I went back to watch a few episodes of Supernatural from season 7 and 8. They were very interesting and I paid close attention to certain things concerning Sam and Dean's relationship.
I love how Dean basically told Sam that Benny was a better brother than Sam will ever be. Like that wasn't the biggest punch in Sam's face ever next to Dean throwing the amulet in the trash. Dean has basically tried to find another brother to replace Sam. First it was Castiel, then it was Benny. I love how in season 4, Dean whined about Sam choosing a demon over him, but Dean chose an angel over Sam. Dean believed almost everything Castiel ever told and Castiel was busy deceiving him. Castiel let Sam out of the panic room, but Dean thinks Sam made a choice on his own to go off with Ruby and start the apocalypse. I love how Castiel has never taken any blame for the part he played in the apocalypse and he played a very big one by releasing Sam and letting him out of the panic room. If Castiel had never done that, then how could Sam have gotten out on his own to make the choice he did. Same as when Sam went to hell and was in the cage with Michael and Lucifer and Castiel pulled him out without his soul. It's funny that Dean never really blames Castiel for hurting Sam so much and Castiel has done it so many times. Dean just always wants to blame Sam.
I love how a lot of fans seem to think the trials to close Hell were Metatron's trick and they were not real. The angel trials Castiel was doing were not trials, but a spell. Kevin translated the tablets and they were supposed to be the word of God that Metatron wrote down and I doubt he purposely wrote down a trick with God there telling him what to write. Kevin translated the Leviathan and the Demon tablet, but he didn't get to translate all of the angel one and that's how Metatron was able to lie to Castiel and trick him. The Leviathan tablet was right and Kevin translated a lot of stuff from the demon one that he used himself and then it took him how long to translate the trials, so I hardly doubt they were not real. As to whether Sam would live or die after he finished the trials, who knows. You only had Naomi's word that Sam would die, so who knows whether he would have or not once they were finished. Dean just believed and ran off to stop Sam because he didn't have any faith in Sam or God at all. Maybe once Sam finished the trials, he would have died, but been resurrected or something. Who knows? And just the way Dean talked to Sam in that church like he was trying to talk Sam down from some drug high or something and talk Sam out of killing someone. And Dean saying all that crap about putting Sam before everything. What a joke? He just told Sam that to stop him from finishing the trials. It's like whatever it took to stop Sam, he would do.
I love how Dean keeps telling Sam that he killed Benny for him. Wow! What a sacrifice that was. Not. Dean kept Benny's bones to leave the door open for him. Meaning, Dean could go to Purgatory and carry out Benny's soul and Benny would live again. So how did Dean choose Sam over Benny. Castiel has come back to life multiple times now, so Dean would never have to worry about him dying. It's funny that Benny and Castiel are both supernatural creatures, but when Sam had his powers, Dean looked at him like he was some monster, but he never looked at Castiel and Benny that way. Sam is supposed to be human and if he's something more than that, then he's a monster.
I watched The Born Again Identity and just the parts with Sam. Even when Sam was suffering, he wanted to help that girl with her dead brothers spirit. Her brother wanted her dead to be with him. It made me think about Dean. Dean wants Sam to always be with him. When Dean was in Hell and crying out for Sam, he probably wished not that Sam would save him, but that Sam would be there with him in Hell. Dean only wants Sam to be with him in the car and hunting. Misery loves company and that's all Dean wants Sam to be around for. His company. He doesn't ever listen to Sam or even care what Sam wants. Sam should only want to hunt and be with him and if he doesn't want that, then he's a bad brother.
I love how Sam was the one who was constantly being lied to for months and being possessed by an angel without his knowledge, but poor Dean is the injured party. Like who gives a crap how Sam feels about what happened to him, Dean sure didn't give a crap about what he did to Sam and about lying to him. If Dean put Sam above everything all the time, then why did he run off to go and get revenge on Gadreel. He should have stayed to make sure Sam was okay and not just physically okay, but mentally okay as well by all that happened to him. And it's not like Sam told him to get the hell away from him. He just said he was pissed and Dean left, probably because he was so full of guilt.
