Dean is the one going on about how they are putting everyone in danger around them. First it was Sam and now Dean. I don't even know why Sam would think that his new love wouldn't be in danger if he's constantly around her. She will be just used to get to Sam and Dean. Because if she stays perfectly safe from all harm, then she is not a normal human or Sam has made a deal of some kind.  As for the crushing mythology that Carver plans to get away from. It seems like he's just starting his own mythology or whatever for the show and Dean is going to be at the center of it. Not both Sam and Dean, just Dean. Next thing that will happen, Dean will probably end up with powers or something and of course, he'd use them for good, unlike Sam who used his to send demons back to hell or kill them. 

Here's what will really seal the deal for me not caring at all about season 8. If Sam's time in hell and everything that happened to him is just suddenly wiped away. Like Castiel took all his crazy, his hell memories, his soulless memories and everything away and now Sam is hunky dory normal guy with nothing special at all about him.  I'll really dislike season 8. It seems like there are going to be a whole lot of vampires and other crap like that. I can just bet, either Sam will be off screen visiting his love Amelia or injured in how many episodes and Dean will be with his new buddy Benny raising hell. I watched the promo and got a little excited and then it ended just as fast. I love how they made sure that both Sam and Dean are equal in the promo and you see Castiel. Why is that? To get all the fans excited. I bet Castiel fans will get disappointed especially if Castiel is only in flashbacks of Purgatory. And I know as a Sam fan, that I'll be disappointed if all of Sam's story is just his new love. I actually wish season 8 was only 16 episodes because then maybe they'd be about Sam and Dean and not a ton of guest stars.  A longer season doesn't mean a better one. It just means that Jared and Jensen will want more time off and that means more guest stars and less time they will be on the screen together.  I don't know what's going to happen and I'm really hoping I'm wrong about things. I'm just getting sick of getting excited for something I think I'm going to get and then being crapped on yet again. That's happened since the fourth season. 

I saw a new promo for Gossip Girl and I can't wait, but it's sad because I know as soon as the show starts it will be the end. I wish it could have been a full season at least. I saw a cute promo for Once Upon A Time and I really can't wait. I can't wait to see what's going to happen now that magic has come. The writers of Once Upon A Time just keep surprising me and I love it. I haven't seen many spoilers for Vampire Diaries or any promos. I guess I haven't been looking at them. I just know the show is going to be great and I'll love it. They have a stellar cast and great writers and I can't wait to find out what happens with all the characters. 

Done now. 

Supernatural season 8: Thoughts and Predictions

Here's some of my thoughts on season 8 after I just read another Jeremy Carver interview. Either Carver is purposely trying to confuse fans or he doesn't know what he's got planned. I've read so many conflicting things that it's getting ridiculous already. Carver says that Sam and Dean are going to be central to the storyline, but then Dean is going to have a story arc that is totally separate from Sam. Like Dean hasn't had how many of those already. His whole relationship with Castiel in season four was mostly separate from Sam. Just like Sam's relationship with Ruby was separate. The only difference, we saw Dean and Castiel on screen and Sam and Ruby were off screen. Carver says he's taking away the crushing mythology, but the show is going to go back to angels and demons again. Plus more vampires. I wonder why there are going to be vampires. Maybe because vampires are popular right now, so of course Dean's new buddy Benny is going to be a vampire. I'm sure he'll be a good vampire because he helped save Dean and he's buddies with Dean.

Yes, Sam and Dean are going to be what it's all about, even though I've seen how many spoilers with how many characters coming. Season 8 looks like it's going to be cluttered with a bunch of guest stars. There's Crowley, Kevin, Benny, Amelia and Castiel for starters and they are recurring characters. Garth is coming back for one episode so far. Then there are a bunch of other guest stars. I've read the episode titles and they sound stupid so far. Two of them with Kevin in them. I wonder what they'll be about? Probably Kevin.

I will not have any faith in Jeremy Carver until he proves that Sam is a main character on Supernatural and we actually get to see Sam's storyline played out on screen and not off. Then maybe I'll say he's done something. I love how most Supernatural fans hated Dawn Ostroff when she was in charge of The CW and frankly the network and shows were better when she was in charge.  Now that a man is in charge and says he loves Supernatural, they love him and think he's done more for the show than Dawn. I'd love to know what. Dawn renewed the show every year and all she got was hate from them, but everyone wants to send letters thanking the man for renewing the show. Sera Gamble was the show runner for season 6 and 7 and the show was crap according to how many fans, but now that a guy will be in charge, that means the show will be great again. And how many of those fans hated CW and other shows and now they say they love the shows on right now.Obviously, most of the fans think a woman's place is underneath a man and a woman can't do anything right. Only a man can. Sera Gamble did a great job for 7 years on the show and all she got was hate, but then so did Kripke. I guess neither of them knew how to write for Sam and Dean, even though they were doing it from the start and Kripke created them. Only Jeremy Carver knows how to write them.

