It's been a while since I've posted because I've just been too lazy and too sick to. I wanted to post right away about the end of Gossip Girl, but I didn't feel good. I'm really going to miss this show being on every Monday night. The finale was awesome. I couldn't have asked for a better ending to such a great show. I've loved this show since it first started and I never missed one episode. I will keep watching my DVD's for a long time because I can see it all again. I'm so happy that they made sure to have Jenny and Eric be in the finale. I've missed them for the last couple of years. Chuck and Blair will now be forever and I love that. I knew they'd end up together when the show ended. I was well rewarded for all my loyalty to this show.
I love all my shows because they've really helped me when I've been depressed. I watch all the characters and I actually never wish I was any of them, but it would be nice sometimes to live in their worlds for a brief time. I'd never want to stay longer than a couple of hours though. TV characters sure have more problems than normal people, but on the other hand, a lot of them have more people who love them and are there for them than real people do. It's nice to wish yourself into TV land and stay there just to forget your problems for a while.
I've seen the end of how many shows now that I love. Smallville, One Tree Hill and now Gossip Girl. I've loved these shows for years. I love Supernatural, but I don't think it's going to end like any of these shows. I'm actually scared about how it will end. I want to love the show until it ends, but it's getting very hard to do so right now. I was never obsessed with any of my other shows like I have been with Supernatural. I think my obsession is over now though and I still love it, but not as much as the earlier seasons. I've been watching the Christmas episode how many times and I realize how different the show really is now. Dean actually used to love and care about Sam and now I feel like he could care less what happens to Sam. Sam cares and loves Dean, but Dean acts like Sam doesn't give a crap about him. I don't know what Sam could possibly do to make Dean realize how much he cares about him. Nothing I guess. As I was watching the Christmas episode and Sam giving Dean that amulet, I thought about something. Why did Sam give Dean the amulet? Because he knew he could always count on Dean and that Dean was there for him. Maybe that's why Dean threw the amulet in the trash because he knew that Sam would not be able to count on him anymore. It was more about how Dean felt and not how he felt about Sam and that's why he threw it away. I hate fans who think Sam should have pulled it out of the trash and tried to give it to Dean again, when Dean clearly didn't want it anymore. It would be really funny if Kevin finds out that the amulet is important to closing the gates of hell or whatever and Dean then realizes he threw it away and they have no idea where it is, but they need it.
Part of me no longer gives a crap about Dean or what he even thinks of Sam. Dean seems to only worry about what he needs or wants and could care less what Sam wants or needs. To me, that is selfish. It's funny that fans think Dean is the poor injured party and that Dean isn't selfish for not even caring what went on with Sam while he was in Purgatory. It's not like Sam went to Purgatory himself and then just found a way out and left Dean there. It's not Sam's fault that Dean had to be the big hero and kill Dick and end up in Purgatory. I read how much crap and can't even believe what I'm reading. It's still the same. Dean is always right and anyone he wants to be friends or family with is great and Sam is always wrong and anyone he even talks to is evil or horrible and how dare he choose or be with anyone other than Dean. Dean can choose angels, vampires or anyone over Sam and it's great and he's a wonderful loving brother to Sam. That's utter and complete crap. It's funny because I think a lot of Dean fans are hypocrites just like Dean. I stay far away from those fans.
Wow! Long post. I guess I just needed to write for a little bit. My poor Mom is in a care facility and now she has two infections she's trying to fight. I've been praying for her. Hopefully one day her suffering will end either way. She'll either get better or God will take her home. I can't stand seeing her this way. It's very hard and I'm sure more harder for her than me.