I love how Dean now wants to get revenge and kill Gadreel. Why? Because he killed Kevin, but how many people did he save. Gadreel saved Sam, not Dean. Dean just called out for an angel, he didn't actually save Sam in any way. Gadreel supposedly healed Sam, but did Gadreel lie about being injured in the fall or was he injured and being in Sam helped to heal him. Gadreel sure had a lot of power for an injured angel. And it's funny that Gadreel had been in Sam for how long and Sam was only getting worse until right before Gadreel killed Kevin. Gadreel saved Castiel's life and that stupid Charlie's life, but now he deserves to die because he betrayed Saint Dean. I love how Dean just trusted Gadreel. He probably trusted him more than he trusted Sam and then Dean wonders why Sam feels the way he does. Dean has trusted Castiel, Benny and now Gadreel more than he ever trusted and believed in Sam.
I've no doubt that Sam loves Dean, but maybe Sam is tired of Dean always trusting someone else over him all the time. It's not like Sam is lying to Dean all the time like Dean constantly lies to Sam.
And Dean. What does Dean want to save Sam( his rotten little brother who always lets him down and makes all the wrong choices) for? Dean just wants to save Sam because maybe he wants Sam to be as miserable as he is. Dean didn't save Sam because he loves him and doesn't want to lose the one person he loves the most. Because if Dean loved Sam, then he'd respect what Sam wants.
I watched Trial And Error where Sam said that he didn't want to die and I believe him, but he didn't want to live, if it was at the cost of other people's lives and that's something Dean does not get. Sam does not want to live knowing that other people are going to die because of him. Didn't he already feel that way when their mother died and Jessica. They died because of Sam and he has to live with that always.
I love how Dean whined about Hell and Purgatory. Like Sam left him to rot in Purgatory. Did Sam even know he was there and if he did, maybe he didn't want to make some deal with Crowley or someone else to get Dean out because it could have cost people their lives and Dean would have been pissed. at him. Dean loved torturing souls in Hell and he said Purgatory was pure. Dean loved Purgatory because he could just kill and not care about killing because it was kill or be killed. Dean turned off his emotions and didn't care.
I love how some fans, especially some Sam fans, don't seem to understand Sam. Like all Sam should ever want is to be with Dean and to hunt with him and that's all he should ever want out of his life. Like that's all his life should be is Dean and only Dean. Dean has said so much crap to put Sam down, that I can't believe that Sam would even want to be around him at all. Dean talks about free will all the time, but most of the time he doesn't seem to think Sam should have any. Or Dean guilts Sam into staying with him or whatever he wants out of Sam. Personally, I think all Dean wants is to be needed by Sam. And if Sam doesn't need him and only him, then Sam is letting him down in some way.
One more thing before I end this long post. In the last couple episodes of this season, Dean has had to save Sam, but maybe Sam hasn't been trying so hard to fight and live. Maybe he didn't care if he died or not and Dean saved him. I haven't heard him calling out for Dean like he did before. In the episode with Garth, Garth and his girlfriend were in danger, so Sam was trying to get free to help them, but in The Purge, maybe Sam didn't try all that hard because he didn't care if he died or not. And of course, Dean came along to save him and Sam never thanked him. Why? Sam didn't care if he died while Castiel was extracting that grace, so he probably still doesn't care. I could be wrong. Who knows? I sure don't. I don't know what those writers will come up with next. I just hope and pray they don't come up with crap
To end this post. Sam vs. Dean or Dean vs. Sam is mainly all in fans heads. The writers to me anyway have not made the show into this, but the fans have. I'd say mostly Dean fans that don't like Sam and never will, will always be against Sam. If Dean loved Sam so much as he says he does, then why do Dean fans hate Sam, if Dean supposedly loves him so much. And that's what Dean fans say. That Dean loves and would do anything for Sam but Sam doesn't love Dean and does nothing for him. Dean supposedly sacrifices for Sam, but I guess Sam has never sacrificed anything for Dean. What a load of crap? I think some fans will hate Sam no matter what he does. I hate Dean because he will never look at what his real problem is and it's not Sam, but himself. I watch Supernatural and Vampire Diaries and compare them and now I love comparing stars. It doesn't matter what Dean does, fans will always say he's right all the time. Even if Sam does the same thing as Dean, he will be wrong or if Dean makes some horrible choice, it will always be right. Same as with Damon on TVD. He can do no wrong no matter what he does. He can do anything and it will always be right because they love him. They actually love Ian and Jensen and some fans can't separate the actor from the fictional character. They actually think they are like their characters on TV and I think they are way way different from the characters they play.
Well that was really long, but I needed to purge again LOL