Now on to my predictions. Here are a few of them.

1. I could bet money that Bobby will return from the dead. Either an angel or a demon will bring him back to life with a new body and everything. Adam and Gramps were brought back to life and I bet Bobby will come back as well.

2. I bet season 8 will be just like season 4 and 6. It will have elements of both. It will be like season 4 because Dean will have a separate story from Sam and it will be the main thing shown above everything else. It will be like season 6 because Carver claims he's going to have how many stories going at once. That's simple all right. Season 6 had how much going on with all the characters. How many fans said they were confused because the show was so cluttered?

3. I don't even have to predict this one. Sam will be the least of all the characters on the show. We'll see all of their emotions, hear all their thoughts and problems and whatever and Sam will be there to comfort them or whatever.

4. I bet there will be how many episodes that focus more on guest stars than Sam and Dean. How many fans just loved the computer hacker episode and that was about her and not them? I can see more crap like that in the future.

5. I predict Sam will have sex again on screen and probably how many times. It seems every other year, you see him doing the deed.

6. Last but not least of the predictions. Dean will save the day as always and be the perfect saint and righteous man he's always been. Every character will revolve totally around him since that's what's happened since the second season.

I do hope my predictions are wrong, but I do believe some will be right on. I won't believe or support Jeremy Carver until I see something different and Sam being treated like a main star and not a guest star on the show. I'm hoping for the best, but I'm not going to hang my hopes on anything.

I was getting depressed again and then I have to tell myself to stop. I know I'll get excited the closer it gets to the season premiere. Not too excited because I've been crapped on before and I'm sure it will happen in this season as well as the last four. I just want to be entertained by the show. If I get something out of it, then it will be worth watching. I have gotten something for the last 7 years.  But if all I get is nothing, then it's not worth my time sniveling over it. Even though, I'm sure I will. I'm an addict and obsessed with this show and I have been for 7 years. I want to kick the habit, but all addictions are hard to kick.

AGT Semi-Finals

I've really loved the last two AGT's. So much talent and all the acts were great. I like some of them more than others. I'd really love to watch how many of them in a show in Vegas. I love all the variety. My favorite are the singers because I really love music and songs. Edon and Andrew De Leon are my two favorites of the whole competition. I hope one of them makes it to the finals. I didn't really care for Howard Stern and his opinions on the acts because I think he's biased towards some of them. He's sure not like Piers. I liked Howard until the last couple of shows. When he picked that Horse guy for one of his wild cards picks, that told me what he liked. Being kicked in the balls multiple times is not a talent, it's stupidity. Even though Andrew may be raw and he hasn't had a lot of training for his voice, that's what I love about him. His voice sounds beautiful and he sang Ave Maria better than Jackie Evanko. I wanted to puke listening to her sing that song. She had tons of voice lessons and what have you. Sure she had a good voice, but not much passion to go with it. I didn't feel anything listening to her sing. I do feel something when Andrew sings and that's why I voted for him. Even if he doesn't make it through, at least I got to watch and hear him three times.

Louden Swain, Brian Buckley Band & Video, John Passarella & other book stuff and whatever

It's been a while since I last posted. I've either been too busy or too lazy to post on here. I recently bought Louden Swain's album Eskimo. I just love it. I now have two of their albums and I love them both. I listen to them at work and I laugh and feel good listening to the songs. Rob Benedict is awesome and he has such a wonderful voice. I'm glad that Rob was on Supernatural because otherwise I would never have known about his band. I got to see them perform at two conventions and I loved them both times and I hope to see them again.

Now on to Brian Buckley. I love their video I Am Human with Jared and Genevieve. I love the song and of course I love Jared and Gen. I'm so grateful to Jared for introducing me to such a wonderful band. I have both of their albums on my player and I listen to them at work as well. Even when I put on shuffle, their songs come up a lot. I loved seeing them perform last year at the L.A. Con and I hope to see them on stage somewhere again and hopefully at another Con.

I love John Passarella for writing another great Supernatural book called Rite Of Passage. His book was better than how many of the season 7 episodes. I loved the story and I loved that he had Sam seeing Lucifer and Dean worried about Sam. That's something I hardly ever saw in season 7 after the third episode. It's like Dean almost didn't give a crap if Sam was alright or not or what was happening to him. Especially when Sam wasn't sleeping and he kept telling Dean that he saw Lucifer and Dean should have known that Sam couldn't handle it anymore and found help sooner. Whatever. John is awesome and I hope that he can write another Supernatural book. He's written my favorite two so far.

I just got released from work again on Friday. I've been reading and reading. I love to read and that's what I'm going to do until I get called back. I've stopped worrying about idiots and what's going to happen in season 8 of Supernatural. I did go looking at some new Supernatural merchandise. I might get a new shirt with Sam, Dean and Castiel on it. I still don't know about the calendars. I wish there still was just a Sam one. Who knows what the pictures will be in the two they have? Probably tons of Dean, Castiel and Bobby. Seeing how most of the fandom love just those three. Whatever. I love Jared and I could give two craps less about what idiots think of him or of his character Sam. Sometimes I still wish they would kill Sam off so that Jared could go do a movie or something. I'd love that. Jared probably doesn't care because he's making money whether his character of Sam is on the show a lot or hardly at all. I love Jared and I hope he gets as much time off as he wants this season. If he's not in an episode a lot, then I'm just not going to watch it. Simple as that. I like the other characters, but if they're not doing anything interesting, I get bored. I get sick of Dean sniveling all the time as well. That's probably when the show has really been at it's most boring.

Whatever happens come season 8, I'll always love the show and the previous seasons. If I don't care for season 8, who cares. Hopefully some of the Dean and Castiel snivelers will get what they want. I have no hopes for Sam or that he'll get any decent kind of storyline, but you never know. I'll be happy if Sam gets anything at all.  I still think it's certain fans who dictate what will happen next on the show. I know that CW looks at all that crap fans are writing on Facebook, Twitter and other social sites and makes sure that they get what they want. I've seen it happen. I read all the crap idiots write on Facebook. Most of the stuff they write doesn't even pertain to what's posted. I've been ignoring most of the crap right now. I'm going to enjoy the time before the season starts. Nothing of what I've been thinking about will ever happen, but at least I can dream about it happening. Or it will happen in my dreams. No one else will ever know what I'm thinking because I'm not going to write it down. I'd really be surprised if anything I've thought about, happened on the show.

Done for now and who knows when I'll post again.

Rocky Shores And Shopping

I had a lot of fun this last weekend. On Sat. I went to The Hogle Zoo with my oldest sister. The Zoo has really been making a lot of improvements and I love it. The new Rocky Shores is awesome and it's great for the animals and the people. I'd rather the animals be out in the wild, but one day there will be no more wild places or anywhere for them to live. At least the enclosures are big and the animals can roam around and play in them. I remember the old enclosures and they were horrible. There was a tiny little pool for the bears and polar bears in their enclosures. And now they have a lot of water and land and you can view them from all over. There are seals and sea otters as well and they have nice areas. The Zoo costs more now, but it's well worth the money. I'd pay even more if the animals profit from it.

After the Zoo we went to the new City Creek Mall. It's a beautiful mall and it's inside and outside. It has a waterfall and ponds and other stuff like that. It's too bad it doesn't have any stores that I'd shop at. It's nice to visit and walk around, but that's it. After we went there we went to The Gateway. I love The Gateway because it has a few stores I can shop at. It also has a big movie theater and the planetarium. I found my Comic Con magazine with Supernatural at the Barnes & Noble there. I didn't think I would even be able to find a copy. We went to go see The Campaign. That movie was a scream and I laughed so hard it hurt at some parts. After the movie, I wanted to get a picture with the movie promo stuff and my camera was dead. That sucked. My feet were killing me after walking all over the place, but it was a good kind of hurt.

The next day my sister and I and her grandkids went to The Lagoon. That was fun and now I've been there about five or six times this year. I love riding the rides, but it sure hurts after. We got soaked on Rattlesnake Rapids. I haven't rode it for years and it was fun going on it again.

It was nice to spend a couple of days doing things I enjoy and not stressing out about other things that I'd rather not think about anymore. That's all for now.

The Winchesters Were Supernatural

I watched a music video someone made and it made me so sad. I remember when I first started watching Supernatural. I loved it because of The Winchesters. Not just Sam and Dean, but John and Mary as well. That's what made the whole show. It was about a family. No one else will ever be included in that family for me. Not Bobby, Castiel, Adam or anyone else. The real family of Supernatural will always be four Winchesters. It's sad that now Jared and Jensen don't even know what Supernatural is about. Once I was able to tell people it was about two brothers hunting and saving people. Now I don't know what to tell people about my favorite show. I can't even find words.

I wish Supernatural would have kept the storyline going about the YED until the end. The whole reason John, Dean and Sam were hunting was because of what happened to Mary. I think that's why I loved the first two seasons because it was about that and that only. After that, everything changed. Now, when I watch the show, I wonder why Sam and Dean are even hunting anymore. Their one reason to hunt for 20 years was to find the demon who killed Mary and to help other people. I didn't like how in the fourth season, Sam and Dean were the ones that started the apocalypse with help from the angels and demons. Sure most fans just think it was all Sam and Sam only that started the apocalypse. Then season 5 was about stopping the apocalypse. Season 6 was the aftermath and Castiel bringing purgatory monsters here. Season 7 was about stopping the purgatory monsters. Now season 8 is going to be about some quest. I just wish Supernatural would have been like Smallville. I knew that was going to be the end of Smallville when Clark became Superman and flew. I wish the end of Supernatural would have been Sam and Dean finally killing the YED instead of all the goofy stuff that's gone on. I could have watched Sam and Dean just going on simple hunts for the last 7 years and loved it. I would have loved seeing more urban legends and stuff like that. Instead we got angels, demons and Dick.

Most of the time I can't even go back and watch the first two seasons because then I can't watch later seasons or I get mad about stuff. It's like after season 3, the show is like a new show every season that I have to get used to watching and Sam and Dean are like new characters every season. I love how some fans say Sam and Dean need to change and grow. They were grown men when the show first started  and they were living separate lives apart from each other. They've changed, but not that much, especially Dean.

I don't know what season 8 is going to bring, but I know that I'll probably have to get used to watching new versions of Sam and Dean yet again. Not characters that have changed and grown with their experiences, but totally new characters that I don't recognize sometimes. I'm still not excited about season 8. Just hearing about all those flashbacks and some stupid quest does not get me excited. I could care less what went on with Dean in purgatory and hopefully Sam did more than just finding a woman. I'm been thinking about some  stuff and hoping and wishing to see certain things, but I have to stop myself and tell myself they'll never happen except for in my own head. I'm just hoping for a few good episodes in season 8.  I guess I'll hope for something good until the bitter end of the show.

Supernatural Compared To Vampire Diaries And More

I just had to have this pic of Jared for this post. He still is the main reason I still watch Supernatural.

Okay, I've been watching Vampire Diaries lately and thinking about both shows while doing it. Which show is better? I actually think that Vampire Diaries has been the better show for the last two years. I'm addicted and obsessed with Supernatural so that I usually excuse what happens on it. I think Vampire Diaries has better producers, writers and directors. And how many of them are women. It's funny that fans of Supernatural want emotion from Sam and Dean, but who's always writing the show. Men. Sera Gamble seemed to be the last woman and now she's gone as well. I wonder if Supernatural will even have any women writers write any of season 8 at all. Maybe that's why there is a lot of Sam and Dean together, but there is zero emotions between them anymore.

Vampire Diaries has rich characters and you see all their stories on screen and played out there. While on Supernatural, you see Dean's struggles and conflicts, but hardly any of Sam's. VD has a bigger cast and they somehow manage to tell all the characters stories and I feel for all the characters. While on Supernatural there are two main characters and lately I feel nothing for either of them. Sam's whole story and struggles are mainly off screen. By the time they do hit the screen, it's like who cares anymore and then they are usually minimized by other guest stars. I used to love Bobby, but I stopped loving him when he ended up being a spirit and I saw every emotion he ever had, but nothing of Sam. I would probably care about other characters on Supernatural if I could only see some of Sam's emotions, struggles and story line on the screen instead of off where I have to make up what I think has happened to Sam or what he's going through. You don't hardly ever get to see it on screen, so most of the time, Sam is just a one dimensional character that basically has zero emotions or it comes across like that.

Now back to Bobby. I hate how the writers tried to turn him into Sam and Dean's father and that they had some loving bond between them and Bobby had always been there for them when they were little and when they got older. Almost like John didn't exist or never cared or loved his sons. There isn't one scene between Bobby, Sam and Dean that holds a candle to the scene where Sam and Dean saw John in Shadow. The hug Dean gave John and then the tears in John and Sam's eyes when they looked at each other and then hugged.
The last real time I felt like crying was when Sam was talking to the young version of John and telling him that he loved him. Otherwise I haven't felt like crying at any scenes I've seen. I laugh more than I feel anything for Sam and Dean.

Almost all the characters of VD are supernatural in some way. There are vampires, werewolves, witches and hunters. They don't have to be human to make me feel for their characters. I felt more for Sam in Supernatural in the first five seasons because there was something Supernatural about him. He was psychic and he had powers and felt like a freak and an outsider. Now, he's just supposed to be a regular human being and nothing more. Dean went from a character I loved to a whining and sniveling baby. It's like they constantly shoved his emotions and feelings in your face all the time. Like you should feel sorry for him, but not Sam. The more the writers did that, the less I loved Dean.

I've been reading just a few spoilers for both shows and I'm more excited reading what's coming up for VD than for Supernatural. Who the hell wants to see more new characters on Supernatural? I wish they'd bring back some of the good older ones instead like Jodie Mills. Instead they'll probably bring back computer hacker. That had to be the worst episode of the show ever. You might as well have called it something else besides Supernatural for one episode. It was like the Felicia Day and Charlie Show and Sam and Dean were like guest stars on their own show. I like guest stars, but they should never be the main focus of a show with the main characters in the background revolving around them. I want Sam and Dean and the guest stars revolving around their story instead.

I'm so happy I went back to work on Monday and I haven't had time to read much or even get involved in the insanity of the Supernatural Fandom. How many idiots have Sam practically married to his new love interest? Like they are just going to get together and get married and settle down somewhere and Sam will occasionally go hunting with Dean. Or they think Supernatural is a show like Charmed or Buffy where the characters live in one place and can have a working relationship with someone. Sam and Dean are always on the road going from place to place, so if they have a love interest or girlfriend, then they either will have to deal with them always being gone or go riding around with them.
I've been thinking about Sam's love interest and wondering if she's mainly going to be in flashbacks. Maybe Sam was with her when Dean was in purgatory and things didn't go that smoothly and then he sees her again when Dean gets back and she calls Sam up for help. Nothing is ever what it seems when it comes to what will happen. Maybe Sam will just meet her in episode 3 and then I still don't know how he'll have any kind of lasting loving relationship with her. Or like I said before. She could just be there so Sam can have someone to have sex with. Or maybe she's going to start out being a friend and get close to Sam and it becomes more or it was more and they ended it. Who knows?

I'm sure I'll be watching Supernatural when it comes back on in Oct and I'll get more excited for the Vegas Con when it gets closer. I am happy and relieved I got my J & J photo op and I want to get a Jared solo as well. I just get depressed about what's going to happen next on the show. I'm not excited for season 8 yet either. I haven't read anything that has got me even excited or happy about what could happen. It could end up that I love season 8 and it's one of the best or it could end up being my least favorite. Hopefully, I will not be lied to about good and exciting things coming up for Sam's character only to be disappointed again like season 7. I really thought that Sam was finally going to have his story played out on screen instead of off and I only got a few good scenes and that was it and then Sam pressed on his hand, but never knew what was  really happening to him or what he was feeling. Sam was more worried about Dean and it seemed Dean didn't even give a crap what was happening to Sam the whole time. Dean just thought Sam should press on some scar like it was magic and it made everything go away. I guess it did. It made Sam's whole story go away.

I'm going to keep staying away from message boards and other crazy fans out there. Not all of them are crazy, but some are nutty. I think some Supernatural fans like to bitch and treat other fans like crap more than they like to watch the show. I think some of them don't even watch the show that much and make crap up in their heads or they read fan fiction and then think that's what happened instead of what really happened. I think when I stay away from the extreme and crazy fans out there, I'm happier and the show is better when I watch it without thinking of what others have said about it.

I Don't Know

I really don't know whether I will be watching Supernatural come Oct. or not. I've been disappointed in the show so many times that I've lost count already. I've been waiting and waiting for something good to come for Sam's character and I'm still waiting. I'm sorry, but as far as I'm concerned, I'm not interested in Sam having a love interest. It was bad enough that they took his storyline last season away and gave it to Castiel at the end of the season. I bet Sam will just be wonderful and happy and forget that he ever went to hell or anything that's ever happened to him. If Sam is just some ordinary human and that's all, then I don't really care about his character anymore. I loved that Sam had some mystery to him and I always wondered if he was something more than human, but it looks like he's not.

I'm not even looking forward to season 8 at all. I'm betting that it is going to be just like season 4. With Sam and his new love interest mainly off screen and Dean the hero and his lover Castiel on screen. I still don't give a crap what happens to either of them in Purgatory. I guess I'm just like the Dean fans who didn't give a crap about what happened to Sam in hell and they thought his story was boring. Well, I think Dean's time in Purgatory is going to be boring and I'm sure when he comes back from there, it will probably be like when he came back from Hell. The same thing again with him sniveling and whining about how he went to Purgatory and no one else can understand what he went through.

As for Jeremy Carver being the show runner. I have zero faith in him and I wish that I could be happy about him taking over, but I'm not. He did write my very favorite episode Mystery Spot and he wrote a couple other episodes I loved. On the other hand in season 4 all the episodes he wrote were my least favorite. He totally wrote Sam right out of In The Beginning and there was no reason to. Jared didn't ask for time off. I liked The Rapture, but when it first came on, I did not. It seems like he had Castiel in almost every episode he wrote after season 3. I hope I'm wrong and other fans are right and I'm sure other fans will be happy with him because they're going to get tons of Dean and Castiel and they know it. I'm hoping they'll be happy. I just know I won't be happy if all Sam gets is some stupid love interest. Some fans think they are going to get some insight into Sam's character with this new love interest around. It's more likely that they'll get more insight to this new character than Sam. Sam will probably be comforting her and not the other way around.
I don't know what's going to happen, but I'm just not excited and I'm really disappointed.

I'm going to stay away from other fans and not read new spoilers or even look at all that Comic Con crap. I don't even want to hear what Jared is going to say about the new love interest because of course, he'll say it's  great and he's happy about it. He always says he loves everything coming up for his character.

I've even lost interest in the books and the Con in Vegas. Part of me even wishes I had never even gotten a gold ticket or bought my J & J photo op. I saw the new calendar and I haven't even ordered one and I might not. I don't even want to go on message boards and talk about it anymore. Maybe I will in the future, but I'm just really depressed about it right now. I don't even want to hope that the new season will have 10 episodes that I'll watch and like. Now I might not even care about any of them. I doubt there is ever going to be a really good Sam episode again. There hasn't been one for so long, so why even torture myself wishing for something that will never be. I know I'm stupid and I'll probably keep hoping like some dumb ass for anything good to happen.

Okay, I think I'm done sniveling about this and I hope I don't snivel again. I hope I got it all out of my system.

Will Vampire Diaries Season 4 Be As Great As The First 3?

I can't wait for season 4 of Vampire Diaries. This will be the test of the show for me. Usually shows start sliding after their 3rd season. I wasn't that impressed when the show first started and I sometimes missed a few episodes. I always caught them on the repeat, but this was not a must see show yet for me. Then after season 1 was over, I was riveted to my set. The show just got better and better. The surprises and shocks just kept coming and I never knew what would happen next. Vampire Diaries is an awesome show with an equally awesome cast. I love all the characters and I don't think I've never not liked any of them. The love triangle between Damon, Elena and Stephan just gets better and better and now that Elena is a vampire, I'm sure it will heat up even more. I wondered when Elena would end up being a vampire because she became one in the books.

I hope we haven't seen the last of  The Originals because I loved them and they just added so much to the show. A lot of characters have already come and gone on the show and I'm sure they'll be even more new ones coming. I hope I love them just as much as the ones that are gone now. I love the relationship between Stephan and Damon because it's like a love hate thing and it's compelling to watch. At least they have something to fight about, not like Sam and Dean from Supernatural who should have nothing to fight about. Katherine came between them in the past and now Elena is coming between them in the present. I love it. Nina does such a wonderful job of playing two separate characters.

It's going to be such a long wait until Oct. but I've still got one more book to read of Stephan's Diaries. I'll have to savor it a little or go back and re-read the other books again.

Sam's New Love Interest

Sam is getting a new love interest on Supernatural or more like a new sex interest. I was just thinking about the past seasons on the show and it seems like every other year Sam has sex. Now it's time for him to have sex again. He didn't get any last year and he didn't even get to spend hardly any time with any women. 

I love how they say this will be Sam's first recurring love interest since Ruby. Did Sam love Ruby? He must have if she was his love interest in season 4. It's more like she was his sex partner and blood donor. And that's about it. 

I can't picture Sam becoming close to anyone because of all he's been through. I can just imagine if this new love interest finds out that Sam drank demon blood and had sex with a demon and a werewolf. And how about Sam telling her that he spent over a year in hell while his body was running around doing whatever while he was there. Then when he came back, Death put up a wall to keep all his Hell memories from him and an Angel torn down the wall and Sam was seeing Lucifer for almost a year. Yes, I'm sure this love interest would think Sam was a real catch. Plus Sam hunts demons, monsters and all kinds of creatures and anyone around him is always at risk of being killed. And if she never finds that out about Sam, then she really won't know him at all. Or Sam never tells her and he'll be lying to her.

I've been laughing reading some of those comments and posts on certain sites about this new love interest. Who knows how many episodes she will be in and at this point, she's only an interest. Recurring could mean she's in half the season or only 2 episodes. I can't picture Sam falling in love with her and moving in with her and then going out on the road with Dean. Or her tagging along with them on hunts. I can't believe the fans who actually think Sam can just have some normal relationship with a woman or anyone and that she's just going to be around all the time. Even Lisa wasn't on that much in season 6. After the third episode, Dean went back to hunting and she was basically history for a long while until the end of the season. Then of course, she was possessed and her and Ben's lives were in danger and Dean realized he couldn't live in two different worlds and that they would always be in danger. Shocker. If Sam doesn't realize getting involved with someone is going to put them in danger, then I give up. The only way I could ever see Sam having some normal relationship is if he gets beaten on the head really hard and forgets who he is or he goes completely whacko and doesn't care because he's crazy. 

I love spoilers as well because they just come out to stir up the pot and make fans crazy. Fans think all kinds of stuff and usually it's nothing like they thought it would be. I remember reading all the crap spoilers for the last couple of years and nothing was like I thought it would be. All those interviews I watched and listened to basically told nothing about what would really happen. I bet after ComicCon, fans will really go crazy and think all kinds of stuff. 

I'm so glad that I don't read very many spoilers for The Vampire Diaries or any of my other shows. I'm not obsessed with them like Supernatural, so I can love them more. Supernatural is at the top of my list for the show I'm most obsessed and addicted to. I try to quit, but I always fail and fall off the wagon. I've had Supernatural in my video or DVD player now for the last 7 years. I re-watch episodes constantly. I try to watch other shows instead, but somehow I always end up watching Supernatural again. And then Jared always manages to suck me back into the show because I love him and he's the main reason I started to watch in the first place. Even though his character mostly gets treated like crap, I love watching his wonderful acting when he does get something good like when he was soulless Sam or Lucifer. That was acting at it's finest and Jared deserves more credit than he's gotten for all he's done. 

I'm in a writing mood and this is what I wish would happen with Sam. I wish Sam would go completely crazy and at the beginning of season 8, he gets all the stuff back that Castiel took from him and he remembers Hell again. I'd love for him to be hallucinating and seeing Dean and Bobby, but they're really not there and he thinks they are still alive and with him. I'd love for him to have a complete mental breakdown and that new love interest be his shrink or something like that. Now that would be fun to watch. If Sam is just perfectly normal and working cases while Dean is in Purgatory, then I really don't understand this show at all.  Look what happened to Sam when Dean went to hell and that was before all the crap happened to Sam. How much has happened to both Sam and Dean since? I don't know how Sam would ever be able to cope. Sure he's coped with a lot, but he has no one this time around. No Bobby, no Ruby, no powers or anything.
I doubt Sam will just be okay and if he is, then I will totally give up already.  

It's funny that most of the time when I watch Supernatural, I mainly watch it for a good laugh. The last two seasons have been so funny and how many times I laughed so hard at certain episodes that it hurt. A lot of the time, I can't even take the show seriously. I hope they don't make the show too serious now and try to make it more dramatic. I don't think they can go back to that. 

I think I'm finished writing for now. I just needed to write and type what I've been thinking and this is my favorite place to do it. 

Craziness, Spam and Other Crap

I can't believe the craziness of today. I went and clicked on a stupid spam message that I was sent. I should have known there was something wrong with it. Who would be spreading rumours about me? No one even knows me on the Internet or in real life for that matter. If someone did spread rumours, they would just be lies. I think I got distracted reading and laughing at all those tweets about Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes and I was talking to my sister on the phone as well. I was dumb and the spam got me. I don't think I've ever really saw spam like that on my own accounts. I need to be more careful, especially on Twitter. I was going to not go on Twitter for a while, but I love it and those crazy tweets. They make me laugh and smile. Now some of those posts on Facebook make more sense and some stuff I've seen on other sites. 

I'm sad about Supernatural fans because I seriously doubt everyone is going to be happy when the new season starts in Oct. I hope most of them are happy with the show. I'm actually not joking about going to bed if the show is boring and I'm tired. I will, but I'll probably watch it online just to see what happened. If I don't like what's going on in the show, then I won't watch it and I'll turn it off. I'm not going to get mad and go crazy or be sad about it. There's no point in making myself unhappy. I did that with Buffy how many years ago and The O.C and other shows.

I also hope that if Jared and Jensen need time off during the filming of season 8, that the writers bring back some old characters instead of creating new stupid ones. I'd rather watch an episode of Jodie Mills than another episode about a computer hacker. Or bring back young John and Mary and have another episode about the young Winchesters. I want to see supernatural in Supernatural again. I don't care if Sam and Dean are together or apart. I just want good stories. And if Dean and Castiel are together then I at least want to watch them fighting something or doing something besides going to some whorehouse and drinking booze. 

I also hope Bobby stays dead this time and does not come back. That really will be the end of me liking Bobby in any way, if he comes back yet again. If he has to come back, then I hope it's in someone's memory or something like that. 

Simon & Simon

I just started to watch Simon & Simon again on Hulu. I have the first season on DVD and I'm probably going to go and dig it up and start watching, but I've been watching some episodes from season 3. I love A.J. and Rick and they're my favorite TV brothers of all time. I love how they teased each other, but it was all in good fun. I love how Rick would always protect and take care of A.J. It didn't matter how old they were, Rick always looked after his little brother. Rick would kick some major ass if anything happened to A.J. and I love watching that. I wish it was the same way on Supernatural with Sam and Dean, but that ended after the third season. Now Dean treats Sam, not like a little brother he has to protect, but as some kind of monster. I love watching all these old shows from when I was a kid and a teenager. I really miss them. TV was great back in the past. I bought The Six Million Dollar Man to watch as well. I love seeing all that old stuff like medical equipment and vending machines. And the best part of all was that there were no cellphones. Also, all the shows were clean and decent. I can just imagine if some of these shows were on today. I bet the Six Million Dollar Man would have a bionic you know what. I'm going to spend the summer watching old shows and movies and not worry about anything else.

America's Got Talent 2012

So far I'm loving AGT this season. I still miss Piers Morgan. I miss his wonderful smile and his cute laugh. I also miss that disgusted look he'd give to all the crappy acts. I'm warming up to Howard Stern and he's actually done some pretty funny stuff that's had me laughing. I've already picked the person I'm going to be rooting for and I hope he makes it into the finals. Some of those acts this season have been a real laugh riot. I loved that old guy and his rapping to a casio player. I'm glad AGT is on because CW has turned into crap for the summer. I can't even watch repeats of some of the shows because they're showing new crap that sucks. I'll only be watching three shows when the new season starts in the fall on the CW. Tyra Banks killed Top Model for me when she got rid of Mr. Jay and Nigel Barker. Gossip Girl will be a short season and after that I'll only have two shows. Hopefully Vampire Diaries and Supernatural are good because if they're not, then I won't be watching much TV. I'll still have Once Upon A Time and I guess I'll have to go looking for something new to watch.

Supernatural Season 8 And Will I Watch Or Not

I've been thinking about season 8 and wondering if I'm even going to bother watching it. I'm tired of Sam just being there to help and support Dean all the time. If season 8 is all about poor Dean and his sniveling about Purgatory, then I don't want to watch that. I'm so tired of Dean already that it's not even funny. It gets boring year after year watching Dean whining and sniveling about his life. If Sam has no storyline beyond Dean, then I will not watch because I'm tired of Sam being Dean's doormat. I'm tired of Sam never getting any kind of storyline of his own and when he does get one, it disappears how fast or ends up being off screen. I want Sam to have someone he can be close to besides Dean and I want Dean to stop being such a bitch and actually let Sam have a relationship with anyone besides him. I love how Dean can be friends with demons, monsters, other hunters, women or whoever and Sam better leave him alone, but Sam can't be friends with anyone because to Dean that's a betrayal or something. I don't care what happens to Dean and Castiel in Purgatory. They can kiss each others asses if they want to at this point and I could care less. I also don't care if Sam and Dean are together because I hate how Dean treats Sam and I don't think he loves him like a brother at all. Dean treats Castiel more like a brother than he does Sam. Dean treats Sam like he's a job and a responsiblity and that's all. Like Dean is responsible for Sam and if Sam goes nuts or evil, then Dean's job is to stop or kill him. If the show actually has good stories and interesting characters to watch, then maybe I'll tune in to see them and watch how they interact with Sam and Dean even. I just want to be entertained and the last 4 out of 5 episodes did not entertain me. I was bored watching them and one of them, I almost turned off. I love all the stupid wish lists out there for both Sam and Dean for season 8. How many of those fans won't get what they want and they'll say the show is stupid and they hate it? I just know that I won't watch anymore if Sam is still treated like an extra or a supporting cast member instead of one of the leads of the show. I love Jared and that's one of the only reasons I'll even give season 8 a chance. If the show is still boring and stale and all Dean and Castiel, then it will be over.